Letters To Mama

Gout to be believe in magic

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Thu, 06 Aug 2026 12:41:49 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's gout season again, or at least in our house. Ralph and Edgar are both having their bouts with gout, Mama. Ralph's was just early this week, and Edgar's started today. Ralph is getting better, Mama. Unfortunately, Edgar's is a bit painful as I see it. He's having difficulty walking, Mama. And in my mind I'm singing 'Gout to believe in magic."

I'm just trying to be funny, Mama. But deep inside I'm worried. This gout seems to be a traitor. It strikes when you least expect it. I wish there was a way for them to be fully healed from their gout, Mama. I had my bout with gout long time ago, when you were still with us. It lasted for about 2 days, then it disappeared. I had some minor attacks, but never was as painful as Ralph's and Edgar's. And I never had it again for a long time, Mama.

It's Angel's last day of her 2-days day off, Mama. She'll get back to work tomorrow. I think she's sleeping now, and also Edgar. Ralph is resting and will be getting ready in a while. We already had our dinner, Mama.

It's still raining, and there's a typhoon. I just read now in Facebook that face-to-face classes in Angeles City are suspended tomorrow because of the inclement weather. I hope everything will be fine.

I guess that's all for now, Mama. I wish I can dream of you tonight.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Another rainy evening

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sun, 02 Aug 2026 12:10:08 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's another rainy Sunday evening. It's already rainy season indeed. Angel is already at work, Mama. Although she hasn't confirmed yet. She left earlier via Grab car, but she often cannot send a message immediately because she needs to log in and settle down. This usually takes time, Mama, unfortunately. Because they only have one elevator and there are many users. She would usually send a message later during her break when she gets caught up.

We already had our dinner, Mama. We were supposed to go to the wake tonight, Ralph and I. But I don't feel well. I got rained on this afternoon while I was taking the laundry from the clothesline because it rained suddenly. I already took medicine, Mama. I cannot be absent from work tomorrow because it's a Monday and I would need a medical certificate if I called in sick.

That's all for tonight, Mama.

I wish you were. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Rainy Friday evening

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 31 Jul 2026 12:16:17 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's a rainy Friday evening, Angel just arrived at work. It's already 8 p.m., she left at 7 p.m. earlier. What used to be just a 20-minute travel took almost an hour because of the traffic caused by the rain, Mama. We just had our dinner. I hope Ralph will leave earlier tonight to avoid the traffic.

We went out last night for dinner, Mama. Since, Angel has work on Saturday and Sunday, Ralph decided we should take our family time last night, since it was Angel's day off.

All our children are okay now, Mama. Although Edgar and Angel are under medications. Angel has antibiotics prescribed again to her. Her total medicines reached 2k, Mama. It was another unexpected expense. I'm praying they will be healthy soon.

That's all for tonight, Mama. I wish I can hug you right now.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Bingo!

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Wed, 29 Jul 2026 09:39:44 +0000

Dear Mama,

It happened. Angel is sick. She was already not feeling well yesterday, but she said she can manage and she was taking paracetamol. She went home from work this morning sick, Mama. She was supposed to go the clinic today for her photo light therapy session for her skin condition, but she did not go because of her fever. The only good thing right now is today is her day off until tomorrow. So, she will have time to rest, Mama. I hope she gets better. I'm sorry, Mama.

Edgar is okay now. At least he is saying he is okay. He is preparing our dinner now. Angel requested for a soup for dinner, Mama. Ralph is okay, although I'm worried about his cough, Mama. I'm telling him to go visit his doctor to consult his cough.

As for me, I don't know if I am sick or it's just age catching up with me, Mama. But I'm feeling cold right now. I feel cold almost every night, Mama. It's been raining every late afternoon and evening these past days. Sometimes, I am rained on when I go home from work.

Also, I'm still not getting much streams for my songs in Spotify. I guess I'm not really cut for it. Sorry, I have wasted money for producing and releasing my songs.

That's all for now, Mama. Please make Angel well.

I wish you were here.

Daddy

I'm sorry, our son is sick again

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 27 Jul 2026 13:05:54 +0000

Dear Mama,

I'm sorry. Edgar is sick again. He came home this afternoon saying he has a headache, so I told him to rest and I'll just buy food for our dinner, Mama. While he was resting, Angel took his temperature and he has fever, Mama. He was not able to eat properly when we were having our dinner. He already took medicines. He won't be working tomorrow. I'm really sorry, Mama.

Ralph is getting ready to work now. He was absent last Friday because of flu. I hope he won't be sick again. Angel is already at work, Mama. She left past 7 p.m. earlier. It's 9 p.m. now.

