LeslieWritesLove!

Graduation

2012-02-01T16:27:00.000-08:00

Driving down memory lane
going 70 Miles per hour
but it feels like only 15.
The wind blows through my hair
with not a care in the world
as I daydream about my present place
walking down these red and black hallways
for the last couple days

When the drama falls
and it doesnt matter anymore
on who called you what
just all the laughs that we'll keep
knowing that were only down to months and weeks
and its been going by so fast
pep rallies and senior rahs,
being together as a class,
having fun is what we do best

Walking down the aisle with the same kids
we all went to school with
for the last twelve years
tears roll down our families cheeks
us with goosebumps,
we're more relieved
everyone is in the stands
music plays from the band
all we think of is "this is it"

The principal makes the speech
we all think back to thank our moms
and kiss their cheeks
its been over an hour
we'll one by one go up to get that class flower
being announced
in our cap n' gowns
switching the tassle left to right
we can't wait for life

Oceanic Love

2011-08-25T13:19:00.001-07:00

my love for you is like an ocean.
its calm and goes on forever-
from the horizon.
its beautiful and natural,
like all the creatures that live.
the waves crash into each other
and disasters come some seasons
but at the end of the day
from where i stand
the water never stops
and my love with never end

Reminincing through love.

2011-07-28T19:44:00.000-07:00

I love everything about life and I'm ready to respect more of God's beauty that He put here. hit me with everything in the world.
youre all beautiful.
xoxo

Sometimes

2011-07-25T18:35:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I just want to break out and sing
I dream of you getting on one knee
with that stunning diamond ring
Im so in love with you
and we've been through
so much
but its enough to understand
that ill keep ahold of your hand
through it all
im strong like a cement wall
ill never break down
ill always crack your frown
im just a teenage girl
I wanna dance, I wanna twirl
in your arms

The new me :]

2011-07-24T17:36:00.000-07:00

changed my hair and started wearing makeup :)

Writers Blockk..

2011-07-24T17:34:00.000-07:00

so, i havent written in a while, but ill be back up and running and trying to get more followers!
but yeah :) definitely be ready for me to blow up this page tonight.
^__^
love you all,
xoxo

you let me go

2011-06-23T21:32:00.001-07:00

you let me go
you let me go
you let my hands slide out from yours
and my breathe studdered some more
i cried my heart into whats in black words
"you let me go, you let me go"
my tears bleed
from what use to be
i gave you everything i had
but you let me go.
who were those two innocent kids
walking into the depths of hell
they dont know what theyre getting into
watch me fall
its no use for you
because my heart doesnt beat
im incomplete
you let me go.

painful anxiety.

2011-06-20T20:55:00.000-07:00

my heart;
demolished as we speak
our words just creaked
from our angry mouths
just drown me in my tears
put me out of all this fear.
be my protection gear
because i cant sleep
i feel so incomplete
dont let this go-
im sorry for the mistakes
ive made
coughing up words
begging for forgiveness
i cant receive
jealousy got the best..
you see the best of me
youre too beautiful
for tears to shed
sewing my heart
with needle and thread
youre in pain-
standing out in the rain
you see me cry
do you care enough to try?
im taking you for your words-
show me im not like other girls
who am i suppose to be?
shaking in my seat...

"What You Are To Me"

2011-04-29T14:02:00.000-07:00

You're my love,
my passionate kiss and warm hug.
My batman that saved my heart
I hate when we're apart
You make me feel like a happy girl
I hope you know that you're my entire world
You're my smile and laugh
I'm in an ocean and your my strong-holding raft
You lift me up
And talk to me when I'm down
Sometimes I feel like a princess-
Wearing a beautiful jeweled crown
You're my everything
The roots to my tree
The beat to my heart
The wind that blows in my face
And the medicine that relieves my pain.
I love you so much,
Like a bird loves to fly
I'll wipe your tears when you cry
I'll be there through it all
And answer any time at your call
Baby, I love you-
Your words leave me speechless
You are my love, my heart, my sweetness

"Fading"

2011-04-13T16:49:00.000-07:00

(so, this isn't exactly what i usually write but it was for creative writing class so i thought id put it on here! enjoy.)

'Fading'

We've been friends for so long,
but as I sit in my chair
i feel so alone
you cannot hear me.
my heart is screaming
because our friendship is breaking
what have i done?
can you hear me?
i cannot get through to you
lonesome captures my body
my eyes are watering-
a river of tears
and a sea of pain
I've been gunned down;
stabbed in the back
I hear your voice
in the back of the room
I'm invisible
crying tears of confusion
what have I done?
I'm fading...
"Fading," I whisper.
Our friendship is fading

