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Superheroes

2011-08-28T21:19:00.000-07:00

Dear Readers,

We all have our own Superhero's that we idolise all the time.Superman might be the most common one among all.But have we ever though of the Superhero that are always around us and beside us all the time protecting and guiding us?

I've had dreams today.After a very long time that it makes me want to write a story about it.It will be exactly 9 years since the incident happen.

I remember when I was still a young boy,he used to carry me around all the time because I would be so lazy to walk around the mall that I faked a stomach ache just for the sake of being carried.naughty ain't I?Every week we would go to mall and also arcade station for me to play games have some good family times.

Whenever we have to make decisions on where to eat and go, He will always be the one to make it instead of my Mom.He is short tempered and gets angry at even the little things.I remember I watch World Cup once during 2002 if I remember correctly between Spain and I don't know what team,it was 2-3am already.I got all excited when they scored and of course shouted out in excitement.The next minute i got yelled at by him and have to off the TV and went straight to bed.Oh well~

Right before we go to bed every night, He would grab me and wrestle with me.I would always and ALWAYS lose due to my small size and he is quite a tall man although I'm very much taller than him now =).It was fun letting him grab me around and I just could not do a thing to counter him.We would laugh all night and then only went to bed.

He don't give me everything I wanted but i do have PlayStation 1 and 2 and also a computer.I don't get to play all the time so I have to play when he's not around.Whenever he comes back,he would touch the computer to check whether it's hot or not.That way he will know that I played or not.Smart Man!

He do have his bad and good times but he is always there for me.Well all that ends during year 2002 when he left us due to health problems.I had a full year of hard times accepting and get used to it.Even till now I still misses him from time to time.He still do meant a lot to me.

Even though he is long gone, he will always stay as my Superhero in my heart and no matter

what, he will always be missed.Because of that,I will work extra hard to support my Mother in the future.

The incredible man that I've been writing about so far is My Father.I'm proud of him and all the things he have done for us.I love you Dad.

I do hope the little story I wrote here could at least inspired you fellow readers to appreciate what you have now and if you haven't start doing what are suppose to be done.It's never too late to start now.Don't wait till it's too late because we never know what will happen tomorrow.So appreciate what we have now.=)

Thank you.

KeeGuan.

Those times.=)

The Point Of No Return

2011-06-07T09:50:00.000-07:00

It's sem 4 already.Man and it's week2!I can't believe it.Time just flies eh.. I'm having 3 subjects for this semester and hopefully will score well and no more lazy.Will be attending my class tomorrow.Oh well who know who I will meet eh?

Moved to new places and I like it,facing lake and good environment although it's a bit of a pain on the renting.Wanted to join Ipoh Int Run and Star walk but I wonder if I can train in time.I don't even know i can start training.Will be monitoring my daily performance to determine whether I'm fit enough or not..I still can't believe so much thing have happened in such a short amount of time. And I'm gonna be 21 in 3 months time.Damn it..Most of the time i still stuck at 2009 and 2010. Still needed time to get used to this year.

Regrets is what make us stronger.So learn from it.I learnt mine.The thing is,i gotta work hard and for my future..So many things to do yet so little time.I have to grow up.

I'm confused bout what action to take next.i have a hard time determining it.Whether it is right for me to do so?Am i doing the right thing,action?I'm kinda lost.Anyway gotta rest.

TaTa =) LOL

Time That Passes By

2011-05-16T21:24:00.000-07:00

So it's been a year already, can't believe time passes so fast.So many things happened, i can still remember clearly my working days and whoop here i am 2011 and going to be 21 soon. Man I'm getting old.

I'm truly grateful to have a great bunch of friends in Kampar and my other half. I enjoyed every minute with them and i still do now. I got several new nicknames in this 1 year, Few of the examples? = Tiang~Sai~Chang Chang~Uncle~sae sae kuah beh tio(LoL)~and etc..>__<

I scored pretty well in this last sem which i should be doing it since sem1 but still the old me,Extremely lazy. Why wait till last sem only hardworking? well i learnt my lesson for real this time.i can't afford to waste my time no more.I'm getting old as i mention just now.Not much time left to waste. So i will study hard form now on. My target is 3.5 every sem =)

For my health, I still pain from time to time which is very frustrating,Well i can't do a thing.need to wait for at least 2 more month and must be relaxed most of the time.Very troublesome but that's what i need to do.Sometimes it even push me to the point of giving up.Well the feeling are just so F*-Up.Yea the word describes it!

Holiday has been pretty boring and good at the same time.Its gonna end in a week or so and then it's a new semester,I have been meeting up and catching up with a lot of friends, even so i still must say i miss the old times. Who don't?:P

Will be going Genting next week, i have a tight Financial so i guess i have to diet next month.No choice.Entertainment for food.

