Khai Shin's Life Story xD

一年后的我

2012-01-20T19:12:00.000-08:00

相隔了一年，我终于回来啦！

最近实在发生了太多太多的事。。心里一直开心不起来。

之前的post说希望可以进到马大，是的，我成功的进到马大了 ^^

这一年多来，的确体验了很多，学习了很多，朋友也认识了非常多！

马大的确是个好地方！^^

也许之前的生活过得太充实了，连blog都不想打了。

今天看回很多以前写过的东西，发现自己这一年多的脚步好像，快了。

我以往很多以前的事，以前老师们提醒我的事，以前大姐告诉我的事。

看了那些文章以后才发现，eh。。原来写blog能记载很多事情。:)

就好象我的成长日记。

我也看回当我们同在一起那个部落格，看回很多以前记载着感受的事情。。

原来忙碌的生活真的会让人遗忘许许多多的事。。

看回去那些文章，虽然觉得有点可笑，却也觉得甜蜜。哈哈，很难形容的感受。

现在大家都成长了许多，时过境迁，人事已非。

为自己加油！！！

Going back to kmm

2010-01-23T08:44:00.000-08:00

Lolz..
I'm going back to the beloved KMM tomorow..
T.T
The holidays are too long, I used to the life at home...........
why need to go back again >.<
omgg.............
haiz, need to suit myself to the life in college again, everytime like this.
after used to the life there then holiday get started, then ...>.<
nevermind, this would be the last time, the life in KMM is gonna end soon!
lolz..I'm so happy with this,
anyway, gambateh for myself! remember, be happy and positive all the time!

First time

2010-01-21T21:50:00.000-08:00

Ha, today is my first experience of buying a Bank Draft. ^.^
Hm..haiz, such a large amount for me, change to only a small piece of paper like this..><
1000...can buy so many things, especially my WII T.T
took out the money from ATM machine, hand in to the miss, and change into this draft -.-
1000, fresh money, 50 50 50 50 50...haha. but it was gone ><

A week has passed

2010-01-16T08:08:00.000-08:00

And I had done nothing, just rest. Haha.

这整个星期的确没做到什么
恩。
但也想了很多，放下了很多
这世界的确有很多我们生活外的东西
我的确放轻松了
是时候做应该做的事了

凡事要看开点
世界是精彩的！

哈哈！加油哦！

现在还蛮渴望有个假期的
想到国外走走，自己走，不跟团
最好的地方不外是台湾了吧，
本来三月妈咪要带我去的，可惜我没空。。
哎，想当个背包客，要等到4月后阿！
假期！等我！

Tears

2010-01-14T07:40:00.000-08:00

Again.
I'm back and I have rested well at home for almost a week.
I'm longing to type this post before I back to home,
but then when I reach my home, I don't have any motivation to type it down.

Finally, I type it out now.

Well, tears?
Why do I name this post as tears?

Cz..this is the first time,
my tears dropped for quite many times in a day..in kmm..
after I knew I had made a big mistakes in my account paper..
the possibility to get an A is so little,
I wonder why do I made such a stupid mistake that time?
It caused me to lose a lot of marks, I couldn't get 4.0 in UPS2 I think..

actually I dare to face my fault, the problem is,
I worry it would affect my entrance to um..
this is the causes of dropping tears.....line by line

lolz
Frankly speaking, even I got 4.0 for PSPM and UPS1 last time,
I did not feel any happiness actually,
just a sense of relief..
And this time, if I still manage to get 4.0, certainly I will be very happy!
but, is it possible? I wonder.

Anyway, I have think of many words to console myself,
I still remember what sis told me last time,
something like this,
人生不只有成绩，
到了大学，就搞多一点活动，丰富你的人生
如果盲目的追求成绩，
出来后会发现自己错过了很多。

And those words in seasons in life..

Well, anyway, just accept what will be happened,
I wish I could enter UM. thanks god. hehe.

Rash

2009-12-05T16:30:00.000-08:00

After all, I'm back again cause of RASH.
hmm..this whole week I could say I didn't study at all..
I do not have any mood to study especially when I look at my leg..
It's so disgusting, I couldn't believe that's my leg and
it has a big contrast with another one..
I really worry about it fortunately kok wan asked me to go home earlier..
I do not even think of this before..
and with great fortune, I back to home safely..

And there is only one and a half hour left for me to be at home..
I will miss you, my sweet home..always the warmest one.
These few days I can feel the concern from all my family members
and my daddy even does not want to me back to college so fast..
but I think I'm okay already, so I persist to go back..
Hopefully everything will be okay ..
and I must return to the mood of study already!!!
Already lost for one week..

And here is a funny thing, every time when I am sick
and need to have a treatment from the doctor,
I will think that it's so nice to be a doctor,
can save people who are in danger..
but this remain as a dream always..due to many reasons...
Anyway, best of wishes to everyone including myself,
I will come back here again, hehe. ^.^

Raya Haji

2009-11-26T22:53:00.000-08:00

Haha, so happy, finally!
ermm, actually it's just after 3 weeks, I back to home again !! =)

Just 3 weeks, seems short but there are so many things could happen within that period of time.. lolz, most importantly, I have got my PSPM1 result.
Well, I have decided to put UM as my first choice due to many reasons,
hopefully I could get it!

I have many things that I want to type at here, but currently I have forgotten
many of them..haha.

Hmm, well, I feel thankful to my business lecturer, Mr Arul.
His knowledge are enough for me to solve most of my doubts, lol.
He had taught me to think, to ask, to understand, not just follow blindly.
There are a lot of responsible lecturers in Malaysia, yet,it's hard to meet a lecturer who is willing to tell you the truth, you may not have the chance to
meet one throughout your whole life,
and with great fortune, I have met him.

Lol, seems typing love letter -.-

I am enthusiastic to enter university life now, though I know there are a lot of obstacles awaiting there for me.
I wish to plan projects, join young entrepreneur contest, as I wish.
It's my dream since Form 5, I wish to gain as much soft skills as I could,
to have a successful career in the future.

I always ask myself what is this for actually?

And my answer will always be the same.

To protect my family members.

Maybe cause by my personality, since I am a cancerian..
always have the want to protect my belonging.

