Just my two cents...

The Journey

2017-07-10T21:08:00.000+08:00

This was a very difficult move. Painful, heartbreaking, soul tearing. I had to leave family,

friends, and my life, the world I was accustomed to and go on a battlefield where I do not even know my opponents. They say that the most permanent thing in the world is change, and indeed change was what became the starting point of everything.

I started writing this blog years ago… back when I was a sheltered queen. To me life was simply a bed of roses. I had been MIA for a while. The year 2015 was the year that changed it all. It was the most difficult year for me. It was the year I died. Losing a partner for 17 years is for me unmatched amongst all the pain one can ever experience in his lifetime. He was my life…my world.. my King, Paul is irreplaceable. Nobody is. His leaving left me with so many questions. Why? Why me? What now? I was lost..

The year went by like a blur. So fast that till now I cannot imagine how I was able to survive it.But they all say Life has to go on. It did for me. I became alive again. I started living again. Then suddenly….I died. Again. The second death was more painful. Betrayal, deceit, lies and abuse. All these added up to wound not totally healed . Again I asked God why? Why me? I never got answers.. I have to figure it out myself…

The road to recovery was long…slow..painful…heartbreaking yet awakening. My death the second time gave me lessons. It made me think a lot about my life, my self and everything that has happened.I have to run.. to escape..to seek solace.. to breathe…to find my answers and find myself again.

The first few months of the second rebirth was tougher than the previous. I was alone…lonely…too far from my comfort zone..far away from my kingdom. Yet, I know I had it in me the heart and soul of a warrior. I never quit. I never beg off from a fight… and so I fought.

I am in a better place now . Not in a new kingdom but definitely building my new empire. I was reborn. Along the way I met a King who was lost as well. We were both finding our way now towards that new kingdom. We are both travelling the path , fighting the odds, surviving, looking for answers, but this time I have someone else’s hand to hold..I am not alone..We are both warriors looking for that perfect Kingdom where we can build the new empire and we can finally live happily ever after..

And so my journey continues…

Just my two cents xoxo

2017-04-14T21:02:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. Yes ..unfortunately I am still ALIVE.. lol.. Kidding aside oh how I missed blogging.. I remembered the time where I breathe eat drink writing.. I miss writing.. But a lot of things happened these past years that i was INCOGNITO for a while.. my bad!!! If i was to write every single thing that happened to me in 2015 and recently you'll be spending 5 days reading all of it...

But I am so back and I will stay for a very long time.. Posts now will be a mixture of anything from life, love, relationships, failures, travels , food etc. I missed you all and WELCOME back to me.. And so the story continues.....

just my two scents..xoxo

The Road Ahead

2014-02-25T03:17:00.003+08:00

It's 2014.. How time flew by.. My oh my... How is everyone? I missed all of you and I missed writing.
This year is so full of promises. I promise to constantly blog (daily )if i must, I promise to be nicer,to be kinder (as if i'm not) heheheh. I will also commit to being healthier and slimmer..yahoooooo.

It is always sad to say goodbye to a year that you would never see again. But the new year always brings excitement.It brings hope, new beginnings and a whole new year of endless possibilities. A new year always symbolizes the beginning of a book with all the pages blank waiting for you to fill each page with memories as days go by.

I am full of optimism and glee and I claim it that this will be the best year of my life. The year where I will finally pursue my passion and be the best at it. The year I will slowly realize all my dreams , one baby step at a time...

And so I urge each and everyone of you to be positive about everything and embrace all that the new year brings : hope, dreams, love and a new beginning to a long long road ahead :)

