It's Time To Rest

累

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Tue, 05 Jul 2011 17:37:00 +0000

为什么还是会觉得累?

面对着这一切...

真的好想停下来休息...

谁能懂 ?

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 03 May 2010 20:21:00 +0000

我放手

我让座

我离开

假装洒脱

谁能懂

我是多么的不舍得

太爱了

所以我

没有哭

也没有说
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-Song playing : 天空 (Sky) by 王菲 Faye Wong

你高兴就好...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Sun, 11 Apr 2010 15:41:00 +0000

现在才真正了解到张信哲在"爱如潮水"那首歌里的心情...

"不愿别的男人见识你的妩媚"

"不要轻易尝试放纵的滋味"

"你可知道这样会让我心碎"

你已经不是三岁小孩子了...

你爱怎样就怎样...

自己有分寸就好...

你高兴就好...

更何况, 我不是你的谁...

I mean... 我没那个本事，没那个时间，没那个资格去管你...

重点是, 从以前到现在...

你都不喜欢被管...

你也没听过我话...

我的声音, 从来都叫不醒你, 只有你身边的那个男人才有那个能力...

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虽然我还是比较喜欢以前的你...

但人始终会长大...

有些事还是得学习去面对去解决...

没有人可以照顾你一辈子...

我也不是神...就算神也不是每一次都有求必应...

别说到自己很像无路可走了一样...

别说到我很像很冷血一样...

我是谁了?

我不懂... 我能帮的事, 别人不能帮?

你谁也不想欠, 欠我却没关系?

是我人太好了吗?

如果我告诉你...

我帮你, 是有企图的...

你还会让我帮你吗?

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我这个星期开始都忙着赶毕业论文....

别怪我不理你....

天气还是很热...

多喝点水....别只顾着忙....

病了只会添麻烦而已....

东西还是要吃... don't skip your meal....

照顾好自己...

-Song playing : 不能说的秘密-钢琴版 (Secrets - Piano Version)

I'm Just Me...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Wed, 03 Mar 2010 18:43:00 +0000

I ain't a prince on a white horse...

I ain't a knight in a shining armor...

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I'm just me... when I'm with you...

-Song playing : Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls [ft. Taylor Swift]

背影

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 21:20:00 +0000

冬日午后，幽静的树林小径，只有我们两个个人...
我渐渐放慢脚步, 聆听不知明的鸟叫声...
你不时回过头来, 露出光灿的笑容, 唤我快快跟上...
望着你熟悉的背影, 一股莫名的悲伤突然涌来...
这么幸福的时刻, 可以一直走下去吗?
我愈走愈慢,愈走愈慢... 泪流满面...
幸福的步道, 总是那么短... 我们可不可以赖着不走 ?
-几米《背影》

Winter afternoon, a peaceful forest path, there were only 2 of us...
I slowed down my steps, listened to birds' chirping...
You turned back and smiled at me, reminded me to keep up with you...
While looking at your back, sadness has already flooded my heart...
Such blessing moment, can it continues forever?
I walked slower, and slower... I couldn't stop the tears....
The path of happiness are always short... Can't we just stop from moving forward?
-Jimmy "Backs"

有时候... 走在你的前面不代表我不在乎走在后面的你... 我只是不希望看着你离去背影...
sometimes... walking in front of you doesn't means that I don't care about you at the back... just that I don't wish to look at your back while you're walking away...I'd feel the same like how Jimmy expresses it above...

-Song playing : Already Gone by Kelly Clarkson

Bye @ 2009

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Thu, 31 Dec 2009 15:31:00 +0000

This will be the last entry for 2009 lols

actually this blog has no particular meaning or what so ever...juz feel like it to hav a last entry of 2009 b4 it ends lols...

like Foamy said : "every year is the same damn year"... especially for those who did nothing and contribute nothing at all... i hav no clue, why people celebrate new year every year if they gonna do the same mistake over and over again... well, i do not reli celebrate it, except wishing my frens happy new year...

hmm...I did had fun throughout 2009 and lots of things had changed too... it could be worse thou lols...

so here I wish my family and all my frens (and also whoever are reading this) a happy new year, hope u hav a great year ahead. Enjoy~

-Song playing : None

W.A.Y.

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 28 Dec 2009 17:53:00 +0000

...Where are you?

