Letters to the Little Ones

Friday Confessionals!!!

2010-11-12T13:57:00.002-07:00

I confess:

I went on a vacation with a super fun group of women.
I left all the drama at home.
It was super fun.
There were 8 of us crazy ladies that went and we had a wonderful condo with a private deck with a hot tub all to ourselves.
We went shopping and to this super yummy restaurant. All kid free.
Why is this a confession??
Well, I only invited 7 other ladies on this vacation and left everyone else at home. I might feel bad about that.
But hey not everyone can get along for an over night trip. Some choices had to be made!
Stop making me feel guilty!!
To be honest I don't like most people enough to last two days with them.
Shocker!! I am not such a long term people person.
I'm good with short periods of time but then I'm good at home with the husband.
It makes me sad that so many people aren't happily married.
Really, I've discovered most people aren't.
I sometimes want to strangle by husband but he really is my best friend and I would rather do things with him than anyone else.
By things, I do mean things... but really I'm just talking everyday activities.
I confess I like my husband. :)

Vent

2010-10-18T12:52:00.002-06:00

Do you ever feel like if you don't vent you might explode??? I'm having that feeling today. I am so in need of a vacation from everything. Am I the only one that ever feels like that? I'm super sick of throwing up everyday and not being able to eat more then a birds serving of food at a time. It really isn't so much fun. I'm not having fun waiting to get sick. I get really bad kidney troubles and I know that sometime in the next 8 or so weeks, I will be sick and not feel good at all. Just imagine feeling like your head is going to explode and that your body is shutting down on you. That sounds like a fun time doesn't it??

I've had some breakdowns lately with people that are supposed to love and support me. They aren't, enough said about that drama. So I am feeling a tad alone these days, knowing that I have to figure out how to do this whole baby thing with less help than usual. I am super blessed to have some great friends that have offered to help. These sweet ladies are so willing to help that it even makes me more frustrated at the people that could help with much greater ease than them but are too self absorbed to open their eyes. Bitter much.

I read this quote about how Charity is trusting that everyone is doing their best and that forgiving people when they are dumb. Mind you the quote was a little more eloquent than I am. I really struggle with that. There are some people that don't have an ounce of Charity in them. If it doesn't have a pay-off they aren't interested, if it puts them out, isn't even or fair, don't go calling them for help. I struggle thinking these people are really doing their best. I think how can you not see people around you with need. DO you and you are just too BUSY?? I might need to work on this whole everyone is doing their best thing. Or I might need some medicine to make me more mellow. :) That sounds nice.

See don't you think I need a vacation. I think I do. I need to move too. Is that too much to ask? A new house, neighborhood, school, ect? I might have some avoidance issues. Well, I big shout out to whoever called the fire dept for my neighbors house when they weren't home. That is the kind of neighbors we need. Those that look out for each other. I miss that from our old neighborhood. A big thanks to those friends that take the time to know what is going on with me and caring enough to help even when I don't NEED it, when it just makes my life a little easier. I'm sure you already know how much I love you. Those of you who don't, well, I'm sure you are doing your best. That's a start, right??

Life Questions

2010-08-11T10:51:00.001-06:00

What's up with the world? Seems like everyone is having a happy ending and I want mine. We have been searching for a new job for 2 years now. Still looking... Watching other people move on to new jobs and new places and loving it. Meanwhile, I sit here growing slightly bitter about the waiting game.

How to you survive the waiting game? You know where you do all you can and put your trust in the Lord that things will work out?

Real trouble here is that I got the wonderful idea to save some money. Sounds like a good idea, well here is the trouble. I cut down our cell phone minutes. Let's be honest those people are trying to bankrupt us all. Well, now I have 5 days left in the month and I am totally out of minutes. I got rid of my long distance plan on the home phone to cut costs. So here I am not being able to chat with those friends of mine that keep me sane. Those friends that truly know my soul and how to talk me out of my mental breakdown. You know those friends that get spread across the country, and the world sometimes but that you still love like they live next door? Sometimes I think it is easier to talk to friends that are far away instead of friends that are close. Seems like you can be more honest because you don't have to see them at church on Sundays. You can go on acting like life is all smiley and nobody knows different. Plus, I think when they are not involved directly in a situation they can give better advice.

