Ordinary's Life with Unordinary purpose!

tl; dr I'm outta here!

2012-01-14T02:15:00.003+08:00

Hmm there's always an end to everything. Even a great journey has to come to an end. I will really remembered the time that we had here, all the joy and the good talk. However, as we're getting matured we need to move on, which is why is the content of this blog. I'm out.

Well, not to worry really. I am not moving out or something. Contradict to what I said huh? I will move my blog to my better looking and better name website, which is http://rjmasikome.com/. I hope that I really can grow even more mature there, in the aspect of physically, mentally, spiritually. Whether it's just a brainfart or intelligent idea, sorrow or joy, tears and laughter, the dark side or the force.

Well to those who linked me somehow, or not. Please link me to my new site, and hope we all can have fun there. Or if not I'll be like the meme below...

Happy happy holiday~

2011-12-24T23:05:00.003+08:00

Ahh, it's Christmas time again! I just remembered how I passed my last Christmas, time flies really fast. This year I experienced a lot of changes, I am grateful for it. Graduation, new place, new job, new friends, reunited with old folks all of them are good. Nevertheless, there are also some bad times such as, passing away of my grand mother, return of my bad habit, and also almost become jobless. Those bad times are really getting on my nerves some times, but thank God for grace!

One of the downcast moment though, is working on holiday season. All you can see is update from your friends in internet on how fun were they on that day, while you working alone at office. All in all, if you are contented everything will be seen in better perspective. Therefore everyone, from my desk I would like to wish you all a Blessed Christmas and Happy Holiday! May this season not only a jolly time but also reflection on what is the true meaning of Christmas, which is the time when God reached out to man-kind.

Go easy on food and wallet!

Patriotism, meh.

2011-11-22T13:00:00.003+08:00

Okay, yesterday seems like the first time I watch football (or soccer to American) like a hooligan after very long time. It's a joyful moment for the side that won, and it's a tearjerker on the other side. And me, was on the sad part unfortunately. It was a moment of truth to those who are in the field. However, it seems like an eye opener for me too.

To be honest, I don't really like the fact that my country is so messed up. Maybe because I'm not as patriotic as the people that I know of in the past. I couldn't shed blood for my country. Heck, I don't even feel like to do anything either. Nevertheless, somehow after watching yesterday match, I realized something. Despite on how much I hate the fact that Indonesian is a messed up country, I am still an Indonesian. I'm a children of that soil, bred from the crops of its ground, nurtured by the guidance of its people.

Peace out!

You must be the change you want to see in the world. - Mahatma Gandhi

Kinda depressed... but not really...

2011-08-08T02:36:00.006+08:00

Today I almost bawled like a little crybaby. I missed my grandparents so much, but now they laid sick on their bed. My grandpa still with the disability, and now my grandma got stomach infection and cause her unable to talk. I really missed the times when they brought me to their farm, and had vacation in their little village. I missed the times when they were strong enough to do some farming and even nag at me. I missed the times when they always exaggerately concern about my well being.

Sometimes I kinda hate the fact that I'm growing up. Need to worry about bill, need to worry about your future, and grandparents are getting weaker every day. But I believe it's part of His great plan. May His will be done, and I believe He will grant strength for thos who wait on Him. Ahh, I really miss my childhood...

P.S: Please pray for my grandparents to those who read this. Thanks :)

Moving On notes (or err tips?)

2011-05-09T01:32:00.013+08:00

There are two kinds of people. The first kind is the one who's able to move on easily, and the other one is the one that is hardly to move on. (Un)Fortunately, I am in the second kind of people. Well It might looks bad for some people cause you may dwell too much in it. But for me it's quite fun to be in this second category, cause you will try your best to overcome it. And I believe people who try and overcame it are the true victors rather than those who don't try.

Anyway, I came up with some kind of list for you to move on happily (especially from a certain person)

1. Keep yourself occupied.

People tend to dwell on their past is because they have a free time to think about their past. If you keep yourself occupied, there will be no time for you to think about some petty problem. And of course keeping yourself occupied with what you like is better and enjoyable. Remember, don't go find some escape route to the wrong way, like smoking, drinking excessively or any kind bad habits. If you don't know what to do, try sports, it's good for your health. Or maybe learn something to improve yourself, like music or cooking. You can also make some new friends or do activity with your old friends. Or if all else failed, do chores! haha

2. Shut the door of hope, tightly!

Hope is a good thing. But putting hope on a wrong thing is a total mistake. For example, It's wrong to put hope on cow to lay eggs (*gasp* It might be possible in nowadays technology, well namsayin). This step is particularly hard for me, because as a Christian, I have full of hope :D If you're moving on from someone, sometimes the door of hope creak open when this certain someone talk to you really nicely. Before continuing, I just wanna say that, do whatever you can, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be. If this person really doesn't like you, don't try too hard, you might embarrass yourself. Don't think there's special meaning behind puny polite talk. Take it easy, and keep it simple.