Why do I need to study so hard, learn so many things,
have a burdening dream and wish..
It's all for my family members.
I do not wish others to hurt them, and I want to give them a better life
though we are not poor, but people always look for higher

I am not wanting to be the richest people in a certain area,
but when I feel the quality of life of my family have been improved,
I can donate all the unnecessary money to nonprofit organization,
what I want just an happy but quality life with my family.
I do like my parents always worry about this and that,
I wish I could have the ability to eliminate all their worries.
That's my VISION.

And my objective is to learn as much things as I could.

Mission? Be a chartered accountant to gain modal and run business.

But, all the above are just an ideal life,
life is not a bed of red roses..
who knows what will happen next? haha.

Just take it optimistically.

Sadness and Sorrow..

2009-11-18T19:44:00.000-08:00

Ha, today I had my economics lecture as usual ..
but there is something I mmust type it down here.

Today En. Amri asked for the meaning of Gaji and upah kasar,
actually I know the answer..but since it's the thing I had read sometimes ago,
I was not really sure about my answer, and I just mumbled it out softly..

When En. Amri asked who had actually read for these topics, I know I had, truly,
but I was afraid that he will ask me the question and I didn't have to courage to answer his question..I was aftraid that my answer would be wrong and those frens will laugh at me, especially those who like to talk about the others..

Because of these reasons, I didn't admit that I had really read and understand the topics and indirectly, I denied my effort for such a long time in studying macroeconomics..I had read so many things including extra knowledge and understand each item to be put in every approach to calculate GDP and why some should be put and others shall not. I know, I read, and I understand. I search for every doubts appear in my minds but why I do not have the courage to admit I really had put an effort on it? just only scare to be lauged by others. Ha, tee khai shin, stupid la u! omg! Really dissapointed on you, shame on you!

And I do not understand why I so care about the words said by En. Amri, sebenarnya awak tak baca..hmm, sad sad sad..

A sad and sorrow day for me..

Sigh..aikhss...haiz...............................................

I think I have to stop here and screen back my problems, do I really not hardworking enough? The intention is there, but action? Ha.
Taken, but it is far less than my own capability..haiz..

anyway, just take this as the lesson and I do not want to do this again for the next time. Ok? Keep it up, don't feel sorry again to yourself !

又是一个开始

2009-11-04T20:40:00.000-08:00

哈，真快，三个星期的假期就这样结束了。。
明天我就要回到学校去。。
哎，看来又要一段时间适应那里的生活，毕竟都回来三个星期那么久了
真不敢想象我桌子上的灰尘有多厚，哈！

这三个星期我是很颓废的过着
第一个星期回到来，因为之前考试，很久没好好休息了，
就一直睡一直睡，醒来就玩game-.-
然后第二个星期就去槟城走走。。
回来也很累，又颓废的过了一个星期
第三个星期，哈，颓废的看动漫T.T
天啊！我怎么浪费了那么多时间，
回去就是非常重要的MUET了，多么重要，之前还答应自己回来要好好补充自己的vocab,现在？=。=
说什么都没用了，至少我charge满电了啦-。-

每次都光有想头没有行动，哎。。

哈，说说槟城之旅吧，其实也不是很想去了的，因为好多人哦，
变得行动不太方便，我比较喜欢少少人的旅行，哈！
可是都跟姐说了会去，而且也没什么机会见面，
就去咯。哈！
真是不枉此行啦，其实姐跟我说了很多我都懂的东西，
可是这些事情会被忙碌的生活给掩盖，
就好像给了我一些提醒，
尤其是说道人生中的困难和态度那里，
谢谢阿！^.^

我觉得一个人对待生活的态度很重要，
当然不能奢望每个身边的人都有跟我一样的态度的想法，
人各有志嘛，哈。。
对我个人而言，我欣不欣赏一个人，
就在于他/她对于所面对的事情的态度，
而不是那个会随着时间而改变的外貌。
一个太在乎外貌的人，内里是不够充实的:D

刚刚妈咪帮我洗脸，说到妹妹的事情，
哎，也不可以怪妹妹啦，虽然说她现在的态度是不太好，
但是只要现在一直给予她正确的guidance,还是可以的。
哥哥说过，一个成功人士，如果他身边的亲友都生活潦倒的话，那个人就算是失败。

我想，现在妹妹她们的成绩酱，虽然不是说差到谷底，可是跟我比起来，
爸妈阿姨老师们总会拿来做比较，
有时真的很想教导她们，可是现在也很少在家里了，以后更不用说，
影响力确实很小，就如姐说的。
我竟然花了这么多时间看动漫，睡觉，却没教到妹妹什么，哈XD
明天就要回学校了，现在才发现我有很多事情还没做。。哎
可是我也想到方法帮妹妹了，哈哈哈哈，看她愿不愿意配合。
就趁她们还尊重你的时候帮她们，才是有效的。

好了，也想不到要写些什么了，回去后应该很少上网吧，哈，大家加油！

Do televisions cause the increase in violence?

2009-10-20T09:35:00.001-07:00

Do you agree?

At first, I'm agree with this.
but after thinking deeper, I feel that, it's not the fault of the television.

Television is lifeless, it's invented by human.

We, the people are more influential than a died television, isn't it?

Thinking from 3 aspects,

the parental guidance, education system and the society.

They are more influential to a people than a television.
Lazy to further elaborate, haha. Just my opinion.

It's a failure of our education system to educate good youths.

One month has passed.

2009-10-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hmm, it's so fast, just like a twinkling of an eye,
haha..no lar, not that fast, but it's fast xD

Time passes so so so fast ..
I had finished the first semester in Malacca Matriculation College.
Well, all in all, my life there was great, fun and it's a place for you to know more friends from different parts of the country.

To be very frank, I don't like to go into a local matriculation college at first, I guess many people would have the same thought as me.
You will never found its benefit till you really enter the life there.

Local matriculation ? What's that? Ha.
Last year when my teacher asked us to apply for it, I nearly rejected the offer, since in my opinion, the education there is in a lower standard. I believe I'm capable for a better education, a more compact syllabus and competitive environment.