Chase Me

2011-02-02T16:40:00.000-08:00

I have no feeling in my upper body
my head is numb of too many thoughts
my heart is pounding
breaking..
aching..
my eyes are watering
like rain on a spring day
my lips dont know what to say
because my head and heart are competing
my lungs are breathless
as im screaming
im worried
questioning the obvious
i just want to sleep
or leave this town for weeks
my mind is threatening my heart
beause theyve been apart
with different opinions of time
theres way too much on my mind

i have no feeling in my lower body
as i lay on the wet ground
trying not to make a sound
trying to make everything go back to the past
im going crazy
crying
shying over the truth
what am i suppose to do?

im exhausted
i can only stand up for too long
until i break down
slicing my heart in two
i feel like i dont know you...
the lying has done a perfect job
im vulnerable
as you think of lust
youll never get my trust back this way
get on your knee
and promise me one thing:
that youll chase me

No Ordinary Girl

2011-01-01T20:10:00.000-08:00

it started off with a text
"whats the next word im supposta say?"
basketball games are where we first held hands
do you remember our first kiss?
nervous,
telling you how amazing you are
because i like the way you play guitar
the way you strum your gear shift in the car
youre eyes, brown and bright
it kills us everytime we fight
mistakes, we hate them all
"i love you, babydoll"
and im still the same
but im no ordinary girl
youre everything in my world
my world
its where everythings okay
where the lost can be saved
and theres no hearts that break
im not the same
"im not the same"
as everyone else
believe me
im no ordinary girl

Snow :)

2010-12-14T16:04:00.000-08:00

I have brown eyes that show
and a scarf covering my nose
my gloves hug my fingers tight
as i throw the snowball with all my might
my coat is thick
and my many layers of pants
i have no school
because i did a snow dance
and now im laying in white sheet
of fresh snow
with a glow in my eyes,
a smile on my face
rosie cheaks
the roads so sleek
i run to the garage to grab my sled
walk up the steep hill
with a warm hat upon my head
im out of breath
adrenaline runs a marathon
through my tiny body
im next up
everyones cheer my name
i sit down on my sled,
going right ahead

darkness so bright

2010-12-05T17:13:00.000-08:00

its pitch black
but so white in a sense
so bright to my eyes,
theyre straining
its raining black
ive been attacked
by words that made me crack
ive been laying on your floor
i cant find the door knob
"get out"
i feel so sick
all we do is lie and doubt
scream and shout
just get away
ill crush the pain
making sense of darkness
ill take the fight
in darkness that's so bright

young love

2010-12-02T19:43:00.000-08:00

midnight sky
eyes that cry
hearts that break
words that hurt
love that's fake
smiles that creak
kisses we seek
frowns that snarl
hands that are held
break ups are hell
we're young
and so in love

pressure (lyrical form)

2010-12-02T18:44:00.000-08:00

i feel so trapped inside
im trying to take cover
(trying to hide)
i despise this feeling
GO AWAY
take the pain
spin me round and round again

pressured
can i take this much more?
reassured
is this what youre looking for?
pressure
i feel myself increasing pain
intoxicating shame
overdosing these heartbreaks
shots of pressure
im so sore
so sure
i cant take anymore

so lay your head back now
listen to what i have to say
sit on the ground
youre getting low
its only for you
but darling, do you have a clue?
of how much i love you?

im so blinded
i cant see your guilty smile
i think this is the last time ill reconcile
hold on tight
youll get a blast
of hurtful aches
i tried to be the best
but ive been shot in the left of my chest

pressured
can i take this much more?
reassured
is this what youre looking for?
pressure
i feel myself increasing pain
intoxicating shame
overdosing these heartbreaks
shots of pressure
im so sore
so sure
i cant take anymore

My Confused Essence

2010-10-27T16:24:00.000-07:00

v.1
"The urks
the pain
oh, just make it all go away
rain, rain
dont rain on me
pouring down
soaring away
im keeping alive
one day at a time

(chorus)
we use to be a perfection
but now i just want a relieve
keep a collection of my notes at heart
confused-
would we be better apart?
'cause we're dying and crying
i'm still deciding
what should i do?
what should i do?
photographs
capturing memories
of who we use to be
ive lost myself
its a love disaster
who am i?
who am i?

(v.2)
we're tense
my heart is dense
are we still in love?
am i giving enough to you?
questions, questions
give me your answer
now scream
PAIN
just lean on me
cry on my shoulder
ill be there for you

(v.3)
step back slowly
step away
back
now watch me cry
im sober and tired
im burning from fire
blame, blame
take it all
but dont watch me fall

(chorus)
we use to be a perfection
but now i just want a relieve
keep a collection of my notes at heart
confused-
would we be better apart?
'cause we're dying and crying
i'm still deciding
what should i do?
what should i do?
photographs
capturing memories
of who we use to be
ive lost myself
its a love disaster
who am i?
who am i?

(bridge)
dont catch me now
if you wont catch me ever
am i a nusiance?
oh, youre so clever

(v.4)
clearly now
its clear enough
what is love?
what is love?

(ending)
questions, questions
where are my answers
CONFUSED
(who am i?) 3x
who am i? (soft and slowly.)

exit.

