Joeelaine's diary

To Jeremy... God's love...

2012-01-07T02:07:00.002+08:00

To My Dearest Jeremy,

Hi, boy, how are you? Hope you are at peace and safe in Our Savior's Love...

Dear baby, I have to confess to you, my darling....

You came into our life, when papa first saw you during his neurosurgical- posting. He saw you all alone in the big cot, all by yourself and with no one around you. Unlike the other babies; who had their parents close to them, taking good care of them with love and patience; you had no one. Papa immediately fell in love with you and ever since then, he told me all about you. He told me how he felt about you and was keen and persistent on taking you as our own. I was initially shocked and dumbfounded by papa's decision... I regretfully must admit that I did not have the similar feeling as what your papa had in the beginning my darling...

Remember the time we first met? It was in the hospital. You were about to be discharged back to the RKK and papa brought me to see you. I finally got to see and meet the baby who changed my husband’s life. I got to finally touch you and find what was in you that rocked him. Once again I failed to see and feel what your papa saw and felt. I was a little upset and worried because I knew you came into our lives for a reason and I can’t seem to find it. I did not see you as my own, but just another baby; another "special" baby who came to the clinic for regular follow up. Subconsciously I started examining and checking you as I wanted to see for myself that you were properly treated and cared for. I guess you may call it my subconscious maternal instincts. Maybe me being an eye medical officer I wanted to make sure your visions was ok as your papa told me you were diagnosed to have ROP. I wanted make you sure that apart from you being premature you were healthy before I nodded to papa's suggestion on taking you as our own.... Sayang, I have to be frank, I did not have confidence of taking care of you, I am so sorry to say that, dear baby!

I saw the records and it said that you had ROP and I was so worried about your vision and the extra care needed to take you It was stated as ROP grade IV and I told papa about the risk of you being blind or close to being blind but to my astonishment your papa wasn’t bothered about any of your medical condition in fact, I saw papa' face glow when he played with you, I felt confused. I was not sure what to do. Part of me wanted to take support your papa but on the other, I could not lie to myself that I would take good care of you without any difficulties. Your papa kept saying you were perfect and he saw Jesus in you. To be honest, that made me even more confused and worried. I have not been in this situation before, I have never been raised to deal with these new emotions that I’m feeling now and all this is so very new to me.

After that, we never met, I knew papa, aunt Dina, and amachi visited you frequently and that made them feel so attached to you... I only get to know from papa about you at the home; only got to hear from papa about your progress, about how you fixed your eyes on him when he came to you. I could only ask papa to ask our fellow medical friends about your eye condition and I frequently discussed with my seniors and specialists here based on what papa told me... I know I have been missing or ignoring the chance to see you, to touch you. Papa had always wanted to take me to see you, but I have been resisting. Papa kept telling me that you are God's gift to us and he tried to convince me to have faith but.... I have been resisting, I am so sorry, baby. I was fearful, feared to handle you, feared to cope with the difficult situation while taking care of you, fear of the needs of frequent hospital visit, fear of how others will see me, how others will judge me, feared that if I became emotionally attached to you and if ever you were to leave me, I will be devastated. I was angry with myself for feeling the way I did and torn between my emotions.

Papa told me the vision he had of you, running with your siblings, pushing down the Christmas tree as he said you have a "naughty cheeky” look. I at times, enjoyed those visions myself. I was just too scared to decide... I felt suffocated sometimes... I felt suffocated to commit... I know I would not be able to do it; I just could not force myself... Sorry, dear!

I became emotionally drifted. Whenever papa told me about you, I became emotional, trying hard not to listen whenever there is discussion about you, trying not to be involved, and worse, I fought with your papa, just about you! ... Then came that day when papa told me you were sick. I only could get to know about your progress from papa. I knew you were intubated, and was on triple inotropes and your condition was not promising. Papa told me you were dying. I asked papa to baptize you, at that critical moment, so if you were to ever leave, you will go to our Father... but, still I wasn’t feeling what I was supposed to feel. That made me more angry and confused.

