LIFE'S TAPESTRY

ARE YOU TIRED YET?!?

2018-08-17T15:56:00.000-07:00

Well well well, it's been a long time and yet it's gone by rather quickly.

I'm going to get right to the point. Are you tired? I don't mean physically. I mean emotionally, spiritually, or even mentally? Being an empath I get the priviledge of feeling energies around me, even through pictures, voice, and by hearing people say names of those they are somehow connected with. YEAH ME lol.

With the world WAKING up people are realizing their value a little bit more and challenging themselves to go further in their AWAKENING process. i applaud you for taking those tedious steps towards investing in yourself. It's not easy nor is it supposed to be.

You are doing just as your mother did with you, birthing a new being. That my loves, takes time. So my suggestion is bathe in it, acklowedge it, and go gentle into the forest. I love running with the wolves. It's so safe there.

Now to my sisters who are resisting the transition. Guess what? IT'S GOING TO GET YOU EVENTUALLY. You can not dictate when the birthing will begin. As we know or will know by either having a child or experiencing another sisters story regarding childbirth, that child comes whether you are ready or not. They can come out loud and alert or quiet and peaceful. This is where you are or will be once you settle in to this journey of sisterhood. It is inevitable. The tiredness that you feel is your spirit trying to poke her head out. She's trying to remind you of who you are and who you once were.

2015-01-27T15:00:00.000-08:00

THANK YOU VERY MUCH
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
THAT'S THE NICEST THING THAT ANYONE'S EVER DONE FOR ME. LEAVING ME THAT IS.

GOOD DAY MY BEAUTIFUL SISTERS. HAS ANYONE EVER LEFT YOU, MADE YOU FEEL LESS THAN WORTHY? WELL YOU ARE NOT ALONE. TODAY I'M WORKING ON HONORING MY INTENTIONS, AND AS I PROMISED I'M WRITING MY BLOG ON LOVE TODAY. I'M WRITING FROM MY CELL PHONE AND PRAY THAT IT COMES OUT WELL.

SO I SAID MY BEAU AND I WANTED TO SAY THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO LEFT US BEHIND. TIME SURE WILL HEAL WOUNDS. YOU WILL MORE THAN LIKELY BE REMINDED OFTEN AT FIRST AND THEN NOT SO MUCH OF THE PAIN FROM BREAKUPS BUT PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON THE LOVE AND LIFE YOU DESERVE.

I HAD GOTTEN TO A PLACE OF SEE , HEAR AND SPEAK NO EVI. I WAS OFTEN TOLD IN MY YOUNGER YEARS GIRL MEN GOING TO CHEAT AND DON'T CHASE HIM AWAY AND TAKE HIM HE'S A "GOOD" MAN, AND SAVE YOUR MONEY IN CASE HE SHOULD LEAVE. .. BLAH BLAH BLAH. WHEH THAT WAS A MOUTH FULL.

I LOST MY VOICE, LET MYSELF GO FOR THE SAKE OF "LOVE". SOUND FAMILIAR? IT'S EASY TO RECOGNIZE NOW, NOW THAT I'M OUT OF THE WOODS. OUT OF THE WOODS BUT NEVER COMPLETELY OUT OF THE MIND. YOU KNOW THE LOVE THAT YOU THOUGHT WOULD STAY FOREVER.

YOU GAVE THE BEST YOU COULD AT THAT MOMENT. YOU LOVED THE HARDEST YOU EVER HAD. YOU BELIEVED. YOU STAYED DESPITE YOUR INNER SPIRIT SAYING "ABORT, ABORT". NOT YOU. YOU'RE NO QUITTER AND WHILE YOU'RE NO QUITTER THE LOVE YOU KNEW QUIT ON YOU. IT SAID ALL YOUR EFFORT WASNT ENOUGH. AT LEAST THAT'S THE MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED.

THAT STUNG RIGHT? OF COURSE IT DID.
THE STING WILL GO AWAY BUT NOT THE MARK. IN TIME YOU WILL LEARN AS I DID, THE POWER OF YOUR VOICE AND LOVE FOR SELF. LIFE IS REALLY NOT ALL THIS COMPLICATED IF YOU REMEMBER YOUR POWER, POWER TO LOVE YOURSELF.

BEING A LITTLE SELFISH WITH MY TIME, MY INURGE, MY SPIRIT REVIVAL HAS REAPED ME A FANTASTIC MAN WHO ADORES ME. HE'S ROUGH AROUND THE EDGES BY THEN AGAIN SO AM EYE. LOL. ONCE I DECIDED THAT I COME FIRST, ALL THINGS ARE BEING ADDED. I DON'T MEAN SELFISH AND CONTROLLING BUT I MEAN SELFISH AND CONTROLLING. SELFISH WITH BEING HONEST EVEN IF IT STINGSS AT TIME AND CONTROLLING MY SPIRIT. NOT ALLOWING HER TO SETTLE IN ORDER TO BE COMFORTABLE AND SAFE.
REMEMBER THIS IF YOU REMEMBER NOTHING ELSE I SAY TO YOU ..

LOVE IS. .A DANGEROUS THING.

