JEFF'S WAR

I'm bored...

2012-03-27T04:21:00.003-07:00

This is alarming..and that this is the dreaded time since I got off from work..the time that I'll be bored.
I've dreamt of me being so relaxed and worry free but, afraid that it's going the other way around and that I tend to worry too much and I tend to over think as there are plenty of idle times for me to do that...oh god help me.

And siguro, I might have over done it did I?
I might have expected something more, I assumed I hoped and now Im wondering.
These past days have been yeah happy, but somehow there's this void, kinda small pa before but now feeling ko lumalaki and any moment now could sucked up the natitira hope saken. I am a lil worried and I am now not that happy, my bliss is fading I don't know why. I have to reassess more and to reflect more.
Question - I wanna know why this feel so right (or if felt right)
Are you playing the role, just like the rest?
I'm missing...I am still waiting until now...I plan to retire early for the night but I am waiting for something...
Earlier in the day, and some conversations before, I find myself hurt yet I could not say and also could not restrict him, he is happy.
Siguro I tend to cling to I thought something was there?? And right now I'm in this emotional hurricane if I'll be the one to initiate.
Again- there's a point of comparison but again - siguro lang I expected which was very natural of me. I should have asked but find myself too chicken to do that as I might be disappointed of the answer. It's terrible being me now.
Hope it'll get better soon.

This is how I'm bored..sana..sana lang!
I miss..terribly :)

HAPPY

2012-03-25T07:48:00.002-07:00

It's been really a while since I post something on my first ever blog, and I owe it to you readers (LOL, cracked on that as I don't have any) but just the same, I like reading what I have been through or what I have been feeling before so here it is.

General I am HAPPY.
Although, I might have shed some tears earlier - I think I'm still happy. And I'm loving this feeling - hope this feeling stays forever :)

These past month have been liberating and although I might have lost my job, that I had for 5 years, I quickly got over it easily. After the notice, I have gained a whole lotta great friends, I've been raving about this whoever asks me. They were the hidden gems that was out there in the open and waiting to be uncovered but dunno maybe I'm too fixated on the current that I don't notice them. But whoa, after I unearthed them - it was a great feeling, that you can be true and you and that more people can understand you and you can share with them as well. I might have difficulty explaining it all, but really the feeling was grand. More than a lottery price.

And the feeling that you have destroyed the wall that's been blocking you to see more great things beyond what is actually there on your vision. The feeling that you are extending your horizon to a much more, to much farther level to the distance that you were afraid to take before. And now you are experiencing bliss because you took that step and the brave you persevere.
I have never been a risk taker, all my life I was always on the safe side. Waiting for whatever may happen and for some time this was the case until I fully lived up to my capabilities that, again I have never explored I can do. And analysts might say that it might seem to late, but none I think could easily validate or say that's it's just right, that it's in time. :)
and another story is to face the ghost that I created, it was the bravest that I've done and to really set aside what's been restricting us to fully and freely connect. You know at times, you can really try hard, and use all your resources but if you have not put your guard down, and listen and understand you will never establish a perfect connection. But I did all that, and since then it was a breath of fresh air, it was easier, it was beautiful and lovely, there's an actual connection. And again I love it.
It was the best days of my life..Thanks God talga!

I am not promising nor will I ever carve this on a stone but I will try my best to stay because I am happy, genuinely happy and again I love this. Thanks to these opportunity, I was afraid before that I can never achieve this but I am....and unsure of where this will lead me, my thought will always hope for a bright future, I'd love that but it will take a while and that it might not happen, hopefully it will but again I'm at a place where I'm kinda contented, but if this goes up to another level that will be super great. So there..this might be cryptic but this is me and my war.

I love this, I'm happy :)

unplanned

2011-09-03T07:53:00.000-07:00

I didn't expect this day would run like this. I have a plan, made last Friday, although not a plan-plan but at least I have something to do on a Saturday. But due to the headache, as in THE Headache, it kept me inside the house and kept me off my routine. Well honestly, I don't have a lot, I'm sounding like I have go-sees or deadlines to meet but, I think you can relate if you have already a concrete map on your head for a day, then will go off. Woke up with a throbbing head, really really throbbing head. Woke up very early from the last day, well came home late as in the morning late. But I didn't have that before, I always come home early in the morning every Saturday, to wake up around noon, eat and head to the gym. Looking forward nman to a strength cardio workout as advised by my trainer but it didn't happen. I stayed home, my laptop was my loyal companion all through the day. It really kept me off balance as I am constantly checking my mails, and FB notifications and..ok here's another story.

