Journey Through Life~ WHAT A TRIP!

Unassisted Birth

2013-06-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

Since we were pregnant with Alanna, we were thinking of having a homebirth... We never looked for information and it was just left alone for a while...but it was still lingering in the back of our heads....
With JG we were also thinking it... but i just can't remember why we didn't go ahead with it..
Well with Camila, we were seriously doing research, came across a pair of midwifes that gave us a bunch of information and also the most important... their pricing $3500 big bucks. Gee how could we afford it.. well thanks to a little angel we were able to afford it. Then I went to the initial appointment and they told me their fee was only for their labor... What?! you don't supply the stuff.. the birth kit.
I started doing some research and the only thing that worries me is the registration at the SD RECORDS office... there are so many requirements that make me a little iffy... but I think we can go ahead with it.
Well we are going to have an unassisted birth, no doctor, no midwife... a lot of people may disagree because they think or society has made them think we need a doctor, nurses, equipment and hospital to have a "natural birth" whats so natural about being hooked up to a machine. And it's not us being old fashioned or trying to save a couple of bucks, at this point it's about doing it the way nature intended it.

Wow

2013-05-25T17:46:00.001-07:00

Its been a while! Almost a year this June 6! Jovan Gerardo was born on 6.6.12, and then we got pregnant again 10.15.2012 so i am about due. I am currently 31 weeks pregnant and we are planning a home birth. What are we we having?...... a Girl! Im going to try to update this as much as possible, leaving you with some pics.....

Water broke

2012-09-19T21:34:00.005-07:00

Details to come

in labor

2012-09-19T21:34:00.003-07:00

ive been in labor since this afternoon.....at the dr appt i was at 3 cm 90% effaced and contracting every 2 minutes.....ill keep you posted
Update... no

Glucose Tolerance Test

2012-09-19T21:34:00.001-07:00

its that time already, i remember that with Alanna it used to be one hour, but apparently they changed it up to 2 hours, i am not liking this, its making me nauseous. I was trying to skip this test, since my due date is close.... but yesterday at the doctors appointment, they told me i would be treated as diabetic of i didn't take the test.... i had no option!
For the 33 week appointment, everything seems fine, ill be off procardia at 37 weeks...hopefully he will come by then which is the beginning of June, yay for that! A June baby!!

Appointment 38 weeks

2012-06-05T17:39:00.000-07:00

I was at the hospital on saturday because the doctor had told me to go for observation, i did and i was still 3cm 90% effaced and no more contractions... Had me come in today for a follow up...
5 cm
100% effacement
No contractions
I think he sweeped my membranes because it hurt more than the usual check up....Hooked me to the contraction monitor and no contractions were registered....
I got home and of course little spotting was found in my undies... they have subsided but I seem to have more cramping right now... So I am drinking some tea, sitting on a yoga ball and walking, no not walking, galloping up the hill.... lets see if it works...

37 Weeks....

2012-06-01T11:43:00.001-07:00

I am at 37 weeks now, Alanna was born at exactly 37 weeks... What are you waiting for Jovancito!?
The race starts today, Jovan says he will be born on Sunday and I said from the 4th (full moon) to the 6th...
I am ready to evict this child!
I have doctor's appointment today... HOPEFULLY i will be a little bit more advanced than i was at 35 weeks... Keep your fingers crossed

35 Week Appointment

2012-05-18T10:31:00.002-07:00

We had our appointment yesterday...
Glucose Test- Good
Dilation- 1cm
Effacement- 80-90%

I was not taking Procardia anymore, it makes me feel horrible... Yesterday Dr told me to start taking it again.. I started in the afternoon...
I can't really walk anymore, I feel like if the baby is pushing down and it's pinching something in there... Hopefully he will wait until the beginning of June... I have stuff to do! who doesn't? LOL
I can't sleep at night... toss and turn...take showers, have hot flashes, and so many other pains that come with pregnancy... Im starting to think that I may not want to have other babies.... We'll see...

Baby Dropped....

2012-05-01T11:24:00.001-07:00

You cant really see it but its lower now.... i was checking to see when did Alanna dropped, and she did at about 30 days or so..... that means ill be delivering end of the month or beginning of June.... hopefully.
Did i mention we are having a boy? well we are! and he will be named after my husband and also to honor my dad, Jovan Gerardo... Oh i cant wait to meet him!
Also no baby shower for this one...and i am thankful to say that Jovan shares my way of thinking, we believe that its ok for the first one, but not for 2nd or 3rd....plus whoever wants to give someyhing the baby will give it, there is no need for parties....again right or wrong that is our way of thinking

crochetting

2012-04-29T11:06:00.000-07:00

Is this cute or what!?
There is a amazing collection of cute girly thing.... what about boy stuff... well i decided to make him cute things without jeopardazing his manhood... silly mom...I'll be making baby booties and a baby cocoon....

