Lily's Crystal Ball

Transcript from Wednesday's Obsessed Asylum chat

2009-04-15T17:18:00.000-07:00

Read from the bottom up
http://www.friendfeed.com/rooms/obsessed-asylum

You

“Hope to see some of you next time. We'll get the time thing figured out. And hopefully a few more participants! Later daze. Its time for Kitchen Nightmares.”

5 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Well, Me, it's been nice talking to myself. A credit to dementia.”

5 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I have gotten really off topic. But as usual...”

6 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I'm just glad my spectral friends don't need to eat. They'd end up with indigestion if I was doing the cooking!”

6 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Oh yay--Gordon Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares is coming up! If he stepped into my kitchen, that would be a real nightmare! ;-)”

6 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Global warming is real. If we all don't change some things we're going to fuck our planet. And its the only one we have.”

8 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Weird weather we're having. Very warm and sunny today but it is supposed to snow by Friday.”

9 minutes ago - Comment - More

“And to issue this caution. Don't be afraid of ghosts. Most of them don't mean anyone any harm. But do exercise caution in contacting them. Because when you open the door, less savory things can step through too.”

9 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Well, lets see. I reckon maybe I should adopt a motto of some kind. Like the Ghostbusters motto maybe. "We're ready to believe you."”

10 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I'm either too stubborn or too stupid to quit. Or both.”

11 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Feel a bit bittersweet at the moment. Its like playing to an empty room. But you play anyway. And hope that eventually the word will get out.”

11 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Went out for a nice dinner with an old friend last night. Wish I had someone to go to dinner with tonight but I reckon I'll settle for a quesadilla. I know you care.”

12 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Even as jaded as I am, sometimes the readings will really amaze me.”

13 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I owe one person a reading for buying the book and am waiting on a check from another.”

14 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I'm back. Did you miss me?”

14 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Potty break...”

21 minutes ago - Comment - More

“We get a little weird around here if left to our own devices. Thats why it would be nice to have some of y'all step in and take us outside our own little insular group of nut wads!”

21 minutes ago - Comment - More

“But in all seriousness, its expending the energy to make a difference for others, to lessen the suffering in all worlds.”

22 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Some of these smart asses are cutting in with remarks like "It's booze! It's weed!"”

23 minutes ago - Comment - More

“It isn't being perceived as good looking. It isn't being rich. It isn't being "the greatest whatever." It isn't being adulated.”

23 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I am told that "you would be surprised what is found to be important when one has the perspective outside a body. It is not what you might expect."”

24 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I had to be guided not to cling to my Earthbound friends so much. I love working with them but was putting too great of a burden on them. And because several of them care about me (thank you!) they did not want to leave me alone. But I was stunting their healing.”

25 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Folks, it is necessary that we instead call on higher powers to fill these needs. These higher powers have boundless energy. They will not get drained like our Earthbound friends. They can give us what we need.”

26 minutes ago - Comment - More

“My friends do feel sad that there are people who desperately need guidance and companionship. These people take a liking to these friends and constantly call on them. Its sad because really the Earthbound spirits can't fulfill this terrible longing. And they feel awful because they can't.”

27 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Earthbound spirits often have a real need to make contributions that they feel will affect positive change in the world. This helps them heal and atone.”

29 minutes ago - Comment - More

You

“Contacts are generally about an hour at a time unless working with someone experienced who is able to "keep the door" open for longer. Usually both parties are focused on something.”

30 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Bon Scott came to him and said "don't worry, I'll help you." And they worked together for about an hour, according to Brian. I love that story. It puts chills up my spine--in a good way. Its also a really, really good illustration of how an Earthbound spirit works.”

31 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I'm sure a lot of you have heard Brian Johnson's account of how when he was working on Back in Black he started to have a lot of doubts and came to ask himself "what the hell made me think I could do this? What right do I have to do this?'”

32 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Generally speaking, I really like working with ghosts. It can be frustrating at times. Especially when I start to doubt.”

33 minutes ago - Comment - More

“The way to deal with most human spirits is the same way you deal with a living human. Be kind.”

33 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I explained to him that I in no way wanted him to depart and never return but that he couldn't constantly cling to me because it wasn't healthy for either of us. I explained that I liked him very much and loved working with him but we had to do it in a healthier way.”

34 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I experienced a bit of this with the Dead (protector personality) aspect of my friend's soul complex. He was so very lonely and unhappy that there was a period of time when he clung to the first sympathetic conduit that he came across--me.”

35 minutes ago - Comment - More

“If the spirit one is dealing with is basically a nice person, it can usually be explained to them that their constant presence becomes draining and is not healthy.”

36 minutes ago - Comment - More

“The problem is, such people can drain their incarnate contacts.”

36 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I find it necessary to point out that there are also spirits who take advantage of sympathetic humans. These people may or may not have been psychic vampires in life. Sometimes its simply a person who is recently dead and they are very, very unhappy and maybe somewhat frightened.”

37 minutes ago - Comment - More

“They love to work on creative stuff. If you're working on something and one of them steps in to help you out, its a really nice feeling. Plus its a give and take exchange rather than just one person taking from another.”