I came back home for Christmas. Everyone was talking about you. To be honest, I felt suffocated, I was not happy with the idea and assumptions everyone made that I have accepted to mother you. I was actually planning to be a sponsor for a start but I have to be frank, it was a huge, difficult decision to make to take you. I was not confident at all. It was a huge commitment to make. When papa made the decision to take me to visit you on the day of my arrival in Ipoh, I was not happy, I was not ready, I felt burdened being “forced” to see you, felt burdened being “forced” to commit, I just felt annoyed! I was tired after driving, and the first thing before I got to rest, I was brought to see you…

It finally hit me when I went to see you, looking at all the tubes in you, and around you, I was shocked. I did not know that you were so ill. I was still trying to be practical, trying to swallow all the tears, trying to be a strong and tough person. Yet, I still tried to avoid touching you, I chose to sit outside after seeing you the first time, refused to step into the room again, I chose to just wait outside… I refused to feel attached with you. It took a while for me to nod to see you and to touch you again…

I knew there was little chance for you to wake up, but at times, seeing some of your improvement, I was hoping that you will receive miracle from Father. I saw your tears, I saw how you moved, and I whispered to myself, if it really meant to be, you and I will be mother and son. I was excited to see your response when we talked to you, moved you, touched you and to wake you up. When the nurses told me saw you once opening the eyes, I was delighted, rushed to tell papa the news. I was excited to shop for you, I felt happy to buy you clothes with papa, I feel happy to put on the caps and gloves and socks on you... I was excited thinking about you opening your eyes. The doctors say even if you wake up, there will be neurological deficit, but I fought back, in my heart, if you were to wake up, one day, all will be cured! I felt worried seeing you desaturate and saw you becoming bradycardic, I saw you trying hard to breath with effort, I was really hoping to see you opening your eyes. Then Christmas day came and I was excited to bring your presents to the hospital. I also saw how papa wept for you, while trying to opening you gifts. I was shocked as I have never seen papa cry like that before... but, part of me was fighting against what I saw, why everyone was so attached with you?
At times, I was still fighting, wondering why everyone so attached to you? It may make me wonder if I am heartless. Cold blooded? I felt I was left out. Felt awkward to stay there as another individual, felt not being part of the group, felt ignored... But, isn't this what I asked for from the beginning, not to get involved? Then why did I feel angry? I then realized, I wanted to be involved since the very beginning.... Part of me, wanting you while the other part of me feared to commit and tried to fight to be tough and practical....

On the night you left us, I was speechless receiving the news from your papa at our dinner. I could not believe. Less than 6 hours ago, you were showing signs of improvement and suddenly receiving news like this. Everyone was crying, but I was still trying hard to hold the tears until I touched you and carried your cold lifeless body where I finally I felt what I was meant to feel. I felt you. I felt the love I had for you. It was then I cried out all that was in me. I cried like you were mine and from me. I could not hold back anymore.

Is it because of me? Was it because of my resistance that you were taken away? Why am I so heartless?

I keep picturing you, with the photos papa and Auntie Dina sent me from email, and keep thinking the atmosphere in the hospital when you left us, when we touched and held your body, when we put on the clothes for you, and when they took you to the mortuary... Tears kept pouring from my eyes... Darling, I have so much of regret that I did not have enough time with you. Sorry, darling...

Remember, darling, Jesus loves you more and that is why He took you away to Him, I know you at peace now and happy to be with Him. There is no more pain and suffering. The world is too cruel for an innocent baby like you. You will always be loved and cherished in our hearts. To make it complete baby; you lived up to your name; Jeremy which means “God will raised up” and that was what He did. I will always love you my son.

Darling, you will always be in my memory and you will always be my son!

Love,
Mom

Nice Japanese dining ! Slurpps!

2011-11-07T17:54:00.000+08:00

Have been longing to go to this Japanese Restaurant, heard from friends, the food there is superb nice... Planned and went there with mom and brothers for birthday celebration...

When we reached there, we almost lost our way in the beginning as the shop is not some colorful exterior design, but it is themed black! A black color restaurant, kinda cool actually! :)

However, we were amazed by the decorations and the atmosphere, it does feel like dining in Japan. Nevertheless, the waiter warned us from sitting at the Tatami seats as the air-cond will not be on till more customers arrive, Err... minus point for service...

Any way, the food here is really nice...

The interior

We do order few nice food, too busy with the savory, succulent salmon fishes, the sushi roll, and etc etc etc, did not manage to take all the photos, but hehe, do download some from on line..

The whole lunch was ermm, delicious! Two Thumbs up from each of us...

succulent juicy salmon slices

Fresh Salmon rice and the salmon roes with rice, they do have salmon and scallops rice as well

Fresh Tuna slices

This is our favorite, the squid is so fresh and delicious and crispy!

