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2009-03-21T23:12:00.004-04:00

Dear Readers,

It's been a while, and I apologize for my absence. My life is very chaotic, and it's hard to find the means to put out a new post every day, or even every few but I'm back to trying.

So, I'm in the process of trying to complete to films, while planning a third, and editing two books. I have a reviewer looking over my first novel, and she is going to get back to me with a reaction to the general plot. I am looking to publish this book before summer 2010, but that is subject to whether or not I can find an agent to help me out, which I am also looking at at this moment.

Not too much else to say, check back for updates. I will try to keep you informed and find bits of useful, or at least interesting information for you.

Curtis out.

New day:

2008-07-13T17:02:00.002-04:00

I never really know what to say on my blog which is why its so random ;-)

So money came and went as I acquired my new cell phone...the voyager which I am very happy to have :-) its a really awesome phone tons of fun to have and jsut a very well working phone at this point. I love the touch screen.

I have more money coming tues...i hope :-P so no worries. I realized though that I spend an awful lot of my time thinking. Too much so at times...and I think I need to just chill a little bit, I need to let life happen more than I do. Not to mention I need to control my thoughts and some people will tell you ;-) but I also need to stop doing so much planning, I think that everyday I plan something else in my life..and I do maybe a third of those things...anyway all I am saying is i need to think less about that and try to appreciate life itself more. Althoguh right now its hard cause all i have is the day in and day out of work, 9 hours...10 pm til 7 am..sleep...sit..work again then couple days off. So i have realized...there is definately no future for me in such a similar routine. I will have to make sure my job is continuously new and different. I still manage to have stories everyday, but I need to have good riveting stories...cause its my nature to have crazy stories to tell :-P

I had a very strange ngiht last ngiht. I passed out hardcore and continuously woke up bolted upright looked around for like a sec or two and then passed out again its soo oddd...all i remember was bits and pieces of my night...like it kinda felt cool to have the experience..but I duno what happend during it...soooo oddd. Anyway I dont think it was much of anything probably just bad dreams or something.

anyway think thats all i got for now maybe ill give you more later.

Curtis_

Post of the Day!

2008-07-10T18:24:00.004-04:00

I figured I would leave you all with something. What that something is I am not entirely sure right now, but I'm sure it will be good.

Hmmm...I always think to write various facts and such, but I am reluctant to be so open because of the various people who may or may not be reading what I write...but I do feel a need to explode sometimes with all the information I am holding inside, all the various things that are spread out among my friends...waiting for them all to come together one day and piece together all there is to know about me...but I suppose this is fairly normal. Hmm... well I suppose the thing I wanted to say when I first started this paragraph is that its been 2 months now and I am quite happy for that :-D I do hope that I can keep counting the months into years. So now that I've said this I feel a lil better. I suppose I will continue onward with my entry.

Well, let's see....I am now working my overnight shifts which is quite interesting, a lil boring at times, but good nonetheless. I am making the money which is important right now. Its nice to see the store when there's virtually no one in it so its quiet except for us. Its really weird though working all night and seeing the sun rise as my day progresses...seeing as usually it is the opposite way. Not to mention sleeping is a strange thing, managing to sleep as the sun is peaking in my window and shining on my face, but I manage to rest. I have to say though I am glad this is only summer and then I will be returning for higher education because
I am feeling the full-time strain knowing what it's like to work my for a living and not do much of anything else. Although....I am not so sure it will be overly different when I finish my education...I think more so I will just be in a different place in life with other priorities then and will be able to accept what is going on and what I need to do. I am still clinging to my last few scraps of being a kid...or even a teen for that matter. Soon I will be twenty...and thus in a new chapter of my life..what a strange thought indeed. Well hopefully I will find solace in some aspect of this new chapter, and find a way to organize everything into something I can deal with....hmm maybe I'm just overwhelmed right now...well given my rather rambling blog entry I'm gonna have to assume this is partially to do with it.

What else have I for you...hmm...I dunno I am holding back so many random facts...well screw it...I applied for a capital one card because I need to build my credit...it was their crappiest one so naturally I was accepted and now I just have to wait for the paperwork and I can really be an adult...I can charge...and get in debt!!!..of course I already have college debt so I suppose its not too majorly different, except this has to be paid back much more promptly. I don't intend to use the card for much anyway, I just need to establish credit although I don't know what I could possibly be doing with my college loans and house renting...:-P

Hmmmmm well I nagged my friend into sending this letter to his school, so I feel good about that, because I really wanna see him go someplace in the future, sometimes he just needs a push sometimes...I think lol. Anyway I hope all goes well for him. Ummm..I messaged my mom's SN today and got a response from my sister who has never used AIM before. It was amusing, I learned she's actually fairly computer proficient. She seems more confident online which is cool, and good and interesting. However now she wants to start using AIM...sooo :-P we'll have to work on that one lol. I hope though that maybe if she uses AIM more she'll become more confident in person.

aaaaaand I am too crazy right now...I am like madd worried and don't get to hang out with my friends as much as I'd like. I am feeling a separation from them and it is unpleasant. I still see Alex a decent amount cause he won't leave me along which I am very grateful for cause he and I are very close. John and Patrick are busy and working a lot so I am not seeing them as much not to mention now I am working as well sooo its really making it hard to see them which is not fun because we used to hang out almost constantly when we were younger, but I suppose time..college..work...other ppl, all change relationships to some extent. hmm I feeeel like I'm going a bit too far here...like I've said too much already...I should stop. Well I should delete...but I'm going stream of consciousness..mostly here soo I will just stop but not delete.

