Lessons in Appreciation & Growth!!

Hopeless Romantic or just a PLAIN Ol FOOL

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 17:06:00 -0500

I have often thought of myself as a romantic. I tend to see the good in people and start you out at 100. I'm starting to learn maybe it should be zero. I met this wonderful guy Valentines 2008. it wasn't a chance meeting his mother works with me. I went down to be formally introduced. He was cute but he was my friends son. I was five months out of a disappointing relationship and not looking for anything.

He was smitten by my charismatic charm..okay my voluptuous bottom. He was younger and again my co-worker & friends son. Even though he asked about me I didn't pursue it all. He seemed hypnotized with my beauty I mean booty but had no idea what i really had to offer. Just goes to show you, "don't judge a book totally by it's cover."

In April I had a burned out light and my brother and I tried our best to replace the bulb, no sense in paying the dealer $100 for labor on a $5 light bulb right? So after we couldn't get it Chevrolet makes it a little tricky if you aren't automotively inclined. So, I asked my friend to ask her son since I knew he was a jack of all trades. Sure enough he would do it. So she gave him my number and he called the same day. I wasn't thinking anything other than this will only cost me $50 opposed to $175.

The first conversation he was getting smart with me & I was secretly thinking be nice you need the light fixed. I fell asleep waiting on him, I gave him directions he didn't follow, and he almost passed my house. When he pulled up & got out he looked just like I remembered cut but my co-workers son who happened to be my friend. I had changed and prepared for be, I had on neon green, pink, yellow, and pink star pajama pants, a blue shirt, with socks and Nike flip flops on. OK, I wasn't expecting a date out of that. the first thing he said was, "where are you going with that on?" I quickly responded you are here to fix my car not take me on a date.

He quickly started working on my truck and was about to replace the wrong bulb. I corrected him since I was basically in his way. But anytime someone is helping me I try to help them by offering assistance even if it's just a bit of conversation. What started out as a headache turned into four hours of conversation. We discussed our childhood, our past relationships, our dreams, and desires. All before I realized he needed to wash his hands. Later, we went in the house & talked another hour. In the midst of all this his mother my friend and co-worker calls and is shocked he is still at my house, Afterwards he went to her house and told her that, "it's something special about her- I believe I'm in love." I know skeptics YEAH RIGHT!! But from that day we started texting, talking on the phone for hours, seeing each other and growing more and more in love. However, in growing to know someone you tend to see who they really are. He has shown me such a beautiful form of a man. He has opened my eyes to what it truly feels like to be loved. To hear him encourage me and tell me, "I don't believe their is nothing you can't do" inspires me to do more & try even harder. We both experienced the absence of our fathers which gave us an instant connection. We love our families and more importantly our children.

We have so much in common and yet are in so many ways different. I'm determined, driven, motivated and easy to encourage...he is determined, driven to a strong degree, and needs lots of encouragement. We are Yin/Yang with a twist of stubbornness. The problem has arisen out of our past. the lack of closing doors and leaving room for hope when their is none has caused a stand still in our relationship. How can I encourage him when he has been beaten down so bad by the waves of life. I have been as well but I handled it differently. I want to save him, or fix the problem but realize I am ill equipped. This is where my faith has to come in because right now I realize I have met the man of my dreams but he isn't perfect, he's hurting and feels trapped in past decisions and choices. Now he has chosen to try and resolve 31 years of bad choices and now I have to decide do I wait or move on?? I love him am i really a fool for believing in him and deciding to wait it's already been 7 months???

Giving

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 16:17:00 -0500

How great are you at giving? I often wonder if I give to much. The need to be wanted or desired can at times force me into a place where giving is all I have. I've never been the taker. I struggle asking for help even when I desperately need it. I never want to hear the dreaded NO! i have a hard time saying it myself. Overall I know it's a necessarey evil. More to come just something that ran across my mind.

Now what

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 11 Jan 2009 12:24:00 -0600

I woke up this morning angry @ myself & the world! Angry for allowing others to treat me less than I deserve.- Lack of balance & not knowing my own self worth. i don't know where this journey is going but we will have to just wait & see!

College Graduate

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 31 Aug 2008 09:44:00 -0500

NEVER WOULD HAVE MADE IT

FINALLY, I WILL GRADUATE FROM TROY UNIVERSITY ON JULY 29, 2008 @ 7PM. I NEVER IMAGINED IT WOULD FEEL THIS GREAT. I KNOW IT TOOK A WHILE BECAUSE LIFE HAPPENED AND MY FOCUS SHIFTED WITH LIFES RESPONSIBILITES. BUT THANK GOD FOR MANY CHANCES TO GET MYSELF BACK IN SCHOOL AND TO FINALLY BE FINISIHING. I GIVE ALL CREDIT TO GOD! I KNOW WITHOUT HIM I AM NOTHING BUT WITH HIM I CAN'T BE STOPPED.