Apart from that, they do serve steamboat, Teppanyaki...

Will definitely visit again.... hehehe, till to save up a bit before that actually... it is bit pricey, but it is worth it!

This is the address:
Block C-G-10, Jalan Metro Perdana 3, Taman Usahawan Kepong, 52100 KL.

with Love!

2011-10-29T23:42:00.003+08:00

Dear Lord,

Thanks for being patient with me, though at times I have sway away; You never give up on me… though at times I lost my temper and have doubt, You waits patiently at my side to give me guidance and strength! Thank you so much!

I pray to You, Lord, please bless me with peace of mind, please draw me closer and deepen my faith, and please bless me with intelligence and to treat everyone with dignity and be fair to everyone…

little appreciation and love!

2011-10-28T22:40:00.001+08:00

Just celebrated my 30s birthday on Monday...

Wow! it has been great 30 years that I have been! Though there are many ups and downs in life, I am truly thankful by what i have so far! a good 30 years of life! Good family, good and healthy parents, good education, and good and secured job! (though at times it is stressful! ) a bunch of good and truthful friends and, :) a loving sweet, considerate and caring husband! :) (Thanks, dear! for everything! )

Thankful to Lord for His love, His blessing and His care! Thanks for him i have a great blast of 30 years of life... I pray, so with His love and blessing, I will be stronger in every thing! and in faith! at difficult times and at joyous moment. I hope I will be a better person and to change all the bad temper, ;p!

I wish, for peace, for the world, for the mind, and good health and happiness for everyone! :)

"new" reason for blood donation?

2011-10-03T20:11:00.000+08:00

was at the queue at the cashier.

One of the sale girls/ promoters from SK-II counter was accompanying her client at the queue, mmm, that girl had bought a lot of nice stuffs from her, no wonder she was providing the best customer service...

Over heard their conversation,

" I have always been afraid of needles, afraid to visit doctor, afraid of being poked", the sale girl said, "but, when it comes to blood donation, I am not afraid at all, despite the needles used are bigger in size"

Stood dumbfounded, the client was waiting the answer from the sale girl.

"Because when you donate blood, you will be cleansed of the "dirty" waste in the blood, and you will become prettier", replied by the sale girl.

????? So, to attract more blood donation for critical and emergency care, maybe each hospital or hospice should consider a new way of advertising?

2011-09-08T12:28:00.000+08:00

Free to blog at office hour?

Well, been sick lately, since the very early morning of Monday, started of with sore throat, flu and fever... But have to bear with it for 2 days as my partner was away for the exam, have to "pump" the adrenalline to the max to stay on at work

well... I know my work performance was low on these 2 days, could not remember if i did work properly, as "ordered" by the boss... with the aid of "Actifed", I don't think my consciousness was full at work anyway...

Today, I lost my voices! :( and maybe due to the antibiotics, I have been frequently going to the toilet, and for that, I am dehydrated now!

Well, I decided to "pamper" myself today to declare an off-day! I need a rest!, :)

(and I do not want to spread my germs around! :p)

PS: and if time allowed, to update my blog... :)

no direction...

2011-08-14T18:41:00.000+08:00

Have you ever thought of what objects, or anything in the world is not going to spoil? not going to change?
Any thing? Any thing that could be perfect permanently?

One of the primary school teachers asked us this questions, we, at the age, tried to answer everything, some of the answers are: photos? really, it will be faded if kept too long; fridge? nope, if it does, there won't be any business for the electronic shops; the "onion" on the mosque? err, but is was still being exposed to the damaging effects from the weather... memories? provided the brain matter is a good guard for the memories... but some memories are bad too, would you want to keep it anyway?

well,no matter how is it, this are the facts and realities to face in our lives...

There is no use to cry over spilled milk..
There is nothing permanent in the world..
Do not put high hope in thing which beyond imaginary..
Do not be too imaginative, always learn to step back into ground when you are dreaming too high or hoping too much
Trust yourself..
Learn to protect yourself, physically and emotionally ..
Do no harm and learn to protect yourself

Just some rant....

A PET'S TEN COMMANDMENTS........

2011-07-27T12:50:00.002+08:00

Got this for forward from dear:

For the pet lovers- especially dog lovers...

This is a real good read.

Be sure to read all the way down to the bottom and see how Brutus hugs the baby!