I'm sorry about Edgar, Mama. Please help me make him well.

Daddy

Lazy Sunday afternoon

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sun, 26 Jul 2026 08:25:24 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's a lazy Sunday afternoon. We had a late lunch because Edgar fell asleep, which is just okay since it's a Sunday. Just finished taking a bath and I was planning to go out, but I got lazy so I didn't.

Ralph seems to be okay now, Mama. Although he's still taking medicines. Angel also takes paracetamol because she felt she'll also feeling a little bit feverish, Mama. I think it's the weather. I am also not really feeling well, but I just have to ignore it because tomorrow's Monday. I cannot be absent, lest I will be required to submit a medical certificate, even if it's just a one day sick leave.

That's all for today, Mama. Just updating you on our children. I might take a nap, too. I feel sleepy, but I had to wait for my hair to get dry because I don't to get blind hahaha...

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

It's Ralph's turn

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 24 Jul 2026 12:30:36 +0000

Dear Mama,

We just had our dinner. Angel is already at her work. She left earlier before we had our dinner, Mama. It's their graduation from the training, and next week she'll be in the production. So far, she's enjoying, Mama. She just has some complains with superiors but I hope she'll learn to adapt, or at least knows how to handle it, so she could stay longer, Mama.

It's now Ralph who is sick. I'm really sorry, Mama. I don't know what happened to him. He was okay when he left for work last night. I just saw him when I came home this afternoon. He already took medicine, Mama. At first he wanted to go to work tonight. I had to convince him to take the day off, because I don't think he can work in the condition he is in, Mama. I had to be mad at him, though. I had to be angry before he would listen. He messaged his office while we were having dinner earlier, Mama. He is now resting in his room.

I'm really sorry, Mama. I cannot take good care of our children. They would have been better off if... I'm sorry.

Daddy

Edgar is sick again

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Wed, 22 Jul 2026 11:32:41 +0000

Dear Mama,

Angel just left for work. I booked her a Grab car and she's on her way now, Mama. We already had our dinner, although it's McDonalds delivery for now. Ralph is resting, he'll get ready by 9 p.m.

Edgar is sick, Mama. He has fever. He came home from work sick. Although, he already messaged us that he was sick while he was on his way home. Which is why we had food delivery for our dinner tonight.

I'm sorry, Mama. I don't know what made Edgar sick again this time. He was okay last night, and when he left for work this morning. I'm praying he'll feel well soon. Although I advised him to rest tomorrow.

That's all for now, Mama. I really sorry.

Daddy

Angel's treat last night

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 20 Jul 2026 12:11:25 +0000

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, Sunday, we went out to eat for our family day. It was Angel's treat, Mama. We were supposed to go to a buffet restaurant in Clark, unfortunately, it was full. Our fault, we did not bother to check and ask for reservation. So, we walked around the Clark Parade Ground. Most of the restaurant there are a bit expensive, Mama. We checked one which was within Angel's budget. It wasn't exactly fine dining, but it's pricey, although still within our baby's budget, Mama. We had our fill, and I was satisfied.

After dinner, we walked around the Clark Parade Ground again to see if there was a night market, which fortunately, there was. We just looked around. I almost bought another Hot Wheels car, Mama. Good thing I was able to restrain myself. Ralph bought a Pokemon stuffed toy, while Angel bought some postcards, Mama.

Then we went to a coffee shop for some drinks, Mama. The coffee shop we went to was quite big, Mama. It has three floors! And it was very cold, I almost fell asleep. We went home past 9 p.m., and we immediately rest upon reaching home.

By the way, Angel is already at work now, Mama. We already had our dinner, and Ralph will be preparing for work in a while.

That's all for tonight, Mama. I miss you so much, especially when we're going out like last night.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

Had a great time at my gig last night

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sat, 18 Jul 2026 22:50:56 +0000

Dear Mama,

I had a great time at my gig last night. It was not perfect, but I had a great time, Mama. I had a very receptive and appreciative audience. And I think I'm funny hahaha.... I had some bloopers - wrong chords, wrong words, bad punchline deliveries, and the like, but it didn't matter to me, Mama. I was having fun.

It was a bit exhausting, though. I played for 1 hour and 30 minutes straight! I had an option to offer open mike to people who wanted to sing, but I did not opt to it because I might not be able to accompany them. Beside, I should be the star of the show haha... Kidding, it's the first reason, really.

I was more confident last night compared to my previous gig there, Mama. Angel noticed it, too. Perhaps because the weather was okay. And I had some young people telling me after the show, "Ang galing n'yo po!" That felt great, Mama.