3. Abandon all things related to this person.

For crying out loud, if you really want to move on, stop cyber-stalk them! Well some people try to move on, but they still want to read their blog, stalk on their facebook, and keep track of feed of their twitter. Stop it! You might get hurt just from a certain digital form (which is apparently only 1 and 0) that said they are in their new relationship or other hurtful things. I'm NOT saying to unfriend, unfollow, or un*fill in yourself* them. Just don't purposely stalk them. And, if you possess something from this person, keep them in the box. Throw it away if you want, but I suggest you to keep it as collection, but remember, keep it out of your sight. There is also extreme way of doing this step, it is to move out!

4. Prayer and Sharing.

The most effective way. After all there's a duration of time for every people to move on completely. Prayer is the most powerful weapon, it gives you hope and future. And it gives you comfort and peace (What everyone wants). And of course do share your problem to your best buddy or mate. They might help you with some way that is not featured here. And they might pray for you too.

So that's all folks. Frankly, I am not a moving on experts as well, cause I still have a hard times to move on completely, from certain someone *sigh* but hey I did it once last 2 years so I believe I can do it again *cross fingers*. As Spock has always said, Live long and Prosper. And I conclude with, Stay safe and blessed!

Boring...

2011-05-08T18:57:00.004+08:00

I just recently graduated few months ago. I am almost doing nothing, cause graduated means unemployed for a while. Thank God I work part time now at church as helper. He's so gracious even though I'm so naughty. I wish I can be a better person from now on. Cause I really don't want to stuck in this mess forever. Anyway, for those who read this, have a great and blessed day. And yeah, I did cover for song I just want You by planetshakers. It's kinda noob, but hope you can be blessed by it. Enjoy~

Some pretty awesome week

2011-02-12T01:28:00.005+08:00

Hi Folks! It's been a while since I wrote something. You know, my usual opening. But that is true. Writing doesn't interest me anymore these days. But writing blog is indeed awesome I should say. Penning out your thoughts, your gladness, your misery, and all the things that's been happening to you with or without expecting of someone would read it. Anyway, since there's no interesting stuff happening around me it makes me a sloth for writing blog.

Here goes. This week is quite interesting for me. The tees' design that is meant for fund raising for mission trip can be materialized soon. Kelvin Lee and I met the supplier of the t-shirt for a couple of times, and the office is really cool, I should say. It's like creative business (which it is) kind of office. Too bad the boss is apparently difficult person. It's pretty difficult to ask him to trim the length *sigh*. But In the end we managed to convince him.

And yeah, I managed to tell the thing to her subtly. I don't know if she got "the message" or not. And probably she won't be reading this too..haha.. Which I have mixed feelings whether or not she should be reading this (Hope you got "the message" I sent you. Yes, you.)

BTW, It's been a pretty good week in average. Hanged out with peeps while indulging into the smoothness of free Baskin Robbins Ice cream. And had an awesome worship practice too. I really love Worship practice, since it's practically jamming and serving God merged into one. Which is totally awesome.

Thought and Design

2011-01-22T00:19:00.004+08:00

These days are really great. God really works through my life. He shows me something that I could never imagine. Feel so refreshed! Anyway, this is one of my T-Shirt design. Hopefully it's gonna be printed out. So excited! Woots!

Thank You

2011-01-08T21:51:00.004+08:00

I really wanna thank all of you who has helped me through everything. Be it in advice, counsel, treating meals, or just simply accompany me do activities. I really appreciate it. Especially to you :) Yeah you! You know who you are..haha.. But most of all thank God!

These days are tough days for me. I'm not busy or something. I just don't have enough money. It's true that money is not everything. But we cannot do everything without money. I owe people so much, and my parents cannot afford to subsidize me with money. I even pay my rent and bills using the Christmas Gift that my foster parents gave. Ah, I really need get a job, and make my parents happy...

Too much ranting recently *sigh*

Get up and walk! Move on!

2010-12-29T18:10:00.006+08:00

I fell this past few days. I was back to my old self of 2009 for quite sometime, and I fell awful and couldn't forgive myself these days. I knew that I am free from the slavery and bondage of that addiction. Yet again I fell.

