For your consideration

Ringtone

2012-01-06T18:15:00.003-06:00

I want this as my ringtone.

For Your Consideration

2011-12-28T08:17:00.000-06:00

Parents of Klang Valley, please consider sending your kids to public schools over private or "international" schools. What's more expensive is not necessarily what's better, especially schools who care to ADVERTISE.

I've been talking to some of the kids that I used to teach in Sunday School and also some younger members of my youth group. It seems there is a growing trend among them to either attend a private school, an "international school", or even to opt for their child to be "homes schooled". Basically, parents who are able are going all out, guns loaded and putting their child into all kinds of expensive learning institutions, anywhere but public schools.

Q: Am I very concerned about your kids' education?
Very honestly, I do, but evidently not enough to dedicate myself to teach.
Q: Does it affect me if you send your kids to any school but a public school?
Yes, it pisses me off that you would choose to isolate your child from the other kids.
Q: Is it my problem that you send your kids to private/international schools?
No. I just don't want it to be a problem to them in the process of developing character.

Before you start going on the defensive about the subject, please grant me the opportunity to explain myself.
I am well aware of the standards of some public schools. I am also aware that the teachers in some public schools are... shocking. And to top it off, there is a comparatively greater gang presence in public schools. These facts cannot be denied, and I agree with all of it.
With all that said, what kind of person am I to still encourage you to put your kids into the public school system?
A: The product of the public school system.

Q: How do I fair compared to my friends from private/international schools, now that I'm in an American university?
Academically, there is no difference in scores and grades.
Socially, I mingle with people of all social classes and all social groups. That's right, from top scholars to gangsters, and also those who even failed as gangsters. From devout religious believers to atheists, to the politically passive, political left and political right. It may seem like a big network, but it's just real people in the community.
Finally, in terms of the Malaysian identity issue, my knowledge of Malaysian history is what sets me apart. Although the world today is a global village, our unique regional origin gives us an identity that defines part of us. Without it, we are consumed by modernization and become insignificant. We try so hard to learn the history of others instead of exploring our own. Without a knowledge on regional history and culture, we will be seen as a machine without a soul, created for a purpose, with nowhere to call home when our purpose is expired. We may return, but to a land which does not have any significance in our hearts.

Let's talk about the education system and national general studies syllabi.
From my experience, I never had a problem with it (school system). My grades? They are mediocre because I was the kind of student that does not put in much effort outside of school and the tuition classes (also necessary because of my lack of interest). Procrastination? Yes, I am the supporting evidence to my attitude throughout schooling. I was more interested in playing badminton. Correction, I was only interested in playing badminton.
Comparing the 4-month semester system (American) and the Malaysian academic year system, I would prefer the Malaysian system for general education (primary school & secondary school) and then the American system for tertiary education. This is exactly what I went through and I wouldn't want it any different. To put it into perspective, the knowledge that I gained during the primary and secondary level of schooling is honestly very basic knowledge, I would say are the foundations of common sense in today's society. Except for Pendidikan Moral, I agree that it is the epitome of stupidity that exists within the MOE for executing a failed design.
Q: So why are some kids failing to cope with their studies in primary and secondary schools?
Because it is impossible to learn without putting in some form of effort. I know it, you know it, kids know it as well but somehow their excuses makes sense. Don't study hard, but study smart. Always easier in theory, but almost impossible to execute.
Q: You're just saying all these after going through it, aren't you?
I don't know how to respond to this. I've been through it and telling you the obvious. Please stop blaming the teacher and everyone else for the lack of effort from your child.
Q: Should I punish my child for getting bad grades?
Go for it. Beat them. Child abuse policies can be viewed in two perspectives. It was created to protect children from parental abuse. However, it has quickly turned into something for the kids to manipulate and use against the parents. So don't be afraid of it, parents of Klang Valley, JUST BEAT YOUR KIDS WHENEVER YOU SEE FIT. They don't know the number to the necessary authorities.

