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Memes are a catalyst for our evolution!

2019-08-06T09:53:00.003-07:00

Are Memes evolving us or ruining our communication skills?

Well hello there world, it has been a decade since my last appearance. what have I done? what I always do. I studied the world around me. As suspected, I have gotten just as addicted to memes as the rest of us. Is this good or bad?

I for one think it's brilliant. We are learning a bee hive mentality. memes are becoming an incredibly fast way of us communicating! instead of talking we can all come to the same conclusion with one picture and a few words. with those two combinations we experience fast and vast emotional reactions. Facebook has even expanded the reaction from just a thumbs up.

what does this help us with? more and more we are discussing our reactions to things with a community of people we have or have not met. this way we form grouped thinking and unfold our responses. With this upgrade from technology we are finding that understanding what we feel comes more naturally. This is great! Since our forefathers (and mothers) of many generations past, human beings have been taught and encouraged to suppress our emotions and control our reactions. This caused whole generations to lack sensitivity and a deeper understanding of our minds, bodies and emotions. For generations a species drawn to community and connection was stunted.

Then Technology came! and what did we do, we showed it exactly what we want! we want connection, community, freedom to search and ask and learn and grow without limitation or judgment! And here is to us getting it right! Well, the judging part is taking a while... but with more posts and memes expressing mental illness and serious issues we are slowly but surely unlearning the toxic trait of judgments our forefathers and mothers cursed us with. talk about breaking generational curses.

Melenials and gen z kids are so judged. to a point where we don't even accept that we are part of this community. but, as melenials we grabbed onto technology and despite being told not to... we shared all of our feelings and deepest darkest thoughts. we created the foundation for true healing.

Being glued to our phones and tablets we don't move and jump around. we focus all of our energy into spreading our message of our needs. we embrace and fight and share, just as family. it is no wonder that people find the internet their safe place. because they don't have an intense fear of expression. yes online bullying was so difficult in the beginning, but we are also learning how we vent and attack people to make us feel better. we have grown emotionally and mentally so much in the last 2 decades than our race has in the last century! and now we fight with each other and don't take as much offence because we have removed the element of our physical form.

Who knew that seeing each other was such a huge problem? we can't see the next person so we cannot judge them based on there looks or the way the sound or smell. In fact none of our sensors come into contact with the other person. just our minds and hearts. Through this, we have learned to be less judgmental and we have pushed ourselves to evolve. Our revolution has just begun and we listened when they said the future is ours. I have faith in us guys. we've come far.

But hey... that's my opinion. Feel free to share yours.

well.... this is buttonGirl.... popping in..... and falling off this coat... peace.

Perception - You're Wrong... but so am I.

2013-11-17T05:44:00.000-08:00

Perception is what creates our world. Who a person is to another is based on that person’s perception of them. The possibilities of the world are limited and created by a person’s perception. Whether wrong or right, if a person can make his or her perception sound convincing with a few sophisticated words, the world will follow it. You add a degree behind that person and they become infallible. If a person has children and Age then you cannot even contemplate questioning them because they have a qualification that exceeds all qualifications - experience.

Is it fair that we should accept even our own perception of things? A perception is based on experience, so one person’s perception of something will be completely different to another’s. The way we perceive things is always based on the knowledge we've been given on the matter which is generally tainted by another’s opinion. We never receive all the facts and you hardly find a person who is willing to listen to an opposing opinion or the “other side”. Even if we find a person who is willing there is always the huge obstacle of emotion. One’s own emotional response to a situation alters the perception of that situation in one direction or another. So any perceived moment is tainted. Every memory a person has, is tainted. My sister and I will remember our childhood in two completely different lights. Are neither wrong? Or are both wrong? The way my family perceives me is so vastly different to the way I know myself. I wonder if my perception of them is not wrong.

As soon as a person hears that I want to wait to have sex after marriage they assume I’m Self-righteous. They know that I’ve decided to make that choice because I have trust issues and intimacy fears, yet they ignore those factors because they let their own insecurities taint the truth. Even the word insecurities has been associated with so much negativity that as soon as I mention it one could assume I’m saying it as an insult – out of loathing for them thinking me self-righteous. But in truth, we are all insecure about one thing or another it’s not an insult. It’s a fact. We all have a field in our lives that we are uncertain about. To be insecure is to lack self-confidence. Stating it like that seems so much less negative. Our perception of a simple word is tainted. Our perception of people is tainted. Our memories are tainted.

The question that remains is what isn’t tainted by our perception? if our concept of words are tainted and they were tainted by people who are in turn tainted, If every concept or thought a person has is tainted by their perception, then what is untainted? Our reality has been tainted by the perception of generations of followers. What is reality then? The idea of flying made no sense to people, and the Write brothers proved them wrong. How many concepts and thoughts can be proven wrong? How much more could the human race accomplish if we weren’t so cursed to follow blindly the perception of our for fathers? We are living in a false reality. That does not make us mad. It makes us all ignorant. We are all following blindly the ideas of people who died before our ancestors were a thought. Stereotypes, prejudices, selfishness, thoughtlessness, poverty, helplessness, laziness, Judgment, Ignorance – the list is endless. We have WILLFULLY inherited all of this from people of the past. If you think otherwise, Rethink it. Why is it that you think that? What are your facts and who gave them to you? Whose perception are you following? We are all ignorant in this world, you and I alike. Sometimes the Truth can be a discomfort.

Perception creates our world. We can control our perception. We can control how our world is created.

So . . . this is button girl............popping in.............and falling off this coat................ peace.

2013-05-30T08:35:00.001-07:00

University. Something Romanticized by Movies. I realize that University will not be a fun exercise but I realize that taking more than 3 gap years is. . . unadvised. The problem is, no one wants to read an uninteresting subject over and over again as a form of studying. NO ONE LIKES DOING BORING STUFF!! I like watching movies and googling funny pictures and sleeping late. The problem with doing all these simple things is. . . well, it's boring. Our sub conscience KNOWS we don't want to be on a permanent vacation and our conscience knows we don't want to do hard work. so in other words. we can't win.

Or can we? what if we found something called a passion? IT, Chemistry, people, charity, art, drama, law, politics, science, mechanics, education, environment etc. And we were so passionate we endured the boring balancing it with the vacation type activities called hobbies and eventually BAM!!! we're qualified within the field of our passion and we can still continue with our hobbies. It's easy to see benefits that lie far in the future. but doing the hard work. . . is doable. but, it's only doable if you have a passion.

