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Reflections for the year

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sat, 31 Dec 2011 13:22:00 +0000

The year 2011 is coming to an end in another few hours. This time of the year, I look back into my life in the past year.

This year had been challenging. There were many things and decisions/roads which I took that I wont have otherwise do previously.

One of the most drastic decision I had to make was to leave a well paying full time employment and the most difficult reality was the diagnosis on CKD, which crumbled my entire world but I am determined to not let it affect my life in any ways.

This year had been a year of learning and growth. I learned to let go, forgive and forget - that it"ll make me happier. I grow with my networks, friends and contacts and learning bits by bits about life from them.

I have learned to take it easy and accept people for who they are and at the same time learned to open my heart, mind and soul to accept and love again.

The best thing that ever happened to me this year, would be the fact that I finally had the courage to let go of my past relationship and heal and accept KH into my life and to take this journey into the road less traveled in my life.

I am thankful to all everyone that I have crossed path with along the way, for their guidance, advices, support and especially to my friends, for the great company and awesome events/parties and KH for being my pillar of strenght as I go through this difficult path.

Till we meet again in the New Year. Happy New Year! May all your New Years be filled with all things wonderful and nice!! :)

Quiet Christmas Eve

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sat, 24 Dec 2011 14:44:00 +0000

Its Christmas season again. Its actually 3 hours from Christmas day and for the first time, this year, I am celebrating it alone in the comforts of home. For some reason or another, I wanted to do this - to spend some quiet time alone at home but yet I cant help wondering what my friends or even what KH is doing tonight.

The night had been quiet for me and I was invited to a friend's place for dinner, I stayed for a while and then I came back to the peace and quietness of home simply just chilling out. I have a tea tomorrow with another good friend just to catch up.

Merry Christmas everyone!!

One week to Christmas

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Fri, 16 Dec 2011 11:59:00 +0000

In a blink of an eye, we are already into December and one week away from Christmas. As always, its the time of the year that I always look forward to, however this year will very quiet affair probably spent at home because I dont like celebrating outside.

Mariah Carey's "All I want for Christmas is you" remains my favorite Xmas numbers aside from the traditional ones. Here I would like to share this song with all of you.

Here's wishing you all a wonderful Christmas in advance.

Counting down to year end

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Thu, 17 Nov 2011 18:25:00 +0000

Time really flies. We are one month and a half short of the end of 2011. And once again, its the time of the that I reflect on my life in 2011, which had been a roller coaster ride. My life changed over night dramatically in the mid of 2011, as you all already know with the diagnosis of my illness but then on the hindsight the illness had given me a new lease of life, which over the last few months had been really colorful and wonderful.

All the sudden I have so time at hand and so many new friends and I am enjoying it. Every day I wake up looking forward to the evenings/night where I go and network with my new found friends tho I try not to do it too often because it can be expensive over the long term and not having a proper income is a sucker.

I am getting better day after day and happier day after day so I am enjoying every minute of my once boring life.

Eat,sleep,shop & play

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Fri, 04 Nov 2011 06:41:00 +0000

Yes, that's exactly my "job" these days - eat, sleep,shop & play! I know its ridiculous, I am back at shopping again and am getting so tired of KL's malls so I need to venture out - starting from Singapore onwards end of the month for the much needed break & Xmas shopping.

Today, I spend a few thousand ringgit shopping @ KLCC and yes,I am buying on impulse again but yet it is a bliss to be able to just buy anything I want without thinking of the money - such a dream er?

This is all made possible because of a good close friend. No its not Vic - Vic is stuck in cold, gloomy Frankfurt this time of the year due to work (so he wont be back for Christmas this year). This close friend let's call him H for short, had a day off from his erractic schedule and wanted to look for a pair of shoes so we went on the hunt at KLCC because 1) its near his workplace; and 2) he likes to shop at KLCC.

Instead of looking for his shoes, I ended up buying lots of stuffs especially shoes and bags - my weakness!! But H had been sweet enough to pay for them without complains. Thanks H for being so nice & sweet.

Yes, he finally got a pair of shoes as well so the trip wasnt at all in vain but he said his pocket felt so much lighter after...hahah....:) Have a great weekend folks!!