I went through the Mandarin medium for sciences and mathematics in primary school, Malay medium for sciences and mathematics in high school, and now I learn them in English.
Q: Did I face any difficulty/obstacles going through all the transitions?
If it is not already obvious to you, then yes, I did find it challenging to learn the specific terms in all three languages.
Q: How did you overcome them?
By constantly repeating them to myself, something like how you memorize your wedding vows. Tough, but it has to be done.
Q: Do you think the language transition was necessary?
No, I don't think they were necessary. If possible, learning it in the same language would have made it much easier. However, I have to say I gained the ability to understand professional articles in all three languages and it has given me an edge over my international peers, as the two major languages used in professional articles (research journals, reviews, etc) are Mandarin and English. It's a classic half empty/half full dilemma. Whichever way you see it is how it will affect you. So it is really not the problem that is relevant. What matters is how you perceive it.

Moving on to the syllabi on all subjects, I think there is nothing so awful about it that they should be rejected. In fact, I think quite highly about the standards of our syllabi. What's bothering everybody is how the scores are skewed to benefit the MOE's report card.
If there were anything wrong with the syllabi, or if they were so under-par, there shouldn't be any problem for our hardworking kids to score all As.
There's really no excuse.

So Parents of Klang Valley, please consider sending your kids to public schools over private/international schools.

But wait! What about the quality of the teachers?
A: Some are definitely very inspiring, and then some others... Shocking.

There are very dedicated teachers in a lot of public schools. We all wish to gather them into one school and send our kids there. But we all know that it will not happen.
Q: Why are you so pessimistic all of a sudden?
I'm only being realistic. Please consider your own impression on public school teachers. What do you think of them? Let's be honest here. You think lowly of them. You would much rather that your child becomes a wealthy businessman or some other "dignified" occupation like a doctor, an engineer, a lawyer, an architect, a scientist...etc, anything but a lowly public school teacher.
"They probably couldn't make it in the commercial field, so they teach."
"What can you expect from a public school teacher?"
Let's be honest here. These are the most common comments on public school teachers, combined with a disapproving snicker. The kids see the disapproval in your eyes about being a teacher. So the brightest minds will quickly reject the ambition to be a teacher in their young minds. And it sticks. The moment they grow up, the attitude follows.
Naturally, those who apply to be teachers, are naturally the ones who are discarded by the commercial world. Who's fault is it? It's YOUR fault.
And do you think these "misfits" deserve a high pay? Of course not.

BUT! I must acknowledge the noble characters who have proven themselves worthy of their overdue recognition as dedicated, well-qualified, patient, and hardworking teachers. If you think your child is impossible, they handle 100 folds of that stress on a daily basis, 50 students in each class, one parent from each kid.
Because blaming the teacher is trending now.

Another thought

2011-12-28T02:02:00.003-06:00

A person who is nice to you,
but is not nice to the waiter,
the parking valet,
the pump attendant,
the cashier...
is not a nice person.

A thought.

2011-12-23T14:58:00.002-06:00

At the peak of ecstasy, time and space gives way to euphoria to fly by. It is like a fantasy. But at the depths of sorrow, every passing moment is as bitter, if not worse. It seems more real.

Which part of "No" do you fail to comprehend?

2011-12-22T03:59:00.001-06:00

Recent developments in a church that I attend here in Lincoln, Nebraska led me to think hard about how far I want to get involved with serving in church, and how close I want to be with my church members, aka "church-friends".

So the semester is over and there are so much "church" going on because it is now "the season for it". Our pastor has been inviting people to his home, for dinners, for sharing...etc. Despite what I am about to rant on, I love Christmas. I love to sing carols and I love to tell the story of Mary and Joseph.

Here's what. There's a camp called "faithwalkers" happening in Omaha, and almost everyone I associate with at church are going. And the uneasiness quickly dug a line between me, and them (the ones who are attending). What's the big deal of me deciding not to participate in the camp?

Is it a church camp? No.

Is it a camp that I have to attend? No.

Will I be more of a Christian if I took part in it? No.

