Kata Hay's Blog

2014-02-28T21:14:00.001-08:00

Hey ya'll!

I've decided to get back to bloggering, again.... LOL

This time though I think I'm gonna just use it as a better way for all of you that don't know me, or even some of you that do, to get to know me better. Plus it doesn't this crazy rambling redhead to have a place of her own to rant, praise, or just BS. SO here it is!

It's FRIIIIIIDAY! Wooo, that means it's gonna be a busy but fun weekend singing and playing music at Hatfield and McCoy. I gotta tell ya'll, so many of you ask me what it's like to work at a theater like I do. Well to answer you truthfully, working at a theater, and working at the theater I do are two very different things. I've worked for 3 of the major theaters in town, and it's always drama, don't get me wrong because if you throw a bunch of artistic personalities who all want to be the center of attention or they wouldn't choose this profession in a small backstage area for hours a day, every day. THERE WILL be drama. But so many of these big business men who open these theaters give no thought to the people who are LITERALLY making them the money. You ARE replaceable, it doesn't matter how good you are. That's an awful mind set to get in. But with Hatfield & McCoy, even though at times were a dysfunctional one, we are a family. I love it, I LOVE going to work, going out there and connecting with people, brightening their day. Hearing I've inspired little girls to go into music. Laughing and cutting up, basically getting paid to act like a ditzy hillbilly all day, and most of all getting to play music! Even if it isn't my own original work, which we all know is my goal. It's still the best job I can ever think of. And I'm SO thankful for it!

Well, I feel like I've rambled enough for this post. What shall we discuss next? Doooooon't say politics!!!! LOL!

Kata

Quarter Life Crisis....

2012-05-03T15:32:00.004-07:00

Well... Here I am, 25. Big whoop! haha...

We won't even go into who I thought I would have become by this age, cause it's only hysterical at this standing point of my life...

I'm beginning to become a big believer in the whole quarter life crisis theory. I'm pretty sure I'm going through one myself. I feel lost. Not in a sense even that I need to be found from. I know who I am, I know what makes me happy. It's all just foggy. HAY-ZEE if you will.

I feel as though I've cut myself off from most of the world for all major purposes, though, there are those who believe I stay wrapped up in everyone else's existence all the time (via. facebook etc)... Truth is I barely look at that stuff anymore. It all used to be so important to me, and honestly I've let my youtube, facebook, twitter, etc all fall by the way-side. Even this blog, though let's be honest. I never was very good at blogging.

It all leaves me thinking. Why are we... ergh, um... why am I here on this planet? I used to think I knew, but maybe I was wrong. Or maybe I was right and I'm still paying life's toll rode fee. WHo knows, and frankly besides myself, who cares?

I guess I'm just writing this blog to say, yo, I'm still here. Not going anywhere, that I know of. Yet. We shall see what we shall see....

KATA!!! Where's the video's?!?!?!

2011-11-27T08:50:00.000-08:00

That's what I've been hearing for about the last 2 months now. So I thought I'd write a little blog to explain what's going down. First of all, as most of you know, back in January I started rehearsing for the Hatfield McCoy Dinner Show in Pigeon Forge, which I've been performing at 6 to 7 nights a week, ever since March when we finally opened. 2 to 3 shows a night, doesn't leave as much extra time for YOUTUBING as I used to have, obviously. I didn't have a "Real Job" for almost a year, and got a lot of video's up. I was just playing my own gigs mostly with the Grassabillies all that time, but it was paying all the bills. My past year has been spent working my butt off to catch up on all those bills, and almost have, thank the Lord. MIGHT have some money to go shopping come the first of the year! LOL.

SO, I've been taking ALL My extra time working on ONE original song, trying to make it "perfect". I had laid down two piano tracks, two guitar tracks, 4 "clap" tracks, played all the percussion (about two other tracks on that), 3 background vocals, 3 lead vocals (to make the natural chorus effect), and Robbie had played about 4 different tracks of Lead Electric Guitar, and a bass track. It was PUMPING! As soon as it had been uploaded for a week or two, I was going to launch the COVER contest I've been so excited about.

