JFU

Helpless

2008-08-10T00:05:00.001+05:30

I've never felt this helpless ever...its been almost 2 weeks now. I just wish that all's well and I'll get to hear the knock.

2008-07-27T01:47:00.002+05:30

I've got terrible mouth ulcer, just can't open my mouth. I'll celebrate today as a "Nod day"

Bored

2008-07-13T08:06:00.002+05:30

Never imagined this state of Indira Gandhi International Airport at Delhi, it was like hours n hours in the serpentine queues, first at the X-Ray machines....Boarding Pass Queue, followed by the longest of the immigrations procedures and finally the security check in...by this time you'd already be so much pissed that all you'd want to is cancel your ticket and get back home. this was then. And now,

It took just took 5 mins to get the boarding pass...another 5 for immigration and then 2 mins at the security check in...sweet. And yes I didn't forget the X-Ray machine. No need for any X-rays now. Yay!!! so finally I am through all this in 15 minutes.

So, now I have 2 hours and 30 mins to kill. Still no free Wifi, but I can see it surely in future. Till then my GPRS rox :)

So finally I am off to Spain....... I am going to Ibiza :)

2008-07-09T14:53:00.000+05:30

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is
a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a
might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a
has was once an are."
~ Milton Berle

2008-06-01T12:38:00.000+05:30

Another Sunday! What else is new? My horoscope assures me that I'll have a fun time cavorting with my sweetheart on the beaches of Keelawee.
Hah! The rate at which my horoscopes churn out sweethearts for me...

Is there chicken for lunch? Is there chicken for dinner?

Profound thoughts! yawn!

2008-05-29T21:15:00.002+05:30

"Chairs are not chairs, they're actually swimming pools"

2008-05-27T17:10:00.002+05:30

Wheeze!

So I know you're breathing

Love

2008-05-20T23:09:00.001+05:30

It's when I take a step backwards that I can't see where I'm going going gone
I need to time the jump to sink the shot but hesitation in mid-air leaves me undone
I should doubt when I stand and believe when I fly
Or I'll be doomed to fall back to the floor when I could have touched the sky

2008-05-12T23:16:00.001+05:30

Sometimes, I feel I am way too upbeat for my own good. When people on the other line don't respond with as much enthusiasm in their tone as me, it sort of makes me feel silly about being so gung-ho about god-alone-knows-what in the first place.

2008-04-29T09:34:00.001+05:30

Attitudes are so different when people need you.
Why do people say something, feel something and do something else?

So, so, so disappointed,

Dead

2008-04-16T14:35:00.001+05:30

Its 4 AM and I am still stuck at work..... Ahhh

Searching for PK

2008-04-16T10:22:00.002+05:30

Finally I've set my foot on the US soil. PK if you read this then leave your number here...I in Dallas for another week n free. Tried to look for your number but couldn't get it from anywhere...leave it here or mail me at gulatiankur[at]gmail[dot]com

2008-03-30T18:12:00.002+05:30

I came back from the party early....Just couldn't sit there with my mind somewhere else.
It was half past one at night, I went to balcony with my guitar and I sing another story of mine quietly. The night listens like she always does.

2008-03-28T13:41:00.002+05:30

Yesterday, I unintentional hurt someone. She's angry. I mean very angry.

I am a dud, someone kick my butt.
sorry for the pain, will never do that again! will never ever do that again !

A Promise

2008-03-26T15:01:00.000+05:30

The average nutritional value of promises is roughly zero.

Its sad.

coming back to life

2008-03-04T18:48:00.003+05:30

An year back.....when I'd taken the plunge, these were the learnings

http://my-aura.blogspot.com/2007/04/back-to-life-after-plunge.html#links

almost an year now.... I am 9/9. I also asked myself how happy I am on the scale of
1 - 10, 10 being the best. For the first time I answered 9/10. I know the only thing missing and will get to that shortly.

:)

2008-03-03T12:27:00.001+05:30

*yawn*

Pantieeees...?

2007-11-26T13:48:00.000+05:30

I went for last minute shopping to a wholesale market before I had to leave for Amsterdam, I walk into this not-so-big Jockey shop and ask the person maning the counter to show me some briefs.

"Panties?", he asked me.

"Naaaa ... actually briefs...", I said, pointing my finger at myself to indicate that I wanted stuff for me.

"Panties or shorts?", he asked me again

"Arrrrghhh .... briefs???", I said.... again.

Now he had almost lost his cool; seeing his expressions I said, "Yes. Panties! Please show me some of size L!"

Happy Diwali......

2007-11-07T17:13:00.001+05:30

Church
Originally uploaded by Ankur's

Here are the pics for three beautiful cities in Netherland. Breda(I was staying here), Rijen(Ericsson's office) and Amsterdam City....
http://www.flickr.com/photos/rukna/sets/72157602807806514/

and Happy Diwali to all of you....

