Kalyani Badave

Missing the stranger....

2010-11-24T13:16:00.005+05:30

She was letting it go....she was letting him go. But there was a certain part in her that was forcing her to stay back. Stay for the stranger in him that might come back. She always looked at a frame....a frame that she had built to see him. He was fitting in like a missing part in a puzzle. He was the missing stranger. She convinced herself of him. She told everyone to confide in him. Everyone did....except he himself! She cried out loud. She cried her heart out. But there was no sign of him to return. She was searching for him, through her heart, mind, body and soul. But again, there was no sign of him to return. What was the thing that she went wrong in? Was it her or were they just her thoughts? Mistake, was a strong dimension of him that she had in her mind. Yes, she thought, he made a mistake. But was it a mistake or just a small setback? But then why wasn't he coming back, the stranger, the missing part of her puzzle...missing share of her soul!

Undesirable winds.....

2010-11-23T08:16:00.005+05:30

When she was just refraining from taking a back seat and letting it go, somethings did good for her. She looked at them to see if they were real..."oh yes they are!", she said to herself. She was blending in with her all the unwanted thoughts that made her take an unsound actions. But as soon as she merged herself in, she felt a obstacle. She opened her eyes and found herself in the same old phase of the unwanted winds that passed by her. At some point she thought she had surpassed them and defeated them in their own battle. Then how were they here. With all of their powers back on. Knowing nothing about, she had to again take a back seat, this time not knowing till when. She had once decided not to return but the cool and calm breezes ahead made her mind change. This time they were not visible. How is she suppose to see them, how is she suppose to feel them....or are they left long back never to return?

Being fine...

2010-10-14T10:56:00.003+05:30

Well versed with the current phase in her life, she started getting all worked up for the big leap she was about to take. Thinking of all the positive aspects of her life she went all the way to take things on a better and yet bigger tier. She was absolutely set for the change. The change was going to transform her into a new her and yet was going to maintain the inner her....

Fiery future

2010-10-05T10:29:00.009+05:30

She was still struck by her past and now her future was also giving her vibe to be prepared. To be prepared for a silent storm. The storm will not destroy her but will not let her fly high. It might pull her down. She was even so enthralled by the far away land that she couldn't see the best of what she had. She wanted to see, touch and feel the best for her. But somewhere somehow she lost it. She lost her very own world where in the day was soaked in a palate of work to be done. Yet a whole new cluster flew towards her showing her colors though fake..... She wanted to believe but couldn't. What was that one word that would change her life? Who was the one to say it? How it was ramping up her head.....Excavating her mind all through the rootage.

Spreading shivery through...

2010-09-29T15:19:00.006+05:30

With all the hope she started to make her way. Though not prepared...not knowing how she was going to overcome. Yet with full hopes she rode...Alone through the dark...dark that was daunting her to the core...

The wish star...

2010-09-02T10:27:00.004+05:30

Its time to wish...wish my heart out to the one who would grant me anything...he is the star in my sky where else doesn't know the way in.....i wish it would twinkle with the brightest light and grant me the wish...coming in to wish & pray.........

Torn...

2010-08-30T22:06:00.003+05:30

Thinking of the same chronicle she was torn between two spheres, of which one that she was living in present. The other was a huge chunk of confusions and blasts and eruptions of the feelings that just grazed her hair and went off. Out of all the breezes that blew off her hair, there was one that went so fast that it shook her head. She was standing there with a heart full of confusions and hypothesis of what her world would have looked like if she was the one she isn't right now...as was told to her, she started to get into the gloom of the past...the gloom was seemingly giving her the brightest ray of light at which she was trying hard to look. But was falling back. What was so beguiling and enticing and delighting that she was unable to pile up the brightness that her own self had...WHY? Why was that one set phrase had changed her insights...insights that were everything to her...were now turning against her own mentation....

Spinningly slugged....

2010-08-15T19:05:00.003+05:30

Seems it was yesterday when u came by n held me tight in your firm embrace...i held up your feel, your aroma, your touch all around me. It was so pure and fresh that it almost got me to believe that it was there, really!! Though an imagination, u were holding me tight than ever. I gave myself to u as a feather to the liberal wind. I thawed myself into your eternal love like a drop of the rain into the vast ocean. The cool breeze around me was whispering sweet nothings into my ears. And then i saw my handsome and sweet darling standing right in front of me holding his arms out wider than ever and asking me to dissolve myself into his body....and again into his soul!!!

The Transition....

2010-08-08T15:53:00.004+05:30

All that happened...seems so fresh yet a deeply doused in the feeling of lonesome. She was in the mystifying thought which told her that being together is much more difficult than being away.....But wait...what did the innate epitome say....It just couldn't let go of the desires of life. The moment when that one notion just outstrips every other and sets you free....free like a butterfly in a garden full of flowers, like a bird in the sky of its own. Caught between the two worlds...she just wanted to let herself flow in the passion of human's basic instincts.....what should be done was a fiery flavor of the playful and innocent her called HEART!!

Shaping the change....