Woke up as well woth someone calling, I can barely move to reach my phone. I think ti was just 2 minutes and stopped ringing. I texted and received no reply. 3 times I tried but to no avail. With the headache, that adds up to my misery. I can't even finish this blog.

By now, my headache is gone...and I'm watching SATC 2 LOL.

IM BOOKED HP7

2011-07-07T07:41:00.000-07:00

I can't believe that it's going to end, well at least the movies...Harry Potter that we have been following for years now, it ended with 8 movies, the last movie was split in 2 and I am so excited, yet a little sad, because we are already booked and we will be watching it, for the first time in IMAX. Honestly more expensive, but dunno, it should end with a bang I guess!Booked the first day as maluluma na kc, and we want to catch it while it's still fresh, kc me pirated na siguro on it's second day or third day..OA ryt but true..

Still getting goosebumps every time I watch the trailers although I;ve played it for more than 20 times, hehehe!

HEAVY!

2011-05-18T07:23:00.001-07:00

eavy - that's a one word that I can give out today.

Just watched a new episode of glee tonight and it brought me to tears...again...I swear. The thought of losing someone makes me weep, and tonight was about death. How in the world can I handle that. And in all fairness, from all the write ups that I've read prior to this Wednesday, it did justice. I meant they did not overkill it or overemphasize death but, the go on thru their normal loser lives and go on. I loved it.

earlier with work it was heavy as well. The pressure really creeps me up, and dunno how I still wake up and drag my self to the bathroom every morning to prepare for work when all I can have are push and commands and all that stuff. I was up for this, however I've been on this state for close to a month now. I'm not complaining, it's just that - kulang na kulang pa b, hinde pa b sapat, binigay kong lahat panahon ko sa yo. That was the killer line form Joy and Bev's song.

And got a little serious with my friend over the communicator and might have spilled so much but I'm not taking it back or anything..I just spilled all, and that made me nahihiya pag nakgita uli kami. It's all kaartehan and self inflicted but again, tis is how I'm that stubborn. If I cared that much would it be held against me?

And the killer line - Do you expect?

I'm honestly not ready for that, but I kept on shielding by again, being stubborn ass my self everything that we've been through. It's chaos, it's complicated, it's all me. Heavy.

untitled

2011-04-23T08:48:00.000-07:00

this day started a little off, as I know it was a saturday but I woke up pretty early to prep up for ahmm nothing, I'm on rest day and should be staying longer in my california king bed..taray!

But TBF (to be fair) I've pretty much executed my plans for today..laundry - I used all the sun's prowess to dry my clothes (did not like during mid day as it was veryy hott - mind the doubles).

after I ate my ahmm bfast and lunch, took a bath then head to dreamland again...u know how u felt like ur eyelids are closing themselves out of sleepyness..that's what I felt so I gave in. Duh, I love sleeping because you see in my dreams you love me..awww

I read a book - the hunger game book 1 and dozed off and suddenly awaken by the heat...Oh god, it was unbelievable and couldn't go back to sleep so I decided to eat (again) ..I cooked sinigang BTW and it was great!....and then turned on the TV to find Sarah Geronimo waiting for jOhn lloyd and waiting and I was hooked...Kakahiya man, I loved the movie and at some point cried over it, the feelingero that I was...hahahaha

The day ended with me writing on this blog...and before that having a phone conversation that could have lasted until the other day but worthwhile and always thanking him for hearing my side and nakakatiis sa mga rants ko..hahahaha Thank God for giving me besh Harky...

PS - we were texting pala Bes Cha and I ..the usuals..she just celebrated her 28th bday..we surprised her and all..hope she liked it....and as we speak she still rants on how boring her day was...Happy Easter everyone!

Prayer number 2

thank you's.....

2011-03-20T08:10:00.000-07:00

This year was a little different - I wasn't on leave during my bday, but 1 day after including weekends and one transition off for a tuesday to saturday week, so all in all 6 days but felt like 2 days..dunno. another thing was I was far off literally, Migs' rest house was faaaaar. It was like 2 hours from Lipa but then worth it as I celebrated it with my best of friends whom I dearly adorSd as they took their time to be with me. some really asked for a day off from work, some had prior engagement so sweet of them sniff sniff. I had it planned months before and finally settled to having it since Migs brought it up one time we were talking on how to celebrate my bday. It was a jackpot as I wouldn;t have to spend for the location so I took it. I'm in tears drafting this, tears of joy....