It was far from perfect, but I had a great time. I hope I made you proud, Mama. Wish you were there watching me.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Friday night again

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 17 Jul 2026 13:38:16 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's Friday night again. I'm waiting for Ralph, he is preparing to leave for work, Mama. Angel already left earlier. Edgar just arrived home a few minutes ago.

I just finished practicing for my gig tomorrow, Mama. I'm praying I will do well and I will not encounter any technical issues like last time. I'll wear a new t-shirt design for my Roy2dworld logo, Mama. I'm excited, although still a bit nervous.

That's all for now, Mama. Please pray for me.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Feeling overwhelmed right now

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Wed, 15 Jul 2026 09:08:23 +0000

Dear Mama,

I am feeling overwhelmed right now. I don't know if it's really overwhelmed, or just another episode of anxiety, or I am overwhelmed with anxiety. I don't know what I feel right now, Mama. But I know I am not okay.

I have a busking gig on Saturday at the Museo Ning Angeles again, Mama. The place where I had a lot of bloopers last May. I'll be back there this Saturday, and I am afraid I'll have the same experience again. I don't know why I said yes, but Angel was pushing me, Mama. I had problem with the spotlight then. I cannot see the markings on my guitar fret that's why I was playing wrong chords in some of the songs. I also had problem with my audio. It was weak, not clear, and I think it was grounded because I was having some crackling sounds. Because of that, my confidence was affected and I struggled throughout my set. I'm not so sure about this Saturday. I also need a new set and a script.

There's a new puppy in our garage, Mama. I heard it crying in front of our gate around 4:30 a.m. today. I thought it was one of the kittens. I fed it, and it went inside the garage. Because I was afraid it might hurt the kittens, I put it back outside, Mama. But it didn't leave and it didn't stop crying. Until it was able to forced itself through one of the grills, Mama. Now, I don't know what to do it. There's a tiny kitten that seems to be afraid of the puppy. The puppy wanted to play but the kitten was so small, Mama. The tiny kitten is also new here, it just appeared in front of gate last week. Somebody must have dropped it there.

These, and a lot of other things, Mama. I don't know. I need to practice for my set this Saturday. But I cannot focus because of this anxiety. I don't know what to do, Mama.

I wish you were here.

Daddy

Monday fever

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 13 Jul 2026 12:23:04 +0000

Dear Mama,

I got rained on earlier when I was going home. It was just a drizzle, Mama. After a while, I felt cold while I was resting. I felt I had fever, Mama. I took paracetamol. I feel better now. I think.

Angel is already at work, Mama. Ralph is still sleeping. I will wake him up later so he can prepare for work. We already had our dinner, Mama. I feel sleepy now, but I had to wait until Ralph leaves for work.

That will be all for now, Mama. I really don't have anything much to say.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Rainy Friday night

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 10 Jul 2026 11:25:29 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's a rainy Friday night. It's past 7 p.m. and Angel is on her way to work, Mama. I just booked her Grab car, and she's on her way now. The rain started as she was about to get into the car. I hope they'll have a smooth travel, Mama. Although traffic is expected because it's Friday and it's raining. I'm monitoring her through my app, Mama.

Ralph is also getting ready for work. He said he's going to leave early tonight, and he won't be having dinner here. Edgar is still not here, Mama. He and his officemate went out for coffee night. So, once Ralph leaves, I'll be all alone here, Mama. Edgar won't be home until probably 10 p.m. the earliest.

It think the rain has stopped, Mama. Or it just rested. It's been on and off, Mama. I hope the cats and kitten in our garage our safe. I couldn't let them all in the house, Mama.

I already had my dinner earlier. I ordered tocilog from the apartment in front of us. I also ordered for Angel's lunch break later at work. I'm not sure if it's the app lagging or there's really traffic in Balibago right now, but the car in the tracker is not moving, Mama. It's seems they are already inside Clark.

That's all for now, Mama. I have to clean the cats' litter boxes.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Just another Monday

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 06 Jul 2026 12:22:57 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's just another Monday. Angel is already at work, it's 8 p.m. now. Ralph is getting ready for work, too. We already had our dinner, Mama. Not sure really what to write here.

Yesterday, we went to SM City Clark just to eat, Mama. Ralph attended an event after lunch and he met us at SM around 5 p.m. for the dinner, and afterwards we went straight home. We were not able to have coffee, which might have frustrated Angel because I felt she didn't want to go home. Although she immediately fell asleep as soon as we arrived home. She was actually already sleeping while we were still in the Grab car, Mama.