BUT IT'S SO WORTH IT IF YOU INVEST TIME IN YOURSELF WISELY. RECOGNIZE WHAT YOUR BAKE IS AND DON'T DEVIATE FROM WHAT YOU DESERVE. IF HE WANTS TO RUB YOUR FEET, LET HIM, LET HIM LET

HIM. DON'T USE HIM OR MANIPULATE HIM, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. HOW YOU CARE FOR YOURSELF WILL ENHANCE HOW HE CARES FOR YOU TOO.

I HAVE GROWN TO APPRECIATE BEING TREATED LIKE A QUEEN. IT'S KINDA FUN AND I DO HAVE TO BALANCE IT SO MY EGO DOESN'T GET IN THE WAY.

EITHER WAY LOVE IS WORK BUT IT ONLY WORKS OF ITS RECIPROCATED. COMMUNICATE WITH YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR FIRST IF SPEAKING YOUR CONCERNS IS AN ISSUE. DON'T GET HIM AND THEN GET SLOPPY IN YOUR APPEARANCE AND DON'T LET HIM.

TAKE HIM ON DATES, GO OUT ON A SELFIE DATE WITH NO ONE BUT YOU. IT'LL KEEP HIM EXCITED ABOUT YOUR FREEDOM. MEN DON'T LIKE NEEDY WOMEN AND IF HE WANTED A MAN MS. "INDEPENDENT" HE COULD GO GET ONE OF THOSE TOO. :&)

I HOE YOU ENJOYED. LIGHT LOVE AND LIBERTY

YOUR SISTER IN THE CIRCLE

PRIESTESS HEAVEN

JOIN THE LOVE REVOLUTION

WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR?

2015-01-12T12:58:00.000-08:00

GREETINGS MY SISTERS...

IT'S BEEN QUITE SOME TIME. HOW HAVE YOU ALL BEEN? REALLY?

     AS I SIT IN THE LIBRARY TO TYPE THIS I HAVE AN OVERWHELMING QUESTION THAT HAS BEEN SURFACING AND I CAN'T SEEM TO ESCAPE IT, SO I GUESS EMBRACING IS THE ANSWER.

     I'VE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD AND BACK AT LEAST A GAZILLION TIMES. WITH SO MUCH SPIRITUAL TRAVELING I'VE WONDERED WHY PEOPLE ARE THE WAY THEY ARE AND WHY THEY DO SOME OF THE STRANGEST THINGS ( IN MY OPINION) TO EACH OTHER. I, LIKE YOU I'M SURE HAVE HAD A VERY BUSY LIFE. DEALING WITH EVERYONE ELSE'S DRAMA AND ISSUES. I ALWAYS FOUND A WAY TO "FIX" THEIR ISSUES AND IT WAS TIMELY ENOUGH TO ALLOW ME TO "IGNORE" MINE. CRISIS DIVERTED WAS MY LANGUAGE. I NEVER FULLY LOVED OR LIKED ME.

     I GUESS IT WAS BECAUSE OF MY LISTENING TO OTHERS TELL ME AS A GIRL I WAS TOO OPINIONATED, TOO LOUD, TOO INQUISITIVE (NOSY), MY BUTT WAS BIG, MY BREAST WERE LITTLE, MY GAP IN MY TEETH, MY DEEP VOICE. SO MANY NEGATIVES FROM THOSE WHO SAID THEY LOVED ME. WHY WOULDN'T A SISTER BE CONFUSED?

     MY UMMI FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT THOUGH, CONSTANTLY BEATING DOWN THE WALLS THAT I ALLOWED OTHERS TO BUILD IN MY HEAD. I GUESS I GOT LAZY AND JUST WENT ALONG TO GET ALONG.

     NOW TODAY IS A DIFFERENT STORY. I REALLY LIKE LOVING MYSELF AND I PRACTICE IT MORE AND MORE DAILY. I LOVE MYSELF SO MUCH THAT I NOW CAN SO "NO" WHEN NECESSARY FOR MY SPIRITUAL SANITY AND SAFETY. LOOKING BACK I WONDER WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR? I MEAN THE BEATING UP OF EACH OTHERS SPIRITS, THE STEALING JOY FROM OUR NEIGHBORS, THE BACK BITING, THE LYING, GOSSIPPING, ALL OF IT. W.I.I.A.G.F.? DO WE REALLY GAIN BY DESTROYING ONE ANOTHER. ESPECIALLY WOMEN, DO YOU GET A FREE VIXEN CARD THAT NO ONE IS TALKING ABOUT? WHEN WILL IT END?

     I MEAN WE FIGHT SOCIETY'S CLAIM THAT WE ARE JUST BEINGS WITH A CERVIX AND BREAST, WE FIGHT OUR OWN SELF INFLICTED EMOTIONAL WOUNDS. YOU KNOW THE ONES WE HOLD ON TO FROM OUR CHILDHOOD? WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR? I HAVEN'T GAINED ANY FAVOR FROM CRYING, AND I SURE HAVEN'T KEPT IMPATIENT PEOPLE AROUND.