So thank you to:
Migs - for the place, for the effort. I know you have an interview for your new work hours prior to our event but you made your way and celebrated with us. Thanks for making my Janice happy.

Janice - thanks for all for putting up with me and for being always there. remember you are the only one that I got...so please remain for the mean time and let's be joyous and happy and all that...thank you so much..labyu!!

Cha - besh cha...we've been through a lot..frenemies and all but remained as close as ever..we know each other so well..thank you for being with me always..morning..afternoon..evening..twilight..and darkness and even in our lowest of our low - kahit walang pangshopping or pang SB..I so love you u know that...

Lorie - my pretty L..I know you have sacrificed this date for your other set of friends and I so love you for that...and sorry if I was being hard on you regarding this event..hehehe...ang mahalaga u were there with me, with us and ever so lovely...I love you.

Ghe - 'twas far but then you were able to make it..thank you for joining..thank you for approving Cha's VL..thank you and hope you had a good time

Bullet - your energy was unbelievable, dunno where you are getting that..thank you for taking your day off..going back to Lipa and being with us...funny funny night we had, can't imagine without you in it...

maydee - I remember the first time I told you about this event, you immediately filed for a leave and like in a day twas settled that you will come with us..thank you for your spirit and we'ff be forever friends..straight from shift - just like janice your a cowgirl and joined us (not to mention your period)

Val - my brother, can't thank you enough. The week was intense, and I know soo much was going on but you made it and that's what important. We had so much before and we became much more solid I wish you the best on the other account, I know you will exel.

Jerick - I was a little hard, and my words we're sarcastic but you were as always gracious, no words just actions and I like that. Thanks you for being there

harky - besh, you were the non-Lipa resident on the list yet you were with us as early as 9 am on March 18..our long talks, calls and kulitans hope it will last and thank you for putting up with me, im so maarte and tampuhin you already know that and you already know the other stuff...and the team was so happy having you..Thank soo much...

It ended with a Renfel dinner - all of us were really tired and sleepy. I wish that I was able to make them happy, I hope they enjoyed and hope that at least I took their mind off their work or anything that occupies their mind. My wish - alam na ni Lord yun, prayer number 2 po..sana sana sana!!! Thanks God!

I AM 29...

2011-03-15T08:13:00.000-07:00

t's been probably ages since the last time I wrote on this blog, who cares, no one ever cares to read this - ipot ng aking utak or sige na nga pensieve from the harry potter movies whish I'm so raving and a little sad since the last film will be shown this June. Anyways, so that was my 29th bday. No fireworks, no special something none...I thought ..... looong pause I sort of flipped pages for inspirations...

so there, I will just rant on how boring my life is or no, just my effing birthday...It was not the birthday that I hoped for, but I have never been to work ever....during my big day so there's none to compare it with..but I admit, it's kinda sad. Special shout out to my team, we had potluck and boy..I was sooo busog then I thought the day would just end. Special shout out to my besh prenship for giving me 3 cake pops, soo good (and sweet) it'll make your tooth, literally decay wahahaha sa sobrang katamisan..but it was very good...They were gracious enough to be with me during the dinner. I thought they were so thoughtful - Lorie, Cha and Mike.

I am 29 and very thankful. It will be great if my prayer number 2 will be granted.

CKB

2011-01-09T05:39:00.001-08:00

I first heard this song, I think Wednesday and could not stop humming and singing, as of writing, I had played it 500 times on Itunes, it's on repeat and my sleeping song (previous one was leave right now by Will Young).

It gave me chills and at times very teary eyed (harte) listening to this song.

This was the killer line...
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna feel so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming..

Hope this is her next single with a killer video..OMG, I can't wait! sniff!

CKB

2011-01-09T05:39:00.000-08:00

This one's serious...get ready!

2011-01-05T05:27:00.000-08:00

I received a text kanina from Bianca Gonzales ... ok fine I subscribe to her fantxt, it was like 2 years already and still enjoying. anyways, she said, she always pours her heart over blogging and should be meaningful and all that. I felt like she pointed me out, considering the posts that I made, was just to fill the void of this blog, anyways no one is reading except me.