Enjoy the ride ..just my two cents.. xoxo

Happy birthday Babe

2013-06-08T01:07:00.002+08:00

Fifteen years ago, I said "I DO" to the man who does not shower me with compliments to fill my day but complements me to fill my life. When I am weak you help me find my inner strength. When I sulk in depression you definitely know how to tickle my funny bone. When I get a little crazy you gently pull me back to earth from cloud nine instead of kicking me at the rear! You just don't know I find you really cute when you force a smile on your face when I know you'd rather skin me alive! I love you more for that. You did not give me a bed of roses free from thorns but you have taught me a valuable lesson . . . the beauty of life will bloom once I have taught myself the hard lessons that come from the painful sting of life's thorns. Thank you for shaking me off my cloud of fairy tales and knights in shining armors. For a while, I hated you for that! I was a hopeless romantic who had my heart broken, stomped and squashed! I thought I have totally given up on love and happiness but love came when I least expected it. Love finds us when we stop chasing it. I have so much to thank you for but being your wife for 15 years, I know now that you wouldn't have the patience to read everything. Saying to you that "I love you to the moon and back" will be an understatement of how I truly feel for you. Thank you for believing in me when nobody else did. Thank you for annoying the hell out of me until I realize how stupid I was for being annoyed in the first place. Thank you for not holding my hand when I wanted to let go. It was your warm embrace that was my saving grace.

Thank you for being my best friend, my partner in crime, my coach, my critic, my ALL. Thank you for teaching me to face my fears even if it meant having me wet my pants! Thank you for wiping my tears dry and for constantly reassuring me that you got my back and ready to kick ass when I need it. Our love is not a fairy tale and I wouldn't want it any other way. I have come to embrace reality and enjoy moments of occasional spine-tingling romantic rendezvous with you. I will go where you take me. I will have my heart broken, stomped and squashed time and again if I were still to end up with you. Thank you BABE for choosing me to be your partner in our journey through life. We can never be perfect but I sincerely appreciate your effort for trying to be the best husband you can be. You deserve an A+! I shall face life's journey praising God for blessing me not with a perfect man but a perfect partner. There will be bumps and turns but who cares! God has chosen the best partner for me. After 15 years . . . I will still say "I DO" to you anytime and anywhere. I will grow old with you and love you in this lifetime and the next!

I love you babe.. HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3

just my two cents...xoxo

My Big Comeback

2013-05-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

Ola readers,.... yay ! Yes I am back.. So sorry I missed out and neglected this blog once again ( slap me!). I was soooooooooooo busy with a lot of things... Hay .... Well as you can see , it's 2013 and I wanna catch up and be active again.. I missed blogging . I missed talking to the blank page on my computer who is the first audience to my insanely , erratic mind and ideas...

I promise to religiously make an entry daily or at least on a weekly basis perhaps? Punish me if I don't..Well i'll be updating this starting tom and let u all know of the gory details of the months that passed by.. Until tom peeps... In three, two , one.....

Just my two cents ...xoxo

For What it's Worth :)

2012-11-19T14:26:00.000+08:00

I was in deep thought this morning and thinking about all the many things i wanna do with my life. I had been hurt recently by people I thought were friends. I was used and abused and ridiculed behind my back. I was angry. Then I remembered the many good things I did not just for those people but to others as well. I remembered the toothless smile and thank you I got from an old man who I let go ahead of me in the line, the pregnant lady I offered my seat to in the train, the thank you i got from an acquaintance I offered to stay overnight in my place before her flight, the list could just go on and on..Thinking of all this, I allowed my hurt and disappointment to melt away and be replaced with compassion . Enumerating each , I started to feel good about who I am.

In the past, I thought my worth was defined by the following:

How good of a cook I was
How clean my house was
Where I lived
What I drove
What my husband did for a living
Where I worked
How much money we had
What I looked like
What I wore

Where I shopped
How much I weighed
How many friends I had
How good of a wife I was
Whether people liked me
How great of a friend, daughter, sister, neighbor, writer, blogger, spiritual person, fitness gal, or whatever the hell it was I was trying to be at the time....etc. The list was endless. And my self-esteem was very low.

I had to realize that none of that defined my worth. I am WORTHY. My self-worth comes from within. All of those were about other people's perceptions. I let everyone off the hook for defining my worth and having to either judge or validate me. So , I freed myself. I made a choice. I just gave myself permission to be me. People will always have an opinion or will have their own perception of you. But at the end of the day, who cares? What matters is how you perceive yourself. The world is a huge weighing scale. people will always try to look at you and judge you by how they perceive or see you, but none of these matters.

