Let Today be the First DAY...

Let Today Be The First Day........... You Become PHAT!!!!

2014-05-07T19:19:00.001-04:00

So, I know some of you are like... ABOUT TIME!!! (lol) Well, as always my absence wasn't intentional. I have been doing so much soul searching, working, staying focused and now the time has come for me to get back into the swing of things. So, sit back relax and enjoy the first installment for 2014....

Let Today BE The First Day.........

YOU BECOME PHAT!!!!

I had the pleasure of attending The P.H.A.T. Girl Fresh Presents: LifeStyled Event in Atlanta, Georgia last weekend. If you have never witness greatness unfold, you saw it first-hand here.

Photography By: Kushions Photography

Maui Bigelow (Founder & Creator; picture to the left) put her blood, sweat, tears, mascara, foundation, concealer, and werk, werk, werk into this grand occasion and those of us in attendance were not disappointed one bit!! It was a night full of love, inspiration, encouragement, and empowerment.


          The night began with us being greeted and interviewed by the fabulous red carpet host Red carpet Nikki P.; who in all of her fabulousness geared us up for the evening. She was a burst of energy and showed true love for her fellow bloggers to whom I shared the red carpet with ( PhatSkinny Chick & Simply Halaveshia) as we all spoke about our personal tags and posed for photos before entering the building. If you didn't know this night would be one to remember, you knew now!

           Getting into the building, checked off of the guest list, and escorted and seated in our VIP booth (courtesy of Maui Bigelow) had me antsy with anticipation of the start of this event. The event itself was held at the beautiful Harlem Nights Ultra Lounge situated in Downtown Atlanta. Amidst the hues of blue, reds, and pink lighting in this packed out room; you could sense how many of these people were here to simply rally for The P.H.A.T. Girl Fresh Brand. I could see Ms. Bigelow walking through the room being every woman and ensuring that everyone was comfortable; I said a little prayer that it all would work out and be just what it was supposed to be.

             Everyone in their respective places and we were set to enjoy the show. Our host Comedian Staria Roberts came out and instantly grabbed us with her down to earth, side cracking humor. She gave us just enough funny without it getting away from what and who we were there for. The music started and scene by scene we were wowed out of our seats by the confidence of those who took over the runway. You saw different representations of which we as women are all shapes, sizes, and ethnicities to boot! By the looks of everything you could tell Maui had a plan and it was now being executed to the fullest!! I don't think that any of us were in store for what we were partaking in, but we didn't mind it; not one bit!!

             Not forgetting why we all were there and keeping the theme of her vision and why she has gotten to where she has; Maui had honorees presented with their own special awards in between the designer’s showcases. The honorees and presenters were as follows: Shondia Mcfadden Sabari (BOLD and Breastless) presented by: Naeem Roberts, Ms. Bo Talley presented by La Krisha Baker, Melinda Santiago Presented by: Kristen Bookman, Ms. Nikkee Mack Presented by: Keosha Bell and Mr. MELLO Andrews Presented by: Nikki P. After listening to all of these great people and their thanks and humbleness for their even being considered; it was obvious that what Maui had done tonight was bigger than just fashion!

Ms. P.H.A.T. (Passionate, Happy, Appreciative, & True) Girl Fresh was changing lives and I was so privileged to be in attendance. You had to leave more inspired and encouraged to stand up and be greater in whatever area or walk of life you embodied. This event was proof that there is absolutely NO FAILURE IN GOD!!! If this was a documentary it would simply be titled.... The Day In The Life of P.H.A.T. GIRL Fresh: THE MOVEMENT. Because, people clearly got it and the energy in the room oozed out and you saw smiles, excitement, laughter, tears, and did I forget to mention LOVE!!! There is so much more that I could say, but if you haven't gotten the hint that you should know who Maui Bigelow and her brand are... YOU BETTER!!

Photo Credit: Tam D Photography

Let Today Be The First Day..... You are grateful!

2012-10-09T09:00:00.000-04:00

This is my mom, "The Breast Cancer Survivor" going on 16yrs... To think "They" said she wouldn't make it to see the year after they diagnosed her.... #But God!!

I told you all I would be featuring her story of triumph and I am pleased to say today is the day! These are her words and who better to tell their story than the one who has gone through it all. I encourage you to tell a friend, share this story, or even remember those that we have lost and that are battling this disease known as Breast Cancer. I proudly introduce my mother Wanda Pace Myers to you all...

Hello, my name is Wanda Pace Myers; in May of 1996 I was instructed by my doctor to get a mammogram because I had reached that great age of 40. Matter of fact I was half way to 41. When I got the mammogram I was called by my doctor to come in and see him. When I went in he wanted to do a biopsy on the lump he had seen on the film of my left breast.After doing the biopsy it was determined that I only had calcification's probably resulting from milk drying in my milk ducts from giving birth to my children.

In September of that same year, 1996, I was taking a shower and as always checking out my body as best as I could. Never thinking I would feel anything. I looked down as I got into the shower and saw what I thought was bruising. I touched it and felt pain and a lump. My first thought was that it can’t be cancer because “they” say cancer isn’t painful, it doesn’t cause bruising and you can’t see the lump only a difference in the feel. My cancer went against all of those textbook symptoms. That’s why it pays for you to know your body and if it doesn’t feel right to you don’t stop until you get the answer that satisfies you.

I don’t allow myself to even think of what might have happened if I wasn’t as persistent as I was with finding out what I thought was the truth about this thing that had invaded my body. I got out of the shower and went in to show my husband and said “do you think this is cancer?” No, it could be anything. Don’t worry about it were the words he used to reassure me. I didn’t want to, but it remained in the back of my mind.

I called the doctor that had handled the first procedure, but he was out of town. I then called my medical doctor and he told me, just as I couldn’t feel and tell anything, he couldn’t feel and tell anything but he would order a mammogram for me. I got the mammogram and was told by him that nothing showed up and it was probably just something from clogged ducts or something similar. I accepted that and continued to feel each day.

When the surgeon got back in town, I called him and he called in a prescription for antibiotics and told me to take those and by the time I finished taking them if it was infection, it would have cleared up by then. It didn’t, so I kept worrying him and he finally had me come into the office to have a needle biopsy. He felt that it wouldn’t be anything, but we were going to be safe and put my mind at ease. He called me the next day and asked me to come into the office. My question to him was “is it cancer?” He said I don’t think so it could just be abnormal cells.

I went in for the procedure. He removed the tissue and the lymph nodes that surrounded it. He had it tested while I was still in recovery and was waiting at my bedside when I woke up to tell me the news. It was news he said neither of us wanted to hear, that it was in fact cancer. He told me my options and I, having already made my peace with what I wanted to do, decided to have a radical mastectomy of my right breast.

