resurrection

I did my best

2013-04-01T22:52:00.003+08:00

Burned

2013-04-01T22:52:00.000+08:00

Accept

2013-04-01T22:51:00.000+08:00

Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance

2013-03-30T04:08:00.000+08:00

Are You Lonesome Tonight by Elvis Presley on Grooveshark

Are you lonesome tonight,

do you miss me tonight?

Are you sorry we drifted apart?

Does your memory stray to a brighter sunny day

When I kissed you and called you sweetheart?

Do the chairs in your parlor seem empty and bare?

Do you gaze at your doorstep and picture me there?

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?

Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

I wonder if you're lonesome tonight

You know someone said that the world's a stage

And each must play a part.

Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.

Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance

You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue

Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange

And why I'll never know.

Honey, you lied when you said you loved me

And I had no cause to doubt you.

But I'd rather go on hearing your lies

Than go on living without you.

Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there

With emptiness all around

And if you won't come back to me

Then make them bring the curtain down.

Is your heart filled with pain, shall I come back again?

Tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?

Smile

2013-03-23T23:47:00.001+08:00

Open

2013-03-23T19:45:00.001+08:00

Sorry, Blame It On Me

2013-03-23T19:41:00.003+08:00

As life goes on I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things I have done
And things that have not occurred yet
And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

I’m sorry for the times I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I’m sorry for the times that I had to go
I’m sorry for the fact that I did not know
That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I’m sorry for the times I would neglect
I’m sorry for the times I disrespect

I’m sorry for the wrong things that I’ve done
I’m sorry I’m not always there for my son
I’m sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can’t sleep at night when I am not there
Because I am in the streets like everyday
Sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

[Bridge]
I understand that there are some problems
And I am not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show
If I can apologize for being wrong
Then it’s just a shame on me
I’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[Chorus]
You can put the blame on me [4x]
Said you can put the blame on me [3x]
You can put the blame on me

Sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn’t know what to do
Sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
Just trying to stay busy till you heard from Dad
And you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though Pops treated us like kings

He got a second wife and you didn’t agree
He got up and left you there all alone
I’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
I’m sorry that I went and added to your grief
I’m sorry that your son was once a thief
I’m sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would’ve listened and not be so bad
I’m sorry your life turned out this way
I’m sorry that the FEDS came and took me away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

I’m sorry that it took so long to see
They were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I’m sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani
I’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
For the embarrassment that she felt
Just a little young girl trying to have fun
Her daddy should never let her out that young
I’m sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say
Why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
Verizon backed out disgracing my name
I’m just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans I’ll take that blame
Even though the blame’s on you [3x]
I’ll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me [2x]
You can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me

Real Bad News

2013-03-22T23:02:00.000+08:00

Bad News by Kanye West on Grooveshark

Slow down

2013-03-22T22:57:00.004+08:00

Slow down and enjoy life

Just Go

2013-03-22T22:57:00.002+08:00

Someday

2013-03-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

The Best

2013-03-22T04:47:00.001+08:00

Life's Just Not Fair

2013-03-22T03:57:00.000+08:00

Street Lights

Street Lights by Kanye West on Grooveshark

Let me know
Do I still got time to grow
Things ain't always set in stone
That be known let me know
Let me
Seems like, street lights, glowin
Happen to be just like moments, passin
In front of me so I hopped in, the cab and
I paid my fare see I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the streets, glowin
Happen to be just like moments, passin
In front of me so I hopped in, the cab and
I paid my fare see I know my destination
But I'm just not there

In the streets
In the, streets
I'm just not there in the streets
I'm just not there
Life's just not fair
Seems like, street lights, glowin
Happen to be just like moments, passin
In front of me so I hopped in, the cab and
I paid my fare see I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the street lights, glowin
Happen to be just like moments, passin
In front of me so I hopped in, the cab and
I paid my fare see I know my destination
But I'm just not there
All the street lights, glowin
Happen to be just like moments, passin
In front of me so I hopped in, the cab and
I paid my fare see I know my destination
But I'm just not there
In the streets
In the, streets
I'm just not there in the streets
I'm just not there
Life's just not fair
Life's just not fair

People

2013-03-22T00:34:00.006+08:00

Not A Little

2013-03-22T00:34:00.002+08:00

It comes with a lightning

Expanding Our Capacity To Give And Receive Love

2013-03-21T22:45:00.001+08:00

One of the things that most people are at least a little confused about is love. This is probably because we take it for granted, until it is gone—then it becomes very important, even obsessive. Many times I have heard these questions: What is love anyways? How do I know if I have ever really loved anyone? How can love hurt so much?

Actually, love doesn’t hurt; it is the absence of love that hurts. This is because it is so necessary for our health and happiness. We strive for material possessions, thinking our happiness comes from what we have. In truth, there is little happiness without love, no matter how much wealth you have, and love isn’t something you can buy.

What is love?

Love is an energy we exchange with God and each other in several different ways. Love operates on different levels, physical, mental and spiritual, and has many different flavours. The dictionary describes love as “an intense feeling of tender affection and compassion”. But love is much more than this.

