Life After Placing

Preparation

2012-02-08T21:35:00.001-10:00

So, I’ve been on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds for 3 years now, I’m not ashamed of that, and most people know that. I started them the day my son was born. I’d hate to imagine what would have happened had I not done that. Seeing as I had post partum, on top of the emotions of the adoption. It took a few tries to get the right combo, and once I got to Hawaii, it took 3 psychiatrists, but

Love is sacrifice

2012-02-03T22:03:00.001-10:00

A friend posted about the difference between “Love” and “In Love,” and her definition of “Love” really hit home for me, and I’m sure it will hit home for everyone. But it really hit home in defining my decision to place. Here is what she said: “Ok, so love is active: we do it. I feel love is an attitude that chooses what is best for another person, rather than what is easiest or most

The light

2012-01-30T14:25:00.001-10:00

*courtusy of swagbucks* So, It’s almost February. Which means we’re ALMOST at the end of this deployment. I cannot wait, this deployment has taught me a lot about myself. It’s taught me a lot about being married, and about our relationship…I know the LT has learned a lot as well. I’m not quite sure what all he’s learned, and that is really a post for him to do, if he so chooses. Our future

5 question Friday–Jan 20

2012-01-20T18:10:00.001-10:00

I figured I’d partake in it this week since one of my questions made the cut :) Rules for 5QF: Copy and paste the following questions to your blog post, answer them, then watch for the linky post to appear Friday morning and LINK UP! Oh, and remember (pay close attention...this is the important one)...HAVE FUN! Questions for Friday, January 20th: (Special thanks to@Lovely_Lici, @

Updates & his birthday

2012-01-18T22:35:00.001-10:00

I know this is kind of late, but better late than never!!! I’ve gotten several emails and even a letter in the mail from my son’s adoptive mother. My first email was on his birthday, and it just made that day so much more special. She sent some family pictures they had done, and they were really cute! Then a few weeks later she sent some more. Just pictures from life, and the last 6 months. I

Christmas trip 2011

2012-01-13T22:29:00.001-10:00

So much for thinking the new blog design would help me update more often. Whoops. I guess I could go back in time, to my trip home. Especially since I didn’t even write about it at all here. It was great. Better than I thought it would be. And much needed. I hated being there without my husband, but it was nice to not spend Christmas alone, even though I wouldn’t have been alone in Hawaii. I

new years

2012-01-02T18:31:00.001-10:00

So I guess I’ll jump on the bandwagon and write about new years. It was amazing, and pretty, and just what I needed! We had good German food, great cake, and lots of booze. I introduced everyone to Poinsettia's – champagne and cranberry juice, we played a game, and then sat outside with a fire and made s’mores. We then watched the Fireworks from Waikiki, Pearl Ridge, and some other places all

New blog design

2011-12-31T14:49:00.001-10:00

I needed something new, especially with the new year around the corner, and with his 3rd birthday behind us, I thought now would be a good time to revamp. I got Brea to do my other blog last month, and I just loved it so much I wanted one done for this blog! She just posted about my design, and had really made me feel special. She was so much fun to work with the first time, and I feel as if I’

3 Years

2011-12-10T00:00:00.000-10:00

It’s hard to believe that I went to bed 3 years ago with my son with me, and then woke up to go deliver him, and give him to his adoptive family. That was a rough night, I was anxious about everything, but I was so ready to be done with the pregnancy, that I don’t think it really sunk in as to what I was really doing. I knew I was going to go through with it, I never once questioned that. I

Sick Sick Sick and Oh, a new blog design

2011-12-02T17:15:00.001-10:00

So I had my other blog redone, by Brea @ Utterly Chaotic Designs, and she did such a great job, so I thought I’d get her to make me one for this blog! :) Now onto more pressing matters, I’m sick, started w/ a sore throat yesterday morning, turned into both ears hurting after a 6 hour nap, yes, that’s right folks, 6 hours. And today it was no better, so I went to the Dr. It’s just a viral

National Adoption Day

2011-11-20T14:58:00.001-10:00

Whoops, I forgot that yesterday was National Adoption Day, I was just so busy yesterday…I didn’t even get on the computer… Every day to me is adoption day, honestly there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think about adoption and how it’s affected my life and my son’s. It’s such a blessing, for all sides of the triad. It gives hope to all sides. It gives hope to the birthmother who doesn’

11-11-11

2011-11-16T21:25:00.001-10:00

So I haven’t done much on my 101 in 1001, but I did do this - Make a wish at 11:11 on November 11, 2011! I posted it the other day, the picture of hubby and me, my wish is for my hubby to come home safely. It’s really the only thing that matters to me at the moment. His safety and his home coming!