39 minutes ago - Comment - More

“The spirits I work with are mostly creative people. Probably because like attracts like.”

40 minutes ago - Comment - More

“So it is our duty as their friends not to drain them and to allow them to do their healing work.”

40 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Just like in life, some of these folks find it hard to say "no" when people are calling on them for help.”

41 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Here's the thing: an earthbound spirit is earthbound because he or she has stuff they still need to work out. They need to work on themselves, on healing, on their goals that they hope to accomplish.”

41 minutes ago - Comment - More

“We expect them to be available to us and bestow their mighty wisdom on us. we grant them demi-god status.”

44 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Seems to me we tend to have similar expectations of ghosts and celebrities.”

44 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I think this is a fair way to handle things. But if anyone has other thoughts, let me know.”

45 minutes ago - Comment - More

“That way when people have questions that are outside the scope of the reading they will receive when they buy their autographed copy, or are more in depth than just something really quick, they can bring it here and we'll discuss it.”

45 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Thing is, I do have some health problems and I get too drained if I just allow ad-lib contact. That's why I made this room.”

46 minutes ago - Comment - More

“There is a fine line of what I think I can reveal about the new book. I get excited when really new ideas come but I don't want to leak too much.”

47 minutes ago - Comment - More

“I was studying about Yggdrasil today.”

49 minutes ago - Comment - More

“Make that BY myself. This ain't that kind of chat room!”

49 minutes ago - Comment - More

“So, hot dawg! Eventually I will get some friends. In the meantime I guess I'll just play with myself.”

50 minutes ago - Comment - More

You

“I've been hammering on us incarnates about our tendency to expect our spirit friends to be omniscient and omnipotent. THEY ARE NOT! To put it bluntly, these people have issues, or they wouldn't be Earthbound. They need to work on these issues and we need to let them.”

32 minutes ago - Comment - More

Eh? - 63Mago

Oh gosh, didn't see you there! What I mean is that some folks expect spirits to have answers for them or special powers. They have a bit more perspective on certain things, but they don't necessarily have the answer one is seeking. And they certainly aren't omnipotent. They are just human beings. - You (edit | delete)

63Mago

“I think "celebrities" are just normal human beings that are treated and used by the media - and fullfill a certain need in society. I do not believe that they have anything in common with spirits.”

34 minutes ago - Comment - Like - More

Well, one day we'll all be spirits. Even Brad and Angelina! :-) - You (edit | delete)

“Celebrities?”

38 minutes ago - Comment - Like - More

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You

“But they are not demi-gods. They are just people. In fact, they are flawed people. Unlike me, of course. ;-)”

38 minutes ago - Comment - More

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You

“Found myself wondering why these Norse types can't come up with easy names to spell. Like "Joe's place."”

43 minutes ago - Comment - More

Slögenkögen? - 63Mago

Heh--I couldn't spell that either without looking right at it! - You (edit | delete)

I am sadly deficient in knowledge of most languages. I can read Spanish but it takes me a while. - You (edit | delete)

You

“Let me address the issue of the new contact rules. I really hate having to come up with stuff like that. http://www.lilystrange.com/con...”

41 minutes ago - Comment - More

1 related entry from you

You

“Suspension between practical concerns and matters of the spirit learns the wisdom of secret teachings and hidden truths upon the quest with perfection of circumstances causing true joy.”

45 minutes ago - Comment - More

Hä? - 63Mago

Probably means more to me than to anyone else. To me it means that I am learning things I need to know and it will lead to positive feelings. - You (edit | delete)

You

“To expand, a sentence forms.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“I'm laughing because the hanged man means I'm sitting here waiting, the hermit means by myself. The three of cups indicates companionship. So I'm sitting here waiting for companionship.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“The cards are: the hanged man, the hermit, and the three of cups.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Here's an example of a yes-no Tarot reading. My question is, will I ever get enough members to have an actual chat going on here?”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“I've been working on some dream cycle chapters. Those are some of my favorites. Incarnate people meet interesting mythological beings.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Even if I got no-one else here I want to come up with some more interesting topics than my browser issues.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Don't know why, but when using Internet Exploder I have to POUND THE HELL out of the keys.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“AM SWITCHING TO FIREFOX!”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Ah gorry. I”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Not sure why but there's a real strong free-floating anxiety building up. That indicates for me that something is in the offing.”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

“Doing a numerology. These are a little more confusing than a straight card reading”

1 hour ago - Comment - More

Reading for Masterymystery

2009-01-20T00:55:00.000-08:00

This reading is for MasteryMistery, an online friend of mine. Click here to visit his blog, Cosmic Rapture. Certified unsafe for dullards and conformists.

Sorry to have procrastinated getting on this, it wasn't intentional. I was more worn out than usual, adjusting to my new schedule. At least that's my excuse this time.

The focus card is the Princess of Stones. If representing a person, this is a young female, under the age of 30. She is likely to have a swarthy complexion, dark hair and dark eyes. If not representing an actual person, it represents the qualities of studiousness, kindness, and openmindedness. It can also represent a message about a new opportunity that will open the door to many possibilities.

