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2009-04-28T09:28:00.003+08:00

i lost my words when i try to write..

i am in a moderate cafe nearby my house.. just to sit down and surf internet..

i am thinking about writing in a blog which i started years ago.. before i start my writing, i just go back and learned from what i have wrote before.. amazingly, it reminded me with treasures i forgot.

what i am now.. a big business man.. NO.. a big persona.. NO..

still a man that asking for lead. am i a loser.. MAYBE.. but still i dont feel like i am a loser..

maybe i am a loser in a world that i dont like.. maybe i am a loser referred to the standard set by certain people or media or idealism..

back to the basic, why do i live.. for what reason i am here.. it is just to serve people?? which people.. who can tell me which people to serve??? why should i obey???

back to basic.. why should we live in a competition??? do we have certain target or objective to achieved?? who give us the objective?? why should we obey??

back to basic.. am i human??? why as a human i cant think as one human instead of taking orders from another human??? why should i obey???

sad really... very sad.. time is changing.. me is changing.. people is changing.. towards the ultimate good.. towards the nature with or without notice.

do we notice that?? do we??

a root from a seed always go to one and only direction, WATER because of his nature.. everything in this nature, follow their own nature.. but do we have our own nature??? YES!! NO!! what is it?? do we follow our own nature??? YES?? NO???

human's nature have more conflict.. do we have a nature to avoid this conflict..?? RULES?? what kind of RULES?? a rule that support one party or race or group or idealism and condemn another?? do the rule can avoid conflict in our nature?? everything is so CONTROLLED... by sort of controller (is it rule or idealism??)... so confusing..

back to nature.. it is me now..

July, 9 2008

2008-07-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

Fuuh!!! it's really a century ago i made my last writing.

too busy to write, already July mate..!!! my daughter start walking almost a month ago.. she's just 11 months old. what a good news..

Already in July 2008.. wow!! we can never imagine how fast the time is, was, bla.. bla.. bla..

Still no change, my life i mean.. still road tour every months.. visit "customer" almost everyday.. No changing, still.. DAMN!!!

Still no NEXT.. and again, DAMN!!!

Too much to say, no mood to write..
See ya..

New Year 2008, not new anymore...

2008-02-05T12:13:00.000+08:00

Last 37 days, it was New Year's Eve, WELCOME 2008... it's only last 366 days, then it's gone forever..

Coming 329 days, a new New Year's Eve, WELCOME 2009...

same episode repeated.. start with celebration.. go back to work.. bla.. bla.. bla.. celebration again.. bla.. bla.. bla..

some sort of management i think.. all we have in our live is only time, one minute ahead, last one minute and this moment, second, minute.. name it..

now, i have a family.. wife and kid(s).. compare to 3 years ago, i have nothing.. not even myself.. am i happy now..?? yes, of course.. and then, what's next..??? waiting??? seeking??? hiding??? WHAT?????

blinking... blinking... blinking... 12.01 am, 2009.. happy new year.. one minute later, not new anymore..

i am a happy man, with all time i have.. with everybody by my side.. with everything that i have.. and then, what's next??? NEXT!!!! WHAT???

I WANT TO WORK FOR YOU.. YOU... YOU..

How??? How??? How??? New Year's Eve is coming...

money go-round

2007-03-02T10:36:00.000+08:00

Februayry, 28 2007... paycheck cash in.. what a relief..

money is always go round like merry go-round at the funfair....

1st of all, car installment...
then, pay what you owed from friends...
then, keep some for petrol, toll tickect, emergency case of car break down...
then, my wife get some...
then, my parent, if they needed..
then, buy something for me self and my wife..
then... that is it.. the rest is for surviving untill next paycheck..

where all the money go?? they are going around the big circle of course...

the money go round, me stay put, stand still... no more money to go around..

the money go round, me go straight, and come back straight.. go to work, back home.. same route, same routine...

every month.. same... whatever.. :P

who am i??

a small pawn on a chess board??
**do your job, for the big course.. follow the system.. and remember, just follow..!!!!!!!!!!!**

or a metal ball in pinball??
**keep moving, or you will gone from the system.. you are not always lucky to go back to the ignition point... few chances, you're already blew some of it..**

ok cut it off.. it's a boring topic...

last nite, i watched 'Numb3rs' at AXN.. i'm sure many knows about this series.. in this episodes, one thing that really get into my head is how to define dimension.. 2 dimension and 3 dimension..

on the cupboard, or paper, we can draw a cube.. which is a 3-D image, and we accept it as a cube like a real cube.. and also we can imagine the other side of the cube.. human imagination is always unacceptable... far beyond the 7th sky.. but, we always forgot, that drawing is not in 3-D mode.. it is in 2-D mode.. the cube we drew always just a drawing...

and in our life, there is time when we use our brain, i mean thinking in 2-D mode, and sometime in 3-D mode.. it's magnificient right???

ok, what is 2-D??? it means, 2 axis.. X axis, and Y axis..