Okay so.

point 1: never avoid life, it'll just go on without us, we'll lose time and grow far too familiar with regret.
Point 2: find a passion
point 3: if you have no passion don't use it as an excuse! that's rude! just go to a university and do a career assessment. look at their subjects and do a general degree with subjects you like. when you figure out what you want you can add your credits to the new degree choice.
point 4: go to university.
point 5: if you can't afford it apply for financial aid because pride is for people who want to live in a shack. if you don't get it don't give up, look for bursaries. look for future employees and write up a proposal for them. be a pest. don't give up... winners never quit and quitters never win.
point 6: Live. push yourself but live.

OK.... so this is us growing up. sometimes we've got to put the life questions aside and choose to live. we can't read about someone else's life any more and get distracted. we can't watch movies about these things. we need to live it. and whist studying and working hard isn't a vacation. it's a process of life. one that we need to discover for ourselves. and I for one can't wait to live. and I completely understand that right now I am excited and I'll get more disheartened when the hard work comes. . . but, having something to complain about creates groups. creates connections. creates friendships and laughter and just. . .LIFE! so... lets go live :)

So this is ButtonGirl .....popping in........... and falling off this coat. Peace.

2012-03-07T06:50:00.000-08:00

Hey folks.... so it's been a while.... like 5 months or so... I'm good at that whole keeping up with peeps thing :P

I was reading a post by some other blogger on the wonderful creation of the interweb... except this blogger was .....misguided.
we are all entitled to an opinion unless we think our opinion is Fact and it's simply WRONG! I respect people who love God, God is a great guy to Love {{I Love that guy}} but I get incredibly irritated when people make use of the word "Evil" in the wrong text.

one must be very careful with how they say things. Words are weapons often used by us, against our will. what I mean is we often say things without malicious intend that result in the pain and hurt of another.
this man said that a certain action was Evil, when he should have said sinful. If we imply that an action we do is evil, it gives us reason to believe we are evil when we are not. This just makes us defensive and hurtful and makes us want to lash out at others...

SO my lovely people out there.... let's be careful with your words because they affect others. in a good way and a bad way... if you are going to say something that is negative, if it's not constructive don't say it, if it is... be very sure to explain yourself and end on a gentle note.

to end this post.... Words are Power...your words could start a war or prevent one. and to quote spiderman's uncle "with great power comes great responsibility" choose to show Love at all times with your words and it'll come back to you... choose to use bitterness with your words and it'll hinder you each day of your life.

so........this is ButtonGirl popping in..................and falling off this coat.....peace.

Lets Understand this. . . just Give us a sec will ya?

2011-08-25T02:15:00.000-07:00

Oh goodness I should Update a post!!!! HIY!!!!
so?. . . how you been crackalacking homies??? <--- OK I promise not to promise to never do that again. . . but I just got into a weird mood... my badness! <--- that was said in some movie with a poem about light...{{nods head}}

so "vaat iz ziz zing doing herrre???" Glad you asked - I'm visiting. . . :D :D :D

OK! lets start making points. I got sooo irritated the other day...#truestory I was seriously shoved in a corner <metaphorically of course, I wouldn't go literally into a corner, I'd fight that> any way I was shoved to the side, disregarded treated like an adolescent normally is by people almost triple our age. . . why??? because they refuse to believe we have words of worth... I gave myself time to calm down so, no worries this post is not me complaining. . .

firstly we all have flaws that we are unable to realise, so no judgement is passed here. but sometimes, we need to have someone point out these flaws to us, because we can hurt people. . .so...

age, People who are old enough to be our parents - along with our parents - act like they have all the answers when they're not fooling themselves and they're not fooling us. this BTW is quite an unhealthy thing, we need to be taught that our parents don't always have the answers - only Google does - but acting like you have all the answers, isn't a good thing either. NO ONE, I shall repeat NO ONE knows everything, again, that is Google's job!
sometimes we slip up and think we might have the best answer, but that can sometimes just be pride talking.
Parents don't want you to doubt them and think they don't know best because they think you'll end up being disrespectful. They actually think they won't have control and you'll end up going off the rails. you are their responsibility till the day you die in their eyes, if you come home pregnant, they'll freak but it'll be because they'll be mad with themselves, "where did we go wrong?" . . . Other parents are proud, they don't think they can go wrong, so they ignore everything that does go wrong... some are too submissive to you because they're afraid they'll lose you.
point? Parents are humans. They're people. same with teachers, professors, boss's etc. sometimes, they need you to sit them down and tell them where they are going wrong. . . in a way that is totally respectful and loving - they're still your parents, they deserve respect for going through life with you - sometimes, you need to tell them how you feel, how the things they say and do affect you and how you would prefer them to act and talk, try to make them understand that all you want is for them to understand and trust you. maybe just act like they love you. whatever it is. in my experience, talking helps - NOT shouting, no mesg gets through when it's just angry people shouting at each other. be open to criticism, because you're human too, you do things that hurt others, even if you don't see it. have a two way conversation and NEVER give or take a lecture, lectures never work, if your parents sit you down for a lecture, participate, if they ask you to speak or explain yourself - do. even if you think they won't understand, especially then, and tell them that you don't think they'll understand. . . they might surprise you.

we all have something to teach, we all have something to learn. no matter our age or experience we have something to give... you can learn so much from your parents, just as they can learn so much from you. . . just as much as you can learn from a stranger, just as much as a stranger can learn from you.
always keep an open mind, if you disagree, that doesn't mean you have to dislike a person, always show compassion; people have their reasons for doing the things they do, the best you can do is try to understand them and show compassion. even if you don't always like the things they do, actions are not as person, a person isn't the choices they make, or the mistakes they've made. Don't treat people like they are the actions they take or mistakes. they're all worth the stars and more and we've all got mistakes to make and lessons to learn, that doesn't mean we're any less than what we are - perfect. it's not about the fact that someone fell, it's the recovery they make when they get up, and when we trip there will always be the group feeling pity, the ones that laugh, the ones that try and help, the people that tripped you to start with, and none of that matters, what matters is getting back to feeling AWESOME. back to feeling Joy. . . why wallow in simple matters when God made Flowers? <--- why find the sad things in life, why concentrate on the things that irritate you the people that treat you like you not old enough to understand, the child that thinks your too old to understand, why focus on that? when there are things that are good in the world too? when there are people who do understand you? focus on the good starting with the simplest thing - like flowers - and work your way up... you'll find a reason to smile.

so remember, speak, don't shout, and wait to calm down before speaking. love. Try to understand. Try to make people understand you. Never Give Up. Hug a bit more, Laugh a bit more. remember, you're not the only one who has a bad day, someone acting like a Jack@$$ 10 to 1 is probably having a terrible day too. don't add to his grief, just try to understand...:) smile at them maybe, even if they don't smile back. . .

so, may God bless you, even if you don't believe in him. . . and a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! <--- don't ask, weird mood remember? :D :D :D fun times ;) keep the currant rolling!

