I get home take a nap wake up with both puppeh’s sleeping nicely next to me <shockingly not playing or fighting just snoozing away> and decide ok I need to eat.  So I get up and disengage myself from the puppies and go foraging for noms.  I find that I have one giant nectarine left which I cut up to munch and decided that will do it.

I go back up stairs put the dogs away and lie down for bed.  Watching tv I catch a commercial or show and all of a sudden im down and moody.  What the hell it wasnt even that emotional of a commercial.

I start to think about things and realize that I’ve been bouncing between happy and just down right depressed over the last few months…Fuck am I bipolar now?

<Shrug> anyway went to post this last night and my tablet died so I just went to sleep.  Hoping things cheer up soon.

Later ya’ll.

Least I have my tablet, 

I’m over it all its too damn hot and I’m going to bed.  Night night.

I miss the feel of a man next to me, I miss the warmth of someone else masculine and just a bit rough at my side.  Nothing feminine just masculine. 

I miss sleeping next to it.  Having that securty,  that safety if it makes sense.  I might be a big guy, might be called daddy but there are times that I myself need a bit of that old security blanket. 

Oh well, its late and I need to at least attempt to sleep.

I found a nifty app for my phone to post to my blog so let’s see what happens.