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What happened in between?

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sat, 21 Apr 2012 09:21:00 +0000

Its been a while. Hello. For some random reason I feel like writing. I think this has got to do with procrastination. I am supposed to be working on my final year dissertation, but, oh well. Its almost three years, and I am graduating soon. The last time I blogged on a daily basis was about three years ago. Amazing.

I was here a week or a few days ago. And read my old posts. Almost half of those random posts that I picked - I have no idea what I was talking and ranting about. But that was interesting, and it seems almost that the person who posted here a few years back is a completely different person. I was ruthless! Audacious. Free expressionist? Not that I am less of that now, but I am careful. Why? I do not know.

So anyway, between now and 2 to 3 years back. I realise I don't really openly talk about most of the things that's happened in between. Its one hell of a rollacosta ride.

I have never mentioned of the break up. Not that I remember of? Yeah, the last time I blogged daily I had a boyfriend. Well, yer, so what happened? I am not quite sure where the (my) feelings went. They just left? Its hard to believe. And that's a not-good-enough answer, but that was my reason. But I don't quite remember what really happened to all those feelings, ~~because after that we don't really talk about it. And I don't even talk about it. Well I do talk about it to my close friends, but I don't really question, sit and think 'til I explode.~~ Ok. Scrap that. I think I forgot, because I let myself forget. And the reason to why I did not just backspace the whole sentence is because I am not sure too, it may be that, it may be this. But I guess they just left. Other things? We do not talk about 'other things' that relates to us. We still talk, but rarely though. Even if we do, we pretend like all this never happened. I am such a girl. Its funny how I first thought (with an-above-average expectation) that we would still talk as often and as normal as we used to be. Man, we practically almost became strangers. Ha. Its sad. There are still questions. Of course there are, I'm human. Humans are curious by nature. All is good though. Its just unbelievable how it ends, or how I do not remember.

So basically my update and explanation sucks, because I do not remember half of the thing that happened, unless I dig into my e-mails, which I do not have the intention to. Because I do not want to. Thankyouverymuchos (;

I'm pretty sure I'd explain better if I wrote this a few years ago. I'm old. Haha! That's one matter told. So what else happened in between?

I shall continue this next time. I have a dissertation due in a week. Cheers!

One Year

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sun, 14 Aug 2011 20:55:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum. Hello?

I am updating just because I felt like it. To be honest I do miss this blog. I was just reading through a few of the most recent (apparently, over a year+ ago) posts here, where I sounded somewhat normal. Yes I have moved to another blog, with less active reader, but I have also started another blog, because I am going through a tough time. I HAVE ISSUES. I know! People are welcomed to wonder why did I even start a blog if I don't want it to be read. Because I'm wondering about the same thing too. Its silly. But its just how it is with me. Pfft.

I forgot when did I first start this blog, or how old I was at the time. But anyway, a few days ago I asked my brother how old he was, 17? Yeah, and he asked the same, and told him to guess. He said I was 24 - and keep in mind this was just a few days ago, very recent, might as well happen now. 24? -.-"

Why thank you. But I was 21 at the time, and I still am. FYI.

This is my Mojo - He is in Newcastle at the moment. Well, he is obviously dirty in this picture, I let him lose to walk around the house one day and then lost him, and eventually found him many hours later. Which is absolutely normal. Never knew where he goes, but he always comes back with dirt all over him. Haa! I miss him (:

The adapter in my room isn't functioning right.