Anyway, I really do not know to say. But I wanted to talk to you, Mama. I wish I could.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Wednesday night

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Wed, 01 Jul 2026 12:28:05 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's Wednesday night, and we already had our dinner. Angel is already at work, Mama. She left at 7 p.m. earlier (it's 8:20 p.m. now) before we had our dinner. But Edgar was able to pack her 'lunch' for work, Mama. Ralph is resting now. I will wake him up later at 9 p.m.

I really don't have much to say now, Mama. Still grinding while dragging my whole existence. Also waiting for my songs in Spotify to be noticed. I'm still not getting much streams, Mama. I guess I just wasted my time and money.

I'm a bit sleepy now, Mama. But I have to fight it because I still have to wake Ralph up later.

Anyway, I guess that will be all for now, Mama.

I miss you.

I love you, Mama.

Daddy

Friday anxiety

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 26 Jun 2026 08:56:44 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's almost 5 p.m., I'll be waking Angel up in a while so she can prepare for work. Although I'm not sure if she's okay. Earlier she sent a message while I was work that she's not feeling well, Mama. She said she'll take a nap and see if she'll feel better later. I hope she is, so she can complete the whole week, Mama.

Edgar just arrived home from work. He is the one preparing the our dinner, as well as Angel's packed 'lunch' for work. Their lunch is around 11 p.m., though.

I'm having anxiety again, Mama. It's Friday, aside from Angel's condition I'm worried again about the restobar beside us. I hope there won't be any problem tonight.

I'll be reporting the house rent balance again by the end of month, Mama. I am worried because I have so many advances that I might not be able to pay off. Ate Let will get mad at me again. I got caught up again in expenses, Mama. And it seems worse this time. Angel has had a lot of check ups, laboratories, and consultations. Aside from other indulgences to make her feel better. I'm sorry, Mama. I thought things will get better for us financially. I might resort to lenders just to cover up for my advances, Mama.

I guess that'll be all for now. I'm sorry for the problems, Mama.

I wish you were here.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Father's Day celebration and my quarterly check up

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 22 Jun 2026 13:56:02 +0000

Dear Mama,

Yesterday, our children and I celebrated Father's Day. Well, sort of. We went to Marquee Mall yesterday, Mama. There wasn't really much too see there, except for a car show. What was interesting, Mama was that one of the cars there has a plate number NEM 9999, I forgot the numbers so I just wrote 9s here haha... But the letters spelled NEM, Mama! It was your nickname! It felt like you were with us yesterday :)

Then we had our dinner, which was of course courtesy of Ralph, Mama. There was too many pieces of chicken wings and potato rings that we had to take home what we can't finish, Mama. But it was delicious and we had our fill.

Afterwards, we went to Infinity, Mama because there was an event there and our grandchildren from our nephews was one of the stalls there. We bought drinks to support them. Edgar also bought me a ballcap from the stalls there, Mama. Then we went home, although Ralph had a hard time booking a Grab car. It took him almost 30 minutes, I think.

I did not work today. I took my birthday leave before it gets forfeited. It was supposed to be taken on birth month, but since there were too many holidays in May, I asked if I can take it in June, instead and it was approved. To make the day useful, I used my leave to visit my doctor this afternoon for my quarterly check up. Of course, I took my lab test results, Mama.

My doctor said my lab test results were okay, and my cholesterol level is ideal, not just within the safe range, but it is ideal said my doctor. Of course, I still have to continue maintenance medicines, and see him again after 3 months. Good thing my consultation of covered by my HMO, Mama.

Anyway, that will be all for now, Mama. I'm just waiting for Ralph to leave for work before I can go sleep, Mama.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Father's Day tomorrow

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sat, 20 Jun 2026 13:17:24 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's Saturday night, only Edgar and I are at home. Ralph attended another quiz night event, and Angel is out with her co-workers. She is better now, Mama. She has completed her antibiotics. Hopefully she won't get sick again. They are still on graveyard shift.

I got my lab results this morning, Mama. It's time again for my quarterly check up with my doctor. I will go to the doctor on Monday. I'm thankful my lab test results are okay, Mama. At least I think they're okay because they are all still within the safe range, Mama. Unless my doctor sees something that I don't know. I wish there'll be less medicines to take. I'm tired of these medications and check up, Mama.

Tomorrow is Father's Day again, Mama. After Christmas, it's my least favorite occasion because it reminds me of how big a failure I am as a father. I'm sorry, Mama.

Anyway, that's all for now. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Angel did not work tonight

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Tue, 16 Jun 2026 11:52:28 +0000

Dear Mama,

Angel did not work tonight. She's sleeping right now. We already had our dinner, Mama. Edgar just arrived home. He had dinner outside. Probably it's related to his financial advisor hustle. Ralph is also sleeping. I will wake him up at 9 p.m., Mama so, he can get ready for work.

