Memoirs of a Geekette

Shit Just Got Political

2013-08-27T14:12:00.000+08:00

For those who know me, they are aware that when it comes to politics, I basically have no opinion. I don't vote, because I honestly think it's a waste of time. They'll just cheat their way into a position anyway. But if you think that just because I don't believe in our system, that I don't have a right to speak about PDAF then you're wrong. Sure I shrugged off my "social responsibility" because I had my own set of beliefs, but I pay my taxes, too. It's not like I have zero contribution to society.

People are basically shocked that I am updated on this issue, and heck, I even joined the rally yesterday. But I am enraged at what our government has become. All this time I know that basically all of them may be corrupt. You can't really take that away, ever. Someone, somewhere is selfish and greedy, and I've accepted that a long time ago. I've been passive despite the fact that I know they're using the taxes I pay for their own well-being. But seeing this Napoles issue? HOW DARE YOU? It's one thing to steal money from the Filipinos, and it's another to rub it in our faces, to spend it so irresponsibly, and to use it to feel like you're better than the rest of us. My eyes have been opened of your capabilities. I know you were greedy, but now, I've lost all aspects of respect I have for you as a human being.

People steal everyday. Snatchers, muggers, you name it. But you know what? They do it for survival, and I'm pretty sure they are not proud of what they do. They do it, maybe because their mother is sick and they don't have money for medicine, or maybe they have children who they need to feed but can't. And it all goes back to you, scum-of-the-earth leeches. They wouldn't even have to do that if our taxes were used as they should be.

And the worst part of all, and the real reason why I'm getting so involved is that I saw it with my own eyes. Take our driver, Kuya JR. He's one of the kindest people I've ever met. He's the only competent person in our payroll, actually. He never complains, he never asks for extra cash, and he would follow you with an umbrella even if it's just drizzling and you said you were fine. That's what a good person he is. Sure, he has bad habits. He smokes, he's an unhealthy eater, and he drinks. But you know you're safe when he's around, and he's never gonna do anything bad. He suffered a stroke just this week and he has to be on a respirator now. He still has a strong heartbeat, but just like that, his family decided that it's time to say goodbye. All because they cannot pay for the hospital bills. My family gave some help but it still isn't enough. And I realized, if our system wasn't so fucked up, maybe Kuya JR would be okay. Maybe many like him would be okay. But instead, the money that would have kept thousands of good people alive go to the spineless spawns of the corrupt.

Their children? People say they are only victims. But come on, for sure they were given a good education, and they are smart enough to figure out that their money is not really theirs. And to brag on social media that you "wiped out" an expensive store is not someone with a conscience would do.

My parents worked hard all their lives to provide me and my siblings a good education. And when things were rough for us, I saw how they struggled. How can you expect me to accept that all their hard work just goes to someone who just sits around waiting for money, and lives a life that we can't even have in our dreams? My parents take home clean money, but still, I feel guilty having them buy me things that I don't really "need", because you do that to them already, don't you?

I've experienced to work as well, and sometimes, I would work 48 hours straight. I barely went home, I took an overnight bag with me wherever I went, because I never knew when I was going home. I am a college graduate who experienced having to put shoes on other people, or putting up with their complaints cause they feel "fat" in what I gave them to wear. But I knew I had to start at the bottom. But during those times when I was running around a set at 2 in the morning, looking for a pair of earrings that I barely remember because I have not slept nor eaten, where were you? What were you doing?

And most people have it worse than I do. When they were breaking their backs to feed their families, were you "wiping out Celine"? When they were losing their houses to the flood, and had no idea what they were going to do, were you out "driving Porschey"? And when people had to say goodbye to their loved ones, because poverty never gave them a choice, were you enjoying your lame ass party in California with your fake friends, and badly designed tarpaulin backdrop? Or were you just posting this shit online to show everyone where our taxes are going instead of where they should be? How do you even look at yourself in the mirror?

No, Jeane, money cannot buy class.

