Jessica Moussa

2012-06-04T02:48:00.000+02:00

Hello my dear followers!

I had totally forgotten about my blog, my new addiction to instagram has taken all of my time.
Why not follow me there to stay tuned (updated) Follow jessicamoussa or kikme =) http://instagr.am/p/LNH_dOTOhe/

I've been up working on a trip to Rome with my youth association and Im exhausted from it! Ill try to check in here tomorrow, have a good night!

Cause Im going to Jerseeeey!

2011-12-11T23:32:00.000+01:00

Jersey Shore will finally be back on January 5th! I cant wait! I missed those crazy kids, a good laugh is always what I look for and they sure bring it.

Last week was hectic, I worked almost every day for 5 hrs + I had to go to the university for seminaries and to study for the finalexam I had last Wednesday. I think I aced it!

I had a nice weekend and the fact that FCB totally run over RMA made the weekend even better! I want to thank my two birthday-girls Marcela and Vanessa for having me at their b-day parties. I wish you guys the best and I hope you enjoyed yourselves just like I did!!

Drake in Ericsson Globe 15th April. Dude you've got to be there, seems like Im going with my little brother. He's not so little, I guess I should start saying my younger brother. He's 16 ! I still remember playing dress-up and making him wear my dresses and red lipstick.
Gosh I miss those times. Nowadays he's not so loveydovey anymore. I guess boys grow up and think theyre too old for lame stuff like hanging out with their older sister. Luckily we've been getting along pretty well lately, going out, hanging out and stuff. He still doesnt hug me in front of his friends or ever for that matter but we've been spending a lot of time together.

Even though my brother is younger than me, he has taught me so much during our childhood. I know a lot about cars, pokemon, skate-boarding, soccer and a lot of typical guy stuff. I think he helped me become this strong person I am today. Im not afraid of heights, or insects, falling, rats, spiders, the darkness, clowns.. Im not afraid of anything I can think of right now.

I guess I should go to bed now, early morning and its going to be a looooong day.
See yaa!

LaughingMyAssOff !!

2011-11-22T11:41:00.003+01:00

Everyday I'm shufflin !!

2011-11-19T22:52:00.000+01:00

How cute isnt this little fella? Adorable. Way more appealing than the older version.

I call dibs on him =)

Old emotional explosion from my old blog, damn I was mad that day !!!

2011-11-19T22:24:00.001+01:00

Emotional explosiooon!

PMS, lång dag, ingen sömn, horor, bitches, läxor, dåligt väder, dåligt humör, träningsvärk och a lot of BULLSHIT!

I AINT TAKING ANY SHIT FROM ANYONE ANYMORE . YOURE NOT HAPPY WITH IT, I DONT CARE. HATERS, JERKS, ASSHOLES... WHY DONT YOU ALL JUST FUCK OFF. THE BITCH IS OFFICIALLY BACK. Let's just say, the good girl's gone bad. My life my rules, so just keep ur thoughts to yourself.
Im an original player of the game and I aint changing the rules, you wanna play u better want it bad and sacrifice a few(many) things and if not. DONT waste my time on your bullshit!!

And to my sweetiepies, muppets and teddybears, mucho love to you! I appreciate you and Ill try to stay in a good mood. A change is on the way. BIG ONE. You dont respect me your out! For good.. good luck staying on my good side. I was never easy and Im not stepping down for anyone.

Have a nice evening!

I believe in angels...!!!

2011-11-18T18:24:00.001+01:00

...something good in everything I see!!

Last week, me and my lebanese friends from the assosiation drove 600 km back and forth to Hässleholm for a camp. We had an amazing weekend with people who share the same interests, religion and thoughts.

In this society we live in, specially here in Sweden, people dont believe in supernatural things. God is just something made up to them. Atheism has taken over. And for a believe like myself it is hard to live in between those people. They laugh at you, mock you. They would say anything to hurt you and make you question your beliefs.
Working with this group of adolescents who are both Christians and Lebanese makes it easier for me to connect and not give up on my own morals and by gathering these young adults I feel like Im doing myself and all of us a favor, because it is really hard to be out here all on your own.
Even though you have a lot of things in common with your friends from school or work there are just things they cant cover. You need someone from your own.

Ha ha !

2011-11-17T18:41:00.000+01:00

Put a ring on it!