This card is crossed by the Magician, which is a highly powerful energy of creation and manifestation. The Magician manifests what he or she wants through use of his/her skills. Given your ability with words, I would say that this energy originates with you. Your creative powers are very strong. The letter B is indicated by this card.

The card in the Goal or Destiny position is the three of stones. This card indicates mastery in one's chosen craft and the ability to use one's creative abilities to advantage. This is a very fortunate card for a person who enjoys doing creative work. If it was your wish to gain a wider audience for your writing, now would be the time to begin promoting through new channels. There is a warning not to mix your business life with your personal life and that benefit will come from the assistance of an unlikely individual. Working with a charitable organization will be beneficial to you as well. The letter N is indicated by this card.

In the foundation position is the two of stones. This indicates that you have generally always been able to get along with others. You have a generally balanced personality that lends itself to diplomacy, which will continue to serve you along the way. The letter M is indicated by this card.

In the recent past, there has been upset in your life, as indicated by the Tower. The atmosphere was such that arguments were wont to erupt more quickly than usual between people who were close to you, and this is bothersome to your generally diplomatic nature. As well, your own energies have been depleted to the point of near collapse. This card is a warning to cease any negative activities, i.e. bad habits such as drinking to numb painful feelings. As well, there is an indication of past negativity that has been buried in your psyche bringing forth painful emotions. Recent upheavals in relationships with others are more likely to have past upsets than current concerns as their real basis. Look beneath the surface.

The letters Qu are indicated by this card.

The eight of wands falls in the future events position. This is a card indicating events that transpire with great haste. This card indicates a need to make decisions swiftly with any opportunities that present themselves, a reversal of fortune for the better, and general positive outcomes, though things may at time seem overwhelming. There is, however, a warning not to open yourself up too much, as angry emotions on the parts of other parties may cause them to use your vulnerability against you. There is an indication of jealousy on the part of someone close to you, which strains your relationship with them. The letter H is indicated with the appearance of this card.

The card of the self in this reading is the Hanged Man. This again reflects a creative spirit, a unique personality. However, in spite of the positive aspects of being such a person, it can lead one to feel like the "odd man out" and like one does not belong. This card advises the seeker not to worry about fitting in with the crowd. Use the flexible aspects of your nature to initiate positive change for your life. There is also an indication that activities such as meditation could be helpful to the psyche. The letter M is indicated by this card.

The two of Swords falls in the environmental factors position. Whatever upheavals were indicated by the Tower, the parties involved are willing to work on peaceful solutions to the problems between them. Now is the time for diplomacy. The atmosphere is right for improving all matters in your life, but particularly any involving strife with others. The letter B is indicated by this card.

The ace of cups is in the hopes and fears position. This indicates the desire for a new beginning. The letter L is indicated by this card.

In the outcome position is the ten of swords. This indicates feelings of sorrow and despair that are not easily shaken. This may be a depressive spell or it may be residual feelings from the upheaval indicated by the Tower card, or some of both. There is a temptation to give up on everything. It is never advised to allow despair to kill your dreams, although at times the despair may seem to blanket everything. Look instead to the positive reversal of fortune indicated in the near future. It may be tempting to run away from the entire situation, but that would solve nothing. Face the trouble head-on and in as calm a manner as possible. This is the only way to heal any strife between you and others and to begin to heal the hurt you feel. The letter J is indicated by this card.

While not required, if you have any interest in crystals and stones, these ones are indicated by the card in this reading as drawing positive energies at this time:

Gold topaz, a stone said to draw good fortune and wealth, and also a purifying stone.

Opal, which both draws positive energies and reflects negative ones.

Turquoise is strongly indicated. This stone both helps boost the immune system and helps facilitate communications between people.

Ruby, garnet or bloodstone, which balance the energies of the heart and help facilitate healing.

Agate, which facilitates calm energies and communications. In conjunction with turquoise, this could be very beneficial.

Beryl, a green stone which helps with psychic receptivity and drawing the energies of love and peace.

Sapphire, which draws vibrations from the higher planes and helps with psychic abilities, protection, and calming or meditative energies.

There are Hebrew letters and runes that come into play as well.

Beth (House) is the first letter of the Torah. It means "in the beginning." It cautions against escaping into frivolous activities. Creating is never a frivolous activity. Playing video games for hours at a time is. I wished to give perspective, as there are those who find creative work "frivolous." The Universe does not. It indicates that this would be a good time to start a new venture.

The rune Peorth indicates that you are becoming the person you were meant to become in this lifetime. Open your mind to your natural psychic intuition and pay attention to dreams. You may be surprised at your level of intuitiveness.

The hebrew letter Peh (Mouth) indicates that you tend to think in extremes and are particularly hard on yourself. Ease up and do not be so harsh on yourself. This will also improve your relations with others.

The rune Yr is a warning not to give in to the negativity of others. You are vulnerable right now. Be true to yourself.

The Hebrew letter Lamed (Ox-Goad) indicates that you have been thinking too much with your head and not enough with your heart when it comes to knowing what is right for you. Get in touch with your true inner feelings. Meditate, and when in a relaxed state, ponder on what you really want. In today's world, we often tend to focus too much on material possessions. These may even be necessary, but they are not the heart's desire. There is a need for balance.

