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		<title>Lucian and His First Experience with a Cheesey Puff!!!</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 05 Jul 2009 16:05:34 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<title>The Day After the Fourth of July</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 05 Jul 2009 15:48:52 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I will just start with I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. I unfortunately had to work all day and didn&#8217;t get off until seven O&#8217;clock at night and it rained all day long here and night. By the time I got home got dinner got showered and everything I was just exhausted [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I will just start with I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. I unfortunately had to work <span id="more-69620"></span>all day and didn&#8217;t get off until seven O&#8217;clock at night and it rained all day long here and night. By the time I got home got dinner got showered and everything I was just exhausted we talked about going to see fire works but t about 8:30 we decided we would get there and have to turn around and Lucian was tired and like I said it was nasty old rain. However Lexi and Jordan were so post to get to see fire works with there dad and grandparents so I hope that went through for them because they always look forward to seeing them every year. I will get them back tomorrow after noon after my appointment. Travis wanted to go with me tomorrow and I wanted him to of coarse to my appointments and we didn&#8217;t have anyone else to watch them and I was not dragging three kids in for a prenatal appointment and a sonogram that is for sure. My mom was busy with my nephew so I am glad it has worked out the way it has.<br />
I tried to go to bed at a decent hour last night and I just kept tossing and turning with heart burn all night long. It seems like everythign I eat or drink or anything that comes close to my mouth gives me heart burn. You knwo what they say about that? Heart burn your going to have a baby with a full head of hair? I hope it comes out true! Bottom line I am so excited about these appointments I have been counting down since day 30! I just want to know that everything is alright. I don&#8217;t feel that anything is wrong like when I was pregnant with Lucian I could just tell but everyone just kept telling me I was having a perfectly healthy 8 1/2 pound baby boy. Yeah right cut that in half. Half of that 8 1/2lbs was extra amniotic fluid. Turns out he was only 4lbs 9 ounces. Wow were they off. That is what scares me the most how can you miss something like that? These people will probably think I  crazy with all the questions I am going to have for them but I have the right to ask anything I want to. So my appointment is at 1:15pm and 2:15 pm sonogram first that is awesome. So I will be posting new sonogram pictures and let everyone know what is going on.<br />
Our Grandma has been in the hospital now for several days and I am so hoping she gets to come home today. I am just glad the surgery went well. I am even more glad that it is over and done with for her now and she doesn&#8217;t have to worry about facing it anymore. I love her so much. Her and Travis&#8217;s mom are great inspirations in my life. I am so lucky to have them in my life. I said a prayer for Travis&#8217;s mom last night she is always stretched in so many different directions and has faced so many issues I don&#8217;t know how she keeps going she just does and looking at her it keeps me going. Those women are the best.<br />
I have a goal and I don&#8217;t knwo how easy it is going to be but I would like to get Lucian around his family more often s that maybe one day he can stay with grandma and grandpa and I will feel comfortable and know that he is not going to cry the whole time. You would think like most kids he would just cry for a bit then settle down. Not our Lucian he stays mad til the full extent and then if he falls asleep crying he will wake up crying. Lucian also is very much a home body. Which there is nothing wrong with that we just couldn&#8217;t get him out like what we would have liked after he was born because of his issues. 8 months later aft6er the discharge from the hospital we were in and out either every week or every two weeks. I am hoping it will be a little different this time. One thing I am looking forward to this time is breastfeeding. I wanted to so bad and had my heart set on it and obviously couldn&#8217;t because Lucian couldn&#8217;t swallow. As hard and as depressed as I was at that point I still kept pumping to store it away for him so he could eventually have it. I did it for quite awhile but then things were happening at the hospital we were being transferred to Chicago and I would pump and pump and pump and just wouldn&#8217;t get anything. They even put me on a medicine to try and help me produce it worked for a tiny bit then we just decided to be done. So this time I am really looking forward to it. Only four more months to go wow time flies by.<br />
I again want to think everyone for all of there great support on here this blog is something that keeps me going as well. A way for me to express myself and my feelings.<br />