Is it mandatory for all Christians to attend? No.

Is it an exciting camp? Probably yes.

Will God be at the camp? Yes, AND HE'S ALSO IN MY APARTMENT!!!

So what am I doing if I am not attending the camp? I have my own things to do. I signed up for a volunteer trip to South Africa and I am raising funds for it. Though that does not mean I cannot set aside time to go for the camp, I just don't want to go.

Person: Hey do you want to go to faithwalkers?

Me: No.

Person: Hmm, what's preventing you from going? Come on, you should come with us, it'll be fun!!

Me: The fuck.....

(I have low tolerance for people who are trying to push me into something)

Have you been in similar situations? What has a church come to these days that church-goers have to do everything together and go to every single event that involved a significant amount of its members? And what would become of a "defector"? I don't know how wrong I am and I don't know if what I'm thinking is right either. I just think that whatever the church members are doing, do not pressure others into it, especially when you preach that God does not value the half-hearted.

On a final note, the Malaysian that ticked me off, your discriminatory attitude of everything Malaysian disgusts me. So fuck off into your own little world and continue kissing everything-American's ass.

Why is he sad?

2011-12-04T22:58:00.001-06:00

I believe there are many of our peers and friends who have the same thoughts and experiences behind closed doors.

If we can't even tell that they are tearing apart inside, how would it be possible to know what God has in store for them?

Let's not judge and punish, lest we be judged and punished.

这是我个人最喜欢的中文歌词

2011-12-04T02:54:00.001-06:00

關於戀愛症候群的發生原因　至今仍然是最大一個謎
不管性別年齡職業體重學歷長相和血型　沒有一個人可以免疫
有些專家學者研究後相信　戀愛是內分泌失調所引起
卻有別人認為戀愛屬於濾過性病毒　像感冒無藥可救但會自動痊癒
不管你同不同意　自古到今許多例子證明
戀愛不但是一種病態　它還可能是一種變態

一般發病後的初期反應會開始改變一些生活習性
洗澡洗得特別乾淨　刷牙刷得特別用力　半夜突然爬起來彈鋼琴
有人每天站在陽臺對路人傻笑　有人突然瘋瘋癲癲　突然很安靜
有人一臉癡呆　對著鏡子咬著指甲打噴嚏　有人對著小狗罵三字經
女人突然改變髮型　男人開始每天練著啞鈴
食慾不振歇斯底里四肢萎縮神經過敏發抖抽筋都出現在這時期

隨著病情越來越變本加厲　人會變得格外敏感勇敢和噁心
寫的說的唱的都像天才詩人一般才華洋溢　愈肉麻愈覺得有趣
有人戀愛之後每天躲在廁所哭泣　有人開記者會宣佈戀愛的消息
有人總是喜歡兩個人躲在黑漆漆的地方　像做了不可告人的事情
每天忙著找人算命　挖空心思改變自己　配合對方的習性
把每天都當作紀念日　把自己當作紀念品
每天漫無目的的膩在一起　言不及意也覺得好有趣
走著坐著躺著趴著都形影不離　像是兩人三腳又像連體嬰
心裡想的只有愛你愛你愛你愛你　也不管家裡米缸有沒有米
也不管路上有人示威抗議　只管愛你
心裡想的只有愛你愛你愛你愛你　也不管海峽兩岸統一問題
也不管衣索匹亞多少難民　只管愛你

經過一段轟轟烈烈熱戀時期　不久就會開始漸漸痊癒
兩人開始互相厭倦　互相攻擊對方缺點　所有甜蜜都隨風而去
然後開始從錯覺和誤解中清醒　驚訝自己為何如此不聰明
為了愛情不管一切　不顧父母朋友姐妹兄弟　開始感到後悔不已
然後開始感到疲憊沉悶氣喘心悸牙痛頭痛夢囈
然後是精神不濟瞳孔放大脾氣暴燥四肢麻痺　終於受不了要分離