The rune Tyr represents personal sacrifices and a charitable nature. Even if feeling combative towards a particularly aggravating individual or situation, meet the challenge with a peaceful conciliatory nature, and things will go far better.

There is also a numerology portion of the reading that I can do if you want to let me know your date of birth. You can email it to me if you would prefer.

lily@lilystrange.com

I hope you found this helpful in some way. My goal is to assist others with this in any way I can.

Blessings,

Lily

Choosing a reader

2009-01-17T01:44:00.000-08:00

A client recently mentioned that she had gotten three different responses from three different readers in response to her concerns. This was my response:

You said that the three readers you worked with earlier all said different things. I just wanted to touch on this. Every reader that you work with will pick up on different things. Most readers are honest, though there are some charlatans. The ones you have to beware of are the ones who charge exhorbitant fees and tell you things like "you have a curse on you and I am the only one who can remove it." This is always hogwash, and always indicates that its time to see another reader.
As I said on my website, I don't consider myself a professional reader, but people seem to appreciate my work, so I like to share it and hopefully help where I can. I hope I've been able to help you.

Blessed be,
Lily

*Remember, if you would like a free reading, all you have to do is authorize me to share the results on this blog. I promise I won't reveal your real name.

My New Social Network

2008-12-05T01:14:00.001-08:00

Are you the open-minded sort? Have you ever been described as left of center? Are you possibly creative, potentially psychic, or maybe just psycho? Then come join my new fellowship! I created it especially for freaks like you and me.

Visit New Strange World

Free Astrology Chart

2008-11-03T23:14:00.000-08:00

Got this from Astrolabe. They also do in-depth ones for $25+
I don't even pretend to do astrology charting.

Name: Lily
February 15 1965
6:00 AM Time Zone is MST
Denver, CO

Rising Sign is in 06 Degrees Aquarius
You like new ideas and concepts, but you prefer to discover them by yourself -- it is not easy for others to convert you to anything. You form your own opinions, but once you do form them, you then want to convince everyone else that they are correct. Try to be more tolerant of the opinions of others. You have a deep and abiding interest in science, mathematics, and the great social problems of the day. Very sympathetic toward the downtrodden, equality is your battle cry! You demand that those in authority be fair to all. You are an intellectual -- emotions and emotional people are difficult for you to understand. You are known for being calm, cool, detached and objective.

(except for the emotional part, this all rings true. I'm actually a pretty emotional person, being an empath. I just don't show it most of the time.)

Sun is in 26 Degrees Aquarius.
You get bored with the status quo and are generally open to new things and ideas. An individualist and a free spirit, your friends are quite important to you as long as they do not try to tie you down by making too many emotional demands on you. Your thoughts are offbeat and you're a bit eccentric, but not always very changeable. As a matter of fact, you can be quite stubborn at times. Very fair-minded when dealing with large groups or broad issues, you are not always emotionally sensitive to the needs of individuals. Extremely objective, with good powers of observation, you would be qualified to study technical and complicated subjects, like science, computers or maybe even astrology.

Moon is in 20 Degrees Leo.
You always want to be proud of yourself and will never do anything that will make yourself look bad. You need the respect and admiration of others and enjoy attracting attention to yourself. Everything you do tends to be self-emphasized and self-exaggerated. Very stubborn, willful and independent yourself, be sure to allow others who are close to you the similar right to "be themselves." Your need for love, affection and reassurance, and your tendency toward vanity, allow you to have your head easily turned by flattery. The more insecure you are, the more you tend to be a showoff. You love games and sports as a matter of fact, you would usually rather play than work. Be careful of a tendency to be snobbish and uppity -- it does not become you.

Mercury is in 19 Degrees Aquarius.
You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things.

Venus is in 12 Degrees Aquarius.
You are a friendly and outgoing individual, but close relationships are difficult for you to maintain due to your fear that they will cause you to lose your freedom. You attract friends and associates who are exciting, different and sometimes a bit odd. You are popular with others and enjoy working within a group toward group goals.

Mars is in 26 Degrees Virgo.
Very careful and systematic, you pay great attention to details. You are always seeking perfection and sometimes get bogged down searching for the ultimate when adequacy would have been sufficient. You dislike abstractions, preferring whatever is practical, useful and demonstrable. You have a strong and enduring sense of personal responsibility, and you demand that others be as responsible and upright as you are. Very critical of yourself and others, sometimes you carry this too far and become overly intolerant of others and their right to choose their own lifestyles.

Jupiter is in 18 Degrees Taurus.
Growth only occurs for you after you have found a stable lifestyle and a dependable, protective and secure environment. You are at your best when those around you provide you with a great deal of affection and support. When you feel insecure or threatened, you tend to become possessive and grasping and self- indulgent. You are an inveterate collector with an expensive preference for all the good things that life has to offer.

Saturn is in 06 Degrees Pisces.
Your tendency to think that your life is out of control is based on an unreasonable fear, probably connected with an unfortunate experience with the person who filled the father figure role in your early life. Learn to take responsibility here and now for your own life. Try to stop having unrealistic expectations about guide figures. Remember that they are merely human, with all the same faults and self-doubts that you have. When you get confused or uncertain, try to simplify your lifestyle -- things will then become easier to bear.

