Kevmeister

TMNUT is once again $*@!#%

2009-12-07T00:32:00.002+08:00

It's been like this for 2 days.

International sites are slowest in loading or sometimes don't load at all. Sites like Google/iGoogle and regional sites are still fine but I can't login Facebook without waiting for 5 minutes to fully load the home page itself.

GAAHHH!!! I seriously hate TMNUT for not announcing updates on this issue. Seriously, I don't mind if they were to take time on fixing it, but at the freakin' least inform us on the updates or progress.

Malaysia is a seriously farked up country. Given the chance, I'll migrate without even thinking twice. Malaysia Boleh, tiap-tiap hari pun boleh (pergi mampus).

Quick Update

2009-11-25T14:39:00.000+08:00

Wow, two to three weeks since I last posted.

My humblest apologies, since I was rather busy with a lot of stuff :(

Alright. Let us start of with my gaming life. It was official, I had quitted CabalSEA and it is completely out of my system (no traces were left behind, I hope *fingers crossed*. I'm only active in the social application games by Playfish, actually, game, as I too have quitted Country Story and am only active in Restaurant City.

Upon obtaining my PS2 a few weeks ago, I rather spend time playing it rather than busting all my money over HOTD4 (but I do occasionally play it). The game currently active is .Hack//G.U. which has an exceptionally good story line and not to mention they actually studied online communities to the very pin point precision of its exactness.

As for browser update, I kinda taken a liking to Google Chrome over Firefox because my Firefox crashes way too often and has issues with Macromedia Flash after adjusting its network settings, going back to default did not fix the problem ...

How about some studies talk? Why yes, it's tragic that I have to be pressured by due dates, due dates and nothing but due dates! I wish I could borrow time from someone, pweettee pweez?

Also, I have word from Ben that the upcoming private RO Server project will be able to launch real quick, just need a little network test and configuration and we are all set for Alpha Phase testing, anyone interested in being the Alpha Tester? :)

Anyway, this is after all a quick update. So that is all for now, y'all stay smexy now and take care.

Updates!

2009-11-01T20:08:00.003+08:00

Wow, it's been ages since I last blog huh? My last entry was 17th Oct, which was 2 weeks ago or so.

Anyway, I wasn't able to blog about anything much due to the minsicule time I have left to spare on anything on my secondary to-do-lists.

I was very much caught up with my assignments, it's my final year afterall so I'm giving it as much effort and time as I can. No more slacking overboard like the way I do, it's time to hit the books (or e-books, blatantly lame joke)!

With that, all I can update right now is a few things, keeping them as brief as possible.

First up, Halloween ended up with a blast for me as I attended the All-American Rejects concert yesterday. I didn't have an awesome outfit on but the best I did in show of support as well as fanatism (lol) to the group and something 'Halloween'-ish, I tattoo-ed my hand with their artwork for their newest album, When the World Comes Down on both my hands as I cheered them on in their performance last night.

This was made by a black coloured art lipstick

The crowd was ... in the nicest way to put it, just not what I had expected. Sometimes, I do question the mentality of the people of my country (especially the crowd that went 'Boo!' or 'Fuck You!' when Universal Music was advertising artists). All in all, I get to see the Rejects and that was all that matters.

Besides the point, I decided to drop off all forms online gaming except for Ragnarok Online, as it's the only game I seem to find it fun eventhough if it's on a 2D platform. Oh, if you would consider it, I went back to become active in Restaurant City again (whether an online game or not, it's up to you to decide).

Surfing the web has never been this, optional! Instead of catering to Microsoft (which I'm slowly boycotting for the PHAIL that it is), I decided to use other web browsers to enhance my internet surfing capabilities. Here are the current browsers I'm using (frequency on how often I use goes from left to right, top to bottom):


Mozilla Firefox	Google Chrome	Safari	Internet Explorer

As you can see, my first choice is Firefox, followed by Chrome and then Safari. I only use IE when and I really do me when I NEED to, not want to.

Oh, before I go, I changed my banner at the top as Halloween had already passed (I'm too old and my country doesn't seem to cultivate the tradition of Trick or Treating) and I just made the banner with the limited time I have, so if it looks crapped, so sorry but I'll promise you a great looking one for Christmas/Boxing Day/Thanksgiving.