It looks as if it is going to be another rainy day today I sure hope not. I have to get off of here now someone named little man is yelling for me. I love his little voice. I am still working on hi9m saying mom mom or mama. Hasn&#8217;t got it yet but he will I know it. Bye for now and I hope you all have a great day. </p>
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		<title>Just an Update</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 04 Jul 2009 01:10:15 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[So since I don&#8217;t have Lexi and Jordan tonight I didn&#8217;t make dinner so I am going to have to go find something that sounds good to eat here soon. I fed Lucian and he has been in such a good mood this after noon. He loves his drums so much, it is just a [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>So since I don&#8217;t have Lexi and Jordan tonight I didn&#8217;t make dinner so I am going to have to go find something that sounds good to eat here soon. I fed<span id="more-69618"></span> Lucian and he has been in such a good mood this after noon. He loves his drums so much, it is just a little plastic drum that he bangs on but he takes that drum stick to anything he can. He is absolutely a riot. He is so amazing he does something new to amaze me everyday and it is always something different it makes me wonder what I miss when I am at work all the time. That is why I am working such much now hoping that I will be able to take a little bit more time off after we have the new baby.<br />
I have really felt pretty good lately other than being really tired. I will be glad after I go to my appointments on July 6th that I know everything is going the way it should. I feel like everything is going the way it should. I have had horrible cases of heart burn and it just right down sucks but I feel for my son. I know exactly how he feels. Only difference mine will be gone in four months and he will have his the rest of his life.<br />
It saddens me so much to know that he will have to deal with reflux and dilations and thyriod appointments and things the rest of his life. I am so blessed he is who he is an is a strong fighter. He has been a fighter since he was inside me and has never once stopped. He always keeps trying when he cant get something he starts crying and gets madder than a hornet. But eventually he will master it. He got two his knee&#8217;s and would have the hardest time but he finally mastered it. He has got so far I think he will be walking in a matter of just a month or so. He is all over and it is so great. He is into tasting everythign we eat so he always usually tries it once and if he likes it he will do it again but it has to be on his own time,. He never sticks things in his mouth and he tried a cheesie poof yesterday and I was so excited. He held it in his hand and brought it to his ,mouth and everything. At first he just puts his lips down on it when you lay it down and if he likes it then he will go from there. He actually tried to take a drink of koolaid out of my cup and he got some and he did it one more time then he was done but he has never let us bring a cup to his mouth he always shakes his head no. Little cutie pie. But I am going to go find something to eat. Just an update. </p>
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		<title>Frustration,Exhaustion,Moodiness, and Boobs</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 03 Jul 2009 22:02:21 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I am feeling more and more pregnant everyday. I go to my parental appointment on July 6th. I have heart burn all day long and it gets so much worse when I finally find a few hours to sleep. I am starting to notice things like just being so exhausted some days I wonder how [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I am feeling more and more pregnant everyday. I go to my parental appointment on July 6th. I have<span id="more-69616"></span> heart burn all day long and it gets so much worse when I finally find a few hours to sleep. I am starting to notice things like just being so exhausted some days I wonder how I am going to make it through the day like I should. Sometimes it just seems like my patience are running slim.   So tired some times I don&#8217;t care if I get the little things done which totally isn&#8217;t me. We had to give Lucian some medicine to make him go to the bath room because other wise he just wont go. We were giving him Juice in the past but it was taking away from all his calories he needed to get from his pediasure. So after two times of giving it to him and him still not going and me wondering how int he world all that is still inside his little tummy. After a bit of a blurry night, one that resembled the many blurry nights. I woke to  periodically smelling odors and  low and behold a shot of  butterscotch poo four feet up and out the back of his diaper — wait, have I mentioned yet that Lucian doesn&#8217;t cry? I&#8217;m serious. He doesn&#8217;t string together a chorus of wailing like many other babies his age that would have poo smeared up their backs. That was such a mess clothes, baby and all went to the bath tub. My insides as my stomach stretches feels like it is literally being tore apart.  My balance is starting to be all off and I ave noticed my moodiness is increased. I have leg cramps and alot of pressure in my lower area.My boobs are swollen and they hurt. My legs and ankles are swelling like balloons. I only have four more months to go though I better enjoy it while it lasts though. I will be back with the latest from my nest ultrasound news though!</p>
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		<title>7/3/09</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 03 Jul 2009 19:59:07 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[You know some people just have a way with words. I don&#8217;t think maybe they mean them as hurtful but you know when your doing all you can do and going full blast all the time what more can you do? I am exhausted. I am working more than full time. I hold down not [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>You know some people just have a way with words. I don&#8217;t think maybe they mean them as <span id="more-69614"></span>hurtful but you know when your doing all you can do and going full blast all the time what more can you do? I am exhausted. I am working more than full time. I hold down not on but two jobs 5 months pregnant I take care of my family. I some how  in between all the madness make time to schedule appointments and have home visits for lucian and doctors appointments for myself. Some times I feel like I am on a emotional roller coaster. I guess I am starting to look at it like no matter how many people you always try and please someone is not going to be happy with something weather it is something that has been said something someone did or hell just something someone is thinking in there head. I go on  very little sleep and it has started to become a routine.  You just get used to it. I have been drinking a little more coffee than what I would like sometimes about two 1/2 cups or so a day.Not everyday. And tomorrow is my last day for smoking cigarettes. I have just decided to quit cold turkey. So we will see how it goes Travis is also quitting with me so that will help. They are just what I rely on for stress relief. I am afraid I am going to become totally cranky. I don&#8217;t know time will tell. I have my sonogram this Monday and also have a doctors appointment we will find out the sex of the baby as well as its growth and just to make sure there are not any anomalies like esophageal atresia. I am so excited I have been counting the days down now since day 30! I just hope between everything it all works out. I hope everything works out I am to that point to were I cant handle any extra stress or I am going to have a nervous melt down. Not something I need. Sometimes I tell myself just  take a deep breath and breathe  everything will be ok. When I get over whelmed I try to just focus on one thing at a time some times easier said than done. Jordans birthday is coming up at the end of the month I have to pick him up a few more things. Speaking of Lexi and Jordan they have been gone since last Tuesday and I miss them so much thy wont be home until this Sunday. I cant wait to see them. Right now I am just trying to wham everything and making sure i write everything down so I can keep track of appointments and things like that because other wise I would be a total nut case. I feel like sometimes I am stretched in a  million different directions I think If things were easier right now and if I was not pregnant the job thin g wouldn&#8217;t be an issue I would have more energy and could deal better with being so exhausted all the time but at some points it just catches up to  me I just pray everyday that I do these things that my family at home is grateful for them and don&#8217;t take them for grand it. I always can count on having a head ache because I don&#8217;t get as much sleep as I need. One of these years when I can actually sleep a solid 9 hours in my bed with my Mr blanket I will not knwo what to do I will probably feel like I was just re born or something like a little kid with so much energy to burn. Lucian is doing great he actually was holding a cheesy puff last night and was licking on it it is the first step he will be eating in no time at all. He is so curios about everythign we eat I have no doubt it will be with in dew time his curiosity just came out of no where.But he has to do it on his own. We offer it and he moves his mouth to it. Step 1! Any how I am going to get off of here for now because I have alot of things I need to get done. i hope everyone has a Happy Fourth of July tomorrow. Unfortunately I will be at work all day but I do get paid time and a half for it so there is some plus I guess. Until nest time . </p>
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		<title>Have a Great Thursday.</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 02 Jul 2009 13:58:30 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[So I started my second job yesterday and I am exhausted. I have so many things to fit in my schedule it is tough but it should all work out. This is the only few days I am working days at my new job then I will be working nights from here on out there [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>So I started my second job yesterday and I am exhausted. I have so many things to fit in my schedule it is tough but it should all work out. This is the<span id="more-69612"></span> only few days I am working days at my new job then I will be working nights from here on out there and days at caseys. I think it seems tough right now because they are just opening and there is alot of cleaning and alot to learn once we get going it will be a piece of cake. Please pray for our grandma today she is having her hydrocephalus. Lexi and Jordan went camping and will not be back until this Sunday. Lucian is doing great he is such a riot. And all the time his new favorite thing to say is EEEatt! All drug out it is so adorable. But I so pose I had better go for now. I will be back with updates as soon as I can. Hopefully tonight so I can fill everyone in on my new job and whatever else that has been going on today. And in the last week as well. Have a great Thursday!</p>
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		<title>New Things Going on Around Here….</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 28 Jun 2009 13:55:48 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[So whats going on in my world huh? Well I start my second job this Wednesday and I am so excited about it. I dono why because I am just going to be more tired than I am now but I am doing it because we need the money and that is it plus it [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>So whats going on in my world huh? Well I start my <span id="more-69610"></span>second job this Wednesday and I am so excited about it. I dono why because I am just going to be more tired than I am now but I am doing it because we need the money and that is it plus it is three minutes literally up the road and and they pay more than I started out at at caseys. I am still staying at caseys to. I am going to tell them I can only work days from like 4am til 2pm and then I have to be off by 2pm so that I can be at my other job at 5 and work until 10pm. I am just flipping out with Jordans birthday in July and then lexi&#8217;s and Travis&#8217;s and then November we have the new baby and then we have lucian&#8217;s birthday and Christmas. So I want to make sure we can put some money away. I am not used tot he other check so we should be able to put most of it away and we are both stopping smoking cigarettes on July 4th so that should save us a ton of cash. I figured out if I work the 4am to 2 shift and only get a couple of hours of sleep as long as I get a small nap in between I am ok an good to go. I should be able to rest for a couple of hours in between. The kids will be back in school here soon which will make things easier as well. But for now I will just hang tight. Well I guess I should go for now I have some things to do before I have to leave for work and I will be back soon to update. Lots of prayers for good health strength and energy for me please. </p>
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		<title>Lucian 18 Months Old</title>
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		<pubDate>Sun, 28 Jun 2009 00:56:23 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<title>Jacksons Manager had to Tell the Kids</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 27 Jun 2009 14:05:24 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kayla</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Michael Jackson may have led a very private life. But for those who were close to him, he was anything but guarded.
One of those people who got to know the King of Pop over the years was Frank Dileo, Michael’s longtime manager and a member of Jackson’s inner circle, who was at the hospital when [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Michael Jackson may have led a very private life. But for those who were close to him, he was anything but guarded.<span id="more-69604"></span></p>
<p>One of those people who got to know the King of Pop over the years was Frank Dileo, Michael’s longtime manager and a member of Jackson’s inner circle, who was at the hospital when the singer died on Thursday, along with family, friends and Jackson’s children.</p>
<p>“His three children were there. They were in a separate room while the doctors worked on Michael,” Dileo told the “Today” show’s Meredith Vieira on Friday. “I’m very sad for his children, his mother, his father, his brothers and sisters. It was a very rough day yesterday for everybody.”</p>
<p>In fact, it was Dileo who had to tell Jackson’s three children — Prince Michael Jackson, 12; Paris Michael Katherine Jackson, 11; and Prince Michael Jackson II, 7 – that their father had died after doctors worked for over an hour to resuscitate the star.</p>
<p>“We had to tell the children. I didn’t go in alone. I went in with a doctor and a social worker. The nanny was in there and Dr. Murray – Michael’s personal physician. It was, as you would think,” a visibly emotional Dileo continued. “I can’t even begin to tell you the emotion that flowed out of those children.”</p>
<p>As someone very close to Jackson over the years, Dileo got to see a side of the pop star that few others did – as a father.</p>
<p>“Michael was a very dedicated parent, a single parent, who took that responsibility very seriously. His whole life surrounded around those children and they around him,” Dileo added.</p>
<p>So where are the children now following their father’s death?</p>
<p>“They are with their grandmother. They are with Mrs. Jackson,” Dileo said, referring to Michael’s mother, Katherine. “Right now, I would think that’s where they would stay.”</p>
<p>And while custody of the children has yet to be determined, Dileo said he also must focus on Jackson’s financial matters, which was something that the pop star worried about for his kids.</p>
<p>“There’s so much speculation as to a will – there is a will. A team of lawyers are gathering today and we’ll sort through all the stuff for the children,” Dileo explained. “[Michael] talked about making sure that his finances were taken care of – to clean up this mess so his children would be protected, so that’s what I’m going to do… That’s what was important to Michael.”</p>
<p>And while Jackson’s death at the age of 50 on Thursday came as a shock to fans worldwide, it was equally surprising to those who were closest to the King of Pop.</p>
<p>In fact, Dileo said Jackson had been in good spirits in the days leading up to his death.</p>
<p>“I was with Michael everyday going to rehearsals – Wednesday and Thursday he was the happiest,” the manager recalled. “On Wednesday, he put his arm around me at the end [of the day] and he said, ‘Frank, I’ve never been happier. We’re going to make this work… It’s our time again Frank. We’re going to do this!’”</p>
<p>Besides being happy, Dileo also said Jackson seemed to be in top physical shape.</p>
<p>“He seemed in great health. He was working out everyday,” he added. </p>
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		<title>I got the Angel of Divine Balance Card</title>
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Do you feel that your life is harmonious and in balance or does it feel chaotic and out of control? This Angel has come to assist you in bringing Divine Balance into your life!
Often times we forget the importance of balance in our lives. What Divine Balance really means is that everything do, everything [...]]]></description>
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<p>Do you feel that your life is harmonious and in balance or does it feel chaotic and out of control? This Angel has come to assist you in bringing Divine Balance into your life!</p>
<p>Often times we forget the importance of balance in our lives. What Divine Balance really means is that everything do, everything we own and everything we seek to bring into our lives is in balance with who we truly are at a Soul level. It means that<span id="more-69601"></span> <img src="http://www.kaylapearson.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/06/angel_divine_balance-150x300.jpg" alt="angel_divine_balance" title="angel_divine_balance" width="150" height="300" class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-69602" />what we put our energy towards are only those things that are truly going to compliment our lives and fit best with our Highest Goals and Dreams.  Each day we are bombarded with what others think we should want, be, do and have.  And while some of those things may truly fit who we are as individuals, there are many other things that will simply upset the balance of our lives because they do not accurately reflect back into the world and The Universe who we truly are.  Instead of bringing us Joy, Peace and Contentment, they only serve to disrupt our energy fields and present a false front. We are in a very real sense, telling others and the Universe that we are “this” by what we own and what sorts of energies we allow into our lives. This in turn attracts ever more of what we are saying is the truth of us. For The Universe will always respond to the vibration that we are putting forth and this vibration stems from all that we think, feel and surround ourselves with. This Angel is telling you now to examine carefully all the areas of your life and to ask yourself, “does this truly reflect who I am? Is it bringing me a feeling of Peace and Balance in to my life or is it making me feel chaotic, frenzied and out of balance?” </p>
<p>This Angel serves to remind us that the menu of Life is hugely Abundant! We can select from this menu anything that we desire and yet we are also cautioned to choose wisely and well. This takes time, it takes time for us to simply sit with ourselves and ask “what is the truth of me? What is it I wish to reflect back to The Universe that it may increase in perfect ways for me?” Yet also “What do I have in Abundance in my life that is not the truth of me?”  It may be that you have an abundance of clutter in your home and if so, this Angel is saying to you that now is the time to let it go. For clutter on the outside of you reflects the clutter within and makes it much harder for The Universe to bring you what you want. For how can you have more if the space around you is already filled to the brim! Truly what you have is Abundance and yet it is not the sort of Abundance you really want. You may find that you know an Abundance of people and yet they are not the sorts of folks that help you to feel good about yourself or the world around you. Again, this Angel is saying to you that you have Abundance, but it is not the Abundance you are wanting.  It is okay to move on, to release all those who are not for your Higher Good and Bless them as they go. For this too allows them to now seek their own Higher Good  and isn’t this what we all really want for one another?</p>
<p>You may have an Abundance of activities that you perform each day or week and yet many of these activities are not joyful for you. You may instead feel terribly overwhelmed and find it hard to complete projects or allow yourself some time and much needed space for yourself as you are rushing about all the time. This Angel says to you “STOP!!!”  Slow down, take a deep breath and then ask yourself why you insist on doing this to yourself. Is this what you really want more of? Or would you rather feel that your days are filled with Divine Balance as you easily and Joyfully flow from one activity to the next. You do have a choice though both I and this Angel understand that it isn’t always easy to say no and mean it, to say I just cannot do this anymore and stick to it. Baby steps, Dear one, always start with something small that you can easily let go of. Then you can move up to something slightly bigger. Over time you will find that your days are much less harried and there is a greater sense of both Balance and peace in your life. This will be reflected in everything that you do, no matter how mundane it may appear to be. Your every action will serve to attract more Light, Divine Balance, Peace and Joy into the world, all things that are certainly worth attracting more of! And if there are others who feel angry or upset that you are no longer at their beck and call, well, that is okay too. Simply ask this Angel to help these folks if they are open to it for they too are likely reacting to their own Inner sense of feeling out of balance in some way. Remember, the only person that you can ever make truly happy is you! And when you are feeling happy, your happiness will spread to attract an ever increasing Abundance of Happiness to others as well!</p>
<p>This Angel has also come to you to remind you that being in Divine Balance means that we also take the time to do things to the best of our ability. We may not always know the “perfect” or “right” way to do something, but The Universe does know and when we feel in balance, we are open to Divine Inspiration and Wisdom. We can better allow The Universe to flow its most Loving and Highest energies through us so that everything we are doing comes together beautifully. Our Intuition becomes stronger and we are far better able to heed and follow it. We just seem to know what to do, when to do it and how to do it in ways that are perfect for us. And other people respond to what we are doing in more open and accepting ways too for they also feel the Divine Flow that is moving through you in that moment. This Uplifts and Inspires others too, and again, isn’t this what we truly want? So take the time to do things to the best of your ability, always and in all ways. You will soon find that instead of taking time out of your day, it will actually increase the available amount of time you have for you will not find yourself having to go back and re-do something again and again. When we are in Divine Balance, we are also in the Higher Flow where there is no time and space. Everything simply comes together in ways that are best for us and others!</p>
<p>This Angel has also come to you today to ask you why you are doing so many things that are keeping you from feeling Divine Balance in your own life. She knows the answers, but are you consciously aware of them? This is most important for until you understand why you are doing things that are not healthy and right for you, then you will tend to continue doing them, no matter how much you say you wish to let them go. It may be that you feel fear that if you do not do certain things that you will not be able to provide for yourself and your family. If this is so, then ask this Angel to help show you a better way and to help you release the fears. It may be that you feel you are not deserving of anything better so here again, you can ask this Angel to help you heal this.  There may be any number of reasons why someone does what they do, and yet when these reasons are held up to The Light of Divine Love, you will also find that they begin to dissolve for they cannot remain in the face of Divine Truth and Love. What you are really doing is lifting your own Consciousness into a much Higher Vibration where all is forever in perfect Divine Harmony and Balance.</p>
<p>When working with this Angel, be prepared to take some time to sit quietly and simply think about all the things you do each day. What activities bring you the most Joy? What activities make you feel rushed, irritated or overwhelmed? Now ask this Angel what you need to do to release those things that are keeping you from feeling in Divine Balance. Write the suggestions down in a journal or notebook and make a commitment to yourself that you are going to begin releasing these things now. Remember though, this Angel can only help you if you are truly willing to let these things go! It may also be that there are others in your life for which these activities would be an absolute Joy so why not ask them if they would be willing to take those on. They may be doing things that are not so joyful for them that would be very joyful for you, so both of you can strike a better Balance in your lives, a true win-win! There always Higher Solutions and Higher Ways to do absolutely everything and we seek those things, then everything in our lives begins to come together.</p>