Uranus is in 13 Degrees Virgo.
You, and all your peers, will be known for the degree of intensity with which you dislike normal everyday routines and chores. You will go out of your way to invent innovative, unique and timesaving ways to perform the various mundane routines and duties of living. You will be attracted to all manner of practical and useful gadgets -- anything that will make your daily life more exciting.

Neptune is in 20 Degrees Scorpio.
You, and your entire generation, are extremely interested in anything deep and mysterious. You will explore and idealize the benefits that can accrue from the study of the occult, healing and psychology. You are willing to experiment with substances like drugs in order to push your understanding of your inner being to the extreme.

Pluto is in 15 Degrees Virgo.
For your entire generation, this will be a time when profound changes in society's attitude toward work, duty and responsibility will be initiated. Radical changes in attitudes toward personal health and general nutrition will be promulgated and gain wide acceptance and practice.

N. Node is in 20 Degrees Gemini.
You will consciously seek out many different contacts with others throughout your life. Many of these will be of very short duration, not necessarily because you're fickle, but just because you always seem to be more excited by the prospect of meeting someone new rather than prolonging your present relationships. At any rate, you will learn something new from almost everyone you come across -- intellectual stimulation is what you crave from others. You will be well known to neighbors and relatives, partly due to your curiosity about what they're doing -- you delight in keeping up-to-date about the latest news (and gossip).

Remembering a time

2008-11-03T08:20:00.000-08:00

I only once did readings in a bar. I wasn't comfortable doing them in that atmosphere and have never done so again. There was this annoying girl that kept coming back and heckling me because I couldn't tell her where the bathroom was. One of her friends came and told me "people like you scare her." I said I'd encountered that sort of attitude more than once.
On that particular night, however, I'll always remember that this very nice young man came to me and said he had something very important to tell his family but didn't know what to do because he was afraid they might be angry. It was pretty obvious from the cards and just what I sensed that he was wanting to come out. The cards revealed that things would be rough at first but after a bit of time his family would come to accept it because they truly cared about him. He was so happy. I'm always pleased if I can help people in that way. Those people are the reason that I keep trying.

What Will Happen to Dick Cheney after he leaves the White House

2008-09-14T03:08:00.001-07:00

This is my amazing, 100% true prediction of what will happen to Dick Cheney when he leaves the white house.

Upon leaving the White House, Dick Cheney decided to go hunting up in the Arctic wilderness. On his first day out, he saw a small black bear, which he proceeded to shoot. He felt something tapping on his shoulder and he turned to see a large brown bear glaring at him.

"You know, Dick, that wasn't very nice," the brown bear said. "And to punish you, I'm going to have rough sex with you."

After the bear was done, Cheney staggered back to his cabin and rested up for a month. Then he went back out, found the brown bear who had ravaged him, and shot it. A moment later, he felt something tapping him on the shoulder. He turned to see a huge grizzly bear glaring at him.

"You know, Dick, that wasn't very nice," the grizzly bear said. "And for that, I'm going to have brutal sex with you."

When the bear was through, Cheney crawled back to his cabin, where he recuperated for six months. He then went back out into the woods to find the grizzly bear and proceeded to shoot it. A moment later there was a tapping on his shoulder, and he turned to see a gargantuan polar bear staring at him.

"Admit it, Dick," the polar bear said. "You don't come here for the hunting, do you?"

Badger

2008-09-01T09:04:00.000-07:00

This is from an email I sent to my son who just went to college.

Hi Dude,
Dad and I saw a badger crossing the highway on the way home! I've never seen a badger before outside a zoo and didn't even know they lived in Colorado. As an animal totem, the Badger signifies abandoning compromise and fighting valiantly for what you believe in. You will know or come to know what this means for you. For me it means ceasing allowing others' beliefs to define what I do and so I have paid the $35 fee to publish my second book when its done. Just because my books never make much money doesn't mean they are invalid. I am learning to spend what money I do have more wisely. You seem to have a natural knack for being frugal--it is a good skill!
Badgers are tough and scrappy and we both need to be this way at least mentally and emotionally and not allow feelings of self doubt to defeat us. But badgers also like to play. I tend to be way too "all business" with myself. The key is balance.
I hope you have a wonderful first day and that all that follow are positive growth experiences for you too.
Love,
Mom

Encouraging Words

2008-07-14T03:20:00.000-07:00

Don't bother trying to understand this. It will sound convoluted. It's from the Karma Cards divination system. If I were doing it for anyone else, I'd explain it.

Planet: North Node

Sign: Aries

House: 4

Have faith in your willpower as you did in the past

Do not worry about what you think you know about your home base or your family

Now is the time to do it your own way and do what makes you feel secure

There will be energies to meet the challenge of what makes you feel secure

Success from your desires regarding support

Benefit resulting from the strength of your home base or family

I don't see it right now, but it must be around the corner.