     PEOPLE WHO BEFRIEND YOU TO GLOAT ABOUT THEIR SELF. YOU ALL HAVE ONE OR HAVE HAD ONE. THE SISTER WHO HAS DONE THIS, DONE THAT, BEEN HERE, BEEN THERE AND STILL LIVING DOWN THE STREET FROM YOU. (GIGGLING).

IT'S TIME FOR A REFRESHING OF THE SOUL. TIME TO CLEANSE OUT THE SPIRITUAL CLOSET, GET THE WEBS OUT. WHEN YOU APPROACH YOUR DAY I ENCOURAGE YOU TO ASK WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR AND IF YOU DON'T GET AN ANSWER THEN, LET IT BE OR LET THEM BE. FREEDOM IS GOOD WHEN YOU DECIDE YOU WANT SOME.

IN CLOSING, I WAN TYOU TO GO LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND LAUGH, JUST LAUGH AND SEE WHAT HAPPENS. DON'T STOP LOOKING AT YOURSELF, AND WRITE AS SOON AS SOON AS YOU STOP CRYING. LET GO OF THE GOOK AND ALL THE CROOKS THAT CAME INTO YOUR LIFE. THEY CAME BECAUSE YOU AGREED TO THEM BEING THERE IN SOME TYPE OF SPIRITUAL CAPACITY. NOW IF YOU WHAT TO NO LONGER ASK THE QUESTION WHAT IS IT ALL GOOD FOR, THEN FREE YOU MIND, AND THE REST WILL FOLLOW.

LOVINGLY

PRIESTESS HEAVEN

SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE.

FOCUS

2013-09-29T17:20:00.001-07:00

Namaste All: Have you ever lost your focus and fought to get it back? Well boy do I have a quick guide for you. This will take a few minutes of your time and it's quite painless...I PROMISE:) also please take the time to leave constructive comments. I really appreciate your time and have a most blessed week.

Webcam video from Jul 17, 2012 6:28:45 PM

2013-09-17T12:28:00.001-07:00

did you gift it away?

2013-01-12T16:54:00.001-08:00

sisters.

what would you you do if after working all day ,being patient with rude people,guarding your tongue and looking at your checking account (to see a slap on the face after the decimal point) you go to the look at the prices and process frustration starts again. there is a person coming in line but you were obviously first and you are sort of pushed aside. the cashier then states that you can come to the front since you were there first and the sweet person you are reluctantly decline so you wont cause a stir.

the customer finishes with their purchase and out the clear grey sky......ding ding ding, congratulations you sir are OURth customer. you just won a year of free groceries with a 500.00 monthly limit and any residual balance will go to your personal checking account. you know the checking account with the slapping decimal points at the end of your balance.

have you ever done it? have you given your blessings away? told G-d no thank you. every time you turn away a blessing you are setting someone else up for what was allocated with you in mind.

don't feel bad for we all have done it, we've all been there second guessing ourselves. when were we taught that thinking about our own well being is toxic. i know there is a balance but you are strong enough to get their. you can get to the place where you give to you and distribute to others after. see if your temple is not healthy how will you teach someone about health. if your temple is not clean how will you teach anyone that they can come off of drugs. we have to FREE our self and the stigma associated with caring for ourselves. if you are sick and a single mother with no family who will care for your children? if you are the bread winner for your home and you let someone have your car because they want to go on a job interview, they don't come back on time who will clock in for you?

get yourself to a healthy place of thinking of you. i... insert name here do promise my self that i will work diligently on taking care of me. go ahead. say it. now take this time to think about some of the things that you have 'GIFTED' away and start to focus on being faithful to yourself. if others view you as the person who will sacrifice more than they are accustomed to receiving eventually their appreciation will go to a sense of entitlement and self gratification. you are a blessing, you are in measurable, and you deserve the same loving care you distribute. so from now on appreciate yourself and celebrate the gift that you are to you. remember you were created perfectly which means you can have the best.

namaste' kindred sisters....

WHEN IS

2012-12-31T15:29:00.002-08:00

namaste' kindred:

it is has been some time since i shared my thoughts. so how has everyone been? i pray you embrace your change with grace, diligence, freedom and last but not least, LOVE.

WHEN IS......

so i was witnessing someone on and in the process of celebrating their anniversary. there was another women who was having an anniversary as well but could not celebrate with her love due to extenuating circumstances. i will get straight to the point. how can we be so numb to feeling some one else who is in pain, especially in our joy? I am in no certain terms suggesting that we relinquish our joy for their pain but to be mindful and considerate that all experiences are valid. there is a balance between celebrating your joy and empathizing with someone who is not joyous. it is called compassion! we must be compassionate with one another. considerate. aware. alert. neighborly.

maybe if we barter with universe things would clear up for us ALL. let's barter hurt for healing, pain for purpose, anger for peace, clutter for cleanliness. these are mere examples but they still impede our journey. i am now more comfortable with my life challenges and i do have battles with the scars that others attempt to leave on me. i too am a work in progess. G_d's love is my salve, ointment, elixir, balm, tourniquet, medicine, and my band aid. i have to just ingest, apply, and let it work.