I will hopefully get to see Gillian soon who I haven't seeeeeen in foreverrrr so I am really looking forward to that. But that does require me getting up madd early..for me at least. 11 am haha and draggin my self to see her, but I cannot wait to see her, I really need to catch up with her, my life has been crazy since we last spoke!

Finally I am gonna mention that I cannot possibly wait to come into money which is very soon...tomorrow at some point, and Tuesday as well I believe, so I might feel more secure and more be able to gt a couple things that I absolutely neeeeeeeeeeed.

Anyway, I hope someone makes it through this huge maze without dying :-P although it is rather gigantic and I would understand no one reading it all.

THD!

2008-07-08T20:27:00.006-04:00

So this post is dedicated to discussing some new occurrences in my life:

Firstly I will address the title of this post. THD is in reference to my recent employment at the new Home Depot store found in Paterson NJ. I will be working, in just a few hours from now actually, as a Freight Team member. That is to say I will be doing stock, i.e pack down, pack out, and unloading and such. I am on night shift from 10 pm til 7 am working approx. 40 hours a week. Its a lot, but for the summer its worth it cause then I can get the money I need to pay for things I need, such as my phone and clothes ;-) So yes this is one of the new happenings.

Next I will make mention of my haircut. I have now severely scaled it back because it was far too hot. Honestly it was on a whim one night. I happened to be sitting around with Alex...quite as usual...and decided it was far too hot and was sweating from my head...Sooo I took leave to a salon and got it cut. I went to the one by A&P for you locals that might stumble upon this...I didn't like it there. The woman didn't talk to me at all, and had no help to offer me in my decision to cut my hair. Also when she was finished I realized it was far shorter than I had wanted. Not to mention my mommy gave me $20 and I was only just barely able to pay my bill by scraping together random change from my pocket. Anyway, I do not believe I will return to that salon. Although the woman who cut Alex's hair was quite vocal and seemed like a nice person.

-After thought...I guess your attitude toward customers is important...odd...seeing as if I had a sufficient fan base you all might reconsider using that salon...good to know.-
I don't know of much else to speak of. I am eagerly awaiting payday so I might recoup and assemble myself.

If I think of anything else I'll let you know ;-)

Random Post

2008-07-08T20:12:00.005-04:00

I found a very strange game for PS 1 which I am able to play on my PSP. It's called LSD and is all about Lucid Dreaming, and is supposed to be a Dream Diary of ten years someone at the development company.

It was released only in Japan in 1998 and is the strangest thing I have ever played. It doesn't have any specific purpose, one is just meant to wander aimlessly throughout the world as strange events occur. Being from the era of PS1 the graphics aren't great, but I must admit, it is an intriguing concept. I mean all you do is walk, but as you walk into objects it is the equivalent of interacting with them. Each dream is only ten minutes, but it is just so weird.

After a dream there is a graph displayed with x axes showing "Dynamic" and "Static" which is believed to apply to the amount of scene changes which occur throughout the dream. The y axes are "Upper" and "Downer" most likely referring to the mood of your dream. While it can be hard to impact the graph at first, after ten dreams or so, it seems one can begin to change the outcomes on the graph to some extent.

In addition to all these strange things, the soundtrack is also particularly odd as it is comprised of random loops that play over each other to play very strange sort of disjointed music.

Finally I 'd like to comment on the strangeness that progresses through this game. As I said you may begin to affect the graph after ten or so dreams, but not only is the graph affected, but also the way your dreams progress. Certain themes may develop, that is you may find yourself starting in a certain location a lot. Also you may find the colors to have changed to a very strange sort, embracing specific schemes repetitively.

Anyway I thought I would just take a chance to report on this game because I haven't written in my blog in a while and needed to say something.

Here is a link to more info: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/LSD_(video_game)

Post:

2008-06-23T15:10:00.002-04:00

I'd like to relate a funny story to you:

I contacted Xlibris Publishing, a self publishing company, for information on just that. I got the information and that was pretty much the end of it...for a few months, however for the past 3 or 4 months I have been contacted on and off by Victoria Gray, a rep for Xlibris, and she has been trying to sell me a publishing package the whole time. So I of course listened for a while and contemplated the packages and even heard the special deals she could cut me, but despite all her efforts I just couldn't afford a package. So finally our conversation ended for a month or two...about a week ago. Except today I looked at my phone, and sure enough she was calling again...it would seem she now could offer me %50 off a package making it only $250!...except...I'm wayyyyyyy too poor for that sadly. And this is where I stand at the moment. on the cusp of obliteration with NOOOO MONEY!!! Haha. Thought I'd share a mildly interesting story, which upon rereading comes across as completely pointless...oh well it's my blog that only a select few read so w/e. lol

later
Curtis

Announcement:

2008-06-15T19:58:00.004-04:00

I don't really post much because I don't feel many people read this, but I thought I would announce a new title I will be working on so it cannot be taken from me ;-) I plan to begin work on a new book entitled, Life: A series of random happenings punctuated by sleep. It might be poetry, but seeing as that doesn't sell I am thinking of making it a series of short stories. Anyway if anyone has any suggestions for me I would greatly appreciate them.

Also I have joined a new authors community called. Webook.com which is interesting, but I get the feeling its mostly unaccomplished poets at the moment and encourage you all to join, and write in time I feel its got potential so why not try it out, or else at least look up my stuff on there, its under My name....Curtis Lotito...

