Letters to Strangers.

2011-02-02T01:06:00.000-06:00

FEBRUARY IS A BITCH!

YOUHOE

2011-02-02T01:02:00.000-06:00

PAINLESS PAIN

Unwritten letter.

2011-01-26T00:15:00.002-06:00

I was browsing through my files today, and I found a file titled 'Unwritten Letter' that I wrote for my health class. Okay maybe you could call it 'Unsent Letter' :) I don't remember anything that I wrote and I don't want to know what I wrote. For the sake of embracing my past I'd like to share this with you guys. But remember this is like a year ago and I was heart broken and yes I was badly hurt. P.S: It's written in white. You know what to do. :P

Hi Zul,

It’s been a while since we talked. There are so many things that I wanted you to know and ask. Since the last day you called me and we end up fighting, what’s that all about? I’m not sure why. We never had a chance to talk about it and I never had the chance to speak for myself. Well, actually it was you who throw away that chance. It was you who decided for us to be like this. We only know each other for a few days and we never had the chance to get to know each other better. In that few days you showed that you loved me and said that you love me. You wrote me a song; you sang it to me, you always call me to check up on me when I didn’t text you. You made everything perfect. You made me feel special; feel that I’m lucky to have you in my life.

All the sudden, everything changes, you just leave me hanging on your words, your memories and your song. You started avoiding me. For one week I patiently wait and give you time for you to think. That day when we talk about our problem, I don’t understand when you said, “I’m not leaving you because I don’t love you.” you also said that we are “always friends,” but on that same day you still acting weird and you treat me as we didn’t know each other, like I’m a stranger to you. We didn’t talked like we used to and obviously you are avoiding me. It’s like there’s no point we talk about it that night. Even thought you know my view on guys and relationship. You made me opened my heart for you, and then you left me. I know that you are not ready for a relationship, so am I. I just want us to be friends.

Then two months passed by, out of nowhere you invited me to come to Nashville for my spring break so that we can hang out. You’re acting weird those two months. I don’t know what game you’re playing. You didn’t even come and visit me for your spring break and you expect that I would come. I don’t know what exactly that you want. Why do you act like this?

Just so you know, I’m doing great now and you don't owe me any explanation. I also don’t need you to be my stressor. I wish we never had known each other. Take care of your self.

Sincerely,

Syairah Kamaruddin

He was like a ghost; haunting me when I'm weak and fragile and vulnerable
and have no strength to fight back and wayyyy so into him.
I can guarantee you that won't happen again. At least before I'm married.

But, it's all good. I'm OVER IT!

Random question of the day;

Do you really think I wrote that letter? Do you seriously thought I had that kind of feeling in the 'DEEPEST PART OF MY HEART'?

JGL. SMF. JS. CMM.

2011-01-23T23:03:00.002-06:00

4 guys or should I say man

randomly pop out of my brain.

SEXY MAN

There should be more, but I don't feel like sharing.

Some faces that I would marry. :)

Random question of the day:

What would you rate your face, your body, and your personality? from scale 1 to 10.

St. Louis, MISSOURI.

2011-01-18T02:51:00.000-06:00

Dear strangers,

I had

FUN. fun. FuN!

Lunch: Panda Express.

We ordered Fried Rice, Chaw Mein, Broccoli Beef, Kung Pao Chicken and Beijing Beef.

Finish after- 10 min.

Walk by:

St. Louis Hard Rock.

Movie: The Green Hornet

I'm NOT even trying.

the STARE.

ICEE. FTW

swagga

I'm cooler than you.

creepy cira

shoelace of AWESOMENESS.

Last STOP: Cheese Cake Factory.

P/S: I do not like Cheese Cake.

Random question of the day:

Who's your BIATCH?

TUESDAY AFTERNOON

2011-01-11T17:41:00.002-06:00

Hi, Hey, Hello.

Today was pretty much boring typical day.

But SKYPE make it all better.

Today's HUMILIATION VICTIM is...

my high school friend,
TAUFIQ.
LOL :D

I hope I don't get in trouble posting this.