I need to just relax. Not something that I do well. I like to know what is coming. I like to plan ahead for things. I get a little crazy about it. Which might be why my poor husband comes home to the news that we are going out of town the next day. If I decide to go tomorrow I don't stress near as much and we just go and have fun. If I try to plan weeks in advance I almost kill myself and everyone else. See how this whole waiting game might be the death of me. I would do much better with him coming home one day and saying, "Honey, I got a new job. Pack your bags we have to be there in two weeks." That's my groove.

Germ city!!!

2010-07-20T19:05:00.003-06:00

So I got some weird throat infection two weeks ago. It was bad, there was no swallowing. So I got a shot in the booty. It got better. Sounds all happy??? Well, now I have a huge sinus infection. My sinuses might explode. Really and I might drown in snot. Isn't it summer time? I think I need a break from being sick. My poor little #1 is super cute. She keeps asking if I feel better yet? Again, and again..... Nope sweetie not yet. Wait until my voice don't sound like an 80 year old smoker.

Anyone have some good news to share? I need some good news. One of my bestest friends just moved away from me. Great for her, I am happy for her, sad for me. I have been sick for like a million years!!! The kids go back to school soon and that makes me sad. So blog world, cheer this sick lady up!!!!

Brace yourself...

2010-07-09T18:19:00.002-06:00

I confess:

I type so much on my phone, that corrects my spelling and conjunctions, that I get confused when I type on a computer.
Like hello, why can't it make my cant can't. My phone can, step it up computer.
I think I offend people all the time.
I just say what I think
And what you should think...
No not really, you can think whatever you want.
I also tend to call people out when the contradicted their options and their actions.
It's a pet peeve.
Don't act all holy then whore it on the weekend.
I'd still love you even if you whored it all the time.
Just be real.
I am not a good forgiver.
Things are deal breakers for me.
Once you have proven that you are a crazy, or a liar, or disloyal, your out.
No real chance for redemption.
I'm a Christian.
Hum, maybe I should call myself out, that seems that a contradiction.
Nah, I'm immune from my own scolding.
Isn't that how it works???

I commit

2010-07-07T18:30:00.002-06:00

So I had an interesting conversation with one of my teenage cousins this week. You see, I was looking at vacation pictures of one of my friends. Wait, let's back up a little bit. I'm Mormon. Are you suprised... Anyways, as some people might know we have some pretty conservative standards when it comes to clothing. Not that we don't wear swimming suits or anything crazy like that. But ours shorts and shirts are a little longer than most and our shoulders are covered. Cleavage hanging out isn't really something that happens either, not that I have a challenge with that.

Back to my story. So I was looking at these pictures and I noticed that every single women there had on these tiny little swimsuits on. You know the ones that might jump right off your body if you actually got in the water. Yep all six of them. Now I am a pretty modest person. So I called my cousin to see if that is just the way Mormons act these days. I was relieved when she told me that it wasn't. She herself has made the decision to only wear one piece suits, and she feels like there is no reason not to wear one piece suits. She says there are tons of cute ones out there. That gave me some hope for my girls.

This whole world of instant photo posting and facebook we get a look into people's lives. I have really been shocked with people lately and how they aren't living up to commitments that they have made. That sounds harsh. That's not what I mean. It just scares me that people that I know have made commitments to themselves and God are making choices that are different than what they believe. It breaks my heart when I see little baby girls dressed in things that you would never let your teenager out of the house wearing. Why is their little body worth less respect, it isn't cute, it's disrespectful.

Now if you believe something different than I do, more power to you. I don't expect you to live my life or my commitment. I don't believe that makes you or me a better person than the other. Anyone that knows me knows that I am not out to make people live the standards that I have chosen. See that is the point, I have chosen them, you have chosen yours. What makes me scared is that I am raising three little girls that will soon be teenagers. Yep all at the same time, I might need a padded room by then. What makes me scared is that there are people that they will know that have committed to the same lifestyle as them that will be not living up to those commitments. How do you explain that to a teenage girl? That other girls and even women that made the same choices as them are dressing in a way that isn't consistent with those choices. It's easy for me to tell them that other families have different family rules and we have ours. But what happens when those rules are supposed to be the same?? Oh the future is scary.