I got a lot more things to write but i guess I'm too lazy so will just update this short for now.Till next time =)

Finally After 2 months.

2011-02-27T06:28:00.000-08:00

Suddenly i decided to blog about life so here i am,back again after 2 months of hiatus.Recently i am troubled by health problems regrading my ribcage.Its having a bone inflammation and its kinda suffering.i am restrain from doing a lot of things.Been having quite a lot of fun times and a sad sad moments as well.I will have to study a lot harder this semester and got a lot of things to be done as well.I'm no longer young which is sad but true facts.I need to start thinking on holding a lot of responsibilities for my family relationship and myself as well.It will be hard of course but i know i can do it.I had this thought which are so scary.I have been to dependent on my mom.

Let's find out why.She's working alone and no longer young,She can only work for maybe 5-6 years more and that's it.I need to prepare myself to take up the burdens.We don't know what will happen in the future so it's scary when i though of something will happen to her and what will i do?i know i will be so lost and do not know what to do.I'm seriously lost whenever i think of that.Because of that i will just do what i can do now and do best.That is Study Hard and Make myself a better future. It is not easy,I been living with stress and fears everyday in my life.But that is what drives me.

The picture u see are taken during the CNY where we have dinner together =)..I am really glad i met them,They are my daily motivation to get going and knowing that i am being depended upon makes me even stronger but i myself need support as well.I don't know what to write anymore.It's been too long since i last blogged,making me feeling lost as what to write next LOL...I guess that's all for now eh?Will update again once fresh thoughts come to my mind :D

Thanks For reading.

Other Half, Christmas,Exams.

2010-12-26T02:22:00.000-08:00

Well guys it's certainly been a long time since i last posted. A lot of things had happen during these period.Christmas have just ended and this year i celebrated in Ipoh for the 1st time in friends house.It was awesome and i even went to a church to worship God for Christmas. Its on 11.11.10 when i found my other half.It's been 1 and a half month now.Time is passing so fast that sometimes i cant even believe the speed of it.The reason why i haven't been blogging for so long is because i have been writing on a book rather than updating it here.So sorry for that.

Exam are coming up,tomorrow to be exact.Stress are building up but not really pressured this time,Don't know why.I have new commitments,new self that need to be change as well.met several new friends,and on 2nd Jan will be organizing a small Penang Trip for my friends,hope it will go well.I really do hope it will be an enjoyable one.I pray to god that my exams will be fine and went smoothly,same goes to my friends as well.That's all for now,this is a really short update.will post a new one when i have more time =) thanks

Borderline

2010-11-22T12:05:00.000-08:00

The title is kinda special for this post. Once again, i was lied and fooled but i will not change, i'm so stubborn that i still want to believe him. Because we were once close and formed a bond that are still there even till now. I guess i'm just too stupid huh?Well i will take that risk because that's me!i just cant stop trusting people.Recently helped a friend go through her life and hopefully she will be able to change for the better =). I feel that every time i help people,i would feel happy and bad at the same time, I don't know why though.But i'm glad to help people, but i do have my limits.i cant help everyone every time.Because i myself have a problem and i'm not problem free.U may lie to me once,but that's it,u may betray me once, but that's it.Because after that i will remember it inside my heart.I will provide advice to every single friend who come to me but if u don't heed my advice i would just say take it or leave it~

My limits are very high,i don't get angry or annoyed unless it's something serious,but that doesn't i will not.I'm actually very sad about my friends who lied and lied again now.So my post are a little self talk.LOL(forgive me).Anyway i don't really have to face my problems alone.i do have someone to talk to,speak my heart out now.So i would like to say thanks.

Its week 10 now and i know if i want to advance without failure which i really tired of,i need to start studying already and that's exactly what i am going to start doing in the next few days. Oh i won the Penang marathon and ranked 827 .Its pretty good and i gotta say i'm proud of myself haha!So wish me luck and i pray that i will have the heart to study well.Also my friends will be able to wake up and be more mature,So i can stop worrying >.<. Gotta go bed as it is very late now.So Chaoz~

End Of Stress

2010-11-15T11:16:00.000-08:00

Hey guys I'm back again,This will be a short post as its just an update on whats been going on! Its already week 9 now and in 3 days i will be in Penang (Finally).Its been ages since i last went back to Penang.I cant even explain how much i missed it =)...Assignments only left Management as my presentations have been settled last week,Also something happened which really push most of the stress of me and yes i am happy and thankful!Its gonna be just another 6 weeks before my final exam.This weekend i will be going for the Penang Bridge Marathon,Hopefully i will be able to survive it =,=..