Angel is still sick, Mama. That's why she did not work. It's better that she rest for now, instead of having an on-and-off fever. She'll take her antibiotic later at 10 p.m. Please make her well, Mama. She wanted to work, but her body needs to rest. I hope it won't affect her status in his company. She really wanted that job, Mama.

That's all for now, Mama. Please hold my hands. I need you, Mama.

I miss you.

I love you.

Daddy

Sunday update

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sun, 14 Jun 2026 12:28:20 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's another Sunday night, we just had our dinner. We did not go out today, Mama. We were supposed to, but Angel wasn't feeling well, so we just stayed at home. She's taking antibiotics again, Mama. Looks like her tonsils are again swelling which was causing her pain and fever. The antibiotics was prescribed by the doctor in their office, Mama. She was advised to see an EENT, which she did yesterday but the doctor was not around. She'll go back to the EENT next week, Mama.

We don't have work tomorrow, Mama. It's a local holiday in Pampanga because it's the anniversary of the Pinatubo eruption. Edgar will work, though. They'll be operating in skeletal force and he's one of those who were picked to work. Ralph and Angel will also work tomorrow, Mama because their companies are following U.S. holidays.

Nothing much is happening, Mama. It's June and it's time again for my quarterly check up with my doctor. It's getting tiresome, Mama. I am supposed to get my blood extraction again for the FBS and other laboratory tests that I need to bring to the doctor. I'm getting tired of this routine.

Anyway, that's all for now, Mama. I wish to see you soon. I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Update on Angel

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Wed, 10 Jun 2026 13:10:19 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's 9 p.m., Wednesday and Ralph is getting ready to go to work. Angel left earlier before 7 p.m., Mama. She's still not feeling well, but she's working because she can't afford to be absent since she's still a probationary and they are having their training, Mama. But she said she's feeling better when she left. Hopefully she'll really get well, Mama.

I'll be waiting for Ralph to leave for work before I rest, because I need to lock the house. But I am already sleepy, Mama. He'll be leaving around 10 p.m. So, I still have to wait for about an hour.

I really don't know what to say here. I just want to update you on Angel, Mama. Edgar is already in his room and resting. I guess, I should end my letter for now before I start whining again.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

Angel's first night shift

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Mon, 08 Jun 2026 23:08:03 +0000

Dear Mama,

I am already in the office now. Angel came home before Edgar and I left work today, Mama. She came from her first night shift duty. She wasn't feeling well, Mama. She was complaining about her throat and she has slight fever. Although, she said yesterday she was not feeling well during day but she said she was okay to work. She said she'll work again tonight, Mama.

I'm worried. Please make her well, Mama.

I'm sorry, I'm asking you again.

Daddy

Sunday night

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Sun, 07 Jun 2026 12:27:34 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's Sunday night, and we just had our dinner. Edgar cooked spaghetti for our dinner tonight, Mama. He also prepared salad to pair with the spaghetti. Both were delicious, Mama. He is really getting good in the kitchen.

It's back to work tomorrow again, and it's also the first day of school, Mama. I'm sure there'll be heavy traffic tomorrow. It's also Angel's first day on the graveyard shift, Mama. Although she'll be leaving earlier than Ralph. Her shift starts at 8 p.m. while Ralph's starts at 10 p.m.

I'm worried about my job security, Mama. I am not yet ready to retire. I don't have any savings, and I don't want to be a burden to our children. But I'm worried about our company. Our boss has been focusing too much on AI lately. I'm praying it won't jeopardize our job.

Anyway, that will be all for now, Mama. I might sleep early tonight. I hope I can see you in my dream.

I miss you, Mama.

I love you.

Daddy

It's Friday night again

noreply@blogger.com (Roy) — Fri, 05 Jun 2026 10:22:42 +0000

Dear Mama,

It's past 6 p.m. and Ralph just left. He left early today, Mama. His shift won't start until 10 p.m. He must be meeting some of his friends again. It's just Edgar and I at the house now. Angel won't be out until 7 p.m. and I'm not sure if she'll go home straight tonight. It's their last day of day shift, Mama.

It's Friday night again, and they will have singers at the grill house beside us, Mama. I hope that just like in previous weekends, they are not loud. I'm glad they did something to minimize the noise, Mama. Although I still hear them, and I have to control my anxiety because they are not as loud as the previous owners.

I've been having an on-and-off fever, Mama. I'm not even sure if I'm really sick or it's just psychological because of this anxiety I've been having every time I am at home.

I'm sorry, Mama. I wish you were here.

Daddy