-Song playing : Here Without You by 3 Doors Down

Alone

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 19:25:00 +0000

惨淡的月光映在你逐渐消失的身影。

空气杀那间凝结，白雾是泪水的化身还是叹气的心痛？谁知晓？谁在意？

让冷空气包围，提醒自己你已不在的拥抱。

我望着前方，却什么也看不见，少了你，未来就像断了一样。

你的离开带来无声的夜，无底的洞，无心的爱，无尽的路，那我还剩什么？

我站在一个人的舞台，跳着漫长的曲，芭蕾的柔美，天鹅的悲伤，却不会累。

灯光打在我身上，舞台下唯一看见的是台上的泪光。

我不停地旋转，目光只锁在你离去的出口，泪却让我看不清。

会晕吗？不会。

我在等待，等待着你再一次出现，握住我的手，稳住我的步，跳不再寂寞的舞曲，演两个人的故事。
每一划，一勾，一踏，一跳都宣誓着华丽的心疼。

我不累却在跌下后站不起来，麻木地坐在台上，
犹如垂败的天鹅，沉溺在寂静的湖，感受没有温度的月光。

灯光打在舞台上，广阔的舞台，一首歌，一个背影，一滴泪，一世的等待。

-Rachel, 2008

This entry is dedicated to my pen-pal Rachel, who loves drawing as I do... but nowadays she's more busy sharpening her language lols... so she wrote this to me last time on messenger... I promised her to try my best to draw it out... But in the end I think it's cooler with the help of photoshop instead of drawing it all by myself, since my drawing skills never improved much...

Sorry coz I'm too lazy to translate all of them into English - - lols...

P/S to Rachel : Heys, sorry I took that long to make this 1 lols...and you forgot to give me a title !! lols

-Song playing : 如果我变成回忆(If I Became Memories ) by Tank

原来...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 21:08:00 +0000

以前的我，像一个迷失方向的船...

在风雨中徘徊...为了找到自己的避风港...

一直寻寻觅觅...寻寻觅觅...

现在的我，则像一个的港口...

让船只停泊，避雨...然后再看着船只一一离去...

剩下的只有等待...等待...

原来有了梦以后，梦醒了会更难过...

原来不是只要有付出，就一定能得到回报...

原来不会因为痛过了哭过了，就因此而不哭...

原来还是会害怕寂寞...

原来自己谁都不是...

-Song playing : 分裂(Broke Apart) by Jay Chou

I am not surprised....

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 17:37:00 +0000

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round

And now I think that I've got it all down

And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds

Cause I'm not taking the easy way out

Not wrappin' this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out

When I thought that I wouldn't know how

Held onto it forever, just pushing it down

Felt so good to let go of it now

Not wrapping this in ribbons

Shouldn't have to give a reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow

There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow

God knows we tried to find an easier way

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

That's why this comes as no,

As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out

I bet it's better than where we are now

But after going through this

It's easier to see the reason why

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow

I can't believe that I stayed till today

Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go

The warm embrace that no one knows

The loving look that's left your eyes

But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

-Song playing : No Surprise by Daughtry

Roads apart....

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Sun, 23 Aug 2009 21:06:00 +0000

To A Friend Who Used To Be:

It doesn't matter to me anymore, neither to you...you never read my blog anyway...

7 years.... It's been fun....

I will remember the songs we sang togather....

I know you wont... since your memories will only use on him... I'm fine with it...

Just to let you know: I wont forget....and yes, it hurts for remembering it....

Never thought that a friendship could be this fragile...

I've been telling you these all this while...

But now...

These are the only thing I can say to you, and the only thing I will say to you...

Good luck.....Take care....Thanks for everything...

-Song playing :珊瑚海(Sea of Corals) by Jay Chou

...Can I Love You?

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 17:47:00 +0000

...Can I Love You?

-Song playing : 心跳(Heart Beats) by Lee Hom

Juz Started Training ...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 08 Jun 2009 17:03:00 +0000

don't have much time to blog lately...1 thing is becoz every time come back from work most like i'll be exhausted...

summo now in training...nd to change my sleeping time back to normal ppl.... as in sleep at night , works at days...

*I MISS MY CAMPUS LIFE BACK THEN T.T* (er...more like the sleeping part actually XD)

nw every weekdays need to wake up at 6.30am in the morning... which I rarely applied it back in campus life even i got 8am class lol... and in juz 1 week time, i even developed the habits of taking shower and eating breakfast *in the morning*(need to emphasize the word morning lol)...which again...almost never happened to me before this = = lol it's a good thing i guess XD lol...

well , nd to sleep edi... gotta wake up early... i almost late to work this morning lol... will try to update bout my training life when i'm free... so far the only hang out thing i did here is went clubbing wif Kiki last week, ended up nearly cant make it back at home lol... drank too much lol... thx Alex again for guiding me home while i was driving lol...

till then...

-Song playing : White Eyes by Gackt

When Love Story meets Viva La Vida

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 18 May 2009 17:24:00 +0000

Was told by my pet sis bout this song.... at first I was like

"Ok......love story and viva la vida?...hmmm...."

Then moments later, Jo told me about this song again....

So I went to check out this song on youtube...

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Really speechless... damn nice the song... If u guys like Love Story or Viva La Vida or both.... this song, for me at least, is a must to my songs collection....

It's a piano & cello combination.... by Jon Schmidt as the pianist while his friend plays the cello...

here's the video :

or u can go to this link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0v3d6SFcDys

hope you all enjoy this song as much as I do... really can't wait till they come out with the song in mp3.... and I have to say... these 2 fella really enjoy music ....A LOT... c the way when they're playing the song...

