Jewls the Lucky

A Jewls Sketch

2011-05-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

A sketch of Jewls... new costume!

One more page for ZA's Rory and Yamane!

2011-03-15T11:25:00.000-07:00

Oh man... did these characters just grab me and shake me :) They're awesome.

The Paper - A 3 Panel Doujinshi

2011-03-14T21:54:00.000-07:00

This is a doujinshi of my own devising, based on the awesome characters from Z.A. Maxfield's Drawn Together, which I highly recommend, just so you know. Fantastic freaking story. The main character just happens to look like Duo Maxwell, which I'm sure is totally coincidental. I like it though.

It would have made a great 1x2 fic. And the Star Trek stuff.. that's not mine either :) Paramount owns Star Trek.

Duo with emerald scythe

2011-03-07T04:52:00.000-08:00

Vengeance (One shot)

2011-03-04T05:31:00.000-08:00

Vengence

by pinkwhirlwind

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing. Sotsu, Sunrise, and Bandai do, in whatever measure they do

Note: Young Duo, violence, drugs, injury, slight hints of Heero, swearing, ghosts, threats of death

Alone, a foot hooked under a slender metal rung in the maintenance tube held him in place where he floated in the zero gravity. His braid floated round him, curling like sentient good intentions. This section of the ship hadn't been listed on the declaration manifest, which he hadn't been authorized to read. He spun his lock pick around his fingers, daredevil, not even considering that losing it would be a terrible set back. He'd already added himself into authorized users of this passage, so the standard lock hadn't been an issue, but someone had taken extra precaution of adding a tumbler lock, which was damn dangerous in a space ship and meant there was something really good on the other side.

It really didn't matter what it was He wanted to see it. The lock really wasn't enough to keep him out either, neither of the locks.

The hatch open into the chamber beyond the undeclared maintenance tube and he lowered himself into a space of normal gravity. Hanging fifteen meters above a cluttered metal floor. Wasteful. A trap that made more work for the people defending a space, well, unless they liked blood on their shit, was just a pain in the ass. Right in the center of the chamber was a large mechanical object, like the cockpit out of something, maybe a flight simulator. He smiled, lips pressing against the picks between his teeth. It won't be a common flight simulator though. Those were on the training ship. He'd seen them and had a promise that when he was fourteen, or when he started growing a beard, they'd let him start learning to fly. He liked the Sweepers. They were out to use him, he them. It worked out good that way.

He inched his way around the portal, looking for the best space to make a controlled landing. Quiet too. He need to be quiet in case there was someone sleeping in here or if there were sensors. His stomach growled. His patience for strategy lost and he dropped, arms coming over his face, until he stuck the landing on an unlabeled barrel, arms out, like the God of Death that he was.

His picks went pliable in his fingers and he braided them back into his hair as he stalked towards the secret flight simulator. It was geared up with mining struts, but ass ones, like could shake a meteorite to dust for whatever it might hold. He squatted down by up rungs and touched dark splatters on the ground. Blood. Drops, but a lot, probably from someone being carried out of it. So why would someone make a flight simulator that could shake a body to death, or at least to severe leakage?

Weapon.

It was a simulator for a weapon. Violet eyes narrowed, his grin lifted more one side than the other, until it became toothy. The Alliance was going to get its ass kicked.

It never occurred to him that a powerful weapon could be turned on anyone other than the Alliance.

His stomach growled again, sharper, and hatred flared. He caressed the up rung that lead up to the simulator. The faintest hint of blood still clung to the air, mellow and dangerous, hungry.

Scratching behind his braid for moment, he bounced on the balls of his feet and fairly skipped around his new secret chamber. Engineers were high status. High status people got food. Food was good.

A quick search of the displays and the keyboards in front of them them turned up no food, but he did volume down and turn on the one that carried clues of being a journalling system.

Perched on the chair on the balls of his feet, forearms over his knees, he watched a female pilot climb up onto the simulator. A fungus of a guy with a huge nose ranted at her for a couple minutes. Duo thought about rewinding and listening to what the good doc had to say, but adults with useful things to say were already dead. The girl swung her feet, made a face at him.

Duo recognized the girl. She'd been the hot pilot who brought in the biggest take on the last job he'd only been able to help a little on. They were dumb for thinking he couldn't do shit. He'd been doing shit as long as they had so it didn't matter that he was short. It only mattered that they were stupid.

She settled into the cock pit, pulled the restraints on, ran her hands over the controls. Jealousy growled through Duo, bright and green acidic lust.