The K9 above is Brutus, a military K9 at McChord..
He's huge - part Boxer and part British Bull Mastiff and tops the scales at 200 lbs. His handler took the picture. Brutus is running toward me because he knows I have some Milk Bone treats, so he's slobbering away! I had to duck around a tree just before he got to me in case he couldn't stop, but he did. Brutus won the Congressional Medal of Honor last year from his tour in Iraq . His handler and four other soldiers were taken hostage by insurgents. Brutus and his handler communicate by sign language and he gave Brutus the signal that meant 'go away but come back and find me'. The Iraqis paid no attention to Brutus. He came back later and quietly tore the throat out of one guard at one door and another guard at another door. He then jumped against one of the doors repeatedly (the guys were being held in an old warehouse) until it opened. He went in and untied his handler and they all escaped. He's the first K9 to receive this honor. If he knows you're OK, he's a big old lug and wants to sit in your lap. Enjoys the company of cats..
K-9 Congressional Medal of Honor Winner Thought you'd find this interesting. Talk about animal intelligence and bonding with humans!

Remember that they can't do a lot of things for themselves and that they depend on you to make their life a quality life!

A PET'S TEN COMMANDMENTS........

1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you is likely to be painful.

2. Give me time to understand what you want of me

3. Place your trust in me. It is crucial for my well-being.

4. Don't be angry with me for long and don't lock me up as punishment. You have your work, your friends, your entertainment, but I have only you.

5. Talk to me. Even if I don't understand your words, I do understand your voice when speaking to me.

6. Be aware that however you treat me, I will never forget it.

7. Before you hit me, before you strike me, remember that I could hurt you, and yet, I choose not to bite you.

8. Before you scold me for being lazy or uncooperative, ask yourself if something might be bothering me. Perhaps I'm not getting the right food, I have been in the sun too long, or my heart might be getting old or weak.

9. Please take care of me when I grow old. You too, will grow old.

10. On the ultimate difficult journey, go with me please. Never say you can't bear to watch. Don't make me face this alone. Everything is easier for me if you are there, because I love you so.

Take a moment today to thank GOD for your pets. Enjoy and take good care of them. Life would be a much duller, less joyful experience without God's critters.

Instructions for properly hugging a baby:

1. First, uh, find a baby.

2. Second, be sure that the object you found was indeed a baby by employing classic sniffing techniques.

3. Next you will need to flatten the baby before actually beginning the
hugging process.

4. The 'paw slide'
Simply slide paws around baby and prepare for possible close-up.

5. Finally, if a camera is present, you will need to execute
the difficult and patented 'hug, smile, and lean' so as to
achieve the best photo quality.

This is really SWEET!!!! ~~

brain not enough... :)

2011-07-27T12:26:00.000+08:00

it has been some time since i last log in into my own blog... busy? well, it has always been busy everyday... lazy? may be a better explanation.. :p

I am still thrilled with the fact that my husband and I had made it for the first year master examination, but we both know that it could not be real without His blessing and love... Thanks a lot, my dear Lord! Thanks for your kindness, love and mercy and grant our prayers...

While all of us who made it for the first year examination were "honey-mooning", time passes by and well, there are more things to plan and do in the subsequent year- thesis proposal, dissertation presentation, research... blah blah blah....

Things get more complicated and our brain cells and brain waves have to continue working- "squeeze" out some topics for proposal... yeap, few not one topic, as we need to prepare ourselves that the topic we chose may not be agreed by the "board"- department, supervisor, statistical department and ethical committee... well, apparently the proposal presentation will be the most difficult part, you will be questioned thousands million times and grilled in regards to your proposal and presentation... and asked to re-do, and again, and again, if really unlucky, it will be like a never ending circle... with the descending enthusiasm and self esteem... Sigh... nope, this is not the only one, there are case write-ups, journal publications, and poster and oral presentations... we need to meet the target point to be eligible in sitting the second part of the examination...

For me? I was thinking of doing some prospective clinical trial, but well, after the GCP course, I was erm, being "knocked" at my head to wake up-- err, it was not easy at all, and moreover it needs to be done in certain duration prior to the exam, why not i get something simpler to do and for the more ambitious trials, i will leave it later on?

Not to scare the first year or those still in the eager ambitious mood to apply for master, but this is what we have to prepare ourselves before joining in the program...