And after apply for it, I never expect I will be chosen into any matriculation college in Malaysia, just for a try. Who knows? I'm chosen for it, in Malacca. It's the oldest matriculation college among the others. The infrastructures here are very old, 11 year-old building. I still remember many of my friends told me that, it's not a good place to live in but it has the best result if compared to other matriculation colleges.

Maybe I just finished National Service, come out from a lousier place, so I feel it's very comfortable to live and study in my college. I know, it can't be compare to those private college. Ha. At least I'm having a totally free education, receiving incentives as well. -.- Must be contented to what we have XD
Other than that, I can enjoy playing squash, table tennis, tennis, or whatever sports I want at here for free, no need to pay for any admission fee.

After studying here, I just know ..ya, frankly speaking, those things we are learning is not not as deep as STPM and A-level. It's rather simple if being compared to both of them, but we just have 18 weeks for a semester, you know?
You need to be a person who will not waste any time to study for all the subjects in order not to be so stressed. You are considered not good if you get lower than 4.0 in your final exam. Just in 18 study weeks, we need to handle and understand all the topics wholly , it's not an easy job! I have look down on it before, I know for sure the standard of an A is low, but, to really get the real A is not as easy as I think. Please don't think local matriculation is a piece of cake before you try.

I went to Perlis Matriculation College a few months ago, for the yearly sports carnival among matriculation colleges. The college is very beautiful and new if compared to mine, all the tutorial classrooms and science labs are air-conditioned, we just have fans spinning here, but there are 4 fans in a tutorial room, not hot as well. He He. They have a white colour fascinating masjid, we have only a small and old surau. Their cafe size is same as our main hall. Lolz.
Yet, I still enjoy and feeling fortune to be chosen to Malacca, it's more comfortable to live in.

The buildings are old but they are quite well maintained.
Most importantly, they are clean, the toilets and bathroom are clean!
Perlis is new but oh my god, their toilet is so small and so dirt..
There are so many kind of insects in a single toilet, I had been bitten badly by those insects, leaving so many dots on my legs and waist. T.T

And I had knew a lot of good friends here, hehe.
All the non-bumi here are being selected, so 99% of us are posses good and positive attitude on our studies. In private college, there are too many different kinds of people, both of them have their boon and bane.

Typing until here, I recall of something to express here.

Through 18 years of life, I have met a lot of people..
there are handsome , beautiful and those not having an attractive outlook.
I believe that there are so many visual animals in this world,
everyone will look at 1st impression, it's very important.
So, for those who is having a handsome or beautiful face, you are lucky.
But, through so many years, I feel myself are becoming less and less visualized.
Ya, you are very beautiful, you are handsome, so what?

I would value the one with good and positive attitude towards their own lives higher than the one who with an attractive outlook.

You are beautiful, but you don't appreciate those who are less competent than you.
You look down on the others.
You are beautiful, but you don't really work for what you want.
Always look help from the others. Longing for people to lend you a hand.
Always tell people how pity you are, how terrible is the condition, looking for sympathize.

I don't really like these people, sorry for offense. Just need to express my own feeling here, didn't expect for any visitor.

这么多年来，我遇到过一个，真的很美，又很积极，很负责任，不看轻别人的，
就只有你，还是你。。真是难得。

不好意思，我真的很不欣赏一个自己不帮助自己的人。一点也不积极。
样子不是问题，态度才是大问题！

Yet, I feel myself more and more care what are people thinking of me.
What's my impression to the others.
It's rather contradicting, but I would try to better my outlook, meanwhile, I don't fall into the fake appearance of the others. Ha.

So, I'm having my 3 weeks holidays now ..and ..what to do? He.hE.

My music dream..

2009-09-21T00:45:00.001-07:00

Ha.

Hm...these few days i keep on watching musical videos in youtube..

these are a few recommendations, they are really nice to me..

CANON ROCK IN VIOLIN, this 1 must watch!!! nice .. and they are wearing masks, perhaps wish people to concentrate on their music more? hehe. It has revived my love towards violin !!

Twilight Techno on Piano.

And this is a song from japanese anime, very sentimental piece. Bravo!

Music from Zelda, nice quartet !!!

Naruto...:)

A Mariage Ceremony..

2009-09-20T22:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went to a wedding ceremony..
hmm..

The bride and bridegroom are only 17 year-old, even younger than me..
It's like I was seeing a young kid standing on the stage, but he is married.

Maybe they can live happily in the future .. both of them must be very mature in persisting their own marriage.

My mum always worry I'll be one of them, have premarital sex and then have a baby, then marry..
I think I won't break my beautiful and hopeful life like that.
I still have a lot of things to do, marry at 17? Oh my god..it's unimaginable.

I do not mean that early marriage is a bane, but how can my husband and I support our own family if both of us do not have the ability to earn yet?
We will surely increase a lot of burden to the people around us.

So, everyone, especially my friend, think b4 you DO. Ha HA.
Take safety precaution lar, if you really want.

I hope to have a wonderful marriage, even it is not perfect, at least it is planned for a long time, not because of the sudden news of having a baby for 3 months, ha.

Let me dream a while..hmm, actually I don't like too many people to attend my marriage, I wish to see those who I really know them, not a vast number of relatives who have been lose contacted for a long long time -.- hmm...
maybe celebrate with different groups of people, segmentise the people..haha.

Who will be my husband I wonder ? He.He.
Looks doesn't matter much but you must not be dirty..or ..dono how to say, at least smart.
then, you must be a responsible man, willing to earn money to support our family..
good to my family members...hehe.
and for sure I will treat you very good as well. :P and have a happy family..

I wish my mariage can last forever.. from young ..

our hands still holding each other till old...

Lastly, best of wishes for the bride and bridegroom.

Life -- this would be a very long post about my recent life.

2009-09-17T19:17:00.000-07:00

Seems it has been a long time since my last post.
Hmm, how to describe my life now? I think it's rather great..

Being selected into local matriculation college, is it a boon or a bane to me?
I do not know, but I can confirm that I'm living well here, I have knew a lot of new friends and I have learned quite many new knowledge..