Anyways, what to write..well it's the New Year so anything NEW

- I am going to lose weight that I enrolled myself in our local gym (and as I am writing this, I am feeling the pain, no pain no glory, hope it's all worth it). I eat less now, like super less, I am hungry for 4 days now. My friends said to not overdo it, but I'm so serious I want to expedite the process. I got lots of support BTW on my first day so I will be very serious about this stuff. Hopefully I could take off my shirt during our team outing or in March, my birthday month. Naks

- I will save now. For years now, I admit I've been very very costly and that most of that goes into food, clothing and gimik. I haven't started yet, but I will starting with my credit cards. I promise not to use them anymore until it gets paid off and will sure to cut those, to save me from tukso of spending it. Hayy, I know little by little I can execute that.

- I will be me and will express my self more this year. I haven't read any predictions yet, haven't check if this is my year but will make sure, I get lots of a hell fun, like what I did on the last 2 quarter of last year. I am now into customize clothes to fit me more (contradicts the former resolution), I wear what I want and will not subject myself to trends or whatever (kelan ba aku nagpadala), I'll be more active on this blog, God help me pour out my ideas so that I can put that into writing and be more ME. I will not care what other people might say - at this day and age, I'm kinda scared but will not care anymore, there will be exceptions of course, but majority...that's it!

- I'll read more books and file them (or will buy a new book cabinet..

- I'll have more friends and will be a great friend to them(will retain this)

- I'll be closer to HIM or Whoever I'm sending this to. I admit that I sometimes forget how important spirituality is, I contradict, I don't attend mass regularly and replace it with mundane activities and that I could stand for an hour but stays 6 long hours during concerts..and stuff, I can't write it's too graphic for me I end up crying.

And lastly, to cry it all out. Sometimes emotions needs to flow, together that salty tear, it may still be there..the feeling but at least, I guess less feeling as most of it already flowed out. People may wonder, what do I cry about, but trust me, I'm a simple human being as well, whatever your reason for crying will be the same reason for me too. And will not hide it.

Post script - my prayer number 2. Hope it will come true this year because I am ready now, I am so ready whoever that is will be treasured..so there....

Hayy ang arte right!
I know right, but true!

that feeling 2

2010-12-16T06:49:00.000-08:00

I have been to HK both a thrilling and a tiresome experience...we walk and walked and went to H&M, that I sooo love right now....

My efforts seem futile...I can't understand or I don't want to understand....

A big slap and I'm still willing...

I shouldn't heard those/shouldn't learned those...soo complicated and the end, me in my wet pillow every night!

I missed 2 nights of Simbang Gabi already - been exchanging stupid time for my duty...when I know for a fact it wouldn't serve me ever..no returns...just pure useless effort...

Sad!

that feeling....

2010-11-23T04:44:00.000-08:00

I'm in a place right now where I am unsure if I would go back or walk straight ahead.

I had been praying, God you know that I've been praying hard for this yet I am still unsure if this is it. That's my problem yet I like the feeling, but I'm unsure. But I'm happy.

I will be going to HK (and Macau) tomorrow and will carry this feeling of kinda bliss but a little speck of worry and question but I think I will go on. I hope this carry me through our adventure on a different land tomorrow. The farthest I will go since the Bacolod/Iloilo trip I had back in August. I'm so excited, I don't know what to feel. Part of me wants to just be here and feel that but another part of me wants to go and fly those foregin land. I hope when I get back, it will still be the same or hoping for more.

God, is this it?

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I so like this One republic/sarah bareilles song that it's on repeat for the whole day earlier - when I commute to work early in the morning and when I rode back home this night. So heartbreaking, it touches my heart and it always had me close to crying. I heard this one, on one episode of TVD and researched on it. This is my song for the moment.

OL idea

2010-11-13T22:50:00.000-08:00

I owe this blog lots of post, I just noticed I did not have one for October...

Here's my idea of a show/program for Sarah Geronimo since her Idol was short lived. I did not liked it either, it was soo rushed that even casting has a problem. anyways...

So it will will be a dark comedy/supernatural show where Sarah is the bida. She's the only daughter of a barrio magtatawas so she helps out in her parents activity, like getting leaves and hearbs and trees and in the process learns everything. Little did she know that, the knowledge of healing came from Maria Makiling and that because Maria likes the parents very much that she chose Sarah as her contemporary, helping out the poor and everything.