-Song playing(on youtube) : Love Story Meets Viva La Vida by Jon Schmidt

Random - 2 : Emo

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 21:08:00 +0000

Getting too laid back this few days after submitted 1 assignment and finished off a few exams... It's not good coz I still got 2 assignments = =

Juz came back from town after brought Kiki, my childhood friend and her bf went around Malacca and ate some nice food (for me at least lol)...PK edi... sien... I need money ~...lots lots of money XD...haiz guess I spent too much on food d...time for me to go for diets or something like tat d...

Recently get addicted to this song...heard this song when I was hanging up wif my frens in McDonald for supper... Nice song indeed... Dunno why recently I kinda like addicted to emo songs lol...

A Little Not Too Over You by David Archuleta

Oohh....
It never crossed my mind at all
It's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you....

Memories, supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard
Should be strong, movin' on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah...
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go, I'll never understand
I'll never understand, yeah, oohh..
Oohhh, oohhh, oohhhh...
Oohhh, ooohhhh, oohhh...

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why it's so hard to forget
Don't remind me, I'm not over it
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you
Not over you, oohhh...

*look at the clock*...It's already 6am in the morning....time to sleep...Till then...

P/S : HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY @ Crystal Sue =)

-Song playing : A Little Not Too Over You by David Archuleta

About Life...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 18:39:00 +0000

Receive an email from Xia... not the 1st time I receive those emails with nice and meaningful messages.... but dunno why today I could feel it while reading it....

The email is about a married couple.... the bride had terminal cancer... yet it was not stopping the couple from the marriage... unfortunately, she died...five days after that..... but when looked at those photos they took during their wedding, one thing is definite... The smile on their face... The feelings of happiness....

Moral of this story? ...well...depends on u guys... I know somebody gonna give me silly answers... I dun give a dam bout these people...

Well... Life IS short... and most of the time, life is not exactly as the one we are hoping for...But heys... as long as we are still breathing... as long as we have dreams to chase after... as long as there is love is this world.... life is actually not bad as u think... there are lots of people out there, suffer more than you do....

For God's sake... some people getting upset over shitty things like : not enough money to buy stuff they want...too many house chores to do... no much variety of food to eat during recess time...

Do you know that there people out there, only has 1 dollar,maybe less to spend in one day for food and stuff?
Do you know that there people out there don't even has a house to live?
Do you know how many children in poor countries died of starving every day?

For those you don't know...seriously, you need some helps....

I feel pathetic to those who don't appreciate of what they have , yet still asking for what they don't have... If anyone tell me that those misfortunes are karma to those people... GO KILL YOURSELF... Don't get me wrong, I do believe in karma... the thing is, I'm not asking for you to feel pity and must help those people in return....I'm saying...pls....appreciate your life now... especially students nowadays.... life without hot girls, too much assignments, strict family, not enough money is suck? Try live in place where's having wars any time, with no freedom to go out anytime you want, worrying wether your place will be bombarded or you kitchen always run out of food supply or worrying: WILL I GET KILLED TODAY?... and don't fuck with me with your "Die la...not enough time to finish assignment" or "I will die without internet connection"... you have no idea at some countries, hoping for safety are not even possible...

Again, again, and again...

I just hoping u guys... appreciate your life... even if you don't, I don't give a fuck... it's your life... just remember : more smiles, less hatred.... more appreciation, less complains... Life is good actually depends on how you look at it :)

Ok...times to continue my studies...got exam in less than 12 hours time yet I'm blogging lol

Till den~

*Teaser* upcoming post : Cyber Fusion 09'... still working on the post and gathering photos... will post it when it's done lol...ya i know, I delayed again...

-Song playing : Sacrifice by Creed

Threatened

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 02 Mar 2009 18:06:00 +0000

Officially 2 months never update my poor little blog...sorry guys... not because I'm lazy.... but I was really busy back then... and then lots of stuff happened which made me can't go online and blogging.... I already have 2 pending blog entries in my account = =" 1 is my PD trip with my family during CNY and another 1 is Valentines....

Haiz....

In this entry....Juz wanna sum up what happened recently, what am I going to do and some random thoughts of mine these days... and to "deco" my blog so it don't looks outdated too much lol XD

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Summary of my life recently :

We juz finished 4 performances... another last performance in April... kinda happy since we receive more offer these semester but kinda tired as well....*phew*...

Looking at upcoming assignments and projects are killing me .... and it's not like I want to blame my lecturer...but why the heck give us such assignment only when it's end of week 5? ...other subjects having the same assignment already started since week 1.... haiz.... well, at least he cut off some parts and we don't need to do the full program... but collaboration between each and single group will be v crucial nw....