A Chance of Happiness

2010-10-17T11:42:00.000-07:00

how about if i give you one more chance?
as i glance away from the
pain that came towards me

how about if you love me for me?
if you try, ill try
and we'll never cry
from the heart aches
that come our way

how about if you accept who i am?
if you love me, you can
youll catch my fall
and brighten my dullest day

how about if you hold me tight?
and give me a right reason to hold back
ignoring the lies, stopping the cries
and creating all else smiles

how about if we just love for a while?
like all of my life-
because im pleading you
for no more stress
im such a mess

how about if we lay together?
looking up to the stars
or holding hands in your car
erase all my scars

theres a chance
and a glance
of happiness
and no doubt in time
youll still be mine

liarliarbreathingfire!

2010-10-10T18:45:00.000-07:00

misunderstood words spill from your hollow mouth
with hollow meaning full
contradiction kills us all
fools of love?
we all are.
but this time youve went a little too far

whats that in your hand?
a knife in your hand
as it shakes
and my back breaks its fall
stabbing my bare back
my trusting spine
you have nothing thats mine
give it all back
im angry
empty
clearing my throat
screaming
my back is bleeding
im torn
youve worn my heart to black

stand on the unstable balcony
ill laugh as you fall
cry as you die
from the shock
breathe fire of lies in the air
and i hope you know i dont care anymore

did you get the wrong time?
stop your mind games.
your a joke
ill choke on my words
ill choke on my heart
backed up to my throat
i feel pain
as you all whisper our names
"hold on tight"
i say
"i will"
the love follows through...
"give me the truth"

in time, tonight we'll dance on the bloody floor
dancing on blood-
with knives in our backs
holding closely together
as we kiss
ill never miss the madness
the tears
the emotions i felt today
i only fear theyll come back
to taunt me
haunting me in my sleep

we'll be okay
i just miss you the way you were
"you'll be okay, liar.."
"dont cry, the fire has it all"

imperfection working its glory

2010-10-10T18:37:00.000-07:00

Im falling into your heart
this is it
i hope we'll never be apart
deciding and reminding
that you love me
every rain fall on our parade
causes tears, alot of pain
but we grow stronger
from every talk
i wish we could walk on clouds
we'd be perfect
i know ive found
the right person to spend my days with
the guy thatll bring me up from pain
the one who walks me home in down pour rain
no more lies
please?
just hand holding,
butterflies
colored leaves
dozens of flowers
they all die off as the seasons change
we all age
forever
and together
we'll have our laughs and cries
blue and grey skies
i see all that you see
but this is just
imperfection working its glory

on the other side

2010-09-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

im sprawling out
screaming aloud
in a white room
with a disappearing roof
staring to the black ceiling
and i have this feeling
like everything is crashing down
all i can emote are frowns
laying on the empty floor
im crawling but i cant reach the door
im locked in
ive cried but now its just in mind
that im locked in
with the world on the other side

raging again. haha. i call it "who are you"

2010-09-01T14:09:00.000-07:00

who are you to hurt me?
to bring me down?
you dont even notice...
youre blind.
i wish you would read my mind.
i hate you.
anger comes upon me.
when you lie.
you dont miss me.
you wont die with out me.
youre just as twofaced as the next
so, who are you to break me?
to make me cry every night
because ive lost you as my friend.
think again.
who are you to talk?
just walk away, girl.
walk away.

suicidal acts

2010-08-19T21:42:00.000-07:00

hey you,
im mad
but only for you
walking down the hall
with a gun in your hand
and a smirk on your face
just erase this pain

lets be honest,
if i were you
id shoot-
get rid of me while you can
but im your biggest fan
loving you is a fact
im attached
youre my disease

pull the trigger
ive been a horrible person
shoot me now
rip our vows

im crying
done trying
done caring
im not sharing you
im done fighting
i want you all to myself
call me selfish
call me human

im screaming
for help
i hope you love me too..
im so down..
ill pull it for you

Armored Heart

2010-08-11T19:15:00.000-07:00

she was so gentle outside
but a knight within
carrying around armor for her strong heart
shes been wounded and stabbed
pricked and jabbed
but shes everything from that
her hearts been attacked
by thieves looking to steal and break
shes wise and smart
but her sleeve held her heart
tortured and captured
beaten and bleeding
she screams for rescue
the heavens above sent
God's angel of love
he loves her at the worst
and would protect her first

barely a poem, just raging.

2010-08-05T21:30:00.000-07:00

im unstable causing me to cry
over the reasons if your selfishness.
its killing me,
seeing that this time you werent the center of attention
so you disappear with no word
only coming out when you want.
youve pissed me off beyond belief.
not saying but two words today.
ive gone through a rough patch this past week
i would think my own sister would stop by
and say hi,
but no.
youre a narcist.
you chase the stage light.
everyone hates it but you.