I fell because there's a thought that appear on my mind. It said "It's okay, everyone does that." But It's not okay. I was set apart, even before when I was in my mother's womb. How can I be set apart when I just keep doing what the world does.

Thank God that somehow I was reminded that there's no use in dwelling in your mistake. It's time to get up and move on. I was reminded that I was forgiven by God's grace. The thing that I can do is to walk closer with Him so that I won't fall again in the future.

I hope I won't follow my animalistic desire. I want to prove that the world theory that human was originated from animal are wrong. We are created based on our Creator image. We have capability to discern, not like animal. We were made perfect.

Like Switchfoot said "We were meant to live for so much more." I believe that I'm not created for just to keep doing that disgusting thing until I die. I was made for greater purpose.

Christmas

2010-12-24T01:13:00.003+08:00

Some of my friends put on their facebook status how they are going to spend their Christmas and / or their Christmas gift wish list. What a privilege. They must know that they are very much blessed. I'm not gonna be whiny about that privilege that I don't have, because I know I'm blessed far beyond anything. I hope they won't be feeling down easily in the future, for some petty reason. At least they don't need to worry about whether they are able to have food tomorrow, or to cut up their meal frequency because they have no money. Ah, too much ranting...

Oh yeah, Merry Christmas everyone!
Have a great and blessed one.

Hope I won't messed up on Christmas Service

Ah, Childhood...

2010-12-22T13:10:00.004+08:00

Ah, How I wish I can go back to my childhood. It was really a great time of my life, nothing to be worried about. I didn't worry about bill, I didn't need to worry about what am I going to eat for lunch or dinner, I didn't worry about future, and I didn't even worry about relationship with people. Heck I'd never worried about anything. Just live a carefree life, playing with friends until dusk, and watching cartoon. It felt really good.

And now, I can be qualified as grown up. I have to worry about money, worry about my relationship with people, and worry about my future. But, the only thing I know is just to surrender everything to the One and only that gives me hope, because He had brought me here, without me realizing that I'm blessed beyond anything that I can say.

Childhood is awesome!

Time to go back to work...

ZoukOut Weekend!

2010-12-15T20:49:00.010+08:00

My friends and I won some video competition by Zouk + MTV, and the prize was awesome! We got free flights, free hotel stay at Resorts World, free party at Zouk and free ZoukOut pass with VIP Tag. Here's the video mentioned.

The hotel was super awesome. And we got some freebies too. Lots of drinks! Thank God I didn't use up all the free drinks. Thus I was sober until the party ends in the morning.

The highlight of the night is taking picture with VJ Holly. Remember my celebrity crush I mentioned in my entry last time. I couldn't get her cute face outta my mind. She was really cute with her dress and tattoos.

It makes me want to have tattoo as well. I was looking to some tattoo design, and this design captured my mind.

The mysterious chanting

2010-12-07T22:31:00.003+08:00

Finally, I have the guts to check the mysterious Chanting that's been happening in UG for quite some time. Apparently, it's not the empty unit that I suspected. It came from the top floor where a lot of people gathered and chanting together. Hmm, I wonder what is that. From what I saw outside they love Crocs.

They chanted today on 07th December 2010. I really wonder what are they doing quite late while chanting and when are they going to do the chants next.

Ah nose, why are you so runny? :(

2010-12-04T01:34:00.001+08:00

Just now I had some awesome Worship practice. Thank God my blocked nose and sore throat were not the obstacles of the practice. :D

My Heart is Yours!

2010-12-03T00:13:00.003+08:00

Today (2nd December 2010) was not so great day for me. I fell deep..... again. I feel so worthless and couldn't face anyone. I feel so embarrassed, feel disgust to myself. Feel like such a hypocrite.

When I listened to Paramore's old song My Heart. There's a part of the lyrics that really hit me. "...That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone..." I really can't do this alone. I need Your help. I believe You will help me just like last time...

At last...

2010-11-21T01:58:00.003+08:00

It's been very difficult to me to update my blog. My fondness in writing fades each and every day. Today is a very tiring day for me. I went to church for some Choir practice and Worship practice. It was really a fruitful practice for me. After that I did some project with my friends. This project is going to be submitted to MTV Asia. *cross fingers* Hopefully we can won this competition considering how much effort we put in making this project. In this project I fell in love with Mac! haha

Not only Mac. I found out my new Celebrity Crush. Her name is Holly Grabarek. She is the new VJ of MTV Asia. She is a Christian too. Woots! Such a cutiepie.... Hahaha. (Dream on!)