My phone's battery was spoiled = ="...cannot talk on phone for long else the battery die on the spot... damn afraid to recharge it every time coz I scare it will expose lol... already reminded myself to get a new battery but keep on forgotten...

Went for IBM test last 2 week... was waiting for their call till my neck grew like giraffe edi lol..... Most like I will able to work there if at least I pass the test....*start praying*... lol reli can't wait for the days to come...days working in IBM ...kinda nervous thou... finally they called me last week... but even thou I passed the test... my status is still not confirm yet...so basically... WAITING again lol...

But at the same time...problems came in...not just me, I believe there are students facing the same problems like me too... Our resume were sent out to other companies RANDOMLY by our beloved lecturers...some at least asked us before they submit but some...huh... without any question... and once they shortlisted us, we can't even ask to take us out from the list... and we CAN NOT reject the offers once any company want to take us no matter it's our preferred choice....

Yeah, decision rights are totally at their hands which I do not have a problem at all... the problem is they don't respect our decision and whenever we tried to talk to them nicely... what do we get? >>> Get farking scolded and screwed upside down, inside out by them... and said we are demanding and wasted their efforts looking for company for us... what ever... yeah I know sitting in the air-con room , clicking the mouse and making a few calls are very hard and tiring because can't go home early after work...

So again, I do not have any problem with the decision rights of the lecturers... the thing is... we can't contact the companies inside the lecturers' lists by ourselves.... and heck, they cover most of the good companies we can think of... so it's not like we don't know which company to choose from the beginning... we KNEW... just that we are forced to go under faculty placement instead of own placement... if we were found out contacting those companies under own placement >>>>> Say goodbye to your industrial training...no training for you !! HAHA....

Here is my humble suggestion : farking allow us to contact the companies by ourselves k?... for those who don't know how to take the initiative, is their own problems, don't blame us who worked so hard on everything and said it's unfair for them... fark that.... they can ask for helps from lecturers and THEN tell them lecturers have the total right to decide their status since they ask for it....

Besides...I think all of this happen coz last time there were students screwed things up... making the lecturers need to do all this to us.... something like a student was demanding, till he rejected all offers except for one that he was hoping to get...in the end, failed...and he then went back to the lecturer and beg for the companies that he rejected... which is rather pathetic to me if there's some one doing this right now...

Proofs? these are some of the words we heard from our lecturer...
-"You sure you want to reject this offer and wait for XXXX company? Are you going to ask me to short list you again if you failed?"
-Stop being demanding, as a student you shoudn't be demanding" "No, it's not ma'am...I want to...." "Yes you ARE"

and here's some shit which I personally received from a beloved lecturer:
"If you want to be demanding, I'll just put you in own placement instead,how about that?"
"...."
"So you want me to put in under own placement?"
"Ma'am, it seems like I don't have a choice isn't it ?"
"YES , you don't have a choice."
"...Alright. I will go for the interview." (pissed)
"Good. Let me say it again. You don't have the right to reject any interview or offer. If not, I will put in under own placement."
"Yes yes" (pissed)
"And one more thing. If I hear anything which I don't like to hear from that company, I will not allow you to continue your training next semester. IS.THAT. CLEAR? "
"......clear"(tried my best to control my tone)
(then she hang up the phone)

What kinda attitude is this? and she's threatening me didn't she?.... I'm not a coward, but I know what to do is the best, and there's a few of thing i need to take care of...so I didn't let my anger to overtake my mind that moment... things would had gone ugly if I don't... and most likely will bring chain reactions upon other students as well... so I ate all the shit and swallowed them all that day.... and I'm still pissed of right now whenever I think about it... Arggg... I told myself do not live with hatreds... but this one....I've never feel like slapping anyone this much before...

well... nothing I can do for now...just wanna enjoy my one week holidays before all the assignments start throwing in...and I'm sleepy now after bz for the whole day...

P/S : Miss you Granpa

-Song playing : Home by Daughtry

a short break...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 07:05:00 +0000

back to my sweet, quiet, peaceful hometown...

looked at my blog... damn... it's totally outdated !! uh!!... what to do? I was so busy before and even after my bloody exam last 2 weeks ago, and even I finish my exams, I don't have the time to do my own stuff...I can't event play games or online or blogging for god's sake.... on top of that, I can't even sleep nicely T.T... simply bz man...to be honest... ever since my exam finished, now only I have the time to sit down and start harassing my keyboard (keyboard: wtf?? ) lol /XD

see... after my exam, I got some sort of "intensive training" for the following 2 days for my pipa... there will be a Chinese orchestra concert coming April, and my seniors encouraged us (new members/ students regardless which instrument are we learning...) to participate in the performance.... so I went...but the problem is, I don't see the point of putting so much effort already... I did at first... but not anymore... not until at least the pipa me and my friends ordered since 6 months ago reach our hands man!! Our teacher still can't get them from his friend, who he claimed that he already bought them and brought them over from Singapore... but heck... 6 months... we still empty handed... all of them even new students can just practice at home during holidays coz they have their own instruments... but only us who learn pipa...haha... for god's sake...we still need to borrow from the society... and we can't bring back to our hometown... coz those are the society's properties :| ...I understand that...but I totally lost the passion to join the coming orchestra man... not this year at least...