Clarifications

2011-11-14T20:20:00.001-10:00

I guess I should have explained it better when I said that I put on a good front. I don’t necessarily feel like it’s a front, but more that when I’m around other people I don’t feel sad, or get depressed. I’m not lonely. I prefer to be around people. But I know that I can’t be around people all the time. And so I’m working on not feeling so lonely when I am alone. Thanks again to those who help

Sinking

2011-11-13T21:48:00.001-10:00

I feel myself sinking…slowing drifting into depression. Into the darkness. This holiday season is fast approaching, and with that comes the 3rd birthday of my son, and the emptiness that I sometimes feel when it comes to him. It’s just not natural to carry a child for 9 months and give birth to a baby, and then proceed to go home empty handed and spend the rest of your life without them. I

Veterans Day

2011-11-11T16:54:00.001-10:00

Happy Veterans Day to all those who serve, have served, who gave the ultimate sacrifice, and those on the home fronts. “Land of the Free, because of the Brave” - Francis Scott Key A special thanks to my husband and my grandfather for their service. I also have some other family members who serve, so thanks to them as well!

Awkward.

2011-11-09T21:05:00.001-10:00

Have ya’ll watched Awkward.? It’s that new MTV show. My friends think I’m like Sadie, “every high school has one: the rich, popular bitch. But unlike every other mean girl stereotype, Sadie's got some cushion for the pushin'... which means there's more to love -- or in her case, hate.” Now, before you think, gosh how horrible, they think you’re fat like her, that’s not it at all…they just

National Adoption Awareness Month

2011-11-03T21:07:00.001-10:00

I know I know, I’m 3 days late…but we all know what a horrible blogger I am… I am going to try and do some blog post for Adoption Awareness Month. But again, we all know how bad I am at this… I do know that I have some stuff I want to talk about. So I guess I’ll just start…Oh and if you have something you’d like me to talk about, just let me know! A couple weeks ago I was in therapy, I’m down to

Surprise

2011-10-14T16:50:00.001-10:00

I was going through my reading list on blogger, and I saw my picture, I was like, uh, what, and then I remembered that a few months ago, Monika from BirthMom Buds Blog contacted me to be the spotlight blogger! And she told me that it would run on Oct 14, which is today, and I forgot, even though I knew it would happen, I just forgot…so go here and check it out, it’s just another little part of my

5QF

2011-10-07T15:37:00.000-10:00

Rules for 5QF: Copy and paste the following questions to your blog post. Answer them, then watch for the linky post to appear tomorrow morning! Remember that this post is NOT the post with the linky list on it...that is tomorrow! Oh, and remember to have fun!!! Also, feel free to play along on Twitter! We've had some people do that in the past couple of weeks and it's a fun, different way to

Needs and Wants

2011-10-02T23:18:00.001-10:00

"A Birthmother puts the needs of her child above the wants of her heart" - Skye Hardwick This quote is from Birthmom Buds and it is just something that is so true. I’ve always wanted to be a mother, I really feel like God wants me to be a mother, to raise children. But I know that the timing was off. I knew that what I had to offer a child at the time was not going to give my son everything he

That hard part of your story…

2011-09-30T14:08:00.001-10:00

I took a suicide prevention class last night. It was something they really wanted all the key callers to take. And I’m glad I took it, but it was SO hard to sit through, and it brought up so many memories and feelings, that I had to step out, and when I came back in I was like, I’m sorry, this is just too hard, and it is bringing up memories, and started crying. Nobody in that room knew my story.

Officially Suck

2011-09-27T22:10:00.001-10:00

I officially suck at blogging. I mean, hell, it’s almost been 2 months… Not much is going on here, I’m super busy working and hanging out with friends. It sure does make the time go by so much faster. I’m actually off work for a week or two, they’re on the mainland. So I’m catching up on sleep, and chores. But mostly sleep. I’ll try to catch up on blogging too. Saturday will be 6 months down,

Day 23 of the challenge

2011-08-07T21:16:00.002-10:00

Day 23 — Write a letter to: The last person you kissed Well, if you mean romantically, then that’d be my husband, but in general, that’d be the precious little girl I baby sit from time to time…and since I’ve written to the husband a lot with this challenge, I think I’ll write to a 5 month old, LOL! LK – You are such a joy to watch, and you always make me smile. I never thought I’d be able to

5QF, erm Saturday…

2011-07-30T11:03:00.000-10:00

Welcome to 5QF, new and old! I hope you will enjoy yourself...I have found the 5QF is my "get out of jail free" card for blogging. A post that is fun and easy to do! Rules for 5QF: Copy and paste the following questions to your blog post, answer them, then watch for the linky post to appear on Friday morning! Questions for Friday, July 29th: (Special thanks to @katieb38, @ByGollyMsHolly,@

Wordless Wednesday–R&R Addition

2011-07-20T14:08:00.001-10:00