life ramblings from a lesbian geek

ooops

2006-01-10T16:15:00.000-06:00

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Medium
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very High
Pride:	Medium

Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz

goodtimes

2006-01-09T14:19:00.000-06:00

This is some of the gang celebrating carlos' birthday. Notice my hair???..This picture was actually taken the day before I chopped it all off into my hawk! Weird for me to look at.

and it begins

2006-01-04T12:44:00.000-06:00

It's been awhile since i have had a regular post here. I am almost scared to write...everything seems soo good right now...not perfect, but good. I like that. Home front is going extremely well. Me and jul seems to be finally getting back to the friendship I have so badly missed with her. I hope she knows that I will always love her and I will always have a special place for her in my life. I've joined a gym...Which does and doesn't suck at the same time. I love the burning hurting feeling while I work out..its the exhausted hurting after the workout I'm not to fond of...oh well, I know the results will be worth it. The best part of working out is my workout partners and all the girl talk ( i don't mean we talk like girls I mean we talk ABOUT girls!!!) Which brings me to the social life...I especially don't want to jinx this...all is going GOOD! goodtimes..good friends!
2006 looks bright!

cute

2006-01-04T11:00:00.000-06:00

wait for it....

2005-12-27T12:24:00.000-06:00

I have lots to post about the wonderful christmas weekend we had. Just not right now...lol...Still too tired and still recovering...it'll come. Here is at least a picture of my (not so little) man taken on christmas day. Watch out ladies...

job well done

2005-12-27T12:19:00.000-06:00

My boss....the one that hates me....the one that I'm not to fond of either...the one that reaks of homophobia...actually gave me an outstanding review today...hmmmm...makes me feel almost uneasy....I mean, not to toot my own horn, I know I deserved it for my performance today BUT...still, was unexpected comng from her. Oh well, I'll try to not be so paranoid and enjoy the compliments.

job well done

2005-12-21T07:25:00.000-06:00

And they say kids now-a-days are only up to bad....kudos to the creativity of these 3 teens. Keep it up, people get paid millions to do the exact same thing in hollywood!

and this one...ummmm.yeah, not so much..get a life!

bah humbug

2005-12-15T12:31:00.000-06:00

I think I might START my christmas shopping tonight. How many days till??? Like 10 or something but we celebrate a couple of days prior in order to accommodate everyone's busy, have to visit all the in-laws, hectic christmas DAY schedule....so, what, that like leaves me less than 7 days....lol....fun fun.

The majority of my list I know either exactly or have a pretty good idea what I am on the look out for. But...the 2-3 that I have no ideas for...ummm..yeah..I have NO ideas for.

Hopefully while I am out gathering the majority the other ideas will just hit me...crosses fingers.

Happy - Happy - Joy - Joy....(take that while it lasts cause after facing the carnage of greedy rude crowds i will not be in a very good mood myself.)

remember when....

2005-12-13T17:40:00.000-06:00

Partially taken from Hayley!

TEN YEARS AGO
1 I was changing my sons dirty diapers.
2 I was shy and timid.
3 I was trying to convince myself I was happy.
4 I lived my life for others instead of myself.
5 I was 22.

FIVE YEARS AGO

1 I was recovering from my 4th knee surgery
2 I hated my job.
3 I was partying way too much.
4 I had accepted my true lesbian self.
5 I was 27.

YESTERDAY

1 I listened to lesbian drama but at least it wasnt mine.
2 I laughed so hard I nearly choked to death.
3 I drank a red beer.
4 I visited Neil in the hospital.
5 I worked a 12 hour day.

edited>>>>convo that took place following this original post

HER [4:50 P.M.]: lol
HER [4:50 P.M.]: just quietly
HER [4:50 P.M.]: 10 years ago
HER [4:50 P.M.]: i was 14
HER [4:50 P.M.]: :-D

ME [4:51 P.M.]: ouch

HER [4:51 P.M.]: lol
HER [4:51 P.M.]: thought you might like that
HER [4:51 P.M.]: i was in year 9
HER [4:51 P.M.]: and had only just had my first real kiss

ME [4:51 P.M.]: ok you can stop now

HER [4:51 P.M.]: hadnt been in a relationship
HER [4:52 P.M.]: ummm
HER [4:52 P.M.]: had a curfew of 9pm
HER [4:52 P.M.]: ummmmm
HER [4:52 P.M.]: and never wanted to leave home lol
HER [4:53 P.M.]: five years ago i was 19
HER [4:53 P.M.]: :-D

ME [4:53 P.M.]: babbbyyyyy

HER [4:53 P.M.]: ok ok ok

ME [4:53 P.M.]: my blood pressure remember

HER [4:53 P.M.]: ooopsss

mmmm...red beer

2005-12-12T18:05:00.000-06:00

It was a red beer weekend, let me tell ya. Poker party at the house on friday night (in which I lost my ass off) and out with girls to shake our groove thangs on saturday night at the Copa then Partners (have avoided the lesbian bars for some time now just because of all the drama that seems to linger around there but it was actually a good night for the most part....lots of womensszzz!) Red beer after red beer led to two quite intoxicating evenings. Goodtimes.