EVEN AS A DIVORCED MOTHER OF THREE YES THREE WHOSE FACED ALL TYPES OF ADVERSITY, I HAVE NEVER GIVEN UP COME CLOSE TO THROWING IN THE TOWEL BUT TRUST ME WHAT GOD STARTS IN YOU HE WILL SEE THROUGH TILL THE END. MANY NIGHTS I CRIED, DIDN'T FEEL LIKE IT, IT WASN'T FAIR, BUT IN SPITE OF IT ALL IT WAS TRULY WORTH IT. I KNOW IT'S GOD BECAUSE HOW COULD A DIVORCED MOTHER OF THREE, WORK FULL-TIME AND EXCEL ON A VERY CHALLENGING JOB, NURTURE THREE LITTLE PRINCESSES, HELP WITH HOMEWORK, DISCIPLINE, DO HAIR, CLEAN HOUSE, PAY THE BILLS, FEED & BATHE CHILDREN, DO SOME TRAVELING, MEET NEW FRIENDS, GET GOOD GRADES, GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE WITH A MAJOR& A MINOR AND STILL LOOK GOOD? G O D NO OTHER GOD...HE IS THE ALPHA & OMEGA WITHOUT HIM I AM NOTHING I HAVE TO GIVE HIM PRAISE BECAUSE I WAS THE ONE THAT NO ONE THOUGHT COULD DO IT. IN FACT I WAS TOLD TIME AND TIME AGAIN I COULDN'T BUT BY THE GRACE OF GOD I'M STILL HERE. SO LADIES & MEN DON'T LET ANYTHING OR ANYONE KEEP YOU FROM FOLLOWING YOUR DREAMS, SET GOALS AND REACH THEM & SET HIGHER ONES. OH, I ALSO TEACH CHILDRENS CHURCH 1ST & 4TH SUNDAY & ATTEND BIBLE STUDY & SUNDAY SERVICE, MEETINGS ETC.....GOD MADE ME & I AM FEARFULLY & WONDERFULLY MADE! I AM ALL THAT HE SAYS I AM & I HAVE ALL THAT HE SAYS I HAVE! HOW EXCELLENT & MIGHTY IS HIS NAME!!

GOD BLESS YOU!!

What a MAN

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Mon, 7 Apr 2008 21:13:00 -0500

What a MAN?

Time will only tell when that man is for me & is he worth the risk of giving my heart to. Get to know me and explore the possibilities. Don’t bore me with your chatter of how big your rims are on your whip, about how much $$ you have because all I want to know is do you have a retirement plan, a savings, a Roth IRA, a portfolio, life insurance & do you pay child support? I’m self-sufficient sure I love roses, jewelry and all but can you care for me when I have a cold? Would you comb my hair if I couldn’t? Would you wash my car without me asking? What substance do you have? What are you actively pursuing & committed to?
It’s time to stop being tempted by the external & dig deeper.

As time goes on and I grow and mature I realize the external is so temporal. Sure he looks HOT..but can he hold a conversation? Can he make me laugh? Does he vote? Does he love his mother but have boundaries (not such a momma’s boy that she makes his decisions)? Is he a MAN?? You know a Mature Adult Nurturing a true relationship with GOD!! Is he intimate with GOD? Does he have children and if so is he a FATHER? You know Faithful to his word, Available for fieldtrips, when they are sick, when they need to talk, or just some QT, he is Totally committed to seeing them become upstanding Christians and fishermen/woman of men/women, Honorable & Honest he knows how to treat women even his ex & he tells the truth no matter who it may hurt, an Encourager someone who can see the light in any situation and bring out the best in you, he is Eager to love and show it, and lastly he is REAL no fakers here! WOW what a MAN!!

LOVE

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 23 Mar 2008 20:45:00 -0500

Love spoken in various languages still means the same a pure natural emotion that can be felt between a mother and a son, a father and a daughter, you and the creator, you and your lover, and it's nothing better than love.

The more I live the more open I become to love. Even in disappointment the thought of love caressing me keeps me walking on this journey called life with no particular destination other than sheer bliss and happiness beyond measure.

A part of my heart has escaped me but I still have a lot to give never have I ever totally given up on love. In the wake of failure I lean on the love I have for me inside to encourage me to encourage myself and perservere. Love comforts me at night and no he doesn't have a name just the simple breeze that comes across my pillow as I dream of flying among the stars. What peace I have in learning to love myself like I have never been loved before. It is true until you totally love yourself you can never love anohter. being out of order tends to lead to chaos but getting realigned leads to harmony. i'm ready you just wait and see. go with me....