3-D means X axis, Y axis and Z axis...

all the axis, coming from one point.. it's a neutral point, or zero point...

2-D mode of thinking normally it's about cause and action.. when you do this, this will happen.. or this is what you get...

3-D mode is more complicated... normally it's about cause and action in a time frame... when you do this, this time, this will happen... but if you change the time, something else will happen.. sometime, you change the action and the time frame, the same outcome you will get.. sometime the outcome and time is fixed, the action maybe more complicated or more easy..

i impressed with the explanation in that series.. it's very mathematical.. but it's fit into your life perfectly, you can say it in numbers... AMAZING.....

unconciously we are using both mode everyday..
and, of course some level of people only used one mode of thinking, some of them used both... can you imagine if there are some level of people who can think in 4-D mode...???

what is 4 Dimension??? please refer to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fourth_dimension .. oh MY GOD...!!! it's really amazing..

if there is people who can think in this mode, it's unimaginable...

GOD.. it's cool.. adios...

when the time come

2007-02-27T09:44:00.000+08:00

when the time come, we will be born..
when the time come, we will walk..
when the time come, we will talk..
when the time come, we will learn how to do what people do..

when the time come,
we will realize every people is same..
when the time come,
we will see the boundaries in our head.. skin colors, races and hierachy..

when the time come, we will get marry..
when the time come, we will have childrens..
when the time come, we will get sick..
yes, in the other words, when the time come, we will get older..

when the time come, everything that we are worry about is around the corner..
when the time come, we will be there..
when the time come, we realize why we are so worry..
when the time come, we realize we are sorry..
when the time come, we realize that we are ready..

preventive is better than cure.. prevent when you still have time..
when the time come, you will face it with brain..
when the time come, you will know that you are strong..

PROBLEM is always there.. you are on the road to them.. when the time come, you will face them..

PROBLEM.. sometime it really matters to one, but not the others.. same matter will give headache to some, not to other some..

the word 'problem' can be repalced by anything.. happiness, sadness, grieveness.. everything is same, it just the way we approach them..

and only the matter of time, you will face 'em.. prevent and prepared.. you will face them with brain..

very tired

2007-02-26T10:20:00.000+08:00

day of tiredness..

last saturday i was going back to my hometown.. my sister in law's enggagement ceremony. i just dont want to miss it. it was a family function and i want to be there..

however, it was very tired weekend.. but i was really happy.. of course i was happy when i can see in my wife's eyes how happy she was... :) pretty smile that i cant never forget.. my god, i love her so much...

i was heading back to kl with my friend, very old friend... all the way back, my job was talking non-stop so he can stay focus on the wheel.. and i was success.. 9.30 pm to 2.30 am, everything went well all the way... thank god.. alhamdulillah..

reaching my home around 2.30, i went out again to meet my another old friends at TTDI. very long time no see, and i guess it was a mistake that i made today... but it's ok, i'm happy to see them..

now, i'm at the office with sleepy head, heavy eyes... i drove here from home in safety mode because i barely open my eyes while driving.. alhamdulillah, i'm here safely.. i'm still thinking how to get back home after work safely.. soo tired.. and happy.. :)

tired is happy.. adios..

what did i learn??

2007-02-22T13:38:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai...

Festive season, again.. the most exciting phenomena in Malaysia, truly Asia... hehehehe... more holidays... hehehe... and also more traffic jam, more uprising tickect price, more headache.. GRRRR..

but it is ok as long as it is a holiday... a long holiday... :)

17th Feb to 20th Feb.. 4 days holiday... best...

my journey started at 7pm 16th Feb, pickup my brother and sisters, from KL to Klang to KL.. damn tired...

after dinner around 11.30 pm, the real journey begin.. Jln Duta Toll, so quiet.. not many cars around.. and i thought it was a good thing but, gooosh!!! after 10 minutes drive, it was a long traffic jam from where we were to God knows where... 20km/j every 5 minutes and then stop for one minute.. HUARGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!! tension gilos...

i was putting all my patient together, and drove so politely.. hmmm... after 2 hours, the signboard shows exit to Rawang, fuuuhhh!!! this exit is my savior... all the way to Slim River i used the toll free road.. it's more convenient.. no pay at all.. save more fuel.. no tension and i felt really calm.. pueh hati den... 80-110 kmj, as makan kacang poteh... yeeaah!!!!