2011-11-17T14:21:00.001+01:00

Arent you so tired of your boyfriend/girlfriend or male/female friend who you know is really in to you but who is afraid to tell you? You have been feeling the chemistry for so long and you are 100 % sure that he or she is interested and if they told you maybe you would give them a chance. Not because you yourself know for sure that you like them but because you have this feeling that if you try, maybe something good would happen. '

I mean whats the worst scenario? You get heartbroken?

All the fun parts, the conversations, the memories everything you do before your heart gets broken adds up and after all you will get some experience. Find out what you like and what you dont like. What kind of partner would you like to en up with when you grow up and propably marry? You never know for sure, but by staying in the game. Meeting people, dating, flirting, you know just enjoying yourself you get a step closer to knowing what to do and who to be with.

Myself, Ive been down this road for a while and I have never felt better. I've been getting the attention I want /need. I've got to know amazing people I would never have even looked at a year ago. Dont judge the book by its cover. Try to read the summary if you can, but what you really should do is put your head in that book and dont put it down until you're through the whole book!

What I want to say is that, dont hesitate! Tell people how you feel. Dont be scared that the person you like wont feel the same. Most of the time it is mutual for both parts.

And life goes on .. and on ... and on

2011-11-08T17:02:00.000+01:00

I had an amazing weekend, couldnt have wished for a better time. I didnt go out dancing though, not at a club, but wherever we went and I heard music I started dancing. I dont know where Ive been getting this energy from.

Today Im visiting a friend at her family business. She's busy most of the time but a least we get to catch up whenever she doesnt have any costumers. An hour ago she had to leave for a job interview. Unforstunatelly those people didnt want to hire her yet. She had to try-out for 2 weeks without pay. Who would do that? Work for free. I told her not to go through with it. Another friend had done it before and she ended up working for almost 2 months for free and in the end she didnt get the job nor any money.

In an hours my shift at the postterminal will start. it will last for only 3 hours which is gret. AT least I could get home and study or just relax.

Peaaceee outtttttttttttt!!!!!

Picture mix !

2011-11-05T15:37:00.000+01:00

Jennifers B-day! I love these 2 girls in the pic!

Famous brother and sister looking fly!

The bride is texting???

What do you think pumpkin?

Blurry, but you could see the decorations for halloween.

Out with the girls, thats what I did last saturday?? Not sure LOL

So amazing!

2011-11-05T15:28:00.000+01:00

hello there!

It's been a while as usual so from now on I'm not going to mention the time ellapsed since the last time I posted something. I want you to know that sometimes Ill update you multiple times a day and sometimes it could be a while, hopefully not more than 2 weeks.

It's been so hectic lately, ive been having so much to do with uni, the association, planning campings and random events. For example, we just had a karaokenight yesterday and next friday we are going south , a town called Hässleholm close to Helsingborg and Kristianstad. I finally got the car for the roadtrip. We're going to be driving 1 minibus and 2 cars down. I'm not so sure about the second car, since my friend who's going to be driving it is not sure yet whether he is or he's not coming with us. I'm so excited about this roadtrip.

Last weekend I did everything but study for my finals. I know people in other countries would call it midterms, but it's not since we're done with the course and this was my final exam.

I started my weekend being on the set of the recordings of a swedish movie called "Snabba Cash 2", "Easy money! is the name of the American version starring Zac Efron. The swedish version is actually the original and it is based on a book with the same title. Part one, snabba cash. Part two, Livet deluxe.
Anyway making this scene was so fun but I was so tired afterwards. it was so cold and we had to wake up really early and get ready. I now know what celebreties go through every day and I do not envy them anymore. Their job is one of the most exhausting jobs in the world. You have to be alert and so full of energy all the time. I dont think I would keep up with that pace on a daily basis.

I dont remember much of last saturday more than going to dinner with my family. I think I tried to study for a while.

Sunday, Funday. I met up with a friend, dani. We had a nice conversation. I went to church like I had promised father Tobias the week before and I dont remember more of that day.

Monday, I hade organised the best halloween party ever for my little brother Jonathan at home. There was decorations all over the house, handmade!! It took me hours and hours of cutting card-boards and painting. I was dressed as a really scary vampire. Even my mom couldnt look at my face hahah. I had this lightblue shadow under my eyes, all black over my eyes, blood on my chin and crazy grey lences.

For the rest of the week i didnt do much, I tried to make myself study, didnt go that well instead I ended up on facebook or watching TV every single time.

Thursday after my finals I just wanted to do something, anything fun. So I ended up drivin around then finally bowling with my BFF Andreas, Meeting up with another friend Jan. Having a few Cheeseburgers at McDonald's then playing billiard with both of them.