Back on the Wagon

2010-06-26T14:32:00.002-06:00

A little late but I'm here!!

I confess:

1. I hate drama

2. Just tell me you hate me, don't act nice then dog me behind my back, I can take it.

3. I need a major kid free vacation.

4. Summer off school is kicking my trash.

5. I truly might explode if I hear, I'm bored one more time!!!

6. Most people I think should just go away.

7. I just "dumped" some FB friends.

8. GASP.

9. I know right aren't you suppose to strive for a super high number???

10. Really if I wouldn't invite you over and all I want to do is peak into your life.... Maybe not.

11. I've missed my blog buddies.

12. Wish they would invent a virtual lunch.

13. You know, so we could all go to lunch together.

14. That sounds fun.

15. I think I'll go get a slurpee, they make me less grumpy.

16. Lady trouble=More grumpy!!

Where did you go....

2010-06-20T11:06:00.002-06:00

Oh my, what happened??? I haven't posted for sooo long. Started out with a traveling husband and no time to sit. Then the kids got sick and then well I just got lazy. That happen to anyone else.

Side note. I hate cramps, this post is going to be about my lovely husband but I just had to put that out there. That I really do hate them and I think they should happen. EVER.

Ok I feel better.

My sweet husband is the best daddy ever. The kids are so lucky to get to grow up with him. I always said I wanted at least one boy so he could grow up and be like his dad and make some lady as happy as his daddy has made me. That's what I got, my one little boy. He will be a great daddy one day.

My heart breaks a little every Mother's or Father's Day. I feel for those people that want a child so badly. People that can't have that dream fulfilled. People that are waiting patiently for the day that they get to bring their child home. I truly breaks my heart and I hope they know that we love them and that we couldn't raise our kids without their love and support. That their are kids that love them and will remember them always.

I hope you all enjoy this day with your special little families. No matter what that family looks like.

Poop

2010-05-24T20:14:00.002-06:00

I might not be a clean mom, but I am a fun mom. Today we had some friends over. They got a little bit wet and dirty. Don't send your kids over in a white shirt that is all I can say. I thought to myself, maybe I should have a disclaimer when kids come over.

While at my house your child may...

Go barefoot outside.

Play in the dirt/mud

Get really wet

Eat something they shouldn't

That means candy or rocks and dirt.

Have the time of their LIFE.

Today we got our garden boxes ready for their plants. That meant that we had to amend our soil. We added some cow poop and compost. Well, the littlest one thought that looked like something really fun. I turned around to find her elbows deep in the cow poop. Yep, I left her there to enjoy the new "dirt." See what I mean, you want your kids to come and play??? I cleaned her up after don't worry!

Gratefulness

2010-05-23T11:04:00.003-06:00

Did I even spell that right?? I have been thinking about this the last couple of days. We are such a blessed little family and I need to be more grateful for the things that we have.

We had the chance to go to church with someone else last week. It was a great experience. The people were friendly and you can tell they are really dedicated to their church. I love it when you can see people that have a passion for their religion whatever that religion might be. I happen to be LDS but most of the people that I grew up around were not. They were great people with great passion.

This experience made me really appreciate my church and all that it has to offer. I know that most people look at the "mormon" church and think that it takes over your life. Well, you are right. It does take over your life. It isn't just a religion that you attend on Sunday and Wed nights. It is a way of life. A way to live and raise your children. It gives you a moral road to follow and hope in the dark times and joy in the good times. I am so happy that I have the chance to live this life.

I do believe that their are other churches for other people. I know some very dedicated people with some lovely beliefs. All I am saying is that for me this one is the right one. I feel safe and secure when I turn my life over to Christ and live the life that I feel correct.

The sicky

2010-05-04T21:08:00.002-06:00

So I am feeling much better but this weekend I was sick as a dog. Yep, throwing my guts out and everything that goes with that. So not fun. I hate being sick.

Well the one thing that I like about being sick is that you get to really know the people that love you. Like my sweet husband that stayed home to take over my job. He is a sweet man and the kids have been such sweethearts too.

I also love my sweet friends that have offered to help me. They have run to the store for me and offered to take the kids. You know those friends that notice that you are missing and call you to make sure you are ok.