*I WANT MY PIPA!!* /floor

right after that "training"... next 2 days, I got society works to do... Chinese New Year Event on next semester... I'm the working committee... so need to help out to build some props stuff for the event... tightening the canes till my fingers turned red lol... anyway... still they are ppl enjoying there instead of doing works anyway... that's what I don't like... but glad to made some new friends during these 2 days coz I didn't went for the camp for all the working committees... so I don't even really know all my colleges in this event = ="...

so, I had my exams on Thursday and Friday... orchestra practices on Saturday and Sunday... event preparations on Monday and Tuesday....... I was totally worn out ... and for some personal reasons... I need to stay in Malacca till Thursday only can go back my home town... so basically I already finished 1st week of my holiday by that time.... minus off another few days to do the cleaning thingy and shopping... and of cos few days of CNY with my cousins... I only have like...I dunno... ONE WEEK of holiday this time actually /omg...

I need more rest also... /floor

P/S : I know I didn't update my blog for the pass 2 weeks... but I have reason /please... I couldn't help it... too many things happened which stopped me from blogging... but at least I'm back now right? /XD

-Song playing : Tomorrow's Way by YUI

Not So Merry Christmas

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Fri, 26 Dec 2008 16:52:00 +0000

This year's Christmas is kinda different... for me...

Call me a kampung boy, coz first time celebrating in KL... Going out and count down with lots of people ( last year I did that during New Year Eve, not Christmas by the way...)

Had fun with my bb and friends... took lots of photos...Thx Sam for guiding us around, thx Ling and her bf for helping us booked the rooms... Thx the strangers who I sprayed at and also those who sprayed at me lol...Thx my Myvi of cos...This whole thnig won't be happening without you my dear... muacks... Really enjoyed indeed...

But... This year's Christmas is kinda different... not just for me.. for my family as well...

I already had bad feelings when I received the first call... but who knew it really happened...

After the second call... I lost my mood... Even thought friends sms me wishing me Merry X'mas... I really don't have the mood...but since I promised her to enjoy with her that night... I have to bear with it... I don't want her to lost her mood as well because of my matters...

Next afternoon, rushed back to Malacca, packed my stuff, then only rushed back to Klawang again...from North to South then back to North again... damn tired...

Saw my family and cousins...have a look on him, told him that I came back...

Everything seems happened too fast.... I can't describe my feelings....

Well... I need to sleep now... cause taking turns.... I'm one of them who's doing the night shift...

Btw....One thing I can confirm is.....

Will miss you always... Grandpa...RIP....

-Song playing : Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne

Christmas mode

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Sun, 21 Dec 2008 18:33:00 +0000

Christmas's coming in a few days later... But still haven't buy presents for my friends :|... wait wait, don't get me wrong... If you do not receive any present from me doesn't mean that you're not my friend k? C'mon... you can't expect me to buy presents for each and all of my friends can you? I'm not that rich :(... heck, I can't even buy present for myself :(

Like most of us did when Christmas is around...Feel like posting Christmas present wish list in this entry ... Heys I know it's kinda syok sendiri (enjoying myself) coz I don't expect my friends to get me these items... but more like items that I want to buy myself with my own savings lol....but it's my first time writing a wish list so just let me be lol Besides, it's not like I'm hoping my friends to buy those stuff for me... And it's kinda late already don't ya think?

-GUNDAM WING ZERO

I can't find HG version of this :(( ...MG is too much for my budget for now... I also searched for forums looking for someone who's selling second hand... and I MISSED it... at jbtalk.cc... by the time I saw the post, Wing Zero already sold off... the rest da guy left are not the Gundams I like... Still looking for it and want to have this in my collection... anyone???

-Violet Sandalwood Pipa with Ivory Pegs and Frets

This dam thing costs 8000USD O.O.... Ivory and Violet Sandalwood, what do you expect? ...According to eason.com.sg... this limited edition claimed to be the finest pipa for now, made by a famous master and there are only 4 in this world... dang....It's gonna feel great by holding one of these in your hand don't you think? by the way, Ivory is not the reason at all for me to buy this thing... and I know most countries banned Ivory products... I like this pipa coz it's made of Violet(Red) Sandalwood, which is known as one of the best material for making furnitures and instruments like pipa... Why am I even hoping for this thing? As a beginner, holding it will only degrade it man lol... should get those match with my level and also in my budget lol ... Actually I'm going to get 1 sooner or later... but it's RM500 instead of the 8000USD above lol... I waited for half year already but the pipa me and my friends ordered still haven't come = =...