Got Lazy

2008-06-29T04:38:00.001-07:00

Your Anti Climactic Fortune

Deep into your future, I forsee: A bath

The Anti Climactic Fortune Teller

May Reading

2008-05-04T10:48:00.000-07:00

I used the Wisdom of Avalon oracle and a Celtic Cross spread. This reading is for myself.

The card of the present position is the Raven. The raven's attributes are magic, synchronistic events, and coincidence. I have been feeling much doubt about magic of late and this card is a reminder to seek it and to work on my own mystical development, which I often allow to slide in favor of earthly concerns. It is a reminder that magic effects the earthly.
This card is crossed by Love. It is a reminder to be more connected to other beings. I often feel quite alone. I need to open my heart. Not to romantic love, but to the love of all things. The romantic love situation in my case is closed by choice and without regret. It is difficult to explain and the reasons are personal but they include preferring to develop spiritually and psychically, and romantic entanglement is a distraction and has never been a good one. As well, my mental illness makes it a different proposition from what it would be for most people. There are other reasons but they would be difficult to describe.
The crowd in the Goal or Destiny position is the Novice. I am going back to school in the fall for nursing. It isn't my favorite idea and if something else I am doing comes to fruition, I'll drop it like it's hot. Some people want to be nurses. I do not. For me, it's the fact that I'm already in the medical profession and nurses make more money and have more opportunities than technicians. The people who want to be nurses make good nurses. I'll make an ok nurse.
Also I am a novice in the promotion game. Trying to promote my book has been a real headache and I intend to pass on whatever knowledge I get to others.
The card in the distant past position is letting go. I need to let go of my old dream of being adulated. As a not very popular young girl, I daydreamed of being a beautiful and famous actress. I loved watching the show Three's Company, and wanted to be like Suzanne Sommers. I have encountered the late John Ritter, and he is a wonderful person who gave me some very useful advice that I would do well to recall right now. If you would like to read about this visitation, please click here.
My desire to work in the creative arts is not what needs to die for if it did, my soul would die. This is my true calling. Not nursing, not anything else. But the need to be adulated, to be seen as stunningly beautiful, to be POPULAR (which I was anything but) needs to be laid to rest. The desire to be accepted by people from 30 years in the past needs to be laid to rest. The need for acceptance needs to be laid to rest. I need to now do things my way.
The card in the recent past position is restriction. I'll tell you what's causing the restriction: lack of M-O-N-E-Y! I haven't been able to send out books for review on schedule because purchasing author's copies costs $65 per 5 books! That may not sound like a lot, but when you consider that I make $700 every 2 weeks, well...
The only thing to be do is to be patient and ask the Powers that Be to show me the way. And to trust them. My parents always laid "God" on me pretty thick. But they never trusted God or anything else and are very unhappy. So it always rung false.
Another thing I need to let go of is the idea that the church-god is the "true" god and those of us who don't buy in to the church doctrine are going to burn in hell. I've let go of it logically but let me tell y'all that a little fire and brimstone goes a long way to cauterizing your ability to be unafraid! I still have nightmares.
The card of future influence is Death. Like the Death card in the Tarot deck, this card rarely portends physical death. It is the end of something very important. What is coming to an end four days from now is my son's childhood. He will be 18. What is coming to an end an month and two days from now is his schooling. He will be graduating. I will no longer be driving him to school and picking him up 5 days a week. I will be driving him 350 miles away at the end of August, leaving him at his college, and picking him up at the airport on December 19. I will be taking him back to the airport early in January to return him to school. As a whole, this change is good. My son is celebrating. I am secretly grieving. There is so much I wish I could do better for my little boy who is now a man. Fuck me--I'm glad anyone reading this can't see me cry. The stress of this grief I hate and want to tear from myself is making me a very sick woman lately. My dear friend, the wonderful friend who wrote the book with me comes to my side and tries to comfort me and his efforts mean a lot. But he can't take the sorrow from the core of me. Still he does soothe it as I helped him ease the pain of the action he took 17 years ago but cannot take the remorse from the core of him. We can only support each other.
The card of current influence is birth and rebirth. This is the phoenix rising from the ashes of Death. Things are not dead, they are transforming. It is a matter of coming to peace with it and to allow the good things to continue growing.
The current environment indicates Wealth. Well, how about a big neon sign pointing me to mine??? But the wealth is not only money it is also personal achievement.
I have a problem with money. In a past life I was a wealthy person who lost that which was most precious to her, and that was not money. This life had a miserable and horrific end. As a Christian I was taught that money is evil. In this life as a Christian I was taught the same thing. My parents told me the Robert Bloch story "The Monkey's Paw" in order to illustrate that wishing for money would bring disaster and that God would punish those who wish for money. Since then I have been terrified of wishing for money, even when I desperately need it. I have begun praying to Lord Ganesha instead for blessed abundance. Lord Ganesha is benevolent and would not pull a dirty trick on someone such as giving them money through the loss of a loved one. If he feels a person is being greedy, he will simply not grant their wish. If he feels they are being reprehensible enough to warrant a punishment, it will be a punishment in kind, i.e. loss of money, but never punishment by granting money at too high a price. He is not a trickster and not malevolent. This is the only way I feel comfortable asking for increase.
The hopes and fears position is represented by the Wasp. The wasp is a harbinger of jealousy and mean-spirited thoughts. There is a part of me that fears that if I succeed I will lose others, that they will become resentful towards me. Yes, those who really love you would never do that, yada yada. But the fear is there nonetheless and needs to be worked on.
The card of final outcome is the Bee. The bee is a fortunate card. It indicates that hard work will bring benefit. This isn't only work as in for a paycheck work. The advice is to be persistent in those things that have real meaning and your efforts will bring fruition. So I will continue to pursue that which has meaning to me and it will pay off in many ways.