Hmm, before coming into Malacca Matriculation College (MMC), I do not know how to play tennis, I don't know how to play squash, I have never touch the racket as well. Ha. Then kok wan teaches me how to play squash, and I like it very much, it's fun..though i'm still very bad in playing it xD

Recalling last year, I have determined to get into The University of Nottingham, Malaysia Campus (UNMC).I have longed for the campus life there but then, for sure it will cost a lot to my parents. It doesn't mean that my parents can't support me to the university, but I am very clear that I still have 3 younger sisters, and how about there is any thing happened in case of emergency? Furthermore, my grandpa is now about 70's and his health is not in a sound condition, going in and out of the private hospital for so many times..if I study in UMNC, I must have burdened them a lot. I know my mum want me to study STPM, but how if I couldn't get the course I want? To a certain extent, it's lucky to me to get matrics.

Then .. I went for National Service. I used to be afraid of it as I do not exercise always..Ha. Quite weak at the time. But my bro bought us a jogging machine, let me jog slowly everyday at home as I can't endure a vigorous exercise suddenly. The first few weeks in NS is terrible I think. My handphone had been confiscated by those trainers, so I didn't even have a chance to tell my parents how's my situation there, whether i was okay or not. My tears dropped a few times, I just wanted to inform my parents that my life was ok there. And all the public phones card had been sold out, after waiting for a week if I was not mistaken, I just able to buy a phone card and call my dad..He. He.

The life in National Service is not suffering actually, but I don't know whether I am lucky to get a strict commander assistant, many people will think that we are unlucky, unfortunate or wadever, but I'm still in the mind that he did those things are for our own good, though those physical punishments were really so xfdnfskjdfnkaj, unable to describe it, it would only be my memory, although it was very suffering to finish the punishment at that moment, but I'm sure that it is a sweet memory of mine. Through the punishment, my had a better relation with my friends..we have gone through a lots of difficulties together, I have not forgotten you all till now..I will keep you all in my memory always, especially Wai Onn and Li Yin. Though now both of you have not contacted me or reply my messages, I will still keep u two in my heart. I long for the day to meet you all again.

Dragging to my life in MMC now, recently I feel that it's really hard to find a soulmate, or someone who can really understand you. In here, I could say I have friends, quite many,even close friends, those who always stay together with me, just like during primary and secondary school, but a friend who really understand me? No. I have not found one yet in MMC. It's hard for me to find one as well, as I will not share my heartfeel with others. I just show part of myself during the daily life, i now many things but i won't say it out. Maybe sometimes I will think certain things too deeply, beyond those things common teenager will consider about. I do not mind some of the people misunderstood me,about my personality or what..maybe I mind..I think I mind, but that's ur opinion, I can't change your mind, or maybe I can change ur mind by declaring myself or change my behavior my way of showing myself, but I do not wish to change into another fake khai shin. What I'm showing you all is part of the real khai shin, but then how much you can understand about the real personality of mine, it depends on you.

Frankly speaking, I'm an observant, but it's limit to those who I care about. Maybe I am a cancerian (in horoscope,haha), so I'm quite sensitive to those things happen around me, but I will not saying it out. I'd rather keep the things I have observed in my mind than sharing with others. I didn't say it out doesn't mean I'm very weak in observing things around me, I just do not hope to misunderstand the others. Actually that day I was quite unhappy to be misunderstood by 'u 3',maybe not only u 3 but all of u. Just, you all say she likes him, it's very obvious through the her actions or wad..but I really very seldom meet them together, and who are them? They are not my close friend as well, what's the point of talking about them at their back? Either she likes him or dislikes him is non of my business.

What do observant means to u? Is that someone who likes to make a conclusion about others through their own observation is a so called observant? I do not think so.

All of us are 18 year-old now, and we come from different family background.
All of us have gone through different things before we meet each other here.
So, this will result in the personalities of everyone. You and I will not have the exactly same personality.

The same bottle on the table, everyone would have different views about it, because we have gone through different circumstances.
To better describe this, I can say 每个人的价值观都不同。
So, we can't conclude something about the others on our own, certain action for you, it will mean that you like him, so you will do so. But to others, it is not exactly the truth. So...I don't like to say about others like you all do, especially those who not close to me, wrong interpretation might pull someone down. That's just perception. It might be a wrong perception, so I'd rather not to say it out,more oever, it's really non of my business. I admit, I will say about others sometimes, but it's not perception, it's the things the people shown to me.

I still remember that, my idol (ms chai) told me, smile is the greatest weapon in the world. If you want to succeed in your life or career, you can't escape from smiling to others always, although you don't like the people. It's very seldom for me to dislike a person, but there are some people really can't get my favor. I find myself hard to interact with them,even a fake smile. I don't like those who like to look down on other people and think high of themselves only. Are you really so great?
until studying in matriculation? what the great things are you trying to show off? You can think high of yourself, but never look down on others and tease those who is weaker than you.

Hmm..
And..about lecturers, I think I have found a special one, En. Amri ? Ha.
Don't be surprise, I know most of you hate him..but I admit, I like him.
He inspires me to read more and discover more about economics, though as I read more, I feel that he is not really so great, many a times teach wrongly, maybe he is in puasa, so his mind is not clear enough. Ha.Ha.

That day I went to the library and found that there were many books I wanted to read,especially those about computing. I wish to learn more about networking, to solve some daily problems, Haha. The things we know are so so so so less, so READ MORE. Possess a positive attitude is very important, that's what I told Beeying that day, don't say nothing is impossible but say EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE. Ha.Ha.
There are so many full As students nowadays, who will be the success one?
I think, the one who possess positive attitude and willing to learn more by him or herself will succeed in his or her life.

Talking about friend, hmm, thanks for those who always stay together with me,not leaving me alone. He.He. And kok wan, many a times I find him easier to share my problems..Hehe, he is good in building social network..He is very mature, to a certain extent, more mature than me, he is a good guy,so ladies are welcomed to know him more, wahahahaha.

Then, oh ya, I want to thanks Ms. Uji,a pretty malay girl, the one who lead me to Putra LRT station in Masjid Jamek yesterday and helped me to take my bag for a while. Even it's really a short while. I can't get to the lrt station by taking my super duper heavy bag without her guidance and help. So, thank you very much and I am very appreciate of your help. Best of luck in your life and Selamat Hari Raya, that day it's too rush to get ur contact number, sorry..I will keep your goodness in my heart.