Standing just back from the simulator, the ugly little doctor started some tests and the thing started moving. Duo arched up on the balls of his feet, leaning forward. He moved silently, watched the screen with the sound down. When the nasty little doctor faced the camera, he could understand him just fine, but he kept turning his back.

They were making something bit. It was a go very fast. The girl came back out of the mock cockpit like a human shaped bag. Duo's stomach growled in reverse at the way she sagged in every way. He thought it might have better to just have hosed her out the grate. He set the record to fast forward. The doctor made a lot of adjustments. Two other pilot candidates swore off. Killing Alliance goons was all well and good, even dying was understandable, but not that way, thanks. Cowards.

Duo licked at the corner of his mouth, staving off hunger that way. Killing Alliance soldiers was worth doing.

A man carried a tray of sandwiches to the doctor and others working on fixing the cockpit. Duo's fingers shook as he reached out to touch the screen. Desperate now, he switched the play back to normal speed and started a search for food. It wasn't a huge space and the people who worked in here didn't come and go too often and they were powerful. Powerful people always had food.

These powerful people were a little too need and orderly for Duo's taste. He found designs for a rather maudlin mobile suit styled after a unicorn. A unicorn. No? Really?

He found some packets labeled 'Bath Salts', though they'd been poured out onto a plate and someone had drawn a wet figure through it as if it were candy. It didn't smell like candy. He leaned against the counter, eyed the plate of possibly edible crystals. He regretted not going after the food stores rather than the mystery, but maybe it felt that way now because he'd already solved the mystery. He poked the crystals, wishing they were made of sugar.

They weren't though. He wasn't sure what 'bath salts' were, but they didn't look good enough to eat. As he straightened back up though, he felt much better, more powerful, as if ever never in his body hummed with life. Grinning like a maniac, he jumped up onto the counter and started feeling the top of the shelves above it until he finally found something. Feeling a sense of righteous victory, he pulled the box down. Shivers flashed over his shoulders, made his hair stand on end. His sense of victory flared brighter as if there had never, ever been any doubt about him being smarter, faster, and more dangerous than anyone that worked on this ship.

Holding his new treasure box, he sat down on the counter, a crooked grin on his face, and poked those crystals again. This time here was no doubt at all that the colored crystals made his fingers tingle, filled the room with the rosy glow of safety and triumph.

Licking his lips, he opened up the box and knew that ever feeling of joy was validated. Chocolate. Chocolate covered round gray things, but one only put chocolate on stuff that was good to eat. He popped one into his mouth and gave it a good chew. Waste of chocolate as far as he could tell, bland mushy thing that even chocolate couldn't make better. Slightly dizzy, he leaned back stared at the ceiling. Blood pooled and gathered to drip, thick red potential. His mouth dropped open.

"What are you doing, you dumb ass," Solo bitched. "Didn't I tell you not to touch shit in rich people's houses?"

Duo leaned forward, wrinkled his nose and pointed at his best friend. "Didn't I tell you not to die? If you'd waited just a little bit longer."

Solo rolled his eyes, arms across his chest. "You were five. What the hell could you have done anyway? You're in a lot of trouble, Kid. You're completely sauced."

"I am not!" Duo said. He'd never felt better in his whole life and he wasn't a little kid like he had been when Solo died.

The room and time bent in on itself. The vile felt big in his hands, bright blue fluid, the brightest blue he thought he'd ever seen. Kneeling on the textured metal behind their favorite soup kitchen, Duo held it up so that Solo could see that he'd done it. It hadn't been so hard. No one expected him to slide through things, to just walk in and take it. "Ain't it pretty?"

Solo leaned against the wall, legs straight out in front of him. Eyes glassy, breath ragged and shallow, he didn't respond to Duo at all. "You're going to be okay, see?"

"That's not how it happened," Solo said over his shoulder. Both of them watched as Solo's body breathed out, and relaxed. "It's okay, kid. I knew you would do it. I wasn't afraid or anything."

"No! Don't go!" Duo's small hands shook as he forced the cure into the applicator he'd taken. "I got it!"

"What do you got there, you brat?" A man growled, grabbing Duo by the natted mess of his hair and jerking him up in the air.

Duo kicked, his feet just big enough to cover the distance from the man's jaw to middle of his now broken nose.

Flying. For a moment he was in the shuttle that brought him into the Sweeper ship. Devil. I'm a devil.