Until then, Kevmeister's signing off and heading back to his assignments.

Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs

2009-10-17T02:35:00.005+08:00

I was watching this earlier today and I kinda liked how this was an animated production from Sony pictures, rather than the usual Pixar or Dreamwork's animations. Anyway, the story was particularly interesting whereby a brilliant scientist misunderstood and shun by the people around him decided to revolutionize the way people look at their meals but soon turns awry.

The big screen adaptation is different from the same titled book, but nonetheless, it is one animation you would not want to miss if you are a fan of movies such as the recent Disney/Pixar's work, UP and so forth.

P.S. The only artist from the cast that was vaguely familiar to me was the voice played by Anna Faris (Sam).

The All-American Rejects Confirmed Concert in KL on the 31st of October 2009

2009-10-12T13:45:00.004+08:00

It is now certain that the band will be performing at Bukit Jalil's car park A on the 31st of October 2009 and guess who has tickets =)

I have 2, so another one is up for grabs, if you know what I mean *cha-ching*

Contact details are as above (within the FB badge)

On a final note, YES! HERE THEY COME!

Teenage and Young Malaysian Adult's Mentality

2009-10-07T20:32:00.003+08:00

It's another rant again. Sometimes, pray tell that some people (especially the younger generation) should be thought the importance of having class and at the very least common empathic sense. This is not just referring to a certain race, I'm referring to all of them.

To categorize these uneducated, senseless and no brainers for each race for Malaysians, here they are:

We Chinese have what we called Ah Liens for the girls and Ah Bengs for the guys. Translation - Posers. Basic characteristics include loving to act all high and mighty (but in true fact they aren't), flauntastic mode: ALWAYS ON and not to forget their debacle and arguing tactic is called 'beat around the bush, round and round it goes'.

Although I have no idea as to what nicks are given to Malays, I'm just going to cut straight to the chase. Aside from racism (yes, Malaysian Chinese are racists too, sue me) the Malay teens are obsessed with flaunting something that they acquired, but not through hard work but through shortcuts. They love boasting and boosting their ego despite having no basis on what they could boast and boost upon.

I can't say much about Indians. Thus far, this is one race I find to be rather on low key on the radar. They have what I call, a balance. Although, I have a few educated Indian friends and yes, they are by far the types most Malaysians (inclusive of both Chinese and Malays) should take examplary tips from.

Why am I bitching here? Look at this:

MOL Rocks Slogan Contest

Okay, the part where other slogans out there are a bit bland and unattractive, what ticked me off most is how much crap you see on the Wall of this event from the locals. Spamming. Plagiarism. Everything under the sun that taints it, isn't it just perfect?

Gawd, that makes my blood boil.

The All-American Rejects Live in Malaysia!

2009-10-05T13:33:00.004+08:00

WOOHOO! They're back again and this time the spotlight is on them. Back when it was MTV World Stage Live, they were a just a part of an ensemble cast such as Pixie Lott, Hoobastank and the likes of Boys Like Girls.

Anywho, there are two things to this upcoming event.

One being that I AM GOING TO THEIR CONCERT! *cues sound of applause* Thank you, thank you!

I took part in the 7-Eleven name that drink competition:

Slurpee ® Tainment

I won myself 2 tickets, yes that's right, TWO tickets! WHEE!

That was the good news. As for the bad news, AAR would not be coming on the supposed date of the concert which was this coming Saturday, 10th of October due to the reason as Tyson had suffer an infection on his knee, God speed his recovery!

Details about AAR's progress, postponement and updates can be found on their official site:

The All-American Rejects Official Site

God speed Tyson's recovery and again, WOOHOO!

Word Twist

2009-10-02T01:11:00.002+08:00

The following blog post is not meant to offend or as a mean of sarcasm but words which I had randomly found a twist behind it that makes the word itself funny when I was thinking of names for my upcoming RO private server, enjoy:

Dissidia (from the Final Fantasy PSP game) - Diss India
PMS - Pass Motion Syndrome
PIMP/pimp - Piss In My Pants

Totally random ._.