Blissful break

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Wed, 26 Oct 2011 02:09:00 +0000

Today is Deepavali - The Festival of Light, celebrated by the Hindus all the world hence its no different here in Malaysia. So, because its Deepavali, its a public holiday in most part of Pen. Malaysia and although I work on my own now, I look forward to today's short break.

Since my last entry, I have had a busy busy week running around the city for meetings, my treatment and running errands and you bet, with the heavy traffic and heavy rain in the evenings, it has not at all been a pleasant week but I survived.

At of now, I am enjoying my day just chilling at home - surfing the internet, watching tv and perhaps do some cooking/baking (something I never had time to do) and I look forward to my maiden forum gathering at BB tonight tho am not sure what time I will stay till as I have to be at the hospital for treatment tomorrow morning .

I am feeling lazy to get out of my cosy condo but its been a long time and I needed to expand my circles of friends/networks tho I know these networks wont do me much good professionally -not that I be travelling and bunking in with another person soon.

Time at hand

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 16 Oct 2011 01:47:00 +0000

Last weekend, I went on my first short break since my diagnosis of my illness to Genting & Malacca where I indulged myself in good food and great company of my parents and relatives. I think my illness is sort of a blessing in disguise because for once, my parents didnt shop me from eating anything nor buying anything I wanted and dad willing paid for them during the trip to these two places. They (especially dad) no longer "nag" me about the way I spend money, maybe he (or rather they) finally realised that its the shopping that makes me happier than anything especially since the doctor said I need to keep myself happy & stress-free and what better way to bring happiness and stress-free to me but SHOP!

Now that my parents had gone back home, I am finally getting back my life and "independence" so to speak tho my entire condo had been turned upside down by mum (as she put things in different places) so much that I cant find things anymore and well, that gives me a good excuse to go shopping which I did a few days back.

For the first time in months, I can again walk the entire Bintang Walk from morning till late afternoon (to avoid the massive Friday jam) and had no complains (despite the heat and the afternoon showers) yet I find solace in window shopping especially at Pavillion (since I know I can no longer afford those items like before).

Being able to still window shop brings joy although I truly wished I can buy those items but them I had to be realistic. My illness will in the long run cost alot of money to treat and I cannot afford to splurge like I used to especially now that I am not on full-time time salaried employment. :(

Financial Management matters

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 25 Sep 2011 23:21:00 +0000

After being confined the the house for more than 2 months due to my illness, I finally went out shopping yesterday to Mid Valley. Surprisingly I wasnt tired from the walking yet I found thrill in shopping for stuff tho I didnt really buy alot neither was I buying at impulse.

Now that I am no longer earning on a full-time basis, its about time to really look at my finances and thus learn to control them. Hard as it is but I shall try.

A look at my life

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Thu, 22 Sep 2011 23:46:00 +0000

Well, since the last post, I am walking already tho I am still going in and out of hospital. I have been diagnosed as having End Stage Renal Failure -yes that means dialysis. I have no idea how it happened but anyways, I have to accept it as God's will and it means that it is a test for me. At this initial stage, I am going for dialysis thrice a week at this very nice but expensive hospital in town - Prince Court Medical Centre for a good 12 hours a week. That takes me off a fair bit of my working time hence I wont be able to really work full time so I had decided to continue with my freelancing work until a suitable donor is found for transplant, which will take a long time I reckon.

A different perspective

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Mon, 22 Aug 2011 04:33:00 +0000

Since the last time I had written anything I had been in and out of hospitals. Now I know exactly my illness I can no longer work full time and hence hopefully be able to blog more often in between my treatments. The last few months had been nonetheless challenging especially when I had been confined to the home and hospitals for almost 2 months and yes although my parents took turn to come and mum had been here for alomost 2 months now there were contants arguments as she drives me nuts sometimes asking the same question over and over. I am beginnning to walk a little on one cruth,during my stay in the hospital they had forced me to go for what is known as key hole surgery.

Updates from home

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 10 Jul 2011 03:31:00 +0000

Well, today is already almost 5 days since my leg injury and no i am still not better. Despite all tests done including MRIs as expected nothing conclusive came out of it which is really scary and disappointing. And the pain seemed worst but I ran out of ideas as to where else can I go if an orthopedic couldnt find a reason for my injury but to tell me that I need rest for the next 2 weeks and I had been confinded at home since last week Wednesday but fortunately for me, I have understanding parents in the form that upon immediate pleading my dad sent mum over to take care of me - which i am grateful for. Given the fact that KL isnt her teritory she will find it difficult to get around doing chores for but thankfully I am blessed with a bunch of good friends who are ever so willing to help out.