Just as suddenly he was back in the alley. An Alliance soldier stared down at him. One foot on his hand that clenched the stolen cure, the man smirked. "Anyone whose worth anything can just go to the clinic and get medicine. Little thieves aren't worth the time it would take to do the paper work on you."

"Bastard!" Duo growled, holding the vile tighter, until the boot closed his hand too tight, breaking plastic and bruising joints. "Owwww!"

Blood. Blood, every thing's blood. Blood rained from the ceiling and Duo danced in a euphoria so thick that he really didn't care about anything. The cut his from the vile stung. Tears and sweat washed away in the blood that was everywhere. The blood of the lamb!

"Duo! Stop!" Sister Helen held out her arms to him, smiling sweetly. "Come here, boy! I love you. Jesus loves you."

He ran to her only barely aware of the expensive and unsafe engineering equipment he leapt and dodged, as if some of it would reach out to catch him. Demons, avenging angels that hated him, Solo's rotting corpse, but then she closed her arms around him, holding him, and for that moment the euphoria and the terror all stepped back from him. She ran her hand over his head, soothing. "I'm in trouble," he admitted. "I did something I shouldn't have done. I've done a lot of things I shouldn't have done. I'm sorry. I'm sorry!"

"Duo," she said gently, curling around him to hug him as if he were no bigger than on the day she died. "You are lovable and you are precious. You only want to protect people. I love you. Father Maxwell loves you. You're going to find many people who will love you for the beautiful soul that you are."

"It's my fault! You're gonna die and it's my fault!"

"It's not your fault."

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw gloved hands grab her arms. She struggled as they pulled her back. "Leave the children! Let them go!"

He hadn't been there. He didn't know what was said or done. He should have been there.

"You rebel shit don't matter!" The Alliance trooper shook her as he growled. "We own this colony! Noting you do is going to change that!"

The scene shifted again with him kneeling on rubble by her body, her brains still wet on the broken stones. He was himself again, more than double the age he'd been when she died. "You're wrong, Sister. No one can love me. I'm death and no one loves death."

"Oh please," Solo's ghost quipped, "Could you get any more whiny? You're going to live, Duo. You're going to defeat the Alliance and marry a nice guy and you won't even remember this."

"Yeah?" Duo asked his friend. "Like you'd know anything about getting married or living."

"I know more than you!" Solo shouted at Duo as Duo walked towards the test cockpit. "I'm from another universe! A lot like this one, but different! In that one we both live! You marry some ass named Heero."

Duo, one hand on a rung leading up into the cockpit, looked over his shoulder and pointed at Solo's ghost. "That's one serious bad mushroom baby. If we both lived, and if I were gay, I'd marry you, but there's no god and there's no other universe."

"Duo, you don't wanna get in that thing!"

"See?" Duo said, leaning a bit so he could look at the number pad that would unlock the hatch, to see if maybe there were finger prints or something that could give him an advantage on guessing. "You even sound like me. How alternative universe is that? What this Heero do in your universe?" Duo asked, hoping that would shut up the cautious part of his mind that obviously liked to think up scripts for comic books.

"He's a doctor. You should be an artist. Don't get in that thing!"

Duo's first guess at the code was right. The hatch opened up and his feeling of euphoria flooded back to him. "You're dead because of the Alliance. They killed you. They killed everyone. I hate them."

As if it would shut up his ghost, Duo dropped down into the cockpit, which was sized way too big for him. A bit of adjustments though and it worked just fine. He hit the close hatch button, and then the bit red button. The testing sequence started.

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Dr. G blinked as his lab alarm went off, drawing him out of a deep sleep. He didn't go to bed often, but when he did he liked to stay that way until he woke up.

His alarm told him someone was in his workshop. At first he was sure that couldn't be possible, but then he thought about that damn stowaway he'd let on board.

He threw the covers back and grabbed his clothes. He'd fucking space him if he'd hurt anything. He really would!

As soon as he and his team got into the workshop, his plans changed all the way around. The video archive confirmed that it was that damn kid, damn thieving kid, stoned and hallucinating, but he'd made it to level three of the test run, further than anyone else.

"Should we get him out," Anyka asked.

"And damage my cockpit? Have you gone stupid?"

"He's a kid."

"He's going to be so much fertilizer if he doesn't make it all the way through the test run. I'm not stopping it." G said, lips pursing nervously, his eyes scanning data from the stupid little stowaway's response times and vitals. "The little shit has never piloted before, but he's managing it."

"That's not really true," Anyka said. "He stole one of the zippers a couple days ago, nearly broke it, but managed to pilot it. Corky put him on half rations for a week because of it."