So when you look at the big picture, this country is hopeless. Napoles could be under the protection of her connections right now, and maybe they'll never be caught. But it's worth a try cause I'd do anything I can to see her, and her other comrades, rotting in jail.

Make Up Portfolio: Luscious Closet Shoots

2011-08-06T12:40:00.007+08:00

So I did the make up for the latest Luscious Closet shoots. And here they are. :)

Be sure to check out Luscious Closet on Facebook! They have soo many cute clothes! :)

Here's a few from their latest collection...

Lexy Tank top (P400)

Teal tutu skirt (P650)

Buy it!

Chain tank (P500)

Bodycon skirt (P600)

Buy it!

More cute clothes here! Happy shopping!

What I gained from my mom's Australia trip :D

2011-08-04T14:40:00.010+08:00

Okay, couple of weeks back, my mom went to Australia. At first I was sad cause she wasn't gonna be around for almost a week, but when she got home, boy was I thrilled! Haha! So this is what she got me, and what I think of them so far. :)

Nars blush in Orgasm

Pros:

Very natural looking, despite the fact that it's a shimmer blush.
It's perfect for a clean, polished, pristine look.
Very elegant looking, and very subtle.
Good for a simple night look that looks minimal, but with that extra kick.

Cons:

It's acually pretty sheer, so I wouldn't use it on models for photoshoots or fashion shows.
It really takes a lot of product to be noticeable.
Again, it's shimmer, so despite the fact that the color is natural, it wouldn't be a good selection for a "no make up look" (could work for a "barely there look" instead)
The container gets dirty very easily. You shouldn't put it in your makeup bag cause it catches product a lot. If you don't use it everyday, just leave it at home, in a drawer. Otherwise, keep it in the box or put it in a small ziplock bag.

Mac Sheertone blush in Peaches

Pros:

I am SOOOOOO in love with this blush! I first got it when I was in highschool, and it really worked for me cause it has a very natural finish.
Looks very cute on any skin tone, so you can use it on your friends too!
Lasts really long. The last one I got, I used for 2 years, EVERYDAY before it ran out.
You really get your money's worth. I don't know a single soul who regrets buying this blush.

Cons:

Probably just the price. It's a bit expensive. But then again, it's MAC so you really can't expect it to be cheap.
Oh and it's sort of flat looking, so it's really just to get a natural flush on your cheeks. If you want this shade, but some definition as well, use it with a contour and some highlight powder. More on that later. :)

Clinique "take the day off" makeup remover

(for lids, lashes and lips)

Pros:

I first tried this cause it was a gift to me from my bestfriend, Rya. And now I absolutely love it, so I asked my mom to buy me one in a bigger container.
Takes little product to take away all your eyeliner and mascara! (1 dip with a Q tip will do!)
Not harsh on the eyes.
Also cleans away excess lipstick that you thought wasn't there anymore.
Very light fluid, so you don't get that creamy mess on your eyes that you get from cold cream.
One small bottle will last you months. Just imagine how long the full sized bottle will last!
Lid is very well constructed, so you can travel, and put it with the rest of your stuff without having to check on it. It's really tightly closed!

Cons:

A bit pricey. (Though you're really gonna get your money's worth)
The small ones are not always available, so if you want to try it, your gonna have to buy the full sized one. (You won't regret it, though. I swear!)

Mac Prep+Prime

Transparent finishing powder

Pros:

Very light powder. It's hard to over do.
Never gets cakey.
Doesn't make your face lighter than it is.
You don't need much, so it's really gonna last long.
Hasn't caused any breakout whatsoever, possibly even made my skin better!
Really cute, simple packaging. (I love it's black lid with glitter on it.)

Cons:

Since it's REALLY light, you have to be careful with the container. The powder flies around all over the place. It's advisable that you just get the excess you can get from the lid. That's about all you're gonna need anyway. :)
You can't really put it on while inside a car, cause again, it flies around to easily.

So that's about what I got. I'll try to talk about more of my other stuff next time. :) Feel free to share your thoughts if you ever do try any of these products. :)

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2011-08-04T07:57:00.001+08:00

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Since I'm Up...

