Koblog

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Fri, 10 Feb 2012 02:57:00 +0000

Remind me.
Tell me I'm not alone.

I can't make it without seeing where you're taking me Lord.

Reckless

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Fri, 03 Feb 2012 00:58:00 +0000

Lately things have looked so bleak.
I'm exhausted in every facet and just... so sick of everything.

And yet, in a strange way I think I've been reminded that I once chased recklessly, relentlessly for Christ.
I don't want to relive things anymore.

I just, want to be closer to you again. Throw everything aside with reckless abandon.

Love you with all I am. Even though my life is worth nothing. I'll give you everything, for the privilege of chasing after you.

Reckless bliss.

The Real Thing

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 07:41:00 +0000

As I spend more and more time reflecting on today's message.
As I spend even more time reflecting on my family.
As I spend even more time still reflecting on God's faithful providence.

The more I come to realize it's all pride and self centered proclamation of self-worth.
Perhaps, what I really want is for my father to know that I'll never be qualified apart from Christ.

Perhaps...
Perhaps.

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 05:04:00 +0000

I need you to rescue me... constantly and eternally.

Restore me O Lord, everything about me constantly falls into broken depravity.

There's only so much time in a day

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Wed, 11 Jan 2012 07:07:00 +0000

You know what's amazing?
Jenga was roughly my age when she got married.

Old school goodness right there. I'm thankful for you Jenga.

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Define comparability in marriage for me.
Somebody.

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There's only so much time in a day.
God grace me with an endless cycle of thanksgiving.

I see now that I can either grumble or give thanks and not have time to do either justice.

Lead me to give thanks.

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Discerning... what it is that I'm wrestling with.
God - this is an idol.
She is an idol.

But my heart yearns for a helper.
Is this not by your design?

I pray for faith, like slee mentioned.
Prepare me. For I know I'm not ready.

Patience?

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 05:42:00 +0000

Once upon a time... my former discipler/teacher told me to be more like naruto. Making his ultimate weakness his "go to" technique.

As my parents (or closest friends) will tell you, temper/character flaws run in family.
Patience being one of them.

Perhaps my patience baseline was so low that any fruit of the Spirit in this regard seems exponential.
Is that why I feel my parents don't know my heart and self-recognized fruit?

Who knows me better than family, right?

Perhaps I am in the season of my life where I need to stop being such a control freak - and just let go.
And not be wise in my own sight.

I'll let it go.

God, lead the way.
I'll follow you wherever you go.

Broken Record

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 10 Nov 2011 07:10:00 +0000

Even when I neglect you.
Even when I run away.
Even when I give up on myself.

You O Lord remain faithful.
Such beautiful grace is too wonderful for me.
What a beautiful mystery your grace is.

Reminders

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sun, 30 Oct 2011 04:32:00 +0000

As I continue to fall for the same sins - I need constant reminders of God's faithfulness.
Reminders of my identity as an adopted son.

To God alone be the glory.
And everything about me.

Soli Deo Gloria

Forgetful

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sun, 23 Oct 2011 06:41:00 +0000

How far will my heart wander from your own?
How many times oh Lord will you allow for your stupid son to avoid you?

Father, I grow sick and weary of this world.
Come back soon.

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Seriously, who can possibly fathom the depths of sinful hearts?
It's hard to really, honestly, and completely acknowledge God in every way, all the time.

Intense bouts of pride, insecurities, desires of the flesh.
How often O Lord does my heart stray from the goodness of your truth, your gospel, your fellowship.

All the while, remind me Lord. Just as you are not transcendent nor immanent.
Allow for me the grace to see.

Father, drive me further towards the throne of grace.

my sister

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 13 Oct 2011 04:36:00 +0000

there are times when God blesses you through family.

fewer still are the times when he gives you the awareness to appreciate family.

i'm graced to have both in my sister.

who inspires, humbles, and does everything in between on a daily basis.

much like her salvation in Christ, i hope she knows that no failure, no success, or anything in all creation will make us love her any more, or any less.

Babies and general revelation

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 18:07:00 +0000

http://www.foxnews.com/health/2011/10/10/babies-as-young-as-15-months-grasp-fairness/

More evidence of general revelation.
word up.

Hmm...

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sat, 24 Sep 2011 19:01:00 +0000

The providence group ran through Rev. 4 with Francis Chan last night - mainly the biblical exegesis of the chapter and how we do approach our Lord in prayer.

Somewhere in my short time as an undergraduate, I bought into the whole idea that Christ is my "friend". While, I am not denying the truth of his immanence, I do think that it really took away from his majesty, the sheer awe, and terror that comes with meeting God face to face.

The more I tried to wrap my mind around the vision of Rev. 4 - the more I realized that I lost that total terror as a college student. (I'll withhold the word fear, it really doesn't do it justice and also confuses folks with respect).

I mean, to come into the audience of one of that much authority and holiness... man.. I'd be terrified.

Though I know that he's my friend, with whom I'm given the privilege of a relationship...

It's also just so refreshing to remember the terror of his might.

please be real

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Fri, 16 Sep 2011 01:48:00 +0000

http://imgur.com/vfXTu

Humility

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 08 Sep 2011 03:59:00 +0000

It's so hard to be content.

I remember times of punishment from my father.
He'd hit our palms with a stick/rod until we had sufficiently said "thank you"

At the time, it'd struck me as a bizarre way to provide punishment.
However, is there not a season for everything in creation?