THEN, two weeks ago, just as we were getting ready to start work on the new house we are purchasing (which will have AWESOME space for making Youtube video's, aka BRIGHT WALLS!!!) I was doing FINAL edits, most EQ etc. on the song, and all of the sudden I look down, and over 3/4 of the tracks were blank. I tried everything I could to fix it, but it was just some sort of bug or freak accident that was not repairable. I cried. A Lot. I won't lie.

So once things are settled in the new house, I will finish recording this song again, kick my butt to get it a killer video and upload it. And then the Cover Contest will get under way! :)

UNTIL THEN, I was thinking about putting up some sort of cover. Not sure if you are familiar with Adele's "Don't You Remember" or not, but that's what I was thinking of doing. Cuz it would be a simple cover, just me and the guitar, easy to film, and upload. BUT if ya'll have something you'd rather hear, let me know!

Hope to be back up and uploading soon! Love you all soooo much, thanks for sticking with me through this! :) :) :)

Kata

Wow, what a day for video's it's been for me. lol

2011-11-16T20:19:00.000-08:00

I am getting ready to paint the walls of my new house, which is pretty exciting enough in itself. But while stealing my new neighbors internet temporarily (gotta love wifi) I just got to watch my segment with Darin' Erin from WBIR. SO funny that I had to share with everyone. So here's the link. DARIN' ERIN YODELAYHEHOOOO <--- got to watch it!

Secondly I have gotten a ton of comments on my GLEE Audition video, so if you haven't seen it, go watch. I recorded two, but this one the audio is way better on. And I wasn't quite as delusional as in the first. So please share with your friends! It would be awesome to get a call from the casting directors! ---> GLEE AUDITION

Alright! Got to get to paintin'! Love ya'll!

Kata

Insecurity, the true root of all evil.

2011-11-09T22:28:00.000-08:00

A few days ago on my personal facebook I posted "Insecurity is the root of all evil"... I was just venting a bit, and a few minutes later a friend posted jokingly, "I thought that was the lack of money". It got me to thinking. How crazy is it, that the saying is "Money is the root of all evil". When in all actuality it really is insecurity... Let's talk it out shall we? Okay. :-P

I am amazed daily at the complexity of the human mind. I must admit I enjoy trying to figure it out. Why it makes us do the things we do, and how it makes all of us different. Maybe it is the songwriter in me. But one of the things I find myself doing the most these days is analyzing why the people who irritate me do the irritating things they do. ha! I try to understand them, so it makes more sense, and I can relate easier, it helps me more than it helps them obviously, cause they never know what my conclusions are. Maybe I should have been a therapist, who knows. I might could help myself then too. Naw. Probably not.

So, the one thing that nearly all my conclusions arrive at is, insecurity. In one way or another. All wicked behavior stems from insecurity. Why are people so insecure? Heck, I know I am. I've blogged about it before. Most of the things I do that I hate about myself come from my insecurities too, who'da thunk it? Oh yea, that's right I did. So why do I still continue to be that way? Who knows why the brain does what it does. It just does it. right?

This blog isn't about any particular person, or situation. Just honestly venting about the sadness I feel when I think about OTHER people's insecurities. I've grown used to mine. But it seems the more talented, or beautiful someone is, the more insecure they are about that talent, or beauty.

Nothing's ever good enough is the simple answer. Right down to why some thought Money was the root of all evil. When in reality it is the insecurity of not having as MUCH money, or the stuff that money buys as someone else. Just like people who behave badly, per say, are insecure they aren't as beautiful, or talented as someone else. They are constantly concerned about the perception of the outside of world. They base their behavior, and entire lifestyle on what other people think.

Say hello to the Queen of this behavior right here too by the way, not counting myself out. These little psycho-analysis blogs I write are for my own benefit as I'm sure you have figured out, but sometimes they help other people too. Ah, the beauty of blogging, instead of just talking to yourself, as I do most the time. lol

I guess the point is, true worth is not what others perception of you is, but the perception you have of yourself. What do YOU see when you look in the mirror? Is that person somebody you can be proud of. Or are you too worried what others see, that you tarnish that person even farther trying to be the one with the most gold in your pot?