雖然結果頗令人傷心　瞭解之後也沒什麼了不起
愛情終究是握不住的雲　只是我想要告訴你
哦......在我落寞的歲月裡　妳的溫柔解脫我的孤寂
帶給我深深的狂喜　如此顫動著我的心靈
輕輕訴說愛你愛你愛你愛你　不管是黑夜或是黎明
不管是夢中或是清醒　深深愛你
我要對你說愛你愛你愛你愛你　不管是黑夜或是黎明
不管是夢中或是清醒　深深愛你
多麼幸福　讓我遇見你

The Riddle of Epicurus

2011-11-21T20:46:00.001-06:00

If God is willing to prevent evil,
but is not able to
Then He is not omnipotent.

If He is able,
but not willing,
Then He is malevolent.

If He is both able and willing,
Then there would be no evil.

If He is neither able nor willing,
Then He is not a God.

2011-11-17T00:07:00.001-06:00

I weep for her children
Her children wrapped in stained rag
The stained rag she bought from a thief.
She cries out in pain
But the drug has crippled her legs.
She cannot move, she cannot run.

A gentlemen with a walking stick strolled by
He hears her plea and he hears her cry
"What's going on here?" he asked the thief
"This maid tried to steal from me" was the reply.
The gentleman nodded and left the woman there to die.

A crowd built up and watched the beating.
With bookies taking bets as the thief whacked.
Honest men judged loudly
But they were silenced by the bookies.

A construction worker stood out to pull her
To pull her away from the beatings of the thief.
The punishment stopped but her arms were stretched
As four innocent children watch in tears

The Truvia Song

2011-11-05T00:45:00.000-05:00

I love you sweetness.
But you're not sweet,
you make my butt fat.
You drove me insane.
Self-control down the drain.
We're over I'm so done with that.
I found a new love,
A natural true love that comes from a little green leaf.
Zero calorie
Guilt-free
No artificiality
My skinny jeans zipped in relief
Its name is Truvia
I had no idea
No more sprinkling my coffee with grief.

Truvia, honestly sweet.

Disclaimer: I don't use Truvia, I love sugar, I love sweetness, I don't mind the calories. But I love the ad.

I am not mine.

2011-10-23T02:03:00.001-05:00

Have you ever had a similar feeling, as if you're not yourself anymore. Or to put it into a third-person perspective, you do not belong to you anymore.

What used to be such a large part of me, that defines me, no longer wants to be part of me.

Then an image appeared in my mind.

The image of a good man, seated on the floor.

His hands wrapping his knees as his forehead gently rests on his two knees.

And I am looking at him, like a stranger.

That good man, is who I was.

But he looks different.

I do not recognize him.

I am not that good man anymore.

基督教与同性恋

2011-10-18T03:48:00.000-05:00

最近在教会里，Ben Lennander 牧师触碰了关于婚姻的课题。当然这也不是我第一次在基督教会聆听基督教对于“婚姻”的理想。早在美佳堂的时候就常听到类式的课题。

圣经对婚姻的理想我就不再三强调了。
我想分享的是“基督教真的不能容纳同性恋吗？”

圣经里所记载的，我就不再罗嗦了，相信大家也非常的清楚。
但是我想介绍给各位认识的是Ward Odenwald 还有 Shang-Ding Zhang。他们在基因上的实验成功地培植了同性恋的雄性苍蝇。这表示了一些同性恋者是真的没选择，一出生就是同志，如同你和我一样。

你可能想争论说,“那是苍蝇，怎么能跟人比较呢？”
朋友，你我体内体外都是拜基因所定的模样，就和苍蝇一样。那么，如果事实已证明这同性恋的基因是存在的，为什么就不可能在人类的身上发挥其特征呢？　
既然同性恋者的存在是真实的，是基因所定的，一出生就是那样子的，基督教徒又为什么那么排斥他们，否定他们呢？甚至还要说同性恋是罪的结果，是被撒旦鬼魂缠住了，要在教会里乱念圣经金句，乱区魔。。。等等。