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Blessed be.

A Memorial and a Reading

2008-04-08T01:43:00.001-07:00

As part of the ceremony to honor my co-author on the anniversary of his passing from life, we do a reading to help us realize what we must do on both of our own parts to make the project we have taken on together successful.

The reading begins with an 8 of swords. A card of great frustration, this represents bondage. I am tied to my current station in life and place of residence by lack of funds. He is earthbound by need to heal and impart certain important messages. Of late we have both felt as though we are going nowhere and going there very fast.

One might ask exactly where a ghost can "go." "Physically" speaking, they can go just about anywhere they want. This refers to progress in spiritual healing and growth.

This card is crossed by the six of swords, which represents movement countering the stagnation. For my own part there is a great deal of "movement" in my life at this time although it seems to be taking me along in a swift current rather than my controlling where I'm going. It is very unsettling. I am trying to learn techniques to become more in tune with the energies, thereby bypassing this unsettled feeling.

The card in the goal or destiny position is strength. We have both been weakened at given times in our existences by mental illness, but strength of character and perseverance can conquer even the devastating effects of mental illness. Much can be achieved. Perserverance can even conquer death. Our strength is believing in our mission and perservering in spite of external appearances.

The card of the distant past foundation is the nine of cups. This is a card of prosperity and contentment. I have often had a feeling that in another life I was wealthy and possibly a bit of an ass about it. A horrific tragedy made me see the hollowness of monetary wealth. In this life I fear wealth.

As for him, I know that in this life he died with nothing. He was never wealthy at any stage in his life, yet in spite of his disturbed mental state he always had a noble air about him that I could never quite explain. I'm still not fully able to interpret anything about a past life of nobility on his part although he has said that he was on friendly terms with William Shakespeare in another life. This seems to have been as an actor but he may have been a bit of a dilletante. Either way, both of us seem to disdain wealth and status to a certain degree in our most recent lives. It is a fear that we both need to overcome.

The card of recent past events is the Tower. The disastrous events of the past always echo through on ths day. For a more complete essay on this, please follow this link.

The card in the position of future influence is the Hermit. This represents solitude and study. For my own part, mine is a lonely path. My son is leaving for college this fall and I've never been very good at making friends. But it will also be a time of learning and spiritual study. Befriending a ghost to the degree that I have means that for me the door to the other side is always open for me. This is sometimes good, sometimes it can be detrimental. Sometimes the things that he has to tell me (and others) come through in the form of a fictionalized story. I interpret this as meaning that the best thing we can do is keep writing together!

The four of wands falls into the category of home and self. It is a card of completion and success. We did successfully complete and publish the last book. Now we're just waiting for some lucky souls to discover and read it and spread the word!

I'm using the Necronomicon deck and in this particuar deck there is a woman and a Deep One depicted on the card. Since I'm a woman, guess who must be the Deep One?

Only joking! He actually looks nothing at all like a Deep One. I usually embarrass him by saying he looks like an elf. The Tolkein kind, not the Christmas special kind.

If you'd like to see a Deep One, follow the link.

If you'd like to see my co-author, follow this one.

See, he doesn't look like a Deep One. Now, maybe he can take his hands off my neck!

Again, only joking. For those out there who think that all ghosts take their cues from the late night movie on the Chiller channel, most of them actually don't. A ghost is the same person that they were in life, only being without a body sometimes allows them to see certain things more clearly. They can, for instance, see energy fields that most of us living folk can't. They are not, however, omniscient. That's still an area to be left for the deities, and most of the time they either ain't talking or we can't hear them!

The environmental factors are represented by the 10 of cups. This is an energyof great achivement, joy, friendship, family fidelity, all kinds of great things.

I guess it's a good idea to keep this partnership going. In spite of adversity we really still can achieve a lot and help each other. But we do need reminding sometimes. For me it can be frustrating and painful that my best friends are ghosts and I am pretty well ostracized by living people. Not to belittle ghosts but sometimes its hard to believe in things that you can only sense but not see. (I've only seen one ghost.) For my friend, the pain of wondering if people will ever know who he truly was and wanted to be, of wanting to say he's sorry for the pain his death caused, and the fact that sometimes he still wishes he could take it back or be brought back to life is tough. I think doing this ceremony tonight helped us both and I think this reading has as well.

The five of swords is in the position of hopes and fears. This is a card of opposition and anxiety. Self-explanatory. We don't need any more of this shit and we can be our own worst enemies.