AAAAHHHH!!! COWS ARE SOOOO CUTE!!! :D :D:D

so it's been fun :D I gotta roll for now :D

so this is ButtonGirl Popping in............................... and falling off this coat..........peace

to get you need to give. To give, you first need to get.

2011-08-11T01:50:00.000-07:00

why the random video???.... cos I happen to think he's amazing... and it's called superman... and that just happens to be my FAVOURITE super Hero... well it's a tie between Wolverine and Superman... they're both super cool... and both guys as I've just realised... but I wouldn't read too much into that... I think it's just a coincidence... ANYWAY!

HAPPY AUGUST! ... lets formulate a list of all the happenings in August....

1597 AD = Germany throws out English sales people <--- hahaha

1860 AD = Nation's 1st successful silver mill (Virginia City, Nev)

1866 AD = World's 1st roller rink opens (Newport RI)

1909 AD = SOS - 1st used by an American ship, Arapahoe, off Cape Hatteras, NC

1929 AD = Babe Ruth becomes 1st to hit 500 homers (off Willis Hudlin of Cleve)

1984 AD = During a radio voice test Pres Reagan joked he "signed legislation that would outlaw Russia forever. We begin bombing in 5 minutes" haahaha, I don't hate Russia, I just think it's funny... :)

1989 AD = "Nightmare on Elm Street 5: Dream Child" premier!!! :D with Jonny Depp!!!! :D: :D :D

2011 AD = {{insert your name}} does . . . . . .

what are you going to do this August that would be considered important... not necessarily important to the world, but to you?... something that would go down in your personal history book as an important thing, an important date, an important happening... good, bad or funny... be bold, be impulsive, make a memory... there is no reason you shouldn't have a memory made at least once a month... :) change a life, if you can't change anyone else's, change your own.. make it better then it is, if it's already amazing... make it better. Never just settle because you feel you'll never get anything better, never think that you're not worth it.... Because you exceed worth, no matter what you've done or where you've been, you are here for a reason, you breath because you have purpose... you could live in the darkest times of your life, done the darkest deeds, said the Harshest words, hurt the purest people... and you would still exceed worth, you'd still be seen as perfect to God, you'd still deserve nothing less than the best for you. it's not about what you've done, it's about what you will do after that, and after that and after that... it's about always trying... persisting, moving forward, learning, and doing better the next time, or at least trying to do better. cos it's not about if you could do better or if you did a lot of good it's the trying that counts... there is nothing worse then giving up.

strive for happiness for yourself and not just happiness of others. you can't make others smile if you don't know how... so look after yourself, love yourself, be a little selfish when it comes to your happiness... but don't disregard others happiness, understand that being happy is the first step to being able to help others feel joy... to get you need to give. To give, you first need to get.

anyway it's been fun but I gotta make like a frog and leap... d[O0.]b <--- what I just say???

so, this is ButtonGirl popping in.......................... and falling off this coat.... peace.

POINTLESS POST!#@!#%^&*

2011-07-31T13:28:00.000-07:00

Don't ask,,, the pic doesn't relate... I just thought it was cute... so, Brace yourselves... WARNING! INCOMING POINTLESS POST!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

so................................. was cleaning my room... and tidying it... and decided to sort out my neat piles of terribly organised (I just put stuff on stuff) mess... and found letters, yes as in the ones little girls write to each other when they're in high school ... yeah so... they're from when I was in high school (last year)... and they were all addressed to me (yay I was loved once upon a time!) ... I mean how strange that were not addressed to someone else!... I'd totally expect letters that were not mine to be in my room... ANYWAY!.. so there they were, so I read them, I wasn't being rude, they were mine anyway...

they weren't interesting,,, they were rather Lame... some funny... all about Boys... is that seriously what occupied the minds of the youth I dealt with in high school?.. the answer is yes, and it was all the same thing "I wonder does he notice me" "I get butterflies sometimes when I see him" "I like him so much it scares me" "it's frustrating that he doesn't notice me!"... blah blah blah!... this is good though, it's growth... it's the stage at which they needed/need to be... and in truth... watching older versions of these young ladies, nothing much has changed and I don't suppose anything will... and it's not a bad thing... they're searching for "the one".. so eager... and the gushing and concerns they have will never go away till they find "the one"... well at least we hope the gushing won't go away, and the concerns - unfortunately- will be replaced with new ones rather than completely vanishing... the only thing that changes is... a certain maturity when dealing with these developing crushes over the years... you learn to be more brave, more patient... more understanding...

The most fascinating part of all of it... is the growth though, the journey... seeing the difference in these ladies over the years,,, it wasn't like they changed... it was like... more detail was added to them...
it made me understand why journals/ diaries,,, song books... all of why they were used and kept... sure it helps people rant out stuff - I prefer shouting - but... it's the looking back... that's the important part - why?!?!?!... because it helps you see that you had times where you thought you couldn't live you felt so much pain, and reading it, you can see the fears you had.. but being older you can see how small they were... and this is good, because it helps us see that the problems we face now... we'll be able to look back on... and be ok with... we'll be able to realise, we'll still be around in ten years, and we'll be ok in ten years...

so ya.... food for thought... I wish I grabbed all my letters back after writing them so I could have read them now... would've made me laugh I bet... :)

Anyway, this has no doubt been a pretty pointless post... filled with nothingness... but, I still enjoyed typing it... :)

so... this is ButtonGirl Popping in.......................... and falling off this coat..... peace...

2011-07-28T02:04:00.000-07:00

Lets play a little question Game on our show

"LETS ASK THE QUESTIONS?!?"

Our question for tonight - although it's morning - is....drum roll....

"If you were stuck on an island for three months.....and were only allowed one person with you.... and you would not die and neither would your guest... and you had an abundance of food - that tasted good .... and they'd be ok with coming no matter what... and the whether wasn't life threatening or too uncomfortable... WHO WOULD YOU TAKE???"

moment of consideration.... such a tough question!!!!!!!!... sweat drips down the forehead...

ok... we could choose... a lot of people, but who would you choose?.... who would I choose?... lets make a list of more questions and see who fits the bill...

1) ok, someone who doesn't irritate you

2) someone you find interesting...

3) someone you want to spend more time with

4) someone you can fight and smile with... cos it's not 100% happiness on this island...

5) someone whose going to help out no questions asked if you needed to build a fire and collect/hunt food <-- I might become a vegetarian at this point... or let someone else do the killing of innocent fragile creatures...

6) someone who won't trip you if a bear is chasing you guys...

7) someone who doesn't find you completely annoying...

8) someone you would miss if for three months you'd vanish...

9) someone who would miss you if for three months you vanish...