"Ummmn."

The test cycle did finish G climbed up to the hatch, keyed it open and peered inside. Dazed violet eyes looked up at him. There was a very slight smile on the boy's face.

"You need a new lung," G pointed out.

"Shit," Duo hissed.

"You liked it though?"

"Maybe."

"Want to destroy the Alliance."

"Yeah!"

"We'll get you a new lung. You promise to do everything I say, only what I say, and let me train you."

They stared at each other for longer than G would have liked with the injuries his new pilot had. "Okay, but you gotta make my mecha like me."

"Fine. We'll make it your Deathscythe."

Duo's smile lifted a little more and whatever universe bending drug he'd eaten made slipping into sleep so much easier. There was no god. There was no Heero, but he'd be okay if there was.

Curfew

2011-03-01T18:28:00.000-08:00

Dangerous Valentine's Chapter Two

2011-02-21T01:27:00.000-08:00

Dangerous Valentines 2/?

by Pinkwhirlwind

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing. I'm not sure my Heero and Duo are very cannon, but they've been my versions of them for a long time.

Warning: Mention of wartime torture

Note: Gosh, I'm so trying to make this a decent story. I wonder if I were really good and respectable novelist I'd be able to write it with Alin and Jody, not with Heero and Duo, but I do love and find safety of 1x2. They are great archetypes. Anyway, feedback would be really helpful to me now. Maybe I'll keep my confidence up, write something that sells well, pay for medical school and find my Duo or my Heero, who is out there somewhere... looking for me too.

Additional Note: Today.. I don't think I'll write anything, except fic from now on. Some King Arthur stories, probably

Chapter Two

Heero really did think about calling off, getting tickets to Maui, stealing Duo out of the Preventer's office. He was still thinking about it when he parked his little brown car. Duo thought Heero's devotion to the hospital was as intense as Duo's devotion to peacekeeping was. Heero let him think that. It made life easier. Duo loved Heero as much as he loved peace and Heero had no desire to make his husband choose. In the wars, both of them had had too many choices taken away.

When Duo was ready, Heero would walk away from the hospital without a second glance. He'd take up family practice. They'd never spend another night apart. Even if it took a life time for Duo to put his demons to rest, it would be a life time together for every moment they could have.

What ever demons Heero had carried out of the wars with him, he'd lost them the lab tried to reacquire him. They'd stripped his mind of memories and personality, everything that had made him him, except for the memory of Duo. They'd wanted a weapon and that's almost what they got. He did not remember killing them. He remembered running feral in a warehouse district until Duo hunted him down. He'd stolen a dog from the lab and named the dog Ichi. He'd been a Preventer as well before that and he really wasn't sure what Une had been more upset about, killing his captors, stealing the dog, or naming the dog something reminiscent of her name. He never regained who he'd been. Duo put up with him anyway and at least once said the experience was an improvement.

Medicine was just what he did while he was waiting for Duo to come home.

Peace was what Duo did while he sorted out the darkness that love couldn't really touch.

The hospital elevator swallowed Heero and his thoughts. Until Duo came for him, he would put people back together as if that were the extent of the world.

He scrubbed in for rounds, taking great comfort in the simple and repetitive tasks. In his white coat, he stepped out onto the ward. Mission. He smiled, a carefully practiced smile, not the twitchy and shy smile he shared with Duo, but with a perfectly genuine seeming and human smile. "Good morning, Mrs. Anderson."

"Good morning, Dr. Yuy," the woman said. "Did you get permission to kill me today?"

Heero decided to treat that statement like it was more than half a joke, which he found amusing, and endearing, as if that made them closer. "I still didn't put in the paper work. Besides, who would take care of your grandson?"

"You're a bastard," she snapped, all friendliness gone. She'd known before she was brought into the hospital who had killed her son and she'd made it perfectly clear how she felt about the young man who was her doctor. She'd been homeless though and the hospital had been perfectly willing treat her acute symptoms and ignore the chronic conditions that would kill her.

Heero decided it would be best to lower the presentation of friendly camaraderie. A much more genuine and cold, almost machine like expression hardened his blue eyes. "I think to be a bastard, I'd have had to had at least one parent." He reached into his pocket, withdrew a small photo print of a boy with red hair and lost looking green eyes. He held this out to her. "His name is Jack. I found him on L1. He is a genetic match to both you and your son. There is a 99.4% chance that he is your progeny. This is enough by law to have his custody transfered to you. He has no other living relatives."