We went to the musical gathering last Friday and we were impressed by the band.That's how we came up with the idea of making one..Because of that i really need to improve my guitar skill now.NO more slacking.I have been slacking way too many weeks now. That's that and its late i guess I'm gonna go off to bed for now.NItez and stay tune =)

20th Birthday,Mooncake Festival,New Sem And Ipoh!

2010-10-31T11:24:00.000-07:00

I Love u Guys!=D Thanks!!
I love You Guys Too,Thank You For The Surprises!!

Hey guys!Its been wayyy~ too long since i last update!Omg now that i think about it,its been almost 1 and a half month!Omfg~Anyway lets get started.

Firstly,I know I'm old now,my 20th birthday have been celebrated and it was fantastic,filled with surprises and great gift.

The story goes on like this,as usual i invited everyone to hang out,turn out everyone rejected me,its was a surprise to be rejected coz usually they would come out to eat and play since the new sem haven't start yet.So in the end only me,Fatty and Middle came out as usual(Gays).We went on and have dinner,and then cc and finally lakeside(favorite hangout spot).Few minutes later,V-Jen and the gang came with a cake!I was shocked because it was only 11pm and i didn't it to be early.turns out it was just a small celebration.i ate the cake and went back home,because NO ONE is willing to come out!so i went on home ready and prepared to go to bed,when i was about to go out from the room to get my towel,someone knock on the door.And when i open the door it goes BOOM!Sprays starting to come in,Friends singing Happy Birthday,and laughing leaving me in a state of shock!Lol~I was speechless due to overjoy and yea,almost but dint haha!i ate the cake again,and then went on to pool to finish the night.Oh wait, haven't end yet!when i came back to the house its around 2am,i went on to bath and guess what,when i came out from the bathroom,I got another surprise,this time from my bff(housemate) LOL..but i was just too tired to show any deep reaction,so i had another cake.

On my 20th birthday,i got 3 surprises 3 cakes and a gift.Best Birthday Ever.

I just wanna say

THANK YOU!!

Alright,Next,3 days after my birthday,we celebrated moon cake festival,it was really fun because i don't remember the last time i played it xD..Oh its sem 2 now.Not really satisfied with my result,still not getting over it till now.=(~Sem2 have been busy so far. Haven't back to penang for 7 weeks now,not till week 9,coz having a lot of assignments and test bugging me,so had to wait..I missed Home.Oh during week 3 and 4 i went to Ipoh,its really a nice city although nothing much there.but i still like it for its people and environment there!I saw Raymond Lam there too..I could say he is the most handsome guy i ever met so far.Lol.Sounds gay but its true!!..

Mostly I'm updating about my birthday,About my life.its been great.Stress from time to time.Been helping people too,I need to focus my studies now.I had too much regrets and failures, I'm not planning to add more to it.I hate myself but all i can do is to look to the future and wake up! =)...I'm 20 now,no more time to waste or else i would be far behind my friends.I guess that's it,i need to study for test and oh yeah Thanks again to my friends and hope my readers like the post this time =).

Till then,

Kee Guan.

1 Week Holiday

2010-09-14T11:22:00.000-07:00

Hello guys!its been 5 days since my trip to KL.I watched Resident Evil last Saturday,its very nice and i may watch it again on Thursday in 3-D.This holiday is kinda boring,well got nothing to do except staying at home.I even started to watch Korean drama-Tree Of Heaven.Its very nice and interesting.But then sad at the same time Lol.Dramas~Today i received my 1st birthday present ,u can see from the picture above!=)..The present is a mystery though haha!but i really like it.Alright I'm going back to kampar this sunday to start my sem 2.Before that i will have to face my exam result.I'm really scare of the result and feel so stressed about it.I try not to thing about it but it just keep on coming back..Sighs~I really really hope i will pass everything except my maths though =(..Anyway no use worrying,we will see on that day..Oh on 20th which is my 1st day of class is my birthday =) I think i would get a surprise or something haha.Hopefully i will enjoy it but then if my results are bad i think i wont be able to enjoy it already =.=...Man~Bad timing haha.

Currently I'm without hand phone..My final hope,the old phone died on me just now..I got so frustrated and stunned! zzz~So to contact me is only through Facebook or msn for now.I think that's pretty much all for now.I'm gonna go continue my movie then off to bed!Thx for reading lol.this post are just a short update.Take care~

Klang,Subang,>Holiday!

2010-09-10T11:21:00.000-07:00

Yo everyone!its been a while since i last update..as i mention in the last post i don't have a computer to do so!now that I'm back in penang i will be updating it!Firstly i will say about my exam.its over!on Monday earlier this week!I did quite well this time except for my maths..hope everything will went smoothly though =).But honestly I'm worried and stressed bout the result !~.~..