10) and this is THE most important... someone you're incapable of living without...

Hmmmmm?... got anyone in particular in mind????... yes?... then lucky you, you've won a trip for two to an abandoned island where you have to fend for yourself!!!!.... :D :D :D... ok, not really... but if you actually have someone fitting the bill... go and cry in a corner... because you're screwed if that person dies!... :P

ok, serious jokes asside that I kinda meant, but laughed it off like a joke - awkward silence..... this Girls CRAZY!... where DID you find her?!?!?!?...

sigh... ok, if your person DID NOT get 10 out of ten... or at least did not get number ten... then they are not viable to go with you to an island for three months unsupervised...

so... what was the point of this RANDOM question Game show you ask?.... what DO these questions mean?... What AM I thinking?...

Hmmm... good questions indeed... should I type them into www.ask.com for you?....

but what DO these questions mean?... what does it mean if you find yourself in a situation where you found someone who scored an amazing score?... what does it mean if they passed number ten?... what does it mean if you can't live without them?... can't breath without them... eat... sleep... what does that mean?... what does it mean if you can live without them?... if they can live without you?...

a young foolish girl - which might have been me - once said, that no one ever really needs anyone... they just want them really really badly

she accepted that... you need a large amount of people around... for sanity sake so that you don't feel alone, like you're the only one... all that other hash... {{see I am legend for reference ;) }}but she felt like no one needs another singular person, people were replaceable, and interchangeable...

what is a need?... a need is something you have to have in order to survive... food, water, shelter... <--- basic needs...

and I didn't see people fitting into that unless you ATE them for survival!!!!! hmmmm YuMmMMMmmmY! - I'd never do that {{awkward laugh as she considers it -KIDDING}} - hence people were not needed... but. <-- yes she does redeem herself.... but, the way I see it, if you're fighting with someone and cannot eat due to the lack in speech between the two characters... no eating leads to anorexia, anorexia leads to DY!nG!!!!... people need food... and to consume food you might need set person,,,, conclution...

man needs food... food needs person.... cut out the middle man... man needs set person.... and here she thought she didn't need anyone... silly little foolish girl, who were you kidding, the minute you thought that God decided to line someone up to spite you!... Not that she minds - she likes getting her facts straight...

sO.... H0w dO yOU fe3L??????? - great thanks :D

so, as much as she hates to get gushy.... cos she doesn't know how.... and as much as she hates to admit when she's wrong... wait... I'm not going to get into that... it's not how I roll

so, she'll end by saying...

sometimes, we do need someone, whether it's a kid, a friend, husband, lover... sometimes, we need someone. and that there, is all folks... don't need to say more....

this is ButtonGirl.....popping in................... and falling off this coat..... peace.

Reputation...REPutaion R3pUt@Ti0N!!!!

2011-06-16T06:04:00.000-07:00

what's the fuss about?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

Reputation, reputation reputation....

My mother always said that the most important thing for you to maintain is a good reputation. She was very proud of her reputation that she maintained -->"untouchable" as "someone who will beat you and stop before a murder charge if you even tried to touch her inappropriately..." she was proud that men feared her and women hated her out of jealousy... she was perfectly happy with her reputation.
so, this got me thinking as a child - as it was impossible not to since it was brought up regularly - about my reputation, when I was in grade seven I was exactly like my mother. and when grade eight came around I decided I didn't want people to fear me - it's not exactly the best way to make friends you know - but what this saying also did was it made me consider how I want to be remembered.

a good thing yes?...NO!... a very very very bad thing.

lets evaluate what happened as I moved into high school.... I started to think about how I wanted to be remembered... I started to think about how I wanted people to think of me. I started caring more about what people thought about me. as a person. not what I wore or what I looked like. I considered my personality.
that is a dangerous ball to play with. REPUTATION.....

lets look at the definitions shall we?

wiki says - Reputation is the opinion (more technically, a social evaluation) of the group of entities toward a person, a group of people, or an organization on a certain criterion. It is an important factor in many fields, such as education, business, online communities or social status.

Reputation can be considered as a component of the identity as defined by others.

–noun
1.
the estimation in which a person or thing is held, especiallyby the community or the public generally; repute: a man ofgood reputation.
2.
favorable repute; good name: to ruin one's reputation bymisconduct.
3.
a favorable and publicly recognized name or standing formerit, achievement, reliability, etc.: to build up a reputation.

OK so we need to understand that a good reputation is needed in some area's like business and education. having a good reputation amongst your fellow pears is not something that is desperately needed. As a 14 year old one does not need to worry about what people will think if she behaves in a certain manner.

REPUTATION. It seems to me that maintaining a certain reputation is a lot responsibility. A lot of pressure.

REPUTATION. I truly hate this concept. how OTHERS view you. shouldn't we be more concerned about how WE view ourselves. "a good reputation is more valuable than money"... is not something you teach your kids, because you and your kids are being taught to categorise people, label them, label themselves, yourselves. you're teaching and learning judgement. worrying about a reputation is the doorway to insecurities and self loathing as well as judgement. it's not a happy door...it's a sad sad sad door! stay away little friends stay away!...

We shouldn't be growing up worrying about a reputation, children act out. Teens act out - heck Adults act out! we shouldn't worry that the moment we loose our temper or the moment we have too much to drink, the moment we find ourselves pregnant - that our reputation will be ruined.

REPUTATION is not what needs concentration. Concentrating on who we want to be - also a bad idea.
we should not concentrate on how others view us, and we should not concentrate on who we want to become.... because lets face it... at the start of teenage hood and into adulthood most of the time, none of us actually want to be who we are, we want to be someone else who we find much cooler than who we are. {{don't even try and deny it, the best of us feels that way at the worst of times....}}

CONCENTRATION. what we need to focus on is being ourselves. it sounds so cliché but it's true,,,, and we need to focus even more on being ok with screwing up and being able to look in the mirror after a humiliating experience, after a painful fight, after loosing our temper, after making the biggest mistake of our life and saying "yes, I screwed up, yes I'm not perfect, yes many people are going to talk about it for weeks and are going to insult me... but I'm still freaking awesome and I still love who I am right now"
It's not about a reputation. who cares what the population thinks of you?... who cares if the population thinks your a terrible person due to a mistake you made in high school . That's not important, what's important is realising that your God is the only one you need to impress and knowing that you don't have to impress him. what's important is learning to love the person you are now, the one making mistakes, not the person you'll become from those mistakes, the one right now who embarrasses you sometimes, who sometimes doesn't have proud moments, who has a lot of blonde moments and who screws up ROYALLY. that person. LOVE that person.

so I'd say shove you're theory on a good reputation being more valuable than money Mr. fortune in the cookie. The one thing that's more Valuable then all the riches and that good reputation crap... Is learning to love the person you're ashamed of sometimes that's in your mirror, is learning what really matters... you.
you matter, no matter what your reputation is. You matter, you are amazing and You should love it.

haha ... yeah...:}

so... this is ButtonGirl popping in....and falling off this coat......peace

2011-06-07T07:15:00.000-07:00

The idea is not to learn to think, it's to learn to organize what you think...

so, I'll make sure it's neat and tidy...:)

so... it's been a while... I don't have an excuse like university, Work, school, chores.... I've been going out, chilling on Facebook and neglecting my responsibilities... I've had things that should have kept me busy, but I was neglecting them. Procrastination...