Rage burned over her and she grabbed the photo, attempting to claw him in the same motion. The rage paled as she looked at the photo though. She didn't say anything, just stared at this lost little boy.

"He will arrive in three days. I have arranged an apartment suitable to you both. You are an accountant. You will have the surgery to repair your heart. You will work. You will take care of this boy."

"Who the hell are you," she spat, but she pressed the boy's photo to her chest.

"I am Dr. Heero Yuy. I am the man who killed your son. I'm sorry."

"I can't pay for heart surgery."

"I have made arrangements with the War Survivor's Fund. You are not indebted to me in anyway. Please sign the consent for treatment so that we can proceed." He held out the data pad and stylus.

She signed. He bowed politely, about faced, and continued with his rounds. Moving through his rounds with efficiency that did not win him friends, he found comfort in the mission like amount of work being a doctor provided him.

During his court mandated meal period, he reviewed medical journals, which he knew he wasn't supposed to be doing, but he felt it was an acceptable risk. He spent thirty-two seconds observing a web cam pointed towards a Maui beach. He forgot to control his body language during the last eighteen seconds of observation and smiled, the kind of smile that made his heart beat in a way that represented the connection between emotion and physical being.

An incoming message notification popped up on his data pad and he tapped to accept. Raw data from emergency crews scrolled across his screen at a pace fast enough to engage parts of his mind that had used the Zero system. His eyes lost all semblance of humanity, scanning, lingering in places to send information back to the data system, triaging seventeen victims in under two minutes. Only two were close to death, a parent and a child, the same surgeon would be the best choice for both. He scheduled the child for surgery, checked on the parent's organ donor status.

His food, only half eaten, was abandoned. He had learned that he could not run in the hospital. He could navigate the traffic of hospital hallways even at his highest speed, but that speed severely disturbed his co-works. So he walked. He could walk a four minute mile.

"Yuy!" The newest resident yelled as Heero rounded the corner, headed towards the emergency reception. "Don't run!"

In full mission mode, he assessed the woman, reviewed her education and skills from memory. His eyes narrowed very slightly and he came to a complete stop in front of her. Out of respect he explained, "Walking is defined as a progression of steps where one foot must always be in contact with the ground. I was walking. I am assigning you to OR Four. Expect juvenile victim, pneumothorax, dextro zygomatic fracture." He looked at her slightly confused expression and continued, "Stabilize the patient, expect consent for continued work."

She held up a hand, mouth open. "Who put you in charge?"

He focused on his data pad for a moment, fingers moving so rapidly and efficiently that her mouth was still open when he looked up. "I have transmitted my authorizations. I apologize for not previously advising. In cases of emergencies with more than five victims, the region defers to my triage recommendations. I am not your training physician, but your failure to establish an understanding of your working environment will be noted."

Now he needed to run, even though that broke his agreement with the hospital administrator. By the time he got there, six emergency transports were arriving. The front waiting room had been cleared as he'd requested. One patient after another, he directly scanned vital data and confirmed or amended treatment plans. Other doctors and nurses swarmed the victims too, but Heero moved faster, assessed faster, sometimes left the conscious victims more upset than before he'd triaged them, because he spared no effort at all for making socially acceptable facial expressions.

He scanned the data on one of the last victims, age in the late sixties, probable anti aging treatments, unavailable medical history, even after a second request, which cost him three seconds. Burns tattered his shirt, mottled his skin. The very subtle and not sought for scent of chemical explosives registered in Heero's mind. His breath froze. Facial recognition kicked in a moment later and he gently took the man's face in his hands and really looked. At this point, he'd been slowed for maybe thirty seconds and the activity around him began to slow as well. Facial reconstructive surgery, very good, but still leaving the slightest clues that allowed Heero's mind to peel it away to probably previous configurations, to compare to his bingo book from the war, something he hadn't even remembered that he had.

His gasp echoed through the room.

He lay in a metal ventilation shaft, silent, clothed only in tight black shorts, a skin tight green shirt. The interrogation room below him had the best security on the ship, at least of the places he'd considered extracting 02 from. This had not been his first choice for an extraction point. It was unlikely that 02 would expire during interrogation. Chances of preventing damaging information transfer would have been greater if he had destroyed the entire ship. The second best plan would be to extract 02 from the holding cell, but he had successful tapped their data stream and knew the plan would not return 02 to the holding cell for between twelve to eighteen hours.

