life ends one minute at a time. seize every moment of it.

What you see is not what you get.

2022-02-03T02:54:00.005-08:00

Not everything you see on the surface is what you get underneath, there are many undertones to it.

Instead of admiring others, why not live your life to the fullest?

what Buddhism taught me

2019-05-22T09:46:00.001-07:00

Being born and raised a Christian, we were always taught to forgive and forget, forgive and forget, and forgive and forget. As Jesus has forgiven 7 times, we have to forgive and forget 7 x 7 times. When we were much younger, yes I obeyed. But as a kid who always wants to get answers, I started questioning, why did certain things happened the way they did.

Ultimately the big D introduced me too Buddhism. And eventually I understand why. One word: karma. I mean forgive is one thing, but why does things happen? I simply demand an answer. So perhaps forgiving and forgetting (Christianity) combined with Buddhism's karma teaching, gave a somewhat half-answer.

人生。三次

2017-09-03T08:51:00.003-07:00

有人说。。如果人生有曾经谈过一次轰轰烈烈，真心的爱情，死也无遗憾了。
是时候感谢上天。

第一次，22-23岁时；

第二次，2011-2012；

第三次。。。

祝福。

2017-09-02T09:40:00.001-07:00

我真的喜欢你, 闭上眼, 以为我能忘记, 但流下的眼泪, 却没有骗到自己。

缘份缘份, 有缘无份, 真的爱你, 或许分开对你我都是解脱, 祝你幸福。

真相。

2017-04-01T08:06:00.001-07:00

你眼睛看到的, 耳朵聽到的, 未必都是真的;
即使是真的, 可能也還有背後未知的部分。
所以要求自己一定要有獨立思考和判斷的能力, 千萬不能人云亦云。

The RELOCATION

2017-03-25T18:55:00.000-07:00

Only a handful of people know this, but I relocated to KL end of Feb 2017, I have already relocated to KL. It was something I've always wanted to do, and eventually I did it.

The main reasons:

1. The mouths of people - my first few years in insurance when I did really well, I heard a lot of "coz he has got good family background, his father's contacts, blah blah blah" discounting all the crazy hard work I've put upon myself. Truth is, I worked very very hard for all that I have today, and I still am.

2. The 'circle' - the circle is so ... chillax n free n so up-in-everybody's business that for the last few years, I couldn't even find anyone to hang out with anymore. Except for a handful of people. Most of the time I just wanted to hide in my room n record my voice (pathetic, I know~)

3. Independence. I love my 2 fatties, but truth is, I think it's truly time to move on, to learn how to take care of myself, to prove that I am not a child anymore.

4. Career - I didn't do what I was supposed to do years back, which is why I think it's time for me to catch up within the shortest time possible. Have been searching n exploring, and finally found what I have been looking for, so why wait? The time is NOW.

5. Retirement - Considering how MYR has dropped over the years, it is really very difficult to retire if you don't earn a decent living, over the years we have seen people making 2K/m feeding families of 6, but I am not one of those people, I wanna retire early (not necessarily fabulously), but I want to have a proper, comfy life. So it's time to change course.

Perhaps 5 years down the road I'll move back to Pg? Nobody knows. I think that's what makes life fun anyways, the unknown. Or maybe I'll move to the US?

Whatever it is, I am in a good place right now. I am happy, doing what I felt like I should be doing.
And you should feel this way too. :)

迷茫。

2017-03-22T07:15:00.001-07:00

人。

2017-02-02T01:28:00.001-08:00

有自由的人想有個伴, 有伴的人想更多自由;
人, 都是矛盾的生物。

Losing you.

2017-01-30T10:12:00.001-08:00

After sometime, I realized that losing you wasn’t really a loss. Losing you made sense. Losing you was inevitable.
I lost you because I never really had you.
You were never really mine, you were always searching for something away from me — you were always thinking of someone else when you were with me.
I lost you because I would’ve lost who I was if I held onto you. I lost you to find myself.
See, I learned that it’s better to lose some people than to hold on to the hope of them coming back, because a person who doesn’t want to lose you, will never let you slip away. But you didn’t fight. You didn’t try. And in turn, you made my decision for me.
You made it easier for me to think of losing you as another way to find myself — another way to save myself. And for the first time, you made me realize that not every person you lose is a loss and that losing can sometimes be winning.
For the first time, you made me realize that losing someone is sometimes the only way to love yourself.
For the first time, you made me realize there is so much more to be found in losing someone who was never meant to stay.
Losing you was hard, but keeping you was harder.
Losing you was a lesson but not a loss.
Losing you was my favorite win.