So for now, I will have to enjoy the previlege of being at home until further notice. Time to take my rest!!

Temporary incapacitated

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Thu, 07 Jul 2011 00:47:00 +0000

I had been having problems with my knee for a while now but never really thought it to be that serious until I woke up on Monday to discover a locked and swollen knee and I knew I had to seek professional treatment so off I went to the medical centre and got the fluid out but the swelling didnt reduce yet now its getting worst so much that I have to walk on cruthers and I cannot put my leg straight and having to endure the unbearable pain at night that me awake. As I write, I am waiting for my friend to come take me for my medical appointment, I am due for MRI today tho I am sure I wont be able to endure the pain of putting my legs straight for 3 hrs in the machine so we shall see. For now, I am feeling so helpless and in pain nonetheless.

1Malaysia images

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 03 Jul 2011 03:45:00 +0000

I got news that there is a photo comptition depicting 1Malaysia. The irony is tho, despite the thousands of shots I have nothing is depicting that theme of 1Malaysia enough for me to submit them. So I will probably have to go out and speciafically take shots of what 1Malaysia is to me. It is actually all over in town I just need time to find my subject and capture it on camera. I think Songket would be a good place to start too.Wish me luck!!

Little Updates

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 03 Jul 2011 03:26:00 +0000

I realised that its been a while since I had last wrote in my blog. I had been sick literally sick and in the last few weeks had been in and out of hospital. I was so sick that I am beginning to re-evaluate my life. I had done alot of things and achieved alot tho not enough by my standards but due to my current medical condition I had (or rather have been advised) to take it easy as I am going from bad to worse not the other worse to good so the road ahead will be very difficult. This is especially so when it comes to financial commitments. Due to the nature of my unpredictable illness, I was advisd against working full-time but for the moment, I am surviving.

On the hindsight my illness has me time to relook at my priorities and do things I have always wanted to do like to indulge in photography - something I hardly found time for. That is my new found passion and I am determined to make something out of it.

Wish me luck and till next update here's to a good week ahead!! :)

Obedient Wives Club?

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 19 Jun 2011 06:01:00 +0000

When I first saw this headlines news a few weeks ago I just wanted to laugh it off but having read another news item in today's papers made me want to write about it. I for one being the true blue independent women and I believe like many others out there will not subscribe to this theory that "first class sex is what keeps the men at home." Perhaps then someone can explain why there are some men with good enough sexual partners yet they have affars outside? My friends are good examples of this. There are certainly more than good sex to keep them at home, sadly sex is one of them.

A relationship is about giving and taking and it has nothing to do with the quantity or quality of sex, that sh9uld form part of the relationship. I am certainly not in the authority to comment neither do I want to but I am disguested by the thought that women are in a supposed to be "obedient" to their spouse which is B.S.

We are all human beings and deserve to have our own very opinion, rights, and freedom to do as we please of course with a limit and consideration for those that revolves around our daily lives.

What inspires me?

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Tue, 14 Jun 2011 03:23:00 +0000

Yesterday at a networking event someone popped me this question out of the blue, "What Inspires me?" I have never really thought about it but that got into me and on the way home I was thinking - I enjoy photography tremendously but why? Everyone of us have reasons of liking something, then I asked myself why am I so into photography? Is it because is it just an interest or beyond.

Having thought long and hard, photography for me was an outlet - to explore my creativity and the colors/pictures serves as life's inspirations. Photography offered solace and takes my mind of other things and I truly enjoyed it.

My lifelong dream has been to be in photojournalism for that matter - a travel photojournalist because I share a passion for the world through the eyes of culture, arts, sciences etc and I enjoy varying cultures tremendously.

Who are you to judge me?