Razor Tarantula

Ya I need another keyboard badly... not because my current 1 sucks...my motherboard I just changed last sem don't have a bloody ps2 port , and my keyboard is not using USB... so all this time I was depending on a stupid convertor... which gave me some stupid performance... such as when I was holding multiple keys at the same time and released any one of the keys, the rest will "release" as well even I was still holding the keys... And this thing is very very very annoying for me as a gamer... Conclusion, I need a keyboard with USB... So if I'm going to get a new 1... why don't get a better 1? XD... Razor is my 1st choice of cos... I don't want Lycosa coz Kei Fai (my roommate) got it already lol...

Nike Lunaracer +

I love jogging... and I have 2 pairs of sport shoes, one for basketball, one for jog... But I wanted a Lunaracer+ since the product was out... I know it's been a while since this product was introduced... But what to do? That time I don't have money to buy la... No idea what's da price now in Malaysia... hopefully dropped lol...

I guess that's all for this time... I was dam bz this 2 weeks and I actually left out 2 posts = =.... exam >> performance >> assignment >> exam >> assignment again... haiz....

Anyway, MERRY X'MAS to u all lol Have a nice day XD

-Song playing : Ready To Love by YUI

Gaming experiece and opinions...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Sun, 07 Dec 2008 17:49:00 +0000

Well at 1st I was just leaving a post on a discussion board on facebook... But as I start typing, I wrote more and and more... So I decided to put it inside my blog instead...

I like playing games... Especially action, 1st person shooting, RPG ,sports or any combination of these... But I do play(played) other genres of game :

I still play DotA, but not really addicted to it...
Strategy games like Red Alert 3 or Kane's Wrath (with friends in my unit)... hope can get StarCraft 2 from my friends soon...
Used to play CS with friends at cyber cafe, but not anymore since I came over Malacca...

Other shooting games : Quake 3, Halo 2, Half Life, Black...
Driving games :Street Racing Syndicate, NFS Most Wanted(ya, I didn't play Pro Street or Undercover), Burnout Revenge ( simply like crashing other cars lol)
Simulation games : The Sims, Sim City 3000/4000, Spore....
Horror games : Silent Hill, Alone In the Dark (PS1)...
Sport games : NBA Street V3, Def Jam Fight, WWE 07-08, Winning Eleven 08'...

Note that some of the games I mentioned are really old... Cause I can play over and over again until I really get bored over it lol...

Among all the games, I'm a BIG fan of Kingdom Hearts, God of War, Final Fantasy (VII & VIII in particular), Devil May Cry... and currently crazy over Dead Space...Damn scary...Even thou I was not a big fan of horror game, but this game is really bloody nice... Playing this game at night + alone + light off + putting on headset... Enough said lol... but after getting used to it... I'm kinda immune to the sudden appearance of monsters during the game play... yet the setting and environment still scared the shit out of me... Like voice of some1's giggling/moaning while your walking in the dark,or the celling/windows suddenly explode right at your face, or a sudden lights off when your wallking in a corridor...

- Dead Space's Addiction XD

Anyway, in this entry, I just want to voice out my opinions towards gaming... 1st of all, shooting games... Dear game developers... shooting games are, and ONLY, meant for PC , trust me... no other console are better and easier to aim with then using mouse...I don't know about Wii since I don't know much about it... But as far as I experienced... aiming using PS2 or xbox joystick are just stupid... And some games even have auto aim... Wth?? What's the fun of playing shooting game if it's auto aim?? For anyone who likes the auto aim thing and actually enjoying it... Go aim yourself at the head....I don't care if any of you guys out there is pro in shooting game using joystick... It's stupid... Not you, but the controls... Support PC for shooting games yo!!!

Most of the the games I like, like KH & GoW... They are going to change from PS2 to PS3 for their next game... or change to other console like Nintendo or even cellphones.... What the heck is happening??? Why must they force us to buy new console ?? If it's just the graphic that improved...Then I rather keep the game in the same platform so I can still play the game without buying new console... It's not like I don't appreciate better graphic or new environment like playing with Wii... I do... I like games with high resolutions and graphics, but for god's sake, create new original game or at least with new story/characters will ya?? like Final Fantasy...changing platforms is acceptable since the stories are independent for each version.. I really hates it when they have some nice game in PS2, the story was no ending when you finish the game, and you need to continue the story in PS3 or other console...WTF????

-Birth by Sleep...I wanna play!! T.T
-

What worse is...some nice games only available in PSP ...what the heck?...now they put visual satisfaction aside, go for portability... Is ability to play games EVERYWHERE that much of a selling point? I still don't understand why ppl like PSP, really... playing a high graphics performance game with a screen of a size of your palm is not cool at all... bringing it along to class and play games during the lecture is not cool as well... You can play during your meal, when your in a bus or what so ever... Just go away from me if your in my class k? ... Nope, I'm not saying this because I don't have a PSP, heck, I can just buy it whenever I want to...I just don't like PSP, k?...