28th Week Appointment

2012-03-24T12:00:00.000-07:00

I had my 28th week appointment this day and I ended up getting admitted to triage.. I had contractions every 1 1/2- 3 minutes.. Had the worst steroid shot, just in case I delivered early... and was prescribed Procardia... Not a very fun prescription.... lowers my blood pressure... makes me feel drunk... I have to take it until 36 weeks or so...
Stayed overnight.. and was sent home, no bed rest or nothing..
lets see how it goes

oh boy Oh Boy OH BOY!

2012-01-27T09:40:00.000-08:00

We are so excited to announce that we are having a boy... There was a lot of women including my mother in law that thought (because of the shape of the belly) that it was going to be a girl.. I always like to prove that those things most of the times are wrong...
Most people tell us that we will now have "la parejita" but I hate to disagree to that comment... why say that if they won't be sharing make up, dolls, clothes... On the plus side, they won't fight for those things either...
Regardless... I love the fact that we are going to experience something new!!! We are extremely excited!
A has also picked the name... but i'm not sure J likes the name... but hey...I got my ideas for the baby.. and I have to admit I love the Name that A picked... (will probably figure it out when we see his sweet sweet face)
On a different note.. I want to start Vlogging... I've seen couple of vloggs and they seem so interesting, maybe I'll try it sometime.....
Nuff of the random posting.. my head is all over the place

10 Week Appointment

2011-11-24T07:25:00.000-08:00

It's measuring normal.. what a relief.. and what a great way to start cooking thanksgiving dinner... so thankful for everything that I have...
HAPPY THANKSGIVING

8 Weeks Appointment

2011-11-11T08:18:00.000-08:00

It seems like we are going to have to be seen by the doctor every two weeks... we get a chance to see the peanut twice a month..... due to the previous losses...
Which is great!
I am soo excited.. but I am also very cautions of the things I do and Don't do...
Morning Sickness is at night... but all of a sudden... I am getting it all day now... so forget about water, coffee or chips. nothing.... i cannot eat anything....
Lost 5 lbs already.... and I think, i'm just shedding the excess.. LOL

Anyways... it's so easy for me to loose track of what I initially logged in for....
2nd Dr Appointment was very gratifying, we heard the heartbeat 159 beats per minute...My little darling is a strong hearted... or so i felt.... Leaving the Dr K's office, i burst into tears, tears of joy... i couldn't contain myself... "a beat of hope".
Hearing the heart means you have reduced by 30% the chance of a loss..
We will keep you updated.. Next Appointment is on Nov 23rd....

Here we go again...

2011-11-04T11:40:00.000-07:00


5 WEEKS AND 5 DAYS

This ultrasound was done Friday 10/28/2011
Did Lab Test for My HGC Levels on Tuesday November 1st (6.2 Weeks) and my levels were 46,000!
Im currently on Baby Asprin and Prometrium...

Hard Days

2011-08-15T07:33:00.000-07:00

You can have all the support in the world and feel ok.. but when you are alone... and things start running through your mind, you break down.
I had not had the chance to just let it all out... i sometimes pretend to be stronger than i am... but i am not, I rather not talk about it, and swallow the whole pain in one big gulp.... and it almost feels like I'm swallowing a big ball of fire, especially when my daughter asks me "is my little brother hungry" or "cold" or any question related to our loss. I can't let her see the pain... I push the words out of my mouth and hold back my tears and tell her.. "he/she is going to be a little bit late"
Yesterday, was bad... anything would make me cry... My husband asked me if I wanted to go to our chapel... I didn't know if I wanted to be there.
I felt so much sadness, I couldn't bear the thought of being in front of God, What would I say? My head is asking " why did you give him to me and then take him away" but my heart reminded me of our Virgin... How selfish of me... who was I to ask something like that?
I cried, sat there just accepting his will
And I prayed for strength...

GRACIAS

2011-08-13T11:55:00.000-07:00

El apoyo que me brinda mi familia, mis amigos y mi esposo es tan grande que gracias a dios no he sentido dolor... Bueno no ha sido tan fuerte... Me da mas sentimiento sentir el carino de mi familia Y amigos...se que estan conmigo.