I had to go through seven months of chemotherapy and extensive checkups as the months went on. Why all of this to tell my story that could have been told in a few lines? Well we all have a history and this cancer had a history with my body before it was discovered and dealt with. What the cancer didn’t expect was to have a relationship with a person as stubborn as I am and someone that had other things going for them in their lives as well as having the desire to continue to live and raise my children by the grace of God.

I had and still have a lot of things going for me and I never will forget any of them:

1. I was an still am a Christian and I believed and still believe in a higher power and

went to Him in prayer (I still am a praying woman).

2. I had great doctors that had my best interest in mind.

3. I had and continue to have a great husband that supported me in whatever decision

I made and didn’t marry me for the parts on my body.

4. I had and continue to have a great family that stood by me through it all.

5. I had and still have all my friends that were there every step of the way.

With all of this and my belief and faith in God, I can say today that I am a 16 year breast cancer survivor.

You need to keep a positive attitude, get rid of all the negative people in your life and keep those true friends around that when they ask “how you are doing” or” how your day is going” they stop and take the time to really listen to you and don’t have to say a word, just be there for you no matter the day or the hour. Now, my cancer happened 16 years ago and I am still here. Can you imagine the advances they have made in medicine and treatment of this disease as well as coming closer to a cure for this and other types of cancers? Find out whatever it is you need to know about this disease and what you can do on your end to make sure you are a survivor. I believe deep in my heart that as we think and feel, it has a place in the outcome of whatever we are going through. I never thought I wouldn’t survive this disease.

Now on the brighter side of things, I had heard that going through chemotherapy treatments for cancer you would lose weight and lose your hair. Your hair would come back as if it was baby fine and curly. I’ve always believed that there is some good in everything, and I was looking forward to losing these extra pounds and having that beautiful head of hair that I only would have to wash and brush. Not so, I didn’t lose any weight and I still have the hair I have to do more than wash and go. My doctor said I was the first patient he had treated that never lost the weight or the hair. But I am thankful to God that in all of this I didn’t lose my life and most of all my faith and trust in Him.

Before the cancer, I loved sweet potatoes. After the cancer I didn’t want to see another sweet potato. My father had read somewhere that the ingredients in the sweet potato would help fight the cancer and every day I got home he had my sister at my house with sweet potatoes cooked in every way he knew how. I had candied yams, sweet potato soufflé, potato pies, potato bread, mashed sweet potatoes, fried sweet potatoes, baked sweet potatoes, if he could dream it and cook it, I had it. I love my dad, but I was so glad when he stopped sending all those sweet potatoes to me, by my sister.

What my mom would like to leave with you all is simply this: "Keep your head up; remain close to God, your family, and your true friends".

Let Today Be The First Day You..... Werk!!!

2012-09-11T07:46:00.000-04:00

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Great Tuesday morning guys!!! Today is a new day and fashion is in the air in Albany, Ga!! How can a woman be so creative, own a business, and put on the best fashion week all in the same slamming body?!! I'll tell you who in just a minute. I wanted to share with you how being humble can help open other doors for you. I don't label myself as a fashionista, but I will say for me to be the plus size bombshell that I am (lol) I do have a little style thanks to my stylist Melanie Dunbar and others. I was asked by an up and coming designer to whom I consider a kindred spirit, a sister, and I admire her spirit and her ambition; to participate in her upcoming event in our city: Albany Fashion Week. Of course I said yes! With this honor I knew would come hard work, dedication, and a will to push through yet another challenge, but she ensured us that as much as she would push us; she would be right there rooting us on. I have watched this young woman blossom into her own and in that time I've celebrated who she is as an artist, business woman, and person and on Sept 12-15 she will make yet another milestone in her career. I've shared her with you guys before and today she is my feature.

Her name is Charlie Hill aka (Chuck B.), a native of Pittsburgh PA, has been a resident of Atlanta, GA since 1997. At the age of 27, she is the co-owner of That Old College Vintage Boutique located in Atlanta, Ga. She is also a college graduate with a BA degree in Psychology and an inspiring philanthropist giving back to her community through artistic design. As an alumni of Albany State University, Charlie continues to lend their student activities advisor board a helping hand with their annual Rip the Runway Fashion show. The fashion show allowed Charlie to work on a large scale meeting new walks of life. In 2007, Charlie created her own entertainment business known as Chuck B. Moore Creations. Chuck B. Moore Creations is known for hosting events, interior decorating, designing clothes, and modeling.

Charlie is a strong advocate and supporter of Breast Cancer Awareness with losing her mom to breast cancer when she was only six years old and her father being a conqueror of lung cancer. Shes continually inspired by her surroundings to give back for a noble cause knowing she will reap the benefits in days to come. With Chuck B. Moore Creations expanding it to new dimensions while following her life quote of “the race is not giving to the swift nor to the strong but to he who endures until the end”. Even with all that she has gone through to watch this diva extraordinaire at work is something of untold artistry in motion. She is so humble and yet determined to capture the essence of greatness in each one of us. Beauty is more than what we see on the exterior and confidence is just as big and bold as you make it. I'm learning that there is power in your presence and if you can feel someone's presence without them saying a word then that is only half of what makes you the treasure you are. I am so thankful to even be considered, but even more delighted that I get to watch her vision come to life for all of Albany, Ga to see! Her being willing to share the stage with other designers, makeup artist, and talent is a small glimpse of the character of this booming beauty.

Nothing comes to a dreamer but dreams, and it is very evident that Miss Chuck B. is truly living her dreams out loud. So in the spirit of everything fashion we salute you Charlie Hill and wish you continued success. From me and all of the beauties you have deemed runway worthy we say to you WERK!!!! Happy fashion week! Be fearless in whatever you do, and put your stamp on it like only you can! Remember to always make a trail in life that no one can erase; but few can travel. For more info about Albany Fashion Week and to purchase tickets please visit: www.albanyfashionweek.com

Signing off,
Your Favorite Authors, Author/Plus size model for Albany Fashion Week
Heather Johnson

Let Today Be The First Day You... Have an open mind!!

2012-09-06T06:36:00.003-04:00

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John P. Kee Brought Me Out

Good morning guys! I had to share this with you all and if you will allow me to be transparent for just a moment I will. I was on facebook and saw a post by a young man whom I know and it simply said this: A bitch is going be a bitch, and a hoe is going be a hoe#AintNoWayAroundIt!