My Strength, My Hope, My All....

2010-11-02T09:39:00.002+08:00

As human beings sometimes we have the tendency to be discouraged, to lose hope, to think that the whole world is against us. God has mysterious way in His work. Just when I almost lose hope, simple news feed on facebook made my day and encourage me. This is it!

To someone,
I just want you to know that I always pray for you constantly. Hope you are happy, because you deserve it. Don't let the situation discourage you. I pray that peace be unto you always!

Paramore Live in KL

2010-10-27T11:13:00.014+08:00

Howdy folks! It's been a long time since my last entry on my blog. Nowadays, I've been working, so It's not as free as I was last time, one-subject university student (read: lazy bum). I just want to share about how awesome Paramore concert was. And I almost couldn't make to the concert because of certain stuff.

They are one of my favorite bands of all time. Therefore, I've been saving some of my lunch-money so that I can go to the most front zone. It's sofreakin expensive. Not the ticket for my level. But thank God, I made it.

However certain incident occurred. So I need to let go 40% of the money for greater good. *Sigh* Need to save for the money again. And the date was getting nearer and nearer. So I do what I need to do, find all the reserve money that I had. Thankfully, I have money in Rupiah currency in decent amount. So I go to one of the money changer in Shopping complex (read: Mydin MITC), and walk back to save money and for exercise.

Still It's not enough. I was very frustrated that time, and suddenly my Grannies called me, and told me that they want to send money. I really thank God, and I feel like running slowly in meadow full of flower while bursting in tears. And money checked :D

Still I am working, I have job that need to be done. Long story short, My boss allowed me to go, and he even gave me ride to KL. He's such a nice guy. Oh yeah, I got some cheaper ticket too. Whoohoo!

In the end, I made it. The concert was really awesome. My friends (Jhoni, Immanuel, and Kenneth Mah) and I sneaked to the backstage (too bad they've left :( ), and take everything that we can take. We met one of the Paramore soundmen, his name is Riley and he gave us pick

We got their towel and pick. Even the towel was on the ground, we still took it. It was an awesome day. When I got home, I got some surprise. I got Google ads voucher worth RM 150. Dunno what to do with it though. I really thank God for all the things that happened! Teehee~

A Picture...

2010-09-18T02:24:00.004+08:00

Recently, my life is so stagnant. Just take 1 (One) Subject for one semester really makes one dull. Even on exam season, I can still sit tight while sipping a cup of tea while others are busy studying. Well, this is the offspring of waste-time-doing-nothing. (click for better resolution)

Open your eyes wide enough so you can see the whole picture || Anonymous

The Prisoner...

2010-07-05T16:53:00.003+08:00

I am just like everyone else..
A prisoner without direction..
Imprisoned by selfishness, envy, lust, and doubt..
It's You that bailed me out...

Argh no I was captured by terrorists

2010-06-14T23:50:00.002+08:00

Oh no I was captured by Kamal and Jhoni. Well, this is one of lame picture of ours because of the boredom (again?).

This is just a joke. It's not a real situation picture. No harm was made. They used broom stick instead of machete.

Random Picture

2010-06-10T23:31:00.003+08:00

This picture is done because of boredom. I take one subject for this semester. Argh, so bored! Guess what is the meaning...hehe...

Tree of Life

2010-05-22T23:05:00.006+08:00

It can be considered one of the Natural Wonders of the World. It's a very old tree that live alone in the middle of dessert. I wonder how it can live until today. It must have a big water supply or resources. Apparently, this tree is around 400 years old. Hmm, I wonder whether the age is true. Or is it from the beginning of the world?

The roadsign!

Oh yeah, It's located on Bahrain, my friend favorite country. Some do believe it's there from the beginning.

The Tree!

By the way, since everyone make a fuss about phenomenal Pac Man Google Doodle for today, you can see the rest of the Google Doodle here.

Thought and Faith!

2010-05-16T00:22:00.007+08:00

I am so free now. That's the reason why I do this vector art of me to kill time! The meaning of the picture can be seen inside the shirt that I wore in picture below.

Original pic!

The Thought and The Faith

The symbol representation

Left:
Spade - Can be seen as Sword. It means Conflict or War.
Clover - Can be seen as Club. It means Power or Authority.
Heart - It means Love.
Diamond - It means Wealth or Treasure.

Right:
Plus inside circle - It means both Positive thinking and Christianity (as a cross).
Black Circle - It means the World.