All right moving on to after exam that night we went to A-station,played Dota and then lakeside for bbq!we hangout and talked till midnight,went to mamak for supper after that,and then Roy's house play poker straight till 9am to catch early train!So we dint get to sleep at all for 24hours!As a result i slept through the whole train journey!Reach klang and went to wei shengs house for the 1st day.Very nice house but i was too tired so i practically slept through out the day lol..during the night time,we went to watch step up 3 at JJ.it's very nice!On the 2nd day we went to sunway lagoon with a total of 11 people.it was fun but very tiring and my phone died there too=(...So unlucky 'la' haha!..Slept at roy's house and surprisingly at 12.30am lol!And for the 3rd day we went to JJ again to sing karaoke.I sang for an house and slept for 2 hours till the end =,=...after that we walk around JJ and ate secret recipe..Went back to roy's house to pack up my things and stayed at Carols house for the night!

Ok that's pretty much all of it after summarizing.I wanna thank wei sehng,roy and carol for the stay and come to penang next time!will bring u guys to eat till u drop!HAHA!I'm having my 1 weeks holiday in penang now..will be lazy and hopefully go out to eat xD..

For the photos of my trip go to my FB to check it out..i cant upload pics coz my phone messed up :)
P.S I miss my friends in Utar and Lakeside :X

Exam,Worries,Fun~

2010-08-24T12:19:00.000-07:00

Hey Guys and Girls!its been some time since i last updated.Firstly i wanna say my laptop Messed up so i cant online freely now.i can either use my roommate's laptop sometime or go to Cafes..anyway i will get a new laptop probably on October i guess.Next we have been choosing timetable for Sem 2 now.And today(yesterday) is the day.We went to A-Station in a group of 16 at least and choose the time table together.Its kind of exciting =) i manage to get it but im the last one!!Everyone get their respective Time and I'm still stuck at only 1 subs..Unfair LOL!Face problem??ISH~..Next week 1st September is my final exam.which will last till september 6..Honestly I'm very scared.But that's good but i try to relax myself more and also pressure myself with the fear to study as well.So the only way is to study with friends.Thanks Guys!.Oh and for the timetable thingy,i apologised for those who cant same class with me.(nothing to do with me but just say sorry LoL) we are all still friend although cant same class.can still hang out,so please don't think that we choose them over you or something like that ya :D..

Moving on,After exam most probably will follow classmates to Kl to go sunway lagoon!hope it will be a good one.Looking Forward to it eh!
For my life updates,I'm doing good,happy!Its almost a month since that very day.we are coping well as friends.Sometimes we just have to learn how to let go things am i right?Because as my friend NOob pig nee says,If that Person/things are not fated/destined for you then no matter how hard you try its will be very hard or should i say almost impossible to get.I'm not sad or something,just uh?Sharing LoL.For those who are really curious,our story is 1 person liking a girl,and build a relation from scratch.progressed well,but then afraid of the future coz very unstable(parents,locations,and restrictions) so we decided to stop and become friends =)
Its just chasing,not in a relationship.Clear?LoL..so don't misund =,= I'M single and uh,Secret now HeHe

Alright i guess i make it clear already i gotta go to sleep and just a note,I'm not gonna update my blog for some time now.cant online and also exam.so Just look at the old posts or my facebook for some mini updates.Thanks For reading.Have A good Day =)

Dissapoinment!

2010-08-17T08:05:00.000-07:00

Im back to kampar again.It feels like yesterday that im in kampar but is going to be the 3rd day already.im writing this post now coz i cant sleep although i am darn tired!On sunday i went to church and then BUkit Jambul,Brought myself a 8gb pendrive.And get to eat my favourtie ice-kacang too!yay!and then on that day itself something very special happened.Secret coz its something i will keep to myself for now haha..

On monday yesterday,nothing much happen.only rest whole day and feeling tired+lazy..Today is a special day,our whole class wore formal!it was great!but too bad i was suffering bad stomach ace and i had to stay inside the toilet for a long time!As a result im so tired right now lol.

Well check out the photo we took today.What im disappointed is i am suppose to go back on wednesday to penang so that i can spend mor etime with my cousin who got back from france..but i was held back by the english test on thursday..So i had to go back on friday now/..sighs~:(..anyway i betetr try to get some sleep now ..Nitez!

Pulau Pinang!

2010-08-13T11:09:00.000-07:00

Hello guys!this post is updated directly from penang!which is a very rare occasion..i just reach penang few hours ago and im overwhelmed by the excitement!the food,movies and SC2 are just fabulous!the plans now are movies tomorrow for now..well its a tiring day anyway..so i guess i better head to bed as soon as i finish this post!