So, after reading his post ans scrolling down to see the views of others I was a little overwhelmed to see how others felt and thought. Maybe because I am conscious that everyone has a past and that no one is squeaky clean when it comes to this thing we call life and I responded with the following:

Now you all know that I don't say anything unless I have something to say. So, let me do this in the most respectful way I possibly know how. If I hurt anyones feelings I apologize now, but I couldn't continue reading anymore. I'm sitting here in tears after reading the post and everyone gave their point of view; some I empathize with and some I may not totally agree with, but they are your opinions and you are entitled to them. I know a lot of times we speak and say things out of being hurt or out of our flesh and anger. I however am coming to you all strictly from my heart and I pray you all can receive this. On the subject of being a hoe, operating like a hoe, and not being capable of turning a hoe into a housewife.... I was the woman who had hoe tendencies and the lifestyle to suit. And because I am a full grown woman I can be real and transparent in sharing my story with you all. Anyone who knows me personsonally and others I make no secrets about who I was or who I am. I owned who I was for the simple fact that there were so many factors that played into why I decided to do the things I did. I was molested by family members not once but twice growing up and never told a soul until I wrote and published my book.

I was also in an abusive relationship physically and emotionally broken down to believe I was no one unless I was with them and I won't say I regret any of it because it all made me who I am today. I searched for love and acted out and did all of these things; jumping from man to man because I was screaming out for attention. I don't know about you ladies but I had a mother that was detached from me and I can honestly say never hugged me, showed me affection, or told me she loved me. So, when you talk about women being hoes you have to dig a little deeper into that thing. My life was not always peaches and cream but the last time I checked when God decided to forgive me, what man had to say about who I used to be didn't matter a bit. I am changed and I am not who I used to be because I decided to change.

Not to get all biblical on you all but the word says; "Who the sun sets free is truly free indeed" So why would I sit around worrying about what a man may think about me when God has forgiven me? There is an old saying that says; "They say you can't make a hoe a housewife", but how can some woman's son become a man when he's been a dog all his life.... If that man is capable of changing then we both can change. Weather you want to make it a double standard or not they are both the same. A sin is a sin, no one sin is greater than the other. So, forgive me if I don't agree with how you all feel about it; I know who I am and I thank God for revealing to me that I am more than what "They say" I don't live for people and when I leave here it won't be because I allowed people to continue to keep me in my past.

I am truly an open book and respect everyone I come in contact with but, if you based who you loved on the life they live or lived then you truly have a lot of growing up to do. Nobody is perfect and no one has all of the answers but I do know this don't count someone out because of the path they took in life. See most people won't tell you the truth about those skeletons in their closet, but just because they won't; doesn't mean they don't have them. So be careful who you deem worthy to be apart of your life or for you to give the time of day to. I'm sure everyone has a story and that if you told that story and If people truly knew it all they wouldn't be able to deal with it.

I said all of that to say this, everything happens for a reason. The post brought many to comment on how they felt. I for one am glad he posted it, however it might have looked to others I saw beyond that and realized thats what we are all here for. We all have a past is mainly what I was saying in my response. My comment wasn't geared towards anyone directly, but the masses of comments that ensued after he posted it brought my mind to reflection. Sometimes we forget how what we say or how we react to something may affect others or what storm(s) others are going through. That post may have very well helped someone rethink life the way they know it, but what it did for me was remind me of how God saved me from me and for that I say thank you! There should be no apologies made for where you have been in life. Me telling some of my story wasn't to explain myself it was to maybe help someone else who may be confused or feel as if they are who others say they are and not know that you can be happy, live, and move forward without regret because life happens to everyone. It's not how you go through it's how you come out...

Have a great Thursday!!!

Let Today Be The First Day.... You do you!

2012-08-29T09:20:00.000-04:00

The Artist Tank

Hello guys!!! I know you are wondering why you are looking at this picture of Tank. Well, I decided to update you all on why I haven't checked in and he just happens to be one of the reasons I've been away. In my efforts to strive to expand my business, the lover of music that I am lead me to have a summer music festival in my city. This event was something I never knew would take off the way it did and I'm glad that I did it! Okay so here is how doing something local can get you tapped into something national.

If you step out on faith you will be amazed at the things and the doors it will open. I took a chance and reached out to investors to partner with me to bring Tank into our city for an evening of great music and fun. Luckily once I presented this to them they believed in me enough to be apart of it! One thing I've learned about business is it either will make you or break you and I must say right now I'm loving the learning experience of it all. His name is David Jackson (pictured right) and he is am up and coming mogul in the making! Look out for his new artist J Chozen (pictured left) on his record label Certified Platinum Entertainment. More about J Chozen a little later. But, this was not only an opportunity for me to bring in hometown talent to give them exposure, it was a chance for me to tap into another side of my business which is event planning.

I can say that as much as I brought to the table David added even more. He taught me a lot and I will forever be thankful and grateful for him taking a chance on me. Everything worked out in our favor and we were able to successfully get Tank secured (Thanks to David) to do the show. After several phonecalls, emails, planning, and trail and errors; we had everything set for the day. Now, more about the young man pictured above R&B newcomer J Chozen. Born and raised in Albany, Ga and is what we call a beast vocally. If you don't know or haven't heard J Chozen I suggest you look him up on YouTube (promise you won't be disappointed). I called him to asked if he would come to Albany to open for Tank and he gladly said yes! So, there it was; the show was set up and ready to go. We get to the day of the show and the weather hadn't been so favorable for us, but keep in mind we had faith. So, even though it wasn't looking good God saw fit to allow it to be a great success! Not only did Tank come and give a show to remember, but he truly left his heart on the stage. I can appreciate an artist who gives the best they have wherever they are. When I met him once I picked him up from the airport he surprised me, because he was so down to earth. I'm expecting a heavily gaurded and quiet person and the first thing I get when he walks out of the airport is laughs! He was so down to earth and humble it was very refreshing. He stated "I'm here Albany! What are we doing tonight"? Rain or shine this guy was ready to give us a show and inded he did just that!

Fast forward to the night of the show and as we prepped for it David and I took turns with our local djs for the live remote to let the people know how exciting of a night we were about to have and urged them to come out to enjoy the night with us. J Chozen is in town and ready to go and now it's time to start the show. When I see anyone from home doing great things I can only applaud them. It was amazing to see J Chozen do his thing. He represented for his label, his home, and gave the ladies an indepth look into who he is. Tank was our guest, but J Chozen was definently in rare form! Now it's time for Tank to hit the stage... Let's just say the rest was history! The ladies were very pleased with everything and a few of them walked away with more than what they came for. We even had men in the audience vibing with Tank. His background singers and his dj (who by the way was amazing) were all great. It was one of those moments you hear about and wish you could have been apart of.