7 am 17th Feb.. here we come b'worth... so beautiful.. hehehe... quite a long journey, and i was very sleepy.. my sisters went back home by bus and i went to my mum in law's house with my brother... we slept like kangaroo... hahahaha... whatever it was like, i dont care... hehehehehe...

what i have learn from the journey...??? be brave to take action, to make a decision.. stick to the course... eeeerrrr.. whatever i did learn, thank God we are all safe all the way home...

other than that, i learned that in our life,

our journey is not one way journey..
our journey is not one path journey...
every path you may take, you will reach upcoming junction..
and you have to choose which way you should go..
and again, junction and choose.. untill you reach your goal..
after that, you have to plan for your next goal..
and then, the journey start again..
and plan your goal again...

it'll never stop... that is the way it is.. so, stop complaining.. just be brave to make a choice, a decision.. sooner you decide, less tension you will get.. cool??? hmmm...

adios guys...

2007-02-15T13:32:00.000+08:00

12th and 13th february 2007..

i was attending a course organized by my company.. a good one i think..

" Negotiation Skill "

the course was held at one of a few star hotel in subang.. quite a course it is.. i enjoyed it most of the time..

the things is, i dont really agree with the theory of negotiation, but you have to do the way the theory is to success in negotiation..

in the other words, you have to do what you are not believe in.. so, most of the time i try to figure out a reasons or looking for something i can hold onto, to force myself to partly believe in what i have to do based on the theory we have learned, at least..

and then the magical moment arrived.. the lecturer said something which is very important to me..

"money is not everything... personal gain normally is nothing.. we have to be sincere when we offer something because most of the people, they only care about the one they love.. their family and maybe friends.. sometime they really care about what people is going to say, sometime their hobbies... so, it's not about money.. maybe just part of it.."

"so, in negotiation, our currency is heart.. establish relationship is not that we entertaint them the best we can, or we give everything they want.. but it is about being their friend, in sense of really a friend, not just to gain something.. sometime we need to share experience, expertise, knowledge, or to share time together doing the same hobby.. it is not easy to find somebody which have same interest as you.. once you find one, just be a good friend.."

"success is measured by how many books you have read, how many friends you have get by the time flies year to year.."

"most of the time, people buy things not because of the things.. but because of what we can offer them in exchange.. dont get me wrong, we are not talking about bribery, we are talking about giving back as a human.. person to person.. why dont we just be friend.. a good friend to a good friend.. we give them a good relationship.. is that cool?? so to do that we must be very sincere, do not think about taking advantage on our friend.. and of course they will have a soft spot for us.. it's not us to decide, it's their's.. you never know, maybe it will be a relationship that long lasting.."

it's all that i can remember.. actually it is not the actual how the lecturer say it, i write it the way i remember it.. maybe got some modification...

adios..

From PD to TD

2007-02-14T14:12:00.000+08:00

Company event at Pangkor Island..

telok dalam resort, pulau pangkor...
8,9,10 february 2007..

mmm... how was it going??

boring... but oklaaaa... i started to know my colleague n my bosses..

how was the activity??

boring.. but still oklaa.. quite enjoy, in sense of group game.. but very boring when it come to individual activity.. i just stayed at my room, play PS2, watch DVD.. other than that, playing pingpong and pool.. where was the other sports?? i hope, i can play football or futsal, but jgn harap laaa...

how was the journey...??

the most boring one.. hmm... no more comment about it..

are you enjoy??

in sense of knowing people, yes.. but if you ask me "do u want to be in that trip again??"... my answer will be never... :D

ok guys.. adios..

at 1500 today...

2007-02-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

today...

"hello!! Wiramaju Tuah ye??"

"ye.. ada apa boleh saya tolong??"

"saya ingat nak claim warranty utk Safetint yg pasang kat kereta saya.. hari ni free tak??"

"hari ni penuh la encik... kena buat appoinment dulu... bila encik nak buat??"

"appoinment??? hari ni ja saya free, takkan takleh nak selit satu kereta lagi.."

"kita tak cukup org encik.. ada 2 kereta yg kena buat full replacement.."

"abis tu, bila saya boleh buat??"

"khamis atau jumaat la..."

"tak boleh... sgt2 tak boleh .. sabtu, ahad bukak??"

"tutup la encik.."