are we wrong for wanting more? NAH! when you miss sight of your blessings are you saying "no thank you" to the universe? are we saying we don't deserve better? many of us hold ourselves hostage. we don't grab our potential blessings. most people know whether they can be with a person once they start to spend quality time with them. we sometimes get into the role of becoming like bounty paper towels "the quicker picker upper/fixer upper". we CAN NOT fix ANYONE. they must submit to whatever it is that is holding them hostage and give it to G_d. only G_d can fix them but they must be willing to put in the work. even after raising children we can not fix them. now while our souls alarm has rung and said NO this is not the person/job/ opportunity for you why do we go further. why are we allowing others to block our potential? could it be because we have become accustomed to not having?

these are a lot of questions; yes i know but sit and ask yourself? look in the mirror and ask yourself. am i deserving of better? do i truly want better? only you can answer this and if you can not at this time i suggest you go deeper. so MANY people scared me from the idea of marriage. i was listening to people who were coming to me for advice on their relationships (me the woman who was the spiritual dumping ground for ALL OF MY RELATIONSHIPS). lied to, lied on, and blah blah blah. i'm sure all of us women and men alike can attest to the pain associated with betrayal. i was a waste land amid LIFE. ironic i know but TRUE nonetheless. there were people who were/are in relationships for years and here they come with their personal dramas as i was embarking on taking a chance on LOVE YET AGAIN. straight confusion and G_d is not the author of such. after years of becoming accustomed to someone's scent, mannerisms, etc., i GAVE UP and LOVE CAME BACK TO VISIT with me yet again.LOVE CAME BACK and TOOK ME OVER. but the enemy of my life which is the opposite of who i am came and disguised my helping people as a tool to get me to NOT BELIEVE AGAIN. my thought was how in the world am i going to make it if these people can't even get it together? why am i being approached with these issues? where were these people when "my man" left me? i had a real break through.

have you been there? been in a place where you are fighting for your survival and here comes your kryptonite? the very thing i was BEAT UP WITH and was fearful of (LOVE) was being threatened with others haphazard ways. i had to SEPARATE myself from the venom that was leaking from their tongues. THEY HAD NO CLUE that they were being used to slow my PROCESS and to explain it to them would be to no avail. sometimes beloved you will know when you will not have to explain yourself. YOU WILL JUST MOVE. cut people off, jobs off, thought processes off. YOU WILL HAVE TO GET FREE. you can sit and pacify a person and their ego but in the long run joy is for everyone but only those who receive it will live with it. so in other words if a person is not sucking life out of you then they will eventually find someone else to suck life from.

it was terrifying to me because i AM/WAS a people PLEASER. it's a balancing act. i have to figure out if pleasing someone will help or hinder me and my growth. i cared what everyone felt and i want good for them all. BELOVED IF I DON'T WANT GOOD FOR MYSELF, what else MATTERS? PLEASE I ask you to WANT better for yourself. you so deserve it. do not insult G_d when blessings are given you. ACCEPT them ALL... everyone. so tell me...

WHEN IS

I AM JAGUAR PAW

2012-02-08T10:28:00.000-08:00

namaste' kindred:

i am finding myself in the right places designed for me at the right times. i love the universe and all of her opportunities. i think it necessary for me to quiet my soul and shut myself out from the world at times so that i can hear the drafting ideas of the LORD.

this day i was awakened out of my slumber at about 4:00 a.m. and became enlightened by a character from Apocolypto (Mel Gibson) named, Jaguar Paw. i have seen this movie before but there were different things that appealed to me this time. there are walks in our life where some things don't stick out to us until it is necessary. what a tenacious young man. while i was studying his character i became incited by his fear and questioned why he was running so hard once he got away from the grips of the enemy. sometimes your enemy can dwell in your own tent or one near by. that is another topic. i realized that i had a lot of similarities to the character Jaguar Paw.

Young, loving, nurturing, caring, insightful, curious, tenacious and well the list goes on. Jaguar reminded me that if you quiet the spirit you can hear the universe speak via dreams, signs, people, places, and things. when they came upon another tribe passing by them in el yunge (jungle) there were questions that Jaguar Paw wanted to ask the other tribesmen but his father wouldn't allow it. kindred if there is something you seek ALLOW NO man to stop you. it can save you a lot of time and heartache. had Jaguar Paw responded to his spirit it would of saved the tribe or at least given more of them a fighting chance at survival. the sage is a wonderful person to have in your life, this is true but there will be times when you must allow your journey to become your own. no one can give you the answers, follow your spirit guide. GOD will NEVER STEER YOU WRONG....NEVER.

there was a fight within Jaguar Paw, a fight to rebel or just to submit to being overtaken. he was saved. the universe knew his assignment and aided in keeping hin ALIVE. has the universe been speaking to you? are you tapping in? there is greatness registered in your name. Jaguar was saved by the Sun, he was saved by his friend, he jumped the water fall and wound up right back where he was stolen from. who stole you, came into your camp and attempted to slaughter your spirit? are you going to let them have you or will you realize the greatness that is within you and FIGHT. you don't need to exert a ton of energy just realize whom you are and find you place in the world. go deep within. when Jaguar Paw got back to his forest he stopped running and used the elements in which he was surrounded by all of his life. he became the hunter and not the hunted.

once you begin to identify who you are the tables will turn, you will no longer become the defeated. also you will not hunt for sport but you will be a victor in the things you set out to accomplish. once you do these things....LISTEN to your spirit man, don't deny him. Jaguar Paw had a mission and that was his wife and child. what is your mission? what will you do to save it? then i encourage you to GO, GET, WHAT'S YOURS. it is your GOD GIVEN RITE..

i am JAGUAR PAW.

until the next time

namaste' kindred.

WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT

2011-11-30T19:31:00.001-08:00

EVERYTHING.. it has everything to do with it. do you select who you will love? have you made up pre-requisites about who will be your love mate? why? does GOD select who will get what type of air to fill their lungs, is it manufactured and distributed only to the elite? why of course not my beloveds. GOD LOVES US ALL..

so why is it that we put limits on GODS' masterpieces? there is such a variety of personalities, spirits, souls, beings out here in the beautiful world. why limit yourself to what society or what history has said. aren't we supposed to be creating our OWN STORY.. let's call it OWNSTORY... i have my ownstory and it is coming together like the perfectly put together puzzle. see i am FINALLY FREE of me. free of my control but i really am not controlling anything. when giving up what i thought i was mastering... i am truly becoming a master in my own rite. GOD gives and that's ALWAYS worked for me in the past. it's when i get in the WAY that things go astray.

have you ever listened and heard..NO... RUN.. GET AWAY..FIRE.. but stayed anyway to have what you believe to be the last of your heart torn into shreds.. well you are not alone... SLOW down and learn one another (the inside, the mind), the physique will fade in time. get to know them. please don't do it out of loneliness you make terrible bed fellows when this is done.

i have sat here for two years being CLEANSED and HEALED. i had to stop fighting my creator and realize that my life BELONGS TO HIM.. not me. i had to get rid of the anger and disappointment in myself and my old . there are no labels placed it just was what is was and it is what it is. am i angry now...NOT A DROP. i am THANKFUL for all the lessons learned, the opportunity to share our families, our story but not i have my... yeah you guessed right..... OWNSTORY... i have my own. the one that GOD gives me daily to write, and writing is what i shall do.

i have taken my heart of of the box without fear (well some, i'm not perfect) but it's so AWAKENING. another soul is trying to truly COMMUNICATE and SHARE with me HEAVEN. wanting to take up my space, air, time. the precious air that i spoke to your earlier about. i am being blessed with another being who out of all the other souls on this planet is smiling with and because of me. UNAFRAID (well a little bit he's not perfect either). WILLING TO WAIT ON ME AND MY QUEENDOM.. (i say that's right).. I AM SO WORTH IT. listens to my hearts' beat, wait patiently for ME.. for me because he says he understands and sees' my value.

believe me love is INTRUSIVE.. it comes without NOTICE and it's a force that can not be RECKONED with, if it's real. it's fun, zealous,greedy (at times),challenging,euphoric. am i in love.. uhm no but i am WELL on MY WAY and well he's already there.. been waiting for a couple of years.. (uhm can you say big pimpn :) but seriously when you know you know. i knew then but wanted a challenge. wanted to win. somethings you won't win and if GOD'S HAND isn't on it.. well you should of figured this out by now.

GO GET FREE.. free from yourself doubt, don't' be concerned with what mere man will say. they wasn't there with you wiping ALL THE TEARS away. they didn't chase away the single persons' boogie monsters. you had to allow yourself time to heal. WELL LIVE.. LIVE UNCONDITIONALLY AND WITHOUT APOLOGIES. i am...
WHAT'S LOVE GOT TO DO WITH IT..
absolutely everything.

namste' kindred... until next time..GOD WILLING

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: CROWN JEWEL

2011-11-14T08:25:00.000-08:00

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: CROWN JEWEL: Are you comfortable? Yes you, are you comfortable? Tell me why, why is this? I am comfortable but only for short spurts at a time. I...

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: CROWN JEWEL

2011-11-13T17:11:00.000-08:00

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: CROWN JEWEL: Are you comfortable? Yes you, are you comfortable? Tell me why, why is this? I am comfortable but only for short spurts at a time. I...

CROWN JEWEL

2011-11-13T15:53:00.001-08:00

Are you comfortable? Yes you, are you comfortable? Tell me why, why is this?

I am comfortable but only for short spurts at a time. I am constantly being plagued with "something new". There is a freshness that comes upon me and sometimes stirs me out of my slumber. I've learned to keep something besides my bed to grab and write upon so that i can call on the universe to bless me with the very thing that was placed in my crown jewel of my body; my MIND. There is a thing that sits inside me and it causes all kind of thoughts to just ride in wave after wave. It's a activation of my cerebellum, a motivator for my cerebrum. It loosens my Broca's area and allows my words to flow to the tip of my tongue and out of my mouth or on paper.