Love can calm us or inspire intense passion. People who love and are loved exchange energy highly beneficial to the human body, mind and spirit. Wholistic medicine regards the vibration of love (even impersonal love) as nourishment for the body that heals and harmonizes. The incredible feeling of love produces an energy that makes the heart strong and the whole body vibrate to a higher frequency. Even the “flavours” of love, such as romance, kindness, compassion, generosity and altruism, all have a strengthening effect on the body.

The need for love

On a spiritual level, love is food for the soul. It produces oneness, intimacy and complete safety. It inspires acts of heroism. Love is that place where we lose the ego and become egoless. It is service, sacrifice, loyalty and devotion. It’s being a cheerleader for someone, even if the form of the relationship changes. Love is something we need to grow into good human beings and to be happy.

All humans have a need for love. It is necessary for health and wellness. We need attention and recognition. Attention is a focus of love energy. It is often said that negative attention is better than no attention. This energy need is very obvious in lovers and babies. Babies are totally dependent on their mothers. The more they are loved, the more they thrive. Without this constant exchange of love energy, babies will waste away and die. Nature is wise in that the hormones involved in pregnancy and the breastfeeding process create “love chemicals” in the brains of both mother and baby, thus keeping the energy exchange constant. This facilitates the bonding so necessary for mental health and the ability to create loving relationships in adult life. In this way we also gain the capacity in our brains to more easily produce the chemicals of love—which, in turn, raises our capacity to love.

Love is an inside job

We can ultimately produce all the love we need inside ourselves. It isn’t something outside of us that makes us love. Love is a feeling we create in our own brains from the chemicals our brain produces. Just thinking about someone or something you love makes your body strong and helps satisfy the need to feel love because it releases the love energy already within you.

The capacity to love

The capacity to give and receive love varies from person to person. Many spiritual systems work on the premise that the more loving a person is, the more spiritually evolved he or she is. If you look closely at the human beings on our planet, you might notice that many people don’t seem to have the capacity to really love. They may be nice people, but not very highly evolved. They just don’t have the soul development or the psychological development to love a lot.

Many of us think that if we could just find the right person, magic would happen and we would have all the love we think we need or want. But this is a myth. Only the spiritually evolved with a high capacity to love will have this experience. If you can’t receive love, how can you have a perfect love? If you can’t give it, how can it be returned? Love behaviours don’t just spring into being. They are learned and practiced.

When it is hard to love

People operate out of the belief that there is something wrong or lacking in them and that is why they weren’t loved growing up or aren’t loved now. But the truth is they attract people that can’t love, or were born to parents who don’t have the capacity to love them the way they needed to thrive. You can’t get blood out of a turnip. You can’t make someone love you. Instead, their brains have to first make the necessary chemicals. Or if a person has no capacity to love, they simply cannot deliver.

It’s hard to love when you are unhappy or experiencing depression. It’s hard to express love if you were not shown how by loving people. If you want to be truly loved, you have to be with someone who knows how to truly love—someone who has good love behaviours.

Getting more love

On the physical level, love is a chemical reaction in the brain that makes us feel good. On a mental level, we usually have as much love in our lives as we can handle depending on our love programming or lack of it. On a spiritual level, love is energy necessary to healthy life and soul development. To get more love in our lives, we can approach it from any level or from all levels. But, what needs to also happen is our capacity needs to expand.

A good way to get more love in your life is to think about it and practice it. How does love behave? It certainly isn’t critical. It isn’t selfish. Curbing negative behaviours is as important as creating loving ones. There are many good books written on love and relationships that can increase our love programming. We can always learn to love more, love better and create positive love experiences. We can be a better friend, a better parent and a better mate and thus increase our capacity to love.

The spiritual discipline of trying to love all people can also increase our capacity to love. When our own capacities to love increase, we experience more love and attract people who match our capacity. Love is divine and mystical. Many people have gained the capacity to love through mystical experience. It has been written that God is the source of love. Meditating on love or praying for love is a good way to draw it into your life.

No matter how you look at it, lots of love is good for your health and happiness. Since it doesn’t matter if you give or receive to benefit, you can start today to give love every chance you get. In this way, you will teach yourself love behaviours and strengthen all your relationships.

What goes around comes around. The love you have given out will very soon come back to you—maybe not in the form you gave it in, but come back it will!

Sehebat Halilintar

2013-03-21T22:21:00.002+08:00

Selebat hujan yang turun
Mencurah membasahi bumi
Tidak selebat hujan
Di dalam jiwaku

Sehebat halilintar
Membelah langit yang kelabu
Tidak sepanas petir
Yang membakar hidupku

Oh hujan
Di antara airmataku
Menitis laju
Bersama pilu pilu

Kucuba menghapuskan
Kenangan waktu silam
Namun bertambah membara
Rindu yang ku sekamkan

Semakin aku mencuba
Semakin terasa siksa
Inikah yang kau tinggalkan
Untuk diriku oh kasih

Seek Forgiveness

2013-03-21T20:17:00.002+08:00

Imperfect

2013-03-21T20:16:00.002+08:00

How?

2013-03-21T03:11:00.002+08:00

The Damage

2013-03-21T01:29:00.001+08:00

Faith

2013-03-20T22:43:00.002+08:00

Strong

2013-03-20T20:01:00.004+08:00

I'm not strong enough...

Unconditionally

2013-03-20T20:00:00.000+08:00

I wish I don't know you...

Judge Me

2013-03-20T19:50:00.004+08:00