Yesterday, Friday was planned to be a Karaokenight, then go out clubbing. But istead we ended up playing games like singing bee and "country, city, celeb etc" That was fun. Somehow we ended up in Burger King eating fast food then a few people came over to my place for a movie.

Thats it for now!

Im sexy and I know it !

2011-10-23T19:11:00.000+02:00

I'm sorry for not being able to keep my promise to you guys.
Last week I went to Västerås as you all know and I had an amazing weekend with friends from all over the country. (Central Sweden).. The Stockholm area. We stayed up all night, laughed, danced, did crazy stuff. Ill take myself as an example. I got all hyper and stuff and I couldnt stop jumping around, doing push-ups, interrupting the boys while playing FIFA. I swear to God I thought they were going to kill me any second, but they didnt. I guess I wasnt THAT annoying.

I managed to study a little on the train. 4 hours up and four hours back ! But since last sunday I feel like I could have studied a lot more. Now my finals are in a week and I am so not there yet!

This week passed by so fast, the days are slipping away. Thats a good thing, thinking that it will be summer soon. But the closer my finals get, the shorter my nails get. The bigger my mood swings get :P

Anyway everything is set for the camp in Malmö next month. I booked a mini-bus for us and someone will have to bring their own car because its impossible to fit in 12 people in the mini-bus. So November 11-13 we'll be out of town. I am so looking forward to the roadtrip. It takes 3 hours to go from Gothenburg and get to Malmö.

I finished all the paperwork that has to do with the lebanese youth assosiation today. I am actually very proud of myself, always an overachiever. I just wish studying was as amusing as doing everything else.

Yesterday, me and the girls from Highschool had a reunion. First they went bowling and I joined them after work around 7 @ Le Pain Francais. Its a french coffeehouse with a cosy atmosphere. After that I went out for a few alcohol free drinks, since I had brought the car with me. I've got to be a responsible driver, otherwise my mom wont lend me her car. Ouuuh I love her car a black AUDI A6! 2007 I think, not sure. GORGEOUS! with the faded windows in the back and everything. Now thats a beautiful ride if you ask me.

Id better get back to my chemistry-books, have a nice evening !!

Beautiful city of mine lost it..

2011-10-17T23:10:00.001+02:00

If I wasnt this tired I'd be more than happy to tell you about my weekend. Im sorry but Im not really in the shape of doing that now, so I promise you'll heremore from me tomorrow.

Have a good night yall!!

Stats

2011-10-11T23:38:00.000+02:00

All the green parts are the countries I have the most readers from. Thank you for making it worth putting my thoughts out on the internet. If your country is not green on the map it doesnt mean I cant see that you've been visiting me, it only means that people from other countries visit my page more often.

Vous êtes la raison pour laquelle je souris !

2011-10-11T23:25:00.000+02:00

Me and my "BFF" who's coming with me to Lebanon this summer !! xD

"You are the reason that I smile" that's the name of this post. My friends are such a source of happiness to me. If I didnt have you, I really dont know what Id do. Really.. all the sweet things you say, sometimes rather mean but at the end of the day you make me smile.

Smiling is what makes a person beautiful. The ability to smile from the bottom of your heart is very rare. Many people admit that their smiles are fake and not from deep within and thats really sad because those people truly dont feel happiness, not even a bit ! If you are one of those happy people who dont get what I mean. Imagine losing whatever brings you up when your down, losing the hope and forgetting to smile and think positive. You wouldnt be able to hold yourself up for too long. The easiest and simpliest cure is a friend, someone to keep you company, make you laugh and most important of all someone who makes you remember how to smile by smiling himself/herself.

My day today was another long day and I got a lot of stuff done. I visited my old school and returned the keys, got a job as a substitute teacher at that same school, went to uni and studied, attended to another thermodynamics lecture, worked out, met up with a friend for business and came home. I also managed to change the flight date to lebanon from 5/6 to 6/6 .. I bet Vania's going to be happy. I watched tonights soccer game. Sweden - Holland (3-2 ) while zapping between the channels because Desperate Housewives was also on channel 5 at the same time.

Thank you dani for this adorable clip !!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T9mOIDFYh04&feature=youtu.be

Nighttttyyy ! Time to get some beautysleep !

♥Ave Maria♥

2011-10-10T23:09:00.001+02:00

Last Saturday's outfit.. goofing around
Leopard print blazer, Hot-pink shoes, leopard tights (black), black little dress,
Hot-pink lipstick, silver chain necklace and super faboulus and curly hair!