Trusting God JOB 38

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 27 Jan 2008 12:24:00 -0600

Do you know more than GOD? Of course, you don't it would be foolish to even think our small minds could get on his omnipotent level! We are going to study JOB 38 over the next couple of weeks line by line and verse by verse. I will provide you with three different translations of the verses. Let's begin with JOB 38 verse 1-3!

Job 38 (New International Version)
The LORD Speaks
1 Then the LORD answered Job out of the storm. He said:

2 "Who is this that darkens my counsel
with words without knowledge?

3 Brace yourself like a man;
I will question you,
and you shall answer me.

Job 38 (The Message)
God Confronts Job
Have You Gotten to the Bottom of Things?
1 And now, finally, God answered Job from the eye of a violent storm. He said:

2-11 "Why do you confuse the issue?
Why do you talk without knowing what you're talking about?
Pull yourself together, Job!
Up on your feet! Stand tall!
I have some questions for you,
and I want some straight answers.

Job 38 (King James Version)

1Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind, and said,

2Who is this that darkeneth counsel by words without knowledge?

3Gird up now thy loins like a man; for I will demand of thee, and answer thou me.

This word literally goes down to the core of my very soul.

God is OMNIPOTENT-
Main Entry:
1om·nip·o·tent Listen to the pronunciation of 1omnipotent
Pronunciation:
\-tənt\
Function:
adjective
Etymology:
Middle English, from Anglo-French, from Latin omnipotent-, omnipotens, from omni- + potent-, potens potent
Date:
14th century

1often capitalized : almighty 12: having virtually unlimited authority or influence 3obsolete : arrant

God is faithful & just!! I literally realize that I'm not GOD in any shape form or fashion. My thoughts are not his thoughts nor his ways my ways...but I desire to do God's will above all else. No matter how hard it becomes I will hold on NO MATTER WHAT!! In spite of our sins God isn't caught by surprise but full of grace & mercy. He knows my beginning to my end! I need to be quiet and stop talking so much and get in this word and feed my spirit.

The Bible One scripture at a time

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Fri, 25 Jan 2008 20:58:00 -0600

Reading the bible is a daunting task. It's massive and overflowing with wisdom, knowledge, and things you need to know. It's impossible to read the bible like a novel we must take one scripture at a time. Meditate on it and gather revelation.

Let's begin (we will look at it in various translations): Psalms 37:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. KJV
3-4 Get insurance with God and do a good deed, settle down and stick to your last. Keep company with God, get in on the best. The Message Bible
4 Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. NIV
4Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart. Amplified Bible

I'm going to meditate on this for the next week and write down what I gain from it. Won't you do the same!!

Prayers to my father

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Wed, 23 Jan 2008 05:06:00 -0600

01-23-08
Dear Lord,

Thank you for waking me @ 4 am this morning and helping me to get on my knees and face & praise your holy & might name. No other name has the power to move me like you do. I couldn’t help but praise your holy & mighty name.

I was listening to Sheryl Brady. Wow what a mighty woman of God she is. God bless her in a mighty way. I love to hear people give you praise and I refuse to not give you praise for you give me the breath to even live. You are truly amazing and I’m so in love with you. I’ve never had a close relationship with my father and felt I had missed out on so much but you know everyday that I get to know you more and more I realize you’ve always been here. I know that I am loved and that I am worthy of all things. I’m entitled to being treated right, to be loved, to be talked to right, and to experience AGAPE love. You’re so awesome!!

Thank you for giving me a new view on life. So many times we get caught up in the mundane ways of life & we fail to realize you have all power in your hands. We often give the devil credit not due to him. If we think about Job, father you gave the devil permission to test Job. Father as soon as we realize that you have to give the devil permission and that if we yet hold on to your will, your way, & your way we will win every time.

When in the face of adversity we have hope because you live in us & are always with us. I just bask in your glory. I love you more today than I did yesterday. The more I attend my church and hear your word brought to me in such a way, “I really get it”. I understand that the reason I am still his is because of the purpose you placed on the inside of me & not anything I did to earn it. I know you have placed great gifts inside of me & I know whatever you started in me you will see through to the end. I’m standing on your word father.. Thank you for loving me in spite of myself. I love you & I need you. No other help I know!! Lord, I’m meditating on Hebrew 11 today.