Look at the sky so high

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Tue, 01 Jun 2010 18:24:00 +0000

Hey babe,

I don't think there's anyone left in this world still reading or regularly checking out this blog, kan? I've moved. Eh have I mentioned that before? There you go - I don't even remember what my last post here was about. I just need some space, this blog was active before, back when I thought I was a diva and back when my life's too perfect to keep to myself, and when I was slightly egotistical that I simply look straight up, so strong, because nothing were to pull me down, sharp-tongued and a couple of times controversial. Haha! But hey I've grown up (:

And an acquaintance, whom I no longer talk to (smile saja, tapi awkward) because of one of my very straight-forward post. I bitch, and I can bitch bad. But all that, is unnecessary. I've grown to realise that. I am still the same - I still think freely, and openly - but perhaps a better person than I was in the yesters. I remember I've removed some contents and posts from this blog because there were too many eyes out there. Its just too much for me, that this place can no longer carry and display my thoughts, which often, are free and maybe, sometimes, controversial. And I had come to a point where I felt these walls I dwell in were completely invisible. That it was simply, just uncomfortable. It contradicts the objectives of having a blog in the first place, doesn't it?

So, basically the whole chunk of text says: uncomfortable, was the reason.

Because I've changed into a better person in the process. That I no longer enjoy too much attention - and to look back at how I used to post, and the way I express myself now, they differ. When I thought back, I said what was I thinking? It somewhat feels weird to post in the same place. Because I want to start over new (:

So I guess I'll leave this place. But to completely delete this blog, is something else - there's so much memories, so many stories. Phases of my life that I have gone through, ones I might not even remember now, and I'd like to smile back, at how my life was back then. So I'll still come back every now and then, maybe drop something to say.

Stay out of trouble (: (:

Insya Allah by Maher Zain

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sat, 08 May 2010 00:04:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum. I have moved to another blog with a lot much lesser viewers and readers, but I will still update this one every now and then. This is such a beautiful song. Masyallah (:

Turn to Allah - he is not too far away. Show me the way. InsyAllah we'll find our way (':

SUP!

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Thu, 29 Apr 2010 12:55:00 +0000

Oh my! World, am I that horrible at updates? The fact that my words had been, at most time, controversial, along with the public eyes, were the last thing that I seek now, so I moved on to some place more reserved, where I can express myself so freely without having to hurt a soul. I have grown up to seek solace in myself, to escape attention, away from those readers finding entertainment in the ups and downs of my life. And now my life has pretty much changed, this country, this language, this freedom. So huge. Such a mess. I miss my mother. Despite all this filth of the world, I am so grateful for where I stand, with the others that have strayed well away from faith. I have my own faults and blunders too, but I've learnt to fight. And this mess, are better left unexplained.

and smile, don't cry (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Fri, 05 Mar 2010 00:35:00 +0000

Deep down I beg and I pray for God to guide me, to hold me. To remind me, jaga iman. Everyday, every second - hold on to the faith I so dearly embrace, take it slow, it will grow again. Amin. Assalamualaikum (':

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sat, 06 Feb 2010 15:34:00 +0000

Is there a sense of envy when you see people with strong grips on their faith? And I feel like a cripple when they talk passionately about the holy book of Allah that they effortlessly put me in awe, when they spoke of what each Arabic verse meant in our mother tongue so we can understand.

And sometimes you see the beautiful world you live in, the freedom you are capable of exploiting, what do you do? But I am thankful, for the way I am raised. That some things are of no interest to me.

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Fri, 05 Feb 2010 00:11:00 +0000

I have just finished catching up on lectures I have missed this week, and yes - two lectures missed in two days. Ain't so cool, mate. The first lecture missed was because I overslept, and the second one was, because I overslept..?

Alright, so Lauri pointed out today. Oh, articles extracted from the BBC thanks ;)

The orange line shows the price we are paying, and the blue one is the wholesale gas price. Crazy world we are living in yes? Well, you Bruneians be thankful, always.

Assalamualaikum everybody.

first day of the second semester

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 00:53:00 +0000

I've got two books from Amazon coming this week (:

Just ordered the other one a few hours back. SO today's the first day of the second semester. And I've just gotten my Introduction to Management formative test result in lecture today, and I've managed to be at the top of the class by getting 83% and my lecturer was like, "okay, so let's see who's the star" and then I got people clapping and cheers from the whole lecture theatre. A good feeling, though, can't lie about that. TAPI MALU WAH KU. Well I just hope I keep up the good work, will work it. Anyway, will go dengani Nisah chop off her hair because according to her, it looks 'betagar' dan 'berigali' so she wants to chop off thebetagar part of her hair, that's if she doesn't change her mind by Wednesday afternoon. HAHA!