I let my tangled curly wild hair hang loose... and now, I have a pile of work I need to get done with no visible beginning...

[huge sigh and looks to the left at the large pile of manuals and pens] aaaaaaaah!... it's coming for me!!!!!! [slaps face to bring herself back to reality...]

Procrastination - is like getting really drunk, feels awesome when its happening... but in the morning.when it catches up (dot dot dot) <--- insert words of your choice...

still knowing this about procrastination... I sit here, avoiding working... avoiding studying... avoiding making appointments... in an unreality of my making...

and when I think about the amount of work I need to get done and the deadlines I've missed that are making people slightly irritated... I get... depressed about it [hoookay, exaggeration much??? ] and choose not to think about it instead of just doing the work and being happy as a whole and not just when I'm not thinking about it.... because it's more fun to not do it... it's more fun to laugh and joke and mess around... it's more fun to shake off responsibilities to not care about anything but doing the fun stuff... or is it?...

after a length of time of ignoring your responsibilities guilt catches up... stress becomes evident... worry... [pimples for some of us]... the small builds up to the medium...to the large and at the end we are left with things we can't handle on our own... ok, that hardly happens... but it does for a lot of people..especially people like me... we cram the night before an exam and pray we pass, we scratch a project together and rely on "copy and paste" and "synonyms" to make it seam like we did something, when we're fooling no one but still passing and feeling a great relief when we see 40.03% ... not a good mark... but good enough for now... we'll try harder later... trust me, later hardly ever comes around...

for those of you who hardly procrastinate and have schedules, and to-do-lists... and actually organise yourselves... I really do admire you, my best friend is like that, sure she procrastinates sometimes, but, her procrastination is healthy... is almost planned... d[O0.]b ... yes I did just accuse her of planning her procrastination!!!!! mwahahahaha!!!!.... what you going to do about it?????... that's what I thought!...[ok, cooling of my buttons now...]

so, procrastination, isn't the best of things... it's good to do sometimes, it's good to let your hair loose, but excessive procrastination that lands you up in a huge hole...not so good... if a few hours have past and your still putting whatever it is off.... know that you need to start getting your buttons on it... because my friend has something going there... if you know you're not going to feel like doing it, give yourself a few hours to sulk and procrastinate... then after that... start moving... why?... because stress doesn't look good on anyone and you wouldn't shoot yourself in the foot literally...so why do it metaphorically???....

so, before I spiral into a procrastinating disaster.... I'm going to turn left [not scream and hide] and pick up a manual... and a pen... it's like working out, if we take a walk every day to keep fit we won't feel like we're dying when all of a sudden we choose to go for a run to get fit. moderation... doing the work as it comes so we don't have a scary pile in the end...

plan procrastination...

Organize the work load so that it never overwhelms you.... plan and Organize the fun so that you never feel like your drowning in work and responsibilities. Balance. plan work so it's never too much, plan fun so you have something to look forward to when your doing the hard work...:)...

so, I'm going to start with my pile that I've left till the last minute... okay, I'm hungry so I'll get a bite to eat first... but the first thing I do after eating will be that pile... Brownie Promise...:D

so this is ButtonGirl popping in...and falling off this coat...peace

Because...

2011-06-03T06:14:00.000-07:00

there was indeed a man named Frank who lived a merry life, he ate a tart and drank some milk and now is out of sight...
Don't ask, just accept it... why?... because I truly do not have an answer for you as to why I typed that up, except for..."because"...

so, because...

I love this song...

so, I thought I'd share it... sometimes, all we need is a song... no words, no essays, no hugs, laughs, pictures... just a song... because music... is different... and different is always/sometimes... good...

so, this has been the shortest post...

my Farther says and I agreed that sometimes, silence is a good thing... we should not fear it... and when we speak... we shouldn't try and stress a point too much... sometimes all you need is three words....

so this is ButtonGirl Popping in....... and Falling off this coat...peace

Untitled

2011-05-18T11:26:00.000-07:00

Untitled.. I haven't been here for a while... hi... and all I can think of, is, Untitled... cos I am not sure what to title it. I'm not sure how to title a lot of things... a Title is important, so I hear, as it lets you know what you are about to read and it gives you an impression... either a good one, or a bad one... an interesting one, or a boring one...
and so, it is because of a title that we choose to read a book, that we choose to talk to people, that we watch a movie... a Title... but not just the obvious ones but the more subtle things...
relationships, emotions, choices... we want to title everything...
when two people like each other, they are expected to "Date" ..and then he/she becomes your "girlfriend/boyfriend"... and if two people do everything that a couple does yet they aren't dating or a "boyfriend/girlfriend" people get confused... the people in the relationship get confused... how would you break up...
if a front page did not have a title for it's main article.... no one would pick up the newspaper... because they wouldn't know what it's about... and so they would assume it's boring... they wouldn't want to go ahead to see what it's about... although people are curious... they are equally lazy...

happiness, sadness, heartbreak, abandonment, uncertainty, confidence, fear... we have titled everything... imagine feeling heartbreak and having never experienced it before... and never having heard the word... you would go insane.. I would go insane.... we like titles, we like to know what things are... because when we know what something is called, it's easier to comprehend it.. to understand it... and therefore embrace it...or conquer and get over it... we can learn how to keep it.. how to end it...

if we don't title it... we're lost... we're uncertain... we are leading forward...blind... and discovering as we go along...

Life is already like this... we stumble through... why would we want the details in our life to be a "blind" experience too...
some might think that it would make things adventurous... and maybe they are right... but maybe they're not...
and maybe there is no title, and maybe there is... one that we haven't found...

we want to know what things are in one word... that is our problem... we want to have everything explained in one word...
"what is your dad"..."he's a medical Doctor"
"oh, she's my best friend"
"they're dating"
"she has cancer"
"I'm pregnant"

no one really knows what my dad's company does... because it's so diverse... because it hasn't really been done before in IT... the way he does it... I don't even know and I work for him... it doesn't have a term yet like doctor, lawyer, mechanic... and so when people ask me what he is and I start to explain... they want to cut me short and say "what is he"... they want the short version,,, the one word answer...
they want to categorize... know via category...
they don't want to wait for the whole story to understand... they want to understand now... they don't want to feel ignorant and blind till the end when they find out what it really means...

can you imagine that???... "oh, she has er... something, lets wait and see what happens shall we?" ... and 6 months later... she dies...Hmmm wonder what happened...