2007-11-04T00:36:00.000+05:30

its a confused sort of a day...it has not yet decided what it wants to be. scattered clouds triumph temporarily over a jubilant sun and there is a constant sense of struggle and suspense...who shall win? what will the day be? and i quite empathise with the day. becuase i feel like it so many times. so many eons have been spent in agonising over which way to branch out. it must be tough for trees too, to decide which way to go, but they atleast have the comfort of the knowledge that they are going up. no, i am not depressed, just wondering what the day will choose for itself. becuase after all, it all boils down to what we choose doesnt it???

She has her way of saying that things are not fine.....Can she atleast callup.....aargh.

I am just worried.

UPDATE: Just spoke to her.....All's well....but I F#^%#%in hate her.

All buckled up - Rafting Trip

2007-10-29T14:51:00.001+05:30

all buckled up
Originally uploaded by Ankur's

Finally I uploaded all the pics of our Delhi - Bijnor - Kotdwar - Lansdowne - Rishikesh - Delhi trip........phewwww. Check em out.

Trip Pics

I DID CLIFF JUMPING TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.YAY ! It took me 20 mins to make up my heart to jump. I was just too scared....the water was spine chilling, it was fast n the rocks...Yuk...I just did. I finally did Jump. Here is it.

Amsterdam stuff coming up soooon.

Another Promise

2007-10-11T10:32:00.000+05:30

I once said that I thought of myself as a network of relationships and that when a friendship died... part of me died. Today I feel far more alive.
From now on when I'm feeling down, I'm going to sit down and think what I should feel. And then convince myself that it is what I am feeling. Others may call it denial and tell me I could become delusional. But at the end of the day life is not the events that hit you but your interpretation of them and that interpretation is a choice. It makes sense to pick the choice that I know is the right one in the deepest recesses of my soul.

So here's another promise I make to myself. Not only will I never say anything genuinely critical about anyone (though I certainly will make fun of them) I will from now on choose the appropriate response to every single thing. Period.

From now on I will do the right thing. Every time.

2007-10-08T11:47:00.000+05:30

A dazzling smile accompanied with a friendly countenance does wonders to one's mood. Even when not one word is exchanged. Aah, niceness.

Sabse peeche hum khade

2007-10-03T12:47:00.000+05:30

I finally came across a long lost song. This one is unreleased version by Silk Route from OST - Let's Enjoy or Let's Party(Don't remember exactly) Also I noticed that the few only Hindi songs that I play on guitar are of Silk Route not knowing that this one also came from their bunch.

Here's the tab...

D - x00232 (Denoted frets for top most 6th string to bottom most 1st string in guitar)
Dmaj7 - x00222
Bm - 224432
Bmadd9 - 224422
A - 002220

Intro:

D Dmaj7 D Dmaj7 Bm Bmadd9 Bm Bmadd9 A A D Dmaj D X2

D Dmaj7 D
Zara nazar utha ke dekho
Dmaj7 Bm Bmadd9 Bm
Baithe hain hum yahin
Bmadd9 A
Bekhabar mujhse kyun ho
D Dmaj7 D
Itne bure bhi hum nahi

D Dmaj7 D
Zara nazar utha ke dekho
Dmaj7 Bm Bmadd9 Bm
Baithe hain hum yahin
Bmadd9 A
Bekhabar mujhse kyun ho
D Dmaj7 D
Itne bure bhi hum nahi

D Dmaj7 D
Zamaane ki baaton mein uljho na
Dmaj7 Bm Bmadd9 Bm
Hai ye aasaan jaanna
Bm A
Khud se jo agar tum poocho
D Dmaj7 D
Hain hum tumhare ke nahi

A Bm
Teri aankhon ka jaadu
A
Poori duniya pe hai

D Dmaj7 D
Duniya ki is bheed mein
Dmaj7 Bm Bmadd9 Bm
Sabse peeche hum khade
Bmadd9 A D Dmaj7 D
Sabse peeche hum khade

Mehfilein aayi aur gayi
Log aaye aur gaye
Tum jo aaj apne ho
Dil mein ho bas gaye

Muskara ke baat talo na
Phir miloge jo kabhi
Dekhna yehi kahoge
Itne bure bhi hum nahi

Teri aankhon ka jaadu
Poori duniya pe hai
Duniya ki is bheed mein
Sabse peeche hum khade
Sabse peeche hum khade

Teri aankhon ka jaadu
Poori duniya pe hai
Duniya ki is bheed mein
Sabse peeche hum khade
Sabse peeche hum khade

courtesy: http://www.schoolofsymphony.com/upload_files/sabse_peeche_hum_khade.txt

Eyes Wide Open

2007-09-20T11:46:00.000+05:30

32 straight hours in office......still counting....

Weary eyes,
A light about to break in,
The Smile walked across