"sudahlah.." (apa punya customer service centre laaa... time cuti patut bukak laa..)

that was what happen today just 2 hours ago.. really burn up my emotion... what the hack, tau amik projek tatau nak bagi servis ka???

i was really angry... why proton never overview their bisnes partner's customer service in order to take a good care of their reputation and respectful name (respect??)... damn...

but i am cool now... adios..

this week

2007-02-07T09:31:00.000+08:00

today is wednesday...

monday always a bad day to me.. last monday everything went wrong.. i lost my access card, i cant focus on my job, i really confused, having very bad mood all day long..

tuesday, good day.. settle my job, and was enjoying my time at the office...

today, i cant really sleep last nite.. woke up late is the last thing that should happen everyday.. now.. i dont know what to do...

tomorow, office trip to pulau pangkor.. tak bestnyaaaa... i dont want to go.. but then, they will cut my salary if i dont show up.. leceh tul... belasah je laaa..

i hope tomorow is a good journey... adios...

A Week Passed By

2007-02-05T14:05:00.000+08:00

ONE week passed by.. i was going through one 'rojak' week.. happyness and happiness.. never sad.. :D

almost 2 weeks i didnt stop by here.. so no idea..

last 2 weekends, i was at 'kampong'.. enjoy... eat.. sleep.. eat.. sleep.. best..

and then last week i went to Terengganu and Pahang on a work trip.. with my boss.. boring journey.. but i did learn many things.. ok laaa... using my car??? damn..!! 3 days and 2 nites.. i will get used to that kind of journey.. it's my job..

wednesday, my mum n dad was here.. best gak.. :D sending my sister to her school.. so far from home..

Thursday.. holiday.. thaipusam.. to whom that celebrate this 'raya', happy thaipusam.. to those who are not, how was your day?? sleep all day long?? naaaah!!! it's not me...

oklaaa... have to go.. i am working.. adios..

the path of extraordinary men

2007-01-23T09:32:00.000+08:00

last sunday, me and my friend have had lunch at "Gulai kawah" food stall near Pantai Dalam komuter station..

it was quite late for lunch time, around 3 o'clock. doesnt matter, we were starving..

after we finished our plate off, but please, not a single bite at the plates, as usual we smoked..

for sometime we talked about memories in school.. he told his story, i told mine..

and then suddenly i said, aku masa sekolah langsung tak struggle, tapi result ok jugak...

he said, aku pon tak jugak.. pemalas aku ni.. siot tul..

me again.. kadang2 aku nyesal jugak tak struggle.. masuk U, kena kick out.. sib baik U panggil balik, and aku abis jugak.. ye la kan, aku tak reti nak struggle sebab dari sekolah camtu..

and then he said.. tu laaa... aku pon rasa sedikit menyesal.. tapi tak pe laa.. dah sampai tahap ni, ok la jugak kan.. dah abis belajar, dah keje.. tapi aku terkilan jugak la, aku macam apa pon takde dalam hidup aku...

i smiled.. aku rasa kita tak perlu menyesal.. kita dah sedar apa yg tak kena dah cukup bagus.. learn from it.. walaupon aku pernah kena kick out, aku langsung tak ralat.. bukan eksyen.. tu adalah pengalaman paling berharga aku rasa.. dari situ, aku bangun balik.. berjaya abiskan study.. kat tempat yang sama.. walaupon lambat.. tak senang ko nak tabahkan hati.. ye tak?

tu la ko... he hehehe me.. smirking.. damn!!!

from the conversation i made my own conclusion...

"Orang luar biasa takkan melalui jalan yang biasa..." hehehe...

the most important thing is not the result, but how you handle yourself with the challenges you have faced, how u endure yourself in the path you choose..

and then, the result will come.. the quality of the result depend on how hard you struggle, how brilliant you face the challenge, how hard the challenges was.. and, above all of that, how much you have learnt..

challenges can be viewed from many perspectives.. what your perspective is will determine what you will learn, how much you will learn..

i learnt much from the past... and never regret is my motto.. haha.. i dont want to be extraordinary man.. i just want a happy life like everybody else..

i want to be a better man..

for myself, my family and if GOD give me strength, for my country as well..

the shining shoes

2007-01-18T12:04:00.000+08:00

two weeks ago, my second day work...

my one of the bosses, just arrived at the office and we took the elevator together..

wow! so shining haaa.. your shoes... she said..

my mum bought it for me.. i replied..

really?.. good, when mother give something to you, just take it and dont complaint.. good..

and what else she said, eerrr.. i cant remember the rest.. and this morning, she came to my office room to see my colleague next to my desk...

hey! i was ask my maid to polish my shoes (she showed her shoes).. but still cannot compare to your shining shoes.. hayooo... she said with frustrated face..

then she said to my colleague, do you know what was he said when i asked about his shining shoes?? he said my mum bought it for me... never mentioned about style or whatsoever.. good boy aaaa.. very good, never complaint... very good..

hahaha... i thought the shining shoes issue gone after 2 weeks.. not yet..

funny aaa...

fuuuuhh!!!! i feel better...