Despite all the curve-balls life is designed to throw my way..
I hope that you guys, your prayers, your voices, will continue to speak truth into my life.
That I may be further humbled.
That our prayers will be filled with thanksgiving and subsequent peace.

That God will be closer to me and to you.
Not that his immanence went anywhere, but that my heart will be more receptive to his presence.

Please:
Pray for me. If you're able, pray over me.
Praise with me. If you're able, praise WITH me.
Encourage and rebuke me.

Stubborn heart of mine

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Tue, 06 Sep 2011 01:31:00 +0000

Had a talk about future school plans with my father tonight.

As with our usual talks regarding the matter, it was concise, calm, and confusing.

It's genuinely discouraging when you're not sure if your parents are arguing on the basis of scripture or the basis of their opinion, worldly wisdom, [and/or] personal experience.

Hopefully God will allow me to discern his will in his word and obtain peace through prayer [in/of] thanksgiving.

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Content?

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 05 Sep 2011 05:49:00 +0000

Though I should have a much greater sense of urgency... I'm happy with consistency.

There is no future plan.

No hopes, no dreams.

Perhaps for the first time in my life.

Just a sense of lazy contentment.

But is it really lazy? Or is it finally just a complete sense of contentment?

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I wonder how God is going to use you to bless the world today.

TIMMY

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 05:20:00 +0000

Even shaq in his prime had nothing on timmy.

I really wish I had been older to appreciate his game in his prime.

:)

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Sat, 20 Aug 2011 05:11:00 +0000

Time after time, God shows his plan to be so true.

Time after time, he also shows me that my sister is the foundation of our family.

Whether or not she does "well" doesn't matter.

She is our family's joy.

What a blessing she is.

New Goal

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 13:51:00 +0000

Listen to at least one new album a day.

To be a child

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 05:59:00 +0000

Building from the humility retreat..

Isn't it awesome how unified, and faithful scripture is upon itself?

Seraphims that cleanse Isaiah by fire.

Seraphims that hide themselves from the even brighter light of Christ.

Humbly hiding their feet.

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Children who show utter contentment in submission and willingness to follow

Why is it that Mark is the one that addresses things this way?

How about the kid that willingly gave up his lunch so that Christ could feed many?

Was that not also faith?

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Is it not his character also exemplified in our worship of God?

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The providence family is losing so many familiar faces.

Excited/anxious/nervous/ to see what's in store!

Pride and Envy

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 11 Aug 2011 22:08:00 +0000

Something that's been placed in my heart/mind over the past few months is the relationship between pride and envy.

On one hand, you could make an argument that they are different.

You're prideful on what you have.

You envy based on what you don't.

On the other hand, they're so similar, even stemming from the origins of sin.

Were Adam and Eve prideful and think themselves on par with God?

Or did they covet what God had?

Many pastors preach about either of these as "the original" or "the worst" of sin.

As an Asian-American who sees how deeply rooted these "values" are embedded and even synonymous with our culture - I really don't care about which sin is the "worst".

I just want to be rid of it.

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A few hours before Judy gets in.

Less than a day before ELM's Humility retreat kicks off.

So excited.

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I love the word with all my heart.

It has gems that are everywhere, it'll never cease to bless.

humility

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Tue, 09 Aug 2011 06:11:00 +0000

God's creation is "good" in the sense that really is only justified by his metric.

As retreat nears... what other response is there than to be excited beyond reason?

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God placed my parents in my life for a reason.

I should probably honor their wisdom more than I currently do.

Time and time again, God has shown his faithfulness.

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Men's group at ELM?

who's game?

Seriously

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 01 Aug 2011 22:41:00 +0000

Found this gem on dbak's blog

turn down the lights
turn down the bed
turn down these voices
inside my head
lay down with me
tell me no lies
just hold me close
don’t patronize
don’t patronize me

i can’t make you love me if you don’t
you can’t make your heart feel
somethin’ it wont
here in the dark,in these final hours
i will lay down my heart
and feel the power if you wont
no you wont
cuz i can’t make you love me
if you don’t

i’ll close my eyes
then i wont see
the love you dont feel
when your holdin’ me
morning will come
and i’ll do whats right
just give me till then
to give up this fight
and i will give up this fight

I love a small world.

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Mon, 25 Jul 2011 02:09:00 +0000

When the Lord finally brings things together.
He makes worlds collide.

Yet he sustains all of us.

Praise God.

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As a dear friend Keith, so kindly puts it...

"Praise God, he finally let us meet."

Seriously, I praise God that he let me meet all of you guys.

Yet another move

noreply@blogger.com (Kobong) — Thu, 21 Jul 2011 09:05:00 +0000

Moving to W. Philly soon.

It'll be interesting to move. I hope the commute to ELM will be pain free for my sister.

Please do pray for me -- to lean not on my own understanding, to relentlessly pray and serve.

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Regional Pa-Delaware softball tournament this weekend!

I'm admittedly not as excited as I had previously anticipated.

In fact, I'm barely limping to the finish line.

Totally tired. Softball-ed out, sort of speak.

Pray for safety in the 105 degree heat index.

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ELM Retreat is SO SOON!

I'm so excited.

Ditto for the prayer night tomorrow

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Who am I..

that you are mindful of me?

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