Thats all I got for now, maybe I'll start to blog daily in the hopes that I can actually gain a fan base. I think I might start doing some writings on here. Depending on how much time I end up with on a daily basis.

Later.
CL

Invested:

2008-03-14T00:56:00.002-04:00

Today I invested $3.19 on a new addition to my website empire. I purchased www.randomadvice.info.

My plan is to take this newly acquired website and create a random question answering service, that will respond to any question you throw at it..granted the advice may be entirely useless, but it sure seems like a fun idea. Anyway, I have developed a preliminary page that will act to inform any potential visitors that we are under construction.

I believe that is all I have for this report.

Check out my site :-D

Night.

Curtis_

Today:

2008-03-10T18:08:00.004-04:00

Well, let's see

I started and finished a paper, and then had some food.

I checked my mail for an e-mail from Paul Williams. Still no response.

My parents called and alerted me that we were vacationing to South Carolina this summer and told me that I could finally go pick up my meds again...which I will get to one of these days. And umm thats about it....otherwise i'm boredddddd and I'm sorry I don't have anything for you, I wish i could give you something.

Check back soon.

Curtis

Today:

2008-03-10T18:08:00.001-04:00

Other Happenings:

2008-03-06T14:57:00.004-05:00

Well, where shall I begin...

I think I should give a brief explanation for my absence from blogging for so long. No it's not the seizures, it was in fact a lack of faith in myself. I felt that my thoughts were not reaching enough people and that no one really read this, but I have found more self courage as spring creeps into view, and the promise of new life beckons me. So I apologize for not having blogged in a long time, but hope now to interest you all and incite more people to come visit me!

On to the actual blogging:

You know of my seizures. I think there is really only one other big thing to discuss right now. That being my books.

Now...I doubt this severly, but I will say it anyway, you may have noticed that I no longer offer my book, A Thousand Winks of the Sun, for free. Nor do I offer A downloadable version of my publishing guide for free. The reason for this is I was approached by a Mr. Paul Williams who represents The Amber Group, a collection of businesses which deal with talents of all sorts, primarily models and actors, but he is apparently diversifying into literature as well.

He offered me a free listing on his website http://www.ambertalent.co.uk Needless to say I wasn't about to turn down a free listing of my works. He is also working on other ways of promoting my work, which I will not go into at this time, but should they work out I will be sure to write it almost immediately. I am not yet listed on his site, but will be sure to put that link up as soon as I receive it.

So unfortunately I felt it best to remove my free copies of my book from my website, I apologize for having to do this, but it seems only right given the circumstances. I only hope that you might consider buying the book for only..approx. $10 or 4.99 pounds for A Thousand Winks of the Sun, and .99 pounds for the publishing guide.

So I thank all who have already downloaded my book, and hope you are enjoying it. To those who have not yet obtained it, I do hope you consider purchasing it, for the very low price it is listed at. I shall let you all know how the rest of my deal goes with Mr. Williams.

Thank you one last time,

Curtis L_

The account of my seizures to date.

2008-03-06T14:03:00.011-05:00

A Quick Update:

So, I have been having random seizures since December.

I had the first one about the 10th. It occured while I was sleeping. I fell out of my top bunk at school, hitting my head and landing with most of my weight on my left shoulder which broke my clavicle. I also bit my tongue. Only one of my roommates stirred and ask why I was sleeping on the floor. He then roused another of my roommates who tried to shake me awake as I shook an moaned "chills" I have no memory of these things. The first thing I remember was being in the ambulance. I spent several hours in the Hospital and then returned to school just in time to take two finals. then pass out to miss my third, which I was later allowed to make up. After all this was cleared up I later had to get surgery to suture the clavicle back together and now have a small scar on my head, and a particularly large one on my shoulder..obviously. Returning to school my roommates ragged on me for a while and eventually it dropped as nothing more than me being a really restless sleeper.

Revisiting these things now though the question remains though, did I fall out of bed which caused the seizure, or did I seizure which caused the fall? The reason I say this is because, we moved the beds that night. We moved them away from the wall, so is it possible I fell out of bed first then the head trauma which ensued caused my seizure? Or did I have a random seizure which resulted in painful aftermath? Also were there outside factors such as Finals stress, and/or lack of sleep?

The second incidence was in mid January at home. I awoke with dried blood in my mouth on the floor wrapped in my blankets. I had bitten my tongue once more. I washed my mouth out and examined myself. I seemed mostly ok. When my mom got home I told her of the way I had awoken. I was slightly disoriented, but had no specific memory of falling out of bed. I have always been a sound sleeper. Then went to a doctor and was examined to ensure I was "ok." My arm appeared fine, and I was otherwise in good health. At this point I was advised by a good friend of mine to see a Neurologist to discuss what had happened. I took this advice and made an appointment.

Once more looking back the question here is, did I have a seizure or did I just happen to fall out of my bed, which was considerably closer to the ground than my dorm room, bunk bed luckily. Why this second instance of biting my tongue and falling out of bed?

At this appointment we discussed exactly what happened, and I made sure to make it clear we have no specific evidence of a seizure, however, I did forget to mention moving the beds in the night before the 10th which may have caused the initial fall. It was determined I needed an EEG and an MRI and was classified as a concussion for the time being. The appointments were scheduled for the third week of March, my spring break.