I can ramble on and on about this night, but one word to sum it up was.... EPIC!!! I experienced a lot of great things this day, but the most important was at the end of it all, all of the frustration, headaches (we all got and gave one another lol), and work David called and gave me the best advice anyone could ever share with me. He says that no matter what happens you should always have your partners back and best interest at hand. No Matter What! I had to learn to take it easy, lighten up a little, and not allow the hard times to break me. I truly soaked it all in and I am even more humbled by it as I type. I could go on about how this night ended, but I will just share some of the pics from the show. A big thank you to David Jackson (CEO/Certified Platinum Ent.), The Hilton Garden Inn, Downtown Albany, CPE, Big Pete Johnson, Aaron Blair (Downtown Manager), Moniue Broughton (Assistant to Downtown Manager), Chris Bailey, Martez Favis (Visionary Artisans), Reginald Sweet, Moes Southwestern Grill, Ryan Houston (WALB), Sonja Miller (Kreative Touch Management), Jimmie Fair (Urban Divinci Photographer) and every and anyone who played a part big or small in making this night a reality. So live your life and never forget... You can learn the most valuable lessons in life from those you least expect! Quick disclamer all photos are copyritten and all rights are reserved UDV Photography.

Here it is....

Photos and Interview from JHeather Enterprises/Certified Platinum Ent. Presents... Tank

For more pictures from the evening please visit http://www.behance.net/gallery/Tank-Live-In-Albany-Ga/4755975

J Chozen and IMOB CEO Wyzdum McCray

David Jackson (CEO Certified Platinum Ent.) and Mega Producer Kenjo

Your Favorite Authors, Author Heather Johnson (CEO JHeather Enterprises)

Pieces of Me...

2012-07-12T08:22:00.000-04:00

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I haven't written in a while, but tonight I sit full of thoughts, questions, and needing to be in a better place mentally. I sometimes wonder how you know when its time to let go and walk away from people, things, and situations that just aren't good for you. Letting go sounds easy, but can be made hard by those things you allow to keep you.

I've never wallowed in my past to keep me stuck, nor have I been ashamed of it. Something about dealing with so much in life after the book; makes it seem easier to just go back to those familiar things. Even in my feeling this way I remember how happiness was so far away from me at one time. They say; "Life is what you make it" and even in our making it there are some things we just don't get away from.

My thing is loneliness and the lack of TRUE companionship in the form of a significant other.Hence the song choice for today. I've been so consumed with ministry, myself, and my daughter that sometimes I wonder... What if I never am found by that person? What if I live a life alone? If you don't hear any other part of the song I want you to hear the line... "I'm the most beautiful girl in the world".... I have to remind myself of that because if I am not sure and confident of who I am; I would need someone to validate (compliment) me. Yes, we all have those things that we ponder on (If you can tell the truth on you) in the dead of night when there is only you, your thoughts, and God. I always motivate, encourage, and push my readers to live and sometimes I forget to just be honest with myself.

Someone may feel the same as I do, but to that person I say continue to be hopeful that the future will bring better days and more happiness than you know what to do with. I'm not a quitter, nor do I give up easily. Sometimes its good to be open so that you can be free and have piece of mind. But, whatever you do; never underestimate the place that you're in, because life has a funny way of sneaking up on you. So, remember to love like there is no tomorrow and always believe that God has more in store for you, even in your waiting....

International it is!!!!

2012-06-01T03:32:00.000-04:00

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Who says Faith & Prayer doesn't work? Since the last time I checked in there has been so much going on, doors opening, opportunities coming up, and in the middle of it all here I am! I don't take anything for granted and last year this time when I wrote out my list of things to do this was on that list. Don't ever count out your dreams and goals; even if they seem like they are so far away. I'm so blessed and humbled even more and I just wanted to share this with you and also encourage you to continue to strive for what you believe in, even if you can't physically see it.

Ok, here it is..... As of 5/22/12 The First Day of The Rest of My Life: How my storms became my story went international!!!!! It is now available in Great Britain and Europe on http://www.amazon.co.uk/

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I am convinced that everything I have gone through, every heartache, every pain, all of the tears, every let down, the lies, the betrayal, and everything we may go through in life (because we do go through these things) is always worth it in the end. I've learned that everything God does in our lives is only a set up for something bigger than we could ever imagine. Yes, he has great things in store for you and you have to know that his plan for your life doesn't include failing you. I'm learning even those who meant it for my bad were just a tool for God to get the glory in the end.

I won't hold you guys long, but I had to share my testimony to let you all know that it doesn't matter what "They" say, God has the final ruling in the matter. Ephesians 3:20 says; Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, so let God, be God and know that He's still able. Continue to do more than exist, Live!!

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Heather Johnson

How to Live Life on Purpose!!

2012-04-10T04:51:00.000-04:00

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Well, it's been some time since I last posted a blog entry and as usual the circumstances for which I have been absent have been truly out of my control and in Gods hands! If I told you all how incredibly favored I've been since we last chatted you would be amazed. All I can say is God is Good and I know him to do just what he said he would do. Life has happened to all of us and sometimes life gets the best of us, but today I am convinced that if it didn't happen how could we talk about where we used to be and how we survived those things that came to break or kill us? I made a conscious decision to live on purpose! Yes Living on purpose doesn't allow any room for any nay sayers, nor does it give way to fear or doubt. After the success of the benefit I had to get busy doing work in ministry. I can say that (and being honest when I say this) it becomes a bit much being a leader and there is so much expected of you. We go through so much on a day to day and sometimes we as leaders get drained, but in those times I'm learning that's when I pour out my heart to God and allow him to fill me, renew me, and replenish me to carry out the work. So many doors have opened for me in a short period of time, but somehow I have a feeling that it's all for me! Standing and waiting both require something. God has his own ways of testing us to see is we have learned and gained more wisdom. Thank God for even considering me for these blessings. So, here's what you do when you are ready to Live on Purpose! 1. Once you made your mind up about what direction life would go for you, stay consistent to that. 2. Get you a strong support system, Stay prayerful. 3. No matter how many people doubt you, say that you can't do it, and those that don't believe in you, and expected you to fail; continue to press forward. 4. Don't Look Back. 5. Lastly, keep God at the forefront of it all!!! I often say this; "The failure isn't in the attempt you made to reach your dreams, but in not doing anything at all to move towards them". Life is for living, so I'm living at all cost with Him in the lead. I've missed you guys so much, but I have had to be focused on business and that little love of mine named "Jaida". I pray that each of you have continued to be the blessings that you are and I will be checking in more often. Stay true to yourself and be happy.

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Let Today be The First Day: You Give Back!!!