The most beautiful people I've ever known, were those who were confident, not cocky, but confident. And I want to be one of those people. There's a lot of crap I have to sift through in my life before I can be one of those people, but I'm working on it. I do think I've been blessed, and am not un-thankful for any of my blessings. It's just hard to see them clearly through jaded eyes sometimes.

Well I think that's enough rambling for one night. Signing off beautiful people....

Kata

Life as I know it.

2011-10-31T18:50:00.000-07:00

Sitting here watching a documentary on how the Halloween movies were made, getting ready to watch the Rob Zombie remake as Robbie and mine's way of celebrating the holiday. Didn't buy an outfit this year, and glad I didn't. Cause I've ended up feeling something quite awful.

It seems working at a theater keeps you sick, so much more than a regular job for some reason. I'm not even sure why, I guess cause you shake hands with so many people, and you also wear yourself down working so much. Cause Lord knows I work a lot.

I am quite exciting right now though, because this Thursday and next Thursday I have interviews with the two biggest Modeling/Acting agencies in Knoxville. Please keep your fingers crossed for me. I really want to get back into that end of entertainment. I think it would help my self esteem a lot to get back into that stuff, cause I loved it so much, and miss it immensely.

Didn't really have much to say, just wanted to say hey I guess, cause yet again, I never blog as much as I would like. However, I intend to blog more from now on.

Miss ya'll! Look for new music soon! (I know i've been saying that forever, but get's closer everyday right? hahaha)

Kata

Been Blogger-less...

2011-09-18T17:52:00.000-07:00

Well everyone, I realized today it's been far too entirely long since I've losted a blog. About, anything really. So I decided to write one, about nothing, honestly. :-P

Life's been good, life's been bad, it has it's ups and downs, I think we all know. Mostly my life, since my past post has been filled with the Hatfield & McCoy Dinner Show, and not much else. I've played a few outside gigs, posted a few video's on to the Tubiverse, written songs, etc. But 90% of my time, that I am awake anyway, is at the theater. If you've not made it to the show to see me yet, please do. I'll at the very least be there until January. We shall see what happens, and where the winds God blows my way direct me.

I guess I basically just wanted to say hey, I'll try to post more often, I had honestly just forgotten about my little blog here *slaps self on hand*. Won't happen again, so sorry! Love you all, and talk to you soon!

Kata

Gorgeous - Original Song (Available on iTunes!!!)

2011-07-12T06:46:00.000-07:00

So, I felt like blogger-ing.

2011-03-20T23:20:00.000-07:00

It's 2:07 in the morning, everyone in my house is asleep (and snoring), except for me. I've got a million thoughts running through my mind, I'll admit, I feel a bit manic. Maybe it's cause it's now officially Monday, who knows.

Here lately, I feel like God's brought all these amazing opportunities to my door, dropped them on the front step and said "Here, pick it up, open the box, and keep it", and somehow, I've broken what's inside, trying to tear the package open too fast. And frankly, when that happens so many times, it becomes quite unsettling. My metaphor may make no sense, so I'll explain literally. I've had awesome things ALMOST happen, a TON of them lately, but when it comes down to the wire. They don't. For whatever reason, I'm not sure. I'm past the point of thinking it's "I'm not good enough", or letting it DEPRESS me. I've grown enough in maturity to realize everything happens for a reason, and all good things come in their own time, when they are supposed to happen. But it still can become confusing. I'll admit.

I'm 24 years old, and when I say that, most people say, awwww! You are a baby! Which is very kind, and mostly true, when putting a persons normal life span in perspective. When putting it in perspective with the way I thought my life would go, not so much. I feel ancient. Truly. I look in the mirror, and see nothing but the wrinkles I've acquired around my eyes, and the little marks life's stresses have added to my face. I think, who are you? Weren't you supposed to be "fabulous" by now?