Diablo 3 Announces Another Class

2009-09-30T01:09:00.003+08:00

Yes, you heard me right, Diablo 3 gave us all a sneak peak at the first 3 classes - Barbarian, Witch Doctor and Wizard. Now, be astounded by a not so unique class but nonetheless, somewhat original to Diablo's realm, the Monk:

Diablo 3 Class: Monk

Blizzard also announced a new environment in the upcoming Diablo 3 called Borderlands, check it out here:

Diablo 3 Environment: Borderlands

Of course, I am still eagerly awaiting its release (TBA), hopefully when I'm done with my degree it'll be released by then.

Of blood ties irony

2009-09-27T20:51:00.004+08:00

It's funny how sometimes we think that things that happen in movies stays in movies, and how imaginative the mind of the story tellers will only be in the fantasy of their making. But alas, it is closer to reality than it is.

It is a fact that I'm no longer feeling the 'love' when it comes to my mother-and-son relationship with none other, and where does it all begin?

For starters - having to grow up half of my childhood under the parenting guardian of a babysitter instead of my own mother. It has been said that if a child that was raised by a babysitter, they would be more attached or clinging to that surrogate parent, rather than their own. This reminds me much like the 2007 movie The Nanny Diaries where Scarlett Johansson is the dubious nanny who had to babysit a boy from a wealthy family. Of course, if you had watch the movie you would have known that Grayer (the little boy from the movie) was having a totally crappy time because of the attention and affection that he craves, but from who? His parents of course. The father is tired of the relationship and is having an affair with flunkies in the office, the mother is so obsessed with her welfare and reputation she could not care less about her child. A childhood torn asunder by his own parents, a cruel fate to bestow upon the child.

But unlike the movie where a happy ending was ensued when all conflict has resolved, reality bites harder - for me. 'Why am I not close?', 'Why is he rejecting my shower of affection?', 'Why is he so distant when it comes to an understanding?'. My mom would most constantly ask herself these questions but for a fact, the answer already lies in her hands, yet she is being oblivious to it.

Perhaps she was feeling guilty for not being able to be there for me during the times when I needed a lecture on how to be a good person, or the times when I am still at the age in which she is subconsciously seeing me as even till today or it could just plainly be that she is too high strong for the wrong reasons and in a simpler description, ignorantly stubborn.

I am seriously, no, make that we - my sister and I are seriously disappointed at how much our mother had been making mistakes in which she make and had bound to repeat them time and time again. Why are we so distant, you ask? Well, for starters, since now you are only left with both your offsprings, should you not be closer to us? Should you not be sharing with us on things that in any logical minded person would think would be wise to include if need be? Perhaps, that's why there's no 'we' in 'family', because you are more tied to your bloodline, instead of the world you had created.

Tell yourself - if you want us to love you, more than just being filial piety, then start becoming a real part of the family.

Cabal Online Rune Guide

2009-08-28T03:29:00.020+08:00

I decided to compile all my findings regarding runes for Cabal Online as a point of reference for myself and as for anyone else who would like to take up this post as a guide.

My guide is incomplete but I will update it from time to time when I get relevant information and the time to do so.

Oh, of course, credits will be given and best of all, it is given right here, right now:

Screenshots of the game were taken by myself from CabalSEA
Original artworks are copyrights and belonging to ESTSoft

First, I will do a FAQ for Runes.

FAQ Index

Introduction and Basics of Runes (a.k.a. Soul Ability)
Application of Runes
Rune Usage and Growth
Rune Drop Location
Rune Stats, Types and Abilities
Rune Abilities Limitation
Things Needed to Learn and Develop Rune Abilities
Rune Charts

What are Runes?

Runes are the latest edition to the game, Cabal Online in Episode 3: Soul & Sienna, amongst other new features. The Runes (also known as Soul Ability) are similar to the pet option, whereby you can use it to learn specific options such as HP, Attack, Magic Attack and etc. that adds bonus to you permanently as long as you have learnt the Runes and is not deleted from the Soul Ability window.

To access this window, simply press U from your keyboard or alternatively click the icon circled in red as shown in the screenshot below:

Once done, you will see this window:

As you can see, the attribute skills which I had learned are Stun Resist, Down Resist, Knock-Back Resist, STR, DEX, INT and Pet EXP respectively.