2012-01-20T10:35:00.000-05:00

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Great Friday to you all!!! I am looking forward to the weekend and I pray you have at least one thing that you will do different to bring some excitement into your life. Well today I want to talk a little bit about the event that is coming up soon in my hometown of Albany, Ga. This benefit is very near and dear to me and I pray it will be a success and help others. One of my biggest supporters; Halaveshia Hall gave me a boost this morning, so the Friday Free For All Jam you are rocking to is courtesy of her!

The event that I am speaking of is The 1st Annual "S.H.E." Thing Benefit Weekend. This benefit is to raise funds and awareness for both Cancer and MS (multiple sclerosis). I am so thrilled about this benefit because of the out pour of positive feedback and support from the city, businesses, and residence here in Albany. The benefit will be a two day event that includes; inspirational speaking, an auction to give back, dinner, benefit concert, vendors, informational booths, testimonials, and great family fun! It's better to allow God to lead you, versus you stepping out on your own; because when he is in control all you have to do is follow the directions he gives you. Proverbs 12:13
says; Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life. This benefit is the blueprint to plant those seeds of hope.

The first night of the event will be the benefit auction/dinner where there will be guest speakers (2), dinner, and a live auction. This event is formal (black tie). All of the proceeds from this auction will be split between the two organizations; The American Cancer Society and The National MS Society. I have lived part of this personally by watching my mother battle breast cancer. She is a survivor and is proof that this disease doesn't always win. she will be one of the guest speakers for Cancer and the other guest speaker is Mrs. Colette Jenkins who will speak about Ms as a person who is living with the disease. I always wanted to do something to give back, just never knew what to do. I later found out about a childhood friend who had been diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis) and was led to finally take action.

The 1st Annual “"S.H.E"” Thing! Benefit Auction/Dinner and Family Fun Day of Awareness to raise funds and bring awareness to both Cancer and MS (Multiple Sclerosis). Outside of raising funds to help with a cure/educate others about these diseases, we want to shed a light on those who may not know the affects these diseases have on those in our community. Because there are those who may be living with the diseases or know someone that is directly affected by these diseases. It's A "S.H.E." Thing wants to be a beacon of hope for those persons or families dealing with these illnesses and by "Sharing Hope and Life Changing Experiences" we will leave a lasting impression for years to come.We will enjoy raffles, a live auction, and dinner on this night.

The second day and climax of the benefit will be a benefit concert that will be held in Downtown Albany. This event will be our Family Fun-day of Awareness and is free-to-the public and will consist of some of the best bands and acts from our city. This day will have vendors, food, informational booths, and testimonials through out the day. There may be a few surprises in store for those attending as well! Let Today be The First Day you give back! Find something you are passionate about and find a way to make a difference. The smallest act can make a world of difference!

I get so emotional when I think about those who have helped out with this event, the sponsors, vendors, and volunteers who chose to be apart of this monumental occasion. For more details, e-ticket purchase, donations, and even to sign our guestbook; visit the event website here: www.wix.com/itsa_shething/benefit

Let Today Be The First Day... You turn on the swag switch!

2012-01-18T06:20:00.000-05:00

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I'm not gone I'm just working hard for a cause i believe in. Happy New Year and I pray the first 18 days of this year have given you nothing but hope, inspiration, and an undying will to Live! Today's topic is "swag" or as I look at it how to do you and be the best you. There have been things and people that have tried to get me off track and make me doubt myself, but I had to realize what it was about me that I loved and how different I was. I won't hold you all long on today, but I want to give you all something to think about.

If you ever find yourself questioning your beauty, appearance, decisions, and listening to and allowing others to have the worst influence over you; check yourself! It's okay for people to have opinions, its fine for them to even judge, but you have to be secure in who you are and what your purpose in life is. For the one who has let go and stopped dolling yourself up because of how someone else has made you feel, guess what? You have let them win. Sad to say; the best way to nip a potential joy killer or confidence stealer in the bud is to do the opposite of what they expected you to do.

So, in the spirit of letting today be the first day you flip your swag switch on; for those who look for you to hold your head down in defeat; don't, for those who look for you not to smile, make sure you rock the biggest one (promise it will kill them privately), For those who have stopped fixing themselves up; find the flyest ensemble you have and rock it out, and for those who have given up on you; brush your shoulders off and start living! You are significant, you are beautiful, you are needed, you do matter, and someone loves you! But, it doesn't mean anything if you don't believe it for yourself. Confidence has always been sexy to me, so strut your confidence and when you look in the mirror give yourself a high five and smile! Until tomorrow I love you guys and remember: A failure is never determined by what you do, It's by what you don't do... With that being said; God gave us the greatest gift outside of life and that is creativity, so if you think of it or envision it; act on it or at least try it. "What-if "should not be an after-thought.

Me & Jaida (the silly one)

Happy New Year!!!

Let Today Be The First Day You Fight Back...

2011-12-16T09:13:00.001-05:00

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Great Friday to you all readers!!!! I got up this morning with an urgency to get this post to you all. Sometimes when you feel like all odds are against you and all bets are off; remember the fight that's been lying dormant in you. Sometimes we have to activate the one thing in our life that won't and has never changed, The Word! What better way to fight the enemy, haters, this life that tries to take you out at times, the job and the people on it who look down at you because of your steady elevation, the people who won't see your change because they continue to try to keep you in your past! This list can go on and on.

John 10:10 says; The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. So what makes you think that it will just go away. When you've had about all you can take and you have either gone through enough or lost too much; you will begin to fight. The fight you will have will be for all of those words, actions, or things that were meant to kill you and your weapon will be with the word of life! The scripture goes on to say; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. We have to realize that nothing God gives us comes without a price nor a fight. I got up ready for battle this morning because I won't allow the enemy to take away what I have cried, fasted, and prayed for and better yet worked for! So, If you have come back in you like I think you do; I believe you will square up and prepare to take a stand. The word says in Psalm 119:105; Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. So people walk with assurance that it is well.

Today is Free For All Friday and as always I have a hot one for you all! In the words of Mali Music; " I am a bride yes, God can mold me; yes I'm saved and my body's holy, Yes I was guilty; but Christ died for me. Don't believe the lie y'all the devils' phony. He just mad cuz he cant hold me no mo' God opened doors he cant close tryin' take me out yeah he came close I gotta word now y'all and I'm throwin' bows." So with that being said; lace up, check your swag in the mirror, and pat yourself on the back because you lived to fight another day! In the end you Win! Stay focused and enjoy your weekend!

Let Today Be The First Day You SMILE...