今晚。

2017-01-30T08:17:00.001-08:00

幸福其实可以很简单: 两罐汽水，配上轻轻的音乐，加上比冷气舒服的海风。

沒經歷過這６件事, 你無法成長？

2017-01-06T04:01:00.000-08:00

1、無論如何，請好好善待那個陪著你一起赴湯蹈火、面對孤獨的「自己」。
為什麼常常說要多愛「自己」一點，因為有時候我們因為生活裡的不如意，把世界拒絕在外，卻不顧自己；因為有時候我們愛了一個人，願意為對方赴湯蹈火，卻不顧自己；因為有時候我們為了挽回一段你騙自己對方還愛你的戀情，把尊嚴踐踏的在地，卻不顧自己，有一天，你會發現一路上當所有都離開了，留下了傷痕累累的你，而那個至始至終沒有因為你的好、你的壞、你的自私、你的任性而離開的，其實是你「自己」。

2、有時候，生活就是逆來順受
後來長大後，我們漸漸地看清了許多人，學著不再去輕易拆穿了，知道了很多事，也不在隨意地說出口了，想說出口的話，也慢慢的學著咽在喉嚨，一聲不響的吞下了，
那不是冷漠，只是開始發現，沒有時間在浪費自己的時間在那些不重要過客的生命中，知人不必言盡，留些口德，責人不必苛盡，留些肚量，得理不必爭盡，我們留些寬容。

3、在外生活，如果幸運地遇見了真心關心你的朋友，知足並珍惜
這段話很棒：「請你晚上吃飯的人很多，能給你買早餐的人太少，想請你喝酒的人很多，喝醉照顧你的人太少，生病的時候關心的人很多，能幫你買藥帶你去看病的太少，噓寒問暖的很多，能真給你送衣送傘的太少。」
大話人人都會說，小事卻人人都閃躲。

4、太多時候，我們抱怨現在的生活，卻沒發現有多少人正渴望著過我們此刻的生活
如果看看她，再看看自己，我們還有什麼理由不快樂呢？

5、人會長大三次
剛剛在網路上看到了這麼一段話：「人會長大三次。第一次是在發現自己不是世界中心的時候。第二次是在發現即使再怎麼努力，終究還是有些事令人無能為力的時候。第三次是在，明知道有些事可能會無能為力，但還是會儘力爭取的時候。」
你現在在第幾次了？

6、若把生活看成一種刁難，你終會輸，若把生活當做一種雕刻，你總能贏
所以試著抱最大希望，盡最大努力，做最壞打算，持最好心態。試著去接納生命所帶給你的一切，如果可以改變那就去改變吧，如果可以忘記就試著去忘記吧，忘不了，就先記著它吧，越是想忘有時候反而更難忘。

人生沒有特別長，每天都要是美好的日子！

经历, 经历, 没有经过，不会变厉。J.L.

2017-01-06T03:57:00.001-08:00

我真的以为我已经放下了，已经太多次告诉自己不要再主动联络你，也不要再知道你的消息。但我毕竟还是做不到，结果还是主动地短讯给你。错的已经错过了，不该做的也做了，我知道你无法原谅之前我所做的，所以我也不强求。如果有一天你回来，我会一直在这里，等着，守着。

只希望有一天你静下来的时候会想一想，当时在你最失落的时候，我有在你身边。

以前会，以后也会。

好了，再回，祝福你。Bye.

TODAY is ze day.

2016-12-21T08:14:00.003-08:00

Originally was super pumped up to have a great dinner n to end with tang yuan. Ended up I (sort of) leaped off the car and took an Uber home. I guess sometimes God works in mysterious ways, when we are busy looking for an answer, the answer is actually right in front of you. Thank you.

Not Everyone.

2016-12-19T18:31:00.002-08:00

你会发现, 无论什么经历, 都会过去。一旦过去, 一切就仅仅是回忆。如果你执着于某个痛苦经历, 回忆就延续了它对你的伤害。如果你不在乎它, 它就不过是梦幻泡影, 与一些使你愉悦的经历或记忆没有任何的区别。

过去, 过去; 过了, 就让它去吧。

到最后，剩下的只是

2016-11-08T12:24:00.001-08:00

回忆。并且只是美好的回忆。晚安。

原來，每一個在你生命裏出現的人，都有原因.