On the first day of March at approximately 1:30 in the afternoon I was about to eat breakfast after sleeping particularly late, when a sudden panic attack ensued. I resorted to deep breathing exercises to calm myself, and the next memory I have is waking up in the ambulance. I was told by those around me at the time I began to convulse and make strange nosies, as well as spit up. Luckily my roommates having some experience from my first "seizure" laid me down and sought help. I spent the next 24 hours in the hospital with an IV in my arm. There were tests run on my blood, and my parents were notified.

Once my memory returned the hospital was really quite boring, and seemingly unnecessary. I awaited a neurologist's visit Sunday morning with the promise of an EEG, however none was given, instead he asked if I wanted to wait in the hospital until Monday morning to get one done. I opted out, however I was given a week's supply of dilantin, an anti-seizure medication with the advice I see my doctor and move my EEG and MRI closer.

After much confusion and many conversations with my parents it was found impossible given my class and work schedule to move the appointments any closer. However I would like to point out, the 19 floor hospital which I was taken to, Nassau University Medical Center, only does one EEG a day on weekdays and none on weekends which strikes me as rather limited for such a large community.

With all this down, I am now awaiting the third week of March, my spring break, so I may return home to NJ where I can get my EEG and my MRI done to determine what it is exactly that is wrong with me, and to get the right medicines. I hope this has been helpful and interesting for anyone who was interested or curious.

Also, I appreciate the sympathy from all, but don't worry too much I am not overly concerned so neither should you be.

Thanks for reading, check out my other Blogs and sites and such.

Particularly Artiulate Day:

2007-12-23T19:11:00.000-05:00

I am now ready to rant about the internet.

I don't know how long it will be, so I suggest you go to the bathroom now...ok...ready

So I have kind of noticed this before, but today it is really obvious. I cannot stand the fake ideals the internet creates for us. I am only nineteen, so I sorta grew up with the internet, but not really. I got the internet when I was about ten or eleven, but my sister grew up with the internet, and not even the same internet I kind of grew up with. I grew up with a few internet giants that I browsed, and that was it, not a whole lot of games, or flashy things, but enough to intrigue me. I grew up with regular e-mail and AOL instant messenger, and even live journal, and eventually myspace and facebook, but I didn't really have the concerns of kids today, I didn't have the same spamming and predators. They were certainly present, but the internet was more regulated. I was never afraid I'd be lured out by some wierdo guy, or something, I didn't have to combat hackers and pornography amidst my e-mail. I grew up in a much easier time where the internet wasn't as influential as it is now. It didn't make or break people and consume entire childhoods, it was a tool, and sometimes entertaining, but it wasn't a litle kid's toy like it is now. The internet was different, it has changed is I guess what I am saying, but all of this aside, I am driving home the point that despite all the other terrible, and somewhat wonderful things the internet does, it creates a completely false set of ideals and standards.

The internet is instant. You want you got it. All you have to do is click. Anyone can do it from anywhere, and this is great. It makes my life so easy, my christmas shopping, everything. I recently self-published myself in maybe a half hour. I have netflix, I can watch a movie anytime. I can buy a song from itunes and hear it in less than the length of that song. I can transmit a giant message to all of you in the time it takes me to write it. My point is the fact that everything is instantaneous is really great, but the downside is my problem.

I may be able to send a huge message in only the amount of time it takes to type it, but now with everything coming so quickly my patience is waning. So I have sent an urgent e-mail, or I have submitted a job application from my bed, without even dressing, but now I will sit here waiting for my response, and the chances of someone else being quite as impatient as I on the receiving side of this is so slim. How can I possibly expect for there to be someone sitting at their computer just waiting and waiting to get my resume and immediately send me a response. Not to mention if there is someone sitting on the other side then don't I become the bad guy? Here I am sitting around looking through my e-mails and thinking..hmm I'll answer that one tonight, and this one tomorrow. How can I be so heartless as to prolong these responses?

I guess my point is I think the internet needs to be less instantaneous...err well no I don't suppose this is a solution, I guess really I am just offering a gripe, a complaint, maybe I'm getting old and crotchety young. Why does my internet have to be to damn instantaneous when my people are anything but?

Fame Report...

2007-12-23T14:34:00.000-05:00

Dateline:...2 days Before Christmas, and about 2 weeks after hanukah's ending

I am here to report on my "Fame."

Well as of now I am still not anyone special. I have made what some would consider great progress already, but I personally am getting tired of trying so hard and getting so little. Nonetheless I shall attempt to press onward. I think I will just give you a few pictures and links and leave it at that.So that is me name googled, which does indeed give you one solid page of relative hits for me.

Next I will show you all my sites I have:

My Sites:

Curtis Lotito.com - all about me and what's up, plus some helpful writing tips.
http://www.curtislotito.com

The Jackl.com - Me Dancing, silly but good.
http://www.thejackl.com

Ning - My Web Community/Advertising Community.
http://advertisements.ning.com/

Facebook - My Profile.
http://hofstra.facebook.com/profile.php?id=618255311

Facebook - My Celebrity Page.
http://hofstra.facebook.com/profile.php?id=8781625218

Linked in - My Professional Networking Page.
http://www.linkedin.com/in/curtislotito

American Legion Jersey Boys' State - My profile from Boys' State
http://www.aljbs.org/cgi-bin/results.cgi/profile?sid=5000

My Advertisements - on Blogspot
http://curtisbooks.blogspot.com/

My Works:

LuLu Storefront - A place to purchase my Works.
http://stores.lulu.com/curtisl0tito

Article City - My accepted Article for reprinting.
http://www.articlecity.com/articles/writing/article_1489.shtml