And well, first year paper is not easy, unlike the basic science entrance examination... the scope is broader...and passing first year examination, actually means nothing, or maybe just mean that you have completed the first level and "licensed" to proceed to the tougher

maybe others will think, what is so tough for ophthal? what they study is just the 2 little eyeballs... oh well, these 2 little eyeballs will have tonnes of complicated structures to pack your brain matters... :)

of course it is a girl! :D hahahah

2011-06-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

I went shopping with mom... and in the midst of the window shopping, I went to rest-room... Wow! full house, and long queue..

While I was waiting "patiently", a lady came out from the toilet, and the woman waiting in front of her room went in. Standing beside the woman was another young lady. Then, the lady who came out returned, searching for her handbag. She told this young lady that she left her handbag in the toilet, and asked her who went into the toilet after her, "was she a child or an adult?"

The young lady answered, :"errmm, I don't know. But, is a girl...."

Suddenly there was silence, and everyone else in the queue amazed by the answer. Guess everyone was thinking, :"isn't this ladies' toilet?

helpful but demanding...

2011-06-11T22:24:00.001+08:00

Hi, Lady! I know your are kind, helpful! Helping someone you do no know to get medical advice. But, please understand the protocol in our hospital and the plan of management, and please understand that the condition of the patient you brought was not urgent, and lots of assessment needs to be carried out prior to the definitive surgical intervention.

It is good that you know a lot of people but please do not abuse the authority to make a big demand to pester the plans to be carried out immediately. Please understand the role of supporting staffs and respect them, please do not shout at them unnecessarily. A referral letter is needed prior to see doctor, it is a norm! A biometry and pre op assessment is indicated prior to selecting a appropriate IOL for cataract patient.

The senior citizen you brought in was considerate, understanding and soft. There was nothing like what you mentioned, like severe lost of vision till could not cook or frequent stumble while walking! The old lady was still able to cook for the family, and the cataract was not really bad at all! This was her very first visit to clinic after such long duration of blurred vision, and you have demanded every thing to be done on the same day… well, there is always option of private setting anyway! Please be fair to the rest of the patients, whose condition was worse!

You are kind enough to help one person, but you have made the others suffered from your nasty demands.

wife as sex-worker?

2011-06-07T22:34:00.001+08:00

Was shocked reading this news...

A wife should "serve" a husband as first class prostitute and if the husband is disloyal to the marriage, a wife should be blamed? A wife should be submissive to the husband, and husband beating wife is a form of domestic teaching? And a wife who could not satisfy the husband in bed should be blamed as the culprit of the current social issues; domestic violence, human trafficking, prostitution and etc..

huh? this is happening in this era of life?

This is totally contradicting the pursue of equal rights for women in the country...It is in fact degrading the women even more!

It should not over inclusive and to blame the female in every setback in a marriage. A successful marriage relies on both parties. A wife should be submissive in certain way, however the husband should be supportive as well.

With this extreme thought, it would create more social issues, maybe there will more "aggressive " husbands to adopt this thinking, to boost their ego and to blame their wives in everything, more "innocent" wives will be "framed" and blamed for a failure in marriage!

after so o oo long......

2011-06-06T23:31:00.000+08:00

It has been after a long time I last updated my blog or getting myself into the blogging ....

It has been a year we are into this master training program, after a whole year struggling in the piles of books and works, and thank to our beloved Lord, we have made it through the first year master examination... :p

It feels a bit weird when we come back from work, and not sitting in front of the studying desk.. :0). well, we do know we have to start preparing for the coming test, however we opted to rest for a while.. :). just let the mind clear and be quiet for a while...

And at the same time, we will want to plan for other things in life... :) hope Lord will grant us... :)

该还是不该?

2011-04-17T19:26:00.003+08:00

今天放纵自己，不温书，一整天懒懒散散地。。。喝太多咖啡，胃不妥；但，不喝，却偏头疼；那，该喝还是不喝？

Speechless..

2011-04-09T12:49:00.000+08:00

it has been long since i posted in my blog... one and ONLY one reason- the exam is around the corner!

Just came home, before I start my Marathon in piles of book and notes, just feel like having a short relaxing moment in front of my PC...

well, it was my last call yesterday before I go for the "long" break to study... Thanks to Lord my three calls in this month were quite good... manage to get a nice quiet sleep in the new "patient" bed in the on call room, no referrals, no calls from nurses in the middle of the night, manage to study before the sleep and even in the dream... :)

But last night the quite aura was disturbed...

