idiotic insomniac

Failure

Mon, 14 Mar 2011 20:54:09 -0400

Hmmm, what to write about this week…..

How about failure?

I fail. A lot. Probably altogether too often. Most people will say that we learn from our mistakes, and we pick ourselves up off the floor and try again. I don’t. I will usually just continue my failure, and I am within one of those continuations now.

So how am I to get out of my current slump? How am I supposed to pick myself up off the floor? Two words.

Ein Heldenleben.

Ein Heldenleben is a piece written by Richard Strauss that musically lays out the story of a hero, his love, and his trials. The opening to Ein Heldenleben is one of the most beautiful and inspiring things that you will ever hear (not to mention a bitch to play on the horn.)

It is through this piece of music that I am going to lift myself out of this slump. I am going to be the hero of my own life, instead of looking up to others. I am going to be so outstanding to myself that I am going to write a tone poem about me (well, that may be going a bit far, but I can dream.)

Ein Heldenleben, look it up. It will change your life.

Go lightly.

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 12:51:33 -0500

Stuff. I have way too much of it, and chances are, you do too.

Why do we have all of this stuff? What is so important about having 4 different pairs of headphones? What is so important that we have to fill our houses/apartments/dorms with useless junk?

There is no reason to have it. None. Nada. Zip. Zilch.

So my charge to you and to myself, figure out those things in your life that you really need, and get rid of the rest. Donate it, recycle it, repurpose it, but just get rid of it.

You will be happy you did.

Sacrifices

Tue, 01 Mar 2011 08:00:07 -0500

If you were to give up all those things in your life that took you away from your passion, is it really a sacrifice? I have been juggling with that problem for several weeks, trying to get ready for all of my auditions. In times of stress, I start to rely heavily on those things that help me to “de-stress”, things like watching movies on Netflix, going to the bar, and wasting time on Facebook. At the time, I feel like those things take away the stress of whatever is coming, but in reality, they create more stress, because I being to wonder what I could have been doing with that time. Inevitably, I could have been practicing, doing homework, or anything else actually productive.

So now my goal is to make some “sacrifices”, to try and become something better for myself. The less time I waste on fruitless efforts, the more time I will have to study and practice for the things that really matter in my life.

There are so many things in this life that people needlessly hold on to for temporary comfort. Things like television, alcohol, nicotine, and junk food are associated with feeling better, when in reality, they make things worse most of the time. It is time for everyone to examine their lives to figure out these thing that give false hope and temporary pleasure, and to seek out the things that give long-term joy and fulfillment.

To sit...

Tue, 22 Feb 2011 11:49:21 -0500

Is to relax and let nothing affect you.

Is to contemplate the world around you.

Is to determine a plan of action.

Is to let all stress go from your mind.

Is to enjoy a cup of coffee with no distractions.

Is to commune with friends over a bottle of wine.

Is something that we all need to do more of.

Everyday, just sit for five minutes. Do nothing else while you sit there, except maybe drink a cup ‘o joe. No music, no email, no phone, no computer. Just you, sitting.

Today

Mon, 21 Feb 2011 10:39:00 -0500

Today is the day that I create myself.

Today is the day that I will shape my mind, body, and soul.

Today is the day that I become myself, the me that I am meant to be.

I will make myself better, and I will make myself me.

Today I will be me.