The interrogator was a tall man, proportional, wearing a black uniform and a black water proof protective coat that fastened in the back. The air, even scrubbed, still smelled like burning flesh, urine, blood, and fear. Fear was instinctive. There was no shame in fear.

Emotionless blue eyes scanned the room as the man moved.

Restrained the metal wall, naked, only the balls of his feet reaching the floor, 02 clenched his jaw and glared defiantly. Lack of clothing made it easier to assess his injuries, which so far consisted of extensive first degree burns from the heated metal instrument that the interrogator was explaining to 02. Electrical burns around his hips and shoulders suggested there might be minor muscular damage, but 02 didn't hold himself as if he had broken bones. In utter silence, 01 continued removing the grate the kept him from the room.

Then 02 screamed. The sound echoed through the interrogation room, ricocheted through the ventilation shaft, stripped 01's nerves free of programming until even less humanity remained. The grate tore like rice paper and he poured through the small opening bonelessly, body molded to his needs without regard to what was or wasn't possible. He snarled. Only at the dying end of 02's scream, when breath was too precious to spare, then the interrogator heard that his sanctuary had been penetrated.

Animal instinct ruled his mind and blood in that moment, returning so vividly now, as if he lived the moment for the first time now, with a bleeding, sobbing Duo chained to a wall. Heero's body shifted, one shoulder slightly dipped, hands poised, ready to strangle or dismember. Slight air disturbance touched his ear and he blocked, knocking an arm away from his ear. Actual targeting sights aligned over his vision as he glared at Ann, his primary medical assistant. A voice he hadn't heard in years designated her as a non-combatant.

Duo's voice spoke in his ear, through the headpiece that Ann had just activated, "Yuy! What the hell are you doing? If you needed to go to Maui so badly, you really shouda said."

"I recovered a memory," Heero said, finding himself Heero again, the Heero who was a doctor, who didn't remember the war, who wasn't a weapon of war, who was a husband, a house owner, who loved children and even wanted a child, he was just Heero. "He tortured you. I saw it."

"Wullll," Duo said, "That could be a few people. Those were shit times, Heero. Shelf it until I get there. Can you completely do that? You've got trauma victims, right? Can you work?"

"You always ask so many questions," Heero complained, curious fingers feeling the wet running down his cheeks. "Hai. I can work."

The hospital administrator, Sylvia Diego, beeped into the call. "So you say, you just threatened to kill a patient."

"He is a wanted war criminal. His real name is Herbert Sanders."

Duo hissed in his ear and Heero knew he was barely suppressing a string of curses.

"Are you absolute about this Heero," Diego asked.

"Yes. His injuries are not life threatening, but I believe this accident was caused by an attempt on his life. His arms are burned by a chemically triggered explosive."

"I'll get a couple teams down there," Duo said, calm as if he'd just ordered a beer.

"Acknowledged."

"Heero, are you absolutely sure you're safe to work? You've never recovered memories like this."

"I am okay to work, but I want a leave of absence starting tomorrow."

"Yeah," Duo chimed in. "We're going to Maui and we ain't coming back."

"Fine. Whatever. Get these people taken care of."

Heero touched his ear and closed the connection. The man who'd tortured Duo stared up at him. Heero stared back as if he weren't even there.

"Move people! You had your treatment plans before they even got here!"

Heero gave a nod. He regretted the five minutes that episode had cost him. If his patient died, he was really going to regret it.

As soon as he moved on, headed towards the OR he had assigned himself, Ann leaned close, looking into this man's face. "Who the hell are you?"

Dangerous Valentines Chapter One

2011-02-21T01:24:00.000-08:00

Dangerous Valentines

by pinkwhirlwind

Disclaimers: I don't own Gundam Wing. I think Bandai does in the US. I writing this story as original and fan fic because I couldn't make up my mind and well, Heero and Duo are just more fun.

Setting: After EW by quite a bit. The boys are late twenties. Heero is a doctor. Duo is Preventer. They're married.

"Happy anniversary," Heero whispered into Duo's ear. "You're the sexiest man alive."

Heero's voice warmed everything. That warmth made Duo feel like he was the center of the world. He shivered, rolled towards his lover. "Best seven years of my life. What's this?"

"Eight ounces of fresh squeezed orange juice, two servings," Heero paused. Duo's violet eyes watched Heero with a familiar combination of sternness and adoration. Heero smiled apologetically. "I brought you breakfast. It's Valentine's Day."

"Gonna be my valentine," Duo asked as he propped himself up on one elbow.

Heero sat down, one knee bent. He set the tray where Duo could get to his breakfast. "I had this idea."