2011-12-10T01:31:00.001-05:00

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Hello!!! Once again I have been kept away from my most favorite people, my readers!!! Never fear; I'm here! I pray that you all have been enjoying life and all that it has to offer. Sometimes life can give you the one-two punch and try to knock you out, but you have to remember that it happens to the best of us. Some people don't know what it's like just to be happy and smile and some of us have gone through so much that smiling is a challenge within itself. I have a remedy for that! The best pick me up (for those who may be experiencing the holiday blues or just have been through so much that you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel) is to start thinking how bad things could be, how your children's joy makes you happy, how the people you love always seem to be there for you, and if you can't find anything tangible; just remember that you opened your eyes this morning, had the activity of your limbs, and got another chance to live! I won't hold you all long, but the holidays are here so enjoy your families and be safe. Today's Free For All Jam is an oldie but a goodie! Maybe by the time you finish reading this I will have brought back some fond memories and put a smile on that beautiful face. SMILE it's contagious and besides it just makes you feel good!

Jaida @ The Father/Daughter Dance

Let Today Be The First Day... Learning to accept who is for you

2011-11-22T07:43:00.001-05:00

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Hello all! I know! I've been away yet again, but please be sure that I was always thinking of you guys while I was busy at work. Thanksgiving is near and its time for family, friends, good food, and fellowship. I find myself reflecting a lot of times around this time of year, because people that were close to me or dear to me are either no longer with us or I have been separated from them for one reason or another. Lets just get to the meat of it. When you elevate or have life changes, people around you tend to change or they are not fit to go to that next level with you. I am learning to accept these things as blessings and count it all joy that I am no longer in the place that I used to be. I used to think that "FRIENDS" would be the ones that were the happiest for me, but sometimes you have to sit back and reevaluate that word. I heard a PJ Morton song that summed it up.

PJ Morton

He simply said this; "Friends I tell you how you know they're real, Friends through the hard times they still are there even through the bad times, Friends will love you all the time". My God! and I can back this up by giving you the scripture Proverbs 17:17 says; ¹⁷A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity. The bitter side of that is that you have to evaluate those "FRIENDS" who are suspect. PJ goes on to tell us; "Check the motives and I hope you know this everybody doesn't really care. Some are there to get what they get from you, but they won't do anything for you"! This is the story of my life! I'm thankful that once I begin to transition and God begin to deal with me he showed me and is still showing me who is for me. There is nothing like having a strong support system, but they have to be on the same page as you and even though they can't yet see your vision; they believe in it as much as you do and most importantly they believe in you!

You may lose people you never could have imagined losing, but this is where you learn how to love people from a distance. Don't hold any ill will in your heart towards them because they don't get it! Everyone won't get it , but that's OK. Today's lesson was Mathematics (The name and the game of life) as PJ says. So I want to encourage you and say; Continue to move no matter what and know that it's a blessing sometimes that weights are dropped off of you. The higher you go in life in turn makes the circle of "FRIENDS" you have that much smaller. So, don't concern yourself with what "they" say about your blessings and how much you have changed. Change is good for anyone as long as it is a positive and productive one. But what I would leave with you is; Just as much as you want those "true" FRIENDS, you too much show yourself to be the same. Proverbs 18:24; A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly: and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

2011-11-16T09:51:00.001-05:00

Today I am sitting here reflecting and have come to the realization that in order to let today be the 1st day you 1st have to make the choice to live!

Don't take it personal...

2011-11-10T06:16:00.003-05:00

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Lol! You may wonder why I am up laughing at 5:55am! Well I will tell you! First of all I am laughing because I've been trying to rest and not get on this computer and it's been like that diet you try to maintain, but keep seeing the donut you love and know you shouldn't eat. I've been a busy little bee this week and apologize for my absence. It is crunch time and if you don't know I am having an event here in my city to benefit Cancer and MS (Multiple Sclerosis). The event will be held Feb. 17th-18th in Albany, Ga and the out pour of support has been overwhelming and I'm thankful that things have fallen into place.

I'm learning to except people for who they are and love them inspite of, because they too will have to grow and become just what it is God wants them to be. So, don't count people out just because they are not where you are. If it means anything to you think about the one who no one believed in and see where they are now. Makes a little sense huh? Yea, I know it's not Friday and it's almost time to wind down, so I won't bore you today. But, While you get ready for the world make sure you give yourself a check up from the neck up and turn your swag switch on and leave it there! So smile, the weekend is almost here baby!

God allows things to happen to open your eyes, make you stronger, and help you become wiser. So, take the bitter with the sweet and as the saying goes what doesn't kill you, will definitely make you stronger! Enjoy your weekend and make it a great one! For more information on the 1st Annual It's A "S.H.E." Thing (sharing hope and experiences) Benefit Weekend visit the event website at: www.wix.com/itsa_shething/benefit Enjoy your Friday Free For All Jam!! See you guys next week!

Collette Jenkins (Owner) Chozen To Conquer Cosmetics

& Guest Speaker for It's A "S.H.E." Thing Benefit

This has got to stop...

2011-11-04T04:34:00.002-04:00

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Hello my friends!! Your favorite authors, author has been under the weather this week, but nevertheless God is a Healer! It is 4am in my town and that tells you my day has just begun. I have missed you all so much these past few days and I have missed out on so much, but my health is very important to me. So, while I have been green (not so well) I have had to do a self evaluation again! Yes, it happens at times and yes you have to go back and re-do everything you thought you had made a conscious effort to correct about you all over again. No sweat my pet (in my Steven Q. Erkel voice) this just shows your dedication to ensure that you are headed in the right direction to be the best you; that you can be. I always use my personal experiences for tools to possibly help someone else. So here goes!

I took a conversation between myself and a very close friend of mine that was in confidence and because I knew one of the parties, thought I was looking out for them, and shared some of that conversation. Yea I know some of you may be saying; "well doesn't seem hurtful to me" or " whats the big deal"? Well, I will tell you how that small thing could have ruined the trust that my friend had in me. I not only compromised our friendship, but I talked about someone whom I don't know and hadn't given a fair chance. I thought I was being a friend and looking out for my friend by telling them about the conversation I had, but in reality I did more damage than good. Now, this is where we see who is mature and mentally grown enough to make this right wrong. If you said; "well I would just apologize to my friend who shared the info with me", that's a start but that's just apart of mending your wrong.

I had to apologize to my friend who shared the information with me, then I had to apologize to the person to whom I spoke about and even if they don't accept your apology you have to do what's RIGHT! Put all egos aside, and remember that you too have had issues in your past, have lied, have done others wrong, and have wanted to be treated fairly and justly by others. I was convicted and that's just what God does to his children when we are in the wrong, but it is up to us to go back and make those things that were made wrong; right. I prayed about it and now my conscious is clear. I made a simple note to myself and that was; " I'm learning that shutting the hell up sometimes is just a good idea".