My Blog - This one.
http://thejackl.blogspot.com

Best Choice - My article reprinted
http://www.bestchoice6.info/2007/12/23/How-to-Self-Publish-for-Free/

Plusmo - My article reprinted.
http://plusmo.com/start/preview.shtml?pid=560262

eHow - My article reprinted
http://www.ehow.com/how_2150386_selfpublish-for-free.html

had a wikipedia, but it got yanked...repost if you agree with the need for an article about me, or at least my deserving of an article.

http://72.14.205.104/search?q=cache:7JW_3ZdspKkJ:en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curtis_Lotito+Curtis+Lotito&hl=en&ct=clnk&cd=4&gl=us&client=firefox-a

So while some may be stunned by..."staggering" numbers...wrong you are cause who indeed knows me? Am I somebody yet? Have I arrived? Nope, don't think so. No book sales, no e-mails thus no notoriety.

Anyway, Thanks for reading, loyal fans it's for you I press on, for you I write I work, I am, I BREATHE! You are my inspiration, never forget.

Thanks and Happy Holidays.

P.S. Comments, responses, purchases, e-mails, any form of alerting me your out there is greatly appreciated and only spurs me onward..especially with my current state of only have this one hand.

Err Real Quick...

2007-12-18T01:57:00.000-05:00

Readers..-

If Anyone can offer any help it would be greatly appreciated:

Feel like I have as much right as anyone else on Wikipedia to be there but they disagree here's the article, but don't know if it'll stick for long without some help.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curtis_Lotito

help here...:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Talk:Curtis_Lotito

Thanks for all who try to help. Fame report next for real this time...consider this a prelude.

-Curtis-

Recent Setbacks

2007-12-17T14:25:00.000-05:00

Hello! Happy Holidays! -

I am writing now from home :-) I a quite glad to be back in town at this point, however I will not be here tonight...I need to drive back tonight to take a final tomorrow, but then I will have successfully completed my first semester of college, passed..thats another issue, but completed yes.

I figured I would update everyone about my current state. I was editing my story and had made quick work of the first forty pages, unfortunately I had an accident and now cannot continue work on my book just now:
Despite what some may say this is the complete story with nothing changed or left out:

I was sleeping on the top bunk in my quad at school and somehow managed to roll out while sleeping, it is still in debate whether I passed out, or just remained sleeping. I maintain I was sleeping, because my roommates claim they were awoken to the sound of my snoring thus making me believe I was sleeping and not knocked out. Frankie threw his slippers to wake me, and when I didn't stir he roused my other roommate Adam. At some point Mike also awoke. Frankie turned on the lights while Adam attempted to wake me by picking me up. Upon turning on the lights a large puddle of blood was discovered beneath my head. Quickly Frankie got the R.A. while Adam and Mike tended to me. Quickly Public Safety was called and I left on a stretcher in a neck brace.

Some four hours, two ct scans, and two x-rays later I was pronounced fine and fitted with a sling. I returned to school battered and bloodied. Having gone to sleep at two awoken at four in my puddle of blood and spending five hours in the hospital it was now nine a.m. only an hour before my exam...I spent the next hour dressing and cleaning myself up before heading off to my exam. After that it was time for an English exam. After nearly snoozing through that I trudged back to my dorm and crawled back into the cursed bed. Sadly I slept through my next exam, but the school excused me being that I had two hours of sleep the night prior. I spent the next two days laying around mostly figuring it'd be good to get some rest.

Oh and as an end note..I got a 100 on the math test :-P the eng exam grade is pending.

Anyway that is the story as I was able to piece it together anyone with anything else feel free to add it. So now I cannot use my left arm which vastly hinders my editing so I think I'll take a break. Not to mention, you should see how long it took me to type this...:-P

There's your update. Please continue to read this stuff its quite amusing if I do say so myself.

Next to come a Fame Report.. :-P

Thanks
Curtis Lotito

Short Update:

2007-12-07T16:32:00.000-05:00

HeY!-

I have just managed to post my guide on ehow.com and have submitted it to Article City.com so hopefully I will see some response from them in short order. Also I published an article on How to Make it Big, which you may recall from some ways back. Check it out!

And if anyone else happens to have any other potential advertising ideas, let me know I'd be very grateful.

-Curtis-

Now Available!

2007-12-05T17:30:00.001-05:00

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A free Self-Publishing Guide.

2007-12-05T02:01:00.000-05:00

Hello all,

I am just going to take a minute to mention that I have just posted my full length, illustrated, free, self publishing guide on my website at http://www.curtislotito.com/publishing.htm I hope you find this interesting and helpful. Be sure to check back later for updates.

-Curtis-

Free Book Advertising!

2007-12-02T19:04:00.000-05:00

Hey,

I recently realized that the best way to advertise is to advertise together! That is, I am advertising my book, and realized if I share my website more people can show off their books, and more people will see my book. So what I propose, is FREE ADVERTSING! for all! go to my website to check it out:
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Otherwise, I am doing quite well now, making much headway in my pursuits. I have now completed my second novel and will begin the editing stage soon. Take a peek at my website

Thanks
Curtis

The Unveiling of my Nearyl completed NoveL!

2007-11-27T17:31:00.000-05:00

Breaking the Third Wall

BEGINNING: Part I

              “Shh…did you hear that!” George said quietly to another older, bald man.