"Go on," Duo said. He smiled, brown bangs framing his face. He reached right past the breakfast to caress Heero's cheek. "God, you're beautiful, Heero. I love you."

He caught Duo's hand, kissed his palm, sucked on the tip of a finger. "I love you too. So I was thinking, we'd both call in today, catch a shuttle to Maui, lay on the sand for hours, surf a bit, have some fantastic dinner, fuck each other till dawn, whine about the world all day at work the next day."

"Oh baby," Duo agreed, his hand slipping under the loose edge of Heero's boxers, up to gently take hold of his cock. Stroking encouragingly, he gave Heero a gentle tug. "Fuck me?"

"When we get to Maui. On the plane maybe. We'll get a suite. We haven't had intercourse in the air in years."

Duo traced his tongue over his lips, making sure that Heero was watching. Sometimes life had been hard for them. The wars had left both of them with days when passion was more of a wish than possibility. Even after they'd gotten married, there had been years of Duo working cases that took him undercover, took him off planet for weeks, even months a couple of times. Medical school hadn't given Heero any time or spare energy either, but even during his residency, there had ever been any thought that their marriage wasn't where both of them really wanted to be.

"Now. Not Maui, not somewhere else. Here. Now." Duo said. He kicked a the sheet and moved the tray setting it on the floor at the foot of the bed. "Strip."

"Demanding little bastard," Heero accused affectionately. He slipped out of his boxers though. At twenty-five, he'd fought in two wars, been shot seven times, had scars on his body that even Duo didn't know where they were from, survived an abduction that nearly cost him all his memories and everything that made him who he was, made it through medical school, and as far as Duo was concerned, there was not a more beautiful human being any where. Heero moved with a taunt predatory grace. His body was lean, hardened in a lab by people who cared for him less than the gang Duo had run with on the streets as a boy.

"Yes, yes, I am," Duo agreed. His hair unbound, it fanned out over the white of the pillow like black ink. He reached up under the back of the headboard to pull out a tube of lube. "I know though, that you're not going to Maui. You're going into the ER where you always go. You'll be there until I get off work. If they weren't all scared of you there, they'd probably try to make you work regular hours."

Heero took the tube of lube and knelt between Duo's bent knees. He let the tube drop to the bed as he reached to trace his fingers along a jagged white scar across Duo's belly. "I do so much better work now."

"You were seventeen. Nothing fell out and everything still works. We can test that now with some really athletic sex, if you know you feel like giving me an exam."

It took a moment for the calculation and overriding logic to back down a bit in Heero, but Duo knew they were back on the same page when a slight hint of a smile lifted the corner of Heero's mouth. "We will go to Maui soon. You're going to retire and write crime stories. I'll take up family practice. I am tired of gunshots wounds."

"Me too, baby," Duo promised. His hard cock swayed a little as he rocked his hips, knees spread. "I want to feel you in me, spreading me open."

"I think maybe you should write romances too. I read one of those last week, in the waiting room."

"What were you doing in the waiting room?" Duo curled up, grabbed the lube and started applying some to Heero's cock. Stroking the cool gel over his partner's thick manhood. It had occurred to Duo more than once over the time that they'd been lovers, that he ought to be grateful that when the assholes who had created Heero as a weapon of war had been engineering him that they hadn't decided that a decent sized penis was more weight than they wanted to pay thruster power for. Carrying fuel to power a spacecraft, especially one designed for stealth and war made every ounce count. A prostate weighed about eight ounces on average and a penis another couple ounces. The fact that Heero had both did lend some weight to the argument that his handlers hadn't meant to completely erase his humanity.

That humanity clouded over Heero's eyes as Duo stroked him. "A patient said the book was good, but didn't know how it ended. Her copy was lost, but I had seen one in the lobby. I wanted to tell her the ending. She had sustained excessive damage prior to her arrival."

Duo froze, searching Heero's eyes. "Did you get to tell her the end of the book?"

"Yes."

With a deflating sigh, Duo flopped back on the bed. "Maybe we should take off for Maui. No dead people. No criminals." He flung his arm over his eyes, feeling more melodramatic than he would have liked.

Heat enclosed his softening cock, an expert tongue slowly circling around his head. Heero's suction was clinically perfect. There was no one who knew Duo's body better. Pleasure roared back to life. The mundane world might as well have fallen away as the two of them hit orbit. Heero's fingers insisted at Duo's entrance, teasing him into relaxation, though that wasn't hard. Thinking about Heero's cock caressing his sensitive passage tightened his balls, his belly, and he spread his legs, scooting down just a little. "Fuck me!"