Now for kampar,i finished my SOCIO assignment.it was great and we managed to reach ms.siti's expectation,great job guys!our topic is about Racism.nice topic but its very sensitive.on monday i will have to do a report and econ's presentation on tuesday.And then will back to penang here again on thursday!=)

Hmm for life update,nothing much..i'm enjoying in kampar..made quite a couple of new friends.great time,great people and place!As for me and 'her' we kinda gotten used to our current situation till she asked me today that can i call her within these few days coz she felt we are growing apart from each other..Hmm yea i feel it too..Im kinda happy and uh Shock about it =)..but anyway i'll enjoy my time in Penang and call gher when she wants to =)Oh also for my friends in kampar,>>>

I'm happy when ppl around me are happy,I'm unhappy when ppl around me are sad,therefore i always make ppl around me happy and smile =)Yea..so i guess that's it.
Good Night and Sweet Dream..will update more when I'm back to kampar xD

Week of Presentation

2010-08-11T01:04:00.000-07:00

Hey guys,I'm back!its been a while since i last wrote.I'm stuck with assignments and presentations.which is not nice at all.went to discuss SOCIO and CT with group members last weekend as i did not back to penang still.Pretty interesting because we get to study and have fun at the same time!Fun learning Lol.I had my CT presentation yesterday.I must say it went pretty well although we were all very nervous but it was a successful one.!Nice!..Hmm and then nothing much happen except I'm having my SOCIO presentation tomorrow.wish me luck!gotta rehearse later on.and oh my class had a 'hand art' class today.I was the lab rat LoL..end up my hand looking like some freaking mafia!=)..As u guys can see from the picture..the blue shirt is me!cute right?thanks to shy haha..More pictures in FB..Moving on to next part..

I'm going back to penang this week!Finally!and then will be back to kampar on Sunday and back toPenang on next Wednesday again.To meet my cousin!Yay!Cant wait..i wanna play SC2,Watch 4 movies!and Penang FOODDDD!!Also i wish i can meet her this one time though*cross fingers*

I guess that's all eh?gotta ready for jogging soon!till next time!cya guys!

Random,Mixed,Confusion.

2010-08-06T12:41:00.000-07:00

Alright.Its the 1st weekend of August.i decided to update some stuff.The 1st week of August?There are 2 parts.the 1st part was hell.luckily the 2nd part that is till today was better.=)

On Tuesday.my bicycle tire punctured,not even 10 days since i last changed.found out the rubber quality from last shop sucked big time!..payed rm13..Nvm..THE NEXT DAY!tyre puncture AGAIN!GG-ED...went to the shop again..for no reason it puncture and yea rm13 again..rm26 just fly FREE!..Nice?..Besides that,i am still feeling pretty moody as in sad or neutral mood.

On Thursday,we celebrated classmates birthday angel and Zoe.it was great and I'm the cameraman.as usual LoL..we ate dinner and hangout at the lake till around 2am..check out the pictures at facebook!(i posted the group photo here though)

And then as for today.i spend my day at CC and assignment from around 5-10pm..was tiring but we almost finish it.great!time passes so quickly eh?i still remember what happen last week and even this week.Its still so clear in my mind.and think again.it already a week!=)

Alright,I'm going back to Penang next week.but 1st i have 2 presentation to settle.after that I'm free and exam!..

This week is not a good week for me.i can say that much.Hopefully things will turn for the better in the later month.I'm always happy but deep inside my heart i always keep my sadness and sorrows there=)

Hmm..Finally,i still do think about her.But I'm now slowly step by step getting used to the current condition-As Friends..Oh not to mention..im not into 爱 for now..I really lost my confident.not cause of her or anyone.Its from myself =)..But hey I'm strong.i will just be just me who free from all these troublesome stuff.

PS.I hate Love(no offense to others)xD.Its sweet when u are happy,But its damn bitter when things just dont go your way.

Thx for reading

My 100-th Post!

2010-08-02T11:48:00.001-07:00

Yay!cant believe its finally the 100th post.Been writing alot without realizing it myself..Lets start it.Last week thursday its our test and on that day itself many of us in UTAR got food poisoning..including myself..vomited 3times..and yeah..its pretty bad!luckily i recovered by saturday.Thank God..Today we just finish our radio play and it went very very well.We received lots of great comment..and finished maths test as well..2 more assignments and presentation to go!

Moving on.The post this time may sound normal but its not coz my heart is seriously injured =)..my cousin from France are coming back on Wednesday and will be going to hong kong for a week!i will back next weekend and hopefully will be able to spend as much time as i can with him!

This month is the last month to study before exam..I'm gonna fully focus on my exam and nothing more.no more time to play or entertainment:D...Good luck KKG!