-Ain't a fan of PSP man !!

Guess that's all for this time... I shall talk bout it again next time... I've already postponed this post for too long coz I was kinda bz back then... Another post is waiting for me to finish also, the one I wrote after I came back from my JLPT and Klang trip... Hopefully can post it by this week...

P/S: Thank you Mr S.Andrew for postponing the System Analysis & Design exam but sir, next time inform us earlier la... not at the morning of the exam date = ="...

-Song playing : Tongue Tied by Faber Drive

Getting sore throat while losing my voice...

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Wed, 26 Nov 2008 19:26:00 +0000

Went for crypto tutorial class this morning... quite shock when I saw Dr Heng was inside the class instead of Mr Lim... coz I thought Mr Lim is suppose to in charge our tutorial section... To be honest, Dr Heng is more strict when comes to quiz , and that's what I worried... Coz I was not feeling well since last night, so didn't studied much for the quiz... And I studied for the wrong chapter after found out which chapter came out = ="...But luckily the quiz was quite easy...*phew*...

I fetched K5, Jo and Ivy, went searching for the Immigration Office... took us almost 1 hour time, ended up still couldn't find it... Because all the directions we acquired from all the people along the way were not accurate and precise enough... Until we called Jo's aunt, then only found out the Office moved into a building called Seri Negeri Melaka...which we were actually passed by for few times in our search of this bloody office... We decided to go again next time since it should be closed by the time we reach there...

Highlight of today : Joined my BB and her classmates to celebrate her friend's Birthday...
Venue : Dream Box Karaoke@ Carrefour...
Time : 8pm - 1am...

First time going out with her friends with that numbers of ppl...20 over ppl... only knew few of them before this...but overall , it was fun hanging out with them tonight... sang till I lose my voice... uh... well...it was expected each time go for karaoke...Already sore throat, now I made it worse lol... padan muka...

Talking bout Dream Box... It's consider a new k-box around... My comment? hmm.... Service good la... Songs available...well...not really up to date... the food for the buffet are nice thou, even the choices are not really much... Price... I think Go Go Ktv is cheaper... I don't know about the small rooms, but the large room is nice for me...

Before I go to sleep....Happy Birthday to Vancas~ =)

-Song playing : My Immortal by Evanescense

Random - 1

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Mon, 24 Nov 2008 20:17:00 +0000

Can't sleep .... Don't why...

Everyone in my house slept already... Same goes to my friends on msn... I don't think there is anyone else I know is awake by now...

Something is wrong with me... But I don't know what is it... A lots of stuff in my mind now... And a lots of work are waiting for me to finish... But I just can't concentrate all these while...

Still haven't study for Japanese, nor prepared for JLPT, which is coming on 6 Dec ><... I know Jo and Ivy will start teasing me said I no need to study 1... Heck, I only get A- for MMU's Jap paper last semester... I better start burning my oil to study Jap.... I don't want to failed the paper ><...

Performance.... on 13th Dec... Haven't start full practice yet... heck, not even settle the full performance moves/beats yet... *Headache*.... Running out time, and at the same time we have problem finding the venue and time to practice....Ya I know we are noisy group of people... Complains from here and there all the time... Used of it, yet sick of it...

Industrial training is another thing.... Why the heck I can't get the offer letter again? Miss V? ... And heck, I even got scolded just because I asked for the offer letter earlier... What's wrong with asking it earlier????? If I failed to get the company I'm looking for because of you, or one day you scold me for asking it late,I swear I will complain this shit to the Dean so he can screw you up for me... Dammit! Arg!

8am class later and I'm still here.... haiz... sienz... Wanted to print notes , but ink finished = =" ... Screw it... Now have to pay more attention to Dr Heng while in the Cryptography class... Already missed 2 hours last week... Need to catch up quickly...

Song playing : 天天夜夜 (trans: Everyday, Everynight) by F.I.R.

Q&A Session About Me

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 19:33:00 +0000

Tagged by Ivy, so I guess I can't just ignore it right? lol
Here it goes :

1. What is it that bothers you the most?
Industrial training for now...

2. What is your most favorite thing to do?
Drawing, listening to musics/ songs, sleeping...

3. What is the motto of your life??
-Music is life...and life is just like music...Hear it, feel it.....
-Aim and work for what you want... In the same time, accept and appreciate of what you had...
-Family, friends, and my significant other are equal...

4. What will you do when you're feeling angry/disappointed with someone?
Complaining about it to a third party(mostly close friends)...or blog it out like my previous post lol...

5. What is the most important thing to you?
Family & Friends...

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Nope...

7. Are you afraid of pain ?
Depends...Coz sometime I have to face it and take it...

8. What do you feel like doing right now?
Was planning to study...but feel like sleeping lol...

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Depends...

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
Helpful, friendly, and able to keep secret for friends lol...

11.What is your 5 most passionate thing at this moment?
Working over my blog header/design, blogging, drawing, following One Piece story, preparing for JLPT...