But Sarah is very different, she grew up to be very curious and inquisitve and wants to know everything so she learned additional stuff from her own.
And that she knew she had powers but fail to accept that she is special - curing the sick, even talking to nature, but she has one problem - texting. She's a text, Fb twitter addict..that she sometimes forgot her duties. She favors Berting, a local but dislikes his sister Shiela (will be played by angelica p)- another magtatawas. That's her competition. So they compete with the Sales, the customers and even herbs. Little did they know - they were both made contemporaries of Makiling and readying them to be the champion for an impending doom.

Tv teaser will have her playing in the hills then someone threw some petals and other herbs to her, at first she loved it but she got annoyed she sis stop but still ongoing then...she burned them all..and said, sweet lemeng!

So there...

LIFE IN A JEEPNEY post note

2010-09-29T07:21:00.000-07:00

Another post story

Earlier's event was the mother of annoyance, inside the jeepney, beside me is a mother with her weeping child, oh that's simple, screaming child! Her cry started from they sat, until they took off. Ahh the sound, that defeaning sound can be heard past my Ipod..I was sooooo mad, I was tempted to show the koi in the pond on my phone (Iphone app). The interior smelled funny too, like onions and sweats and with the irony of puring rain, like there's no tomorrow. But it was compensated with the one with the nice Nice Nike shoes. Oh well, at least!

LIFE IN A JEEPNEY post note

2010-09-26T07:47:00.000-07:00

Ok I'll take it back. The previous post was what I experienced the other day, but earlier was way tooo different and I did not enjoy it. The guy across me had his mobile phone on speaker mode and playing an Air supply song so LOUDLY, no match for Chico and Del. No offense on Air Supply fans, I actually knew the song - making love out of nothing at all but I'm not it the mood to listen to it. I'm in my Sunday RnB mood (as if my week is not RnB filled). He switched tracks, and it was an annoying rap song, I did not care to listen as I increase my volume. But, to my surprise, he opened a box, and what do you know - a mini speaker. A mini speaker that changes colors, I'm like OMG, what in the world.

this time, I did not enjoy the ride!

LIFE IN A JEEPNEY

2010-09-24T09:08:00.000-07:00

Life in a jeepney

It's 5 minutes til 10pm, I was running late, really as my shift is supposed to end by 6pm (ok, 5pm because I was late for one hour). I hopped in the jeepney and waited for the passengers to come along, it was boring and a little sleepy so I put on my headset and listened to Chico and Delamar's Podcast last Wednesday, can' get enough of them. Anyways, as the jeepney started to fill and passengers started to come by, it was a pleasant view for me as workers after a day converged in a location like this. I would love to have my own car or course, and not be with the other people (you don't know if they are sick or what, I'm sorry maarte lang ako) and siksikan kau, and the odor or whatever. I'm not complaining, don't get me wrong. My mother always scolds me for complaining the smell of other people as they earned it after a hard day's work. Anyways, it was a bunch of workers - industrious workers all cramped up in this tiny piece of moving metal. Students - qualify as workers as well because they worked they out of this day, you know. And after 3 minutes, we were all dosing off and in 10 minutes, most of us are asleep, except for me which was in awe really. This must have been an exhausting day for all of us, the students (they were lovers) are holding their hands, the mall workers are leaning with each other, the other guy is just asleep on his back and the workers from the hospital are sharing their experiences in high note battling the sound of the jeepney engine. It was a little chilly, that contributed to the mood of the night. I can't really let go of this experience as I myself is very proud to be in the company of these people, they are really the working masses that after a day's work, welcomes another day with gladness or at times just being forced out of survival but the commitment is there to survive. Tomorrow's another day.

Garlang experience

2010-08-30T07:26:00.000-07:00

This started out one afternoon when one of my friends, Ianne, was invited to go to Bacolod. We excitedly said yes and what do you know, we booked our flight on the cheapest airline and schedule we can afford and when we are available. It was sooo exciting, most especially for me as this would be my first time to board a plane and be somewhere else other than Lipa, Batangas. It was great to be at those places and extra nice that you are discovering it together with your friends, a little expensive, had shelved out few hundred bucks but the over all experience was amazing. From riding the plane, to eating, to meeting a lot of people and discovering new words like sa lugar lang - or garlang - their word for para or sa tabi lang po. Love all of that.