               “NO! I didn’t hear nothin’ and I ain’t gonna hear nothin’!” the other responded

               George looked around and waited for Henry to wheel out of sight. He looked both ways and quickly and quietly crept down the first aisle. His head was turning everywhere. It seemed as though is he turned his head much more he’d end up with whiplash. He crept past the canned corn, and the kidney beans. He stood crouched behind a paper cut-out of the jolly green giant. He peeked over the top just enough to look down at the floor. A grin spread across his face as he did this.

               “There you are! You rascal! I’m gonna get you now!” he said emphatically.

               Quickly he leapt out from behind his post and brandished a large can of bug spray. Without mercy, he pulled the trigger and swift justice was done. There lay before him a pile of small black specs…formerly ants. In the middle was a rather large crumb of a sugar cookie.

               “I should have known this would be what you were after. Well now you’re not
after much of anything are ya…YOU’RE DEAD!” George said merrily.

               He crouched down and got onto his knees…putting his face right up to the pile of bodies. After examining them for a moment, he stood up once more and wandered over to the counter from whence he came. He reached underneath, fished around and procured a small brush and dustpan, neither looked like it had been used in a long time. A thick layer of dust coated both. Once more George crouched down and began to sweep the pile into the dustpan.

               “Ahhhhhh smell that, that’s the smell of defeat! Well, the smell of dead ants, bug spray, floor cleaner, cookie crumb, and possibly my breath…but nonetheless DEFEAT!” he said.

               “CUT!” Henry screamed, “All right all right I think you’re getting a little too into this part George, I mean this is a guy killing ants not Hamlet, in which I delivered a stunning and moving performance to an awe struck crowd. All you have to do is kill the ants and clean them up, smiling happily as you do so…we want a subtle hint to the audience of your…quirky nature…we can’t just give it away as soon as the curtain opens,” Henry said.

               George was fuming at this. He took several deep breaths and dry washed his hands. His large shoulders were heaving and his eyes were casting a look of death upon Henry. His arms trembled lightly and he was stroking his rather pronounced chin with one hand while the other rest on his hip.

               “Listen here, mister big shot, I don’t care how many commercials you’ve been in I am an actor in my soul, I know what acting is. I know was I should be doing. I’ve been acting for ten years longer than you! I think I know what this script is telling me…and you’re not even the director,” George said heatedly.

               Both men looked to Ed Gwesson, a small man who was sheepishly hiding behind
his script and sitting with his legs drawn up on his chair. He shook so much his mustache quivered. His hair looked a mess and he was only making it worse running his hands through it continuously.

               “Tell this imbecile that was exactly what the script called for,” George said to Ed.
               “Imbecile! Ed, would you please tell this knave, what it is to be an actor, and what it means to read the script,” Henry said.

               Ed still seemed rather at a loss for words, and sweat was forming on his brow. He looked nothing like the Hollywood director he was, instead he looked more like a small child quivering in fear from a bully.

               “Gentlemen, gentlemen, please listen to yourselves,” Ed said in a restrained voice. “I must say it was a bit over the top,”

               “I told you, you old fool,” Henry interrupted.

               “BUT,” Ed said louder again, “we do need to be a little exaggerated in this scene because we need to establish a basis for the rest of the play, we need to set a tone, and convey just how odd our dear Martin is. Henry, you did a very good job as Joe in that scene I really felt the…hatred between Martin and Joe. Now can we take that scene one more time, this time take it down just this much, just that,” Ed said.

               Once again, George and Henry took the stage, Henry in his wheel chair just to the left of George, just behind the counter. Ed looked nervous to see what was going to happen this time. He had only just begun this job last week after having a complete mental blow out on the set of a mainstream soap opera he was guest directing for a season. So many emotions was just too much for him, so he sought refuge at a place called “The Princely Palace of Plainville”, more commonly referred to by its residents, and the town people as “The Castle.” Sadly for some reason old folks emotions seemed to run just as high. Given this stress, Ed wasn’t sure how long, he could take this place.

               “Action!” Ed called trying to keep his voice steady.
               “Shh…did you hear that!” George said once more to Henry.

               Just as Ed had called action, a small boys face peered in the door, opening it just a crack and revealing a bright blue eye just like George’s. A few strands of brown hair found their way in the crack. Slowly the door opened further until finally a pale skinned bright-eyed little boy stood in the doorway watching the two men on the stage acting out this convenience store scene.

                              MIDDLE: Part IV

               He slowly walked up a small set of stone steps, and was bound for the building, still looking straight at it wide eyed and delirious. He looked at the door and set a quest for the handle staring fixedly at it blocking out everything else. He reached the door and it slid open automatically for him. Having been staring so fixedly, he momentarily panicked when the door handle disappeared, until he realized the door had opened it self.

               He ushered himself into the vast place and stood slack jawed on the thin, dirty, faded royal blue carpet and turned all around looking at all that was inside. George felt such a sense of wonderment he had never felt before, he felt like a young child again discovering something for the first time. He felt like his eyes were for a brief moment bestowed with that sense of innocence again. He felt better than he had felt in years.

               There wasn’t a whole lot more to see inside. The floors had faded, dirty, royal blue carpets like the one George stood on, and the walls were bare. There was very little lighting, and the place looked more like a dungeon. There was a small desk in the middle and various sized, and colored tables scattered around hundreds of book shelves. However, one wall had been entirely filled with filing cabinets which each was fairly large on its own.

               The air was musty, and one expected an Igor clone to be working the desk here, or else a vampire. No one was inside, and time felt thick inside, like it could actually be touched inside here. There must have been thousands or perhaps million of records in here, but what could they possibly chronicle, this is a play, there’s nothing real in here, and certainly no one would write this much detail into a place that a. isn’t used in the play, and b. doesn’t exist.