I realized that when we hold on to hurt, disappointments, anger and blame, there is no room for love, understanding and forgiveness. So today , I'll start making room . The ONE up there loves me anyways, flaws and all . I want you to know you are worthy too....always.

just my two cents...xoxo

MIA

2012-11-08T19:23:00.000+08:00

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaack.. I know i know guilty as charged...again.. I know I have been missing in action for a while now. Well can you blame me? I'm a busy bee (chos!) What have I been up to? Hmmm can u say.. A LOOOOT? I've been doing a lot of travelling since summer.

April was a trip to CDO to spearhead Operation Sendong : A gift giving and Medical mission for the victims of typhoon Sendong. (Ang bait ko noh? ) hehehehhe I , together with my BFF's from college have been doing this for 2 years now , doing Medical Missions, that is..It's our way of giving back to people in need..hey, kindness pays you know :)

June was the toughest month of the year as I may say. My hubby's dad had a major stroke and brain surgery that almost took his life. It was draining emotionally, spiritually, and financially as well. Papa stayed more than a month in the ICU and boy I tell you, that came with a hefty price tag. Then my uncle who was battling with Liver Cirrhosis for years now passed away too. It was difficult for us (the family) to go thru this agony again after losing another loved one to cancer last 2008. Damn you cancer!!!!

It was a roller coaster of emotions for me.. A rollercoaster of events, happy , sad, trying times, difficult ones, triumphs name it . I've had it. ( Ako na ang pinagpala!!!) .But as they say, this too shall pass and I am back on track...I hope :)

The air smells of Christmas already and Christmas always makes me happy. Maybe because it is such a happy occasion . I always think of Christmas as a time for family and get togethers but most impotantly the birthday of my one true love.. Jesus Christ :)

Despite the storms I weathered these past few months, I am still optimistic. Alive and kicking as they say. I still wake up each day hoping, yearning and believing that better days are still ahead .And to quote President Obama " Hope is that stubborn thing inside us that insists that something better awaits us , as long as we keep fighting "

I second the motion.

Just my two cents...xoxo

Everyday is VALENTINE'S DAY

2012-02-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh. the smell of LOVE is in the air.. I can smell it pretty strongly, can you? A day of hearts, of love and lovers and everything else that spells
L-O-V-E. It's the time of year again where the color Red is the color you see the most everywhere. But I can't help but wonder why do we only emphasize it on the 14th of February? Can we not celebrate love everyday?

I have been married to this man for 14 years. And like most marriages, ours was not perfect. We both have to face the daily struggles of married life, budgeting finances, personal differences, clashing of opinions and so on and so forth , all these makes it all so real. But life marches on, no matter how much we wanna slow down for a while , breathe a little and savor love more often. Our fourteen years have not been an easy ride. Our ability to cope, react and accept each others differences , and faith in what we have I guess, was what helped us get through some very rocky patches . And in life's bittersweet and ironic way, these rocky patches was what made us stronger and our love to grow deeper.

The kind of love we now have was way much different that the one we had 14 years ago. Ours is now nestled inside a quite confidence and a deeper passion. We still work on our marriage. I believe love requires practice everyday. There will be days that we will connect like two perfectly fitted pieces of a puzzle, yet there will also be days that we will both choose to retreat in our own separate little corners to find the strength to love another day. And being true to the vow we both made fourteen years ago, we will be committed to make it work because we believe we can.

Yes, indeed love is complicated but the simplest way to understand it is to embrace it and all it's complexities. There will be more rocky patches ahead, more struggles, more fights and more making -ups but we both know these are all just pit stops to the finish line. Our love may bend at times, but it wont break.

And so I say, celebrate love not just on Valentine's day but everyday. Celebrate love between couples, friends, families and everyone for that matter. Go ahead. Love TODAY.TOMORROW.ALWAYS.

Happy Love Day everyone !!!

Just my two cents...xoxo

The Day the Earth Moved

2012-02-11T02:59:00.000+08:00

Our mother earth is as complex as the universe, so they say. So complex that sometimes or oftentimes things that we have no control of whatsoever happens. I have witnessed a lot of tragedies, calamities in my existence. Some mild to moderate, some really beating us pretty hard. Typhoons, floods were a common thing but earthquakes? I can barely remember or if there even was , luckily we weren't directly affected.