Hebrews 11
Faith in What We Don't See
1-2The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It's our handle on what we can't see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd.
3By faith, we see the world called into existence by God's word, what we see created by what we don't see.
4By an act of faith, Abel brought a better sacrifice to God than Cain. It was what he believed, not what he brought, that made the difference. That's what God noticed and approved as righteous. After all these centuries, that belief continues to catch our notice.
5-6By an act of faith, Enoch skipped death completely. "They looked all over and couldn't find him because God had taken him." We know on the basis of reliable testimony that before he was taken "he pleased God." It's impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him.
7By faith, Noah built a ship in the middle of dry land. He was warned about something he couldn't see, and acted on what he was told. The result? His family was saved. His act of faith drew a sharp line between the evil of the unbelieving world and the rightness of the believing world. As a result, Noah became intimate with God.
8-10By an act of faith, Abraham said yes to God's call to travel to an unknown place that would become his home. When he left he had no idea where he was going. By an act of faith he lived in the country promised him, lived as a stranger camping in tents. Isaac and Jacob did the same, living under the same promise. Abraham did it by keeping his eye on an unseen city with real, eternal foundations—the City designed and built by God.
11-12By faith, barren Sarah was able to become pregnant, old woman as she was at the time, because she believed the One who made a promise would do what he said. That's how it happened that from one man's dead and shriveled loins there are now people numbering into the millions.
13-16Each one of these people of faith died not yet having in hand what was promised, but still believing. How did they do it? They saw it way off in the distance, waved their greeting, and accepted the fact that they were transients in this world. People who live this way make it plain that they are looking for their true home. If they were homesick for the old country, they could have gone back any time they wanted. But they were after a far better country than that—heaven country. You can see why God is so proud of them, and has a City waiting for them.
17-19By faith, Abraham, at the time of testing, offered Isaac back to God. Acting in faith, he was as ready to return the promised son, his only son, as he had been to receive him—and this after he had already been told, "Your descendants shall come from Isaac." Abraham figured that if God wanted to, he could raise the dead. In a sense, that's what happened when he received Isaac back, alive from off the altar.
20By an act of faith, Isaac reached into the future as he blessed Jacob and Esau.
21By an act of faith, Jacob on his deathbed blessed each of Joseph's sons in turn, blessing them with God's blessing, not his own—as he bowed worshipfully upon his staff.
22By an act of faith, Joseph, while dying, prophesied the exodus of Israel, and made arrangements for his own burial.
23By an act of faith, Moses' parents hid him away for three months after his birth. They saw the child's beauty, and they braved the king's decree.
24-28By faith, Moses, when grown, refused the privileges of the Egyptian royal house. He chose a hard life with God's people rather than an opportunistic soft life of sin with the oppressors. He valued suffering in the Messiah's camp far greater than Egyptian wealth because he was looking ahead, anticipating the payoff. By an act of faith, he turned his heel on Egypt, indifferent to the king's blind rage. He had his eye on the One no eye can see, and kept right on going. By an act of faith, he kept the Passover Feast and sprinkled Passover blood on each house so that the destroyer of the firstborn wouldn't touch them.
29By an act of faith, Israel walked through the Red Sea on dry ground. The Egyptians tried it and drowned.
30By faith, the Israelites marched around the walls of Jericho for seven days, and the walls fell flat.
31By an act of faith, Rahab, the Jericho harlot, welcomed the spies and escaped the destruction that came on those who refused to trust God.
32-38I could go on and on, but I've run out of time. There are so many more— Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel, the prophets....Through acts of faith, they toppled kingdoms, made justice work, took the promises for themselves. They were protected from lions, fires, and sword thrusts, turned disadvantage to advantage, won battles, routed alien armies. Women received their loved ones back from the dead. There were those who, under torture, refused to give in and go free, preferring something better: resurrection. Others braved abuse and whips, and, yes, chains and dungeons. We have stories of those who were stoned, sawed in two, murdered in cold blood; stories of vagrants wandering the earth in animal skins, homeless, friendless, powerless—the world didn't deserve them!—making their way as best they could on the cruel edges of the world.
39-40Not one of these people, even though their lives of faith were exemplary, got their hands on what was promised. God had a better plan for us: that their faith and our faith would come together to make one completed whole, their lives of faith not complete apart from ours.
Hebrews 11 (The Message)

http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hebrews%2011;&version=65;

Hell is REAL

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sat, 19 Jan 2008 10:56:00 -0600

It's amazing to me how many people live their lives with no regard for eternity. I watched Bill Weise's 23 minutes in hell & could relate.

I've exprienced something similar but not as deep as his. 2008 is another year to get it right. I don't want to waste this year on ignorance. I challenge you to get out and get involved make a difference and stop taking up space sensely.