Wondering what happened... understanding the outcome from the input... if you don't know what it is... you cannot understand the outcome brought on by it... the end result...

if someone has cancer... you know what the end result could be, and you can prepare for it.. you will understand it...
if someone is pregnant... you'll understand what's happening when she starts crying in pain, why her stomach grows... you can prepare for the child...
if someone's in a relationship..they'll understand what it is, and they'll understand when and how it ends... they won't wonder to themselves what happened <--- if there is a breakup and explanation... still it would be better than a drifting apart?... how would it end?... if it never begun with clear understanding of when it begun.. of what begun... how can it end... it wasn't anything... how can a nothing have an ending?...
what are the rules to a nothing?
what are the treatments for a nothing?
how do you prepare for a nothing?..
how do you prepare for something you don't understand... how do you prepare when you are ignorant?
how do you relate to nothing?

we need Titles, to relate, to understand, to treat, to organize, to prepare, for rules... for boundaries....
we need them... so that we are not ignorant, not completely blind, life is like that painting pushed too close to your face for you to know what it is... we get our clues from the details we can she... so that we can at least have some kind of idea... if we take away our titles... you take away our details... our description.. leaving us blind completely... we wouldn't know how else to see the picture... we might just lose the plot altogether...

so thank your God for the little Graces... like a Title, even if it is "Untitled"... because it's still at least in a category... it's just in the lost and found box waiting for you to pick it up... and untitled might suck... but, at least you'll figure it out eventually... and at least... it doesn't happen all the time... :]... but I s'pose, it might be a bit healthy to figure things out on your own every now and then... but not too often...:]

so this is ButtonGirl...popping in...and falling off this coat...peace...:)

rAnd0M pOst!Ng O_0... cos you just need those sometimes...

2011-05-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

when I see camera's I freak out a little cos I rate they going to go all terminator on my butt!...you never know what could happen!!! best we all start hiding in our hidden rooms under a round old carpet in the middle of an inconspicuous room...while Nazi's lurk in the dark waiting to pounce, cos you know they think anything with a stick up its butt is awesome... kinda like this web cam that's faced at me now..:O!!!

OOOOKAY... so we all need a little random in our lives... to ease away the brun of too much thought...no?... it's kinda like a long day of storms followed by a nice sunny day... relaxation...

how many of you just say random stuff some times just to fill silences?... or just say something totally wookaldiblue because you're rambling on your thoughts and what comes out comes out whether it's about pink flying zebra's or elephants occupying the room... what I have learned is that random... isn't ever truly random... it might be out of the blue for some cases... but never fully random, because it's linked to a thought you had, a situation, a memory... the random spewing of words that make no sense to the outside world... is not random to you, because it makes perfect sense in your mind... and if the aim was to random... is it really random, if you intended it to be?... Hmmm these are the questions that keep me up at night..<---- not really, I just felt like saying that...

so, onto other stuff stuffs stuff....ya...[O0.]

one thing that always confundled me was what my parents said....

I mean seriously??? do you think they even think about the things they say??? like one thing was

"well If he jumped off a cliff would you follow?" I mean jeez... obviously the answer would be no,,, unless you were suicidal... the reason we did whatever we got in trouble for was cos 1stly... our friend did it... and 2ndly... it seamed like a good idea... therefore the appropriate line should be... "the things your friends do aren't always the right thing... it might seam like a good idea untill you find yourself waiting in your room with every panty you own own for your mom to walk in with the belt that'll end with you not being able to sit for a week..."... see if they said that I would have been a much much much nicer child which never got in trouble... that line works the magic... not the cliff thing...

jeez, I wonder what everyone elses parents said... sigh... the joys of our parents... gotta love em....

from Parents to Fabcebook...

HAVE YOU READ SOME OF THE GROUPS????

there were some groups that made me so... hmmm nauseous...:)

they were soooooo emo...

here are a few...

"I've come to a point were I'm like WOW, F#^* 90% of humanity" the photo was a button that said "I hate people" [O0.]

"I die a little inside when you're online and don't talk to me"...then talk first... don't get emo...they could be waiting for you to talk first...

"oh I'm sorry I'm such a burden on your life"...L-A-M-E

"Every girl wants to hear a boy say I love youuuuuuuuuuu <3 :)".... what about lesbians... tsk tsk tsk...

a funny thing I ran into was..."I laugh, I become a fan, I never look at the page again"... so just for kicks.. I decided to check out the page...

and one would assume the page would be empty... but nope.... it is full of people promoting random stuff, chicks saying they want people to invite them to show em a good time... and yada yada yada... I couldn't help but sit back and enjoy the irony.... and notify people of the irony as well... sigh... I will never look at that page again... but, I will never forget it <--- it's typed up on my blog...

finally... an Irish Airman foresee's his death is a poem about an Irishman who decides join the war so that he can fulfil his dream of flying... and as a result will die, but he doesn't mind <--- best summary I could manage...

I'll give you the peom underneath for you to compare....to this youtube clip.. if only I'd seen this clip when I was still in school and studying this poem...

just remember... you might think motivational... but think again... it's suicide...

ok, and here's the poem just if you wanna read it... :]

An Irish Airman Foresees His DeathI know that I shall meet my fate
Somewhere among the clouds above;
Those that I fight I do not hate,
Those that I guard I do not love;
My country is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan's poor,
No likely end could bring them loss
Or leave them happier than before.
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,
Nor public men, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;
I balanced all, brought all to mind,
The years to come seemed waste of breath,
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

so, that's it for now, this is ButtonGirl popping in......and falling of this coat...peace

real cool guys don't look back at the Explosions in the background...

2011-05-09T02:59:00.000-07:00

Ever notice how it's mainly the bad, hard core guys that say "I'm back" in a movie? and if we look at images, of "I'm back" it looks all bad ass and hard core...

see, I'm sure LiL Wayne feels so hard core right now with all that black and red and creepyness <--- see he thinks he's a bad ass

see???? freaky as hell... and he's letting us know, he's back as if we wouldn't notice???????

like someone wouldn't notice a freaking hand come up from the ground!!!! I mean COME ON!