Today has been a very long day. Started with lab early this morning, followed by a lecture on Thermodynamics.
Came home, picked my brother up from school, got the mail and begun my chemistry studies and I've been sitting here on this kitchen stool for 6 hrs! OMG.. who would have ever thought that. I even forgot to eat or have a snack. Maybe I will pass this final after all.

I've been so lazy, but if I study at least half the time I studied today every day. I am sure I will ace it !

Anyway I am heading to bed because I have an early morning tomorrow too! I've got to return the keys I fetched from the Catholic school the other day, work out, go to uni, meet a friend and eventually come home.. have a proper meal and propably study some more.

Here's is my favorite prayer I usually say before I go to sleep in LATIN!
and you can learn it in any language you prefer : Ave Maria
Ave Maria, gratia plena,
Dominus tecum,
benedicta tu in mulieribus,
et benedictus fructus ventris tui Iesus.
Sancta Maria mater Dei,
ora pro nobis peccatoribus, nunc, et in hora mortis nostrae.
Amen

"No me ames "

2011-10-07T19:55:00.001+02:00

It is finally FRIDAY ! At least Rebecka Black got that right!!

Today has been avery stressful day to me with uni , friends and the lebanese youth assosiation's next event which is TOMORROW.

It's a whole day for kid's from church to play together and have fun with kids who share the same values and the same background. I had to go to get the keys from the school and the access security-card. Then I had some shopping to do. I still hae to make the scheduals for the games and activities. Finish the group lists. We will be taking care of kids between the ages of 4-14 years. Around 40-50 kids are attending. I think it will be fun. Unfortunatelly couldnt get access to the sound system and I have no idea what to do. Maybe we dont need to play any music.

Meanwhile i was trying to spend some time with my girlfriends doing stuff girs usually do, SHOPPING! Personally, I didnt buy anything =( Big surprise!! I've managed to keep my promise to mom so far, with a few exceptions. I actually bought a pair of earings I love and have lost like 3 times and a pair of jeans that also love and must have forgotten in USA or Canada this summer. The girls on the other hand bought a lot of stuff!

Here's a song I found a while ago that I had totally forgotten about..An amazing duo !! LOVE ITT!!

So whats up ???!!!

2011-10-06T21:49:00.000+02:00

Hello there!

How are you guys today?

I am feeling great ! Uni from 1-3 pm. Shopping with my BFF* and spnding time with mom. I actually made a few phonecalls too that helped this day get even better. People I spent some great times this summer in Madrid.

Next beek i might be going to a camp in Västerås.. Approximately an hour away from Stockholm. Lets just hopa Mary can make it and maybe I could persuade a few friends from STockholm and the surrounding areas to join us.

The week after Västerås I might have friends coming from Italy to do some sightseeing in Stockholm and I'd love to join them and get a cityweekend away from here.

My friends from highschool are working on a new project. A trip to London in November. But Im not sure Ill be able to make it because I dont know what my schedual will look like and since my labs are compulsory and I really shouldnt miss any. Mom sais I could go if I want to but she'd rather have me here. I had to say no since things are sooo uncertain.

Look what I found while shopping with mom.

The new Simpsonsbread with the image of Homer Simpson on it.

Todays Outfit:

Black blazer from H&M
Black pants from Tally Weil
Black wedge heels fromVagabond
Black and white top with a hotpink soft bra from H&M

OMG I just noticed, why do I wear so much black on black. Im not grieving for anyone.

Last but not last, the song of the day which happens to be NRJ's smash hit for the week :

It definetely is !!

2011-10-06T00:02:00.000+02:00

Today was a good day ! No mood swings, didnt pic any fight at home or anything. Just had a normal and surprisingly nice day. I got to sleep 12 hours last nigh, maybe thats the reason.

I used to hate the rain. I felt like it brought me some more limitations. But I've kind of started to appreciate it. It calms me down and whats cosier than staying in and chilling out with your family or go out for a jog in the rain and actually feel something. Rain helps a lot of people with selfsoothing, after rain comes sunshine. Hopefully, but you do get your hopes up. Maybe people should start having a little more faith in stuff for example themselves, the people around them and most important according to me... God.

From now on I am going to say yes to everything (well except for a few things) but in general, Everything that might do me good.. Im simply not going to turn it down. I watched this TV show called Gossip Girl where one of the characters "Chuck Bass" decides to say yes to everyting(literally). It didnt end up so good so maybe if you make a few exceptions.. maybe this concept would work, anyway I am giving it a try. Ill definetely let you know how it works out.