Waiting on God

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Wed, 9 Jan 2008 14:10:00 -0600

As a single woman one often ponders the question When? When God shall it be my turn? When will I have my happily ever after? When can I experience the joy of forever in love.
I feel once one becomes whole. Sure we profess to be complete but are we truly? I've never been patient or understanding in this area. After recieving a word I'm hopeful. I know what God has prepared for me will be like no other I have had before.

It seems in my past 3-4 years each man that has come into my life has had one more thing I wanted or was a portion of what the previous one needed. One was everything externally I wanted but had no substance. The others had everything almost internally and the external was something to be desired. I wonder what i will end up with? I know I have given my wish list: Handsome, Saved & Holy Ghost filled, a tither/giver, Faithful to the word of God, Unselfish, Compassionate, Quick-witted, Hilarious, Passionate, Great with Children, A Great Provider, Financially Stable, Emotionally Stable, Interesting, Open-minded, Educated, A great Communicator, someone who will be there throughout lifes changes...someone who will care for me if I were ill, someone who will be there when my parents pass to console me and understand, someone who was created for ME!! 12/27/07 It was prophesied that my Husband a true Man of God is on the way..I receive it in Jesus Mighty Name!! Me a first lady...WOW!!

The Olive Tree

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Thu, 13 Dec 2007 19:27:00 -0600

I am committed to submitting my life to learning and understandingGod's word and as a result he is pouring "a deeper knowledge andunderstanding of his word" into my spirit. I am still reading the bookof Ruth (Chapter 1: 16)16 But Ruth replied, "Don't urge me to leave you or to turn back fromyou. Where you go I will go, and where you stay I will stay.After reading this verse, God led me to the book of Psalms regardinggrowing in his word. Psalms 52 8 But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love for ever and ever. 9 I will praise you forever for what you have done; in your name I will hope, for your name is good. I will praise you in the presence of your saints. God led me to look up the characteristics of an Olive Tree and this iswhat I found.Even though olives grow rather slowly, young olive trees put on heightfairly quickly so training should begin early. Olive trees are veryflexible and can be shaped in many ways. Olive trees prefer deep richsoil, but will grow in a variety of soils, including alkaline and rockysoil. They are drought resistant once established, but do need regular,moderate irrigations.Comparison to the Word of GodOlive trees grow rather slowly (Jesus did not begin his earthlyministry until the age of 30) Young olive trees put on height fairly quickly so training should beginrather quickly. (Train a child in the way that he should go and when heis old, he will never depart from it) Olive trees are very flexible and can be shaped in many ways (If weinvite God into our lives, he will shape us in many ways raising us upto be servants and minister to the needs of his people) Olive trees prefer deep rich soil ,but will grow in a variety of soilsincluding alkaline and rocky soil Matthew 13.The one who received the seed that fell on rocky places is the man whohears the word and at once receives it with joy. But since he has noroot, he lasts only a short time. When trouble or persecution comesbecause of the word, he quickly falls away. The Olive Tree prefers deep rich soil, but it will grow in rocky soil.In order to truly grow in the knowledge and understanding of God'sword, we need to be planted in his word meditating on it day and nightso that the word does not leave our heart. We think that we are growingin rocky soil, but we are hearing it and only receiving it with joyonce!But the one who received the seed that fell on good soil is the man whohears the word and understands it. He produces a crop, yielding ahundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown."They are drought resistant once established.Once established, we are resistant to the devils schemes; we recognizeit and we are able to stand up under it because God’s word allows usto. (1 Corinthians 10:13No temptation has seized you except what iscommon to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be temptedbeyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also providea way out so that you can stand up under it.) But but do need regular, moderate irrigations.Joshua 1:8Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on itday and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written init. Then you will be prosperous and successful Deuteronomy 4 Only be careful, and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forgetthe things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart as longas you live.Proverbs 4:23Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Additional characteristics of an Olive treeLikes to be well-watered. (God’s word)Likes frequent fertilization, which promotes vigorous growth. (God’sword)Olive trees can be exceptionally long-lived, up to several centuries,and can remain productive for as long, provided they are prunedcorrectly and regularly.The olive tree grows very slowly, but over many years the trunk canattain a considerable diameter.The olive tree, symbol of abundance, glory and peace!The oil of its fruit has anointed the noblest of heads throughouthistory. Olive crowns and olive branches, emblems of benediction andpurification!God gave me this word last night as I was meditating on his word. Hegave it to me as clear as day! I hope you receive the same blessing thatI did when I read it. We are OLIVE TREES! Thank you Lord!TT

By my BEST Friend in the Whole-WIDE-World!!

Race Relations

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Thu, 29 Nov 2007 21:03:00 -0600

How many more black on black crimes must happen before the African American race gets it together. Stop blaming others for the greed, ignorance, laziness, lack of drive and motivation. Parents it is your responsibility to instill the right values and morals in your children. Raise them as God commands you too stop allowing things that are wrong.