This whole personal cleaning thing I am loving it! I am not going to let myself feel bad about those people that are upset that I haven't called or been around these last few days. You know the people that I mean. They are mad or offended that you haven't called them. You are laying on the bathroom floor and they are busying wondering why you are ignoring them. So against everything that is me I am going to just let them simmer. I already have four little people where I am the total giver in the relationship. I need people in my life that are give and take.

So to those that love me and run to my aid when I need, I love you. I love all my blog buddies that comment when I am down. If you are laying on the floor throwing your guts out, I'll bring you some Sprite.

Exactly my point.

2010-05-02T10:15:00.002-06:00

I read this on a filer this weekend. I love it, it spoke to my soul. It is exactly what I was talking about a few posts past. That we all need to learn to love each other more and help each other achieve our very best. If we all just look out for ourselves or if we don't surround ourselves with happy helpful friends, we truly do live in hell. I am even more committed to limiting my circle to those that help me achieve and don't tear me down! I might have to go find the rest of this article or book or whatever it is.

There is a story about a man who left this earth and was taken on a tour of the inner realms. He was shown a room where he saw a large group of hungry people trying to eat dinner, but because the spoons that they were trying to eat with were longer than their arms, they remained frustrated. "This" his guide told him "is hell." "That's terrible!" exclaimed the man: "Please show me heaven!" "Very well," agreed the guide, and on they went. When they opened Heaven's door, the man was perplexed to see what looked very much like the same scene: there was a group of people with spoons longer than their arms. As he looked more closely, however, he saw happy faces and full tummies, for there was one important difference: the people in Heaven had learned to feed each other.
-The Dragon Doesn't Live Here Anymore. by Alan Cohen

Want to feel good about yourself??

2010-04-30T21:25:00.002-06:00

I confess:

I am SUPER
Look at my pervious post
Check all my friends out, their blogs are great
I might be a little too excited about my very first blog award.
Best thing that happened this week.
The mall and I have broken up.
I can't go there without getting the "All those are yours" comments.
One day I tell you things are going to get nasty!
I might be having some serious withdrawals.
I miss my iphone more than I should. I mean I really miss it!!
I think my three year old is trying to kill me.
Really I do, that kid is soooo hard.
She is about to drive me to the edge.
I might jump off.
Anyone want to come with me?
I wonder what is on the other side....

I am LOVED!

2010-04-30T10:45:00.004-06:00

The Sunshine Award is awarded to bloggers whose positivity and creativity inspire others in the blogging world.

Of course, awards come with rules…
1. Put the logo on your blog and/or within your post.
2. Pass the award on to twelve bloggers.
3. Link to the nominees within your post.
4. Let them know they received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and the link to the person from whom you received this award

Can you even believe it??? My very first blog award. I am so excited. Who knew that people read my musings on life, let alone enjoyed them. I am one happy lady. I even got it from two different readers. Man I tell you I love you both!! So go over and visit them, they are super.

TYLAINE and Crazy Mom of Four

So to share the love...

1. Heather

I just love her. She always leaves the best comments. I feel like she totally gets me and I love her blog. She is just real, you know? I love people that just tell it how it is not how they wish it was.

2. Lisa

I love her blog. She has this way of always being inspiring. Like even when her day is going badly she always has this way of writing about it without making you feel down. I love that.

3.Beth

Beth is always making the cutest things. Sometimes I feel like a lazy bum when I read her blog but one day I'll make some of her cute things!

4.Glamazon

Ok, this one I don't even have to explain. Just visit her blog!!

5.Erin

I think we are so the same that it makes me feel normal to read her blog. I love that she is who she is and let us all know a little bit about her. It really love reading her posts.

6.Oka

She is my new bowling buddy. Do I even need to say more?? Her blog is so cute and I love taking a look into her life.

7.Blueviolet

She is a way sweet lady that always leaves the nicest comments. I love her blog, she makes us all feel loved and normal.

8.Melissa

Lets just say one day I would love to sit in her craft room or her kitchen table and chat.

9.Georgia

Ok if you want something totally cute visit her blog. She is always doing the cutest things that she shares with us less creative folks.