Well, exactly what IS fabulous anyways? Is it, being on the cover of magazines, and on tv? Or is it, being happy, no matter what your doing, or where you are? Either way, I epically fail at both.

I'm so bad about falling into the "Greener Pastures" way of thinking. Just the other day, I drove by a herd of Cattle. Most of them were chillaxin' laying in the sun. But one little red cow was at the edge of the fence, on it's knee's stretching out it's neck as far as it could through the barbwire fence, trying to get the grass that was unattainable. Though I must tell you, the grass she was standing on, was truly much greener. But from her view point, I guess it wasn't.

Robbie and I have conversations all the time, about the good vs. bad of the techno age we live in. The social networking addiction, and such. Most the time, Robbie takes the bad side of it, and I take the good. But I do understand his stand point. Especially at the moment, when he's not awake to argue with, haha! Because, 30 years ago, everyone had their little circle of friends, but they weren't all "up in everyone's grill" all the time. Knowing every little thing they did, almost competing to see who could put up the most interesting "what are you thinking line" or the funniest picture. They just lived in their little world, and did the best they could to entertain themselves. Now I know what EVERYONE does. Every celebrity, every acquaintance I've ever had. And when there are so many other point of views to look at, yours starts looking pretty narrow. But, are those who seem so happy on the outside, TRULY as happy as they seem. Or are they putting on their "social network" make-up? Who knows. And honestly, who cares?

I'm so tired of competing, I'm so tired of pettiness, and jealousy. I grew up in the Modeling/Pageant/Music/Singer universe. Which let me tell you is a backstabbing place to grow up. And gives you TERRIBLE views on things, and is even worse for your confidence. I mean, this is my blog, and I can be honest right? Okay. Here goes. I remember HATING other singer girls, spending hours in tears because this one was prettier than me, or this one could do a better vocal run than me. You know what I could have spent that time doing? WORKING ON VOCAL RUNS!!! Granted, there's not much one can do about how they look, but time could have been spent improving that too, some what. I am past the point in my life of looking at someone's success and it making me angry.

OKAY! Yes, I would LOVE to be hugely successful, I would love to be a singer with songs on the billboard charts, I'd love to be an actress in a blockbuster movie, and I'd love to be next seasons face of cover girl. But I can't keep living my life waiting for that moment to happen, and putting everything else on hold. It's just a miserable way to live. MISERABLE!

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped up in this little bitty box, it's glass, and I can see everything around me. But I don't have a hammer to break out of it. Sooooo I'm taking out my hammer. I love my family, I love my friends, heck I just about love the whole world. But I'm SO over opinions, jealousy, and I'm especially over "waiting for my rocket to come". I'm gonna take my lighter out, and set that fuse on fire myself. See how far she goes, and be happy with wherever she lands... By Golly!

Wow. Didn't expect to write this long of a blog, or to say half of what I did. And in all honesty, I know it might make NO sense tomorrow. But I feel better. None the less.... Well as always, feel free to comment your thoughts below, and tell me if you think I'm crazy. And if you do, well, good. Cause I think I am too, and frankly. I like it. :-P

Kata

Cannibals (Real World) - Kata Hay

2011-03-16T18:39:00.000-07:00

King Of Anything by Sara Bareilles (Kata Hay)

2011-02-28T10:04:00.000-08:00

New video FINALLY!!!! Hope you like it :) If you do, please share!!!

Perfect.

2010-12-02T13:58:00.000-08:00

12 Year Old Me.

Today I caught a bit of the Oprah show. This is something that NEVER happens anymore, for many reasons. But I'm glad that today it did. The whole show was about women's need for unrealistic perfection.

Just yesterday while putting on my make-up, I had a bit of an epiphany. I realized the "perfect vision" I have in my head, of what I "should" look like, is plastic. And I will NEVER look like that in real life.

Over the past few years, I've watched little wrinkles appear on my forehead, and around my eyes... I even found myself in tears a few weeks ago because I was afraid my hair was thinning. Was it? No. But the fear that it would, was enough to spin me into a small meltdown.

Why has beauty become SO important to me, is the question?