There is a LOT to being comfortable. There is comfort in knowing that these beautiful occurrences happen on the daily. We must celebrate not being comfortable. Give our 'crown jewel' ALL THE WORK IT CAN TAKE.. It wants to be used, it desires to be challenged. It has so much space that is not being occupied and you can change all of that... JUST STOP BEING COMFORTABLE. You don't necessarily need to leave your city to get 'uncomfortable'. Try picking up a book that you have wanted to read in forever in a day, activate your occipital lobes.

Even when you dream you mind is moving, brain creating. Come OUT of your comfort zone and use this beautiful vehicle you have been given. Drive it to the brink, ride until the wheels come off, trust me THEY WON'T :l).

Life is soooo waiting on us to catch up. Sit and watch the creativity of a child. Do you know they are using more of their 'crown jewel' than we big people do.

Get into the groove of life and find the thing that 'CHALLENGES' you to be uncomfortable. You will find that it is quite rewarding. You will see life with a new view. Your senses will become heightened, things will be funnier, you can see the child in you that you stuffed away while dealing with the every day hum drum of life. Your body and soul will REWARD you.

GO GET FITTED FOR YOU CROWN JEWEL..

namaste' kindred.

VIETNAM

2011-11-05T19:32:00.000-07:00

It is better to travel well than to arrive. To keep the body in good health is a duty... otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear. --- Buddha

I am looking at people in this picture who at first glance look like a horrible bunch of men. I have to gather myself and see it for what it is worth. They don't eat well, meaning not just the food. They eat what they are told, non-thinkers, un free, lost. This is why, I believe, that they are able to do such a thing as walk behind scared naked children (in their on home) with GUNS. What does this say about the Spirit of the man? I don't know. Only they know their (HIS)story. There is a harvest of lost people in the land and they are walking hand and hand... to the BATTLE FIELD of NOWHERE.

I wonder why so many of us earthlings think we are really human. We are much more than this we are a bigger being, we are not as minuscule as you think. How could it be that Vietnam a place that is so beautiful have such an unsettled peace. It is because there are remnants of confusion, anger,dismay,despair, and a many of things. If we allow our spirit man/woman to remain in emotional jeopardy the future will only be a recycling of the past. We are SPIRITS of POWER, PRESENCE,and PURPOSE. Remember this..... ALWAYS.

A lot of us "humans" are in the mind of the old VIETNAM, we are keeping the scars of things, losing ourselves to our past; when you have a beautiful array of scenery within us. Why do we test our faith with such trivial things. This too shall pass and the world moves on. The world moves on.
Buddha's quote is simplistic yet profound. What you put in your temple will harvest what penetrates the mind. Eat well, to live well. Live well to Eat Well. You know the saying "you are what you eat"... well need I say more.

The seeds of LIFE are waiting to be planted everyday and you should be a WILLING PARTICIPANT. Sometimes it is harder than most to SHARE, LOVE, SACRIFICE.... but it is so necessary to keep your spirit FREE and youthful. We must be willing to give even more than we receive. Change the environment for the better.

I have all these images up so that you can see that no only do strangers hurt us but our own race does. So with saying that you have to love ALL as best as you can. AS BEST AS YOU CAN. No one is saying that this thing call "humanity" is easy but it certainly isn't AS HARD AS WE MAKE IT OUT TO BE. Remember that after we've done all that we can there is always someone who will love you for just being you without the JUDGEMENT.. Always there with open ARMS. Willing to receive you and if you don't have a "human/earthing" to go to you can turn to THE LORD.

WAR IS HELL

BUT LIFE IS......

YOU FILL IN THE END OF THE STATEMENT

namaste' kindred.

Hollywood's New Sodom & Gomorrah persona

2011-10-20T12:51:00.000-07:00

Hollywood's New Sodom & Gomorrah persona

ARE YOU STRANGLING LOVE

2011-10-12T19:36:00.000-07:00

namaste kindred:

are you wishing on a star to follow where they are? are you wishing upon a dream? well wake up... YOU are wonderful just the way you are at this very moment. you are love therefore love knows where you live. just wait... be still. love NEVER has to be forced, it never has to be wrestled, strangled,nor forced.

love is simply love, gentle and oh so wonderful. now don't get me wrong it is true work but what in life isn't. failing requires work as well so you might as well work for love. i have noticed, (not judging) how many folks have been in and out of relationships since my FORCED date with celibacy :) this date seems to want to stick around for a while and i am finally at peace with him.. TOTALLY. love is more than smiling or getting butterflies when that "special someone" walks in the room. love sits still and lets you make mistakes realizing that it will be there when you're done. love doesn't say i told you so. love just lets you flow.

i want you all to feel the pitter patter of your love muscle and it shall come to be; yes once again you will love, and this time you will know that love loves you back.

do me a huge favor, DON'T FIGHT IT, let it be. don't over analyze, compare, run from, push it away, and especially don't lie to it. be genuine even at the risk that you think it may not want you. if it leaves appreciate that it arrived and just like the wind... it will come back. keep your hearts open, NEVER CLOSE. be a 7-11.

let love breath and don't strangle it because it is very delicate and it just wants to be admired, shared, tickled, but not held at bay.. GENTLE. let your love have their own identity. don't put your insecurities on love, it doesn't deserve that.

this is just a quick note for a heart that is trying to be all things for all people... just be for yourself and the rest will follow

are you strangling love.