Here's an old favorite that I listened to during my darkest days a few years ago when I lost a very close friend. I guess you're in a better place. I remember never sleeping before you calling me and saying good night if not even telling me a goodnight story. I miss you !
Let the rain fall down and take me away, cause I dont wanna be without you.

Maybe It is getting better after all..

2011-10-04T23:01:00.000+02:00

Once again I couldnt manage to fall asleep yesterday but getting up this morning wasnt as hard as I expected it to be. I am feeling a lot better. I really dont know where I get these moodswings from. I should learn how to make them less dramatic.

Waking up early is not my thing, so I ended up being exhausted all day. I skipped the last part of todays lecture about kinetics and went home to sleep. And did I sleep! from 3 pm to 7 pm !! For the second day in a long time I spent some quality time with my family. It was nice, surprisingly..

Today was the Cinnamonbun´s day here in Sweden. So all markets had sold out their cinnamonbuns because everyone just had to eat at least one due to the celebration =)

Really?????

2011-10-03T22:22:00.000+02:00

Im so so so tired today and so sleepy. I didnt fall asleep last night until the sun started going up, and because of that I had troubles to get up on time and missed half the day. Im so sick of life, why does everything have to become a routine. Its like you have an unwritten schedule. Same shit every single day. Some days are better than others but not exciting enough. I would like to travel, go mountainclimbing, walking in the desert swimming across the English channel and most important of all change MAJOR. Chemistry sucks, I dont give a damn about thermodynamics.

Im literally miserable. Sure I have a lot of fun times, and a few great friends who are there for me no matter what but I just feel like theres something missing.I cant get a hold of it but I know it for sure. I need something new, Im craving some kind of meaning in my everyday life. Where are you when I really really need you´?

I really dont want to creep you out so Im going to stop right here..

One thing I am looking forward to is SUMMER in Lebanon. I booked my tickets last week and my friend Siran is coming with meee ! Yeeey

I set fire to the rain.

2011-10-01T21:25:00.000+02:00

Hope you guys are having a nice and stressfree saturday night. Im not, gotta run to shift 2 for the day and the 3rd shift in 2 days. I really hope I dont have to work tomorrow too!

I want to meet my friends, go to church and I better study. My final exam is in a month and I havent even opened Zumdahls Chemical Priciples yet.

Yesterday I was so excited about a chill weekends with my friends from Stockholm, you know just going out having a few drink and doing nothing important at all. But a change of plans for all parts got me here.

Here's a great song by Adele, gotta love her new album!!!

Next to you ♥

2011-09-29T23:23:00.001+02:00

"You've got that smile That only heaven can make I pray to God every day To keep you forever....."♥

Whoever said Justin Bieber sucks is just stupid give the kid a break, I actually think he is talented. Just wait until he grows up... Gooo Canada! And Chris Brown uhmm ohh yeaah lets just say if someone could take down (singing his song "Take you down") I dont really mean it but the dude really is something ;)

Ouuuuuh what a feeling !

2011-09-29T23:14:00.000+02:00

This week's almost over! And what does that mean ??! Weekend uh oh yeaah ! I cant wait to jue lie in my bed doing nothing. These past few days Ive been throwing myself in bed the second I get home, Im sick and so so tired for some unknown reason. I guess its school. I mean I am having fun and I like chemistry but I dont see the purpose of doing this since Im still going to change major next year and even go to another school.

Im trying to get my friends to do something fun tomorrow and wanna watch a good movie, go out and dance, have a drink and meet fun and friendly people. Lets hope someone is in the same mood as I am.

Yesterday me and the girls from Chemclass had a typical swedish FIKA, which is when you have a cup of coffee along with a piece of cake or traditionally a cinnamon bun. "Fika" is something swedish people often do, we just cant live without our "fika". Everyday after lunch before you go home from work or after work with friends.

This is a typical "fika"

And here's a treat for you or for my ego =)..

Best Birthday Ever !!

2011-09-29T00:22:00.000+02:00

Here are a few pictures from my 19th birthday. I must tell you that it was the best birthday ever since my friends totally suprised me with a party and everything. They even kidnapped me and got me a limo!! Give it up to the best friends of all times ! Love you guys.. I am litterally one of the luckiest and happiest person to have such great friends.. really!!

Princesstårta- my favourite cake "princess-cake"