12. Do you think friendship important than loveship?
Both are important to me...

13. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Rice...I guess...Since I already had it for the past 20 years lol...

14. What do you think about your life right now?
So far so good...

15. What is the most expensive present you give before?
A piggy soft toy...

16. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Hopefully a man with a career, stable income and still developing for more skills...

17. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Anything except my height lol...Wished to be a bit taller but I already stopped growing =/...

18. Do you consider yourself as selfish? Give evidence.
Sometimes. I can be very helpful but I can be very selfish also. Evidence? Ask my friends...You will get different answers from different people...

19. What do you hope to change in yourself to be a better person?
Laziness, impatience, emotional...

-Song playing : 明日もし君が壊れても by Wands

Bloody Attitude updated

noreply@blogger.com (-Sam€-) — Thu, 13 Nov 2008 20:49:00 +0000

*Warning* This post may contains vulgar language and sensitive issue for some readers...

Talking about attitude... I really don't like some workers in my university and their attitudes...
Is like, what the hell? For years, I don't really give a shit and already gave up on your efficiency on your works, but now, some of you still want to give me that f***ing attitude...

Especially that fat bastard in my faculty's office.. For god's sake, you're just a bloody clerk dammit ! We students paid your god damn salary k? Not the university nor your boss.... Ass... Hey, I'm not looking down on her just because she's a clerk k? I'm talking about her bloody shit ass f*** attitude. I'm really sick of it.....

I swear to God, EVERY TIME I went into that office, EVERY TIME she gives me that attitude when I'm referring something to her...and she NEVER failed to piss me off...Heck, she didn't even look at me when I was talking to her... Ya she did, for 1 second I guess, then continues her works on her hands while "answering" my question...

What? So happened that she is in bad mood every time I went there?? Oh I get it, university students are not kids anymore, should be treated more harshly huh? Call me sensitive or something, but yesterday when I was in there, there was a student who is the with her... Guess what? She was serving him in a nice and kind manner :

"....Yes...Yes...Oh, I don't think that is possible...Ok...So if there's anything we will inform you k? ...Bye~"

So I taught she was in a good mood today finally, but when I went up to her :

"What do you want?"
"...who can I refer to if I want to get this document approved?"
(Turned away, continue her works) "Come tomorrow."
(Another guy beside her,who works there as well) : *smile* "Your are looking for Mdm Hafizah? She's on leave today. Please come again tomorrow k?"

Thank you, the guy who answered me...Sorry coz don't know your name...
For the fat bastard : Asshole !! Go kill yourself !!

And there was once I went to the office to get my Dean's List, but no one was there... I called, but no response... I was in a hurry, so I just looked for the file with all Dean's Lists at the usual place myself since it's not my first time getting the cert...then, SHE came out from nowhere:
"What do you think you're doing? Why you're in here ?"
"I'm looking for..."
"Can't you see no one is in the office just now?"
"I called but..."
"Are you trying to steal anything? You better watch yourself boy."
"..."

First of all, WTF I want to steal from you? dammit... Pens? Papers? Money? Other students file? Big deal...Like I even care!! On top of that : AM I THAT F***ING STUPID??...

Secondly... you put it there "OPEN" at the office door and yet you lazy bastard was not there...Am I the one to be blamed?? And I called for someone dammit, and you never answer and better yet, you came out of nowhere right after I went in... What is that suppose to mean??? "Oh, I think I heard someone's calling...Never mind, he/she will leave if no one answering... I will take my time slowly..." izzit???? Argggg!!

Conclusion, she, is the only reason if someday I tell you I don't feel like going to that office. Because I don't want to ruin my mood for the rest of the day....Fat bastard...Argg!!

Comment from my BB : "Don't blame her. Maybe it's just your face's very "yong soi" (cantonese, means ugly or something like that), that's why people treat you like tat XD lol"

I was like *sweat*...and she may got the point after all lol...(looking at mirror) Does my face really that pathetic?? =/ ...Was it just me and only me getting that "service" from her? T.T...

Oh crap....I did it again... It's 6.30am already O.o... and I have class at 10am later = ="... What to do? I woke up half way I was sleeping just now at 4am... *sigh*...Nitezz !!

P/S : Izzit just me or this is the second "angry post" in a row already? lol

-Song playing : Last Song by Gackt

It's Time To Rest

累

谁能懂 ?

你高兴就好...

I'm Just Me...

背影

Bye @ 2009

W.A.Y.

Alone

原来...

I am not surprised....

Roads apart....

...Can I Love You?

Juz Started Training ...

When Love Story meets Viva La Vida

Random - 2 : Emo

About Life...

Threatened

a short break...

Not So Merry Christmas

Christmas mode

Gaming experiece and opinions...

Getting sore throat while losing my voice...

Random - 1

Q&A Session About Me

Bloody Attitude *updated*

Bloody Attitude updated