PS check out my class photo =) nice right xD

Scary thoughts

2010-07-28T10:13:00.000-07:00

Today i was awaken by a event.Its a friend of mine who had a very controlling boyfriend.or should i say over-caring maybe?i wont blame the guy or the girl either..no one is wrong.

The guy are like that because he over-cared for his love ones..afraid that she might be lied,tricked or cheated.But he never knew that his girl are far more better and independent than that.Its not that she don't love him,She LOVE him and i can see that.I just feel sad for them as i understand what is the guy going through now.Hes afraid of the change of hearts by her i guess,jealousy. frustration.not letting her mix with guys,or joining them for any events.I feel so Shamed yet i cant do a thing as i don't want to butt in other people's business.

What i wanna say here is..will i be the same in the future?im not anything like it now but will i be?i dont know.im not sure but im very worried and scared.Usually this happens on a long relationship.Oh well here i am again..worrying over unnecessary things again LoL...BUt lets be honest.this is a real turn off for any relationship.i believe that before u want to judge what your love ones did or done.loook and ask yourself!how come i did this and she cant do it too?how come i did that and she cant do that as well?why?i can mix with girls but why she cant go out with boys?I always think that these few question will really make a lot of sense.Am i correct?whatever it is i believe that giving freedom to each other is the best.If a couple cant even trust each other then why couple?might as well be friends then.Hmm i hope what i write here will really help those who are in the same trouble =)

Anyway for myself..hopefully in the future i wont treat her like that and i will only treat her as what i am now :)..God Bless all of us

This is me as in Today =)

Exams,Assignments

2010-07-27T10:53:00.000-07:00

The exam is in a month time..the deadline for assignments are getting near.Test keep on coming and coming every single week.i have been slacking off quite a lot these few weeks.Now is the time.1 Month.I will need to study 100% for these 1 month..This week and next week will be stressful for me as i got a 3 assignments and 2 test to complete.I wonder if i can handle it.Don't really have much confidence in myself this time around.But i know i can do it.

As for Life..my cousin Vivien from France are coming to Malaysia next month.its been almost 5 years since i last saw him.i was told to go back next week.hopefully i can because I'm tied by the tight schedule here.I need to pray that i can settle everything before then =)

Oh..Next year she wont be coming to Utar anymore.Instead shes going to ktar penang probably.I'm ok with that but deep inside my heart it still hurts =(..i will feel better after some time haha..its something i expected but the impact are still so great on me.I guess I'm the type that will always go for long distance relationship :D..It is hard at times but long distance have its good as well..

All right enough on that.tomorrow is an all black attire on college and U..most probably i will wear full formal lol...I'm not sure yet..will update later..for now gotta go to bed..Thx for reading

Connexion 2010-PassITOn

2010-07-25T11:52:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!I'm back.Went to KL on friday and came back to kampar today.It a great experience.the connexion this year teaches us about sharing and believing of God Jesus.and we do have break out sessions which are very interesting.

So Friday me and alson went by bus at 3.30pm and reach around 7.Thank God we weren't late as we were stuck in the traffic for almost an hour.we were picked up by cheras baptist church van,thx mr. Darryl .It began with great worship and preaching by pastor Calvin.there were a lot of people that night from all over the world.it was great to see both old and new friends.

The next day was interesting.start at 9.30 and ends at 10pm.we got worshipping,preaching breakout sessions and great lunch provided.we even played some Frisbee =)..i guess this time i will let the picture do the talking..I'm feeling tired sorry xD..till then!

Connexion 2010

2010-07-22T10:20:00.000-07:00

Finally its friday!I'm gonna go down to kl though bus at 3pm later with kia chin!feeling excited but also feel kinda lazy to travel xD...but i know its gonna be worth as i have lots of people expecting me there =)

Recently,I've been feeling very happy and something happen too yesterday but I'm not gonna mention it here.privacy 1st haha..I'm having a really good time with my classmate.I'm slowly becoming more and more of myself with them now..very outgoing and noisy haha..super hyper haha!

I'm having a lot of stress from test and assignment as usual but being with them just relaxes me and of course there is someone that makes me feel at ease everyday =)..I'm having high expectation for next month=august.theres a chance i may able to meet 'her'!and there will be presentations and finally exam ~.~....so i really need to study hard and hopefully i really can achieve my target..i need to stop online on august..seriously.im afraid but i do have the confidence =)..

Oh i heard theres a rapist or something in kampar,i dont really believe it but its better to be careful than sorry guys..for girls please dont be alone.find a guy or frens to accompany u whenever u go out..its for ur own safety :)..im especially worried bout my friends though haha!