Return to the FAQ Index

When can I use/learn Runes?

You can start learning these Runes from level 120 onwards, as this is where the first rune's level requirement is met and also this is when you start to gain Soul Ability known as Ability Experience Points (AXP). There is a bar right above the EXP bar which is yellow, instead of the EXP which is blue, as seen from the screenshot below:

It is also visible inside the Soul Ability Window (U) as shown in the screenshot below:

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How do I level up my Runes?

Runes require AP to learn and level it. In order to gain 1 AP, it is required to attain 10,000,000 AXP. The character gains AXP every time the character gains EXP. A character at any given time can store a maximum of 500 AP. Once reaching this limit, the character will not be able to gain anymore AXP nor AP until it is spent on Runes.

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Where can I find/hunt for Runes?

You can generally find runes at higher level maps and dungeons.

For Maps:

Lakeside
Mutant Forest
Pontus Ferrum

For Dungeons:

Frozen Tower of the Undead B1F
Volcanic Citadel
Frozen Tower of the Undead B2F
Forgotten Temple B1F
Forbidden Island
Sienna Altar B1F
Forgotten Temple B2F

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What type of Runes are there?

There are altogether 26 types of Runes at the moment for Cabal Online. The Runes, in the breakdown in groupings are:

Stats:

HP
MP
STR
INT
DEX
Attack
Magic Attack
Defense
Attack Rate
Defense Rate

Resistance:

Down Resistance
Stun Resistance
Knock-Back Resistance

EXP:

EXP
Skill EXP
Party EXP
Pet EXP

Amp:

Sword Skill Amp
Magic Skill Amp

Vampiric:

HP Steal Percentage
HP Steal Per Hit
MP Steal Percentage
MP Steal Per Hit

Wealth:

Alz Drop Rate
Alz Drop Amount
Alz Bomb Chance

For reference of each type of Rune after it has been learned, refer here.

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What are the limitations to the Runes I could learn?

Although there are 26 Runes in which could be very helpful if a player is given the chance to learn all of it, however a character can only learn up to 13 types of Rune at any one time.

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What do I need to learn these Runes?

The first thing would be the Rune itself, of course along with other catalysts, mainly cores. The type of cores that are needed for the skill increases depending on the growth and level of the Rune. For a more detailed information on requirements for Rune growth, refer to the Rune Growth Chart.

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Rune Charts

Runes (With Images)

Type	Image	Name	Drop Location
Stats		STR	Frozen Tower of the Undead B1F
		INT	-
		DEX	-
Resistances		Knock-Back Resist	Forbidden Island
		Down Resist	Frozen Tower of the Undead B2F
		Stun Resist	Volcanic Citadel

Cabal SEA Alz Selling Site www.sea5173.com is a fake!

2009-08-24T17:23:00.003+08:00

To all those who plays in CabalSEA and buys Alz, this site - www.sea5173.com is a fake. A reminder not to buy from them or you will eventually regret it.

Seagm.com and Gosumall is a more reliable and trusted source than this fake site, so do NOT attempt to buy stuff from sea5173.

Changes & Adaptation

2009-08-18T01:49:00.002+08:00

Evolution. The very definition of change and adaptation.

Why do we change?

Many factors lead us to change, be it naturally, self controlled or succumbed to the need to change.

I may only be 22 now, but changes can happen so much, so often even in the shortest of times. I am no exception.

What was once familiar becomes vague. What was once out of reach is now within grasp. What was thought to be hard becomes an ordinary.

I use to think life was but a fairytale, but it was just the icing on the cake. What lies beneath the icing, is the real deal.

I always led a very care free life, or rather, a life of a himbo (the male version of bimbo). I was very stuck up, self centered and only cared what matters most to me. I have to admit, I still show these symptoms but I would usually later reflect back and see if it was wise of me to have been so (which in most cases, no). The only thing I am grateful from evolving from my past state when coping with issues like this is to repent, or regret but moving on with life through learning from these mistakes.

I learn that reality bites, but we live through it anyway. I learn that nothing matters as long as you don't make it a matter. I learn that hurting friends would hurt yourself too. I learn that life is like a punching dummy - get hit, go down and rise again. I learn that through pain only can you find the clear truth. I learn that only 1 person in your life is your true best friend. I learn with great power, comes an even greater respect for responsibility. I learn that we need to forgive ourselves before another forgives us.