               George looked around for a clerk of some sort, but could not locate anyone. Of course, one could not possibly be expected to locate someone to help I so vast a place without any possible method, like perhaps a loudspeaker to call, or at least a bell to ring for service.

               Slowly, George approached the ancient desk in search of such a bell, but found no such thing. The only thing George could see was the oak grain desk piled high with papers, and a circle where a coffee mug must have sat for years. George half expected to find an ashtray, but found no such thing. This was indeed a strange place.

               “Hello!” George called out. “Is…uhh…there anybody here!”

               Silence was the response George received, a pounding in his head. The silence was worrisome for George, such a large building with no one in it didn’t seem right at all. It seemed that perhaps there was something amiss here, but George couldn’t quite figure out what it was that was wrong well except for of course the lack of anyone here.

               “Hey! Is there anyone here!” George called again.

               “What! What! Do you have to be so loud!” A small voice called from just below the desk.
               "Umm…excuse me?” George said looking down for the voice.

               “What, you got me already, what do you want!” the shrill voice shrieked.

               “I was just hoping to get some history about this building,” George said.

               “Well, what do you wanna know?” the voice called abruptly.

               “Err…is there just a brief overview of like what’d happened over the years?” George tried.

               “That way!” the voice yelled as a ruler nearly poked George in the eye as it flew from behind the counter.
               He turned completely around and began walking to the left of the doors he came in through and was slowly approaching one of the huge hulking bookshelves that came up to the middle of the high windows. The bookshelf was filled with numerous leather bound books, as well as a great deal of books completely missing their binding, no doubt from their age.

                              NEAR END: Part VIII

               “These are the herbs you need to go back, thyme, sage, blue lily, mugwort, wormwood, cayenne pepper, lots and lots of nutmeg, and baco’s. What we will do is spread most of this on the ground and then eat a large lump each,” Marcus told George holding out the bag for George to take a handful.

               They looked at each other and Marcus quickly gulped his heaping handful and smiled a big toothy grin as he teetered slightly where he stood. George swallowed hard quickly shoved all the powder he could in his mouth and swallowed it. The second he swallowed it he could feel himself getting lighter. He felt so strange now. His hands looked weird and he felt like he could just stare at them forever. Time felt like it stopped, but h knew it was still going normal speed. He felt like he could just daydream for the rest of forever. George couldn’t focus and felt giggly, he felt young, again, like everything he looked at sparkled and the colors were amazing.
               George felt like all the blood was rushing to his head and his hands were heavy. His eyes were red and he looked at Marcus who was laughing hysterically on the floor staring at nothing. George felt himself falling, but straightened himself up quickly. He forced his thoughts back to that of home as he giggled a little and watched his hand move.

               “Ok, ok….so…” George said pausing.

               He returned to staring at this hand as he moved I t back and forth in front of his face some more. He caught sight of something staring in the window…he could have sworn it was a duck! He saw a duck, like a giant person sized duck watching him. He began to laugh hysterically as he fell on the floor clutching his stomach as it bounced up and down. George couldn’t remember a time he had felt better…George couldn’t remember anything.

               “So…what’s next?” George asked, not noticing that he had just paused for a good five minutes in the middle of that sentence.
               “Umm, hehehehhe” Marcus said bursting out into a fit of laughter in the middle of his sentence. “Next..hehhee…next we…eheheheh….we make sure….hehehhe…it’s…hahahhahhahahahaahah dark in here,” Marcus cackled.

               George had to really focus to do this task, his head hurt from so much concentration and yet he still couldn’t control himself. He would stop at times and just look out the windows as he attempted to block them with paper bags from the register. He stopped at one point seeing the duck again and just stared. He watched that duck walk, or waddle rather back and forth at least for times before his hand distracted him again. Then he returned to his task.

               Nearly done, George was covering the last gap in the window when the duck’s head popped up, right there…right in his face. He went berserk and began to scream at the top of his lungs. In his rage he punched the window as hard as he could the glass shattered on his hand and flew outward. The world outside didn’t stop though. George could feel his hand throbbing and the blood beginning to fall. There, however, was the duck, only inches from his grasp. He lunged forward thrusting his arm out through the whole and right through the duck…it was all an illusion, he had been chasing shadows. George felt like a complete fool as he covered up the last shattered bloodied hole.

               He walked back across the store holding his hand and swearing like a sailor. He walked back to Marcus and solemn faced turned to look at the man who was laughing hilariously. He was so angry he couldn’t fathom laughing at this point. He breathed hard and deep trying to control his rage and calm himself once more.
               “What’s left to do?” George asked.

               “Uhh,” Marcus said as he turned and shuddered to see all the blood, “Next we need some more of this,” he said shaking the pouch, “then you lay in the middle of the circle and I say the magic words.”
               They each took another lump of powder, George hesitating slightly, but taking the powder. Both of their eyes lit up once more as the powder worked its way into their systems. They were suddenly charged with energy, they seemed like they were hyper.

               “Ok, lets go!” Marcus said excitedly.

               “Huh? What?...DUCK!” George said.

               “Ok, well get the duck in the middle!” Marcus commanded.