I am a person of great faith and even in the most crucial times of our lives, I guess our faith is the only thing that we can hold on to. February 6 was just an ordinary day for me. Typical Monday that it was. I was up to do my usual daily chores. Then at around 11:58 am something happened in faraway Cebu that made my world stand still. A 6.9 magnitude quake hit Cebu and most parts of the Visayas. I was numb. My initial reaction was to grab my phone and call my mom but to no avail all I got was "connection failed". I was terrified to my wits and was so worried I couldn't think clearly. Then I got a text message from my sister that they were ok and safe. i have never been scared in my entire life. It pains me to be so far away from my family while something critical was happening. I guess that was the time I prayed the most .

Relief came to me when finally I was able to talk to my mom . They were a little shaken up, panicking but safe. I guess it was another a-ha moment for me. After Ondoy, this event was another realization that indeed life is short and is full of uncertainties. As swiftly as the days pass, time ticks too. And so I say, live each day as if it were your last. Do things you have long been wanting to do, value the people you love, waste no time for we never know what the future brings.

Life is short. Make it count.

Just my two cents...xoxo

It's the LOOOOVEEEE Month :)

2012-02-11T01:07:00.003+08:00

It’s February and you know what that means? chalky heart candies with messages on them like “I wuv u”, heart shaped cards, over sized boxes of chocolate, and red decorations everywhere! Yes ,Valentine’s day is coming up, which makes February the month of Love. My eyes will be tired of seeing red again this time of the year. But hey , I'm not complaining. I love Valentines day.

But for me love shouldn't be celebrated only on a day in February, love should be celebrated everyday of the year. Love and all its complexities is everywhere around us : in our homes, workplace, even the streets we live in. Love exists between families, brothers , sisters, friends , neighbors , and of course between couples.

So come on , I encourage everyone to celebrate love, not only on the 14th but everyday. Life is short and we can only live each day once. Go out there, hug a friend, be kind to a stranger, call your family, kiss someone passionately. In any form and in any way you can, show love. Because after all , LOVE is what makes the world go round .

Just my two cents...xoxo

2012-01-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

25 Things to do (more often) before I reach 45.

Over the years I have been writing my Bucket List and all the things that I wanna do when I reach 30, 40 blah blah blah. And as the years passed, boy I tell you, my list grew and grew..whew! I have yet to complete the 1000 things I wanna do before I die, so for now, i'm sharing the things I wanna do before I reach 45.

There are just some things you must experience just because they take you away from the mundane. Make a goal to try at least 10 of these and know exactly what I mean.

Ride a motorcycle and let the wind run through your hair.
Get high-heeled shoes to add some inches to your height, to make your legs look longer and to build some confidence.
Take a walk under the shade of a row of trees.
Wake up early enough to catch the sunrise. Sunsets are pretty too but it is more difficult to catch the sunrise, which makes it more rewarding.
Go scuba diving!!!
Hold hands with someone you love, or like.
Have a professional take your picture. Have yourself styled. It is for keeps.
Watch Life is Beautiful, the movie. Be patient with the subtitles, it is worth it. If you did not catch the movie, search everywhere for the video.
Wear something so sexy to shock even yourself. Just to make people who take you for granted realize what a hot babe you are.
Read an old love letter.
Wax your armpits, and while you are at it have a bikini wax as well, It will change your life.(oouuuuch)
Get a radical haircut and forget all the stupid excuses like he’ll get mad.
Bake some bread when you’re feeling blue. ( this is going to be hard !)
Light some scented candles in your room and write in your journal. Inspiration will hit.
Drink café mocha in a café corner, and sit alone in the late afternoon sunshine. ( been doing this often now )
Do yogahhh!
Invite your grandparents out for lunch and talk about the past – theirs!
Take a lavender scented-bubble bath. ( will have to look for a place with a tub now! )
Memorize a love song in a foreign language and sing it to him over the phone. For starters, try Besame Mucho. (yuck!)

20. Go bungee jumping. ( promise i'll do this )

21. Watch a movie alone.

22. Go on a trip alone.

23. Learn how to drive.

24. Learn to play a musical instrument.

25.Make love often . ( 3x a week or 3x a day ?)