PLANET OF THE APES

2011-09-26T13:33:00.000-07:00

namaste family:

so my son and i went to see p.o.t.a and it was incredible. it is amazing how the spirit can be provoked to change. one of the main characters "ceaser" (andy serkis) was placed in an enviornment that was out of his control. ceaser attempted to "fit in" and eventually did such a wonderful job at it that it became a reality for him.

are there times when you know that something is "not right" but you attempt to go along with it anyway for what you think may be the greater good or fear of the unknown?

will rodman (james franco) attempted to love ceaser and to care for him as best as he could but his selfishness got in the way. will thought he knew what was best for ceaser, and thus it led to him keeping ceaser when ceasar should of been freed, let go, released. do you know of any folks that won't let YOU BE YOU, FREE? have you gotten the short end of the stick, well we could all benefit from watching p.o.t.a. when watching i learned that if i am not FREE it is simply because i chose not to be.

there was a pivotal scene where ceaser was left in the zoo and thought that he was with beasts but then realized that they were one in the same. have you ever looked down on people? well we all are all the same, just different situations. once ceaser sat with his own, ate with his own, suffered with his own; the bonding began to take place. i wonder if you took the time to listen to a man's heart would you really hear or feel what that heart is saying. life is about respecting our GOD GIVEN FREE WILL.

i had a challenge with letting people be free, because in doing so i usually wound up; out of relationships, and into my EMPTYNESS (yes with a y). had to be around bruised folks because it validated my worth and kept me from seeing my faults, flaws, imperfections. i LOVE BEING HONEST with me. it is quite a battle at times but i and all my counter parts benefit.

ceasar fought for his freedom, the one that was stolen from him. he by no certain means wanted to hurt anyone but there were fatalities, there always is. those fatalities can be lost friendships, jobs, domiscles, anything but at the end if you do it with care and most certain concern for others...YOU WILL WALK AWAY WITHOUT GUILT.

do

yourself a favor....
GO RENT PLANET OF THE APES.

also please join my blogspot, i'm about to type until my fingers bleed.

namaste'
love you kindred.

serving 3 MASTERS

2011-08-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

namaste my beloved ones:

it's been a while and i am loving this walk. i know that several of you have been inquiring about my whereabouts. well just know that i am safe, happy and oh so LOVED. GOD is seperating me by snatching me away from certain things, places, and people. i have not touched f/b because at first i was made to stay away and now i just don't know if i want to come back.

it's a very dangerous place for me just as this world is, i recognize who i am in CHRIST, and i won't lose myself to this world. i encourage you all to take a hyatis and LOVE UP ON THE LORD and allow yourself to work towards your freedom.

i notice how so many folks are addicted to attention and i must admit that i was becoming good with the small time accolades that were coming my way. but this walk i have said MANY O TIMES is not about ME. i am a slave, soldier, servant of the MOST HIGH and i must obey. i will pop my head in once and again+ as i am permitted to.

now my word to you is serve GOD not your EGOS. there are so many folks preaching GOD but they have made themselves GOD,yeah you can call yourselves GOD/GODDESS but none of us are the ALMIGHTY, if this were true none of us would struggle.

We have small time Delawareans paving a path of confusion by stating be free when they are inprisoned, be happy when they are miserable, love your family when they hate their neighbors, pratice abstinence when they are whoremongering. yes i said mongering. it is MY thought that in order to tell or sell something you must know about the product. stop selling folks pipe dreams when you need a pipe cleaner. this is not an attack, let's call it a WAKE UP request. take a moment and think about if you woke up and everythingyou had was gone expect 2 quarters , clothes on your pack, a can of sardines, case of crackers, book, pen, water, and a compass. what would you do and where would you go? stop serving your 3 masters, ME, MYSELF, AND I.. GOD sat you here for a reason... GO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT. when you give to others, the blessings have no choice but to REIGN/RAIN all over you and your household.

i love you but i don't miss you... because you are all in my heart. be blessed and most of all BE A BLESSING

comment if you would like. EXPRESSION IS A FORM OF FREEDOM
namaste
heaven08/1/2011

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: u alone are GOD

2011-06-28T09:35:00.000-07:00

LIFE'S TAPESTRY: u alone are GOD: "how can we believe that this thing called life is really manuevered by us ALONE.. i mean think about it, do we really think that we have the..."

u alone are GOD

2011-06-28T09:33:00.000-07:00

how can we believe that this thing called life is really manuevered by us ALONE.. i mean think about it, do we really think that we have the ability to create our skin, blood, veins, breathe. i sit and look at what i believe to be a total disrespect for OUR CREATOR, and so that i am not sitting in judgement i move.

i want us to take a moment and just look in the mirror at our SPLENDID beautiful being selves. how AWEsome we are. we have layers of skin that protect organs that hold us and keep us. give thanks because u alone are GOD. thank u LORD for considering me this day to bestow your blessings upon. how dare we believe for one moment that we can do this on OUR OWN.. give thanks, give thanks...