10.Jaymi

Oh the adventures that we would have if we lived closer. I love reading her blog and how she hates being home so they go and do fun things. I hate being home too my friend.

11.Linda

Anytime you need a giggle head on over. Her take on life makes me smile. The pictures she uses are the bestest!!

12.Mindi

She deserves a little sunshine in her life. I love how she types just like you were sitting in her living room having a nice little chat. I almost feel like I should talk back.

If I missed you this time. I still love you, I hope you still love me too!

Cleansing

2010-04-28T22:38:00.002-06:00

I went to a wonderful class tonight about taking better care of our bodies. How this body is the only one that you get and that there is so much bad stuff around that we are putting into it. It was a good class and I look forward to learning more about that.

It was especially interesting because I have been thinking about this lately. I started out thinking about how some people are fun and how some people aren't. You know what I mean?? Some people make everything more enjoyable and there are those others that you cringe a little when you find out they are coming. They are downers. I hope I am not a downer.

There are some people that make you feel bigger and better and like you can do anything. I think we all have those friends. You know like when you say, "I worked really hard today and ran 2 miles." Person #1 says, "that is sooo great. You are a super star. Sometime I want to come with you but you might leave me in your dust!!" Person#2 says, "you can do more, I have to still run my 1000 miles this afternoon. How fast did you run, are you sure it was that far? Is it everyday or just one?" We all know those people.

I think as women we are born with a lower self esteem then men. Like we come out thinking that we aren't super, let's all be real most men think they are super. Anyho, point coming sometime..... While I was run/jogging today I made a decision. I am done with the downers. Those people that make you feel like less when you leave them. People that make you feel like nothing is good enough and depressed. I am trading them in for people that make me feel smart and loved and like I can conquer the world. I know I some people you can't get away from. Some are in your church or your neighborhood or even your family. Still I hope you join me in limiting the interaction you have to have with those people. We all deserve more.

I just EXPLODED

2010-04-26T16:21:00.002-06:00

Yep, I did. I might do it again too. You see I was all ready to go to this fantastic place today. I have been working on getting the kids outfits so I could takes some cute pictures of them all week. I can't tell you how many stores I went to. I even drove to another city to try and find something that #1 would like. We shopped for hours and hours. I have been wanting to go to these gardens for three years but I have never made it during this special spring event. Not once. Every year I mourn that I have missed and it promise that next year nothing will get in my way.

Ready for the bad part. So I asked the husband to come and help me with the kids so I could take some really cute pictures of each of them alone. He said ok, Friday. Well Thursday he called me and said nope he couldn't do it on Friday and by the way he would be gone all day on Saturday. WHAT!! Ok, deep breath. So he said Monday would work. I planned on Monday. I had a few errands to run and I got the kids clothes all out and told him what else I needed for the day. I left and came home to hungry kids a husband that hadn't eaten lunch and nobody was ready to go. Really!! This is something I have been planning for a week. Well, really three years. Guess what he was doing.... playing the Wii.

I gave up and I am here typing this instead of taking pictures of my dreams in a beautiful place. Really I could just sit here and cry all night.

This better make me feel better!

2010-04-22T20:04:00.002-06:00

Are you ready??

My newest best idea is a commune.
Yes don't you think that sounds great??
Everyone working together to get things done.
Everyone sharing and loving and all.
I should have been born earlier.
When it is just #4, the husband, and me I feel like I should leave.
They are the bestest friends ever and I kinda always feel like the third wheel.
Is that wrong? I do love her, I just am pretty sure she connects with him more.
I think most people are dumb.
Still loving me....
Really I think that most people are super high strung about stupid things and I find it annoying.
I am not much of a feelings person so I am pretty sure at some point I will hurt yours.
The husband was mentioning to me today that I might be a bit to blunt.
If you don't want blunt then don't act stupid.
I think the allergy medicine that is keeping me alive is making me grumpy.
Maybe that or my period, or the stomach flu, or the crazy zoo that lives here with me.
I need a vacation.
Bowling anyone???

For Sadness

2010-04-21T18:45:00.002-06:00

Ok first a little vent. This lady at church, (she doesn't read this), asked me how I was. Wait for it.... I was answering her and she turned around and walked away. Loving that one. I mean really did you not hear me talking or you just don't care about being rude, even to little ole me??