I learn that no matter how difficult things get, we pick ourselves up and just keep moving.

Never give up. Never hold back. Never turn away. Never stop trying. Never be hindered to stride for your goal. Never regret and stay that way. Most importantly, never give up on life.

G. I. Joe

2009-08-15T13:33:00.002+08:00

This show was one of most movie seekers like myself would consider to be the anticipated movie of 2009 and yes, it was epic!

Although I'm not a fan of G. I. Joe and don't know much about the history, structure, stories and background of the animated series which I guess would be a contributing factor in which makes the movie a whole lot more enjoyable.

The movie had decent graphics combined with a whole lot of action packed scenes which backs up the rather dry story line and plot. It is in a word, predictive on how some scenes and all the pieces fits in as you would have guessed it would be.

Still, this is one of the movies I watch this year that I did not regret, looking forward to its sequel.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

2009-08-15T13:10:00.002+08:00

Yes, being a big Harry Potter fan that I am, I will not miss out on watching this although, it was as expected, a disappointment.

My memory may be a little rusty but I do know that the movie was emphasizing on the wrong part of the story and missing out on so much more details.

For example, they focused too much on romance instead of the title of this series itself, Half Blood Prince. They never explained the origins and how Severus Snape became or adopted the nick 'Half Blood Prince' (I myself need to refresh my memory by reading the book once more).

The book also tells how the relationship between Harry and Cho drifted apart and how he and Ginny started out but the movie cut straight to the chase instead.

Seriously, it was such a let down. If this was to become the second-last movie of the series, I think the finale would be 'epic' enough to be a huge let down.

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

2009-07-31T19:56:00.023+08:00

Yep, a little late on the update but here it is.

I was watching this with my usual company of tight friends about 3 to 4 weeks ago. Being the huge Transformers fan that I am, it was rather a let down for me. The graphics were great, the humour was awesome but what made the movie a bust was that it did not tie up lose ends, like the movie was made in a hurry or something.

(WARNING: Spoilers up ahead)

-	If the cold freezing water is strong enough to keep Megatron 'asleep', how does 6 mere Decepticons were able to dive down to ressurect Megatron?
-	The number of Decepticons that dived down was 6, and after ressurecting Megatron by sacrificing 1 Decepticon, 7 rised up?
-	The part where the Omnimatrix key turned to dust and got back into one piece, how and what causes it to piece back together? Shia character's consciousness? Lol?

Not to mention, the theme song was sang by the same artist, Linkin Park. I like the song but I think it was a rather cliche act by Linkin Park to perform for the same movie franchise with an almost similar beat (doesn't it remind you of What I've Done?)

So again, I emphasize how much of a let down this sequel was.

FINALLY

2009-07-31T12:39:00.003+08:00

It took me over RM3000+ to realise that it was my time to quit.

Never have I felt so stupid in my life. RM3000+ just to realise how stupid it is to invest in this game.

Fuck it.

From now on I will not spend a single cent on online games, anymore!

LoLCat round #2

2009-07-15T05:15:00.003+08:00

Here's to the funny guys at icanhascheezburger.com and the selected few Lolcats which I like, enjoy:

Worst E-Gaming Company Ever - Asiasoft

2009-07-04T16:06:00.008+08:00

The leading online entertainment service provider in southeast asia

As if.

Yes, it's true.

The forum is filled with very irresponsible moderators. Why?

When they perform an action they hardly notify people of their actions, which could conceal their true intentions behind their nature of their doing or they could be doing something shady.

Firstly, I started this thread: Need Recommendations

Asking forumers regarding other online games besides CabalSEA that is NOT under Asiasoft management. Yes, I know it was my mistake to ask this, but I saw the fate of the thread coming, getting locked. I really don't mind the topic being locked, what really ticked me off is the topic is locked and moved WITHOUT any prior message from the authority regarding their actions. HIGHLY irresponsible much?

Then, I posted this thread: CMs or Forum Mods are very irresponsible

As you can see from this post here, it is clear without a doubt no other moderators came to respond to me but Scowl and he (or she) has yet to respond to my argument.