Then..hmm, since now I am studying in matriculation right, I have mixed quite well with those from other races. Actually it has never been a problem for me as I was from a malay secondary school , went to NS.. so I already quite comfort to live with them compared to my other friends. Actually they are very nice and kind 1, don't be leaded by your wrong perception again. We are all Malaysians but it might have other external factors affecting the relations among different races.

He.He. and I still remember Sir Lim told me that,he had met with a lot of students from other places,he found out that we are the one who possess really good personality.He asked us Remember to preserve our good and nature personality. Do not affect by the others. I do keep his word in mind, I know many of you have forgotten his word, saying he is very fan or what. But I like him. Ha.Ha.

When he said the words, I have not taken SPM yet. Then after I studying in MMC, meet with quite many people and i found that, yes, what Sir Lim had said is true. I am from a rural town compared to you all, but so what? I still have a wider perspective towards life. You all can say I'm a kampung girl, I do not mind, I'm proud to be a girl from rural town as I enjoy the nature very much and have a relatively more exciting childhood. He.He. The world is convenient with the advent of internet, I can know many things that you don't know cz I'm willing to find them out. I am proud of JERANTUT, I love u guys, hahaha!

To all my friends, thanks u all! and my dad my mum my bro my sis my granparents, my aunts, my cousins! all of you ..without you all, i will not be here today. Hiihii..

Gambateh !! 4.0 in final.

The Royal Wii !!

2009-05-22T01:35:00.000-07:00

Oh my god..
I'm here in the cybernet 1 of matric malacca..
Hmm, the news about ROYAL WII really fascinated me so much
and now I am typing this to share with you all.
haha, information sharing. ^^

The Nintendo Wii has positioned itself as the gaming console for everybody. As it turns out, that includes the Queen of England. Well, sort of. It's not like Her Royal Highness went down to Wal-Mart and bought one with her summer job savings. Rather, she was given a special version by gaming company THQ.

Wii are definitely amused.
What makes the Queen's "Royal Wii" different? It's gold-plated, sucka! None of that lame white plastic for Buckingham Palace — the Queen needs her bling! Gaming blog Joystiq reports that the gaming company is hopeful that the PR stunt "will amuse Queen Elizabeth."

Meanwhile, Geek.com writes that the gift is actually meant to build awareness for the upcoming game, Big Family Games. An ulterior motive? What?!? As the geeks put it, "for a game that is meant to include the whole family from kids to grandparents what better family to send it to than The Royal Family in England."

According to Game Revolution, Big Family Games is a collection of mini-games, including "golf, tennis, ladder golf, lawn darts, horseshoes, bocce," and more. So far, search interest is rather scant. However, should the Queen declare her love for the gift, expect the title to get a right honorable boost in the Buzz. Silly as that sounds, it's not out of the realm of possibility -- according to insiders, she was "addicted" to playing Prince William's Wii last Christmas. Now she'll have one of her own.

And and and, that day I had my infomation technology class,
teacher said the latest version of windows operating system is vista,
isn't it Window 7? Let's search in the net. :P

Okay, I'm going back to my dorm and play squash later, hehe, bye :P

Matriks Melaka..

2009-05-20T00:20:00.000-07:00

亚真的从来没想过我会进到matriks。。
申请matriks只不过是想grab the chance only。
没想到，现在的我，
就身处matrikulasi melaka图书馆的cybernet。。
哈哈！

可是全马最古老的matriks，
建筑跟其他新的真的不能比。。XD
但是还好啦，不会很差，看得出常年有维修，哈！！
很幸运我的koko是tennis，呵呵，
可以正式的学tennis了，
平是时有空的话还可以跟朋友们打squash 和 pool！

在这里也认识了蛮多人啦，
我们说好了假期要游走马来西亚哦～～！！

呵呵，还是很想念我的战友们啦，
怎样说都是一起打过仗，出生入死，
大家一起经历过很多事情，不能跟窗友相提并论咯，XD

暂时打到这里，图书馆的cybernet好冷，我要变冰了，byebye！！！＾＾

离别。。

2009-05-09T21:46:00.000-07:00

呵呵，真的是离别了。

我觉得最近这几个月真的是漂浮不定，
一直走来走去，面临多次的离别。。

首先是中五毕业，跟朋友们很少聚在一起了，
然后去公司上班，两个月后又离开，
去到国民服役，过了一个月半又跟战友们byebye，
现在要到matriks了，终于稳定下来了吧？呵呵。
至少一年吧，再到大学。。

刚刚接到JPA staff 的电话，
叫我读matriks先，申请到大学JPA再sponsor我读IPTA..
不知道包括什么呢？如果包住宿费，学费和elaun好咯，
至少爸爸妈妈不用为我的学费而烦。
虽然说是IPTA,至少妈咪和爹地不会酱压力，
每次用到钱的时候都觉得内疚下，
现在去matriks，买衣服，文具，干粮那些费用我都觉得内疚了，
呵呵。

之前想说进私立大学，当然有些教育比IPTA好，
可是爸爸妈妈还是要负担我的住宿费和生活费，
感觉他们心里很有压力，xD

想不到昨晚mummy会突然call我，说了半个小时。。
其实内容一点都不新鲜，可是我竟然流了眼泪 =.=
其实拿到这个奖学金心里也是放松点，
因为至少是知道JPA会供我了，只是看本身要不要。
拿不到国外有些失望，可是也是预料中的事吧，
妈咪竟然安慰我说幸好没拿到国外，
不然他们会很担心。。也是的。。
我拿到matriks,他们应经很开心了，呵呵，
现在jpa还可以供我大学，更开心-。-
她说，

‘现在不要出国先啦，你还小，在本地读着先咯，
改天要出国也是可以的，妈咪怕你走错行。。
要出国的话，改天要读硕士我再供你出国，
怎样挤都挤到钱给你XD ’@@

我也不想他们那么辛苦啦，要出国的话，我自己努力点赚钱吧-。-

现在有个目标，
我想做到所得税局的高层，HEHEHE..
华人要进里面好像不简单，我会加油的！(H)