我们口口声声说：“耶稣爱你，上帝爱你。”
难道你的上帝就选择性地只爱异性恋者吗？那他所创造的同性恋者怎么办？弄出来玩的吗？
难道我们就能对着他们的面说：“对不起，你的存在是被诅咒的。”。。。

请问以上的文字，是你所认识的上帝会说的话吗？

朋友，难道同性恋者就不是父母亲之间的爱的结晶品，不是上帝所造的吗？
怀胎时教友们是怎么祝福的？
发现性向时应该是好事，是思想上成长的象征，不再模糊。。。不对吗？

我是基督教徒。就算现在主流基督教不能接受同性恋者，我相信基督是不曾那样看待他们的。我更相信圣经里所记载的，和主流派对它的理解，是有着稍微的不一样。

就算我的理解是错的，排斥及远离同性恋也是与基督的态度风格相反的。

童年

2011-10-17T00:36:00.001-05:00

最近我的心情有点复杂。虽然没有被周边的杂事影响，但是双肩却感觉到莫名地压力。满脑子想着她，想着宗教，想着自己的原则、模糊的前途，还有眼前好吃的巧克力蛋糕。。。想着想着，我回到了童年时对着爸爸，妈妈，姐姐还有妹妹秀一些自己认为很厉害的东西，搞得他们喷饭大笑，要不然就是挨骂。

重点是从开始叫他们“看！”的心情，你也一定记得吧。那时侯的我，可是真的认为我秀的东西很特别，是很厉害的。

曾听一位重量级人物，George Bernard Shaw说：

"We don't stop playing because we get old, we get old because we stop playing."

我能够理解他这番话。但是我不能明白的是他是怎么样能够在他的领域里那么优秀，又有了如此这般，算是现代人类思想上改革性的领悟呢？

我相信这应该是非凡的大智慧，在人群中分出高人的界限吧。而我对它的理解，就夹在“明白”和“亲生体会”之间。

想到“玩”应该是很高兴的。我最后一次真正象一个小孩一样地高兴、去玩，已经是数年前了。你呢？

My Condolences

2011-09-30T18:10:00.000-05:00

This is not appropriate at all but here's what I used to think.

Growing up in a Christian family, and all my closest friends are friends at church, I used to question why everyone is sad when someone dies.

I used to assume that everyone was a Christian and goes to their own churches. So basically, my logic was that anyone that dies in this world would go to heaven. And I don't understand why going to heaven was worth crying over. Instead, members of the deceased family should be the happiest because one of them gets to go to heaven and be with God and his gang of angels.

It may be a naive perspective, but to a certain extent, I think it remains relevant in the sense that instead of focusing on the loss, we should rejoice in the afterlife, for the deceased is now back together with our creator, with God.

Of course this point of view is not exclusive to Christians only. Nobody knows for sure which God is the true God, and which religion is the "right" religion to follow, or the right choice between monotheism and polytheism. I cannot tell you that either. However, in the context of your religion (the one that you practice, are affiliated to and firmly believe in) I believe there is more joy than sorrow in death.

For atheists, if you're reading, I am not talking to you. We're celebrating the 111th anniversary of Nietzsche's death too, don't worry. I'm pretty sure God takes delight in his ingenuity.

The Malaysian Identity

2011-09-27T02:11:00.000-05:00

What's the big deal of being Malaysian? I never had a problem with identifying myself as a Chinese Malaysian, but then it struck me one day.

Why can't I just be a Malaysian?

It's fascinating that it is easy for Americans to say "I'm an American", but at home, anarchy might just blow up in my face every time the topic comes up whenever and wherever the Prime Minister is involved. It is not only between the people and him, but even between himself and his deputy. Long story short, he launched the 1Malaysia campaign with an expensive motto "Malaysian first, Malay second". However his deputy responded with "Malay first, Malaysian second".
Only a total idiot would think that the two statements do not contradict each other. Unfortunately, the total idiot was the dpm, the number 2 in command. Well, I'm not going to focus on that. There is enough shit being thrown at the pm and the dpm on their disunity.