Anyway i gotta go to bed..i promised to sleep early.so goodnite guys will update on sunday with photos from connexion XD

Lol so many girls @.@
Its kinda dark but i like it =)
And this are taken today hehe

Unwavering Love

2010-07-19T11:23:00.000-07:00

I know its surprising but i wanted to write it here.I have a girl that i really love and care about right now.shes younger than me.and shes in penang of course.we havent meet yet so far.

Alright for our progress.i told her i like her and it all began.i gave her time to decide,slowly till december,or mayb later or sooner?who knows?..

The main point here is,will our relationship work?she have a strict parents,and not much freedom still.we got a lot of obstacles and yet im not giving up.i ask myself>why do i wanna choose her when there are so many other girls where i can get easier?well that's love i guess.The problem with me is,once i make a decision i wont change especially a promise which i made already.I really like her and i accepted her past, and I don't like her because shes beautiful or anything,but i like her for her personality,for who she is and then comes her look.(get me?lol)

Getting to like her have really changed me quite a lot,i don't play video games that much anymore,i study more often now and then,i played guitar and do more outdoor activities instead of facing the computer.We spoke and shared a lot of things together but till now we haven't got a chance to meet yet.so hopefully next month i will be able to meet her and i believe we will progress a lot from there.

Distance is a problem too,lets say she doesn't come to Utar,kampar next year.i wont get to meet her as often as i want-again,i don't really mind about that as we can keep contact.But if she go to other college or U will we stay strong like we are now?.i know i sound sarcastic but I'm just really worried from what i experience my last relationship.I'm really scare of the 'hurt' feeling.yea I'm a guy so what?I'm still scared.As i mentioned before,nothing scares me more than love.

I tell myself,why don't i just give up and give excuses to throw her aside and find someone here at kampar which are more convenient.I wanted to but too bad that's not me and it don't work that way because shes already in my heart =)

Some may know who is the girl I'm talking about,some may not...all that i have just written here are my worries.it doesn't mean anything.I just wanted to share it out.i cant keep it inside of me anymore.All i need now is patience and self control.I know my patience will pay off well.If it don't i will just have to accept it xD

Here ends about my tale of chasing a girl.thx for reading this Noob post =)

P.S God knows whether we will be together or not.But i promise i wont give her up,unless something like parents stand in between then i had to let her go.But till then i will stand strong!Hopefully it works.Wish Me luck :D

Bon Odori 2010+Updates

2010-07-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

Hey guys,sorry it took a week for me to update again.Been busy with quite a few things.mainly TESTS,assignments and entertainment =).

Lets start with utar.i had my economics test on thursday last week.hopefully i can do well as i only know about 50-50.and then~

I went back to penang on friday the next day.I was very happy and sad too as i know i still couldnt meet 'her' yet.And so here comes PENANG!i woke up at 7+am to send my mom to work as i need to use her car.I slept at like 3am on friday night lol.so i only had 4 hours of sleep.and after i finished sending her,i came back and play some games and without realizing its already 11am.so i head out and went to fetch my friends.we went to papa rich at penang e-gate,and then to gurney to watch twilight!its a great movie but i dont really like bella..i like her but not on this series LoL..the way she act makes her so 'slutty' like from a phrase she told edward >i love him,but i love you more< =.=..what the hell is this?anyway i wont make further comment on this movie xD

Now we move on to the bon odori,in others words some japanese dance festival to worship their ancestor or something.IT IS NOT A GHOST FESTIVAL!pls get this right.alot of people though its ghost festival but its not at all!.about this year we seemed kinda boring,keep on thinking what to do because we attend bon odori for like 4 years straight already?so everything looks the same,in the end we are all expecting the fireworks =)..it was great.go to my profile and view it!and alot of pictures too.

I'm having my maths test tomorrow,I'm not prepared yet.nor I'm intending to do Lol..Oh I'm going to Kl this weekend for the connexion conference 2010 at cheras baptist church together with my friends.i cant wait and i know its going to be fun!but 1st i gotta settle my test and assignments 1st.

This post is kinda weird,i don't know,i just feel so Lol..probably I'm just not in the right mood to write =)

till then xD

The End Of Dunia Cawan!

2010-07-12T07:13:00.000-07:00

Yesterday the clash between Holland and Spain ended the world cup 2010.Its a fairly interesting match but im unsatisfied with spain snatching away the win with 1-0..i was expecting holland to send spain back to 'holland' LOL...anyway grats spain =)

For my progress in life,as i mentioned in the last post,finished 2 test and hand in 2 assignment already,.had another test this coming thursday and next week as well.God Bless Me ><...i have been sick since Friday and luckily I'm feeling better now.Luckily I'm still able to finish my English script today.Phew~...