2007-01-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

on my way home after work, as usual, TRAFFIC JAM!!!!!!!!!!

and alsoooo... as usual, i lost my sanity for a while.. tension level was going up.. and... suddenly this song was played by the DJ.. what FM is it?? IKIM or ERA?? dont know... i cannot remember when i almost insane..

nyanyian serambi-ramli sarip

tuai pagi balik petang
adakala sampai malam
cari rezeki bawa pulang
buat orang yang tersayang
bersabarlah

yeah!!! ok ramli.. you are right.. bersabarlah..

i have to admit it, the song make me feel better.. hahah.. i feel better.. and then, i was home earlier than i expected.. somehow, my journey as smooth as komuter.. i feel good..

it's not a magic, it's a sanity.. think and take action.. find the solution...

see ya..

life in a glimpse..

2007-01-17T08:53:00.000+08:00

do you know that we blink 10-15 times a minute???

it means 600-900 times in an hour... 14400-21600 times a day.. 432000-648000 times a month.. and 5.1 millions-7.8 millions times a year...

http://www.britishcouncil.org/kids-games-matching-body.htm

wow!! it is an amazing fact.. but the real fact is, we are all live in a blink, just a glimpse..

you never notice... the clock is ticking every single second, the weather is changing every single second, time flies away and we getting older in every single second.. people die in every minute and baby was born every minutes.. all of that happen in a glimpse, less than a blink..

we never ever think about it until the new year approach because of our age is going up.. again.. and then we start making new resolution, what we want to achieve, to avoid, to bla.. bla.. bla.. too many things... and again, we start to losing up our mind on our life.. then we realise that the new year is coming again.. GOSH!!! the routine is coming back..!!!!

we only live once, when we die we never live again.. after we die, family and friends will mourning for a while and then hmm.. dead man never know..

in a glimpse, what is your dream???

i want to be a doctor (any dream you have, put it here)...

mmm.. how long??? 20-30 years??

maybe...

why??

satisfaction...

and then???

and then i will die with no regret...

so that is all, right?? satisfaction.. all we need is satisfaction... so we will die with no regret.. all we have done through the years we live is to pursue the satisfaction... feeling of enough and perfection..

is it a perfect glimpse for us?? for me, yeaaaaah... it is perfect... because i believe, every single of us have their own role in the universe.. so, when you satisfied, then you have fulfilled your role.. no regret, right???

time to stop friends... see ya...

i'm a lucky guy...

2007-01-16T09:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday, I felt a bit uneasy. why?? I dont know why.. just uneasy, unhappy and un.... bla.. bla.. bla..

last night, I'm very tired, and sleepy..
before I can close my eyes, too many things came cross my mind, all of the sudden, out of blue.. maybe because of tiredness, or uneasy feeling I got all day..

how lucky I am..
I was thinking about it last night, this morning and now.. at the start of new 2007 year..

last Sept 2006, I was getting married.. the ceremony was held last month, dec 2006..

nov 2006, I had a glimpse about baby, and guess what, the next day my wife told me something I dont understand.. and few days later, oh my god, she is pregnant..

I'll become a father in a few months?? WOW!!

only my mom and mom in-law, and some of the family knew about this..

after the great news, i got a job, unsettle one.. an then another job, quite a good offer.. and then, with courtesy of my wife, using her name, i got a new car..

"REZEKI anak" I might say... "REZEKI kawen" the other might say..

MY GOD.. praise to YOU.. thank you to my wife too.. I love her so much..

now I feel much better thinking about how lucky I am.. and I feel like my tears is about to rush out.. hahaha..

so touching when I realise that, all uneasy feeling is just like tiny fish in the ocean.. small matter, just deal with it like an adult.. YOU ARE ABOUT TO BE A FATHER, REMEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

adios frens... I'm happy now...

episod baru dalam hidup aku

2007-01-04T00:16:00.000+08:00

3 januari 2007

hari ini bermula satu lagi episod baru dalam hidup aku.. aku start keja kat shah alam.. semoga keja ni menarik dan aku leh stay lama..

bgn pagi2, naik bas pegi komuter, naik cab sampai ofis.. gila la kalau tiap2 hari camni.. bila la keta aku nak kluar nih.. ada keta senang skit, walaupon duit keluar cam air... nak buat camna..

apa2 pon, aku doakan semoga aku berjaya mengharungi cabaran yang sedikit nih.. amin..

yeeeaahhh!!!!!

bosan

2006-12-12T16:43:00.000+08:00

12 disember 2006..

bosan gila tadak keja..

lama dah aku tak tulis kat sini. singgah pon tak, apa lagi nak tulis..