Hmmm, sounds good enough for me.. I guess I have to make another list when something else comes to mind. But for now I think this will do. Go on... make your list and just have the time of your life.

Just my two cents...xoxo

New Leaf

2012-01-20T23:32:00.000+08:00

I know , i know... I admit.. Guilty as charged again . Sorry to have been missing in action for the past months...A lot ( as in a lot ) has happened I don't even know where to start ...hmmmm. Well for starters, how is 2012 treating everyone? I hope it is off to a good start for everyone as it is in mine. My 2011 was a combination of both good and bad ...There were promising months, times that gave me smiles and there were also my share of not so good times where tears found its way unintentionally to fall from my eyes :(. But hey , it's the new year and new years marks new beginnings right? So no need talking about sob stories and heartaches..it's time to welcome the year with gladness and optimism.

I love new beginnings, new years in particular. For me every new beginning is a blessing. An opportunity to start anew, throw whatever is ugly and start a brand new you. Beginnings are the times to welcome change, hope, faith and a new page in life. Like a tree who looses all its leaves in Autumn, there will always be the coming of Spring where a new leaf grows..

So enjoy life, embrace the new year with gusto.. After all we only live this life once.

Just my two cents... xoxo

sometimes, somewhere, somehow

2011-12-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become.

You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.

Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

just my two cents...xoxo

Random Acts of Kindness

2011-08-28T04:34:00.001+08:00

I was in church yesterday hearing mass when something struck me. I was sleepy ( sorry Lord) during the homily, and so to keep my eyes open I decided to do people watching. i enjoy doing this. I have been doing it since I was little, just letting my eyes wander and looking around at people , trying to read minds ( feeling David Blaine) or just merely observing. Then as I was looking around , i can't help but notice little stories around me. There was this little girl around 5 or 6 yrs old although quite naughty teasing her baby brother then grabbed his feeding bottle and fed him. Then there was a man who offered his seat to an old lady who just came in, a boy around 12 y.o carried his baby brother for his mom and said " ako naman kakarga ma! ".

Scenes like these touch me ..and then I thought wouldn't the world be a much better place if everyone did little acts of random kindness? If little kids can do it, why can't we? I believe kindness is contagious and should be a worldwide epidemic.. I have been offered kindness many times in my life and I guess it is just fair to pay it forward. It is truly a win/win situation. the person you are being kind to benefits through your help while you in return feels good having helped another.

So where do you begin?

To get you started, I have listed 20 ideas below.Put them into practice and also create your own:-

Send someone a hand written note of thanks.
Make a card at home and send it to a friend for no reason.
Buy a lottery ticket for a stranger.
Help an elderly cross the street.
Smile to everyone you meet.
Call a family member and just say I love you.
Give up your seat in the train for somebody not just an elderly person.
Compliment a waiter or a server in the restaurant.
Send someone a small gift anonymously.
Stop and help someone replace their flat tire.( can i really do it? )
Let someone jump the queue at the bank.
Call a friend and tell her/him you miss them.
Treat a friend to the movies for no reason.
Give a huge tip to someone when they least expect it.
Hold the train door open for someone rushing to get in.
Give up your seat for someone, not just an elderly person.
Write notes of appreciation at least once a week.
Talk to a homeless person and have a “normal” conversation.
Pick up some rubbish in the road which would otherwise be lying around.
Compliment a work colleague for their excellence.

And the list goes on and on.. These may be simple acts but will greatly make an impact on somebody else's life. Happy people creates a happy environment, thus a better place to live in for everyone. And remember, you only get what you give. :)

What goes around is sure to come around – happy helping :-)

just my two cents...xoxo

I call it emptiness

2011-08-06T23:18:00.005+08:00

i don’t know what it is. but lately i have this feelings that i can't understand. this feeling that there is so much lacking and so much longing that i don't even know what it is. that feeling between laughing and crying, the feeling of wanting to be with someone but you want to be alone also, the feeling of being there but not really, the feeling of longing for the past but you’re excited with the future at the same time. this feeling that you can't even put into words, these feelings that you can't even explain.