Many things could have happened due to me not being concerned about others feelings. I could have killed someone (spiritually), I could have stunted my growth as a believer, I could have damaged someone who has already probably had enough go on in their lives as it is. The list could go on and on. So, normally Fridays are dedicated to Fun, but whats more fun than knowing you made the right decision! The song for today should give you all the motivation you need! Whatever it is, it's not too late to get it right. Be mindful of what we say, there is so much power in your words!

Myself and Sharrod Hart (I Love My Readers)!!!

Just say thank you...

2011-10-31T15:49:00.001-04:00

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My weekend was way more exciting than expected folks! I hope you all missed me as much as I missed you. The city was so alive and everywhere I turned I saw a smiling face and people showing love to one another. Have you ever asked yourself the question; " am I too friendly or am I too loving to others"? Well, I asked myself that very question this weekend. I'm able to separate true relationships from casual ones, yet that doesn't stop me from being positive and nice towards others. It took some time for me to get to this place and I will say this; I am happier now to say that I can. Which leads me to what I want to discuss today.

I realized this weekend that no matter what others may think of the way I show love, I do it because it's genuine and it comes from a pure place. I'm well aware that some of the people I love on may not reciprocate that same love back to me; in public smiling and behind closed doors degrading me. One thing you have to learn is at the end of the day you are responsible for your actions and you can't control how others act. So, if you're led to say thank you, I appreciate you, I love you, or you're needed; do so and not be tied to the thought of how others may view what you are doing. People like to know that you notice them and their acts and if they have helped you even the least you should let them know you care. One of the things that is not guaranteed in life is time and we take for granted that it's not promised to any of us.

So in your search to find the good in others and appreciate kind gestures or others will to help you become a better person remember what I always say; "Love isn't Love, till you've given it away". God loved us inspite of our situations so at some point we are responsible for ensuring we give that love away. Loving those you know who despise you is a true test of character and the God in you! Make the devil the liar that he already is.

Edward Wingfield (creator of Skunk Bro. Clothing) & Dyshelda Leonard (owner of Fancy Boutique)

Homecoming 2011

It's that time again!!!

2011-10-28T07:00:00.003-04:00

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It's Friday!!!!!!! Wake up and get excited about your weekend. You guys know that I'm not long winded on Fridays because this is our time to wind down together and give a big woo-sah to our busy week. This week was filled with greatness and I am only anticipating what the rest of the weekend will bring. It's homecoming here in Albany, Ga for the Mighty Albany State University Rams and you can smell the victory in the air. So, to all my grinders; button that shirt, straighten your tie, put on your happy face, enjoy this jam, and know that no matter what happens today it will all be over once you punch the clock. Enjoy your weekend wherever you are, find something creative and inspiring to do. The thought for today is: Life is for the living, so if you're going to do it; do it well! Great Friday to you all! Look out for next Friday's jam it's sure to take you out of the box!

Can't help it, If I wanted to...

2011-10-26T11:49:00.001-04:00

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Wednesday it is!!! Heeey all of my midday humpers. Maybe your day has gotten off to a sluggish start but I am here with my "S" on my chest (cape included w/ wind for special effects) to the rescue! I am a little late today because it's my moms birthday and I had to be the annoying daughter that I am to her at times, but it's all in love. Sometimes we get so frustrated and irritated with the actions of others and even with things we may do ourselves at times. But, in times like this you have to remember whats important. Happiness is so much better than sorrow, a smile is better than a frown so on this fine day even though it is a mid week bustle; find the greater good in it all. I woke up this morning thinking of what would be a good motivation for my readers today and it's this simple; find someone and say something good to them, you never know who you may be helping. Sometimes it's good to think of others besides ourselves. 1 Corinthians 13 says: ¹³ And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. Smile, it's almost over! Hope you enjoy the groove!

Jaida @ 3yrs old

I Got It...

2011-10-25T07:57:00.002-04:00

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Well, well, well!!! Tuesday is here and I am so happy this morning to update you all on today. I had the privilege to witness the awesome ministry of Kierra "KiKi" Sheard" on last night here in my hometown and it was nothing short of an experience! Remember that word because it is in that word that I have been seeking Gods face. When you are a leader you can't help what is inside of you and at times it gets trying because there is so much to be expected out of us. But, I found out last night during my worship that even we have to be refreshed and replenished to carry out our works.1 Corinthians 6:19-20 says: ¹⁹ Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; ²⁰ you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. I have to hold myself responsible for I am a vessel and weather I like it or not I am charged to be a better example to Gods people.

Maybe this was what I had been waiting on for the past two days. So, the fact that I am alone (single) is a good reason for me to continue to ask God to hide me and keep me, even when I don't want to be kept. Denying myself at times is a test within itself, but if I have to do that so that God gets the glory out of it; I will. Truly amazing how he loves us after we have turned our backs on him so many times before when it wasn't beneficial to us. I thrive to be honest about my walk and real. I am guilty of it at one point in my life or another. So, If I can leave any encouragement with you all on today; I will say that God is real and he is here waiting on our yes so he can take control and truly show us how much he loves us. Don't learn to be a circumstantial praiser; meaning you only praise God when things are going good in your life. "You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same" You are amazing God.

My Daughter Jaida & I

It's Over Now...

2011-10-24T04:36:00.000-04:00

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I haven't been sleeping well for the past two days and normally when this happens I have to pay attention. For some reason God deals with me at weird times, but I know that everything he does; he does it in his own way. I've been so anxious about the blog that I actually for some reason have every topic I will discuss this week. This was something I never anticipated doing in my life, yet here I am and I couldn't be happier to share my experiences and good news. What I don't ever want to do is forget. We get so caught up in ourselves sometimes we forget that it was somebody bigger than you and I who has allowed us the ability to exist. We talk about the goodness of God, how He blesses us, and how we are thankful for everything He does for us; but do we truly take out the time to simply give God our best?

I'm inhaling deep breaths right now because I can be honest even if you won't and say that at times I know I don't. Wanting more of Him and wanting to experience a move unlike any other in my life is where I am now. So, I sit, I wait, and even if I don't hear a word I know that He hears me. I don't ask for riches or fame, but what I ask for is priceless and can't just be handed to me. How many of us take the initiative and take responsibility for ourselves and ask God what is it that we need to do. The answer is very few, because that would require us to step up and take ownership for our actions.

The best thing for us to do is be honest with ourselves. Yes, we make mistakes, yes we fall short; but admitting to it is what frees us and allows us to move forward. Our actions and decisions from that point on will dictate our growth. The encouragement I want to leave you all this morning is to never give up. You may not see the results of your praying or your works, but that does not mean He is not working it out. Delayed does not mean denied! Have a great Monday, do something different today, that will be the beginning of something new!