Trying to get him make GOOFY FACES.
1st TRIAL.

Awww man!

He says 'CHEESE...!!!'

MISSION ACCOMPLISH!
:D

<3<3<3

JUST FOR LAUGH, NO HEART FEELINGS.

Random question of the day:

Would you be a friendless loser or have a lot friends who secretly hates you?

H.A.I.R.C.U.T

2011-01-08T18:17:00.001-06:00

I've been bitching about my long hair since last year.
I hate it long, but sometimes I love it long.

I hate waiting for my hair to dry after I washed it.

So I've been wanting to cut it short. But I wasn't ready yet.

Since it's already 2011, so I thought that this is the right time to cut my hair, and I choose today.

I went there with my brother and my friend. I want this one messy choppy haircut.

But Ali, the girl working there doesn't agree with me. She said the haircut looks like 'somebody cut your hair while you're sleeping'. LOL

I really like it because it's messy and short.
I did have a second thought, but I just like it and I did go for it.

And now my hair is short, LIKE really short.

BEFORE

AFTER

So what do you think? Does it look different?

LARGER SIZE NOT ALWAYS BETTER

2011-01-06T16:42:00.000-06:00

So today I thought that maybe a large glass of Rose Water would be a good idea.

I WAS WRONG!

Can you even imagine how can I finish that one whole class.

I was worry if I'm going to explode if I chug the whole class.

But I tried it though, plus I got BRAIN FREZZEEEE!!

Anyway,

Do you really think that larger size is better?

NO WAY!

Some things are better small. It was a pain.

So have a nice a day. BYE!

TTYL. <3<3<3

Random question of the day:

What is the largest meal you ever had?

FOREVER POST

2011-01-06T04:41:00.001-06:00

Okay Hey, been busy. I know, sucks right? well what can I do.

I got weddings, families come and visit, hanging out. Maybe I should should take some time off. :)
I have a lot to share about my road trip.
I'll tell you guys later.

Okay BYE!

TAKE IT EASY. <3<3<3

Random question of the day:

When is the last time you wet your bed?

FREE AT LAST

2010-12-17T11:50:00.000-06:00

Ahhhhh... I'm free!

Even though I was supposed to finish my final on Monday

but my college decided to closed on that Monday

and reschedule Mondays' finals to today (Friday).

I'm still glad that finals are over. and semester has come to an end.

I need a break from books, not that I read them. LOL

Well I hope I didn't flunk my finals. I'm not gonna get straight A's that's for sure.

But I do hope I'm gonna at least pass all my classes. 'cross my finger.'

Actually I have nothing, nada, zero! to write today.

I just need some rest since I've been staying up all night last night.

Now is the right time to redeem all my sleepless night.

TTYL

GOODNIGHT!

Random question of the day:

How do you study for your finals? are you a last minutes person? or are you the stay up all night kind of person? or your the type that do your studying a week early?

THIS IS HOW WE ROLL!

2010-12-16T18:37:00.001-06:00

DATE: DECEMBER 13th, 2010

TIME: 9pm - 3am

SPOT: Morris Library - Jimmy John's - Morris Library

BOOKS

MUI

SYAIRAH

SYAHMIE

STUDYING

FOR

FINALS

MUI's IDK what's the name

SYAHMIE's Turkey Tom

SYAIRAH's Big John

MUI's Full face

SYAHMIE's studying

SYAIRAH's happy full face
(the guy is cute)

WOW! SERIOUSLY?

2010-12-15T02:52:00.005-06:00

I wasn't very lucky today. :(

I went to the library today as usual. Guess it was my destiny today
to sat next to an Asian man.

A middle age Asian man with grey hair. He looks like a PhD. student.

Sadly his behavior shocked me.

Here's the deal. My friend and I were talking, chit-chating about
her brother's upcoming wedding.

Anyway this man was like lifted his left butt and sat on his right butt
then rudely and purposely FARTED.

Like sooo loud and it goes like this 'PROOT PROOOOTT PROOOTTTTTT!!!'

We were like what the #^%$^%&!