2016-09-28T18:32:00.004-07:00

生命中出現的人，可能是你喜歡的，或是不喜歡的，但其實他們的出現，都是有原因的……

每一個人的出現都有原因，喜歡你的人，給了你溫暖和勇氣。

你喜歡的人讓你學會了愛和支持。

你不喜歡的人，教會你寬容與尊重。

不喜歡你的人，讓你自省與成長。

沒有人是無緣無故的，出現在你的生命裏的，每一個人的出現都有原因……

因為看輕，所以快樂；因為看淡，所以幸福。

我們都是天地的過客，很多人事，我們都做不了主。

譬如離去的時間，譬如走散的人。

「心」字三個點，沒有一個點不在往外蹦。

你越想抓牢的，往往是離開你最快的。

一切隨緣，緣深多聚聚，緣淺隨它去。

人生，看輕看淡多少，痛苦就離開你多少。

人人都怕自己不清醒，希望自己心明如鏡。

其實人生何必太清醒？做粥要放三分米，七分水。處事要三分為己，七分為人。

對朋友要三分認真，七分寬容。對家庭要三分愛，七分責任。

看文章要三分在看，七分在品。三分…七分…不過是人生的掂量。

看的是書，讀的卻是世界；

沏的是茶，學的卻是生活；

人生就像一張有去無回的單程車票，沒有彩排，每一場都是現場直播。

HIDE.

2016-09-23T04:21:00.000-07:00

Today, something bad happened, instead of throwing myself a pity party, I think it's important for me to blog this out so I have something to refer to one day, acknowledging how I managed to recover from this.

Around 4.25pm I was going in USM to meet a friend for an appointment, and for one split of a second I was just looking down, and 'BAAAM!!' I hit the car in front of me, she was a nice Malay lady, very young (she looks) ... her hand was shaking when I asked her whether is she ok ....

It's entirely my fault, my car is quite severely damaged, my foreman said that it's going to take at least 2 weeks to get it fixed, I don't mind paying the summon, losing my NCB. But I just felt very bad for causing this unnecessary trauma and inconveniences to someone else.

But what's to be done? What's being done is being done. All we can do is, to look forward. Imma go report to the police later when the traffic is clearer. This is, again one of the darkest time this year. I hope it quickly passes.

Pray for me. And I'm sorry.

All I Ask Is ....

2016-09-18T09:15:00.003-07:00

Had a long chat with my girlfriends yday, actually what I want in my life is pretty simple (or tough, depending on what's the measurement) ... I'm only looking for someone with motivation, that's about all. I work 7 days a week, to the extend that sometimes I really wonder how I pulled through, Mons to Sats I'll be doing sales from morning to night, and singing during Sats & Suns, I know I'm not making a lot of money, but I am trying, to better my life, for a better future. Sometimes I wonder is it because the things that I want in life are so different from the general public, that I just had to drag myself through all these hard work, day in and day out ... Truth is, I only wanted someone who is at least equally motivated, you don't have to be rich, but can we fight together for a better future? Please?

Why are people these days so slumber and chillax .... I mean chilling is good ... but don't they know that the most important factor that could make a difference in lives, are the after-office-hours? Most of them choose to just hang out every night, or drink, or club, or gym (I'm not against gymming but excessive gymming is .... )

Just waiting and praying for the one to come. I won't ask for much now, God will arrange, in His time.

Puki!!

2016-09-07T09:48:00.001-07:00

有时候真的会在想, 就只因为我还没结婚, 家里没有三四个小孩, 意思就说你们可以十一点多, 甚至十二点多call我关于一些无关紧要的事情吗?? 没有结婚就是要早上8点做到晚上1点吗?? 除非是生死有关, 其实就算是生死有关, 也应该call ambulance而不是call我。please, 我也有妈妈生的好吗?? 人类都有自己私人时间的。谢谢!

阿嬷, 希望妳早日康复。

2016-08-29T06:26:00.001-07:00

My warrior ah mah, get well soon.

月圆花好。

2016-08-29T04:16:00.001-07:00

祝大家《中秋节快乐》!!
Happy Mooncake Festival~

*Thanks to #GreatEasternLife #mooncakefestival

Goodbye, Princess Dodo.

2016-08-24T06:02:00.001-07:00

Received a phone call from mum this afternoon, she said that Dodo wasn't moving. Rushed home to find that she has passed on. We don't know what's happened, no foaming, looks like she has passed on for hours.

Goodbye Dodo, thanks for accompanying us through the years.

We love you, we cherish you, you will be missed greatly. Til we meet again.

妳快乐所以我快乐。

2016-08-14T03:59:00.001-07:00

四句话。

2016-08-13T20:55:00.001-07:00

不要活在他人的世界了.

果報，總會發生在她身上.

這樣想,

世界就美好了.

Jay Chou Concert!!

2016-08-06T18:18:00.001-07:00

人生第二次看演唱会, 想不到竟然是不用钱的, #周杰伦 #JayChou 太棒了~
谢谢 #大东方 #GreatEasternLife

*也发现自己老了, 要跟人家酱挤 ... 改次还是免了, 哈哈!