2011-08-04T07:29:00.003+08:00

My sister woke me up to log out her Facebook account so our parents don't see the shit she's up to. :)) So now I'm up so early and I can't go back to sleep. I have sooo much to do for school for next week and I really don't know where (or when) to start!

My To-do list:

Do make-up for Luscious Closet's fashion at Ignite: The Animo Vibe (be sure to watch!)
Sew 2 Men's shirts with detailing
Finish my patterns and slopers (about 8 of them EACH :|)
Report on Fashion in the 1960's on Tuesday
Sew an Empire era costume for an 18 inch doll
Sew a gown to be put on a wine bottle
Compile research on 50 most influential Fashion Designers

But now I know what to do first!

Panic
Cry
Panic
Panic
Panic
Rip my hair out
Cry
Panic

That won't be as hard to do! Ha! Wish me luck :(

Big Mac Giveaway!

2011-08-04T07:21:00.003+08:00

Join Miss Fashion Beauty's Big Mac Giveaway to win products from the Surf, Baby Collection and more!

Here is what's up for grabs to one lucky winner

2x SURF, BABY! EYESHADOWS
-SURF USA

-SHORT SHORTS

SURF, BABY! LIPSTICK
-HIBISCUS

SURF, BABY! LIPGLASS
-GOOD LOVIN'

TINTED LIP CONDITIONER SPF 15
-FUCHSIA FIX

NAIL LACQUER
-STEAMY

7 LASH - NATURAL LENGTH LASHES

MINERALIZE EYE SHADOW
FAUX GOLD

2x EYESHADOW PRO PALETTE REFILL PAN'S

WINNERS OWN CHOICES

Giveaway is open internationally

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Goodluck! And be sure to let me know if you won. :)

Two birds with one stone

2011-07-30T11:34:00.003+08:00

I'm always here when you want me to be. How did you get so damn unreachable? I used beat myself up with guilt cause I thought it was the other way around. But now, though your feet are on the ground, I find myself struggling to get to you. All I can do is wait. What more if your head is on the clouds?

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2010-11-25T09:02:00.001+08:00

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Helloooo cyberworld!

2010-11-25T08:56:00.003+08:00

I haven't blogged in a while, but since I've got some time, I'm gonna try to maintain it this time. :p

Okay so today is work day for me. I have to get started making my dress for my Clothing Construction 2 subject. The challenge for this project is that we have to make a cohesive line as a group. And oh yeah, we're only allowed to use jersey and denim as our materials. Talk about challenging. But I've done a little research, and I'm starting on it now. My denim is currently being soaked in bleach, so I blog as I wait. I'm not gonna reveal our theme just yet, but I promise to update!

Will post pictures soon. I promise. Oh and if you know where I can find a model please do contact me. Text me, or twitter me or facebook me. Whichever works for you. Thanks! :)

It's gonna be a long ride, but I'm right beside you.

2010-02-25T07:22:00.006+08:00

We have been drifting apart lately. We used to tell each other anything and everything. Nothing was unsaid with us. We still laugh together. We still watch movies, eat ice cream, and do geeky things when nobody is watching... But your world is far different from mine. And it's natural for us to grow apart for a little while. I know you are in the state where I used to be. I know how to deal with those things already. And even though I want to help you go through every step, I know I shouldn't. You have to go through on your own, like I did. And I think you know that too.

Even though you are younger, you are so much stronger than me. During the times when I was least myself, you became my foundation. And I didn't know how you had all the right things to say, all the best words to release. You were too young to even deal with those things, yet, you listened, and comforted me. You were the ate. I know you can handle things way better than I ever did, but it doesn't take away the worry that I have. Because I've been through all the pain, anger, embarrassment, even the fear. And it's hard. Yes, of course, I know that it's nothing you can't handle. But the last thing I ever want to see is you getting hurt. But I'd rather know what's going on, so that in some ways, I can help. I give back what you've done for me for so long.