I mean the super heroes never proclaim their return, you know why?... they don't need to, everyone notices and they know it... they know people noticed their absence but it's more then that, they don't feel the need to let everyone know they've returned because they don't seek fulfilment in petty things, they are there to save the people, to help, to serve as a "beacon of hope" - not for a tourist attraction, they aren't there to get attention.
so... ever notice, the difference between bad guys and attention seekers?.... or rather the similarities?... they both like people noticing they're there... they both crave attention, they both want to be noticed so bad that they have to really make a huge spectacle entering just in case no one notices them simply walking by...
real cool dudes, never look back at the explosion when they walk away, cos they know it's happening, they don't need to check

so, the difference between people who want attention and those who seem to get it all... is approach, how they get their attention...:) and of course confidence in themselves... or at least pretending to have confidence like most cheerleaders
so... here's an idea, give yourself the attention - before you turn into the "I'm back" type...
love yourself, but don't be conceited, act like you know you're amazing, because you are. laugh at yourself when you've done something stupid - it's funny. Walk into a room as though everyone stopped and bowed down to you like royalty, put a touch of make up on, but don't cover your face. find a style that's your own and remember the compliments, ignore the insults, if you can't, pretend you don't care, the popular people in life do it all the time... trust me... If they bite, don't bite back, laugh it off, especially if it really hurt, if you can, give a witty reply... but don't try your best to be hurtful, that's just a double ended sword, you end up stabbing yourself. feel the pain life brings, and share it with a friend, but never take it out on the world, don't let everyone see it, because they don't need to. have patience with those who do take it out on the world... no one showed them how not to... sympathise with those who show the world their pain, they don't have a friend to share it with - or at least they don't believe they do, be the friend, love them and show them through example how to love themselves. find something to smile at everyday, no matter how impossible it may feel, when you are happy, hold on to the feeling and spread it, you'll be surprised how many people need you to do that, you'll be surprised who needs it the most. complement someone who looks down, greet someone invisible that you've never seen before, just because you can. when no ones around turn the music up in your room and jump on your bed... a smart guy once wrote and I read, before walking a mile in someone else's shoes, you have to take your own shoes off... because you won't be able to wear their shoes properly if you're wearing your own still... strip yourself of all your arrogance and try, really try to understand someone else, don't walk a mile, walk a kilometre in their shoes... then remember, just like Nick from the great Gatsby, reserve that judgement... curb your tongue, you weren't born to be a judge of life... so don't take the position... because if you do, there's always going to be someone telling you that you're sitting in there chair...and you'll be forced to get off that high horse, and it won't be a great experience...

Don't ever be a different person, just be the best version of yourself... and love it.

The best advice I ever got was to breath, eat, and live like you'll die in a week, but realize that you won't, never be reckless with someone's heart, don't stand for people who are reckless with yours. if you're loving unconditionally, don't expect anything in return because then you're lying to yourself about love and you don't understand it at all...

FUNNIEZ!!!!

haha...sorry that kids face is freaking HILARIOUS!

so, that's it for now, this is ButtonGirl popping in...and falling off this coat...peace...

The definition of insanity...

2011-05-03T03:01:00.000-07:00

I heard somewhere that the definition of insanity was doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result each time... but that never really made sense to me... because if that was a case the entire world would be insane!... because we do things over and over and we expect a different result... a random example: STD's and HIV...
and it was Albert Einstein who said "It's not that I'm so smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer." so we are encouraged to "persist"... to not give up...hence "persistence is key"

so I googled it... :D
and this is what came up...

Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
Albert Einstein

insanity is a legal term pertaining to a defendant's ability to determine right from wrong when a crime is committed.

Insanity. n. mental illness of such a severe nature that a person cannot distinguish fantasy from reality, cannot conduct her/his affairs due to psychosis, or is subject to uncontrollable impulsive behavior.

Synonyms: insanity, lunacy, madness, mania, dementia

Insanity is a grave, often prolonged condition

a deranged state of the mind usually occurring as a specific disorder (as schizophrenia)

such unsoundness of mind or lack of understanding as prevents one from having the mental capacity required by law to enter into a particular relationship, status, or transaction or as removes one from criminal or civil responsibility

extreme folly or unreasonableness

something utterly foolish or unreasonable

and Wiki says - Insanity, craziness or madness is a spectrum of behaviors characterized by certain abnormal mental or behavioral patterns

This brings me to the conclusion, that no one really knows what insanity is... just like they really cannot define what normal is... I know I Googled it too... this is my favourite one..

conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.

here, it doesn't tell me what the regular is, what the usual is... it says that it's conforming... and yet conforming to a certain thing is different EVERYWHERE... so, out of those ones, how do you determine which one is normal?... my favourite thing in this definition is "not abnormal"... really?...really really???... thanks Google, we never knew that!!!....

and so, we have a world trying to figure out what normal is... and what insanity is...so my big question is... WHY?... why is the world so obsessed with these two concepts?...
they find they want to fit into both these categories and yet they fear being placed into either of these categories...
"I must be going insane"..."have I lost my mind"... we use these expressions so loosely, we know we haven't actually lost our minds and we are not actually insane... (we think)... but still we make reference to these terms so often, makes you think... do we wish it just a little?... do we wish insanity upon ourselves?.... do we wish to be unique, would we feel that we are not like everyone else if we were insane?... would it be because we'd be thinking in a way that no one else does and this would give us the illusion that we're different that we are not just another ID number... we'll feel more protected because no one would be able to see through us... they wouldn't just figure us out... and yet we know the severity of insanity, and we fear it... we push those away who aren't normal... who do not "conform" to the "non-conformists" the things that's truly different we despise, we fear, we push away... we want to be like everyone... we want to be like the everyone elses that are so unique that they all unique together... I'd say that's insanity... I'd say we are all insane, and by that... none of us are...
we are all searching fishes... in an ocean of answers, we're so busy asking the other fishes who don't know the answers that we don't see that we're living in the answers... the we breath, see, feel, live... the answers...

we are all insane... and by that, none of us are... none of us are normal... and by that we all are... we're so busy trying to be both, we haven't realized we already are...

so this is Button girl popping in...and falling off this coat...peace

Are you crazy when you think your actually sane????

2011-04-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

I LOVE talking to psychologists... I mean they are being paid to listen to you without interrupting you AND they have to agree with you!!!....Now I don't see a psychologist personally, I have seen one a few times in my life, but right now, I find myself not needed one, on account of my awesome best friend who actually listens to me...:D but thats not the point I'm trying to make here...

I heard the most strange thing EVER - ok it wasn't the strangest, but t was certainly,,,interesting - My younger twin brother by three minutes said that he did not want to go and speak to a shrink O_0... <--- that was my face he was all jokey and kiddingy, but I know him well enough to see that he was serious... and when I asked why he said "THEY AINT GETTING NOTHING OUTA ME!"... he made it sound like they were the FBI and they wanted to take all his dark secrets away from him...

SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!... really?...really really?... NO WAAAAY!!!!....

moment of me thinking of all the funny things I could say that would just be poking fun at him,,, then I thought about it... and realised how HEC-TIC that was... so, I - for like the first time - was speachless...
I mean, what is it about us not wanting to go and see "special friends".... we feel like we're pouring our souls out to someone who we're not even sure we can trust... we are afraid that everyone will find out we're seeing a psychologist and judge us for being a crazy, but if we really think about it, its the part of trusting ourselves enough to let go of whats hurting us... of us fearing that if we talk about it, we will have to face it, whatever it could be, and we're afraid we won't be able to handle it... but hey, that's what the "special friend" is there for, they meant to help you to deal with it... before you explode into something catatonic... wow... just a little mellow Dramatic... ok,,, it isn't for some... because that's the problem... it's not that people will find out, because they won't if you don't tell them, because talking to strangers, we find, is far easier.... it's because we cannot face ourselves. and even if you don't want to face yourself now, you will... we always do...

and now onto the more light hearted stuff! :D

I had a dream I was one of these spiky animals... xcept I looked like a person...weird [O0.]...akward moment of silence...
and I was looking amongst the tree's for a whole lot of little porcupines... because... well I don't know why, but we were all just looking for them ok.... it was weird...

... ever have moments like this?.... .......................................................yeah, me neither...:-/...

HAHAHAHA!...Epic FAIL!!!!! :D....

so well, this here is ButtonGirl popping in and falling off this coat....peace...

2011-04-27T08:56:00.000-07:00

well, it's been a while since I've seen the safe boundaries of my computer here in sunny bothas hill (I am LYING it is soo NOT sunny, it's grey and miserable and AWESOME!). If I had to describe the weather down here right now... I'd hate myself, but I would say it was like folks from twilight,,, but I won't, cos I'd rather not compare...oh, and twilight sucks...:)

today,,, I got home and started being save driven - I kid you not! - I had to carry desks and draws and and and, BIG HEAVY STUFF!!! as in I was like "Hi mom" and she said "hold this"... you know parents have the most awesome ways of showing you there love :D :D :D... not even an apology for scrapping the skin off my foot with a draw... yes I don't really feel pain cos I'm like one of those sparkly people that won't be bothered if a car hits them... but an appology would have been NICE yes?.... well, whats done is done.... and by that I mean, I will not complain because I'll get grounded... just saying,.,.,

and now.... cos I wee'd myself looking at these, I thought it was only fair that you followed in my trail.... :D

you see how cute there are???????.... you just wanna go out and get 50 cups and 50 kittens to fill them :D and you think you wouldn't want them after they get all big and lame,,, but some of them turn out awesome if you feed them the right drugs :D :D :D like this kitty heeeerrree :D

and last but not least....

hahaha... can you imagine this in real life!!! :D... HAHAHA ten years from now this kids gonna see this pic on the net and sue his parents, cos -no doubt, he is an American :D :D :D

so, This is ButtonGirl popping in and falling off the coat... till next time :D

2011-04-22T02:59:00.000-07:00

AAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! GOOD MORNING!!!! yes, I say good morning because it is in fact morning on this side of the square button hole... :D
I have gotten a long line of things to do before I fly around the world saving Damsels and knights from arranged marriages :)....
I was thinking about the things that get US chops down... what brings the tear to our big puppy dog eyes... and then I thought of the why - on account that I was feeling emo <crickets chirping in the background> ooookay, just a bit of an exaggeration,,, I felt a bit bleak... and thought why... but then I realised it was my fault... because even if it was something reeeeeaaaaaaaaallly HEC-TIC like my younger button hole twin by three minuites started chocking on his tongue and needed his mouth amputated in order to survive.... a likely happening... but even IF that was the case, it was my choice to feel upset... I mean, if there is nothing that can change a out come, then why should we spend energy trying to... and getting very upset about it when there is nothing we can do to change it... but that is sooooo much easier to say than to put into practice... so I sat there on the bathroom floor looking at the blade - JOKES!, na, I stood in my bedroom considering what I can do to tame the mess that is my hair.... nothing but this came to mind, I can feel upset, it IS my right... but no one reeeeeaaaaaly enjoys feeling miserable... and so I decided, I might not be able to change the things that happen, and I might be able to create HUGE mess where ever I go... and yes, it might suck extremely... but I can choose to just move on and wait for the next time I screw up... :) cos I know, the path down screwing up is ALWAYS fun and is always a huge experience... and so even though I might get to the bottom at the end I can sit back and say...WELL THE ROAD DOWN HERE WAS FREAKING AWESOME!!!! now it sucks but,,,, there is a climb up... and boy is there a cute guy on THAT trip :D...

so just another random pop inn...

THAT guy is my hero!!!!!! hahahahahahaha....:) that face :).... that hair...ooooooooh!.... makes me wanna be a better curly top :D....

so thats it for now... this is ButtonGirl popping in... and falling off this coat...peace :D

Round Button holes

2011-04-21T16:12:00.000-07:00

Yes, we do often find, that buttons have round holes and so that is why we choose to focus on the ones with square holes...although in truth, we never actually speak about the holes of buttons at all... it is, more of a reference, a something we notice... when we see it falling off our favourite coat, and we notice the holes when indeed a needle needs to ender it it reattach it to our clothes...

But enough about the buttons. I have not come to talk on buttons... I have come to write... but in truth if buttons were the topic of my writing, I'd still - no doubt - be writing... or rather typing...

I really don't feel like doing anything... kinda like Bruno mars... I wanna stay in my bed... although I'm kinda at the computer and on Facebook,,, and this blog....so, I want to be like Bruno mars... and yet I cannot bring myself to leave the screen!!!!!!!.... why is technology so addictive, the strange part is, I don't even talk to anyone on FB I kinda just update my status, it's like a place for me to talk to myself with others observing me and not having them diagnosing me with schizophrenia...
but we all do that, we all talk to ourselves, not out loud and not as direct conversation, but we think, we create scenarios we write our thoughts down on FB and on Blogs and we want the world to see what we are thinking because we think it's important enough for people to see, and sometimes they read it and comment and other times they just watch it and say nothing... that there is you, talking to yourself.... JUST SAYING... and no one at the end of the day cares quite as much about those thoughts as we do... but we care and so it comes out and that is what counts our thoughts are heard even if it's full awesomness only reaches one person - the person who wrote the them :D...

and so I sit here, reluctant to actually lay in my bed... but still I sit and still I write/type... because even if no one reads my rambling thoughts even if I am speaking to myself... I am speaking... and I am at least... still thinking...

so this is ButtonGirl just popping in.... and now falling off this coat - Peace