Then I decided to create a topic on information regarding the sale on my account, and yes deleted and given 2 ban points too. I really don't mind the ban points much as I really wanted to sell my account. Then I decided to put the message in my siggie, a brief and quite straight forward message on the selling of my CabalSEA account.

Guess what?

My account was given 4 ban points totalling the amount of 6 ban points, which the forum only needs 5 to be permanently suspended. Not only did I not know for sure and confirmed that I was being banned for the signature I used, but no notification from the administration informing me of the permanent suspension through e-mail, nothing. They take so much idiotic actions such as these and not notifying people of it, is seriously irresponsible.

Their forum management is shitty, their network management for their gaming servers are beyond abysmal despair and furthermore, their in-game management personifies the meaning of futility.

Besides the point of their failure forum management, we'll talk about Asiasoft in a whole. Asiasoft has been nothing but a company full of hoax. Why? Picture this. I won an event hosted by them, titled Asiasoft Gamefest 2009 CabalSEA 'The Time Attack Dungeon Run - Lost World' (MY) which was held in 1 Utama on the 6th of June 2009.

As you can see, my character nick 'Haxter' is one of the 2nd place winner for the cabal cash prize of 200k to be split even between the 6 of us, but right until now, I have yet been credited. I checked my Asiasoft Passport, and this is what I got:

They said they would credit the prize to us within 7 working days of the announcement of the winner list and guess when was the announcement made? 10th of June 2009. What is the date now? 4th of July 2009 and they had decided to 'speed up' the process by asking us over the QBox for the prizes that we want in exchange of the Cabal Cash being credited to our account and this is what I am still getting:

Nice job Asiasoft, nice.

This is but just 1 event that they did not live up to their promise. In another event, the server had undergone a maintenance and in one of the announcement it stated Channels Optimization'. We were wondering what exactly does that mean, maybe a lagless connection or a smoother one would take place after the maintenance, but what was expected instead was something far worse.

After the 30th of June 2009 Server Maintenance, channels for CabalSEA servers (Mercury, Venus and Mars) has been reduced from 24 to 12. If they think reducing the number of channels would optimize performance for the server, they thought wrong.

There were even a lot of protest and hubbub regarding this as the effect from this action was very visible in the forum and the topic is found here. Not only the shrinking of the channels caused the player population to squeeze into the already small number of channels, but due to the increases of population per channel, the channel became even laggier than before. Players are cramped up and a lot of issues happened. Territorial disputes even happen because of this.

So much drama, so much problems, so much shit happening in CabalSEA alone. Hackers are running amock and what are the Game Master/Moderators doing? Banned none of them.

My freedom to sell or trade my account is also refrained from me. I seriously doubt Asiasoft being the top and leading gaming company for SouthEast Asia. It is the worse I've seen by far, they pretty much resemble E-Games. Who's E-Games? See, a company as retarded as that has been forgotten by people except from the Phillipines because E-Games is still thriving there.

All I know is, Asiasoft is a waste of time and money. Spend nothing on them or regret and dread your hard earned money and precious time on a FAILURE company.

To top it all off folks, here is the result from a random search which I typed 'Asiasoft Sucks' on Google (take note of the Results X of X part);

I wish I was never born

2009-06-27T21:34:00.003+08:00

I'm 22.

What have I achieved in my life? Nothing.
How many things and/or people have I broken or shattered? Tons.

For those who hate reading everything, please skip to the summary at the bottom by clicking this.

I have been doing a lot of things some people would describe as a 'good' person would do. I never smoked. I never gamble for real money. I never killed an innocent life. I never robbed a bank, although I confess I had stolen a pack of Twisties from a shop once. I never cheat people, cause I know it is wrong and yet, I have been punished over and over again. One thing I know I did that I have been guilty for but ever since had stopped doing was - lying.

It all started when I was young. I used to like to tell lies because I thought I could get away with things. I used to lie to my parents about simplest of things, such as finishing candy which I'm not supposed to, spending money on unwanted or useless items and so forth. I still remember making a phone call to a televised game which requires you to input your moves through the keypad of the phone which caused the phone bill to be hefty. I was really foolish, but I was naive enough to let the television influence me, not like this has changed ...