朋友们，我又要离开咯，有空就call我吧！^^
祝我在matriks里过得好好的，能够考到4.0 :P
在NS挨过，matriks应该也还好，我的mentality有所进步! :P

大家一起加油哦，朋友们！！ Gambateh!
记得sms我啊！:P

现在？未来？

2009-05-07T03:02:00.000-07:00

呵呵，想不到才回到家几天，就要进matriks了，又是离开家里的时候了。
而且这几天都没什么休息到，一直在忙着准备matriks的东西，冲这里冲那里。。><

Matrikulasi 真的这么好咩？
我不觉得咯，以学术性的角度来说啦，
钱那方面我明白的，而且现在的世界什么都需要钱，
都怪我在plkn太久了，很久没花到自己的钱，哇哈哈哈！
如果拿不到JILN & JIDN，我就在matriks过日子了，
不然话爸爸妈妈那么多钱，我真的会很内疚。><

想不到matriks星期一到五都要穿formal clothes上课，
害到我妈妈钱包出血。。:S 哈哈，不好意思。 :$
刚从plkn回来，bag都不用搬完东西出来，还要加多一个bag，
就可以去matriks了，哈哈哈，床都没睡暖呐..><
小提琴简直放着放到发霉（touchwood！！呵呵）
说到小提琴又开始有点内疚，花了几千块练练下丢在那里，
放心，我假期回来一定拿你出来玩 ^^ xD

说回plkn的东西吧，回来两三天了，都还没写出什么感言，
一切只因plkn给了我太多感受，哈哈，一时之间不知道要怎么写。。
里面有太多我的第一次。

印象最深刻的就是第一次一下子流汗流到全身湿掉，头发全部都湿，
而且是一下子湿的，体罚太变态了。。><

还有第一次捉着手电筒在暗暗的情况下一起洗衣，哈哈！
还有很多很多。。一时之间想不起来勒 xD

那一次一小时的体罚真的是让我毕生难忘。。
还记得那一天蛮开心的，因为下午玩水，water confidence..
在那深深的kolam游水，不错下，又有风吹哦，再回去冲个凉，
简直凉爽到。。。。。。。。。。。@@
心情好好的我们就走去洗弄湿了的衣服，洗到一半的时候，
突然间waden喊，Wirawati!Kumpul kat dewan makan sekarang! sekarang!
霎时间，全部block一片混乱，哈哈，我马上将手上的inner loreng丢进桶里面，洗下手，
即刻跟朋友跑去dewan makan，坐下来，跟朋友很庆幸的说，
好才我们换好衣服了，哈哈！真同情那些在冲凉，冲到一半的人-。-

Dewan makan的时钟显示着当时是5.12分。。
大家一脸疑惑，你一句我一句，到底发生什么事呢？
明明5.30才集合啊，我们没有迟到勒，什么事？
眼见每个教练脸臭臭的看着我们，生性比较敏感的我，
嗅到不详的味道了。。@@ 只是想不到。。这次的惩罚是如此的严厉。。T.T

5.20pm 身高190+cm，一副关公脸的Timbalan Komanden Kem, Leftenan Kumar 先生现身，
看到他更加证明我的直觉是对的。。不好的事要来了。。！

听他开口叫那些MC,LightDuty的病人出来就更加不用说，
身体健康的我们。。。要被罚了-。-

首先听到他喊Cangkung semua, cangkung semua..
Kaki kanan di hadapan, kaki kiri di belakang,
lompat, lepas tu tukar kaki. 顶，又来这个，
前天才被罚这个，比拔朋友耳朵还累人:S 这个真的很累咯。
跳这个最少有三十次吧，没算，只是在听他的哨子声，希望快点停就是了。！
由于有些人没做，他不满意，就猩猩跳。。
好的，猩猩跳，没关系，反正每天体操都做的，怎知她竟然说。。。
PT 10 sebanyak 50 kali. 顶，听到这个我傻眼了下 XD
刚刚跳那个膝盖已经很累很累了，再跳这个，较真的没力T.T
想偷懒都难，10+教练，台上台下gap着-。- 听两下又跳，
顶不顺又停两下，又跳。好了，终于50了，还以为没事了。。。

怎知。。

Cangkung semua, cangkung semua ! Pegang telinga kawan..顶。。
拔耳朵，脚真的是软到。。拔自己耳朵还好的，拔朋友耳朵，手很累的叻T.T
而且还是他算时间，有时给人家蹲久久，脚酸到。。><
然后他不满意，再来猩猩跳30次 -.-
过后，终于可以坐下来了，才坐一下子，竟然要我们10mts内换full loreng出来，
咋到，还好10mts，不是5mts，全部人马上冲回房间，真的跑都没有力，只好走，
出来，大家一起再被罚，这次更严重，在dewan makan旁边的马路上面=.=
平时padang kawad的马路平平的，这里的马路尖尖的T.T
Pumping, Situp,
pumping 的姿势，听到哨子声马上跳上来站着，再听到再puk下去，
pumping 的姿势，右脚在前，左脚在后，听到哨子声换脚。。
然后站着，一直转右转右转右，转到我都晕-。-
然后又五分钟跑回去换运动装。。
还记得那天pumping的时候下毛毛雨，汗水和雨水交集在我脸上T.T
可怜。。一世人第一次留这么多汗。。不是滴出来的，是马上整个湿掉-。-

最后给我们一分钟跑回自己的位子坐，男生跑到最恐怖，很多人跌倒下。。=。=
很多马来婆被罚时还哭。。有个还进medic，哈哈，竟然有男生晕倒-。-
还好我撑的下去。:D

最记得他说，aku nak keringkan lutut kamu semua hari ini..
kita tumpukan exercise pade lutut sahaja...
变态的 T.T

就这样，大家被罚了1个小时。。哈哈，全部没力说话，
那天吃饭是最安静的，过后每个人的手掌两边都红红，
我本身关手掌时都会痛咯。。痛了1天半。。
大家走路膝盖都弯着了，哈哈哈，好笑。。
肩膀酸痛。。痛了一天，还好有安安的肌肉酸痛要，帮我按摩，谢谢安安！^^

说到安安就是我就不舍的了。。
哎，星期六星期日我会call你的！别担心哦！
erm，除此之外还认识了很多朋友，生活是苦的，回忆是甜的，只因为友谊的存在!^^
还遇到很好很好的傻婆朋友呐，嘻嘻！^^

Kem Cahaya Gemilang, Cherating, Pahang.

