tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051Fri, 26 Dec 2008 03:07:04 +0000on the road to motherhood..againhttp://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)Blogger136125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-5219573511216370222Fri, 26 Dec 2008 01:45:00 +00002008-12-25T20:59:51.948-06:00blahgholidays we've recently shared this blog with family and a few friends, but for the most part this blog has been anonymous for as long as it's been alive. it's been through three name changes and the focus topic has changed more often than that. we've been hopeful parents, we've been foster parents, we've been adoptive parents in training, and we've been TTC. we go through spells when we can't keep up http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/12/kid-shaped-christmas-no-4.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-2129404678069596156Thu, 11 Dec 2008 05:36:00 +00002008-12-11T13:52:08.067-06:00workyoutubedidn't call in gay. we bought gas and fed the economy buying some things that could have waited until tomorrow. baaaad gays.. know what i'm looking forward to? (and a baby) http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/12/i-didnt.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-7116642894968484994Wed, 10 Dec 2008 04:52:00 +00002008-12-09T22:53:00.883-06:00http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/12/will-i.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-5878953584124624592Wed, 10 Dec 2008 03:22:00 +00002008-12-09T22:01:13.919-06:00ttcovulation we think our friends s. & a. have bought us an ov watch for christmas, which is more generous than i'm really comfortable with. it could be that we're sharing our donor with them, and they're just showing their appreciation, nice surprise. i'm content pissing on lh surge sticks but how nice is this gadget?! in fact tomorrow or the day after, we hafta go out and buy some test kits. we have http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/12/ovulation-chartingagain.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-6280759487592683438Tue, 09 Dec 2008 10:41:00 +00002008-12-09T05:45:26.602-06:00ttc we bought a mac. that's when we discovered that this blog was not so compatible or pretty outside of our windows/internet explorer comfort zone. so we shut it down and took a few months off to decide whether or not the site was even worth fixing..and i guess to me it is. there you have it. the reason we shut down this blog for the few months that we did. ok. not the entirety of the story behind http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/12/shaking-things-up.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-6389334229654968019Thu, 23 Oct 2008 05:36:00 +00002008-12-09T22:56:14.216-06:00mp3 the o*rgan released the thieves ep. about a week ago. got your hands on it yet? have a taste and then go buy it, it's as amazing as is possible. don't be angry [mp3]even in the night [mp3]fire in the ocean [mp3]can you tell me one thing [mp3]let the bells ring [mp3]oh what a feeling [missing because i didn't purchase it] i read a recent interview with k*atie sk*etch about the band, about why http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/10/deviations.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-2467954432626442835Sat, 18 Oct 2008 12:43:00 +00002008-12-11T06:07:52.722-06:00uncool casie e. wood this sucks kiddo.. http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/10/loss-and-other-annoyances.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-3155965420833123527Tue, 07 Oct 2008 17:47:00 +00002008-12-09T06:04:13.214-06:00PRIDEuncool m. and i hooked up with the lesbians [from our PRIDE class] at the Match Party that CPS hosted last week. the event was a little awkward for everyone involved. there were booths set up in a big circle with photos and profiles of little smiling faced children who are free for adoption, and giveaway pens from represented agencies. oh and those exhausted looking caseworkers with wheels spinning http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/10/oh-and-we-killed-car.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-6808028825753971253Mon, 22 Sep 2008 13:18:00 +00002008-12-09T06:03:53.931-06:00PRIDEit's like the universe knew that six AM this morning meant nine days of vacation, and so UNIVERSE, the bitch, slapped my face and said..not so fast asshole.. last night sucked. so much that i poured myself a drink this morning when i got home. it's been awhile since i've done that. not to mention i'm now delirious with sleep..and getting drunk. without saying too much.. thirteen year old girlshttp://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/09/vacation-day-one.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-3987022197180202668Wed, 10 Sep 2008 23:14:00 +00002008-12-09T06:04:37.990-06:00PRIDE 30% through the CPS version of parenting someone elses kids 101. Our first home visit is tomorrow morning at nine. http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/09/week-3-of-10.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-3854489523260647614Sat, 06 Sep 2008 03:52:00 +00002008-12-09T06:05:02.415-06:00PRIDE I wish we'd gone through CPS the first time around. These past two classes have been more informative (and fun) than the NINE months it took for us to be verified through the other place that eventually left us broken & hanging in the end.Another homework assignment aimed at poking around inside our heads and an initial home visit scheduled on the 11th to do more of the same I guess, and we're http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/09/week-2-of-10.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-6229797310480632747Wed, 27 Aug 2008 11:58:00 +00002008-12-09T06:05:25.579-06:00PRIDE the class went well. full house and another lesbo couple too. ten weeks just seems like forever and a day away. we have a homework assignment and a little more paperwork to do for next week. i think it'll be alright.. http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/08/week-1-of-10.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-7531228535970996152Tue, 26 Aug 2008 12:09:00 +00002008-12-09T06:07:59.129-06:00parenting i'm having a little trouble convincing myself that i'm ready to take on the challenge (again) of becoming a parent through the state. i can fast forward to the finish line, but its the paperwork, and tangles of red tape, and stop-motion time in between that i'm having some trouble bracing for this go around. m. seems fine. she is after all, the glass mostly full half of us.she just smiles and http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/08/on-road-again.