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Our Economy Is in Big Trouble and so am I

2010-09-06T15:28:00.001-05:00

So I can't get a full time job that will pay my bills and get me out of the mess I am in. I just read a report that said there will be not be any good jobs for up to the next 4-5 years. That Health Care will pay well. Everything else will not. So there will only be good jobs and bad jobs available. What a wonderful forcast. I feel like I am at the end of something. I can't figure out what it is. I have no other job skills....I have applied to the health industry and got pretty far along in the interview process but failed to get the job. I have applied to other companies, temp agencies, and other low paying jobs. I cannot get anywhere. Switching careers at this stage is my life is pretty near impossible. I do not have the finances to go back to school as I have 3 degrees already I don't see how a 4th would help.
What's the point?
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Future hiring will generate mainly high-skilled or low-paying jobs in service industries | San Francisco Examiner

2010-09-06T15:28:00.000-05:00

Future hiring will generate mainly high-skilled or low-paying jobs in service industries San Francisco Examiner

An Interesting Coincidence?

2010-08-29T19:32:00.002-05:00

Last night I had a "talk" with my higher power. You know, some call it God, some call it the Universe, whatever you want. I was meditating, praying or just communicating. I wanted to feel a connection. I focused on asking for some sort of sign....that would let me know that I was not forgotten.
Today I was running errands. At the first place a man called out to me and said "Is that a fun car"? I responded that "yes indeed it is". He asked if it was a Mazda Miata. I answered yes again. He the told me that he was jealous. I told him that if it weren't for my parents death and a small inheritance I wouldn't have that car. He smiled at me and got in his car.
"Ok" I said to myself that was cool. Was it coincidence? I get a lot of people asking me about my car and admiring it so I didn't think anymore about it.
Until later when I was running another errand. I was walking up to the store in the parking lot and a perfect stranger (another man) started talking to me. He asked me how I was doing?????!!!!! I said "I was doing pretty good" and asked him how he was. He said that "he was fine and that he was glad to hear I was doing well". I know I did not know him and he kept on walking after the verbal exchange.
Now I thought, nope this was not a coincidence. The universe/God sent these two people to me today to connect with me because that's what I was asking for last night. I asked for what I truely needed and was appropriately answered.
All I can say is wow!

Lost in the Universe

2010-08-17T10:01:00.002-05:00

Here I am a soul without a purpose. I am told there is a place for me here in this universe. I do not see it. I have asked, demanded, looked forward too, expected and ignored it. I do not find or get the answer. I go out everyday to try to do something that can be construed as purposeful or good. I keep a positive attitude for most of the time. I am tired of floating around. It is bad enough that we don't know where we are going or where we will end up but the worst is not having the path. I can't find it and am getting tired of looking for it.

I feel like I am missing out on something and it is huge. I should be in on whatever it is I am not. If I don't know what I am supposed to be doing than how do I know what to do? I am tired of this. My father always said to "keep the faith". I think I have lost it somewhere. Now I have to find that too!

I think I can now understand why some souls elect to leave the physical body. It is too painful. I know I will probably keep going and waiting and trying to secure that feeling that I belong and am doing what I am here for but it is getting harder by the day. I know there is no one out there that can help me but me. I am trying hard not to feel sorry for myself. I try hard to count my blessings. I try hard to read the "Letter to the Universe" at least once a day. My resolve is weakening.

September Update

2009-09-07T15:17:00.002-05:00

Things are picking up a little. I have started substitute teaching at the schools a little bit. My first job for the school year was only a half day but I felt so good afterwards. (And it was quite a class!) I am hoping that it will not be like it was at the end of the last school year where I was mostly getting half day assignments with some full days thrown in. If I can get full day assignments 5 days a week I can pull in $500.00 a week which will benefit my financial situation which is very poor right now.

Getting a full time job with a school district is next to impossible for me right now. I have applied to almost ever school district in Kansas. I don't know why I can't even get an interview. Possible reasons are: I have a Masters Degree in Library Science so they may not believe that I can handle a classroom and/or they would have to pay me too much; I didn't do well on their online assessment and maybe I am too old. I do have 9 years of teaching experience.
I may never know the reason. I try not to dwell on it. I have my dream or goal if you want to call it and right now I am not going to give up on it. I want to teach kids whether it is in a traditional classroom or a school library.

Thank goodness for my part time library job. It has been keeping me from going completely under and losing my house and car!

I make sure I am doing the best job I can and l let the teachers know what number to call if they want me back again. So right now I am taking one day at a time and keeping all my thoughts as positive as possible.

School Has Started

2009-08-18T19:58:00.000-05:00

I find myself again in the same place I was in last year and the year before. Substitute teaching during the day and working at the libary at night. Things weren't easy from January to May last year in the school employment. I did not work as much as I wanted. I have considered working for more than one district but I find that complicated. I like the school district I sub for because it is close to home. My financial situation keeps getting worse too. I applied to the Home Made Afforable program to try and save my house. I now am facing debt management because I can no longer pay my credit cards. It was fine when I had a full time teaching job. I keep looking for the other door to open since this one shut. It is hard waiting for it. I have searched my heart and thought about changing careers but I cannot. I only seem to want to be with and teach the kiddos. If life is trying to tell me otherwise I don't know what to say. I don't want to go back to school since, I already have 3 degrees, I think that is too much to ask. I will continue to take continuing education classes because I believe in that. I just wish I knew where I am going to end up at. I am getting discouraged.