I am a total people watcher. If you see me staring at you, I really probably am. I'm soaking you in with all your glory. I was watching someone the other day. They were all smiles and laughter. Now mind you that this is someone that I don't really love. They get under my skin like none other. However, as I was watching her I saw such deep sadness in her eyes. Made me feel a little bit bad about not liking her.

See I am a super person. I bet you wish we were friends.

I'm LATE

2010-04-10T20:49:00.002-06:00

I confess:

Not that kind of late!! Ha that was fun.
I lost my iphone at IKEA.
Yep I looked everywhere. The tracker says it is still there.
But now it has gone to sleep so maybe it isn't there anymore.
Maybe someone nice will find it and bring it home....
I think facebook sucks.
I'll give you a moment to recover.
Ok, I think it is just another way to make you feel stupid.
You know like when you check your blog and nobody commented on your post??
That happen to anyone but me...
Or you visit a blog and they have a million followers and you have 3.
I still love those 3 but makes you wonder about yourself??
Sooo I'm done posting on facebook.
If you post you lost your much loved iphone and your "friends" all ignore you,
Yep, not even one ,"Oh, I am so sorry I'm on my way over with icecream."
Not that I can eat icecream, but the gesture would have been nice.
I'm done with things that make you feel yucky and unloved.
Good thing I have my commenters on the Friday Confessionals!!
I hope this coming week is less eventful.
Guess I could have lost one of the kids.
That would have been worse.
Maybe.

I'm naughty.

2010-04-01T21:03:00.002-06:00

I confess...

So I lost it a couple of week ago at a lady at the store.
She was the second person in a week to ask if all my kids were mine.
The first one was the standard, "Do you run a daycare?"
Gets under my skin!!
I responded, "Nope, I just called around and rounded up all the kids I could that were under seven so I could take them out to dinner by myself."
She just stared at me.
I should have paid more attention.
Then I could go back and say how sorry I was for yelling at her.
But really, why do people say stupid things!!
I am a whiner and I hate whiners.
Funny isn't it.
I think everyone else should get a grip.
See I don't think the world is out there to help me.
Aren't I a ray of sunshine?
I need something sweet.
I hear thunder.
Now I am smiling.
Mood swings anyone?

Just Listen

2010-03-24T22:20:00.004-06:00

Sooo.... I had one of those parent moments this week. You know the ones that make you feel like maybe the worst parent ever. Hum, am I the only one?? Intrigued yet?

Number one was having a super hard time with school. This has been going on for I would say about a month. There has been some drama at school with teachers leaving and such. I assumed that was the trouble. It however kept going on and on. So then I decided that #1 was just bored at school. Poor thing just misses the deadline and really I should have let them move #1 up a year but that was too fast for me. That is my baby you know, slow down that growing up please!! Rambling.

Then #1 did start mentioning some trouble with some kids at school. But you see number one is super sensitive and gets upset when people don't follow the letter of the law. Not sure where that comes from cause mama is soo not like that. All these incidents seemed like they could be explained by overly sensitive feelings.

The real kisser. Last week #1 came home from school and had a great story about an interaction with some kids. BAM! Everything fell in place. I could see now how this was a thing that was building up to something that was really upsetting #1. I could see how all the things that were said over the last month made sense. How it all fit together and that this is what was really going on with #1.

Now mind you nothing really big has ever happened. Nobody ever started to bleed or cry or anything. So don't go calling somebody about how I let my kids get tortured at school and I sit home and eat chocolate, which I can't even have so there!

LESSON LEARNED. Listen to your kids, I mean really listen. So many times we think they are just being difficult or having a challenging personality. Which yes sometimes is all too true, however sometimes it is something more. I would venture to say that usually if you really listen, even to the tiny ones, they are doing things for a reason. There is some reason that they are being difficult or don't want to play with certain kids. I used to be so good at this, you know back when there was only #1. Not so much anymore. They hear, "Just get in the car, we are late!" all to much. I learned I need to slow down and listen to what they are really saying to me. Then I need to do what I can to make their lives better, easier, and happier. They can fight some battles by themselves and should. I think we all know life is hard, they get that from the world. Their mama is supposed to protect and love them. Promise next time I will not take so long to really hear what you are saying to me my love.