actually aku baru ja resign. aku keja valuation assistant kat butterworth. ok la jugak keja tuh. berjalan ja keja. masuk ofis jap, buat report lebih kurang, kluar isap rokok la, gi makan2 la serta lain2 aktiviti buang masa sambil nak tunggu time nak balik. tu kalau tak sibuk la.. kalau tak, aduhaiiii la badan. fail bertimbun, belum apa2 dah kol 5 petang. dah kena hambat balik.

tapi aku resign sebab aku nak pi interview. bos kata,

"kalau nak pi interview, you must resign. so, what i'm waiting for????".....

hehehehe.... semudah tu ja... malas aku nak pikir panjang2. bukan gaji besar pon. tak de la aku rasa gelap masa depan sebab brenti keja... ok jaaaa....

hujung minggu ni kenduri kawen aku.. aku rasa tak ramai yg dtg, so takyah la pikir nak buat besar2an sgt, buat sekadarnya utk mencukupkan syarat. lagipon kami dah nikah bulan september lepas... skang ni duit tgh mencekik, nak buat gempak2 mmg tak berpada sgt kalau nak ikutkan..

bosan.. camni la idop aku hari2.. antar bini aku gi keja.. pastu aku pon lepak internet. surfing apa2 yg patut, pastu main game mana yg ada, pastu gi amik bini aku balik makan, pastu.. pastu.. pastu.. dan pastu... malas dah nak cerita.. bukan rutin tu yg aku bosan, tapi bila nak tidoq malam tak tau nak plan apa utk esok.. fuuuh!! tak syok betul perasaan camtu... ye laa.. bila aku amik bini aku, maknanya aku ada buat sesuatu.. tapi sementara dia keja aku nak buat apa??? kan kan kan... bosan gila la tuh...

oklaaaa... aku dah malas menulis.. masa bujang banyak gila idea, la ni ada idea, tapi malas gila nak tulis sebab pikir esok camna laaa plak...

chiow..

sakit hati..

2006-03-20T13:17:00.000+08:00

Semalam aku layan debat perdana kat TV 1. Walaupon aku rasa aku pro kerajaan, tapi sgtlah sakit hati aku melihat program tersebut.

Mengapa sakit hati?? Mana tak sakit, gelagat org gomen atau lebih tepat lagi "penjilat2 bon_ot" tersebut tak langsung menampakkan ketelusan kerajaan dalam memberi peluang kepada pihak2 yang tak pro kepada mereka membentangkan hujah dan pendapat lebih merangkumi kesusahan hidup rakyat. Mereka hanya menegakkan teori2 yang langsung tak matang relatif kepada segala cabaran dan masalah semasa.

Dalam debat@"pentas utk memalukan org yg tak pro gomen" tersebut, daripada 4 org panel, seorang dari pembangkang, seorang aktivis hak asasi manusia, lagi dua org pulak, MP (yang seboleh2 nak ji_at jugak) yg kunun2 bercakap utk majoriti rakyat.

Seperti yg sedia maklum oleh org2 yg berada di atas pagar seperti Pak Kaduk dan Pak Pandir, yg telah dikenali ramai betapa lurus bendulnya mereka berdua itu, pengerusi debat@"pentas utk memalukan org yg tak pro gomen" adalah seorang penji_at ulung. Senyum sinisnya dan gelak gelagatnya yang lawyer cabuk, sungguhlah menyakitkan hati.

Macam ni yg dikatakan, rakyat berminda kelas ketiga??? Memang.. Tepat sekali, apa tidaknya, org macam ni yang dipilih?? Aduuuuuh!!! Org yg hanya tahu buat salah, tak mengaku buat salah, melakukan pelbagai perkara utk membenarkan semua kesalahan yg telah dibuat. Lepas tu "claim" plak mereka sungguh telus. Org buta pekak dan bisu pon boleh bagi tahu apa yg betul apa yg salah.

Aku dah tak mampu nak layan benda2 yg "sangat adil dan telus" seperti itu. Kalau aku mampu, nescaya aku akan GRRRRRR.... geramnya.. geram sebab aku hanya mampu pangkah kertas yg dikawal oleh penji_at2 jugak. Tak lebih dari itu.

Tapi, kerana geram yg amat sangat, maka aku dengan sukacitanya MENDOAKAN kejatuhan org2 yg seperti ini, jatuh yg seteruk2nya, biar mereka rasa apa itu rakyat biasa. Aku masih waras utk doakan kejatuhan saja, kalau ikut hati yg sakit, kemusnahan hidup donia akhirat aku doakan. Tapi Tuhan itu Maha Berkuasa, Dia yg layak menjatuhkan hukuman, dan Dia juga sentiasa memberi peluang kepada hamba2 yg mahu bertaubat.