Marketing today was alright, didn't have lecture, just guidelines and inductions and a little bit of information how its going to be this semester, and there'll be loads of seminars, and LOADS OF READING, this time the reading is non-optional. Required for them seminars and most importantly for the assignment. AH YES, ANOTHER ASSIGNMENT DUE MARCH. Everyone here expects me to be an anti-social again macam hariatu, locked in my room doing my assignments, and assignments and assignments. And I have to admit, I have a strong feeling I am going to be an anti-social lagi. Damn.

And for Statistics today. WHAT I SAW LOOKED LIKE HELL. The formulas and symbols look like, pictures and doodles to me. Doesn't make sense, but I sure can make shit out of them. The formulas look like hell, and I told that to Victor and he said, "oh you can say that again" - ALWAYS. Lauri thinks it was alright, though. So anyway, esok aku ada Accounting aaaand, let me check. And Statistics tutorial, bah okay looks like I've got to read what they 'learned' today and in my case, what I witnessed - so Insyallah it'll be alright esok, if I managed to understand what happened in lecture today (:

Assalamualaikum!

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 20:42:00 +0000

“Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end.”

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sat, 23 Jan 2010 14:48:00 +0000

Don't know lah what happened to the photo sizes, at my part they're all huge, but from your screen I am not quite sure. Tried uploading them to different sizes other than large, but still, came out large. Anyway, should have put these up a long time ago, these are some photos from the BSU Winter Games in London (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Fri, 22 Jan 2010 02:27:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum (:

Done with the exams a few days ago, felt good. First paper last week was, alright and got 84% could've done better though, but Alhamdulillah and the second paper a few days ago was THE BOMB - results for this aren't out yet, probably sometime in the third week of the next semester.

Kaka Tina and Amin was wedded last week, CONGRATULATIONS! And like I said, "I am missing on a lot back home" - Until then you'll realise what you always have around you all your life that you could not see and maybe failed to appreciate more before. The people around you, and the gatherings and the joy. So before I had no idea my cousin was getting married, until the night (or was it the day before?) before her wedding was I told of her big day. I have to admit, mixed feelings, of happiness, but in mere disbelief and sadness for missing such an event. And my mind started to play like a film of what I'd be doing if I was there and all the things we always do the night before the wedding. Always been my favourite. And I missed it. Wouldn't have cared if it was some strangers wedding. But I wouldn't want to miss ANY of my cousins' wedding.

And ANOTHER that frustrated me, well nobody told me, but when its your family, then you'll always know what's going on with your family. Kaka Hajah Mandi Belawat - It's bad enough that I miss Baby Izat growing up. And for sure I know he wouldn't recognise me nanti or close to me, cos I am and will be away for the first years of his life ):

So much things I'm missing out, those are a few. Should be getting back to my revision. I'm done with exams though, but yeah - before I forget my stuff, better flip some pages and revise before next semester starts to machine-gun my head. Oh! Watch these, crack me up (:

i fancy

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 00:58:00 +0000

The first and third ones selalu on TV and I find them very interesting and funny, always.

And somehow, it reminds me of bapa (:

shan't be

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 18:49:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum,

Went to South Shields yesterday, it was a very quiet place, with lots and lots of pretty green grass, and nice houses, a very peaceful town I have to admit. But Mann said there's no way he can survive in such a place if he was to dwell there, because its too quiet? We went there to visit Abang Samsul though, and to pergi ke carnival. Anyway, on top of that, ada beach, where in London or where in Livarpool can you get a beach? Well for your information South Shields is 30 minutes away from Newcastle City at maximum, and went there by metro and I think Jimmy said South Shield is still a part of Newcastle, so its still Newcastle (:

So I have decided not to join going to York on Wednesday, yes a day before leaving for London - but that's not the point lah to why I decided to stay. Cos the whole point of going to York is to go to factory outlets in other words, to "shop" - and I do not want to end up buying things I don't need. And for sure, everyone knows better than to believe me say I won't shop in York, please.