Why is there such a need for us, individual Malaysians to mention our racial group, right after our nationality?

I don't hear a lot of Americans saying that they are Polish American, German American, Kenyan American, Indian American...etc. They would identify themselves as Americans, all of them. First generation immigrants would be identified as immigrants (pendatang), but their children born in America would be Americans because they are born in America.

The same concept is applied in Malaysia too. Immigrants would be immigrants because they were not born in Malaysia, and their kids born in Malaysia after August 31, 1957 would be granted the status of a citizen, a Malaysian. However, kids of these kids are still being labelled as immigrants by a small group of the right wing politicians till this day. What's worse is that these individuals chanting such seditious statements run free even with the Internal Security Act in full effect.

Is there justice in Malaysia?
Yes, there is. Justice is and will be served most of the time when it is convenient.

Am I speaking the truth or "demonizing" the current government?
No, I'm merely reporting the impression I have from reading Malaysian political news. If even this is to be considered seditious, there is really no place for science and/or any sort of education.

So who am I really?

I am a Malaysian.

My father is a Malaysian.

The Chinese Malaysian is my late grandfather, a Chinese national in Malaysia.

Get it right. You're holding a Malaysian passport too.

Sentiments ont été si profondément, m'a raconté comment se laisser aller

2011-09-27T02:01:00.001-05:00

J'aime vous insistez, peut-être le symbole naïf.

2011-09-24T15:31:00.002-05:00

今天，我认识了“解压”。它具有女性的魅力，让我微微地笑了。

2011-09-15T23:54:00.001-05:00

我想要控制的东西，竟然控制了我的生命。

Distance

2011-08-19T17:20:00.005-05:00

“只在乎曾经拥有”...是哪个白痴胡言乱语？又哪个白痴相信了？

2011-08-09T01:11:00.002-05:00

It's a little bit strange
This peace inside of me.
I'm not the kind that can easily hide
these feelings inside.

As they do appear to be a little bit familiar
a song to sing for what would have been
and the birds and the bees
but the emptiness still creeps up to me

"Would you be my Valentine"
these are the words that are lost in time
Drenched in the tune of sublime
with slices of bread and a bottle of cheap wine.

Judge me.

2011-06-28T02:53:00.003-05:00

This summer, I realized that Christians who's circle of close friends are limited to members of the church are trying really hard to live a lie.

This summer, I realized that the people constantly talking into people's faces about Christianity could tell that their welcome is spent but press on anyways.

This summer, I am sick and tired of "Christians" who tells non-believers that their beliefs and conduct are wrong, instead of sharing the Gospel, and their personal experience.

This summer, I realized that Christians need to establish genuine friendships, rather than blindly spreading the Gospel, because I think everyone needs a religious friend and a spiritual friend, and I might as well be one that they can have a beer with and use the language that they are comfortable with.

This summer, I acknowledged five genuine friends.

This summer, a sudden need to yell built up inside me. Because it is stressful for a Malaysian to learn about Malaysian news.

This summer, I realized that I am too naive.

This summer, God has revealed himself to me through my new genuine friends.

This summer, I found the line between what's secular and what's religious.

This summer, I was introduced to myself and reintroduced to the people I know.

July 9, 2011. Tanah Tumpahnya Darahku.

2011-06-20T00:26:00.002-05:00

For years we looked upon the same stripes, crescent moon and star, and for 54 years we sang "Negaraku". Was it a prophecy embedded in the lyrics? Or was it a song about history? It doesn't appear to reflect the current state of the nation, where freedom of speech seem to only be applicable to IA, without boundaries.

If our young nation's history had taught us anything, it has thought us about the destruction racial segregation can bring about. However, some folks today have failed to take any lesson from the riots of 1969, and they are reviving the supremacist ideology, and bringing it to a whole new level, involving political parties, NGOs, demanding cooperation from the police, and sending out death threats to the non-Malays. What happened? If anything, I would assume that nothing will appear too different from the same mold. How and where did these racist extremists come from?