I can remember being 12 years old, waking up in the morning, brushing my teeth, looking in the mirror and thinking something completely different from what I think now. It wasn't, "Oh my, I look horrendous today", or even "Ooooo I'm looking good!". Just. "Oh there I am, Hi Kata! Hope you have a good day :)". What ever happened to that?

I spent much of my childhood overweight, at least according to the magazines of perfections standards. Did I care? Not really... Not until I turned 13, and my cousin informed me "Ewwww, you have cellulite!". OMG! I about died. Had that ever mattered? No. But it sure did now.

That one comment sent me into a downward spiral of starving myself. For nearly 6 months I would have a half a sandwich a day. I lived off of Diet Dr. Pepper. The weight shed off me like a dogs winter coat. The worst part of all of this? The more weight I lost, the more attention I got. Not just from boys, but even my friends and family. Everyone couldn't believe how "hot" Kata was getting...

I eventually got where I was having sugar issues, I would get shaky and weak... But it was worth it. Or at least I thought. On up until I was about 17 I continued starving myself. I got better, but if I started to notice the double chin returning, I'd go right back to a half a sandwich a day until it was gone. Because of those stupid decisions in diet, I now HAVE to eat every few hours or I get sick. I completely messed up my entire system. Not to mention what other damage it might have done, keeping myself from vital nutrition during those formative growing years.

I wish I could go back before the need for beauty effected my life. But I can't. Now, it's ALWAYS in the back of my mind. I try my best every time I step out the door to look as good as possible. We all look better at times than others. But when I have my "not looking so good" times, I go into a deep state of depression. I know logically when I look in the mirror, I'm not the most gorgeous woman in the world. But I also know, with the right amount of make up and hair product, I can look pretty good. So I never ever go anywhere without at least a bit of make up on. It's ridiculous, I know it is. But can I stop it? No.

Why am I writing all of this in the open? Honestly, I don't really have a clue. I just needed to get it off my chest. I know I am not the only one. I'm noticing girls at a younger and younger age worrying about being "sexy". Why? Cause we think that's what you HAVE to be to get anywhere in life. Why? Cause we are turning into a more and more shallow nation by the day. It has to stop somewhere. So why not here?

I'm gonna make a true effort to wake up in the morning and say "Hello there Kata! I hope you have an awesome day :) You look healthy, and happy. And that's what's important!". Maybe if I do, you will too. Then who knows, maybe we can go back to a time when it didn't matter how beautiful you were, or weren't. It was what you had to say, and what you did that mattered. Period.

NEW SINGLE! "My Song (Hey John)"

2010-11-21T11:30:00.001-08:00

CLICK HERE to hear a clip of my new single! Coming to iTunes soon!!!!

Califoooornia!

2010-11-11T15:57:00.000-08:00

Where to begin?! My recent trip to Cali. was crazy. I went out there for one reason, that I'm still not able to talk about, that I thought might lead to something amazing. Ended up being a really big disapointment. But I whiped my tears, and moved on, cause that's what you do. Life's got tons of low spots, but when they are over, they're over, bye bye!

All together I think we were in L.A. for a week... Not actually in L.A. mind you. We stayed in Redondo Beach. Which let me tell you, just might be the most amazing place on earth. So gorgeous, and EVERYONE was so out of their way friendly. I loved every minute of it.

Randomly I ended up getting to yodel on the Jimmy Kimmel, AND Jay Leno pre-shows.

AND, literally, ran into Lacey Schwimmer at a local comedy club. Of whom I'd been joking the whole trip. "Man if I could just run into anybody in this town, I wish it could be Lacey Schwimmer". I'm just the biggest fan of hers, and I'm so into DWTS right now. Team Schwammy! LOL! So I just took it as a little sign from God everything's all good. :)

Robbie and I also got the treat of eating dinner with Lisa Lavie and Iman Crosson. It was at the lovely little italian place called Bucca Di Peppo. If you ever get the opportunity, you must go there! So good!!! Both of them are truly top notch in every since of the word. If you don't subscribe.... What's wrong with you?! LOL! J/k. no, maybe not... seriously?! ;)

I'm in the process of editing a ton of footage and photo's I took while out there, which I will be uploading soon! Hope everyone had an awesome week... I know I did! I love you all :)

Kata

Foothills Fall Festival.