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Fri, 10 Jun 2011 09:40:00 +0000

Recently I represented a client for an introductory meeting with one company in Shah Alam because he was away in Australia for that matter. Sure, I didnt know the product well enough because 1) I dont do sales and 2) I had just gotten this client about 3 weeks ago, giving benefit of the doubt & finally 3) I was dressed professionally (tho apparently not enough for that stupid bitch) and what baffled me is that after the meeting she emailed the owner ie my client saying that she doesnt want to deal with me because I dont know the product well enough and secondly I wasnt dressed professional enough - what on earth is she to judge me?

So much the better that she doesnt want to deal with me - it is NOT my job anyways to do sells for this company - I am to do their PR and by not dressing professionally, how then does she definte that? She isnt dresses that very much appropriately (for the corporate environment either), so who then is she to judge me?

15 years in the corporate world none have commented or judge me that way, not even my former employers because I know myself I have always dressed professionally when I have to, is she blind or she just doesnt like me....whatever the reason she made that remark its for her to know. I am not going to let this affect my plans for the weekend.

Old Town White Coffee

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Fri, 03 Jun 2011 01:27:00 +0000

I like coffee and certainly enjoy drinking them and had varied taste for both Starbucks Coffee and Old Town White Coffee. They are both coffee but different in their own way even in terms of price and taste.

I cannot be drinking my favorite Mocha Frappacino from Starbuck daily due to cost factor while Old Town's White Coffee is alot more affordable tho the service at Old Town sucks big time, which is sometimes a turn off.

I like to associate Old Town as "coffee pasar malam" while Starbucks is more "luxurious" like how I would say Old Town is Air Asia while Starbucks is premium like MAS. The reason being for cost reason you get all sorts of people at Old Town and service isnt that great. This morning is a good example, it took a good hour or so to get my serving of coffee, toast and half boiled eggs and the bread was as always cold and hard and communication with the waiters (mostly foreigners) are hell.

Despite all that I still go to Old Town for my coffee due to close proximity to my work plac as the nearest Starbucks is an LRT station away so it wont be feasible to get Starbucks, so I will have to settle for Old Town for now until one day when I am lucky enough to work in a building with close proximity to my favorite coffee of all times - Starbucks.

The problem with Old Town is, when you complain the waiters/supervisors just simply brush it off. That made me wonder what kind of business is it that doesnt take customers complains seriously, is it because they are so big and popular that they cant be bother about complains from a small unimportant customer like myself who practically contributes to their profit if not daily at least, 4 times a week? Well, what can I say, this is Malaysian business.

This morning alone, at that particular Old Town I saw many "unhappy"/restless faces and complains on the service. This particular outlet is located at the office district and many that goes there for breakfast are employees who need to clock in at 9am but there was only one wait staff on the floor, one in the kitchen and one manning the counter (the supervisor) and everyone is waiting for their orders including yours truly here. For one hour, when my food finally came I only have like 15 minutes to eat and get to work!

Foot Manipulation - My Ortho

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 29 May 2011 05:32:00 +0000

I had been having problems with my feet for a long time now and visits to the Orthopedic hasnt helped and was given all kinds of diagnosis which I personally felt isnt possible because certain conditions only happened when one is actively involved in sports - ie sports injury something I have not done.

My search took me high and low until one fine day I discovered this place in Tmn Midah, Cheras called My Ortho where there is a centre that provides a solution for all things foot related and one of those services is called Foot Manipulation.

What is foot manipulation? Here's a brief write up on foot manipulation.

In the initial stages its extremely painful when therapy was administered but now after 5 sessions I dont feel the pain anymore and felt my legs are stronger (well, at least I dont get cramps at night anymore), so it is working.

Wide awake on a weekend

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sat, 28 May 2011 22:56:00 +0000

Why am I up at this hour on a Sunday? I have been feeling sick since I woke up on Friday morning and despite a 14 hour sleep from Friday evening till yesterday afternoon I didnt get better, well I did for a while. This morning I was awaken by a growling stomach so I woke up and made myself some Milo and had a few slices of bread but in between that I threw it all out :( The medication that the doctor gave were of no help so what am I to do???

Air Asia's 10cents promotion

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Mon, 23 May 2011 04:31:00 +0000

Well, Air Asia is having its 10cents offer starting today in conjunction with its 10th anniversary. For some reason or another, I wasnt at all excited like previous times. I didnt even bother checking out the site and neither are are friends. Somehow this time round, there isnt as much excitement as previously, well at least for me.