So many rich & famous athletes are dying but why? So many rich celebrities are dying why? It's time to take the blinders off!! Life is not promised to any of us and the only thing guaranteed is that one day we will all DIE!!

Mentor a child who is lost or wayward. Stop saying it's not your kid or your problem because if you are ever faced with the wayward child in a violent manner...wouldn't you want to rationalize and talk them out of harming you??

We as a race have allowed money & sex to overshadow hope, unity, peace, education, and divine purpose. I'm sure you have read the email that states: "If you want to hide something from blacks put it in a book"...ahhhhhh yep. Technology is too great for the African American race to not be empowered, educated, and living the dreams Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., Rosa Parks, Coretta Scott King, Johnny Cochran, and so many others fought and died for. What's your excuse?

It's time we wake up & stop enslaving ourselves with debt, apartments & no homes, luxury vehicles in front of rented property, come on people REALLY!!

If children can learn all the lyrics to songs, all the latest dances, and wear all the latest fashions then why not own the radio stations, production companies, etc??

Leave a legacy not a bunch of EXCUSES!!

As I Am

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sat, 24 Nov 2007 03:41:00 -0600

Happy Holidays!

Thanksgiving was the greatest not one family squabble. Perhaps we finally realize the true reason for the season. Nope we know that life is short & have so many things to be thankful for. The food was great & I only had one helping. I lost 15lbs so I can't revert back.

Looking forward to Christmas the 2 days off will be well used. I'm sticking to my budget this year no over doing it!!!
I have a new attitude & its Gratitude so I will be helping a family in need. Giving is such a part of my daily life so sharing for the holidays is easy.

I'm wiling to invest in the lives of the unfortunate because most people appreciate you. I have given so much to people who didn't want what I had to give or didn't appreciate or value me. This has brought me to a new chapter in my life. I am faced with some issues I have to deal with. Love is so interesting it can take u up or down make you smile or frown. This time I charter the uncharted in hopes of being found in my forever. I thought I had found it but when you receive little or no return on your investment whats left?

All roads to everlasting lead to & from God!!

God Bless!!!

Thanksgiving

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Mon, 19 Nov 2007 17:56:00 -0600

What R u most Thankful for?
What will you do to show your thanksgiving towards others?
What does Thanksgiving really mean to you?

I have to answer these questions myself because how can I ask others and not be at liberty myself?
I'm thankful for my ever growing relationship with GOD. He is growing me in places I didn't know I needed growing and showing me FAVOR!!
I'm thankful for the ability to see the world through eyes that work, feel the cool winter breeze on my face, the ability to freely move my limbs, the fact that I have a job, the means to take care of my family, and last but definitely not least my family!! Especially, my girls they are each unique and challenge me to new levels. i encourage them to not be like me but stand on my shoulders and be better than me.

I will be giving of my finances this year to help feed the various homeless souls this year. I wanted to work at the soup kitchen but I don't how I can. My attitude is Gratitude and I will give freely of my money because god has given freely to me a job, a home, and I owe it to him to do something.

Thanksgiving means a time to visit with family, laugh and joke, tell tales of our childhood, and create new memories!!

RU GRO N OR HOLD N?

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Thu, 15 Nov 2007 22:59:00 -0600

Life challenges me to change daily, to break out of my shell and meet new people.
It's not always easy to strike up a conversation with a perfect stranger...but I believe in my father and I may be entertaining angels here on earth.

Today was a pivotal day for me because a friend was going through a major crisis actually two friends. However, i realized it could have been me or my family and in a sense it really is. I have grown today and realize that it's not all about me. On the commute home from work I told God no matter what I will serve him wholeheartedly for his purpose and cause. I took the focus off of me and placed it on the needs of Gods people. I have a gift from God to encourage, listen and to motivate!! I love people and it fulfills me to help others.

It's amazing how wonderful it feels to give the word of God to a struggling sister or brother and realize it's by Gods grace that we are even here. I'm still hanging on to my attitude of GRATITUDE!!I love God and I'm so thankful for our new relationship. Sure there will be test but I trust the LORD and his plans for me.

I want more of his FACE not just his Hands. He's so sweet willing to take me back time after time, disappointment after disappointment but yet he is right there with open arms. I'm so grateful and willing to worship him and praise him from all ends of the earth because he is WORTHY 2 B praised. My commitment is LIFE/Death I can't live without him and I give up trying to do things my way because it's not fruitful.

I'm through with the temporary and I'm on to the eternal..the forever relationship with him, the forever happiness, and forever love. Sure there will be trials and tribulations as long as there is an earth but I decree and declare VICTORY in Jesus Mighty Name, Amen!!