I have been doing Marketing revision over that last one hour. I seriously need to get earplugs. Oh and I have two more parcels coming this month from Amazon - bought two more books (: (:

Newcastle's Raya

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Mon, 05 Oct 2009 17:41:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum. It's actually surprisingly AMAZING. The Hari Raya here I mean, it was great. Although it lasted for a day saja, unlike di Brunei - probably masih lagi ada orang open house di Brunei this week. Well, have fun with that, and Selamat Hari Raya (:

This was our open house, at my home masa raya. And these are some of the guys (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 20:49:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum!

I finally got an internet connection at home. And yes Alhamdulillah I have been fine, and well (:

Pictures Insyallah when it's a little bit less cold out there for me to actually take my hands out of my pockets and press the shutter button. And a little less busy. I have assignments and notes to read and books to flip through. So bear with me.

It's been cold. And I can officially say it to your faces now, that I hate the cold. It's not pleasant. And I got my self a coat that's actually oversize by a size. Because they don't have my size. Okay whatever. I'll eat more so I can actually fit in it. Haha!

Speaking of eating. I've been eating, eating and eating. Because the guys here know how to cook, and we actually have nothing to do but to commit ourselves to our studies. Okay, and other than that we eat. Study, eat, sleep and pray. Bathe or shower. FO SHO! I'd be loving showers if it's not this cold. They say winter would be twice this cold.

Seriously, I sat right next to the heater with the blanket thrown over it and had it wrapped around me last night - that's my Brunei zone. We got back pretty late after touring the Millennium Bridge at Gateshead, say around 1 in the morning? And you know how it feels like to get in your cars, at noon or at 1400 or 1500 hours after leaving it under the scorching Brunei sun? And yes, that's what it felt like to be under that blanket, and yet - believe me, my feet were still cold. And its not even winter yet. INSANE. And it's been really windy for the past few days.

Will need to buy some more clothes. And our washing machine got screwed. Not funny. Bookmark. Don't click on the link, that's for my personal use only, so I got the hold of where I left. Bookmark.

Okay I've got to go revise and read notes first. Okay, until then. Assalamualaikum, and have a nice day! (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 20:12:00 +0000

With a heater sitting right next to me to keep me warm, Assalamualaikum. Good morning, Brunei and good evening Newcastle (:

It's been a while since I last updated. How am I doing? Alhamdulillah. I miss my family and close friends, the boyfriend, and the cats. And I left the extension back at home, so I bought one just now. And then I went to the University as well to check out the Business School - it's the new building, but I sort of like the old buildings more, you know the castle-looking buildings? Lawa. You don't get to see it back at home.

So today, we found a house. Alhamdulillah. We will be moving in either on Wednesday or Thursday. And tomorrow - I seriously need to list out the things I should be doing esok.

Bangun pagi and gag at the cold
Ask Ummi if I can keep the bed sheet, and whatever
Go to the Uni to complete my registration
Go shopping for clothes
Open up a bank account

And now I need to check important dates and events that I need to take note of. I have responsibilities now, deal with the bills, with the money, with everything - so don't be an ass and call me a bitch for not being around, because right now, there's a lot to learn and to settle (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 16:48:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum! An old friend back in PGGMB Madang uploaded our primary 1 class photo on Facebook and thank you for that. The kid I circled in blue atu is Haziqah Hasnan. Hahaha! She used to cry (a lot?) - And that's how aku ingat ia. But basically almost all those little girls in that class sikit-sikit nangis, and then someone would approach and ask, 'siapa anu kau?' - Aku sekali saja, yes I remember. Haha! And kesian, no one came. HAHAHA! See you tomorrow, Jik! ;)