Here's my account of where we went and what we did:

Our plane from Manila to Bacolod was one hour delayed - it was Air Phil Express, (one of my agent said ewww AirPhil?). It was a rather short plane ( as compared to other major planes) and a little packed (I thought referencing it from my size. I thought it would be a bumpy ride, it was my first time so a lot of feelings and images and rummaging through my scared mind. there's this idea of us being hijacked, or the plane will experience engine trouble all sorts of freaky stuff but I hold on. The passengers infront were praying the rosary so I did my own and prayed for a safe trip. And it was smooth, very smooth actually that it felt flying (again referencing from roller coaster and acnhor's away) but not. We were sooo excited, we ate pa nga on our way to Bacolod and saw a lot up there, ala Google Earth. It's a wonder ful world definitely. From the take off till landing, it was really really fun for a first timer like me, the gum really helped.

I was able to take pics from my window and really just in awe of how beautiful the view from up there. Forgot to take shot of Bacolod as we were descending - it was lush green that you never thought very near to their airport.

(To be continued)

ICE CREAM

2010-07-18T06:23:00.000-07:00

I'm on ice cream...

Not HTC or Blackberry - when I was browsing last night, I just thought of LG because I missed the fun, the color the simplicity of the process, you know call, text, a little music and foto and here's what I have. I targeted Lollipop but it was expensive I'm afraid my card can't handle it, LOL.

So here it is, my powder blue phone, just like Ice Cream and enjoying it the very first time I touched it earlier. It's clamshell, I've been raving about for 2 years now to have a flip phone, it's very simple, no apps no OS upgrade, I am on SMART prepaid and so far so good. Loving it!

BLACKBERRY VS HTC PHONE

2010-07-17T11:11:00.001-07:00

Again, I don't have any agenda tonight, it was totally out of great boredom that I opened this site as I am listening to Stacie Orrico's Strong enough song (sniff, sniff hayyy), earlier it was Neyo's Easy which was also my communicator blurb. I am also waiting for my itune's download which from my last check 151 MB of 358 MB, LOL, so I still have 3 hours remaining hahaha. This is how slow this Digitel internet is.

Anyways, at the same time I am searching for a new phone, my Iphone with Globe sucks big time (see previous post), and I am planning to have an alternative but will try prepaid again. I am eyeing Blackberry and HTC phone which will be my first time for me, so I'm really comparing and contrasting which would really suit my need ot want LOL.

Blackberry keypads are small, don't think I could use that efficiently but they are cool and had lots of apps as well. I've used one 8900 series and it was great but the key pad was my problem.
HTC phones are rare (I've never known someone from my friends whose using that), so it's either not recommended or very expensive but I've looked it up OL and it's not that espensive well that still depends on the model. I am after HTC legend which was highly recommended on the new gadget magaxine that I bought 2 days ago.

haaaaah, what to choose I'm torn!

Ohh, I have to tell this, I got bald again earlier but I had something different as I asked my barber to shave off a line on my right head. Yes, a little off the edge, hmm but not too much as I am unsure earlier what to do but this was a bold move from me. I'll still be researching some tother shave styles from the internet for my next bald hair do. I've tried to fotograph myself using the webcam but it produced a dark photo, just want to show the line. enjoy or not!

4%

2010-07-14T08:11:00.001-07:00

Again, I don't have any topic to write on, I was just influenced by how long Bianca had been writing on her blog, and how did she consistently make it fun and readable and interesting. Well, now I'm just killing time because I am downloading a file and it says 96% so I still have 4 % left of my time to post anything here, which until I press on the keyboard I have no idea at all.

Well, my Globe mobile line was cut off earlier, and I went berserk or irate in our term and poor rep, all my frustrations and morning shit was dumped on her that compelled her to reactivate it in 30 minutes or so. But let me just clarify that all my issues were true, it was never meant to just diss the network or their agents. Their customer service suck big time, their signal is fluctuating and their people are under-educated if there's such a word. I don't mean to sound too sarcastic but, just saying.

100% so there!

kung anew anew lemeng!!!

2010-07-03T23:25:00.000-07:00

Again I'm writing on this blog out of boredom, I think Piolo is not singing his best on that Jessa Zaragoza's song, it was just dreadful and that I still can't see this notification on my FB, damn this slow connection. I should have upgraded it months ago, when there's still a promo but I obviously missed that chance.