GRACIAS!

The "M" Word

2011-08-12T16:36:00.000-07:00

It was a miscarriage....
it started lightly but it escalated to bright red...
Anyways life goes on, and we keep on trying and Para arriba y para adelante

Worry Too Much?

2011-08-12T09:25:00.000-07:00

I should be around 6 weeks today... and i woke up a little bit more scared today... I have been quite stressed lately and well... today when my my mom asked me what was going on with me... i couldn't hold back my tears and anxiety concerns about this pregnancy...
Sure enough I get to work... and i go to the ladies room... pee and wipe pinkish....
I can't even bear the thought

1st Doctors Appointment

2011-08-08T11:41:00.000-07:00

I am :(
Iam very scared, im scared of going to the doctor on August 16th and the same thing happening... I'm freaked out, I've been taking pt like crazy.....I even bought a digital one....

That seems to kind of ease my mind, but when I am at work.... or by myself, that is the only thing i seem to think about....
Today I decided to take a belly picture.... What is the worse that can happen... break my heart again... Let's just pray for the best

Not bad ;)

Dar Gracias

2011-08-04T10:36:00.000-07:00

Hay una pequena capilla por mi casa, y ayer tuve tiempo de llegar a dar gracias...
Llegue a encomendarle mi pequeno retonito a Mi Virgencita, y que fuera lo que ella quisiera lo aceptabamos con mucho gusto. Que todo lo que nos mandan, es porque saben que podemos y que seremos los mejores padres para nuestros hijos.... Senti una bendicion tan grande cayo sobre mi.... no habia podido caer en cuenta, que todo este tiempo de dolor que yo tenia, habia llegado a su final...y empeze a llorar de felicidad... Diran que que chipis.... pues si.... no es cierto.... si senti algo muy bonito....

Our Journey....The dream.... The plans...

2011-08-02T12:14:00.000-07:00

After a blighted ovum and a D&C and the feeling of being a failure, even when I stopped and I though that this was for a reason, that God had other plans for us... since we left him out when deciding to use Mirena...it was the least he could do to let us know, that it's not in us to decide, how many or when...it's him

It has been a very humble experience for us, my sister recently found out she was pregnant for the second time, and she was already 20 weeks, it just left me to just sit and question God's decisions, why? why them? why her? what about us?
Couldn't even bear the thought, I couldn't think of it... nor talk to her, seeing her pregnant cracked, punched and squeezed my heart every time.

We moved on... I would worry every month, but not like before...

Not to long ago, and I'm going to make it very short because apparently this dream has other meanings as well, I am still trying to decipher... it started scary but it got peaceful at the end of that part.

Im going to call her my guardian angel, because she came to tell me something in my dream, i can't quite remember what it was about, but during the dream she was with me everywhere I went, and I remember asking for her to visit me often and, she responds that, She had only come to warn me, and that it was very hard to get these kind of permits.
(That is what makes me believe she is a guardian angel.)
At almost the end of the dream, i dared to ask one more question, and it went something like this "am i preggers?" she just smiled and that was all I needed to burst into tears of happiness. She answered that before I even knew!

Yesterday I made T-shirts for our daughter and one for daddy, Telling them about the expectancy.I will post pictures later

I am still kind of worried since the it's just the beginning... in the meanwhile keep us in your prayers

POLKA DOT

BFP!

2011-08-01T07:09:00.001-07:00

I COULDN'T WRITE IT BIGGER BUT WE GOT A BFP! TWO ACTUALLY.... THING IS J DOESN'T KNOW YET... HOW CAN I TELL HIM?!

Sunday Evening

Monday Morning, (A LITTLE BIT SHAKEY)

**CREMITA... Please DON'T SAY NOTHING YET**

To try or not to try....

2011-02-21T10:41:00.000-08:00

WE are both a little scared of trying again... we will just leave it to God... and let it be what he wants it to be....
In the meanwhile... I will be making Pozole! Literally! LOL
Any good recipes out there? I got mine, but i like to change things a bit... you never know what could happen!

update

2011-02-17T17:40:00.000-08:00

i am at home after the d&c and just resting... i found a good little friend to hang out... nobody i ever thought off... a someone i though didn't like me...a world full of surprises.... my little baby sister in law... nobody has ever done so much for me like she has done.... she knows who she is...te quiero mucho mi cremita de chantilly....