Here I am slightly pissed (drunk)!

brrrrrr!

2005-12-09T12:11:00.000-06:00

The first snow of the season has hit Oklahoma and its friggin' cold!!!! I need a cuddle buddy....asap

!

2005-12-08T11:22:00.000-06:00

Now that didn't take long, did it?....My pissed off rage is now over! All seems to be good on the home front and the tension has lessened. *does the happy dance*

My intentions are never to purposely hurt anyone but at the same time I have to think about my own happiness. I didn't risk losing everything important to me (i.e...family support, my son, etc.) by coming out almost 10 years ago just to muddle through life and be either unhappy in a relationship or even content. I risked it all....now I want it all. i don't mean to hurt anyone as I sort through things to find my true happiness but unfortunately it has happened and more than likely will happen again in the future.

I don't want much....in fact, my biggest problem is that most people tend to want to give me too much. They shower me with love and affection and in my mnd...suffocate me. I just want a simple happy relationship mixed with a health dose of individualism and independence. Is that too much...or in this case...not enough to ask for????

Blah blah blah...and on with this thing called life.......

BACK THE FRICK OFF!

2005-12-07T09:51:00.000-06:00

***WARNING: What follows is a complete rant out of pissed off emotions. If, for whatever reason, you feel that the following applies to you, please, do not take it too personally. This blog is where I rant, yell, inform, and celebrate. If it bothers you then don't read it**

I pride myself on being one of the most laid back easy going people I know. I try to look at issues/conflict/problems with the outlook "is this really something to get worked up about?" Believe me I can get mad but it takes alot and a valid reason to get me there usually.

I am there!

I don't think I have been this furious in a long time. I have gotten "in trouble" from a number of different people (usually whoever the current sig. nif. is at the time)for putting up walls or not opening up.

I have really tried to work on this and not be so ready to have that barrier BUT if there is one thing that can cause me to build that wall extra high and extra thick is to envade my personal space or suffocate me and my bubble....BACK THE FRICK OFF!

If I want to tell or show you something then I will....don't be some sneaky mole trying to get the scoop.
Friends share things...keyword "share"..not take.

Don't accuse me of not being a friend when I'm not the one snooping and STILL getting mad when NOTHING is found....WTF???????????

the breakup

2005-12-06T14:55:00.000-06:00

I love her to death.
I want to thank her for tying to be understanding.
I just want my best friend back.
We have decided to end the romantic part of "us".
I believe we are both strong enough to endure.
Once again I become a "me" instead of an "us".
Maybe I'm cursed.

afternoon sex..errr...i mean ...delight

2005-12-02T10:07:00.000-06:00

Ever hear an old song back from your childhood that you stop and think ":ohhhh, I love this song" and you start hummin and singing along and then in the middle of singing it you, for the first time, realize what the song is actually about. Because back in your young innocent years it was just a catchy tune that made ya tap your foot but come to find out all along you were an 8 yr old singing about shaggin in the middle of the day...bumpin uglies in the sunlight ...makin some friction at noon time...

Afternoon Delight
The Starland Vocal Band

Gonna find my baby, gonna hold her tight
gonna grab some afternoon delight.
My motto's always been; when it's right, it's right.
Why wait until the middle of a cold dark night.
When everything's a little clearer in the light of day.
And you know the night is always gonna be there any way.

Sky rockets in flight. Afternoon delight. Afternoon delight.

Thinkin' of you's workin' up my appetite
looking forward to a little afternoon delight.
Rubbin' sticks and stones together makes the sparks ingite
and the thought of rubbin' you is getting so exciting.

Sky rockets in flight. Afternoon delight. Afternoon delight.

Started out this morning feeling so polite
I always though a fish could not be caught who wouldn't bite
But you've got some bait a waitin' and I think I might try nibbling
a little afternoon delight.

Sky rockets in flight. Afternoon delight. Afternoon delight.

Please be waiting for me baby when I come around.
We could make a lot of lovin' 'for the sun goes down.

Sky rockets in flight. Afternoon delight. Afternoon delight.

I wonder if my mom was secretly wondering if I actually knew what I was singing along to kind of like I wonder how much my 3 yr old niece knows as she repeats the lyrics to this

old skool

2005-12-01T14:58:00.000-06:00

The classics never die!

peace out!

sign me up

2005-11-30T13:35:00.000-06:00

I think me and some of my comrades have figured out our next business venture!

"the first rule about the secret mobile strip club is don't talk about the secret mobile strip club"

*the following is excerpts from the "business meeting" me and co-owner had*

ME [2:13 P.M.]: umm, no..it says "please hold and we will book your mobile stripper party shortly"

CO-OWNER [2:17 P.M.]: just dont take the bus where the gordita's are... dont need the money shot up

ME [2:17 P.M.]: we would so bank

ME [2:18 P.M.]: could you make that fried chicken the "COMBO" *wink wink* meal, please

CO-OWNER [2:20 P.M.]: we the captains of the mobile strip club gladly invite you to sit back and enjoy the show... please listen up for the next few rules!