Loveletter 2 my father

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Wed, 14 Nov 2007 16:55:00 -0600

Father,

It's me your daughter. I delight in your presence and conversations. Everyday I look forward to waking up to your beautiful world. I hear the birds chirping and the sun is dancing across my face. I wake up in a spirit of praise. Thank you father for loving me inspite of my faults & flaws.

I listen to the news and hear about all the calamity in the world and instead of getting down ad depressed I smile. I know you are still on the throne and are in control of it all. I found out a miracleous thing....you allow things good & bad no matter what. I'm secure in knowing that what you started in me you will see it through till the end.

I am confident that your faithful to do what you say & that since you are not a man and cannot lie, I'm so thankful. Praise & Glory to your mighty name.

I love you Daddy..Abba..my Father!!

Is he your father??

EASY, Guaranteed, Simple

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sun, 11 Nov 2007 14:43:00 -0600

These are merely the main ways I can explain how faith can grow. I say it is easy meaning that reading the word is very easy. You have to grasp it slowly, meditate on it, and seek God's guidane to allow for faith o grow.

Guaranteed--because God is not a man that he can lie. It's so comforting to know that he will never leave me nor forsake me. I trust taht inspite of my faults & flaws he still loves me unconditionally.

Simple because as soon as you realize that intelligence comes from meditation and pure worship on a level that is attainable and ever evolving.

What are you really willing to try today?

IPHONE OR NOT???

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Thu, 8 Nov 2007 01:53:00 -0600

The most publicized cell phone in the history of cell phones but yet it still leaves something to be desired. One of the biggest problems I have found is the inability to text photos. Now you may only email them. The other issue I'm having is you can't record video period. Battery life is yet another issue but I have found that if you adjust the amount of time you spend using the features you bought the phone for the battery will last a little longer!!

Okay, it wouldn't be fair if I didn't hit the highlights of why i didn't return the phone. I love the IPOD and the ability to download podcast, listen to my music, and the wonderful map icon, and the digital camera is actually very NICE!! One catch you must have adequate lighting otherwise you won't have a quality picture.

Oh, last 2 snags if your phone is lost or stolen oh well you will have to purchase a new one & since they are such a HOT item be careful! Not enough free ringtones or wallpapers. Sure you can buy & create your own ringtone, video, tv show, or movie but no wallpapers. I'm actually working on some designs for the IPHONE wallpaper & hopefully I can get noticed. Not every adult wants some inappropriately dressed person on the wallpaper or the sky. GIVE ME OPTIONS!!

Do You have an IPHONE can you list more positives or negatives??

I bought mine when it was cheaper than the original price!! (Hey it's a positive)!!

I'M A SURVIVOR

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Tue, 6 Nov 2007 22:06:00 -0600

SURVIVOR!!

WOW!! Let me share some inspiration with you!!
Tonight I attended bible study at the best church in the world!! We have one of the most annointed pastors in the whole wide world!! Trust me I'm not kidding better yet come visit or order a cd or a series!! It will blow your mind!

This is what I gained from the overall message & I want to share it with you. The only original things will be scripture that he gave us the rest is conclusions I've come to based on the message!!

I know many people are desiring to get married, become debt free, start a business, or whatever. But my question comes to you as: "What are you doing about it?" I know myself Nursing school is a large goal for me and I know that is my divine calling from GOD! But I am nine hours away from obtaining my Bachelors Degree in Psychology a degree I probably will never use. Ok, education is education and once you have it no one can take it away from you right!!

Even still I committed to completing this degree so I am but plan to turn right around and head to Nursing School. No matter how much money I have made it's not been 100% fulfilling. I'm not ungrateful by any means I thank GOD for my job. But what a waste it would be to live life on earth and not fulfill your GOD given purpose. The very thing he placed inside of you? The very reason you were born??

I've never been so on fire for GOD desiring to learn. To be truly educated in his word & to know him intimately. Sure I'm human & I joke around & do things I know I shouldn't do but aren't we all struggling in some area of our life?

I have this issue with patience...I hate to wait, I want it when I want it & that is usually right now. But tonight Pastor Van embarked on Patience, Perserverance, Compassion, Perspective, Surrender, Agenda, & Fear! Let me give you the scripture references as well:Job 14:14, Romans 5:3, Psalms 23:1-3, Galatians 6:2, Hebrews 10:25, Psalms 139:1, Psalms 17:1, & last but not least Romans 15:4!

Wouldn't it be nice to receive all of GODS promises? Have you ever noticed how all the people GOD used in the bible were flawed...so if he could use them I KNOW HE CAN USE ME!