The first one was a 6 years old child, being hit by a "flying" card over the left eye around 8 pm while he was playing with his pals, and noted by the parents the eye looked injected... Being troubled and worried, the parents brought him to see me, but in the middle of my sleep, around midnight... err.. ~4 hours after the incident... and while I told the parents the eyes needed to be dilated for proper assessment, they were shocked while they were being informed that it would need some time before the eyes to be fully dilated. while waiting the eyes to be dilated, the parents and the kid slept in the treatment room....

Second call was from a nurse.. I was called around 130am, informed that the dextrose reading for a post op patient was high...

" Dr, Dextrose patient ni tinggi la.." Before I could ask, the nurse continued, "patient ni tadi makan KFC pada makan malam, I dah pesan dia ada kencing manis, tak boleh makan KFC, tapi dia tak dengar, tengok sekarang sudah tinggi.." (this conversation was at aorund 130am!)

Errr,, What she wants the patient to do? after all the ingested food around >3 hours ago has been partially digested, or she wants the patient to puke out the food? and, it took her 3 hours to inform a high dextrose reading taken at 10pm.....

at length....

2011-02-24T00:32:00.000+08:00

at length, it comes to the end of this second intensive course in KB...

this is the second visit to KB for the intensive course for master program.

It was held in the middle of the heat of CNY celebration, and i have to leave things behind in KL and drove up to Ipoh and to KB... This time, the journey to KB was more difficult, in addition to the windy road as usual, the road was filled with holes here and there. It must be the recent rainy season and maybe "art" from the wild elephant crossing the road!

The intensive course this time differed from the previous one in September as we had a real "intense" course and Mock exam. Apart from the intensive course at Uni, we all stayed up late almost every night, using the time "max" to study as much as we can... well, at work, we are really busy with clinical works, and when we get back home, the exhaustion, either physically or mentally has made the study progress very very slow! We made use of this 2- week, to "engulf" as much knowledge as we can...

As compared to those in campus, our knowledge is really lacking. The tutorial and the discussion and even the Mock exam (well, MCQ killed everyone!), has helped us lots. It marks where we are, where we are lacking, and strikes us that time is really running out as the real exam is creeping towards us at high speed!

Arggh!! tension!

No more relaxing, must gear the study pace to the max and try to absorb as much knowledge as we can! and Pray hard!

Hope that we can make it!

1 加 1, 不等于2

2011-02-21T00:23:00.000+08:00

原来，你对人好，并不代表他或她也会待你好。。。

我太高估你了！不，或许，我太高估我自己了。。。

show me what i am looking for...

2011-02-16T15:37:00.000+08:00

Somehow this song reflects my emotion... at this particular moment... Wait, I'm wrong

Should have done better than this
Please, I'll be strong
I'm finding it hard to resist
So show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Don't let go
I've wanted this far too long
Mistakes become regrets
I've learned to love abuse
Please show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for

CHORUS
Save me, I'm lost
Oh lord, I've been waiting for you
I'll pay any cost
Just save me from being confused
Wait, I'm wrong
I can't do better than this
I'll pay any cost
Save me from being confused
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for
Show me what I'm looking for…oh lord

拜天公

2011-02-15T09:43:00.000+08:00

正月初九，是福建人的大日子，拜天公，也是福建人的新年，据说，也是玉王大帝的生日。。。

从小，家里都有拜天公，即使是＂小型＂，简单的。。。

难得，今次被调回家了，即使是农历新年的第九天，也能待在家了，也能让我＂重温旧梦＂。。。虽然我本身并没有拜拜，但，我所＂享受＂的，就是一家人能在一起，有说有笑，何乐而不为呢？

人人生日

2011-02-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

正月初七，人日，是人人生日。今年，妈说要做打边炉，恰好爸的credit card 对换了打边炉的锅，也恰好么舅要来到访。。

我与妈也乘早准备。。。还好告了假，买了材料，我们也在厨房开始忙了。。。煲了高汤，把所有材料弄好。。。 Mmm，即使简单，也蠻丰富。。。:)

从巴刹和TESCO采购的材料

灵芝菇-我们的最爱

少不了的调味料－指天椒

多多的青菜－新年吃太多肉，多吃菜，有助消化

brown button mushroom

丰富的材料－多种的鱼丸，菇类，蟹肉条，猪肉丸, 海鲜豆腐，腐竹，日本豆腐，米粉，云吞面，菜。。。

少不了，珍珠鲍，磨菇。。。

美味的高汤－用鲍鱼边，螺，鸡汤熬成。。。

上菜咯！还有舅母带来的猪肚和白鲳。。。

等待吃的小妞－恩恩

新鲜的扇贝

珍珠鲍，鲍鱼片

吃得饱饱的小妞－恩恩和晶晶

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!