               Conversation paused for a moment as both men froze and stared at the can of peas that was falling down. It turned in the air and spun around and around finally slamming into the ground and cracking a tile. The water inside seeped out slowly, like a wounded soldier bleeding to death. Their faces sagged and sadness filled their eyes…it was in explicable. George raced Marcus as they dashed for the peas. George won, picking up the can and cradling it in his arms as tears streamed down his face. He was uncontrollably sobbing no as Marcus patted his back. George let out a most disheartening scream.

               “Ok,” George said as he laid down in the middle of the circle. “Wait…I don’t see the duck here…you sure you saw him here?”

               “Positive,” Marcus responded as he frantically flipped through a book.

               Conversation paused for a moment as both men froze and stared at the can of peas that was falling down. It turned in the air and spun around and around finally slamming into the ground and cracking a tile. The water inside seeped out slowly, like a wounded soldier bleeding to death. Their faces sagged and sadness filled their eyes…it was in explicable. George raced Marcus as they dashed for the peas. George won, picking up the can and cradling it in his arms as tears streamed down his face. He was uncontrollably sobbing no as Marcus patted his back. George let out a most disheartening scream.

               The peas were pouring all over the floor now and George was soaked with his tears and the juice from the peas. Marcus grabbed George’s shoulder and motioned toward the can of peas and himself. George passed the can to Marcus who was just as over wrought over this. He wailed about the can’s youthfulness and yearning for life, and how it was cut down in the prime.

               “too yats dna too teg,” Marcus read from the book as he ran his finger over the lines. “too yats dna too teg, evael siht ecalp too yats dna too teg, evael siht ecalp,” he repeated over and over as he increased his speed.

High Demand

2007-09-22T21:59:00.000-04:00

Loyal Subscribers-

I apologize for the lapse in posts, but given the current high volume of work that has been going on, its been very difficult to keep up with all of my webmaster duties. For this I apologize, and implore volunteers to step forward and help me out. Anyway I am now here to apprise you of what is going on.

I have unfortunately no news for you! What a great surprise. I will direct you attention once again to my new site http://writersanonymous.info or straight to the source of my current news topic http://nanowrimo.org

Thats all I have for you right now. Haven't had the chance to write much, and personal news doesn't really have a place here anymore :-) so if your interested in what's going on with me, IM me on titocurt, or email at titocurt@hotmail.com

Otherwise...Goodnight.

-Curtis- Out

Classes

2007-09-04T18:21:00.000-04:00

Welcome,

Well Today I had my first day of classes, it was ok. Teachers seem nice, but a little crazy. I feel a little overwhelmed, but I'm sure it's just my nerves, I really need some stress management, lol. Umm Had Comp sci and bio, guy in Comp Sci Seeemed to talk a bit to fast for me, but I'm sure I'll get used to it. We learned the AND OR Statements lol.

Bio was ok, Teacher was nice, she was very happy and laughed a lot, but no problem in that. Need a bunch of stuff for that class too, a binder and goggles and stuff for lab, hmm almost wish I had my lab coat, lol.

Umm wanne go eat, but can;t caught in a terrible dilemma. Student Center stuff closes at 9 so can't really get stuff after then, so need to eat late enough to not be hungry later, but so hungry now lol. W/E I'll just wait.

SO SOMEONE COME READ THIS!!!! QUAGHHHHHHHH! Sorry I am just so often saddened by my lack of audience, but I guess I don't have a particularly interesting life and don't talk about much, Not to mention I don't know an excessive amount of people well enough for them to be interested by this, so the ones that stop by and read thanks, your appreciated, I just wish I was slightly famous online :-) One day! lol I Will

Anyway, later ya'll good luck and have fun. PTHS OPENS TOMORRROW! WHOOOT LOL HOPE THEY HAVE A GOOD FIRST DAY!

-Curtis_|

The Story

2007-09-03T16:43:00.001-04:00

Dear Readers :-),

This is the story of The fire Drill finally. Not that great.

So the night before I was up until about two, and apparently one of my room mates stumbled in at three and I said something, lol but I didn't remember that at all. So anyway then I woke up at 8:30 seemingly inexplicably, but it later turned out to be due to the alarms several of my room mates had set, so then I went back to sleep.

The next time I awoke I didn't know why I was up, but I suddenly realized it was the fire alarms that woke me up, so I literally jumped out of my top bunk bed threw on a shirt and went down 14 flights ugh!

Outside we all sat around and the firemen came by, I heard something about the 8th floor, but never figured out what happened. Finally the walked by again and everyone began the mad race back inside.

I shuffled in and managed to sneak into the second stairwell across from the packed elevators, which no one seemed to be using and walked all the way back up. Once upstairs I was far to awake to sleep again, so I just started my day.

Not the best story, but thats what happened :-) So that's it. Later.

-The Jakl-

College

2007-09-02T15:30:00.000-04:00

September 2nd, 2007

It ain't too bad here :-) keeping busy, pedaling my book and websites lol. Editing my other book. I have been making friends as much as possible, to make sure that I am not bored. I am missing home a little bit, but honestly it hasn't entirely sunk in yet.

Classes start Tuesday, should be interesting to see how they are. I need to get my books, still, but I don't have the money at this current point in time.

My dorm is pretty good, big. Top floor!!! SO many stairs, no elevator to 14th floor only 13th lol. So I had to carry every thing up a flight. There are bunk beds which is an interesting situation, the sprinkler is right above my head, I am so afraid I am gonna knock it down one day and be soo screwed lol.

I awoke to a fire alarm today, but I don't feel like recapping just now, maybe later or tomorrow, or if someone actually asks. Anyway thats all for now, so later.

-Curtis_|