I'm not even half as brave as you are. I admire you, but at the same time, it scares me. Because most of the time, it was my fear of the unknown that prevented me to make crucial mistakes. What's going to stop you? I just hope that behind your courage is still a good sense of right and wrong. I'm glad that you are finally beginning to open up to me again. I never enjoy it when I hear what makes you miserable, but I am glad to listen, take it all in, and give you the best advice I could ever give, and also the most trust.

I know you see me as someone strong and independent. And of course that is what I always try to be. I haven't taken on relationships, because I didn't want commitment. Like most things, I feared it. I rejected it. And yes, I am used to doing things on my own. Yes, I love showing you that romantic love is not necessary for one to be happy. Yes, of course I am happy. But I am not perfect. You shouldn't do things just because that's what I do. Because despite the fact that I can stand on my own two feet, there are times when I feel cold. Like I'm sort of numb. I can't open up that easily to people. I run from things as soon as I realize the different ways I could get hurt. It's not power, it's more of self defense.

I want you to aspire to be me in a way that you know your self worth. I don't want you to feel like you need a boy to make you feel beautiful or loved. You can do that on your own. But also, do not be afraid to let someone in. It could be a little too late for me, but not for you. Just don't wait until you are as cold as I am. Just don't be too vulnerable either. Know when to use your head and when to use your heart.

And I know people have been on your back. I know you are starting to hear hurtful words from strangers, like the way I used to. As long as you are not doing anything wrong, hold your head up high. Reputation is irrelevant. Rumors are hurtful, but they should never affect you. One thing I have learned from that experience: the ones that care don't matter, and the ones who matter don't care. So brace yourself. You have not even begun to experience what it is truly like to hate and be hated, but it is something that will build you up, not break you down. Just never let it get to you. Just make sure that your feet are always on the ground, and always try to do the right thing. That's all there is to it.

Brace yourself for the most invigorating four years of your life. It will help you grow. Just stand your ground, think rationally, and enjoy the ride. I am always here for you whenever you need me. Never forget that.

I want you to know how beautiful, smart, and wonderful I think you are. Do not depend your happiness on someone. It is your choice to be happy. You are who you are. And that person is wonderful. That person is someone that I love and someone that I am very proud of.

I love you, sis. :)

It's the villain that makes a hero.

2010-02-22T17:26:00.004+08:00

I don't hate you. I don't have any right to. But they do. HE DOES. But he doesn't rub it in your face. He doesn't shove you when you're down. In fact he was there when you needed him... which were the only times I've seen you around.

I'm not here to talk about how awful, or how mean you were. I haven't seen that side of you, but I know everything. You've been nice to me, but I know the mistakes you've committed. You are a villain in most eyes, but not mine. To me, you are the creator of my hero.

If my dad had left me at a young age, I would seek his affection. If he rejected me, I'd try harder. If I got tired, I'd resent him. And if I don't forgive him in time, I would start to take it out on myself. It's a downward spiral from there. Good thing I don't have to go through that.

You have an awkward relationship with your children. They barely hear from you, but it doesn't bother anyone. You have all learned to live without each other. But of course, the pain will never be gone. You were his dad. His role model. His hero. He told me how you used to set up the fireworks on New Years eve. And up to this day, I swear, he has a childlike look in his eyes whenever he watches even the simplest fireworks. He looks up and he is genuinely entertained. I don't know what goes on through his mind, but I always wondered if he thought about you.

Before you randomly showed up a couple of days ago, I haven't seen you since I was a kid. I was at a totally different stage of my life back then. And I didn't care about any of this. But now, I just want to ask you a lot of questions. I know you weren't evil, but you weren't great either. And my dad had to learn to grow into a man on his own. And he did. He's an even bigger man than you are.

Like I said, I don't hate you. Why would I? If nothing else, I should be thankful that you committed all the mistakes you did, so my dad doesn't have to. I bet when you left, he swore to himself that he would turn out to be a good father. And look at him now, living up to his promise... even exceeding it.

He was beside me each night that I was in the hospital. Whenever I couldn't sleep, he was patient with me. Whenever I did something that angered him, he would try to understand. He never lifted a finger against me. And whenever he would say something hurtful, pride never gets in the way of his love for us. He would apologize.