CO-OWNER [2:18 P.M.]: "all ya'll nasty mufucka's leave your firearms with the driver..anyone act crazy...you'll get shot with your own shyt!...enjoy the show!" "please keep all arms and legs within the vehicle at all times...when the ride is over please exit to the left"

CO-OWNER [2:23 P.M.]: "for the mexican patrons: in the event during the show we should experience a flat tire or some type of engine failure, please get the f*ck up and fix the problem, we will pause the music and the dancer will wait. if it is fixed within a timely manner, you will receive one addtional dance without additional charge. Thank you!"

gag

2005-11-30T12:40:00.000-06:00

Someone really needs to tell my boss she has bad breath today. I have only recently acquired the supervision of this new bossLady so I don't know if this is one time thing with her (I mean, I have very good hygiene practices but I am sure every once in awhile after a nice Italian meal or similar I might have a slight unattractive scent that I try to tend to ASAP) or if this is a chronic case of halitosis. If the latter is the case then I am glad that I have had and am planning on having very few one on one close encounters of the stank breath kind with her.

I think I will step up for my own selfish reasons and just quietly place some breath mints on her desk...a nice subtle hint without the embarrassment of "Hey, put a mint in it, jota!"
If the subtle hints don't see to be taken after my next face to face then I will need to bring out the big guns and be a little more assertive...oh yeah, folks....I'm talkin Doggie Mints!
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not only...

2005-11-23T13:59:00.000-06:00

Not only is she freakin' HOT but she's also an inspiration. Charlize Theron says she and boyfriend won't marry until gays and lesbians can.

another busy weekend

2005-11-23T11:21:00.000-06:00

Today at 4:30pm officially starts my 4 day weekend. Oh, yeah, that's how I roll! It'll, of course, start off Thursday with family grub time...there goes the diet! Friday WILL NOT be spent out in the madness of the devilistic shopping crowd...NO THANK YOU! I used to do it but I easily get crankified in my old age so don't put me in a crowd of greedy people on a shopping spree mission...the outcome will not be good.

This Saturday is also the Bedlam Game. OU can have the shittiest season and i will always be true to them BUT if there are only two games that I beg them to win it's to(1) Texas (which we already lost earlier in the season) and (2) OSU. C'mon, boys, gimmee some of that SOONER MAGIC!

After watching the game at my brothers house I will be kidnapping his oldest daughter, Madison, to spend some quality time with her aunt jennifer (said with a slight lisp by her...awwww...cute!). Then Sunday is her 3rd birthday party!

MY stand-up queen

2005-11-22T11:33:00.000-06:00

Thanks to Morgan for directing me to yet another spot on the great world wide web that brought tears of laughter to my face. (Why is it that my biggest laughs derive from anti-religous jokes? I've said it before and I'll say it agin...I AM SUCH A HEATHEN!)
Jesus REALLY IS magic!

food for thought...

2005-11-22T10:34:00.000-06:00

Ya know, if the pilgrims had captured a cat instead of a turkey, we'd all be eating pussy for Thanksgiving!

my birthday

2005-11-21T14:12:00.000-06:00

So, goodtimes were had Saturday for my birthday. The evening consisted of the following (not necessarily in this order):

* dorothy, a few scarecrows, and a cowardly lion

* more pairs of boobies than I can count on both hands

* a lap dance from her

* four bruises on three of my apendages

* a velvet monkey hair cutting session

* many many beers

* me, bustin a move or two on the dance floor (maybe that's where the bruises came from)

* a drive by shooting

* tramp stamps (no, not mine)

* more beers

* relieving myself more than once in the parking lot

* stuart

Happy Birthday to, MEEEEEEE!

just for your viewing pleasure..(and mine)

2005-11-21T09:52:00.000-06:00

"don't tease the..."

2005-11-18T10:21:00.000-06:00

I was taken out to an early birthday dinner (early as in, my actual birthday isn't until Saturday, not early as in, early in the evening, because it was actually quite late as for the usual time dinner is consumed around my house and I was quite famished by the time my order arrived.) anywhoo. The restaurant chosen was based on our desire for a big juicy steak. We don't regularly choose to eat at steak joints only for the reason that we seem to always prefer some south of the border fixins or high carb pasta places. But tonight we wanted something different, something we hadn't had in awhile..hence the steaks. Which were scrumptious, I felt like a lion with a fresh kill.
We had two young girls waiting on us (one of them being trained by the others expertise). I decided to be my usual quirky self and tease them. Making jokes and comments that were obviously meant to be taken as flirtatious. (No, I had no interest in either one of the girls, I just like to see how straight girls react when faced with another woman hitting on them). Mission accomplished. They both became giddy with delight, made more stops at our table than necessary, one of them asking me to get up and dance with her when the waitresses had to get up and do their "show", even showing a sad little face and asking "are you leaving me already" when we had asked for our check.
I am not saying that I AM ALL THAT, but I do think we made those two girls' night just in the fact that they were being hit on by someone other than beer belly, hairy, rednecks.
Hmmmm, wonder if they were secretly questioning their sexual identity as they crawled under the covers that night.
Happy Birthday to me!