2011-02-09T19:13:00.008+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!!!

May the Rabbits jump jump jump and bring the luck to everyone!!!

Our photobooks

2011-01-22T00:57:00.003+08:00

Finally, our photobooks have arrived... Love it so much!
Thanks to my blogger friend- khee liam's post, which inspired me to design and order these photobooks...

2 photobooks- our honeymoon trip


Book 1, ordered from www.photobookmart.com

Book 2- ordered from www.photobook.com.my

Let's browse through the photobooks... Book 1, includes all the photos from honeymoon trip, including the city tour, the tour to Phillip Island and the visiting the Koala reservation Center. It contains 40 pages, and the cover is wrapped with our own photo...

Book 2, 40 pages, ordered from www.photobook.com.my, with debossed hardcover. It includes the marvelous, magnificent view from the famous Great Ocean Road...

Actually this gave me an idea what to get for dear for Christmas present when I created the first book- The Great Ocean Road, ermmm it turned out to be a good surprise for him! Glad that he loves them!

Ha! gonna create more when there is time and money! hahaah... These are gonna be our great collections! :)

Just to say hi

2011-01-10T22:48:00.001+08:00

At very busy hour of emergency clinic

Dr: "Yes, Mr, What is your eye complaint?"

Mr A: "I have this eye itchiness."

Dr:"How long have you had this problem?"

Mr A:"Well, almost 6 months."

Dr: (Looking at patient's particular, patient is coming from outstation, judging that, it must be something really bad that bring Mr A to come all the way from seek medical attention), "Any eye pain, redness or blurring of vision?"

Mr A: "No, just some itchiness"

Dr:"Oh, have you seen any doctor in these 6 months for this problem? Or taking any thing to relieve the problem?"

Mr A: "No, it is just minimal itchiness, and it does not occur all the time."

Dr: (trying to divert the conversation) "Well, Mr A, where are you staying now? What are you working as?"

Mr A:" I am staying in xx (which is 2-3 hours journey), I am retired. Actually, I came here last night, to attend my nephew's wedding dinner. I just drop by here to see eye doctor to see this itchy problem before I go back today."

Dr:"......................"

Wow! This occasion has not happened once or twice in eye clinic. Sometimes, patient just drop by "active clinic"- which supposed to deal with all the emergency cases... and for Mr A, he is actually having some dry eyes, which has been there for long duration, and he could actually seek treatment from clinic or government hospital near his house, which he did not. And for his convenience, he just "drop by" to see us, err, and making a big fuss that the clinic has made him waited for too long for his turn to see doctor, yet he has kept this problem for months! Along with him in the clinic, some patients are having worse problems- eye injury, acute blurring of vision, etc... and yet these patients waited for their turns patiently...

New Year 2011

2011-01-02T16:24:00.005+08:00

Writing 2 posts in less than 24 hours... ha! These 2 entries are some how late for the date...

Anyway, it is a brand new year 2011... 2010 passes by without our knowledge, and it waves us goodbye when we are still busy with our work and life...

What has changed since 2010? Well, things happened in 2010 has colored my "diary": ups and downs, changes in working environment, changes in status, getting to know new people and etc...

In 2010, dear and I were accepted in the master program and it was a big step for us in our career... Despite asking for same place for relocation, we got into 2 different hospitals for our further study for the first 2 years in master. We were upset at times, but we were thankful as it was after all not too bad as compared to the rest. As we are posted in hospitals which are nearer to our own hometown, and Ipoh-KL is actually not a far distance to travel as compared to those who need to book flight to see their partners. Moreover, we are staying with families, and the distance between home and workplace is not too far. With supports from family, friends, what could we ask for more? At the beginning, especially myself, have doubts dwelling in my heart, confused with the decisions, but we slowly adapted and accepted to the relocation. With His help, I made a good friend at work who has been supportive and made the stressful working and studying environment better...