When I was a kid:

I wasn't rapat with many girls.
My childhood friends were mostly boys (until primary three, that's when I moved to Sunshine School and found my real 'girl' friend)
I used to exchange exercise or note books with Nisa (girl standing on my right, in the photo) to copy whatever's on the board, and tell her I'd copy for her and she copy for me, but sebenarnya, aku malas tulis because my handwriting looked like shit, and hers looked good and neat. So I was demotivated by my own, and almost all the time I returned her book, incomplete (and I don't think pernah complete jua) - But I can say, she was a speedy writer, man..
I used to have a crush on Azri's (same row macam aku, paling hujung sekali) elder brother Aziz - and ia selalu tolong aku get back up everytime aku terabah masa lari-lari during breaktime. Yes, aku selalu terabah.
And Wani (girl next to Teacher Junaidah) was the mean one. Sekali masa aku celebrate my birthday (ada Garfield on my cake!), she was really nice to me. And then I remember she pissed me off at one time, and she had my pink bunny chop (chops were the IN thing masa atu) with her, and I 'snatched' it back from her. Wah! Aku ingat. Because I bitched with the IT girl. HAHAH!
Buang jabat. Jabat. Buang jabat. Jabat.
Eh wait - SOMEBODY DID APPROACH ME - and said, 'siapa anu kau?' and then aku bagitau lah, then, the girl said, 'kau jua anu ia' - HAHA! Jahat. I forgot who it was.
Aku inda pernah main the dolls, sekali saja kali pernah- tapi sekajap. Because the girls didn't mingle with me. And I was shy kid, and because aku inda 'click' with girls.
I used to smuggle books out of the library.
The music teacher pernah kurung aku belakang pintu. Yes, belakang pintu.
Aku selalu lari-lari sama si B-Boy (first boy, in the very front row)
Aku inda suka Azri because he was mean. Rahimi and Azri pernah pulled out the tape from my cassette (dulu cassette ah, classic) - and then daddy-ku datang. Lapas atu si Rahimi nangis.
I had a crush on Fauzi (guy next to Azri) - and Amalina (where in the photo?) had a crush on him too, and she kept on bragging that Fauzi was her boyfriend. I was dissapointed, because she was pretty. HAHA!

There's more, but I'll stop here. Need to sleep (:

p/s: of course I don't have any grudges or hard-feelings towards any one of them at all, we were all kids (:

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 15:42:00 +0000

I finally got the box, it was surrounded by other boxes, and yes I actually 'climbed' over the boxes to get it. Well my dad helped, like put away the huge, heavy boxes so I can easily slither through and get the box. So what's the big deal? It's a box full of memories ;)

My girls got me this card for my 18th birthday (:

So I practically rummaged the store room, just to get this picture of me, my dad and my brother - actually I forgot my brother was in the picture, cute - And yes I was a kid with a messy, messy hair. Seriously. Haha! So yeah, this is it, the photo that I need to take with me. And also I found my backstage passes, back when I went here and there to dance. And I found this too (:

There are loads of other things too, personal things. At least I shared a few. Haha! Well I planned to take that Polaroid photo pulang saja from the box, but then I ended up taking out other things too, just to smile (:

And by the way, the family, Fauzi and my boyfriend went out for sungkai today. The place was crowded though, but I had a great time (:

Then my dad dropped me and my sister at UBD hostel, cos she left her car sana (cos we picked her up there earlier) - and I went to see her room. Small, but really cozy. She'll be staying at the hostel for her final year. Cos it's tiring to drive, back and forth I guess. Right? Belum pulang lagi, she better wait till I leave. Cos she can't just go missing while I'm still here, a few more days won't hurt (:

LISTS

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 07:15:00 +0000

How do you pack your toiletries in your "one bag for toiletries" -? Because I have some items in glass bottles, so I can't just pack them together, because it's going to knock against one another and possibly crack? Unless I have bubble wraps.