I never knew about the negativity that lingers in the world because my parents had been doing one heck of a good job keeping me in a safe world. I am so foolish. I never once thought I could survive without them and the thought now returns to haunt me, for it is true.

I was a real newbie when it comes to technology, let alone gaming until I met a guy in secondary school. He started teaching me the 'joys' of playing games, that is when I started to play online games and got hooked to it. I was so hooked on games I spent my pocket money constantly going to the internet cafe to play these games as I do not own a PC capable of playing online games instead of beneficial things such as saving it for a rainy day on food or buying clothes and stuff. Perhaps, that was the biggest impact on my life in which had made me hate it all that much.

I was so keen on playing games, like an addict on a drug haul. I always played truant by skipping classes and going to these internet cafes to play games. Inevitably, I had been caught by my parents and yet I was still stubborn and addicted to playing these games, I defied their wishes. I am very foolish.

All these gaming issues caused me to slack in my studies. If I had not been introduced to these games, I would have been the studious student that I had had imagined to be. Although I would be labelled as a geek, my life would have been more meaningful, instead of what I am now. With that, I never scored good greats for my SPM and this not only disappoints me, but my parents as well. I am beyond foolish, an idiot.

Years have passed. Changes come, changes go. Although there are more changes to my life, I was still incapable of doing things right. I wanted to go into biotech studies for diploma as I was still keen on studying Biology and Chemistry eventhough I had crappy grades and even while being influenced by games, the wanting to learn still burns within me like a never ending flame. My dad could not afford my studies, thus I picked my second choice back then which I think was a stupid one. The only reason I picked IT was because I wanted to get a PC to play games, not very much because I wanted to learn about computing. Again, a real idiot and selfish one too.

What I wish to have taken instead was Journalism. I love writing more than anything, and I was a little too late to realise this when I was already half way into my diploma. I didn't want to waste my parent's hard earn money so I continued.

One of my biggest regret is that because of my addicition towards gaming caused me to do something so sinful, God himself will never forgive me for doing it. I hit my father, literally with my fist over the reason of playing games. I deeply regret how foolish I was. Because I was so keen on trying to 'achieve' something in games I actually fought with my father on that issue. He was hurt, partially bleeding in his left eye and it was all my fault. I can never ask for his forgiveness and even if he would, I could never accept it. As from that day onward, my relationship with my father had been severed. How could I have let something useless and meaningless as my addiction on games to cause my ties with my father to be so damaged? I am such an imbecile.

Studying soon became my lack of interest. When I advanced to degree before venturing to the working scenario, I had been playful. I never gave enough credit to the people who actually work hard for the degree they earned and I constantly have games up in my mind. With that, I never managed to finish assignments on time as I was too busy playing games instead of doing them. Something which I deeply regret as well. Why was I so consumed by addiction? My mistake. I suffered for it, the consequences that comes with my action.

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I know I haven't posted for awhile, there has been a lot of things that came up lately mainly my dad's passing, me spending money for online monetary currency and a minor car accident. Another proof of how much of an idiot I am that I can never pick the right choice and doing the right thing.

In conclusion, I have done so many mistakes in my life and being so optimistic as I had been is becoming such a daunting feeling to me. I just can't seem to do anything right, I just wish I was never born. Never having to cause my dad so much hardship, indifference and mostly, the severance our father-son relationship. Never caused my sister to be jealous of me because I was so pampered right until now. Never have to cause my mom to constantly cry and worry about me and my welfare. Never to cause any problems to the nice people I have met in my life.

There are so many more things I have done which were all mistakes that given the chance I would rectify, or better yet making sure I never actually exist to do so.

I just wish I was never born, but life is never this easy. Life, just depart from me now ...

CabalSEA Wall Hack

2009-05-31T22:24:00.003+08:00

I can't believe I'm resorting to this, but there's no other way to earn Alz with my cruddy luck for games ...

As mentioned, if you want this I will be able to sell it to you for Mercury Alz. Leave your IGN here and we'll discuss the trade.