And no, this is not depression, actually i can say that i'm okay now, and i'm not sad anymore but i'm not happy either. i'm not even heartbroken anymore, those broken pieces and pain is now almost healed but at the same time it feels like there is a fresh cut of blade in your heart. this is not loneliness, this is not anxiety, this is not confusion, this is not nostalgia, this is not insanity either. it is more like the combination of everything that you don't understand. i call it emptiness, and i don't like it..

just my two cents...xoxo

i love ME

2011-08-05T16:25:00.002+08:00

I love you.. i love him.. i love her.. and so on and so forth. These common lines we often hear. But how many of us have heard “I love me”? Rarely huh? In the ever complicated world of love and love affairs, people tend to forget the most essential and the very first relationship one has to ever have. It is with oneself. It has been always said that to be able to love another, one has to love oneself first. How many of us are guilty of not following or applying this rule to our lives?

Many of us when in love, are too carried away to ever think of ourselves first. These attributes , oftentimes, leads to hurting oneself should the relationship fail. You may find yourself loving and living with people who don't honor your love in return. Why is that? Because how can anyone love YOU when YOU don't? Fall in love with yourselves first .Think about what makes you, YOU. Loving oneself means embracing all that you are flaws and all.

I got this from a book I read:

1. Look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that you love 'you.'
2.Treat yourself the way you would treat a dear friend or a lover.
3. Fall in love with yourself; make a list of all the wonderful qualities that you have.
4. Close your eyes, take deep breaths and then visualize yourself as a small

child; hug this child close to you and tell him or her how loved and special they

are.
5. Take yourself on a date. Go to a movie, a drive, a museum.
6. Get to know yourself-spend time with you-not with a crowd.
7. Take time in nature, take walks, start hiking or visiting places you enjoy.
8. Give yourself permission to have fun. Then do something fun!
9. Write yourself a love letter. Go ahead I dare you!
10. Buy yourself a gift, and don't feel guilty about it!

I'm not super hot or gorgeous. I don't have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. I'm far from being considered a model, but I'm ME! I eat food, I have curves, like to wear my pj's, and will go with little or no make up at all. I'm random and crazy, and I don't pretend to be someone that I'm not. I am who I am, love me or not. It won't change ME!!! And before i say i love you to anyone else,
I think I deserve to say "i love me" first. Go ahead , do it !

just my two cents...xoxo

The Art of giving up

2011-07-29T21:08:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, one has to give up. It's far easier than to keep trying. At least you convinced yourself that you can still control the situation. However, giving up has it's advantages too.

You feel peaceful. You don't fear failure. You realize things far more clearly than you thought you yourself is capable of. There is a new sense of self-discovery that is so liberating.

I realized, like respect, things like love, affection and understanding cannot be demanded. Sometimes, if you are really lucky, you will get some of these exactly when you need them. and sometimes, as I am sure everyone has felt at some point in their lives, you may cry and complain all you want, but not a thing will budge.

That's when you need to step back, relax and surrender. The situation may not be ideal, but you know for certain, one way or the other, this too shall pass.

just my two cents...xoxo

Walking life's road...

2011-07-29T16:51:00.000+08:00

In the stillness of the afternoon , amidst the sound of the raindrops outside my window, I wondered how life can be at such pace. Everything in it is so simple, yet the simplicity of it is what makes it so complicated. Oftentimes I wonder what is life really all about? How far has one have to walk this road that seems to have the farthest and the most uncertain end? Just like roads, life has its twists and turns, bumps and curves.

The walk of life is never meant to be easy but it is also never meant to be too difficult. What life brings to us, is something memorable, worth treasuring. But to some extent, it does not always taste sweet. Balance must exists. Life is not too cruel but it can also be horrible. It does not take much to wound a person's heart. It can offer us simple surprises and sometimes an overflow of good things as well.

This is the walk of life.

Try too hard and we will end up being jerks. Give up and we end up asking and being given second chances.So what is the logic behind it? Perhaps the world has much to learn,we have much to learn. from life. from living and everything else that comes with it.

More than being a walk, it is a journey.. to where? I don't know. Everything is uncertain...