2010-08-07T12:31:00.007+05:30

She love the way its shaping up. Though rough, she can handle it. The density of the change that's happening in her makes her feel special...unique than ever before. She doesn't see the negatives, nor the positives. The only thing that's making her go on is the voice. The voice that tells her to exclude the most inevitable part of her life. She was not able to let go...the same old shade struck her.....Change!!......She was smitten by the BLACK shade of her life...trying to break the cascade and running away when the same voice told her to take place at a higher stage...Considering herself as a so called grown up she tried to escape and fit into the billet of a 'WOMAN'. After a great deal of thought she was able to identify their voices as a very inviolable MONOLOGUE......

The beginning end....

2010-05-29T16:07:00.008+05:30

The beginning of a new end. What was in my mind was never seen by anyone. Though it was clear enough to understand no one tried so. What i was expecting was much more elaborate than what it was portrayed so. Why is it so that only i have to be calm? Why is it so that every time i have to take a back? Why is it so that whenever i expect myself to be composed i always react in some insane manner? Is it so that i can't be one or is it so that i don't want to be one. The only way out is to break free which would cost me my life and to hold back would cost me my life's time....

Breaking down...

2010-02-09T10:51:00.007+05:30

There were times when i told myself to just shut the hell out of me and go on. But then there was this other girl standing by me asking was it deserving enough? I couldn't answer her...at all. Was she right or was i right. All i knew was the whole lot of confusion going on in my heart,mind and body. Mistakes...those mighty mistakes makes my life a living hell. Why are there two minds in me when i just need one? Why is the so called wrong one so powerful when i don't even want it to exist? For everyone else its just a matter of disarray but for me its a whole lot, majorly like a saga. In which i was a sole warrior and the enemy was me myself...

Rising to a rebel.....

2010-01-13T16:07:00.016+05:30

After all the passion she was again held up by the same old grief....what to and what not to. Why are the emotions so strong and weird when it comes to loving someone your heart out. Why are we not able to understand the good things are happening to us. Why are we always running behind the facets of life which doesn't even look back to you. Why do we always fall in love with a person who isn't your match. Why the hell does that person realize what their partner needs...IS IT SO HARD TO GET THE EMOTIONS OUT SOMETIMES.....Please Explain?!!??

A new start....again....

2009-12-05T11:09:00.009+05:30

Feeling so pure and fresh,she bloomed and blended herself into a mold of womanhood.She wasn't aware that being matured was about savvying and listening to others even without narrating it to yourself.Yet she was happy and gratified.She saw her future in him as clear as a crystal.She fancied her long lost dreams and lived with a new zest.Being given so much care and respect she was astonished to see herself so differently.This was the time when she was actually living her own self.Everything around her seem to be a unlike her normalcy.She started living in a new world of her own,making her own rules and was feeling complete,fulfilled......

No one but....

2009-11-30T17:25:00.010+05:30

She again melted herself down to one. She was a sole tree in the garden of reality. No one even stopped by to tell her that she wasn't alone, no one but a small radiant stroke of color which showed her a path through which she could grab the whole palette.With his sparkling eyes and roaring personality she imparted her whole self onto his lean berms.She was glad to know that someone was watching her all the way back, till the end.She looked at his face and found solace.She felt as if she knows him for years together.She was left spellbound by his gesture towards her.She was unaware that she a deserved the trust and respect which she got from him.Being so unfamiliar to this side of the coin she was left stunned, stunned for a long period of time.And the moment she was done with her silence, she broke out into tears.With these tears,which were useless for the past and priceless for the future, she dream t of her present.She took him into her arms and hugged him so tight no never let go.She felt a strong urge to be loved, to be cared, to be cherished.She wanted someone to hold back when she is not there.Someone who could get daunted if he couldn't find her in the mob.Someone who would love her no matter how she looked,behaved or what she said.She needed someone who could empathize her when she is uprising from a girl to a women......

And the story continues.....

2009-11-28T10:48:00.018+05:30

Thinking she was in a whole new sphere of love,she went in search of new horizons in the world she held in her fists.The new person in her life meant everything to her.She started thinking about him as a soul mate.Giving her a lie of her lifetime,he glided smoothly into the trusted nook of her heart.She bestowed her faith onto his fake imprint.Like a petty miser he took it all.And left her wry with a false impression of a essence called love.She,so silly,took that as a part of her life and accepted wholeheartedly.
And then there was the miser, laughing his heart out and pointing his sharp tools towards her.The tools,though not touching,were stabbing her ruthlessly.She was shattered by the only thought that gave a grief to her mind and most of it to her heart.She was angry,furious, raged,was violated yet was collapsed,smashed.She tried to stand but destiny made her fall so deep that she couldn't even see a small beam of light coming her way.She was broken, broken into small pieces.She herself was unable to gather her tattered dreams,her shattered hopes.No one knew whats going on in her heart.No one,but.....

The story begins....

2009-11-27T16:05:00.022+05:30

A new girl came into this big bad world of wolfs where being alone was a crime.Gone with the wind was her childhood and she was forced to adapt to the new paths of life with a tint of adulthood.Not to and not fro,she was confused.Disgusted by the adultery,she tried to find someone who would understand her,who would not make her feel different,who would not tell her to change.She thought those were the most beautiful things that life has brought her way.Accepting it with a heart full of hopes and new dreams she started her journey towards her evolution into a era called “An Adult”

Roller Coaster

2009-11-27T12:15:00.006+05:30

Its been some time now.I just wanted to get into the world race.Got in.Seen it and now into the street fights.but enjoying it!