Walaupun ini hanya luahan rasa geram, dan tak mungkin akan dibaca oleh org lain, tapi ingatlah, sakit hati rakyat kepada pemimpinnya akan sentiasa diterima doa mereka, kerana mereka adalah golongan teraniaya.

Sakit hati lagi nih.. dari semalam sampai hari ini, tak habis2 lagi sakit hati.. CELAKA punya manusia tersebut.. GRRRRRRR....

bukan pasal minyak naik harga...

2006-03-05T02:39:00.000+08:00

mesti suma org tgh tension sbb minyak naik harga.. dan pasti jgk semua org nak tulis pasal kejadian diluar dugaan nih..

apa saja laaaaa....

ada org kata sistem kapitalis skarang nih sdg di ambang kemusnahan.. bermakna semua yg berkaitan dgn sistem kapitalis akan turut musnah.. ia termasuklah sistem ekonomi yg diguna pakai skang oleh seluruh dunia, sistem politik (demokrasi) juga diguna pakai oleh hampir semua negara, sistem kekeluargaan (nasab keluarga tak dipedulikan) dan pelbagai lagi aspek kehidupan manusia moden masa kini...

jadi, cerita minyak naik ni sekadar hiasan sampingan ja.. berita utama seolah2 disembunyikan.. apakah berita utama itu??? entah.. dah disembunyikan mana la nak tau..

apa saja isu skang nih, aku tetap tak dapat kerja lagi.. camna laaa nak idop... aku mungkin dapat satu keja nih kat png, tapi aku rasa tak gembira la nak amik job tuh...

aku tak bermaksud nak memilih kerja tapi, aku rasa tak gembira utk terima.. by the way, tatau lagi exactly dapat ke tak, sumber2 dalaman kata aku dah dapat... tgk la, kalau dah official aku dapat, mungkin aku tolak kot.. nak cari keja punya la susah, dah dapat tolak lak kan.. tumbuk kang..

buat la apa yg patut... seeeerrrrrrrr....

anak makcik pulak.. aduuuh!!!

2006-02-24T09:41:00.000+08:00

t9.41 am, 24 Feb '06...

aku mendapat satu panggilan misteri jap tadi...

"helo.. ni kat mana??"

"KL, sapa cakap nih??"

"awak ada dtg Rembau tak kelmarin??"

"eh!! Rembau.. tak ader.. apsal??"

"jgn nak bohong.. apsal awk cakap??..." tot.. tot.. tot..

dia letak la pulak.. malaun mana lak yg call aku pagi2 ni.. tension aku..

apa yg specialnya Rembau tuh yg aku nak kena pegi sana, hish.. sakit hati aku..

aku pon dgn panas hatinya aku call balik..

"hello.. tadi ada org call henpon saya tanya pasal Rembau.. ada apa tu??" sopan jugak aku tanya..

"haa.. saya nak mintak awk pulangkan balik henpon saya.."

"eh!! kan saya dah cakap ngan makcik semalam, dia salah dail.. dia dail nombor saya.."

"mak saya tak salah dail.. dia dail nombor saya, awk yg angkat.. pastu dia dail no yg awk bagi, awk angkat jugak.."

"aduuuh.. mmg la dia dail no yg saya bagi saya angkat.. dah itu no saya.. apa no tepon awk..??"

"3102.."

"tau pon.. kan beza no tuh.. skang awk dail balik dua2 no yg awk ada.."

tot.. tot.. tot..

tau plak nak letak tepon.. apa punya org laaa... ingat org yg curi henpon nak angkat ka kalau ada org tepon henpon tuh.. dah la angkat siap tinggalkan no tepon lagi.. apa punya org laaa.. tu pon tak leh nak pikir.. rasa nak maki ja anak makcik tu.. sib baik la aku bersabar lagi..

pagi2 lagi dah bikin aku panas.. eerrr.. kopi panas satuu...

oh makcik..

2006-02-24T02:27:00.000+08:00

2.23 am, 24 Feb '06..

aku masih tak dapat kerja.. dah makin bosan aku kat kl ni..

3 hari lepas aku dapat email pasal kerja, aku pon call la nak dpt detailnya.. aku ckp ngan Paul Morton dari UK.. sekali aku pergi interview 'kununnya', rupanya MLM.. hampeh betul.. hmm.. tak terkata apa aku time tuh.. layan aje laa.. punya la aku pakai 'business attire', tgk2 org lain pakai jeans ngan t-shirt jek.. adoooiii.. tak pe laa, nak wat camna, layan aje..

pastu petang tadi dalam pukul 7.30, aku dapat satu call dari negeri sembilan.. ingatkan member aku dari seremban, tapi...