So I say , treasure the moment. Treasure your life and the soul you are meant to be. Maybe then we will understand. But for now, let's enjoy the walk, the ride, the journey or whatever it is you want to call it.

just my two cents...xoxo

here, there , and everywhere

2011-07-29T05:10:00.002+08:00

Time flies when were having fun is really my new mantra these days. I felt like the year just flew by me. Just like that. I know , i know, I have been lazy (guilty!) and neglected this blog for quite sometime now.

So where do I start? What have I been up to lately? Well , I have been doing a lot of travelling these past few months . Mostly in Cebu where I spent 3 weeks last May and another 2 weeks just recently. I was busy preparing for my good friend Rospe's 40th last July 9. The good friend that I was, I gifted her with the giveaways and souvenirs for her purple themed party. The party was a success. it was good to see all those familiar faces, classmates and close friends from high school. Even our class adviser was there..imagine seeing her after like what? 23 years ? As usual , being in the company of friends you've missed so much makes you forget about the time ..hahahah it was really a night to remember. It wasn't perfect though ' coz some people didn't make it that night . I missed seeing one face from the crowd. Don't ask who! enough said.:)

My stay was extended though when my bestfriend Sonya came from Oz due to a family emergency. And again being the good friend that I was, I just couldn't leave her in times when she needed me. It was tough seeing a friend you care for so much suffer and go through the agony of fearing losing a loved one. It was devastating to see her crumble in fear and pain. All I could do was hold her hand and comfort her that I will be with her in all these. But of course, we did not forget to do a little r &r on the side amidst the stress ( hey were human we need to de-stress). So we did a little clubbing here, a little drinking there and a weekend in Crimson ...then bam! just like that , vacation time over , I have to go back :(.

With a heavy heart I had to leave Cebu again, my family, my friends and the only place I call home. But on the lighter side of things , i am back with babe and back to the normal stuff I do. I'll be back in Cebu though next week, next month ..who knows? It may be sooner than you thought. :)

just my two cents...xoxo

falling in love and letting go...

2011-07-29T04:27:00.003+08:00

Aaaaah LOVE…I know , I know it’s way too far from Valentines day but isn’t love a universal thing that exists all year round? Such a strong powerful word,easily felt yet difficult to comprehend. It could hit us in many ways, different forms , at different times and circumstances. Love has been described in a lot of ways, mostly feelings of euphoria and grandeur. But with love comes the bittersweet shadow of pain, hurt and tears.

Falling in love may sound easy but really hard to do. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher . In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if his or her happiness means that you’re not part of it. Everything happens for the best. Love strives in hurting. Yes it does…

If you don’t get hurt, you don’t learn how to love. Love is like a knife.(cheesy huh?) It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always lasts for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Loving people means giving them the freedom to choose what they want to be and where they choose to be. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why.If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk, If you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love.

You fall for someone once in a while for a reason...it isn't just random... most of the time, that person, or at least that relationship, teaches something: to be trusting, to not be trusting, to be loyal, to be caring, to let go, to hold on, to move on, to speak out, to forget, to remember, to hurt and to heal...or, if you are lucky, to love... and the things we take from those relationships are part of what makes them all worth while... So let your heart skip a beat, let a swarm of butterflies fly into your stomach, let yourself feel totally and utterly happy.

At least for a moment--- you will LiVe , you will maybe LoVe, and you will LeaRN…

Life is a never ending journey, a vast world of opportunities, of circumstances.. favorable or not ,we all have to go through it…it’s all a part of the journey we call LIFE.

Just my two cents…xoxo

I am me...

2011-06-04T16:38:00.001+08:00

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it — I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes

Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know — but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me.

I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

Just my two cents...xoxo

2nd Quarter

2011-06-04T15:27:00.001+08:00

What? It's June already? OMG where did all the months go? Sorry for not being able to post new stuff here. Well you see, May was as busy as my April..(that's what I call summer vacation)..Anyways, yes , it is really June now.

May just passed by like a blur. I was in Cebu a whole 2 weeks for a couple of reasons.. I've met a few friends from high school, had dinner and a couple of drinks. Then BURDA(my barkada) had a small get together weekend. We spent 2 hassle free, alcohol filled weekend nights in Crimson Resort and Spa then at BE resorts in Mactan. Talk about EXPENSIVE! Whew! Thank you Bing for the treat ..we all had a blast.. I also made a few favors for my best bud Sonya and looked around resorts for her 40th on October. I think I may give Events Organizing a try for my new career move.hmmmmm.