I don't have anything to write and that I'm just thinking as I'm writing. I just saw 2 movies recently on the cinema - which I plan to have a review on my next post. My friend Gio, told me to blog all those because I have so much input and comment but you know me nman, tamadin so there.

Knight and day - is a great movie from Tom Cruise and Cameron Diaz. It's not that grand as compared to Cruise's MI movies but it was advertised as an action/romatic comedy which did live up to it's trailer. And I was paying attention, that I was able to answer the FB contest (I'm still thinking who will pick that up since it's from Ortigas pa).

Eclipse - the movie that I've been waiting for but did not live up to my expectation. I'm not a twihard but I really expect more from that movie coming from the book. Too much staring, caressing, too mcuh Edward and Bella that have been established already on the first two movies. The fight scenes are short, it was clean and so rehearsed that the slow motion technique did not work for a fight but rather for a dance. Alice's acrobat for example, I can't wait to go out of the cinema. I'm so disappointed.

Let me just pose my makikinis na picture from my best gurl Charris' Samsung digicam. I really don't know how that thing does that, it beautifies me literally as if I'm that makinis. One of my friend reacted of that was true or a by product of my power peel which I just did 3 times because is sooo costly and painful (the pricking part) but I must say it did wonders to my wretched face wahahaha.

Dear God

2010-05-30T00:44:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry, nagkasakit n nman ako today..Katamaran and dunno how I would I cure it. I had a perfect plan earlier around noon time - facial or foot spa then mass at the Redemptorist but nothing came about...I watched a noon time show, internet and slowly the sickness dawned upon me, consuming me and ate me, ate all of me. I just planned to have a foot spa then will go straight to church which didn't happen because here I am, typing on my keyboard with my towel still on from my afternoon bath. I don't know why I keep on doing that, please help me. I could stand for 6 hours all drenched in sweat in a concert, I went out with my cousins last night which was very very fun...again all sweaty and all..but I couldn't be with you for 2 hours or less than that...I owe you big time, I haven't had time to visit you recently (Wednesdays would not count because I just caught partial of the Wednesday novena mass). I'm sorry, I should have a more creative way of executing my plans as in really hard..concrete plans that no one or nothing could suspend and I know God you will help me do that, assist me eventhough many times I am not worthy, but I know you, You love me and will do anything for me, not that I'm taking that favor for granted...I will give it back to you...Thanks God and I'm sorry again!

Here comes the laugh

2010-05-15T04:06:00.000-07:00

Last night, we watched Chris Martinez' "here comes the bride" and mind you, I have never laughed on any Pinoy movies that I watched like I laughed on this effin movie. It was effin hilarious, I really cried. Angelica was the star as she portrayed a gay beautician (or image stylist as corrected on this movie). I was with the company of my good friends Janice, Cherry, Ianne and her invited friend hehe. The cinema house was full of laughter on almost every scene, you can never go wrong with Eugene Domingo and Tuesday Vargas. I hope they make movies like these and not just pure spoof of another movie just to sell their comedy. Well, I enjoyed those spoofs too but more so with a clean. fun and original story telling like this. And they did not over act like the other comedy movies, it was very natural of them and we thought it was finished, we were at the lobby when the last 3minutes of the movie was shown and we even laughed more.

So enjoyable, it will never fail you! Watch it now. Love it!

eat pray love cry

2010-05-02T18:40:00.000-07:00

Last Saturday night, I had just finished reading E Gilbert's personal journey through Italy, India and Indonesia. This was to date, the most...enlightening, empowering, life-changing, most influential and all the ing and ial adjective/adverb in the world. Most of the times, I felt like, whoa, really now and surprised at the same time amused on how courageous and outrageous the author was and it made me change really as I have my own personal battles to fight through, this book really is one of my ammo. Most of the times as well, I find myself crying and lonely and lost and all of those nega crap but it kept going and I hold to my faith harder. And now, I have learned to personalized my prayer and it does not necessarily have to be the prayers that was thought in schools, being raised as a Catholic, but rather a more casual conversation and sharing of ideas. It made me braver to face almost all, I think (not that I wished for a more complicated problems) and it equipped me with much more sense of urgency as nothing really lasts forever.

So I'm really excited about the movie and how it will convey the same message that I got from the book. I remembered my friend telling me that at first, I am not interested as I thought it was just for girls but I was so wrong. Hayyy, my favorite book so far.