It was DISGUSTING!

Luckily it didn't smell. So we were glad that we didn't suffocate to death. HAHA

But it's all goooood.

Come to think of it, it was actually pretty funny.

LOL.

Okay TTYL

Have a nice FART-FREE-day.<3

Random question of the day:

What is the nastiest smell you ever smell?

I can list mine like one page long but one of the worst is

totally the shit came out from a

'Petai eating monster' that's just plain evil shit!

FAVORITE EMAIL OF THE YEAR!!

2010-12-13T06:42:00.001-06:00

Guess what? I just checked my email. I got the greatest email ever.

'College is CLOSED Monday, Dec 13. Exams scheduled for Monday Dec 13 will be given Friday Dec 17.'

I still got few days to study for my final!

LET'S PARTAAAAAYY!

I'M SOOOO GLADDD.

thankyousnow

I love you.

WHITE SNOW WHITE

2010-12-12T17:13:00.002-06:00

Hey!! Guess what? I was up all night.

Then I got on Facebook this morning like now.

I saw my friend's status saying it's snowing!

NO KIDDING it is. and it's still snowing. :D

Here some of the pictures around my apartment that I took.

from my room

from my livingroom

and another one

outside of my apartment

outside again

and again

about the same

pftt it's getting boring

I'm in pain

snow close up (I tried)

but that's NOT ALL

SURPRISE!

I also recoded a video. And it's still snowing.

around my apartment

this is from outside of my window

Okay, bubbye . TTYL <3

2010-12-12T03:56:00.000-06:00

I DON'T TAKE CRAP FROM PEOPLE!

FUCK YOU!

YOU FUCKIN' FUCK!

HECTIC DECEMBER TWO THOUSAND TEN

2010-12-11T07:21:00.000-06:00

HeyHO! What's up?

I just went through a freakin' hectic day yesterday.

Remember I told you I have 2 exams on Friday.

Yeah, that went well. NOT!!

I seriously thing I'm gonna flunk both of my finals. GEE I wish I was smarter. Anyway I didn't get enough sleep last night, I was studying all night. I was at the library with my friend I was studying for my Environmental Tech and she was doing her lab report. We were there from 10 pm till two in the morning. I'd probably stayed till morning if only the library was open 24/7. So moving on, we were so hungry when we got home, lucky for us there was still some rice left so we ate it and continue studying. She fall asleep after 30min of reading her notes. As for me, I was still struggle-ling to keep my eyes open and I tell you it's not easy when everybody around you is sleeping. The temptation was extremely out of the ordinary. So anyway, I lost, yeah I know, but the couch was so comfy I can help it. Moving on.. my bio lab practical was at 10am and my Environmental Tech's final was at noon. I was so stressed out but lucky for us, me and my classmate got free pizzas from a random instructor. Then after all the finals I have to do all my study on bio again for Monday. Urghhhh! but it's all goooood. After all the shit it over at last I got to sleep for the rest of the day. Gosh it was soooooo goood. I skyped with my mom and bitchin about my Baju Kurung that she bought me. It's not something I would wear. Seriously, I looked like an old lady. There's no way I'm gonna wear it to my friend's wedding. NO WAY!! I'm gonna sleep all day today. Like 24/7 in my super duper dark room. TTYL <3

Random question of the day:

What would you do if your parents bought something for you but you didn't like it? Are you gonna bitch about it or are you take it and forever hold your peace?

WARNING! 90/65

2010-12-09T22:13:00.000-06:00

From Carbondale to St. Louis Lambert Airport in 1 hour and 40 minutes.

WOW! It was supposed to be a 2 hours 15 minutes drive.

WHY? we were in a hurry to catch my friend's flight to L.A they're going back to Malaysia for winter break.

I'm so jealous urghh! I wanna go back too ya know it's been 2 years.