It's back to reality now. vacation time is over but I can say I have had the best Summer vacay so far. till next year.. Just my two cents xoxo.. :0

And then it was MAY....

2011-05-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

I know, i know.. guilty as charged.. I know i havent been writing lately. April has gone by without an entry from me :(. Well , things were pretty hectic last month. A lot of things happened ..busy busy busy. My April was filled with activities, trips and of course a little R&R (hey it's summer you know )

First stop was my brothers high school graduation. Although i wasn't able to go home to celebrate it with the family, I was a busy bee helping my mom prepare for the big day. And of course I gave my share for my brother's blow out party.

Then there was my highschool reunion. Oh boy it was the weirdest( in a nice kind of way) event. Weird because now I know how it feels like to see familiar faces , friends,even enemies and of course exes? hahahaahha after 23 long years. Yes 23 years ...( don't laugh I'm not that old yet). I had mixed emotions that day. happy, excited , yet sad to see us all grown up. It was a blast though, a fun filled night of music, laughs, drinks ,sad stories, and a litte bit of everything hehehe.. I sure am glad I took part in it. It brings back a lot of good memories and even started some new friendships.. here's looking forward to more get togethers soon. :)

Then there was the Holy week. We decided to not go on a trip this year for a change (to save money too)..My sister , her bf and my brother came to Manila for a vacation and so we stayed in the condo the entire holy week. Luckily, most people were away so we had all the condo's facility all to ourselves. Days were spent swimming ,eating and just chilling...aaaaaahhhh summer...

And just when we were having so much fun... May came..just like that...

As June nears, I take with me memories of a magnificent summer. Nothing fancy though, no expensive trips, no lavish spendings, just fun, quality time with friends and family.. I guess that made my summer. :) just my two cents..xoxo

Conditional...Unconditional

2011-03-30T01:35:00.001+08:00

There are times when we get discouraged by things that happen and by people around us. Times when we want to give up on someone just because. Times when we hate ourselves for hating others. Times when we stop loving because people fall short of our expectations.

To love without asking why or how, to love without setting any limit ,Is this how we love? Or is our love defined by how much we gain or how much someone makes us happy? I believe we should love a person not because of anything else but simply because we love him, nothing more… nothing less. Conditional love is when we begin to put a price tag on someone. When that person falls below certain limits then he wouldn’t get as much attention and love that he would have been given had he been more qualified.

Love doesn’t measure, weigh or gauge a person ,love just loves .it is the very basic yet the most complicated formula in the success of any relationship. To love unconditionally is to love beyond the bounds of what limits us, race and creed, wealth and poverty, sickness and health and suffering and happiness. Love knows no bounds and only when we learn how to conquer the limits of what keeps us away from others can love take on a new meaning. One that doesn’t ask the why's or hows. One that simply believes… one that simply loves...

just my two cents...xoxo

Things I wish you knew...

2011-03-30T01:25:00.001+08:00

1. I eat a lot when I’m depressed. Yes I can be a pig at times.

2. I’m down to do whatever as long as it doesn't hurt anyone.

3. I laugh easily even at the corniest jokes.

4. I am an impulsive shopper :(

5. I don’t dream big, I just dream enough.

6. I treat people like how I wanna be treated.

7. I do what I want when I want it. (Yes I know, I'm a bitch )

8. I am obsessive-compulsive. ( hey any nurse is...i guess..)

9. When I have a problem, all I need is for you to listen. No need to solve anything.

10. I don’t mind if you’re late- as long as you call first.

11. I need you to tell me how you feel about me.

12. I always wanted to learn how to play the guitar.

13. I’m happy because I don’t expect too much.

14. Mature but sometimes immature.(most of the times immature)

15. I face every problem with a smile.

16. I still watch cartoons everyday. ( go on ..laugh)

17. I cry easily.

18. I drink like a man ( yes I really do huh).

19.I can't sleep without my smelly pillow.

20. I love tremendously.

Go on make your own list...it's fun..just my two cents..xoxo