He writes cards and letters for us. He never failed to comfort me. He always gave me time, and the best advice. He makes me laugh. He is good to me, my siblings, and my mother. He makes it a point that I see how much he believes in me. And I know for a fact that no matter what I do, he is there to support me. He is the best, and I can't ask for anything more.

HE IS MY HERO. And he wouldn't be that way, if it weren't for you. So sarcasm aside, I want to thank you. Thank you for giving me one of the best fathers ever. I don't know how I can ever repay you.

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2010-02-19T03:40:00.001+08:00

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It may not be a perfect world, but it's a wonderful world. :)

2010-02-17T10:47:00.001+08:00

If I asked you if you would change anything in your life, you would probably give me a long list of might-have-beens, or would-be-great-ifs. We all have something to complain about. And everyone in this world is out to get one thing out of life: HAPPINESS.

Some people look for happiness in love, so they search for it, and lose themselves in the process. Some people look for it in money, fame, or success, so they work hard to get where they are and miss out on what truly matters.

We are all miserable. There are only two kinds of people in the world: those who show how unhappy they are.. who bitch and moan about the things they can't have, instead of just acting on it, and those who hide it... who party and drink and sleep around, and tell people that they are living the good life, but at night, before they go to sleep, they realize how empty they feel. Yes, we are all miserable. But we don't have to be.

Like I said, we all have complaints in life. I do too. This past week, I've been feeling down. I spent all my money, I lack a lot of sleep, I haven't dated in AGES. I'd have a lot to demand, if I met my fairy godmother. It all just feels so crappy. Like I'm being punished. Like I'm not meant to be happy. So I take it out on myself, and I rant to my friends. Then I realized, it wasn't healthy.

But then yesterday, I don't know why, but for some reason, I was having a freakishly good day. My body just felt lighter, and my jeans weren't a hassle to put on. I did my make up flawlessly, and my surroundings were pleasant. There was a cold breeze, but there was still sun. It was the perfect weather. And the things that happened to me that would usually piss me off in an instant? I just brushed them off. And I felt like skipping, instead of walking, and smiling instead of staring into a blank space. I felt stupendously chipper that day.

I just needed a couple of minutes to reflect on how great my life really is. It's simple, but it's enough. I may not have all the things a girl would need, but I have two outstandingly cool parents, and two perfect siblings. I may have a long commute from my house to my school, but an hour only seems like seconds once my friends and I start asking each other silly, hypothetical questions. I may not have money to go eat at fancy restaurants, but I have HILARIOUS friends to eat lunch with at "Gilid", and I feel full, even if I could only afford three pieces of dumplings that day.

I never thought we could find more people like us at Taft. I only expected to meet "dude-pare-tols". But I was wrong. I met these bunch of guys, who are so funny, and I enjoy spending time with them. Even when we're only online, I would literally "laugh out loud". I never thought that could really happen.

And I figured out a lot of other good things to be thankful about. Like putting your hand in your pocket and realizing you left P100 in there. Or napping in the middle of a warm afternoon, and waking up being so damn sweaty, but very satisfied. Or not having the urge to go to parties, or looking for some activity to do to kill the time, because just sitting and talking with friends, and not running out of things to say, is more than enough.

There's a perfect balance in life. We really can't have it all. But we can have a lot. HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE. And as soon as we start realizing how good we've got it, there's nothing but good days ahead. :)

Starting from scratch

2010-02-17T03:39:00.001+08:00

Lately, I've been a lot "girlier" than I was before. I started getting interested in shopping, and make up, and all that jazz. I guess that's fine, cause I love doing those things, but I just feel like I'm starting to lose my old self.

I used to love writing about anything, and everything. Writing makes me feel good. It's my outlet. At the same time, it makes me learn things about myself. I'm hoping that this will be a good start in finding a balance between the fashion student, and the shameless dork in me.

That said, it's almost 4am. And though I would love to start writing now, my brain feels like a bowl of mashed potatoes right now. So maybe later, when I'm all charged up! :)