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-700537518071298734Thu, 14 Aug 2008 21:14:00 +00002008-12-09T06:08:40.428-06:00internets today we discovered theIVP.com via a kidshaped visitorat first i thought. ah shit. the porno spam bots have found us.but no.the deceptive kissy lips and overly purpleness of the site swept aside,and its freaking amazing. its a website by women/for women and all about..those crazy women. its about trying to conceive, and the struggle in general to becoming a mother.it's about pregnancy, and the http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/08/i-should-be-napping.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-3888610378035639592Sun, 10 Aug 2008 04:08:00 +00002008-08-12T10:37:28.017-05:00mp3per your request. some rockabye baby tracks. buy the cds here. back in black [mp3] come as you are [mp3] heart shaped box [mp3] just like heaven [mp3] karma police [mp3] today [mp3] cherub rock [mp3] where is my mind [mp3] http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/08/rockin.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-2893019415398831692Fri, 08 Aug 2008 06:19:00 +00002008-12-09T06:09:57.132-06:00parentingizziin baby-making..i didn't ovulate last month.no signs of ovulation this month..yet.what if the tests are wrong..and theres a bun in the oven...but no.PRIDE pre-service training starts on the 26th i believe. not far from where we live.but i'm just sort of spent.sometimes i think about a life without kids.i think about my body looking great til i'm 65.money in the bank.i think about traveling on a http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/08/are-you-alright.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-764151526973776758Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:53:00 +00002008-12-09T06:12:41.759-06:00parentingworkaustin did i mention that i'm on c-shift?patrolling the wickedly alluring streets of austintrapped in a police car, in a police costume... tonight: alpha rev is playing at the nutty brown cafe the party ends is bringing down club devillewolf parade will certainly rock la zona rosa to drunken tears and i'm (sorta) getting ready for work.. it's crazy though, as far as mommyhood goeswe're in about the http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/07/party-ends.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-4149776376893637702Thu, 10 Jul 2008 18:26:00 +00002008-12-09T06:14:33.313-06:00ttcparentingwork on the 8th we found ourselves in a room full of potential foster & adoptive parents..it was sickening, like taking ten steps back. this incredibly plastic holy roller of a woman - a rep from some local child placing agency - on and on about nothing..sickening. the faces in the surprisingly packed out room, so eager and desperate as we feel. stories of their own. but its where we are.. we http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/07/to-really-unravel.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-4212593906253611270Mon, 07 Jul 2008 15:38:00 +00002008-12-09T06:13:58.788-06:00ttc no luck.next month, and with a new doctor.. http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/07/strike-2.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-3449750940970246999Sat, 05 Jul 2008 05:13:00 +00002008-12-09T06:16:01.386-06:00ttcizziaustin still getting to know m.'s new camera..but its a start. my period. not something i'm thrilled about, not something i enjoy tossing around in conversations with strangers, but considering the topic of this blog, it's a relevant piece of the puzzle and therefore far from off limits. i mention it because it's lurking around the corner..and i'm so very pissed about that. disappointed rather..buthttp://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/07/happy-4th.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-8988803948644733900Tue, 01 Jul 2008 12:59:00 +00002008-11-13T00:05:32.045-06:00mp3music [because its canada day and the organ are were such a lesbo-hype canadian indie super band] yesterday while doing some cop-like work related research on myspace,i stumbled upon lovers love haters a one [super foxi] lady band out of vancouver.as it turns out the one foxi lady is deborah cohen from that ghost of a band the organ. we're diggin' the new look..and the sound. can't wait for more from http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/07/this-haunting-band.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-8499768963667904313Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:17:00 +00002008-11-13T00:05:32.808-06:00blahgconsumerism that. is a foam yellow pages booster seat. for me. pallete plate - bpa free/phthalate free/pvc free and cute as hellheck.small paul fedora. omgah..adiri natural nurser baby bottlesi've read so many gushing articles about these that i wanna try one myself..mutsyat first glance i thought oh man,another pretentious brand of over priced baby crap..but isn't it pretty?then we looked closer.and yeah http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/06/hipster-finds-for-hipster-parents-like.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-433180382289463277Sun, 22 Jun 2008 22:38:00 +00002008-11-13T00:05:32.941-06:00mp3musicaustinconsumerismthis past weeks rundown & all the little things i've failed to mention don't add up to a whole lot.new tires,craigslist hits & missessuper good & super bad waitersa new jade plantbeerheat & hail..last night we went to see alpha rev play at a poseur club. they rocked nicely.i've scoured the internets for a track or two..just one legal freebie so far -rest assured that at least another will be http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/06/its-officially-summerand-wicked-hot.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-850000034897057857Thu, 19 Jun 2008 13:08:00 +00002008-11-13T00:05:33.056-06:00blahgbaby-makingthis last appointment only confirmed one thing - i need to shop around for another obgyn..i don't require much of my doctors, sure, my primary doc let's me self diagnose, and will prescribe me anything i think i need because the tv says "ask your doctor if it's right for you"..but that's not what i dig about her. she's warm and friendly, and seems kind of stoned half the time and that makes her http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/06/overinflated-moons-other-illusions.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7448051.post-5779062731696734709Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:38:00 +00002008-11-13T00:05:33.202-06:00ovulationbaby-makingour next appointment is tomorrow at 4pm. is there a more rad word for insemination?i hope we're reading those damn test kit sticks correctly because this is wearing me down.the process is beating me down and pissing me off,and i'm really tired of feeling inpatient and crazy.remember when i used to talk like this when we were waiting for izzi? i do.it sucked. it sucks still, the wait..we really http://kidshapedholes.blogspot.com/2008/06/this-time.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (j. or m.)0