So I went shopping at the Guardian the other day, the bill was horrifying. Anyway, the list of toiletries and whatever is associated with it:

Hand and body lotion luggage
Lip balm hand carry
Vitamin C unaccompanied luggage
Multi-vitamin unaccompanied luggage
Toothbrush (the folded one, for travelling) hand carry
Toothpaste hand carry
Deodorant luggage
Night toners (2x) luggage
Morning toners luggage
Face moisturizers (2x) luggage
Pads* (2 packs) luggage
Hairbrush luggage
Hair band luggage
Vicks luggage
Veet luggage
Hand sanitizer hand carry
Breacol (cough syrup) unaccompanied luggage
Facial cotton (small amount) luggage
Shampoo (small amount) luggage
Body sponge (2x) luggage new update!

Perfume, and some others I can cram them in later. Still in use. And about the pads, yes I'm not going to bring a lifetime supply of pads as recommended, my mom said she didn't have any problem at all looking for pads in UK so, just in case UK refuse to sell pads and sell only tampons. Which is ridiculous? Haha. My mom asked to be informed, so she can DHL me a lifetime supply of those.

Alright, footwear? Basically everything is going to be flat (:

Pumps luggage
Sneakers*
Sports shoes luggage
Flip-flops luggage

Ada three pairs lah saja in my luggage, cos I'm going to wear one of them, and still have to decide between pumps and sneakers.

And clothings (luggage only) if you have something to say about the list, please do so, too many, too few, bring it on (:

Jeans (4x) luggage
Jacket luggage
Body towel luggage
Face towel luggage
Bras (8x) luggage new update!
Underwears luggage
Socks (6x) luggage new update!
Gloves (3x) luggage (2x) hand carry (1x)
Long pants (2x) luggage
Shirts (2x) luggage
Blazer
Tudongs (7x) luggage
Shawls (2x) luggage
Baju kurung luggage

And the clothings list will be updated of course. ~~About tudongs - we were supposed to shop for them yesterday, but we were too tired to continue browsing, so I still can't say how many I will bring.~~ done!

And now, my miscellaneous list,

Laptop hand carry
Camera hand carry
Hangers (12x) luggage
Hanger with several dangling pegs luggage
Watch*
Telkung hand carry
Prayer mat luggage
Chargers of number 1 and 2 hand carry
Extension socket luggage
Adapter luggage
Laundry net (3x) luggage
Mini ricecooker unaccompanied luggage
Electric kettel unaccompanied luggage

~~I'm still not sure whether to bring my camera or not, which I think I'll bring, sebab it's a DSLR so it's quite bulky. And watch? I lost my watch, so I still need to get a watch soon, before I leave.~~

And people, you have got to stop multiplying prices by three, if that's the way you think, then you'll find everything expensive, and live in worry. Such as a lifetime supply of stationaries, and women's pads. By the way, tampons don't kill you know.

Basically all of the documents below will be hand carried and aku simpan dalam clear folder - new update!

Passport
Medical Report
X-Ray film
Acceptance letter from the University
Financial guarantee letter
Scholarship offer letter
O level certificate
AS level certificate
A level certificate
Identification Card
Student Card

I will also be bringing along all (not all, most of them) letters and booklets (except for the prospectus) from the University sent to me, but those will be in my luggage. Inda jua banyak banar lah.

Food stuff is going to be the unaccompanied luggage, so whatever. And finally, let's just pray everything will be just fine on the 05/09/09 okay? (:

WILL BE UPDATED

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Fri, 28 Aug 2009 12:34:00 +0000

Holla beautiful creatures! (:

What's wrong with SL now? Very slow. And my income is from attacking people until they're terminally depressed, and then vote them like I've just given them a basket full of cupcakes. Haha!