Heero had always been faster and stronger. With the warm euphoria of sexual pleasure swallowing him, Duo didn't even realize Heero was moving until his lover had him in his arms. "You're everything," Heero said, voice deep, focused.

Duo slid his fingers into Heero's hair. He didn't have to explain the happiness expanding his chest. "Fuck. It's gonna be a great day, Baby."

Letters to Heero 1 and 2

2011-02-20T19:54:00.001-08:00

Letters to Heero 2/?
by Pinkwhirlwind

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing.

Note: I think..maybe I'll just write fan fic for a while. The world has changed a lot and I have no Heero to watch my back. Maybe even my style of prose is lost on people. It's really time for that whole war to end. Maybe some people in the 1x2 fandom will be glad to have me.

Letter to Heero
by Pinkwhirlwind

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing.

I thought I knew you, in the war. I have you a part of me that I can never give to anyone else.

Why would you want my heart? A heart from a fucked up bastard like me?

I don't know.
Well
I guess I know.
You wouldn't.

It's less lonely in the world while I'm looking for you. Everyday I get up and there's this place in my life and heart that's meant for you.

No matter what else I do in my life, nothing's whole without you.

I hope you're happy, where ever you are

I love you, Heero.
Duo

Letter 2

Hey! Heero!

You're kind of a dumb ass, you know? Well, no, I guess you don't. Probbly me that's a dumb ass anyway. I wish you'd reply to your mails. Well, not to like tell me not to mail anymore.. I don't know.. even that might be better than silence and it won't work anyway.

So... baby, I went on a date today. Yeah, it came out as bad as it sounds, but I get lonely, you know? I miss you.

This guy... I don't think he understood half of what I was saying. I don't think that L2 twang is that bad. Maybe it's a spell, kinda, that I talk to anyone else 'cept you and my words come out all garbled?

I wonder what'd you think if you were reading these emails? I'm stupid for being crazy in love with you, uh?

Everything about you though, little shit that's too hard to describe like.. the way your lips tense when you're thinking about what to say, or the way your beautiful eyes track text on a screen, the way my skin would goose bump up from your calloused fingers.

My heart's been racing a lot lately. I'm kinda afraid it's more than just panic, like maybe I've damaged my heart. Sally warned me, back at the end of the war that some of the shit I pulled, pulling too many g's not eating right moving between grav intensities.. I didn't take her seriously then. I don't know why I should now.

Maybe the reason I can't find you is that you're not here among the living anymore. Is that it, dumb ass? You fucking went a head and got us an apartment? We ain't gonna get no house on a street of gold, but an apartment, baby. You and me.

That's fucking morose, uh? You'd kick me in the ass if you were here.

I'm so tired of being alone. Do you understand that?

I need to work harder. Make some money. Find you. You still love me, right?

Duo

Duo clicked send, sent the email off into no where. He really had to get some work done.

His apartment was small, a studio, but it had a view of tall green trees. Duo himself had settled into the darkness in ways that he would have been happy that Heero wasn't around to notice, if he'd really thought about it.

There hadn't been time for fear or depression in the war, not really. Dead childhood friends, bodies, blood, rapes, all just common, that was the way thingswereanditdidn't matter.

Right after the war, there had been Heero and things from the past didn't matternotreally.

As a child, Duo had been safe when he was eating. Eating took moments, but bad shit never happened when he was eating. In the war, burning six thousand calories a day, when he could get them, he'd been lean and agile.

Walking to the kitchen left him breathless. He wasn't completely round, but he'd always had a small frame and chocolate flavored meal packs had just gotten to be a slow suicide over the years.

His reflection in the one kitchen window caught him. Superimposed over the soft and lost man he'd become, he saw the rat like boy, trying so hard to survive. He brushed dark bangs back behind his ears. In a moment of painful clarity, he whispered, "I'm sorry. I'll fix it."

People weren't meant to live alone. People couldn't just amazingly decide that wandering alone in the world was good enough, but there had to be a little hope. He drew a slow deep breath. He'd work out today. Maybe Heero didn't want him, but he still loved Heero and that was more than nothing.

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Somewhere in the Earthspere, Heero Yuy considered checking his email.

What I'm Doing....

2011-01-30T00:16:00.001-08:00

Arthur rocks!

Arthurian legend revives for every generation. It is a voice with which we voice the best of ourselves.

Stay tuned for new Arthur stories.

Duo