Anyway, luckily he didn't get caught speeding. He is gonna get some serious problem I know that fo sho. Moving on, their flight was at exactly 2pm and we get on the road at 11.20am there's no way we can make it right? But we did and he was driving at average 85mph. We got there one hour before their flight. On the way back, we took almost 3 hours route back home that's like the shortest 3 hours driving in my life. I was studying the whole time and I didn't realize that it's been 3 hours. HAHA. Well that's all I got to share. TTYL <3

Boring Post

2010-12-08T15:01:00.000-06:00

Sup foo!?

I'm at my normal heart beat, normal blood pressure and normal body temperature.

Obviously my test didn't go very well. Ah, what the heck I just got to A's my final on Monday. I hate exam on Monday what even worst it's in the morning. 10 am is early for me. Crap! I still got two finals this Friday. School can be a big pain in the butt. Can't wait till this semester to end. :D I'm gonna go rest my brain and my eyes for a couple of hours, wake up and start fresh with some HARDCORE STUDYING! You guys have fun doing what ever you're doing. :) TTYL. <3

Random question of the day:

Do you ever think what would it be if you're here doing you're thing, but when you look at one person who's doing their thing, like you're imagining if you're at their place. I know it's confusing. I had that kind of thought couple of times before.

Crappy Night

2010-12-08T03:17:00.000-06:00

Seriously. I'm stress out!!!

I have Botany test in the morning then I have my Botany lab final practical this Friday at 10am and a freaking Environmental Technology final right after that.

Urghhh.. HELP! I've been studying for hours for the test. I'm don't think I'm gonna make it. o_0

I didn't get any of the materials I read.

My instructor should have give us a study guide or at least some hint.

This is just way way over my limitation.

and just to made my day I ate the worst chicken sandwich ever!!

the so called special sauce in the sandwich taste like shit.

WOW that was some shit. Urghh i can still taste the sauce in my mouth. Just the thought of it gonna make me puke. Yucks!! Denny's Hickory Grilled Chicken Sandwich you're in my OUT list. I got my eyes on you.

Random question of the day:

What's the WORST meal you've ever eaten?

Don't Bother to Read

2010-12-07T18:07:00.000-06:00

Hey. How's going?

Nothing interesting happen today. Everything is pretty much the same. I did went to Walmart to buy some grocery. I'm gonna cook Mee Hailam tomorrow. My friend's family from Malaysia are coming here and staying here for a month. It's gonna be fun, we're gonna go on a road trip. Anyway, I have something running through my mind all day today. How do you know when you really like someone? I like so many guys before and now I can't tell if I really like this one guy. How do I tell?

Random question of the day:

If you could be a cheese what kind of cheese would you be?

WideAwake Letter.

2010-12-07T06:33:00.001-06:00

Urgh. I can't sleep!

My body is way to tired to fall asleep. o_0

and my eye balls are about to pop out of my head.

My back is killing me. I've been laying on my bed for several hours forcing myself to sleep.

Yeah, I have bones like a 91 years old. I keep thinking maybe I have chronic insomnia. I'm starting to have dark circle around my eyes. :(

Anyway, what do you do when you can't fall asleep? do you count sheep? maybe you sing yourself to sleep? call you friend/boyfriend/girlfriend in the middle of the night and talk with them until both of you fall asleep on the phone? I could use some trick to make my self fall asleep easier.

Letter Number One

2010-12-07T01:57:00.000-06:00

Hey!

What's up?

Hope whoever is reading this doing great. If not, I'll hope I can make it better with a BIG SMILE =) *smiling*. Did I make it all better? I hope I did. Moving on... I did this before but I didn't work out. How many of you tried to write a blog then you realized that you ran out of idea? then you end up abandon your blog. Yeah, I have that problem. I just hope this one is going to work out. With you [readers'] support I KNOW I CAN DO THIS. Bear with me please. Basically this is like a letter from me to the readers and this is letter number one. Starting with I'm 20 years old, unemployed, part time student who's studying my butt off to get into dental school. So now tell me about you don't worry you don't have to if you don't want to. It seems fair if at least I know who's reading and it's less awkward. Well okay I'm going to bed now. I'll write to you later. :)

Random question of the day:

If you could be a star in a movie, what movie would you choose to star in and who would you choose to play as?