Family lunch during CNY

On top of it, by staying home, give me a chance to reacquaint with family and friends. It gave me a chance to experience staying home while working after 6 years of staying out since I started embarking into working life. Staying home, I can taste mom's cooking more frequent, I have been pampered with home-cook food even when I am on call, as dinner is "delivered" by family. :) hah! Instead of loosing weight during the stressful master preparation, I have gained weight!

Oh, in view of change in status, this was our very first time to give "ang pao" during the Chinese New Year! Ha! it was a different mood and emotion!

Birthday Celebration

Apart from this, I got a good company myself for "fetching" me everywhere I go. Well, my heart was hurt when it was scratched by those irresponsible drivers in busy KL city! However, she has done her job well! A big applause to her!

at Yogjakarta- Gunung Merapi

Dear and I got to fly to 2 places this year. One to Yogjakarta before the commencement of Master program and one to Krabi- surprise first anniversary present from dear!We went to visit Adelyn, our baby sister who is currently studying in Yogjakarta. We visited her uni, the famous BoroBudur Buddhist and Prambanan Hindi temples. And, yeap! We been to the Gunung Merapi, which recently erupted! Thank to Lord who blessed Adelyn and her friends safely, and to Malaysia government to bring them back just in time!

At Borobudur Temple

At Prambanan Temple

We also visited Lost World of Tambun and Teluk Batik Beaches and the famous Golden Palm Resort. It was a short trip to visit the Lost World of Tambun in Ipoh with sisters. We brought Maya for a beach vacation with Adelyn when she came for a short break. Dear and I visited the beautiful Golden Palm Resort when he attended the conference there.

Lost World of Tambun

Beach Vacation with Maya- Teluk Batik

At Golden Palm Resort- Sepang

I managed to watch the spectacular International dancing competition with my parents! It was indeed a great experience for me that night!

Last but not least, we have celebrated our very first anniversary at Krabi Island.

Ha! sound like we are really "relaxed and free" during master preparation? Well, of course not! hah! but I guess we need some "spices and color" in life right? If not, it is going to be dry, dull and stressful! :)

Well, few months left before the first year exam, I know there will be more time to be allocated for "STUDY". Wishing and praying that my brain will function like a sponge to absorb all the knowledge and during the exam, it could be "squeezed" out easily!

New Year Resolution? Well, first and foremost! to pass the exam!!! the others? I will tell you after the exam! :)

Happy 2011!!! and May your books of life more colorful this year! :)

Christmas 2010

2011-01-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

Well, it is my second Christmas to celebrate as Mrs, :)

This time, Christmas fell on Saturday and I went back to Ipoh on the 23rd and managed to set up the second X'mas tree on the day. Dear was on call on 23rd, he came back around seven while I reached Ipoh, and after the tea, he went back for round. Thinking that he would be able to stay back after coming back from round and we would have time to set up the trees, gosh! He got another call for help from his colleague who was in active call, and guess what, the next moment he came back was on the very early morning of next day!

After resting, dear insisted to get up early to prepare for the Christmas eve! Dear gave Maya Christmas bath, we went for Christmas shopping for pa and ma, and to tidy and decorate the house. After wrapping the presents, we put it beneath the trees, and later in the evening we went for mass in our church.


Christmas! Christmas! Christmas!

Our beloved Maya!

Pa organized a small family reunion and we had relatives, friends gathered together for this festive season. The next day we had a quiet moment as family together with company of lovely Christmas songs. We also brought some presents to the children home. Dear and ma donated some miniature tables and chairs from the previous kindergarten to the children home. When we brought the Christmas gifts to them, all of children welcomed us with warmest and sincere smiles! Looking at their situation made me feel I was way too lucky to have what I have till to date and made me appreciate it even more to have what I have!

As what dear drafted in his blog, we used to forget the actual meaning of Christmas is a time for giving and we tend to be influenced the grand celebration with presents, Christmas trees and we tend to forget those who are less fortunate. Thanks dear and ma for giving me the opportunity to visit this poor children, and with this, I learn that I should be thankful in everything i possess; family, friends, educations and others. Will definitely visit them again!

At night, we gathered together to open the presents... For me, I appreciate the moment spending together as family and we cherished the presence of each other to make the Christmas more meaningful! :)

Our Christmas Presents

Wishing all a very Merry Christmas and a good blessed new 2011!