"a'kom.. ni sapo cakap nih??"

"w'slm.. err.. saper cakap?? apsal?? nak ckp ngan saper??"

"makcik tanyo nih.. sapo kao nih.. yg kao cughi henpon oghang tuh buek apo?? ni tepon kao ko?? ni tepon anak makcik nih.."

"eh?? ni nombor sayer makcik.. apsal lak..."

"apsal la ko setan sgt nak mencughi?? anak makcik ni oghang susah.. kao tak kesian ko??"

"eerrr.. makcik, ni nombor tepon sayer nih.. makcik nak tepon saper??"

"jgn la macam ni nak.. kao pulangkan balik tepo dio.. kesian dio.."

"berapa nombor tepon anak makcik tuh..??"

"nombor ni laa.. jgn la kao buat macam ni.. apo punyo oghang la ko ni??"

menggigil bdn aku jap bila org dah tuduh2 macam ni.. hish org tua nih, kalau aku trus letak tepon, tak selesai masalah nih.. fuuuh..

"adoiiii... makcik, cakap la berapa nombor tepon anak makcik tuh.."

"haaa.. ni ha nombor eh.. 019-2xxxxxx.. hah!! bukan no ni ko?? no ni la yg makcik dail tadi.."

"makcik.. no saya, 019-2xxxxxx.. dah salah dah ni makcik.. apa kata makcik amik no saya ni, pastu makcik tepon sayer balik.."

"tunggu jap yo.." baik la pulak suara..

"mintak sini nombor kao... sebelum tu makcik mintak maap la kalau makcik salah org.. makcik mmg tongah paneh nih.. menggigil tgn aku ni haaa.."

tahu plak org tua nih mintak maap.. "ok.. makcik call saya balik, saya tunggu.."

fuuuuh... selesai masalah aku ngan org tua nih.. pueh dio mintak maap, seb baik den tak maki hamun balik.. blank kepala otak den di kala maghrib tersebut..

tu la kan, bilo dah maghah tuh, tahu sembor yoo.. tak sompek nak bertanyo kabar, apo punyo makcik.. tapi tak po la makcik, den paham, cumo eh, jgn la wat camtu laie, sib baik yg jawab tepon tu, eden yg penyabar ni, kalau kono kaki hamun, pueh la bertokak kek dalam tepon...

den maleh nak pikir pasal makcik tuh... tukar topik aaah..

hah!! chelsea vs barcelona.. chelsea kalah semalam, dah aku agak.. cesss... kalah la plak, aku betul2 berharap agakan aku salah, betul la plak.. hampeh..

buah hati aku tak tepon mlm nih, sedih lak aku (uweksss!! poyo plak aku rasa.. tapi dah betul, nak wat camna..) camna aku leh tak sedar dia tepon ptg tadi.. mesti dia sikit sedih sebab aku tak angkat.. esok la aku call balik..

pasal nak call balik ni yg aku lemah skit nih, duit dah tak do, mano den nak cekao duit nih..

esok masih ada.. jgn la risau sgt.. dude!!!!!!!!!

aku sudah bosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaann.. bagus gak makcik tu call, ada gak penghibur.. hehehehe...

oklaaaa... esok masih ada.. ZZZZ!!!!!!

i'm back in town..

2006-02-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

aku menghirup udara KL kembali.. balik kg best.. balik kl semula pon best..

tapi.. i miss her so much.. terpaksa jgk tinggal buah hati kat kg.. sad.. tapi tak pe laaa.. nanti balik kampung jgk.. :))

apa aku nak buat kat kl nih.. kata lubuk emas, kat mana emasnya???

sebenarnya duit tak berapa nak ada nih.. atau dgn kata lain, tak de la tuu... keje susahnya nak dapat, camna nak kawen nih.. buat la apa yg patut, mana tahu, rezeki akan datang dalam masa terdekat..

tertekan jugak, tapi tak pe laaa... sabar tu kan baik utk mental yg sihat.. takyah la nak duit punya pasal mental pon jadi tak sihat.. right???

hmmm... see ya, kuar jap.. ;)

MILO advertisement..

2006-01-19T19:45:00.000+08:00

i went to the amcorp mall this evening.. all i want to say is about the MILO advertisement which i saw on the way back home..

the advertisement located at the junction to federal highway..

the advertisement:

"Beraksilah"

i was laughing when some funny thought cross my mind... try read this one..

"Beraksila"

how about this...

"Berak sila"

can u imagine that??? hahahahah...

tak senonoh betul.....