Assalamualaikum.
I had a very delicious creamy Oreo pudding this evening ;)
Alhamdulillah I'm 1/3 way through packing. Haven't been out taking shots of the world, maybe I should do that tomorrow? Or maybe Sunday - because I might be going out to shop (again) tomorrow.

I think I should resume packing now, get real.

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 00:14:00 +0000

PACK, LADY! PACK PACK PACK!

I have go to stop being relaxed about this whole packing activity, and start packing. Banartah. This is SCARY! I mean, the fact that I have not started packing yet. Oh right Bob called me last night about the house at Brighton Grove - and the thing is, the seniors have been really really concerned and helpful, it's amazing, really. Assalamualaikum, and good morning, and I should start my activity now.

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 14:00:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum. Please don't hate me. I admit though, I find pleasure in doing so, but I told you so, and I promised to upload what I have. Actually ada lagi, but I'm just going to upload these ones. I myself don't remember bila ni, but I checked lah kan - batah sudah eh. HAHA! Ada lagi si Jannah yang lebih cali daripada ani, but I love you, so I'm going to save you the embarassment ;) ;)

Friday, January 23, 2009, 12:40:37 AM

Tuesday, June 03, 2008, 2:59:42 AM

So my father took me grocery shopping today, well he did not 'actually' take me grocery shopping - because I was there, so he had to take me any way, and I had to tag along anyway. But it was fun, always been. Anyway, aku baru sedar, that I like to and TEND to touch things. I look, and 'wow, pretty' pops up in mind, and then I'll touch it...? Haha! So I got myself laundry nets. Plastic folders, to keep my important documents. And today I realised I don't even have a month left. Oh! I need to get bubble wraps.

My seniors from the university have been very very, and extremely helpful, and I bet you don't have seniors like mine (:

SELAMAT BERPUASA

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Fri, 21 Aug 2009 14:42:00 +0000

Assalamualaikum, selamat berpuasa, earthlings (:

By the way, these are photos from the family tahlil last Monday - batah jua tu aku kan upload ke sini. It's on Facebook sudah, anyway. And Izzati Omar my dearest, bila you upload the ones from your camera? HEHEHEHE! :)

And si Jannah freaked out because she was the first to come, haha! THANK YOU BRO!

GANGSTA FIERCEEEEE!

For sure, all the people, my relatives, my close friends, my boyfriend - will be missed. And my mom knows Azri Metussin is my boyfriend now. And she said (sorry baby, inda bagitau, haha) 'semoga berkekalan' -hehehe! Oh! Puasa starts tomorrow, and I want it, the whole month, to be meaningful, a good chance to be a better person - and I hope, what I do and practice, will last for a life time - not only for the sake of Ramadhan like most people - you feel me? (:

I should get a Polaroid camera one day (:

bronchiecta-somthing

noreply@blogger.com (Atiqah) — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 09:13:00 +0000

I'm drinking pink guava (:

I just got back from the hospital. And no it isn't over yet, and surprisingly I feel calm, and a little dizzy from the journey back home. I stayed in the doctor's office, say almost an hour, with her going in and out, telling me to 'wait here' while she went to consult the specialist. Asking me numerous questions, and listening to my heartbeat, and for any wheezing whatsoever; which I do not have any of those.

And the last time she came back from the specialist in the other room, she said it looked normal to her with all my answers from all of her questions (athma? tuberculosis? alcohol? drug? cigarettes? diabetes? weight loss? etc), and because I was coughing and my situation (etc) when I had my x-ray taken, so it looked normal. However, the specialist said, the film looks like it's more than just an infection - I don't want to say the other word she used, you'll just have to ask me. It makes me feel... weird? Because it's strange. I don't feel anything, how can that be.

So I have another appointment with the radiologist, and again after that, to the DORM (again) on the 5th of September - why not earlier? Because my x-ray will only clear after 6 weeks from 25/07/09 (: