Kevin and Gillian

not looking forward to tackling this list...

2012-01-27T14:47:00.000-08:00

this is what is on my cleaning list this weekend:

Things to get done

Clean Bathroom

· Toilet

· Sink

· Floor

· Baseboards

· Shower

Clean Kitchen

· Dishes

· Stove

· Sweep floor

· Mop floor

· Clean off table and counters

Vacuum apartment

Clean bedroom

· Make bed

· Hang up clothes

· Throw away trash

· Dust

· Clean off end tables and dresser

· Organize shoes and drawers

Laundry

· Towels

· Whites

· Darks

Baby Room

· Get rid of table

· Sell blue bike

· Hang kevins bike somewhere

· Sell one snowboard

I have alot to do. if you need me, you can find me on my hands and knees scrubbing some baseboards or something....

giveaway time

2012-01-27T13:02:00.000-08:00

I am giving away one of my favorite hair products right now on my beauty blog. it's called Dust It made by Osis. It's amazing... entering is easy and you should all go enter. :)

http://gillianathavensalon.blogspot.com/2012/01/i-think-its-time-for-giveaway-free.html

what I would give for a new wardrobe!

2012-01-23T15:21:00.000-08:00

I have decided that after the baby comes (in 47 days!) that I want a whole new wardrobe. Haha. That means though that I have to loose all the baby weight and tone up too. My goal is to get into really good shape after, and I know that it's not easy for everyone to loose all the baby fat soon after.

I will be trying my hardest so that by summer time I can be wearing super cute clothes that fit me right! Then I can just wear a t-shirt without feeling like a muffin top is hanging out of my pants. Hahahaha.

These are my dream outfits right now, all found via pintrest. I just want to dress nicer and have some sort of style. It's weird, but when I wear an outfit I like I always feel more confident and prettier. Are you like that too?

And this dress... oh how I LOVE it! But, it looks like it would be a little short on me. Might not work.. But nevertheless I love it.

A few more months till I am out of maternity clothes and into something a little more flattering.. :)

whats your grocery budget?

2012-01-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

So Kevin and I have had this debate on how much we should spend on groceries every month. I always do the shopping because clearly he has no spare time! I try to make meal plans and then go buy the things for those meals, but then we never have anything to snack on and being pregnant has made cooking a DREADFUL chore for me. (Because of smells and no energy).

When you don't cook a lot, you spend more on groceries because you are buying quick and easy things. That being said though, I almost NEVER spend more than $100.00 on groceries every 3 1/2 to 4 weeks. I think that's pretty good. We do go to the store here and there to get milk and eggs and cheese and bread in between because those are things we run out of like crazy. Also, every few months, we spend about $100 at Sams club getting cereal, crackers, frozen chicken, you know- the bulk essentials. But that is only every couple of months and we try to keep it between 50-75$ although sometimes we do buy more depending on what looks good when we are there :)

Before you go all coupon crazy on me- I have tried it. It's not for me. It takes too much time out of my day, way too much time at the store, and usually only buys junk food. It's good for stuff like cleaning supplies or soap or toothbrushes, but honestly, sometimes time is worth more than money to me in that situation. So before you try to convert me to coupons and telling me how great it is and how much you save- in the nicest way possible, I kinda don't want to hear about it. Haha. I watch extreme couponing and although its a great method for some familes, it's not for us. But I am glad there are people out there doing it I guess. :)

So what I am asking is- what do you spend on average on groceries monthly? Do you think I spend too much, too little, average? Kevin always thinks $100 is a lot but I always try to buy the off brand to save money and look for sales and I am usually pretty good at getting our food to last for the month.

That being said, I went grocery shopping tonight, which is why all this is being brought up. I spent over an hour in the store comparing prices and trying to carefully plan some meals as well as get a few things I can snack on since I have to eat every two hours. I spent $120 on our groceries at Maceys. (my favorite place to shop... I refuse to shop at fresh market. I have been followed by way too many creepers and had to return bad food and HATE their service.. so maceys or walmart it is). I can't remember the last time I spent more than $100 in a grocery trip! AH! It kinda gave me anxiety. However, I did buy a lot of things we normally dont buy every time, like spinich (and other things for green smoothies I am going to try) and lots of meat- (two pot roasts, hamburger, and pork chops) The doctor has put me on a low sugar diet so that I dont get diabetes even though I passed my tests so I have been instructed to eat lots more wheat and meat and protein..

So, what do you think. Do I spend too much? Are you in the same boat? Do you spend the same amount?

After grocery shopping, I love organizing my cupboards and fridge to make it look nice. And I LOVE having full cupboards! I took some pictures to show you the types of things we eat. (keep in mind I am super SUPER picky but trying to be better. Dont judge. haha)

Shelf #1. I like my wheat bread. Kevin likes white. We keep the white in the fridge, and mine out because I don't like cold bread. We always have some sort of suckers because they have helped me out when I get nauseated. We always have crackers, and granola bars as well.

Shelf #2. We ALWAYS have refried beans, olives, and pinto beans. I like to make chili or tacos or burritos (I love mexican food) so we always have that. I try to always have a few things of pasta, one white and a few red. We always have Peanut Butter (hidden behind something there) and honey. This time I got some croutons and Ritz crackers and cashews so I can snack on those. I love croutons in my salads. We also like tomato soup and grilled cheese, so we try to always have some soup on hand incase we feel lazy and dont want to cook.

Shelf #3. This is our pasta noodles shelf. We usually have lots of pasta because its fast and easy.

Shelf#4- baking shelf. We love our pancakes.. and I ALWAYS have frosting or cake on hand incase I have to take something to a last minute dinner we are invited to or something.

Our bottom shelf has the press and seal and ziplock and cups, as well as sugar and rice. We keep potatoes in another shelf across the kitchen, but we ALWAYS have potatoes on hand.

Here is my organized pantry!

K our fridge is not very organized right now. I dont like touching raw meat, so I always leave them in the bag for Kevin to put away and separate into smaller bags because it makes me gag. Right now our fridge has banana nut muffins from sams, eggs, yogurt, milk, smart water (my favorite), homemade syrup (Kevin makes it from scratch and puts it in our old syrup container), we always have two gallons of milk, the white bread, usually one in fridge and one in freezer, we have turkey, cheese, tortillas, sour cream, jam... right now the veggies we have are carrots, lettuce, celery, spinach, potatoes.. the fruit we have is bananas, clementines, and strawberries. We never buy orange juice but the doc told me it helps digest iron supplements well so we bought some. And yes, we love eggs. We eat them alot- especially me.

We do not live without our franks hot sauce, and I love my mustard! So, that's our food in a nut shell, what you will usually see.

this week, I plan on making a roast and potatoes, taco soup (which I made tonight and froze some), pork chops, chicken pillows, having a salad bar, and hot dogs (yummy on our george foreman grill) Tonight for dinner while the soup was cooking, I made myself a salad with romane lettuce, celery, cheese, and carrots. I put a lowfat ranch with it- and it was super good.

Here is the taco soup I froze

and the soup in the fridge. My crockpot makes alot!

So, now that you know the inside and out of what we eat... I know, not the healthiest.. but I am trying. I have always had problems with textures and I have been made fun of my WHOLE life by everyone about my picky problem.

Anyway, let me know what you typically spend on groceries. I am just curious. Obviously it's different for people who have kids, so those of you that have kids try to think back to when you didn't have kids and what you spent.

Hope you enjoyed my rant about food. hahaha.

a lil update at 31.5 weeks prego

2012-01-11T21:55:00.000-08:00

*I posted this on the baby blog, but I thought I would post it here too.*

Before I get into the post, I have to put this picture of my sweet neice Laila that passed away in July. I was looking at pictures on my computer today and found this picture of her. She is just the most beautiful baby in the world! I love her cute little smile. People tell me that she looks like me a little- but that is funny to me. I don't think she does. But I guess because my sister and I look alike I can see where people get that thought? Just had to share- we took these the month before she passed away. A memory I will never forget! I often think about her and remember how big she smiled! She also snuggled me the night we took these pictures alot. She was supposed to go to sleep, but she wasn't sleeping when I put her down, she would fuss. So, I just held her and she would fall asleep in my arms. I remember feeling so lucky I got to babysit her while my sister and her hubby went out to dinner- (they were visiting Utah from CO where they live.) What a fun memory for me to have of her. Miss you Laila faith!

Anyway, Kevin and I have some friends Jon and Kenna, who got this crib from our other friends Landon and Michelle's aunt. They decided to give it to us for xmas, and came and set it up for us even! I love it! It's in perfect condition and they even gave us the mattress too. I will be forever grateful to them for helping us out. Thank you SO much Jon, Kenna, Landon, Michelle, and Landon's aunt who it came from.

I bought this fabric so I can make the baby a blanket. I figure she has to have a blanket made by her mommy! I love this fabric. I got it at Hobby Lobby.

I also bought a bundle of flannel fat quarters to make some baby bibs/burp cloths with.

Here is a picture of my bump today. I have to vent about my bump for a second.

First off, I showed a bump pretty early. The doc said part of it was because of the way I was carrying her and because of how she was laying. She was breech till like 28 weeks. But, I have only gained 15 pounds now- which the doctor said was really good. I have about 8 weeks left, so if I continue to gain a pound a week which is recommended, I will come out at gaining about 22 or 23 pounds. (Which is great! Some people gain between 30-50 pounds and even more sometimes. Everyone is different though.) When I went in last week to my appointment, I had only gained ONE pound. It had been 3 1/2 weeks since my last appointment and the gap between it included Christmas, AND New Years.

So go me for not putting on a ton of weight over that time! I have been really proud of my weight gain because I lost 14 pounds before I got prego only to find out it was all going to be back soon! Haha. But, its all for a good cause. Also, I can still fit in ALL of my regular jeans. I just have to wear them a tiny bit lower, but they all still fit and don't feel tight on my legs or bum. I don't feel like I have gained the weight anywhere else besides right in my belly.

So, when people say "WOW! When are you due?!" or "You REALLY popped!" or "You are huge!" or 'Wait, how far along are you again? Aren't you due like any day? You look like it!" I kinda get mad because although I think and feel that way, I still for the most part feel great about the way I look and actually enjoy having a bump. When people say things like that, it kind makes me second guess it and think.. "oh man, I need to stop eating as much... or I am so fat... or why didn't she show till the end? or How come I am so big compared to others?" But then I have to remember... Everyone carries their babies different, and every baby weighs different, and everyone's bodies are different. It's just kind of funny to me how much women complain about the fact that people say things like above statements such as "you really popped" to them when they are pregnant but when they aren't pregnant they think it's ok to repeat it to others who are.. does that make sense? I just have to laugh it off and just remember how much I hated/hate when people say things like that to me while pregnant so that I don't say things like that to other pregnant woman. We all know how hormonal we are... :) There are the nice people though that tell me I don't look pregnant from the back, or that I have cute maternity clothes, or that my bump is cute, and those people really make my day. hahaha. Even if they aren't telling me the truth, it helps me feel good about myself which is important to me.

So, venting over, here is my 'bump' today, 31.5 weeks along, and loving my bump. Yep. I love having a bump. I love the fact that you can tell I am pregnant and I don't just have a flabby belly. Although I hate the fact that I have thrown up the entire pregnancy, had major constipation, had such low iron that I almost passed out in walmart the other day, have a jammed pelvis in my back since it rotated too much to make room for the baby, that I can't sleep or sit on the floor, that I have to pee non-stop, I still love being pregnant. I love the fact that I am going to be a MOMMY! I love that I already love this baby more than my own life. I love that when I sing she kicks. I love the brown line I have down the middle of my tummy. I love the fact that I can feel my baby's bum above my belly button pushing against my skin till I bump it out of the way. I love the kicks I feel. I love that I can see her move when I watch my belly. I have loved watching my belly grow from week to week. I love that I only have 2 months left. I love that I have been lucky enough not to get swollen feel yet. I love that my blood pressure has been AMAZING through out this whole pregnancy. I love that the heart beat is nice and strong. I love seeing my baby on the ultrasounds. I love that I passed my glucose test. I LOVE my baby.

last, but not least, I ordered my baby bedding. I just couldn't find any bedding that was red and turquoise that was not expensive... and I just couldn't get around to making it myself. I wasn't going to go with pink, but I fell in love with this bedding.

It should be here tomorrow! Can't wait to wash it and then put it on her crib! Also, the two owl paintings my sister Adrianne said she would paint. She is a very talented artist and I can't wait to see what she comes up with. Thanks again Adrianne for doing that!!

Well, that's all of an update I have for you. Getting super excited- really.. it puts a smile on my face to think of how close I am to becoming a mother and holding this sweet baby girl in my arms.

love is in the air

2012-01-11T12:16:00.000-08:00

I love decorating for Valentines Day! I used to hate Valentines Day until I got married and had someone to love haha. Actually, thats not true.. because my mom used to ALWAYS make us homemade valentines/candy posters on Valentines and I loved that! So maybe I did like Valentines always... ?

Anyway, I decorated our apartment a little over a week ago because there is only a month left till that day comes and I love my Vday decor so I wanted it out as long as possible! haha. I saw this cute vday felt garland on pintrest, so I decided to make it! It was super easy to make, but I realized after I strung everything through that my hearts were hanging upside down, all because I strung them closer to the bottom of the heart, making the top part heavier and so the top hangs down. Make sense? So I need to re-string it the opposite way so they are upright.

Here is our front table, which I want to paint dark brown someday.. I made the xo blocks last year along with the one underneath the xo. We got the willow tree figure from Sean and Wendy for xmas, thank you!! I love it. The frame is from Kilee and Liza, Love that too!

After I took this picture I realized the x is upside down.. haha

I made the love frame two years ago I think at a craft night. The wreath, Kevin helped me make. No joke, he rolled the flowers! I love it

I made these love blocks last year with my sister in law Jen at her house. The lantern I got at Christmas time from Kevs christmas party. I won it.

I made this xoxo frame/decoration last year. The flowers I have had since we got married, they normally go in our shadow box.

A glance at all the pink and loveliness!

I bought this two years ago at Roberts half off. Love when you can use coupons. Too bad they closed all Roberts!

I have been looking up cute and unique valentines on pintrest and have found lots of cute ideas! Here are a few of my favorites:

I am excited to make some of these and celebrate valentines this year! Kevin has to work on Vday this year, but maybe we can have our date the weekend before. :)

What are you doing for Valentines Day, and do you have any traditions?

*linking up to somedaycrafts!*

Year 2011 in review super long post

2012-01-04T21:35:00.000-08:00

It's that time of year again... to reflect upon our last year's amazing adventures and some hardships.

I got my first (and hopefully LAST) titanium root and fake tooth, along with a very painful surgery..

We went to a snowboard movie premier in SLC- I loved it!!! Such a fun date night.

Kev and I celebrated Valentines Day together with homemade pizza and sparkling cider.. along with having a fun vday party at my parents house.

Kevin and I went to our first 'mormon' cocktail party. It was at Jarons apartment and super fun! We dressed up super nice. That night, Kev and I then pulled our mattress in the front room and slept out there and watched movies. we like to pretend we are kids sometimes... all nighter movie parties!

I chopped my hair... and totally regretted it.. http://kevinandgillian.blogspot.com/2011/03/i-know-you-told-me-not-to-but-i-did.html

We planted some flowers in our front 'yard'- that died soon after because it snowed after I planted them and the storm ruined them.

We got a brand new laptop, thank goodness!

I started playing the guitar- which I havent played since I got pregnant haha...

I was a hostess for Miss Salem, and got SO lucky to be assigned to Rachel. I have known her for years- she danced at lifehouse too! She is not only amazingly talented, but she is smart and spiritual and so sweet. I loved being her hostess. AND- she WON!

I also sang the national anthem with Mady Mitchell at the pageant.

I went to New Jersey to visit my sister Chelsey and her family. I also watched her kids for 2 days while she went to a business conference with her hubby. It was such a fun 10 days!! She took me to New York City- I had never been before! I rode in a train AND a taxi for the first time! So exciting.

She also took me to the beach- Ocean City. Its so pretty there! The pier is called "Gillian's Pier"

I had a great time, but next time I will take Kevin because it was hard to be away from him for that long!

I got to cut the cord of my new nephew Sam- and the birth was so cool. Thanks for letting me be there Amy!

My niece had her very first dance recital to which she was adorable in

Kevin started his new job at USSynthetic- which he loves and we are SO grateful for!!!!

Our friends Jon and Kenna got married, and our niece Kara got married too in June. Both weddings were so fun for us to go to.

My students had their end year Musical Theater recital. I decided not to go back to teach this year because of being pregnant, but I sure do miss my students and teaching.

I finally looked at myself in the mirror and decided I was not happy with the way I looked. I got a gym pass and lost 14 pounds and worked REALLY hard all of May and June. I stopped working out in July because suddenly I was really sick and throwing up... could that be because I was prego?!

10 week ultrasound

my bump at like 16 weeks I think? I cant remember

Yep! We found out we were prego on July 7th. I was 5 weeks along. I was miserably sick... and have continued to be so throughout most of this pregnancy although I don't really throw up much anymore. But, I couldn't be more grateful to be having a baby. I never thought it would be possible with all my health issues, but it worked out and I feel SO grateful, and can't wait for this baby to get here.

We celebrated our 2 year anniversary! Sadly, no pictures from that day.. we were driving home from CO.

My sweet niece Laila passed away July 24th.. not a happy day.

We had a Mohlman family reunion in August, up at a cabin in Heber. We all made tie dye shirts and had a good time

Kevin turned 25! I took him to the demolition derby- it was so fun, we had front row!

I also arranged a lunch with our friends and had his sister make a cool birthday cake for him.

we went out for breakfast at midnight with Kev's buddies. Yes, I was the only girl haha. But we had so much fun!

Ammon turned 16! holy crap! When did my little brother have to get so big?!

I was in charge of our Salon boutique (which I forgot to mention, I moved to a new salon this year- Haven Salon) this is my table of goodies I sold, which I sold hardly anything at..

Kev and I went to the copper mine with Jon and Kenna, and had a BLAST! Fun date with them

My family had a halloween party at which they had a donut eating contest on strings! So fun. Kevin dressed up as a gangster, and I was a nurse.

I started selling Mary Kay! Yay me! I love it so much

We carved pumpkins with Jon and Kenna, which is now a tradition we have done with them for 3 years! Hope to continue it till we get old or move away from eachother.

My sister Chelsey held a huge thanksgiving feast at her house this year since my mom got a knee replacement. (poor mom.)

The decor was cute, and food was great!!! We even had a rootbeer tasting party later because her hubby is obsessed with rootbeer

We celebrated our 3rd Christmas together as a married couple. So crazy! It was full of good food, friends, working lots, financial stress, but most of all, spiritual amazingness and the love for our Savior.

We had a great year- although very challenging. I don't want to dwell on the hard stuff but we all had hard times this past year, I am sure of it. All I know is it can only make us stronger! I hope 2012 is a great year... I am sure it will be. Kevin goes back to school after having a 3 week break on Monday. He isn't too excited, but after this year, he will only have a half a year left! The baby comes this year, hopefully I can earn a car through Mary Kay this year, and hopefully we will move into a place with a little more storage and a dishwasher.... haha.

Happy New Year!

gettin my hair did

2012-01-04T18:24:00.000-08:00

I love getting my hair done. I always feel so much better about myself when I get a fresh trim and new color. I haven't colored my hair since July because I have just been so sick and getting your hair done from other hair stylists that you work with is hard because all our schedules conflict except for late at night! I had decided I was going to grow it out and let it be natural, but I just got to the point this week where I felt ugly every day. I would wash my hair and just feel BLAH... and boring... and ordinary... and was missing my spunky blonde hair. So, I called Ally up (a.k.a. bff and best hair stylist) and asked her to do it this week. She said she could do it Wednesday (today) so I was dang excited! We only did blonde highlights and then she trimmed my hair the slightest bit. I am still trying to grow it.... dang slow growing hair.

I didn't take a picture before, but my hair was looking pretty brown. Here is a picture of the after- sorry I don't have makeup on except for a little bit of mascara. my face needed a break today! I LOVE it! Thanks Ally!!!!

Here is a sorta comparison. Before my hair was gettin pretty dark.... and drab. hated it. But now, beautiful blonde!

Thanks again Ally, you are a life saver.

2011 Christmas Post

2012-01-02T10:39:00.000-08:00

This year Christmas was fab. We had a really good time- packed with good food and lots of family! I didn't take a lot of great pictures to document our xmas because Kevin hates pictures. Haha. So, here are a few.

On Friday Dec. 23, we had the Clark family Christmas party up at my sister Chelsey's house. We had appetizers (SO many yummy things to eat) and played games, and did a program and a white elephant exchange. Here is a picture of Ammon and I before the festivities began.

Here is the game we played. We had to split up in groups, and rolled the dice. If you rolled doubles, you put on snow gloves and tried to open the present with your gloves on. You could only try until the next person rolled doubles. The presents were wrapped a million times haha!

Then each family participated in our family program. My brother Jess and his wife Jen and girls sang a song they wrote about their little boy Austin. Here are the words: On the 12th Day of Christmas, Monster Austin gave to us:

12 poopy diapers
11 smashed candy canes
10 broken branches
9 knocked down garbage cans
8 unwrapped presents
7 spilled hot cocoas
6 pulled down stockings
5 broken ornaments
4 unplugged lights
3 tipped stools
2 exhausted parents
and a lump of coal under the tree

Mike and Adrianne shared a cute story and had us all write things of service we had seen that christmas season and pin them on the tree.

Abby (8) played the piano while Sarah (10) sang along. Those little girls are growing up so fast, they are so cute- I love my nieces!

For the white elephant gift, my mom got the best present hahah!! My sister in law jen made slippers out of maxi pads. AWESOME! hahahahaha my dad just about had a fit

Here is a vest that Ammon was given by his teacher at school as a white elephant gift. He brought it for the party and Adam and Amy got it haha. It has cat hair on it, cat paw prints, and a mouse pinned to it... pretty gross

Brent and Chels got this big nightgown. Haha

Kevin and I got hand warmers! Something we will actually use! We always take these everywhere with us in the winter.

This nightgown was so big that Abby and sarah could fit into it!

oh, and me :)

Kevins sister let us borrow some christmas sweaters. Kevin wore his the night before at his work party so it was dirty.. so I just wore the one I borrowed. Love it! dont zoom in though, because this picture is HIDEOUS of my face. Kevin must have taken it before I made my face or something... its like a transition picture.. so bad

The next night was Christmas Eve. We didn't get any pictures that day, bummer. We first went to Kevin's parents to eat some snacks (they always do an appetizer buffet) and we just hung with everyone and visited for about 2 hours. We slept at my parents so we left his parents around 6:30 to go eat the christmas eve dinner at my parents. We had Ham and potatoes and asparagus and yummy juice. I wasn't feeling good that night so I didn't really eat much, but what I did eat was good. I don't like Ham so they made me some chicken... haha, i'm spoiled. Kev and I stayed up till about 11 only haha- but we visited with Adrianne and Mike. It was really fun to have one on one time with them. They don't know Kevin too much yet so I feel like it was good for them to have that opportunity to get to know him.

The next morning, we all got up around 7:45 to open presents. There were so many!

Ammon was in heaven this Christmas! He got an Amazon Kindle Fire, and this cool movie he has been wanting forever called Waking Sleeping Beauty. He got other things too but those were what he made the biggest deal about haha. He had a perma grin that day!

Kevin and I were not going to get eachother presents, but when we got that check from UVU we decided to spend $50 on each other. Kevin did good this year! We spent the same amount of money on eachother but he must be a better shopper than me because I had lots of presents to open! haha. I got slippers, a jacket, some body wash and spray, and a few other things. I got him a george foreman grill and some wax for his car, and a tie and church socks. He was so excited about the grill! Haha.

After presents, we went to church with my parents, then came back and took a nap. After our nap, we went to Kev's parents house to have a turkey dinner with everyone. We spent most of the night there and had a great time with everyone. We watched a Christmas Story which I love!

All in all, it was a great Christmas and I loved it! It was fun spending so much time with family and by this time next year we will have our little baby girl to enjoy Christmas with! So excited.

I hope you all had a great Christmas!

noooo motivation

2011-12-29T16:45:00.000-08:00

Man, I just can't get the motivation to clean these days. I feel SO lazy.

You should see my room. Clean clothes all over the place. Ready to be hung up.

Dishes in the sink. Not many, so luckily that will be an easy one to tackle.

Spare bedroom a mess. Can hardly walk in there. I really need to get crackin on that so we can set it up for the baby... who wants to help? haha

And the Christmas stuff is all still up... and I have NO motivation to pull it down what so ever. Which is funny because I am kinda sick of looking at it.. haha

All I want to do is take a warm bath, and get my feet massaged and toes painted. Oh, and maybe cuddle with my husband. :)

But, I gotta get crackin. So, laptop put away, and cleaning mode ON!

Do you ever just have those days where you don't want to do ANYTHING?

a little crafty sum' sum and a card swap group

2011-12-29T16:35:00.000-08:00

I finally got some crafty things done. For Christmas, I gave my mother in law some cards I made! I got her a cute pink box to put them in. I ended up making about 20 or so, and this was my first attempt at making cards! It was really fun, and I think I will continue to do it! I wanted to make her more but I just ran out of time.

I will have to start a card swap with friends, who wants to do it? I have really been wanting to get into card making for a LONG time. I love cards. I have a huge box full of cards that I have kept since I Was little- holding every card I have ever been given. I treasure cards and notes. It makes my day when some one sends me one in the mail! So, We could do it once a month, and everyone would bring like 10 of the same cards so everyone can get 10 (or however many people are in the group) different cards at the end of the night to keep. We could do treats, and we can do it at my apartment. Anyone want to do it?

If you are interested, please email me so I can set up a group of ladies and the first date- thinking of doing it in the middle of January to give you time to make some. My e-mail is: themohlmans@live.com

Hope you enjoyed the cards I made! Nothing super fancy, but hoping to get better as I make more!

Randomness and a huge blessing for us!

2011-12-20T22:47:00.000-08:00

This is going to be a random post. I am just waiting for Kevin to get home from work so I thought I would make a quick post. I am proud to say we have all our Christmas shopping done except for one person! We have such big families so we just draw names for who we give presents to. Then we have presents for each of our parents, and then I usually give a present to Ammon and Kaitlin since they are home and not married :) I LOVE the Christmas wrapping paper I got at Walmart this year. Super freakin cute. I made the tag on it with a stamp I had.

I got my 3 hour glucose test, passed it, but not without a fight! I sure did get poked a bunch... I ended up having to get poked 10 or 11 times because I am pretty sure I was dehydrated and they could not find a vein! I bruised pretty bad, and this one on my hand HURT like a mother

Here is the day I got it done, already showing up, bad bruise on my arm...

I was watching makeup tutorials on youtube under Robert Jones's site (celebrity makeup stylist) and I just really wanted to go play around in my makeup after that! So I decided to make a video tutorial of how I do my every day makeup. Kevins buddy Jon is going to help me edit the video so it's not like 20 mins long.. haha I talk alot. After its edited, I will post it so you can learn how I do it. Below is the picture of what I looked like after it was done. I LOVE my mary kay makeup!!!!!

I was looking on pintrest and found this beautiful dance photo. Oh man, it made me miss the days of dance! I miss being that flexible (although I am not too far from that now, the belly just makes it hard..) and I miss being at dance every day and just being with my dance girls at Lifehouse.

This is me at the studio last year. I can't wait to get back into it after the baby comes if my knees will allow me.

Here is me a few years ago. I love this picture.. such freedom in dancing! Makes me feel so good.

And this was me as a sophomore in high school. man, I want that tiny skinny body back that was so in shape. I used to think I was so fat, how could I EVER think that? I was a bean pole! I remember right before I got pregnant this summer I was working out almost every day at the gym and it felt SO good. I just felt so confident and proud of myself. It's a little harder to do now with this huge belly but I am SO looking forward to getting into that again...

Lastly, here is the quote of the YEAR for us. Like I mentioned in my post the other day, we have been extremely poor and financially struggling since I got pregnant. Just this week we were unsure how to buy groceries or fix our car that was leaking anti freeze and gas really bad... and then, a miracle happened! Somehow, UVU let Kevin re-apply for pelgrants because when he applied, I was pregnant but we hadn't found out yet. Because of that, they let us re-apply to see if they would refund us. We thought it was a long shot, but applied anyway. Yesterday, I walked to get the mail and as I got it, I see a letter from UVU that looked like a check. Indeed, it WAS! They refunded us a LOT of money, I wont say how much but I just cried and smiled and was SO grateful to my heavenly father! we just had to have faith to know that things ALWAYS Work out! And always in his timing and his way. Granted, we will have to pay my booth rent with it, fix our car with the money, pay off our line of credit that we had to use when we were so poor last month to pay for our rent, and then we want to put the rest in savings. It will be gone quickly, but I feel so grateful that the Lord was looking after us and helped us out. Thank you UVU and government and Heavenly Father! wahoo! I am now able to buy Kevin a Christmas present, although we aren't spending much because we want to save all that money.

It's funny because alot of our friends have big TV's, cable, nice cars, some of them don't have to work, they go on vacations out of state, and they always just seem to have money that we don't have. I always wonder, dang, how do people who are going to school and not working much have those things?! Wouldn't that be nice.... But then I look at it and those are things Kevin and I don't need to make us happy. I am not saying in any way that it's bad for other people to have those things because believe me, it would be nice if we had them too. I don't know all of their situations so it's not really that fair for me to make the assumption that they have alot or aren't struggling in other ways so I apologize if it is coming out that way. That's not my intention. We don't have one credit card, we don't buy things we cant afford, we only have one car, we don't go out to eat like hardly EVER, we have never been on a vacation out of state besides our honey moon (unless you can count the funeral we went to in CO but that was sad), I buy my clothes at thrift stores or take hand me downs, but you know what, I can't complain because I know we are better off than ALOT of people. I never understood that but I know everyone's situation is different and that MOST college students are just like us, broke as a joke haha and living the life. I know I will look back on this time of our life and be so grateful for it because we have been able to learn how to budget our money and live off of nothing and be so grateful for the things we do have! (totally not saying our friends that have more money aren't grateful for what they have because I know they are)

Things do work out. All you have to do is pay your tithing and do your part and the Lord blesses you! So glad for that.

Well, Kev's almost home. Time for bed!

*also, baby update. She has finally turned! I am 28 weeks, right on track for weight gain, and the heartbeat sounds great still. I get another 3D ultra sound next week, cant wait! She's kickin just as hard as ever. I think we will name her Mia Jane. We want to wait till we see her but we are thinking that's the name. So don't steal it :) *

Christmas Card and the greatest gift to me

2011-12-16T12:47:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas friends and family! We didn't get a chance to send out cards this year so I did this on the computer and decided to upload it here. Nothin fancy. :)

This really has been a year full of laughter, trials, spiritual growth, personal growth, hard work, and love. I wouldn't say it's been an easy year, but with all good things comes hard work and bumps in the road on the way. That's what makes us grow into who we are.

We have really had to rely on our friends and family this year for support and love and we have been showered with both. We have suffered a death in the family, financial problems, horrible sickness with this pregnancy, and my depression this year. With every single thing, people have poured their love on us and been there to help us have faith and get through the hard times!

Kevin has really been my anchor this year and been there for me every step of the way. He has not passed any sort of judgement and has worked his butt off at school and work. He has unconditionally loved me and supported me. He has encouraged me to work towards my dreams. He is the love of my life and I am so happy to be able to spend eternity with him. I don't know how I got so lucky!

But most of all, Christ has been the center of our lives and has really shown his love and hands in or life. There have been times when we really didn't think we could pay for groceries or rent and by paying our tithing and having faith everything has worked out. Honestly, we don't even have money to buy a crib or a carseat or stroller or anything baby related. I don't know how we will ever buy anything for this sweet baby coming. I don't know how we will continue to buy groceries. Or how we will fix our car that is leaking anti freeze right now. I don't know how we will pay our heat bill. We can't even buy Christmas gifts for eachother this year. But I DO know that the material Gifts are not what Christmas is about. And I DO know that things WILL work out. We have always been blessed with a way to make things work. Christ has really comforted us and let us know that things always work out the way they are supposed to, and I am so grateful for prayer because I know that is my personal lifeline to him! This time of year I am especially grateful for him because of the sacrifices he made to come to this earth and die for all of us.

If He did not come to this earth, we would not have this chance to become perfect and repent of our sins. He has been the greatest gift that God has given to me, and I know that he is the light in my darkness. I am so grateful for this time of year and for the chance I have to reflect upon the real meaning of Christmas.

I hope you all have a meaningful and wonderful Christmas season this year and that you can all feel the love of God around you. Merry Christmas, Kevin and I love each and every one of you and appreciate you in our lives.

deck the halls

2011-12-11T12:21:00.001-08:00

this year I put up my tree two days before thanksgiving. Kevin was working late and I was really bored, had nothing to do. So, I drug out all the decorations and put up the tree! I had fun, but the next day my back was killer sore. Too much lifting haha!

We have had this tree and the decorations since the first Christmas we had together 3 years ago. It's the ugliest tree but I love it because it's OUR tree. :) I love the decorations, I got almost all of them at the dollar store 3 years ago. The only thing I don't like about the tree is that it really doesn't have enough branches to make it look full. But oh well!

We kind of had to put it in an awkward spot because we have too many things in our apartment and no where for it to go.

We have had a few Christmas parties so far. We had Kevin's work party on Friday, which was SO much fun. They gave away all the center pieces and a girl at the table Shelby won it last year so she said I could have it this year! I was super excited, so thanks Shelby! (picture of it below.) They had an amazing dinner, and really fun entertainment! It was a 3 hour long dinner party, with probably over 1200 people there. It was at the UVU uccu center.

Then, last night, I had a Christmas party with my Mary Kay unit. I love all these girls. They make me motivated and are all so welcoming. This is Lisa, my good friend there in the unit.

This is Sarah, my role model! She is our director and she is the BEST!!! She has won 7 cars from Mary Kay, and knows how to do her business. She is so giving and so caring about everyone and honestly I think that's why she has made it so far in her business because she is ALWAYS Thinking about others! Love you Sarah! She provided a Chicken cordon-blue dinner and we all brought a side dish or dessert to go along with it. Her husband put on a game of Jeopardy for all of us and it was a lot of fun.

Here are the ladies that went (minus their hubbies who were all taking the pictures) BTW- our unit is #1 in our national area!! (Under the direction of Julianne Nagel!)

When we got home last night I thought we needed a bump picture by the tree. Haha. So, here is me at 27 weeks! I love this little baby girl more than I ever thought possible. I can't wait to snuggle her and dress her up and put bows in her hair! I am not throwing up anymore (as of like 2 weeks ago) and I am feeling much better. I have been really tired, but I got some iron supplements from my doctor and that seems to have helped me feel more alert!

Kevin and I have not done any Christmas shopping yet this year. I think we decided we aren't going to get eachother gifts because we are just too poor this year! Plus, I honestly don't care about gifts haha. Everything I want is un-practical for us right now- like a kindle, a new phone, a car... ya. We just decided to save our money (what money? haha) for the baby and just enjoy eachothers company for Christmas. No big deal. We have just decided to focus this years Christmas on service for others! We have gotten our dads presents, our moms, and we only have two more gifts to get- the sibling ones of the names we drew out. We already know what we are getting them, we just need to get it done! It hasn't really felt like the Christmas season yet because there is no snow on the ground! I am super sad that it hasn't dumped on us yet! I am so ready for it. The rest of this month will be super busy for us, we have plans to deliver presents to the nursing homes in the area as our Christmas service project this year, go see the lights at temple square, do some caroling, cook a meal for someone in need, spend lots of time with family, and enjoy eachothers company.

I love this time of year. I can't believe it's already December 11th, time has flown by way too fast. tomorrow, my baby will be due in exactly 3 months! WOW! Can't wait.

What are your plans this Christmas season? Going out of town? Staying here with family? Doing your own thing?

if you want to help give christmas to people, this is the perfect opportunity

2011-12-10T10:25:00.001-08:00

*this is what I am doing for Mary Kay, but individuals can donate too.*

Happy Holidays from Mary Kay Cosmetics!

Hello my name is Gillian Mohlman with Mary Kay. This Christmas, I am doing a Community Outreach Program. It is called "Adopt-a-Grandparent" for the holidays. Together with my sales unit, we are working with Nursing Homes in the area. We are asking local business and individuals to Adopt-a-Grandparent for Christmas. You can adopt one resident for $25. A receipt will be provided for tax deduction purposes. Checks can be made out to Gillian Mohlman. I will be taking gifts to the nursing homes that will include Mary Kay products with a seasonal gift, all in beautiful packaging for both the ladies & gentlemen. Our goal this year is to adopt 150 residents.

Many seniors are forgotten during the holidays. For some, this is the only gift they receive. For many facilities, the budget doesn't allow for extras like the ones we are providing in your name. Hopefully this will make their day! They will be presented with their gift bags at their Holiday party.

I have gift tags to put your name on or for your special message. Also, in each gift bag will be a gift tag and a business card attached of the sponsoring businesses.

I am overwhelmed by the positive response from the community in years past, and welcome your participation this year! Together we can make someone's Holiday special! You can adopt 10 for $250! How many residents would you like to adopt?

Please respond before Tuesday, December 13, 2011.

Thank you in advance for your generosity & thoughtfulness!
Gillian Mohlman

Mary Kay Cosmetics

801.616.7288

themohlmans@live.com

www.marykay.com/gmohlman

Please forward this messages to family and friends who wish to make someone's Holiday special this Season.

funnies

2011-12-06T21:11:00.001-08:00

i see lots of funny stuff on pinterest. here are a few of them that made me laugh tonight. *a few may be crude.*

haha.. funny because this is at walmart. probably the only store you would see someone wearing a shirt like this in..

um, this is me. EVERY shower curtain. I check behind it to see if someone is there. call me crazy.

haha, this is totally funny. I want to do this to my kids although I freaking hated curfew growing up.

haha.. this is crude but funny. just had to add it.

just a few to make ya laugh.

xoxogillian

what do you put in your stockings?

2011-12-05T11:42:00.001-08:00

I posted this on my beauty blog and on facebook so for those of you who have already seen it, sorry! I just thought I would share here for anyone who is interested. I am doing some great deals at the salon for stocking stuffers. I can't believe Christmas is in 20 days.... Where has time gone by? I love to do stockings. What do you put in your stockings? Usually I put candy, an orange, a small gift, and stuff like car fresheners, a hair product or something like that.. (all that for kevin). So, what do you put in? Anyway, below is what I am offering for the holidays:

Hey all, this is Gillian {stylist here at haven}. I am offering a STEAL OF A DEAL on gift certificates this holiday!

Basically, you buy a gift certificate (must spend at least $25) and you get $25 FREE! That covers two haircuts from me if you are a woman! Tell your husbands about this- this would be a great gift for them to put in your stocking. I hardly ever give big discounts like this, so take advantage! This will be valid to buy only until December 10th. So hurry fast! There is no limit on how many you can buy, and they don't expire for 6 months from the date you buy them. Call me if you have questions, or would like to buy one!

Xoxo, Gillian

801.616.7288

*dont forget to follow my beauty blog- www.gillianathavensalon.blogspot.com

our gratitude box

2011-12-04T21:35:00.001-08:00

today in relief society the lesson was about how to keep the true spirit of christ in this christmas season. the teacher had everyone share traditions they had or things they do to keep Christ at the center of the home at this time.

one girl shared that they had family home evening at the beginning of december and wrote down all the things they were grateful for. they then cut them into strips and folded them and put them in a wrapped christmas box (one where the lid can come off) and every time through out the month till Christmas, they added more things to it. I thought it was a great idea. They then open the box on Christmas and read all the things they put in there that they were grateful for. I decided we needed to do this!

So, tonight, we watched this video on mormon messages on youtube:

We then wrote down a list of things we are grateful for, and tonight I will wrap up a box and put it under the tree.

Here are a few of the things on our list:

Our apartment

Our car

Our laptop

Education

Our jobs

Eachother

Electricity

Safe water to drink

Food to eat

Family

Church

Warm blankets

Our baby

Good friends

Our pretty Christmas tree

Christmas music

The ostensons for offering their crib to us free

Our phones so we can communicate

Free time to nap!

Snuggling eachother to get warm at night

Prayers

Dr. Dayton

Pel Grants

A decorated apartment to make us feel at home

A portable dishwasher

Bishop Wall and Provo 2^nd ward

Good health

Not throwing up every day

A heater that works!

A washer and dryer in our apartment

My body pillow!

Netflix

Nature- snowy grounds, blue skies, green grass

Water to play in

The center street exit being open

Mormon messages on youtube

Your kisses

Zofran

we have been so blessed through out this year and I hope we can keep the Christmas spirit in our home this season and remember the true meaning of Christmas. Love you all!

my 23rd birthday

2011-12-02T21:37:00.001-08:00

today I turned 23!

Kevin took the day off of work but he did have to go to school this morning until one... so, I treated myself to sleepin in! I slept in until 10, got up, showered and got ready, and then Kilee came to get me and take me to lunch. We met with Eliza at Olive Garden and we had a yummmmmy lunch! It totally hit the spot. They gave me a really cute beadboard frame with a picture of Kev and I in it and a stand for it to go on. I LOVE it! Thank you girls for spoiling me :)

When I got home, Kevin got home from school and his parents came over. They gave me a card with some money in it and visited with us for a while. Thanks Carl and Reva!! My friend Noel from the ward then came over with a cupcake and card- so super sweet of her. I just love her. Thanks Noel! Kev and I then decided to go wander over to the university mall and see if there was anything I wanted there. I wouldn't let Kevin give me a present this year because we obviously have no extra money to spend so we just window shopped. Not the most fun thing to do when you don't have money, but it was still fun :)

I have been feeling pretty sick the last few days so today I was really trying to get some strength and feel great but I was sooo tired today. We ended up having to sit down on a bench at the mall for a bit and all I could think about was man, I am pregnant and getting old. What boring people we are to have to sit down in the mall because we are tired hahahahaa.... we are in for it!

After the mall, we went to dinner at Wingers (with the money from my mother in law haha, thanks again!) Wingers is my favorite place to eat besides Los Hermanos. It was extra good and they even gave me a free piece of asphalt pie that I only took like 2 bites of. No room in my tummy!

We came home and got in our pajamas and then watched "it's kinda a funny story". I fell right to sleep at the beginning, and Kevin fell asleep half way through. He needed to take a nap anyway because he had to go into work tonight to work a Grave shift. So now, I am awake and probably going to go sit by the Christmas tree and read or something until my eyes get too tired to stay open. I was hoping to be asleep before he left but I woke up and am now wide awake. I hate going to sleep without him...

Over all, it was a great day. A little bummed Kevin didn't get me a cake...haha jk, but a white cake with lots of frosting from sams club would have been yuuuuummmyyyy.... can you tell I am pregnant yet? But really I don't need it. I am getting my gestational diabetes test on the 6th, I gotta behave! All Veggie diet! haha jk I could never do that.

I got lots of birthday texts and wishes on facebook and calls from friends and family and I so appreciate it! Thanks to everyone who made my day relaxing and special!

Now tomorrow we are going to Nutcracker (which is free!) that my studio is putting on in payson. Can't wait to see it! It will definitly put me in the mood for Christmas...

dont let comparison steal your joy

2011-11-30T16:00:00.001-08:00

*i was having some technical difficulties today with my blog so sorry this post has some weird bullets or whatever.*

I havent blogged for 2 or 3 weeks.

Honestly, I have had no desire to.

My reasons being- I have been busy with family in town and my mom getting a full knee replacement, I have been trying to decide if I even want to keep my blog or not, and I am not sure I like knowing that creepers are looking at my blog. I made it private for the last few weeks but I keep going back and forth on my decision. Here are all the negatives to this blog:

I am an open and honest person. Therefore, I share a lot of deep and hard things on here. Alot of people feel uncomfortable reading it and therefore like to comment mean things or talk about me behind my back. (and of course it gets back to me.)

People like to tell me what I can and cannot write on here. They like to tell me how I should feel. I know that when you put personal opinions and stories on the web you are bound to get negative responses, but really? as much as I get them, is it worth it?

Then there are the people who NEVER call, NEVER email, NEVER text, blah blah that look at my blog just to see how my life is going. They don't comment, or contact me to really talk. The only reason I know they look at my blog is because of google analytics- (it shows who has viewed my blog). The don't feel the need to reach out to me in a personal voice to voice or face to face way and that bugs me. Just because I write about my life on here doesn't mean you can read it and call it good. Some friends ya know? *Although I write that comment, I know I am guilty of this too at some time or another so I will try to be better*

Then there are the people who really don't like me, but just read my blog to try and pick apart everything they can and make their own meanings on it. Then they go and talk about it to so and so, who tells so and so, who gets back to me about it and it's just unnecessary drama! If you are really concerned about what someone says, stand up for me in the comments or say something nice once in a while. Otherwise, just don't read it or come to me complaining of so and so who said this and that about me and my blog.

Now, to the positives.

I have met some AMAZING friends. I would have never met

Alexis (http://alexislaughs.blogspot.com/2011/09/if-looks-could-kill.html)

or Dani (http://adwarren.blogspot.com/)

or Nichelle (http://www.vwbblog.com/2011/11/god-grant-me-courage.html)

and don't forget Ashley Hart. (cant find her blog for some reason... weird)

I have met way more people than that, but thats just a few to name.

I get random mail from people who are just the kindest people on the earth. Here are a few examples:

from marissa:

Hey Gillian! So, I feel like a little bit of a creep, but I totally used to stalk your blog, and I just felt the need to tell you how much I enjoyed and appreciated the real-ness (is that a word??) of it. While I completely understand your reasons for making it private, I would love to read it again if you ever change your mind Good luck with everything! Especially your baby girl to be!

from lexy:

Hey you probably don’t know me, I was friends with Kaitlin in high school and pretty much idolized you my sophomore year. Anyway I just read your post about your blog, I wanted to let you know that I respect your decision to make it private, but it will be missed…yes, I blog stalk you…sorry. I personally loved that you share things that are so personal. I have always thought you were so brave for letting it all be out there. It was nice to hear someone be real and yet still so positive about the struggles of everyday life. A lot of times it was exactly what I needed. I also loved the cute crafts Well, I think you are so amazing. You are such a strong person, and so beautiful and incredibly talented in so many things. And congratulations on your baby! She is going to be one lucky little girl I hope you have a fabulous day! You deserve it

from ashley:

Hey Gill! I have randomly been thinking about you a lot today! So I thought I would send you a little note telling you how cute you are. During high-school, I really looked up to you, and I still do. We hardly know each other, but it's so cool how the internet allows us to still be examples to people we don't physically see every day. So thank you for living your life in a way that makes other people want to be better... including me. You are awesome

Jess said:

Suicide sucks, there's no way around it...but we are so lucky to have a Father in Heaven who is not only just, but kind and loving and understands perfectly the pain people who commit suicide suffered. I love you, Jill, and I'm so glad you've been open with your struggle with Depression as of late. Thanks for this entire post, and if you ever need anything, I'm here for you.

from Kira:

I TOTALLY hear you, I won't name specifics, but I have had some people put some pretty nasty comments on my blog :( I almost went private myself, seriously. They really hurt my feelings :( So I get it. I am so sorry! But, I will say try not to let what others say or think affect you... I know its way easier said then done, but it is possible with practice :) and... Just because one person may judge you, theres 5 others who commend you on your bravery and honesty.... :) Love ya, and I get it. Really do. Keep writing... :) You're great! Happy Thanksgiving!

So really, I get some really nice responses from people. I try to inspire others by writing about the things that are real because thats how people relate! Really there is just no way around how I am feeling if I want to continue to write the way I do. So, is it worth it? Am I really helping people? Therapeutically, I am helping myself. And I guess that's important. I just need to remember that not everyone has the same opinions and not everyone likes me or is going to agree with what I say, and I need to be ok with that. I never intentionally hurt peoples feelings. If you knew me, you would know that I would never do that, especially on here. So if I have hurt your feelings, just email me or call me and let me know. That way I can improve and have better relationships.

My sister Adrianne wrote about this topic on her blog recently too. We both have similar feelings about our blogs and wonder if it's worth it. You can read hers here: www.mikenadrianne.blogspot.com

I will take a stab at this again. But if it continues to be a problem, I will just make it private and send invites to only the people I want to read it.

If you want to say something mean about my blog, just say it to my face. I wont bite. :) But please don't add the drama here or involve others in it.

Thanks for all the continued support to my friends and family and here is a thought to end with:

I am who I am and nothing can change that. I like who I am. I have flaws, but they are being refined and worked on. I am not perfect. But I cannot let comparisons ruin my happiness and make me feel less than what I am. Don't compare yourself to others. Everyone is different. Everyone is fighting a different battle. Everyone feels lonely at times or struggles financially. No one is perfect! Let Christ be the center of your home and life and I promise your life will be easier.

till we meet again

2011-11-14T16:55:00.001-08:00

i've been thinking a lot the last few days about a very serious matter.

One of my best friends dad committed suicide in high school when we were juniors. I watched her struggle. I remember thinking how selfish it was for him to do that and leave her when she needed him so much. I remember just wanted to hug her and tell her that it wasn't her that caused it to happen. I'm sure she knew that. There was one time that we were performing in choir and she had just performed a perfect song without any flaws. She came into the dressing room and cried and said how mad she was that her dad wasn't there physically to watch her and we all cried together. That was my first experience knowing someone who had gone through loosing someone to suicide. I just couldn't understand it and thought it was the most selfish thing for people to do. There were a lot of underlying issues that I wasn't aware of at the time and now I see how judgemental that was for me to think that, even though I thought I Was just caring for a friend who I loved deeply and could see how much hurt she was in.

Then, a few years later (may 2010) my cousin died. She shot her self. She was depressed and got so low that she couldn't come back. It was the biggest shock. She was SO fun. She was so happy. Or at least she seemed. She was very kind, a huge tease. At the time, I too was suffering from deep depression- and pretty silently too. I had depression in high school too but never really told anyone but my mom and dad. I hadn't seen my cousin for a really long time and really the only memories I had of her were from when I was really little. So you would think that ya, of course I would be sad, but not hysterical and not still thinking about it today. But the minute I looked at her in the casket, I fell apart. It scared me. I felt like I saw myself! That is how I was going to end up if I didn't get the help I needed and it scared me more than anything. I then had a change of heart towards suicide. I do not think people can be in their right mind to kill themselves. I think there are many issues that we cannot judge, and should not judge that were often hidden. I think emotionally, they are sick. And they needed help- and couldn't see past the negative anymore. I have gotten to that low point before and almost didn't come back up. It was the help of my family and counseling and medication that helped me. I now look back at my friend from high school and feel guilty for ever thinking that her dad was selfish. I had no right to think those thoughts about him. I am sure he was in so much emotional pain and really didn't know what to do. I know this is sorta a terrible statement, but my cousin dying is what saved my life. Truth. I miss you Tessa..

Two days ago, a friend from high school, Kyson Holt commited suicide. Oh it breaks my heart to think he suffered alone for so long. No I do not know the whole story and I cannot speak for him or his family but I still just ache for them. I think it's sad that a lot of times we don't see the saddness or depression in a person until it's too late to help. Kyson and I were not best friends, but we did talk and had lots of classes together. He teased me a lot, just in a fun way. He was really good friends with a lot of my other close friends. He was really funny and always made me laugh. I am sad that his life is now over and he doesn't get to experience marriage or kids in this life, but I am know he is out of pain and in a better place now. It just really hit me when I heard about him passing away and all these emotions came out of me.

For one, I am grateful that I am emotionally doing so much better and that I was able to get the help I needed. I am grateful for the Gospel. I am SO grateful to know I can see my loved ones again. I am grateful for the atonement and the help it gives me in becoming a better person.

I am grateful for me. I am grateful for my husband. My life. Please make it a point in your life to go out of your way to help those who seem sad or lonely. You never know what one hello can do to help!

I know lots of people will miss you Kyson! Till we meet again someday!

Kelle and Whitney

2011-11-07T11:23:00.000-08:00

Last night my good friend Whitney invited Kev and I and Makelle and her hubby to eat dinner with them! They made a roast, amazing potatoes, a salad, and rolls! It was SO good and I was stuffed after eating. Whitney got married in Jan. and Kelle got married last july. I went to hair school with Kelle and Whit and seriously- they are the only thing that got me through that school! We had SO much fun! We told eachother everything, compared ab muscles (haha) made fun of each others boyfriends, did eachothers hair and had a BLAST! I love these girls with all my heart and consider them my best friends for life!

Whitney is 30 weeks pregnant and has the cutest baby bump EVER! She is also having a girl, and that makes me super excited! Kelle is going to school to become a teacher and lives in Ephriam at the moment with her hubby. We had a great time visiting last night and laughing. I hope we get together more often. I love you girls!!

here are some funny pictures I have of us through hair school. haha, enjoy!

whitney and kelle and audrey wrapped my hair in tiny perm rods and then made a fro out of it. haha

on personal service day, they did my hair, then we did whits, and kelles.

who knew a few years later we would be prego at the same time? hahaha

typical day of us all under dryers and reading magazines haha

valentines day!

halloween :)

pumpkin carving

i love these girls, and I am so grateful for such great friends!

a busy couple of days

2011-10-31T14:00:00.000-07:00

I have had such a busy couple of days!

first off, starting mary kay is AWESOME! I got my inventory, and it was like christmas!! Oh gosh. So I have been super busy organizing everything and trying to book parties. On Saturday I went to a conference for Mary Kay at the Hilton Hotel and I learned SO much. I loved it! Not only do they value a good business, but they really value family and happiness and I felt like it was just what I needed to give me the extra bump. My goal is to earn a car by March! That means I need to work super hard. I will need 14 consultants under me. So, let me know if you are interested because I WANT and NEED to hit this goal! :)

On Friday I helped my friend Whitney throw a halloween party at her place. we had tons of good food and fun! I will try to get pics up soon from it.

Saturday after I got home we had two family halloween parties. First we went to my parents in Elk Ridge. This is the first year they have ever had a party! Everyone dressed up and we had good food. My mom made homemade mini pumpkin pies for a pie eating contest! We also did a donut eating contest. They played bowling too with pumpkins and Toilet Paper in the back yard. haha! So fun. Here are some pictures my mom took from the party:

this is the little kids getting ready for the contest. Leah, Geoff, Ella, Sarah, Abby, Jake, Henry, and Lauren

Geoff won, and it was SO funny to watch Ella because she just kept licking it and could not get a bite. I laughed so hard.

the adults contest. Kevin, Brent, Jess, Chelsey, Jen, and Kaitlin. Jen won! Kevin got second. Jen was going at it! Jess kept saying its because shes a good kisser ;)

Haha. I love Kevins costume. He was a detroit gangster. He even used glue dots to put on some rhinestone earrings!

here is my little buddy Sam. This is Adam and Amys little boy. He LOVES when you say 'boo' to his face, he laughs and laughs. He was the cutest little penguin!

Ammon was a guy from the blue man group, and I was a nurse!

This is my dad mixing his famous homemade rootbeer. I LOVE his rootbeer. Its sooo good. The kids loved it too!

Here is the bowling ball Jen made for the bowling game!

I wasnt there for the pumpkin pie contest but I think my brother Adam won. Jess (pictured below) apparently doesnt even like pumpkin pie but did it anyway!

After that, Kev and I went to the Mohlman family party. We had Chili and cornbread for dinner. I took my chili, super YUMMMMMY. I actually had been up since 5 am that morning so I was REALLY Tired and fell asleep on their couch for an hour! woops... They did a costume contest and had some really fun costumes. I dont have pictures of that though because I didnt take a camera and I havent seen any pictures posted yet.

On our way home, Kevin and I went on a free haunted train ride in Lindon that this family does every year. http://www.stringtown.us/. Its so much fun. I was actually scared a few times on the ride! hahaha.

We came home and I ZONKED out. I didnt wake up till noon the next day. woops. I had been so busy all weekend and I was wiped out.

I forgot to mention that friday I went to physical therapy and found out that I have developed posterior pelvic pain. apparently my joints are too loose and my pelvis has expanded too far during this pregnancy, therefore causing major pain in my back. today i couldn't even bend over and i am now limited to picking up anything heavier than 5 pounds or sitting on the ground. ugh. I wasnt sure what he meant when he told me so i looked it up last night- http://www.coreconcepts.com.sg/mcr/posterior-pelvic-pain-sacroiliac-joint-pain-in-pregnant-women/

It sure is SUPER painful and I am having a really hard time getting around BUT it's totally worth it. I cant believe I am 21 weeks pregnant and this little girl will be here in 4 short months! I cant wait. :)

Well, thats all for today! Happy Halloween!!

a day in my interesting life haha

2011-10-27T18:48:00.000-07:00

today has been a good day. this is how it went:

got up at 9. got ready for work. checked email.

went to work. did my friend mady's hair. my mom visited me at work to bring me a stethoscope for my halloween costume.

went home. ate lunch with my hubby at 2. (he made steak and potatoes!) kissed my hubby goodbye while he was on his way out for work. took a small nap. cleaned a bit.

took a bath while watching an episode of sister wives. (i know i am weird. weird because i set up the lap top on the toilet to watch an episode while i relaxed in a hot bath and weird because i was watching sister wives.) keep in mind my bath was like an hour long. that was nice.

ate a snack. visited my new friend heather and borrowed a paid of her scrubs for my costume. visited with her, her cute baby, and her hubs. i love making new friends!

now, im home. about to do some dishes. then, will watch grays anatomy. and eat dinner. but not sure what to eat for dinner...

been a good day..

the rest of the night will prob consist of watching tv episodes, eating, reading, and staying up will midnight when kevin will come home. he will then make me scratch his back before bed. because he always makes me. haha. and then zzzz.... :)

interesting life eh?

not so much. :)

recent pictures

2011-10-27T14:09:00.000-07:00

When I was first pregnant I showed REALLY fast. Everyone kept asking me if I was having twins and it seriously made me feel so fat. haha. Now that my body has grown into the belly more and it looks more like a bump and not just fat, I love it! Its so fun. I dont mean to brag but I have only gained 4 pounds and I am 20 1/2 weeks. I feel like I haven't gained it anywhere but my belly either. I am proud of myself for that. Haha! (watch, I am going to blow up my last trimester and get huge). So, this is a picture of me today.

This was when Kevin and I went to kennecot copper with our friends jon and kenna in the summer. jon took the picture. I just got the picture so I thought I would share because Kevin looks SO cute! Gosh my hubs is a hottie!

And, these are the pumpkin pictures I promised I would post after I Got them from Jon. This is the pumpkin Jon and Kenna did. Haha, so awesome!

this is a weird bump picture. that day for some reason I felt like she was sitting super high and I could not breath, and it looks super weird.. haha

kenna bear!

and here is a pic of all of us! such a fun night, thanks jon and kenna!