HA I'm FIRST!

2010-03-18T20:33:00.002-06:00

I confess:

I was super excited to be the first link.
Might have motivated me to get on with it tonight.
I've been a lazy bum lately sooo not much is getting done around here.
I've never seen Twilight movie or read any of the books.
My husband saw the movie on a plane.
That makes me laugh that he has seen this crazy woman movie and I haven't.
Vampires are dumb.
What lost a follower, sorry still dumb.
I have a horrible self image.
You too? Well, why are there pictures of you everywhere?
Notice not a picture of me in sight? Not even on facebook.
I make sure I get shots of just the kids.
Working on it since I don't want to pass that on to the hordes of girls I/m raising.
Maybe I just need a pair of great jeans.
And some major makeup to cover the bags under my eyes.
Big STEP. I picture of me. Don't I look super happy and perky?
Nope more uncomfortable and exausted.
Just be glad it was on a shower day.
I WAS FIRST!!! Now you go!

Confessionals

2010-03-13T21:33:00.002-07:00

So I missed confessionals this week. I was puking my guts out for two days straight. Really made me wonder how I ever survived being pregnant. Not sure I can ever talk myself into that one again! Especially going into a summer without a newborn or being pregnant for the first time in 6 years. Yep, that long people. Baby turned one I was pregnant the last three times. It was a ride. Back to point!

Laying in bed trying not to die you watch a ton of stupid tv. You know the trash that is always on and takes zero brain power? So I was watching Giuliana & Bill. Pretty sure I'll lose a follower on that one. Here are these people that have never been together in the same place more than 12 days that are acting like 2 years olds over closet space. Yes these people are trying to have a baby. Even so far as to get medical intervention involved. Sorry guys, don't want to be mean but do ya think you should work on your relationship before you start adding to your crew? Just me??

I watched a few other choice shows that were entertaining. My husband was being a baby that I watched White Collar and Psych without him. Mind you they come on in the middle of the night. Next time I will wake him when I am puking my guts out. That would be the nice thing to do after all. Don't worry he is still the sweetest man alive. I sent him out for fries tonight. Some reason when I am nauseous salt helps. Might be why I always end up toxemic? Gotta have my salt to survive.

All your pregnant ladies out there my heart goes out to you right now. If I make it through this nasty flu I'll bring you some french fries.

Thanksful.

2010-03-07T16:54:00.002-07:00

My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com

Ok so I totally confess that I was cruising facebook for people from high school. Not that I have any intentions of being their "friends." Just want to see what they have done or where they are. Am I the only freak out there??

Sooo I was surprised at how many are still single living their lives alone. I turned the big 30 this year and it seems like I would be sad to be alone. I thought about these women that are living in all these towns around the country with nobody to come home to at night. That made me sad.

I am feeling really thankful tonight for my little family. I chose to have them. I chose to marry the man that I love. I gave up other choices and avenues to be with them. As I cruise other people lives I am thankful for my own.

I might feel unloved as I see the 1000 comments people have on there blog posts. Or when I see people that I knew in high school that own businesses or are living the dream, alone. But I would not trade my little family for any of that. I love ya'll!!

Go Ahead and Judge ME

2010-03-05T19:51:00.002-07:00

I confess:

I cleaned my fridge this week.
Super me.
If it wasn't only the second time in the three years we have lived here.
I guess I have three good no fridge cleaning years ahead of me.
My baby plays with legos while I shower.
I lock her in the bathroom with me and a box of teeny tiny legos.
She likes to put the hats on and off.
Yes I know she could choke and die.
I girls gotta shower sometime OK!!
I took a bike ride alone this week.
I have no friends. Nobody would join me.
It was good since my legs where moving but the bike was not!
Yes I was that person you see and you want to roll down your window and yell, "Just give up and go home, you aren't going anywhere."
What, I can't be the only person that thinks that when you pass "runners" that you could walk past. Am I?
I am a mom.
I love all the glory that comes with it.
I would rather do something with my husband and kids than with you!!
They are fun.
Most of the time.
The rest is when you see me "running" around outside screaming.
Next time you see me tell me to go home I'm not really running anyways.
Love you all.