<p>It is also helpful when working with this Angel to examine each and every item that you own. Many of us own things than we realize, with cupboard drawers and closets crammed full! Owning things that we rarely use if ever, or that we don’t even like, does create tremendous stress in our lives because we still have to care for and maintain all of these things. It can be a financial burden as well, as the more we have, the bigger the space we need to store it all! Yet when we decide to begin releasing the things that we don’t love and appreciate, never use or that remind us of bad times then we are freed from the chains that have been holding us back. For these things can actually act as anchors to hold energies in place that we do not want. So let them go! As you do, you shall find that your life comes into Divine Balance all on its own. It really can be this simple! Then to stop yourself from creating more clutter, every time you feel tempted to buy something new, stop and ask this Angel if it is truly something that will bring you Joy or if it will plant the seeds for Imbalance again. If it is something that will truly bring you pleasure over the long term you will know it, there shall be no question in your heart and Soul!</p>
<p>What to watch for with this Angel:</p>
<p>Many times people feel the need to withdraw from the world for a time because they sense deep within themselves that their lives have become terribly unbalanced and yet they don’t know what to do to correct the matter. This is a sign from this Angel that they truly do need to stop, turn within and ask for Guidance as to what to do next. It is important to honour the need to withdraw from time to time because this is the first step in achieving Divine Balance. We withdraw from outside influences and stimulants that are pushing us to go faster and faster, do more and more. This is what causes us to feel out of balance to begin with and more of the same will not help! If we try to carry on, the Wiser part of ourselves may even create an illness or injury that forces us to slow down for a time. This is not a negative thing but may in fact be keeping us from experiencing something much worse! So allow yourself to step back from your life. It may only be for a few days yet, even if a longer time is need that is okay too. Once you have brought your life back into Divine Balance, then you shall more than make up for “lost time”!</p>
<p>You may find that people or things suddenly seem to be drifting out of your life. The cat knocks a vase you secretly hated off the table or someone that drained you of time and energy no longer comes round or phones. Instead of feeling sad, you feel great relief! It is as though a burden has been lifted from your shoulders and suddenly you realize that there are many other things in your life that you wouldn’t mind releasing either. Wonderful! This is exactly what you need to recognize and act on right now. You can speed this process up by asking this Angel to lovingly and gently clear anything else from your life that is no longer working for you. Don’t be afraid to do this for she really does have your Highest Good at heart! She also knows that you will soon experience the Greater Manifestation of that which you do want which will more than “make up” for what has been released.</p>
<p>You may find that you are attracted to new things and new people that can help you discover ways of re-creating your life that is slower and simpler, yet infinitely more satisfying and abundant at the same time. Things that once seemed so important to you just don’t matter anymore. You lose interest in what others think you should be, do or own and instead are more focused on what it is truly important to you. This is what Divine Balance really means, the entire of your life is centered round that which uplifts you and feeds your Soul. Life really doesn’t get any better than this!</p>
<p>Other ways to work with this Angel:</p>
<p>Simply ask this Angel where greater Balance is needed in your life right now. It may be something minor that you need to change and yet by being willing to make a minor change now, it can prevent you from needing to make much larger and more challenging changes in the future.</p>
<p>Often people already know what they need to change to bring a greater sense of Divine Balance into their lives and yet they may hesitate, not sure if the changes will truly bring them what they want.  Its okay to ask this Angel to give you signs of how much better your life will be once you move through the process.  You will soon find yourself showered with numerous signs of just how wonderful your life can be!</p>
<p>If you are holding onto things due to fear, this Angel can also help you to face and move through the fear so you can begin the process of letting go. All Angels understand that we have fears, it is part of being Human. Yet this Angel is also here to say to you “If only you knew how much you are Loved, you would never feel fear again!”  repeat these words to yourself over and over, you shall soon find that Divine Balance and Divine Love do indeed fill your life and uplift you ever Higher into the Light of the Divine!</p>
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