2009-05-06T20:17:00.000-07:00

NS life in Kem Cahaya Gemilang, Cherating :

Can't really describe my life inside, too much feeling and expressions..
If one day u are being chosen to Kem Cahaya Gemilang, Haha, Congrats,
I think it's the strictest camp in Pahang or even Malaysia..suffer alot but with great fortune,
I'm still here today, lolz.

Training ain't hard but punishment is the hardest thing inside..
However, still a happy life life as what I have earned is -- FRIENDSHIPS ^^

I'm Back !!!!

2009-04-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, seems it has been a long time since my last post. :P

Well, I'm having National Service currently and ..so far, my life there is quite GOOD.

Lolz,about the matter of cry, sad, etc, frankly speaking,

I didn't cry at there, but my tears were once rolling in my eyes and dropped..
as the first day we went there, our phone were confiscated by those staff.
As a result? I had no way to contact my family and tell them what's going on to me,whether I'm safe or living well..

Yet, on the 4th day I'm able to call my parents,lolz..after that I'm quite okay with the live there, other than those NICE FOOD. ><

What's that？ 3 flags > Pahang, Malaysia and National Service Flags.

These flags mean much to me, it's my first time to be a flag raiser, lolz!!
If it was during school time, it's still okay, but now, it's in front of 400+ people and anything goes wrong that time, I will be scolded like a dog by my coach >< Ng Ng Kok Kok Tee Tee
Defend Defend Defend !! :P
Me and Lengnui Yin xD
Yong Han and Me ^^
Shuh Hong and Me ^^

Lolz, Group Flag, BELIA WAJA ( Kompeni Charlie )
I'm doing my work, really >.< Lolz, Earth Hour..^^

解脱。。

2009-03-13T07:54:00.000-07:00

过了这么多年，
终于要对中学生活说再见了。。

很好，
我拿到全甲^^

最近好累，
改天再分享我的心情 ><

Psytopic分析：您的性格类型是“ISTJ”(内向+实感+思维+判断)

2009-02-28T19:11:00.000-08:00

MBTI测试 - Psytopic心理-中国心理学爱好者的8小时之外!沉静，认真；贯彻始终、得人信赖而取得成功。讲求实际，注重事实和有责任感。能够合情合理地去决定应做的事情，而且坚定不移地把它完成，不会因外界事物而分散精神。以做事有次序、有条理为乐---不论在工作上，家庭上或者生活上。重视传统和忠诚。

ISTJ型的人是严肃的、有责任心的和通情达理的社会坚定分子。他们值得信赖，他们重视承诺，对他们来说，言语就是庄严的宣誓。 ISTJ型的人工作缜密，讲求实际，很有头脑也很现实。他们具有很强的集中力、条理性和准确性。无论他们做什么，都相当有条理和可靠。他们具有坚定不移、深思熟虑的思想，一旦他们着手自己相信是最好的行动方法时，就很难转变或变得沮丧。ISTJ型的人特别安静和勤奋，对于细节有很强的记忆和判断。他们能够引证准确的事实支持自己的观点，把过去的经历运用到现在的决策中。他们重视和利用符合逻辑、客观的分析，以坚持不懈的态度准时地完成工作，并且总是安排有序，很有条理。他们重视必要的理论体系和传统惯例，对于那些不是如此做事的人则很不耐烦。ISTJ型的人总是很传统、谨小甚微。他们聆听和喜欢确实、清晰地陈述事物。ISTJ型的人天生不喜欢显露，即使危机之时，也显得很平静。他们总是显得责无旁贷、坚定不变、但是在他们冷静的外表之下，也许有强烈却很少表露的反应。

您适合的领域有：工商业领域、政府机构金融银行业、政府机构、技术领域、医务领域

您适合的职业有：

· 审计师
· 会计
· 财务经理
· 办公室行政管理
· 后勤和供应管理
· 中层经理
· 公务（法律、税务）执行人员
· 银行信贷员
· 预算分析师
· 保险精算师
· 税务经纪人
· 税务检查员
· 机械、电气工程师
· 计算机程序员
· 数据库管理员
· 地质、气象学家
· 法律研究者
· 律师
· 外科医生
· 药剂师
· 实验室技术人员
· 牙科医生
· 医学研究员
· 信息总监
· 电脑编程员
· 证券经纪人
· 会计
· 文字处理专业人士

货币战争 ( Monetary War )

2009-02-21T05:12:00.000-08:00

“只要我能控制一个国家的货币发行，我不在乎谁制定法律。”

--------Mayer Rothschild.

我赞同上面这句话。

在任何的国家，

神圣的金权取代了神圣的王权，

神圣的金权也足以瓦解神圣的民权。

看看最近我国政坛所发生的事，

你能否认这不争的事实吗？

如果你对经济体系毫无认识

如果你对金融业界毫无头绪

如果你对世界历史毫无印象

如果你想做出改变

如果你想知道更多

欢迎你从这本书开始^^

这本书写得有点像小说

让你感觉你在看一个惊心动魄的故事

让你见识人性为了利益非常可怕的一面

让你有个机会独立思考的机会

到底书中所说的事

是真？是假？

到底你对世界历史

了解有多深？

读了这本书，

让我感慨我知道的事情还真少，

无法确认是真是假？

很多事情的真相是我们这个阶层的人

永远无法知道。。

如果有一天，

让你我有机会踏入这个圈子

是好是坏呢？

你会成为下一个暴发户？

还是

下一个被‘神经病’著称的人士刺杀死亡呢？

读了这本书，让我对经济体系的实际操作更为了解，

让我知道到银行贷款丰厚的利息落入谁的手中

为什么大多数国家都不能还清国债

哥哥曾告诉我，如果彼尔盖兹没有将他的财产捐出

他有能力在短时间内为美国还清国债

当时只有中一的我

天真的在想，“为什么他不帮美国呢？”

“怎么说都是自己的国家嘛”