Charlene and I at book signing

Wake up!!!!

2011-10-21T06:09:00.002-04:00

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It's Friday!! You thought I forgot about you guys huh? Yea right; how could I! I normally don't talk about much on Fridays and for those of you who are new to the site, I typically inspire with my passion; Music! I've been jamming to this song all day on yesterday and couldn't wait to share it with you guys. Hopefully by now some of you are pulling yourselves together to get into business mode, but there is nothing like a "pick me up" and who better to give it to you but me! I hope this song brings a smile to your face, joy to your heart, a snap to your fingers, and bop to your heads out there. Have a great one and remember to Smile! It's contagious.

Things are not as they seem...

2011-10-20T01:49:00.000-04:00

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Well, is it Thursday already! I have been a busy mess this week (lol) and it all settles down once I sit down to update you all. Living is the best thing that any of us can do for ourselves, so I decided to talk about just that; life. I know some of us are not living the lives we expected for ourseleves, but don't let that stop you from giving it your best effort. I've learned that everything in my life that has taken place good or bad was not of my own doing; but of Gods. Sometimes we look at bad things in life and say; "that's nothing but the devil". Have you ever stopped to think if it was God looking out for you? For those that don't know the enemy can't do anything without Gods permission. You say how? Well I will tell you. Look at Job in the bible, he was one of Gods favorites and the devil wanted to make a point to God, so before he could do anything to Job he had to get permission from God. I said that to say this, you are more because of who you belong to. Our lives and our experiences are a testimony to others that no matter how hard things may get, God has the final say.

There may be someone who is feeling like; "why me", well I learned a valuable lesson about that very question when I asked it. If you were not equipt to deal with what life throws your way, you wouldn't go through it. My pastor said something to me that has truly stuck to me and I thank her (yes, I said her) for it. She told me the easiest thing to do is give up because it doesn't require you to do anything. But, the hardest thing to do is STAND when you feel like the floor is about to come from up under you, the walls are about to fall down around you, and everything around you seems like its crumbling. When the dust settles; and I've said this before look around and see who is still there. Everyone is not designed to go through and you have to careful that you don't get lost in your storm. Darkness may come, winds may blow, rain may fall, and even HELL (hail) may fall in your life; just know that He created it all so after the wreckage there is peace and that doesn't always come easy.

Knowing who you are and what you possess is part of the battle. Owning what you possess and walking in that takes you further than you or anyone else could ever imagine. Be the blessing that you already are. Friday is on the way and boy do I have a surprise for you guys! Until then allow God time to just be God in your life!

My stylist Melanie Dunbar & Myself

Just let it go...

2011-10-18T19:54:00.001-04:00

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I used to have a broken spirit and I used to hold onto hurts from my past so much that if I thought about it, saw it (people), or encountered it in anyway I would be devastated. It was so bad that it would send me right into a depression. Now, while I sat and wallowed in my hurt those people continued to live their lives. Truth be told the majority of the people who have hurt you either don't know the extent or don't care. I always give you real life situations and this all came 8 yrs after my grandmother passed away. As I sat in church on this Mothers Day Sunday in 2010 I could only think of her and then I looked up to see someone for whom I thought I had forgiven, but it was evident at that moment; I hadn't.

There is nothing like fooling yourself and boy did I on this day. The emotions and feelings of what this person had done came rushing back to me and I sat in church and wept, not because of the holy spirit; but because I was experiencing that hurt all over again. See alot of us do this Sunday in and Sunday out go to church with our hurts and issues and instead of letting them go and leaving them there we allow our emotions to take over and reminisce over those things that came to kill us or destroy our lives. After the service I approached that very person and I was more open with them than I had ever been before. I let them know that I thought i had forgiven them, but it was clear there was still unresolved issues and that maybe one day I can and I even told them that I wanted to; just that at that moment I couldn't. It took a lot of praying and asking God to deal with my heart for me to get to a place of being able to see this person and embrace them and not have any alt in my heart towards them. It takes something to just be real with yourself.

I had to learn that in order to say that I walk with God I had to love like God and I also had to forgive like God. I never understood how after all the scrutiny he received, he was able to love past those things and now I do. The scripture says in Matthew 6:14 For if you forgive people their trespasses [their reckless and willful sins, leaving them, letting them go, and giving up resentment], your heavenly Father will also forgive you. I've done things that I should have died for in my lifetime and God saw fit to forgive me, so why can't I do the same when it comes to others? People will do things that we may not understand, but in our hearts we have to be able to forgive them and also love them. That will let you know if you have gotten to a better place. Don't get me wrong, it won't happen overnight, but you have to be willing to LET IT GO!!! I used to bite my lip and not speak to those who have wronged me, but those battles are no longer mine to fight. Remember you are created in love and we have a heart that was created to love. I did it because of this little girl. So, what will be your motivation? Continue to move forward and live.

What if I'm the problem...

2011-10-16T23:10:00.000-04:00

Hello my good friends! I pray that all of your weekends have been exciting. This is a new week, a start, and Monday is a new day! But, I wanted to touch on something that most of us won't admit and some of us are blind to. In our day to day struggles of trying to obtain what we consider happiness and being content with our lives and ourselves, at times we get lost in the midst of it all. Ever had times when it seemed as if everyone was against you and no one saw things your way? Have you ever been so hurt that you could only find the fault in others and not recognize that you may have been the problem all along. Well, to make you feel a little better and not feel as if you are the only one; I was that person once upon a time in my life. Do you see this face!

Yes me! I had the worst attitude and took all of my anger and frustrations that I had from another who had done me wrong and lashed out and hurt a lot of people in my life.The saying goes; "The truth hurts" and what can be any truer than finding out things about yourself that you don't even like. I was miserable and because of that I didn't care about how made others feel in the process. It took me being faced with having to look at myself and notice that i was doing more damage than good in my life. I found myself by myself and this was at a very young age. I hated what was done to me so everyone looked like "that person". So, how do we get back to a good place? The first thing in getting things that have gone a rye in your life back right is admitting that there is a problem. Now keep in mind yes there will be those who don't want to see you happy and as we call them "haters", but it won't be them in all cases. So, I had to recognize that I was my own worst enemy! It was like a knife in my stomach, but I had to face the facts. I had to reevaluate things and deal with ME! Since then I was able to move past so much and become a more happier person inside and out. If I could encourage anyone that is reading this and you don't know where to turn, ask God to fix it and even if he has to hide you while you are under construction; then so be it. God is love and if you love God allow him the time to get you to a better place. Continue to shine in the darkest places. You are loved, you are needed, and you do MATTER! Be blessed by being a blessing.