I'm going back penang this weekend for the Japanese festival aka Bon Odori at esplanade.Its a yearly thingy for us..we never miss it every year xD..i hope i will really enjoy myself this weekend!Oh i forgot.i played futsal for the 1st time last week too.it was so fun and exciting.but too bad,i got overexcited and forgot to warm up.i jump straight into the game and the result?muscle pain for few days LoL..Lesson learnt=Warm Up 1st!I'm having another one this week =)..cant wait haha!

For my personal life.nothing much had happen.I miss some of my friends as well as family and my home.hmm.there is something that i always wonder.why do i always had to go for the difficult ones,when there are easier ways and choices?I'm really happy but sometimes i just feel so demoralized..hmm maybe that life eh?LoL

Anyway i think that's all..just updating a Lil' bit..I almost forget.celebrated Leo's birthday this week too LoL..it was fun and i get to know new friends =)

Till then TaTa~

Memories

2010-07-04T09:36:00.001-07:00

Hello,Welcome and enjoy this post =)This is a post of memories and what i found recently xD

I will start off from wednesday that is after my maths test,it went well,probably coz i studied like 4 hours for it =) hardwork pays!and then i went back to penang on the night of the next day.

The trip back to penang this time was great..i went for movie with NoobPao,Yee Leng And The NOOB RAYSON! for Karate Kid!Never Say Never eh?haha..its a great lengthy movie though.worth your money so whatcha waiting for?get your tickets now!

For saturday ,i helped my mom move my house again,theres still things to be moved from my old house..while going through all the old things,i found my old toys,my kindergarten Books?standard 1 book..as well as my childhood toys!my power rangers model,beast wars,masked riders,dragonball,dinosaur!!and many more..oh and battery operated toys!u cant find it now anymore,i can guarantee u that!and so we went on and i found pictures and some old stuff of my dad's..hes really handsome last time,i didn't know and i though the young him was a superstar lol..anyway like father like son eh?HANDSOME juga la!!haha..

The next day which is today i woke up at 7am and went to penang to meet my US friends once again.i cant believe its already been a year since i last saw them,coz the last time i send them back its still fresh in my mind.its like few months ago!anyway it was both a happy and sad day..im happy i meet them again but im also very sad that i ned to say goodbye to them at the same day..Sighs~..too bad,i need to study and test,assignments waiting for me back here in kampar so i had no choice!.But i will meet lisa and kayla on the 23 and 24th july so its still ok!=)

Moving on,This week,and next week would probably cut a year or two off my life haha,just joking..im having 2 test on tuesday and wednesday..1 assignment to be hand in.another one to be hand in too next week.and im yet to start =.=...i wonder,will i be able to handle the stress?especially with the major distraction from WORLD CUP???i do hope i can do it!

Oh,and im really progressing greatly with ___!Its just a matter of time and patience.=)

Alright i guess i got to go to bed now!got a really early class tomorrow!nitez/have a nice day and thx for reading!

P.S enjoy the pictures =)

End Of June

2010-06-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

A blink Of Eye And its July Already aka 5th week since my studies start..i still remember the 1st day when i cam here freshly in my mind..and the next thing i see,its already 5th week??LOL...time sure flies..Last weekend i stayed at kampar coz I'm going back this week!i SOLO with ALSON CHENG on saturday and JEFF TUNG on sunday haha!that sounded really gay 1 day 1 different guy haha..we almost got crazy because of the boringness and as bad as it already is,the dumb streamyx make it worse,DC,LAG =GG...sighs~and so luckily later in the night we get to hang out with friends!great time..and a great weekend in conclusion =)

Moving On,AS i said its already the 5th week and that means i really really WTF-really (lol) need to start work hard,assignments studies by next week..The 6th week,i will be a nerd!!oh well mayb half nerd haha..i don't want people thinking kkg already become 'tambai' xD...That's That For now..

Next!!my fav song and group right now!SNSD!!!GIRLS GENERATION!!

Gee Gee Gee Gee 'Bye Bye Bye Bye' haha..i listen to it like 20-30 times a day?wake up sleep lunch time all also GEE listen more i wonder will become GG a not haha!anyway I'm planning to learn their dancing style haha..wish me luck!! it will be KKG'S Generation d muahahaha!

Wad else?Oh i know!to my class group 11 and 12?if any of u guys who are reading my blog,thanks!if not then also thanks haha..by coming here u will know me better!im not a silent type in case u dont know..im still warming up though..maybe 1 or 2 more weeks u will wish i were back to how i was in 1st week haha..

Alright i guess i better end it here..gotta do maths still!wednesday maths exam and i still don't know anything..GOd bless me!!haha Tata and have a great day/night! =)

Oh yea,these 2 drawings are mind map drawn by me together with my friends in class..nice isnt it =)I just LOVE it haha