“如果我这么有钱，也会帮马来西亚还一些的”

现在的我：

1。财产是他的，需要这么做吗？

2。帮了一次会有第二次

3。盖兹是犹太人

4。国债根本不能还清，就算国家有能力

‘马来西亚欠多少钱，我都不帮他还！’ :rf:

会过分吗？:rf:

你知道谁是Mayer Rothschild吗？

Rothschild 家族对这个世界具有什么巨大的影响力？

读了这本书，我真的惊觉人类追求利益的可怕

追求金钱的欲望能让人变得如此凶残、如此不择手段

是对是错？我无法评价。

这本书的内容不是全对的，但是

能引起中国大陆巨大争议的，

就是一本好书。

我喜欢〉〉这网站所给予的评语，比较中肯。

不谈世界，谈谈我国

马来西亚的货币(Ringgit Malaysia)

是谁发行的？

你知道吗？

当很多人在谩骂某一族群‘聪明至极’时

是哪一族群的极少数人在玩弄大家呢？

你对马来西亚的了解又有多深呢？

在此献上Petronas的短片

个人觉得蛮有意义

喜欢最后那句 --- Our children are Colour Blind..

这句话意味着什么？

How Lucky Am I ??

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Hehe, I always have the thought that I was a lucky girl..

The relationships for my family and I are rather ..complicated..haha.

Eh Eh Eh..

Do not have a wrong perception towards the relation of my parents,

they are doing good :P

But ..everything is complicated.

To sum up, I have 2 fathers 2 mothers 3 grandmothers 1 grandfather cocurrently, xD

Cool right? ^^ Especially during Chinese New Year, you know the answer :P Angpao xDXD

Yet I'm not going to tell you more about my family but some persons I found them interesting and amazing !!

During 2007, I went to Taiwan and ..that's a rather boring tour for me in a nutshell.

But it does open up my eyesight towards something..

With great fortune, I've met an orator, Ms 蔡美诗, she is an author as well :D

Through her short speech in the bus ( lol, just 10 minutes I think ), I've experienced what is called an interesting whilst meaningful speech. :O

Everyone in the bus is amazed by her, especially the way she giving speech,catching everyone's

eyesight and attention.

'Thanks' to her dad,she saddled with few millions of debt since the age of 10 or something..I have forgotten xD

So, she worked very hard to pay for the debt and finally?

She turned out to be one of the top Hair Stylist and Orator in Taiwan.

She owned 8 gorgeous saloons and the income is totally xDXDDDDDDDDD *Amazing*

I was feeling lucky to meet her there, she even smiled and had eye contact with me :$

I still remember what she taught me -- 10.10 ( do you know what's that? ) hehe :P

Another person I have met in Taiwan was..the wife of a chairman of a big company in Taiwan, selling anion products from Japan XD

Hmm..I knew what's called Rich and Noble through her attire and the way she talked.

And .. I was really on the top of the world when she praised me , lol..

Hmm, don't know why, she likes me so much =.= ( Don't doubt it )

After she praised me, then..I went for a Cart Racing in KenDing,Taiwan.

It was a great fun!! Totally different with the slow like snail minicart in Genting !

I could boost up the speed to the maximum as if I was going to fly !!!

Wow, really exciting that time!!

And I won the race, out of the ten persons in that race, I was in the last position to start my race,

but I was faster than them for two rounds, could you imagine how fast I drive? haha..

At that moment I could really feel that I was going to fly out from that car,

after the race, everyone was giving their thumbs towards me, lol ..

Then I got a nickname after that.. lol (飞车女)

Then the wife of the chairman came towards me again, she praised me once again.

She said I could make quick responses during dangerous situation,

( there were 2 times when two carts knocked to the side and I made a quick decision at that moment, hard to describe the freaking dangerous situation here, lol )

Hehe, my mom was proud of me that moment, everyone was praising her daughter..:P

The wife of the chairman ( sorry, I don't know her name xD ) left a namecard for my mum,

and she told me that, if I was going to Taiwan for studying in the future, let her take care of me,

lol...so nice :P

Unfortunately I'm not going to Taiwan to pursue my degree..but traveling again maybe.

Actually the tour is for hair stylist, I accompany my mom for that.

So, it's boring for me ..as they went there for a course, I couldn't really experience the fun of Taiwan!! Yet, it is a meaningful tour for me..

I met many famous hairstylist there, visited many beautiful and hightech saloon,

washed my hair there(it's nice and comfortable XD), a nice comic shop let me read a few comics for free ..as I'm from Malaysia, lol, the girl is nice :P Do not charge me money ^^

Many many things else..

Hope to go visit there again as well as Korea...!! The Korea tour was extremely fun!!!

Then .. A few days ago, I met the founder of A-Plus accounting system, Mr Ong.

A guy with a double degree, degree in accounting and computer engineering from UK.

Hmm, it's hard for me to take a double degree, no matter my capability or my financial situation.

But Mr Ong had done this during 1970s..

He's truly amazed me..

I was feeling lucky to meet him in this small rural town..haha.

Meet a man who is doing international business in rural town..

Maybe it's something called predestination, hehe.

I was fortunate to have a word with him.

He told me that once I have graduated, even from Nottingham,

a fresh graduate would always be 0 mark for him, need to be trained.

I nodded my head and..he asked, 'Is it fun for you to do these computing jobs?

Do you wana have a try? You may have an internship in Muar,'

Lol, most probably he was kidding to me but..hmm, I was happy to hear that too :P

There are a lot of amazing things about him..but don't want to say much here.

Hmm, in a nutshell, he taught me to be my trueself always.

What you know is what you know, if you don't know then learn it.

Never tell the boss, I think I know. It will ruin your future..

I believe so. :)

Those are short intros of some persons important in my life..

Hmm..open up my mind at some extent.

I hope I would be SomeBody within 10 years time to meet them again. :D

Here's some quotes from Reader Digest :

Start by Starting.

Do or Do not. There is no TRY.

Things do not change? We CHANGE.

Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world..

Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has.

UNMC..Photos..^^

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I like this the most..The Energytic Orange Colour..

School of Social Science? Huhuhhu..^^

Any comment ?? :O

(Photos are taken from the internet.)