5 Star Ratings for Restaurant City

2009-05-30T09:40:00.004+08:00

I woke up today to find out that someone gave me 5 star rating for my incomplete restaurant lol:

Aww, whoever rated me was so kind =3

Good ol Streamyx, I salute you! (Part 2)

2009-05-26T12:07:00.003+08:00

Hiya. Noticed I have been missing for 5 days? Well what other reason can it be other than Shitmix, yes!

My patience is wearing thin. The complete neglect and irresponsible behaviour shown by streamyx is seriously unacceptable.

It started at about 7 p.m. on the 21st of May 2009. The latency issue from the morning of that said day became very stringent and making it hard to do about almost everything. Can't play online games, massive delay. It takes more than 10 seconds for a website (such as google) to load and don't get me started on the download speed.

I contacted them about 3 times within these said few days and all I get from them is 'technical FAQ troubleshooting' assistance which does not only waste my time but does not work when the problem was them to begin with.

Complaints are rarely handled properly such as the way most other country does. Why? Malaysian government is run by a bunch of lazy buggers. I don't flippin' care if people consider me racist, but it's the truth - Malays are a bunch of lazy, unproductive, hakuna matata living type of people I have ever seen. Pisses me off to be living in a country govern by them. They do not seek to advance themselves, nor do they seek productivity. I think their goal in life is to meet Tuhan (God). Kudos, pathetic people. Even Christians don't pray 5 times a day, for Christ sake.

Anyway, back to Streamyx. I called Streamyx the first time to complain about how slow the connection was (happened in 21st of May). They said they will feedback to me on the following day regarding this problem. They did, but not to the terms in which that could improve the situation. I was given a feedback the following day (22nd May) somewhere around noon till evening that they had 'resetted the port' at my area and claimed that it will solve the problem - but it didn't.

So I went to tinker with my Modem for a little (the cheap Billion modem/router given by Streamyx) to help with the connection sequence, as instructed by the Help line. Not only did it not fix the problem, it made it worst. The PPP light for the modem/router completely shut off and no more connection to the internet since then.

I have no idea where I drew my patience from, but it was still holding on, even remotely enough to keep me sane. Even after 3 days since then, the technician had still yet to come to my house and no response at all from the corresponding person. No phone calls. No show. Productivity zero.

It's sad to say that I am going crazy staying in Malaysia. Internet is the infrastructure to the world, and Malaysia is suppressing the nation from their rights to be creative and diverse.

It's sad to know I'm a Malaysian. I seriously detest myself from admitting as one and I'm glad Streamyx has a bad review on the Wikipedia page.

Good ol Streamyx, I salute you!

2009-05-21T03:09:00.005+08:00

I kind of expected this from tmnet. It has been 1 month since I re-used streamyx. I remember it was about 3 to 4 weeks ago, the streamyx line was exceptionally great, for Malaysian ISP that is.

My online game (CabalSEA), although only within SEA region connection was doing quite well, even if I'm using a wi-fi connection, surfing the web was as fast as Daniel's line and youtube streaming was great for Malaysian ISP standards.

But since yesterday GMT+8 10 a.m. in the morning (Wednesday), my line starts to act up. The web surfing was becoming sluggish, the delay in CabalSEA was 5 seconds (casted buff, buff icon appears 5 seconds after and etc.) but the funny thing is facebook connection and google is not compromised (within a set of limitation) so I'm only RC-ing for the moment ...

Streamyx has yet to fix this, and I am very pissed with the service they are providing. I even complained to MCMC (Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commissions)

Updates!

2009-05-14T12:52:00.002+08:00

No, I have not been inactive from blogging, just busy with final preparation for the end of year 2 semester for my degree.

Assignments, almost all completed. Exams, not started, but will after my assignments are done and submitted. Cabal? Semi-active as I will now try to achieve the title 'Hidden T is watching over you' (Completes all Hidden T quests) as all that are left now are the LiD quests, FR bosses (2; Karion and Cockatrice) and the final Solo D.T., Ancient City in Ruina.

As for blog layout, still tinkering with the stuff I have such as change of colour scheme or arrangements, the 'About Us' tabs which makes no sense for a blog o_O and the banner on top, which would comprise of multiple things I like (e.g. o2jam, cabal, colours, etc.) or describes me.

So await my next post, with new layout changes as well as updates =)

p.s. My Facebook is active especially in Restaurant City, add me there =D