Despite growing up in a multi-ethnic society, why did they fail to recognize and acknowledge the citizenship of other races? Evidence of this sort shook the nation when public school principals instructed non-Malay students to take the next plane "back to where they came from". We went through the same education syllabus, with rich moral contents and messages of unity. How did the apple fall so far from the tree? One would think that someone thought it to them, and they grew up in an environment that promotes such hatred, that has been leading them astray with extreme teachings of racial supremacist, enemies of the race, and fictitious "war" between them and other racial groups

My heart bleeds upon learning such news. A peaceful rally for clean and fair elections is met with the death threat, not on an individual or a group, but the words were "Chinese and Indians". My heart bleeds for my country.

Hacktivits were here.

2011-06-15T21:54:00.002-05:00

So, if you've read recent news, a certain country's online portals have been hacked, and some shut down. That country is where I come from, her name is Malaysia. And if you can pin-point where Malaysia is on the globe within 3 seconds, congratulations! You have won yourself a free iPad 2!

There were some mixed feelings about what happened. To sum up, I hate the current administration. So an attack like that almost appears as an attack on the governing party, which makes me happy.
But then Malaysia was brought to the world's eye this time to be displayed as what's stereotypical of how Hollywood portrays Malaysia all the time: corrupt, dumb, run by duplicates of Shirley Phelps-Roper and Sarah Palin, but Muslim. This is not good at all. I hate it.

However, were the attacks justified? No matter how I see it, the hacktivists merely did it because they can. Serving up "justice" beyond the order of the law is no different than breaking the law. I like and hate what they did, but their actions made them no different than our corrupt ministers.
Well, I blame it on the republicans. It's complicated. I hate free market.

*Reminder: Father's Day is this weekend! OMGWTFBBQ!!!*

玩Malaysia

2011-06-14T01:04:00.003-05:00

Boss: Malaysian first!
Vice: But I am born Malay... I am Malay first! (throws a temper tantrum and cries)

Look man, I want to believe in the spirit behind the 1Malaysia slogan, to be Malaysian first. The campaign started off great, but it lacked actual content. And then being the deputy, you have to screw the Rakyat over by claiming to be Malay first? And go on to say that it's not contradicting?
Look man, the Rakyat is stupid. But no matter how stupid we are, your rhetoric is just too far below the bottom line, AND it does contradict the 1Malaysia spirit. No matter how many times you say "it does not contradict", it still does! I mean, have you looked into the mirror and repeat "I am thin" and then you just suddenly slim down? No!
Let's simplify it so you can understand what you just said.

Money first. Currency second.
You: Currency first. Money second.

Newspaper first. Utusan Malaysia second.
You: Utusan Malaysia first. Newspaper second.

Malaysian first. Malay second.
You: Malay first. Malaysian second.

If you still fail to see how wrong you are, I hereby grant you the use of "Dungu Besar" as suffix to your name.

2011-06-01T21:45:00.002-05:00

我觉得我现在的精神状况处于一个非常不健康的状态。

脑子里异常地专注，想着一个人，她是我非常爱的人。

我想念她，我想见她。我满脑子里想的都是她。

曾经听教授说到:"一个健康的爱情是互相建立的。没了对方的存在不会对本身的生活有着任何的影响。”

我想着想着，这教授的太太若不是心理学家听了这一句应该就离婚了吧！我虽然是心理专科，也很难了解这到底是何方的道理，又是怎么领悟的呢？观察着自己本身远距离恋爱，对女朋友的思念可能就已到了极限吧。难道我这就陷入了不健康的阶段吗？这应该是属于正常的反应，没那么严重吧。。。

我现在需要的是定力。若能战胜这种心灵，心理的考验，我就能明确的知道我又长大了。

她需要的是一个可靠的男人，而我现在还是个男孩。我需要的是她的耐心等待。
在不久的将来，我一定要给咱们彼此的家人一个完美的交代。

加油！！