Most of the places on offer - the cheaper ones are either places I have been or have no intention of visiting so I didnt bother to even see it. I am not in the mood to plan for my vacation next year as it suddenly seemed so far fetched. I mean no one knows what will happen a week down the road lest a year later so I will just it as it is and for once will keep my travel plans as spontanoeous as possible in the months to come.

So I will just leave travel plans for when I am in the mood even if I have to pay a premium for it I will.

Padi fields of Sekinchan

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sat, 21 May 2011 05:58:00 +0000

On Wesak Day (17 May 2011) Y took me to the paddy fields of Sekinchan some 2 hours away from KL for photoshoot It was my first time seeing really paddy fields that close and touching them. It was interesting no less tho the weather was a bit hot but I enjoyed myself tremendously.

More photos can be viewed on www.flickr.com/mysticangel.

The next destination I thought would be nice to visit would be Carey Island - it would definitely be interesting to see the culture of the orang asli before it disappears with time. So I am planning the next trip to Carey Island and perhaps also Pulau Ketam if Y is agreeable.

Wesak day

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Mon, 16 May 2011 23:48:00 +0000

Its a public holiday today - Wesak day so I wish all my buddhist readers and friends a Happy Enlightening Wesak. Y is supposed to take me on yet another roadtrip to this one place called Sekinchan - I think its about 2 hours away from KL for photoshoot but when I double confirmed with him last night he said he will inform me today. We were supposed to leave at 8am, its 750am as I write this and I am not sure if we are going at all. He had been acting funny - cold towards me again the last few days so I am just letting it be. If we go then great otherwise, I will just leave it as it is. After all, I am starting out a new exciting project at client's office from tomorrow for the next 3 months or so and probably needed the energy for the "thinking". I smsed him a while back but he hasnt replied nor call so I am not sure if I should get ready and wait for him or just go out on my own for breakfast. Y somehow has this annoying habit of not informing when he cant makes it for an appointment - he just dont turn up, dont answer calls or smses and after many hours later he will reply saying he is not available. Frustrating isnt it?

Materialistic world

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sun, 15 May 2011 12:45:00 +0000

Today I saw Y very briefly because he had accidentally locked his car key inside his car when he got home because he forgotten to take out the keys. So this morning, he drove his wife's car as he has to send me for my dental appointment but he wasnt there, so basically I just asked him to drop me off at the dentist and picked me up an hour later and that's about it. During the brief moments we sat in the car, he told me that his wife (aptly referred to as OCPD he calls her) was complaining that he didnt bring back any cash yesterday or rather there wasnt money in their so called magic box at home and was upset about that. Again, it brings me down to this question, why after 15 years is she making such a fuss when I believe in the 15 years there has been times when he didnt bring home money as well but she never said anything but now? I feel like scolding her but it is none of my business its just that Y will be unhappy is she kicks up that fuss again - maybe its menopause? Meanwhile, on Y's part, I think it is a part of aging ie he is getting rather forgetful lately or rather he has alot on his mind (due to pressure from his OCPD, which some of the things/request are rather unreasonable at this point). I try to help as much as possible by listening not financially - not anymore after the experience with J.

Shoes,shoes,shoes

noreply@blogger.com (mystic) — Sat, 14 May 2011 13:24:00 +0000

I am very happy this weekend. Why so? Because I added more shoes to my collection - this time clarks. Y accompanied me to the Clarks Warehouse Sale @ Corus Hotel yesterday where we Q for almost 3 hours to get clarks shoes. I am not a fan of warehouse sales but I know Clarks shoes is worth the wait.

Finally, after a long tired 3 hours (that seemed to have taken for ever) and fighting through scores of people to get pairs of shoes I wanted and also, taking a risk (due to the number of people, they dont encourage you to try the sizes so if you are familiar with Clarks then its great other wise might not be a good idea) and battling to get the sales assistance attention, I got myself 9 pairs of Clarks and Y got 2 pairs. And that also came up to almost RM2K. Imagine Y's looks when he saw the figure but he didnt complain. :)

In the car, I told him no more shoes for the year but then again, shoes is a part of my life so I dont know if I can live without buying them this entire year....we shall see as the months pass because its still another 6 months to the end of 2011.