Let me give you two last things: Developing FILM is a lot like Christians & GOD. Film developing starts out with the NEGATIVE, then the COLOR, and then the Development is COMPLETE you have the picture! Without trials & tribulations we would not appreciate the good times.

Lastly in the words of the GREATEST Pastor in the WORLD, Pastor Van...TAKE YOUR HANDS OFF(put your agenda aside) & see what GOD truly wants you to do!

Have you ever noticed those peg puzzles no matter how you try to force it a square peg will never go in a round hole. A man/woman without trials & tribulations will never have a testimony!!

Be Blessed & Come Back Often!!

Just a little HUMOR

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Tue, 6 Nov 2007 00:30:00 -0600

It’s NO ONE who can ever keep me down because I BELIEVE I CAN FLY not on drugs but on life I can’t let you go HALF ON A BABY with me because I need more than a PROMISE I need forever! I can’t handle you being UNFAITHFUL because you want to BUY HER A DRANK because she knows how to get LOW. I’m simply IRREPLACEABLE I thought you knew. Baby since you can’t keep in between JUST ME & YOU, I’d rather be Just Friends! So what you you’re a BALLER I put in work & GET MY OWN MONEY I don’t need you to PAY MY BILLS, because I don’t want you to CALL ME NO MO OR TEXT ME NO MO!! WHAT YOU KNOW ABOUT THAT? So JUST CHILL & wish you could BE MY MAN….but I first need to TEACH U HOW TO LOVE!!

R u MY MAN????

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Tue, 6 Nov 2007 00:30:00 -0600

Good looks will only get you so far!! A man without substance is like a car with no engine, a plane with no wings, or a train with no tracks he’s going nowhere FAST!! I LOVE an INTELLIGENT MAN someone who can speak his mind and doesn’t back down from what he believes, someone who is confident but not arrogant, someone who is FAithFUL & CommittED to GOD because if he isn’t how can he EVER be FAITHfully COmmitteD 2 ME? Someone who walks in a room and commands everyones attention not by yelling or causing a scene but just his aura is so thick you can’t help be see him glide across the room!! Someone who is well versed in his history, his culture, himself, easily able to separate work from family, love from lust, and sex from making love!! Someone who is quick witted, yet mild tempered, someone who can get on ALL levels and hold his own!! Someone who is financially stable a great provider one who can handle his money and his time!! One who can appreciate my independence and not be intimidated by my drive but willing to support, encourage, and be right by my side!! A great COMMUNICATOR an HONEST man after Gods own heart & MINE!! WHO IS HE….MY ADAM the MAN God created just 4 ME!!! No I haven’t met him yet but:!: aWhoso findeth a bwife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD. (Proverbs 18:22)

TRUTH

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Tue, 30 Oct 2007 03:12:00 -0500

Truth--may not always be a fact but a relevant truth!! Y is it so hard to look in the mirror and see who you truly are? Be real to yourself & accept your flaws, imperfections, and mistakes...learn from them , grow from them, & challenge someone to be true to thine own self daily!!

Integrity--of good moral character!! Who are you when no one else is looking?

Relationships are a two way streets often divided, curves, and misdirections but with true love & integrity it can be whatever you 2 make it be!!

LET UR HATA'S MOTIVATE U 2 XCELLENCE!!

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 17:19:00 -0500

All to often people want to use the crab mentality and keep you down. Stop allowing others to have control over your life. You set the tone & no one can do anything you don't allow! Time is over for feeling sorry for your self. Shake that dirt off your shoulders & get on about your business.

Someone will always be prettier--but she will never be you!

Someone will always be thinner--but she will never be you!

Someone will always be smarter--but she will never be you!

Someone will always have more money--but she will Never BE you!

Take the T off of Can't and put a spin on things because you CAN do whatever you so choose!!

Whatever has already happened is just that already a part of your past that you can never change. So learn from your mistakes but be a little smarter learn from others mistakes and thrive for success. You define it not your family, friends, or externals but YOU!!

Stop coveting other peoples lives because no one has it perfect & things aren't always what they appear to be.

Dream bigger, pray harder, smile bigger, and refuse to give up!!!

2ND2NONE

ndpndntlove@gmail.com (Unknown) — Thu, 18 Oct 2007 20:11:00 -0500

Can I speak to you for a moment...the intimacy between you & I is unreal...tempted to try things i never have before!!If I could venture into the unknown would you go with me? Take me to the your galaxy allow me to roam free. How eventful this could be. Moving the earth with the most frequent vibration leading to a great explosion. Can you guess what it is???It's a toss between an earthquake or a volcano!!

Get ur mind out of the gutter!!