GET UP STAND UP

2011-06-26T12:53:00.000-07:00

Stand up for your rights.. Don't GIVE UP THE FIGHT.

it is you against the world right? Wrong! The world is yours so if you call it and everything in it to order, then you are letting the POWER that GOD gave you to manifest.

get up stand up and be bravely unstoppable in your mission for love, health, family, community, and GOD. you were born as the first teachers, so teaching you must go. teach your children love by being the epitamy of LOVE. guide them by being a doer and not a talker. remembe they are impressionable and so are you're men. you are very ATTRACTIVE when you are moving.

try not to argue because your children shut down on you when you do, your MAN does too. i was just talking with the sisters in my SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE group (found on f/b ) yesterday that we are the only ones who like to argue back and forth and will bring up things that are three years old.:) just be easy and FLOW.

we carry life from the state of flow, ambiotic fluid, umbillical cords, nine months. babies fight to stay inside our wombs because of peace, so let them feel peace with you outside as well.

the man yearns to be where the baby use to be, so offer him kindness with your words of support. be strong yet tender

you can be strong without being mean and be heard without yelling.

GET up STAND up

MI VIDA

2011-06-18T21:38:00.000-07:00

MI VIDA

Has not been that exciting when compared to others… but it has been REWARDING. I am now on the cusp on all the things that I use to run from. As a child my mother would say something “heavy this way comes”. I never understood what she spoke of but now I am finding that those very words follow me and sometimes they chase me down.

WORDS LIKE ME they chase me down and speak sweet whispers even when I lay my head to pillow. They awaken me and cause me to write and write and write. If you don’t follow what I’m saying words, they awaken me at night. While the rest of the world is sleeping I am writing , my heart is speaking. Some things I will share a lot of them I wouldn’t dare. I am a poet… don’t you know it :+)

Now back to what my ummi use to say to me. The meaning is that I am a big SOUL in a small vessel. Strange, eccentric, not understand, scarred (GOD IS MY ALOE, SALVE, AND COCOA BUTTER) I will share with you some of my writings. Come on over to facebook and friend meJ

I am the founder of SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE L.L.C., a group where women of all walks of faith are part of one movemenn to becoming and remaining spiritually free. I have published a children’s book called PETRA which can be found on amazon, barnes, xlibris, & ingram.

to my surprise

2011-06-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

Friday, March 11, 2011

to my surprise

So i first want to say thank you ahmarr, ahli, & shanae for the opportunity & the trust you have in me.

my introduction to parenthood was not planned nor celebrated. it was actually very dissapointing and almost didn't happen.

i was a track runner, debate club participant, the cool chick at school,the good girl,preparing to go into the navy's officer program, and a virgin who had only had sex once. people thought i was gay because i wasn't "giving it up", so i thought i was "safe" u can't get pregnant on your first time,right? what was scary was that my best friends mother was helping me slide in my prom gown and whispered make sure you wear a condom. shouldn't she of been saying keep your legs closed? well that is another blog. :)

"do you have a condom on i said apprehenisvely" and his response was a very planned & manipulated "if you don't trust me then touch it and see". well i wasn't about to do that, i didn't even want to be there. it was the protocall for prom night, or so i was told. if you love him and know you want to be with him forever then you will do what makes him want to stay with you.

well nine months later and after several tears, pains, fits of anger, and an multitude of body eruptions i became a member of the parternship named parenthood. i in one instant went from fear to LOVE in a way that i will never be able to comprehend; explain nor will i ever want to. it is what it is. LOVE, a blessing. more than a feeling or expectation it's a journey, struggle, rites of passage. i in my mind am the best mother in the world because i gave them the best of me, and i continually do so.

see what i thought was the worse thing in the world became my saving grace "to my surprise" i found another vein to my heart and it feeds my soul to this day. i am not one for kudos or accolades but a smile from one of them or seeing them grub down my food is reward and hence an opportunity to breath.

i tell them that i feel like they are my heart walking outside of my body. i can't explain it any better. there is an overwhelming feeling coming over me now as i write these words. for what i thought was for you is really for me. it's a way for my feelings to come up to current time. no one has ever asked me to do something like this and i am honoured. i know that the words that i am typing are an up to date message but will one day be a time capsule reading. i am now imagining the first day they took a step, smiled at me, sang to me or got their first boo boo. i am a nurturer and some may say too much. i tell you one thing for certain and two things for sure they know where they can come WHENEVER needed & that is to the MATRIARCH. GOD loves me so much he gave me them. i am the root of their stength and i will never stop loving, needing, and desiring them. they are me...

just sit and imagine the magnitude of that, you walking around in a younger shell. the fingers, eyes, lips. all an extension of you. i'm in awe. i'm in LOVE and there aint nothing they or anyone can do about it. so i guess they came much

to my surprise..

until the next time
heaven

i am becoming FREE

2011-06-18T11:17:00.000-07:00

MI VIDA

I am the foundeer of SISTERS IN THE CIRCLE L.L.C. a group where women of all walks of faith are part of one movemtn to becoming and remaining spiritually free. I have published a children’s book called PETRA which can be found on amazo