2010-10-11T05:14:00.000-07:00

Wow! I had the most amazing day yesterday! It kinda feels like it was today, cause I only fell asleep for a few hours. I have NO idea why I'm awake, but I'm making this time productive by writing a blog. :-P

The Grassabillies (Robbie, Kenny and I) played the Foothills Fall Festival yesterday. We kicked off the show at 2:30, and were followed by what is now my favorite band, Edens Edge. If you haven't heard of them, go check them out at http://www.edensedgeband.com ... They were just signed by Big Machine and their album should be out next year, and I will be one of the first to get it. Got a minute to hang out with them backstage, and they are super cool to boot! Then Jack Greene hit the stage.. I know some younger people might not remember him. If I were "normal" I wouldn't, but my momma used to sing his songs all the time. It was awesome to see an Opry Legend like that :).... Then came the headliners, Colt Ford, Jake Owen, and Blake Shelton... I'm gonna make a confession though. Robbie and I slipped out before Blake ever hit the stage. EEk... Don't hate me Blake lovers, I just don't count myself among you... haha! But it was awesome to get the opportunity to open for him though :)

Me with Edens Edge (Dean, Cherrill, and Hannah)

Anyway I'm in the process of uploading a vlog on my youtube page, so you should go check it out! Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend, cause I know I did!

Much love!
Kata

Long but good day :)

2010-10-09T17:20:00.000-07:00

I started today off at 7 a.m.

EEK! I never wake up that early. I was literally sick to my stomach just from the realization that it was TRULY that early. To top it all off, Robbie and I didn't go to sleep until at least 2. BECAUSE, yes, we played in Cosby last night until about 11, BUT, when we got home, THE BRAVES were going into extra innings in the playoffs. Now I'M not the Braves fan obviously, but I must admit it was a pretty exciting game.

We finally got out the door about 8, right on time for once (I'm horrendously known for making us about 15 minutes late EVERYWHERE we go, or so Robbie said - I really think it's him, but whatever, lol). We drive about 15 minutes and pick up Kenny (Our Banjo Player) then head for Clinton, TN to the Museum of Appalachia. We played our first show of the day at 10:30 (it's kinda hard to get my vocal chords to do anything at that time of day, but magically they did!). We did two more shows throughout the afternoon, and met a ton of super nice people.

Finally after our shows were done, it was time for Kathy Mattea to take the stage. This was my SECOND time seeing her live, and man. I really think she's one of my favorite artists. I'm gonna be honest, she had some songs that I loved when I was little. But my 22 year old self (last year, 23 now, ugh... ha!) wouldn't have called herself anywhere NEAR a Kathy fan. But I tell you, that show (a year ago in Nashville), and this show today are two of the best performances I have EVER seen by ANYONE, anywhere. Hands down. The woman's incredible. She had a dozen top 10 hits, and 4 number ones. Why do we not remember Kathy Mettea like we should? Everyone remembers Tanya, Reba (of course), Mary Chapen Carpenter, but geez. Kathy Mettea deserves as much cred as any of these people. I'm telling ya ya'll, LIVE, she's... ah... breath taking at times... AND hilarious!!!

So after her show, I got to chat with her a minute and snap a pic. She couldn't have been more genuine and sweet. So. Long story short. I LOVE Kathy Mettea. And I think we should all start a petition to get her in the Country Music Hall Of Fame. Just sayin'.

:) Kata

New Blog.

2010-10-08T22:02:00.001-07:00

Well everyone, I have decided to leave Tumblr behind and become a BLOGGER. Since most of my other sites are Google related, figured why not link it all right? LOL. Plus Tumblr frustrates me sometimes. You know how it goes :) So anyway! Exciting! Please "follow" me, if you do this Blogger thing, and I'll be posting a lot more blogs soon! :)