The final outcome is the three of wands. This is a wonderful and positive card. It represents good possibilities and possible help from persons already established in one's chosen field or other benevolent outsiders. Good enough for us! Let's keep working--we aren't failures. And if anyone wants to tell either of us we're insane? Why waste your key strokes? Tell us something we don't know!

Nice reading! Time to thank the Deities for helping us.

Blessed Be!

Lily and Spooky

Reading Choices

2008-03-31T03:53:00.000-07:00

You now have choices as to whose voice you want interpreting your reading. You have, of course, Lily, who will give you straightforward advice in a compassionate manner. But you also now have Lily's alter-ego, Poison Ivy, who is much snarkier and far more brutally honest. While even Poison Ivy would never be so cruel as to tell someone that their loved one was going to die so just get over it, she will tell clients that their boyfriend is a cheating jerk or their job is doing nothing more than give them practice in posterior osculation.

Either way, you will get the truth, but if you are feeling like you are in need of the gloves-off approach to shake you into action rather than the comforting touch of a hand in a velvet glove, so to speak, choose your Poison and let Poison Ivy shake you into action.

For a more esoteric approach, Lily can also consult Shadow Lurker, the gentler aspect of her co-author. Like Lily, he will dispense advice with a compassionate tone, but can tend to be cryptic and tends to speak in terms of topics such as energy flow and aura disruption as this is the way he sees things. The Undead Asshole is Shadow Lurker's snarkier alter-ego and will not hold back on telling a client that, for instance, she is involved with a worthless ass or that if someone chooses to continue on their current path it isn't his fault if their life ends up being a miserable pile of shit. The Undead Asshole swears a lot, and his approach may be offensive to those lacking either a thick skin or a sense of humor.

The Mysterious Spectre is "like a box of choclits. You never know what spirit you're gonna get." I actually created this profile for a certain spirit friend to speak through on the Gnutty Gnostic blog if he chose to, but other spirits whom I've affiliated will utilize it as well. None of them will give their names--they find the anonymity aspect fun. If you're in the mood to roll the dice and see what you get, ask me to channel "the Mysterious Spectre."

If you'd like to have your reading published here, just leave a comment and let us know who you want to have do the reading. If you'd prefer a private reading via email, contact me at lily@mysticvision.org and we'll discuss your needs. All I ask in return for a private reading is a donation of whatever size you can afford, which will help me offset the cost of maintaining my domain and promoting our book.

Blessed be,

Lily and Friends

Land Ho!

2008-01-27T23:58:00.000-08:00

The decision to buy land is a big one. The land is currently undeveloped and I would later add a (likely modular) home to it. Although for me any extra expenditure is harsh, the price seems too good to pass up. I will have to forego promoting my book and will have to forego some things that I was looking forward to, such as a new computer. It is also likely that I will have to take on a second job. But this is a longtime dream. I will not be able to utilize the land instantly. The soonest I can anticipate a move is 5 years. I am not telling anyone I know about this. They would only try to dissuade me. I have to rely on my own counsel.

The land I'm buying is in one of the few untamed areas. It is desert. What??? Yes. Desert. I grew up in the Southwest. I've always wanted to go back. I've never felt at home in the state where I was born and have lived the past 32 years of my life. Because of the somewhat wild nature of the land, I choose the Animal Cards for divination. May the Gods and Goddesses and the spirits guide me.

Sloth represents the foundation of the matter. Sloth advises "consider the smallness of your needs and treasure what you possess." Perhaps I have in part gotten into the precarious financial position that I'm currently in because I've never felt like I had enough. As a child in New Mexico I loved our house and land although I utterly despised the huge cockroaches that would get into the house and I had trouble with the kids at school because my skin was the wrong color. (In this case being pasty white was not a good idea.)

Sloth says "squander neither love nor material things even if they are no longer new." I was discussing this earlier, about how some people ditch a relationship because it becomes comfortable. There are folks who have to have constant newness. It's a good warning to anybody. While I have long wanted to leave my current environment, I need to consider the positives of it while I need remain here.

Crocodile represents the immedate past. Crocodile advises that "the alchemy of energy teaches that death will always yield new life." I have long felt I was holding onto a situation I have outgrown due to fear. I can never escape my past while I remain in my present circumstance. In order to truly become myself I must allow the past (way back to my youth) to be left behind.

The present position is represented by Wild Horse. Wild Horse advises: "seek your passion aloud and defend those whom you love in word and deed."

Which is the purpose of the book I wrote. I wanted to defend someone who is in a position where it is difficult to defend himself, or to let others know the truth about him, and also to give voice to a group of people whose voice is often supressed--the mentally ill. To let the world know that our voice isn't just so much twaddle, that we are not stupid, that we are just as valuable as anyone else. And to educate about the many misconceptions regarding persons with mental illness. I still wish to do this. I still believe it is noble. But it has been a fuckload harder to find an audience than I first thought. So far I've preached to the choir. And the choir in this case is pretty damn small. It's frustrating. And I sometimes wonder why the Universe gives me these tasks and then leaves me to flounder.

Wild Boar represents the positive aspects I bring to the situation. He advises that "whatever tradition or others expect of you, only to yourself be true."

In other words, being pig-headed can actually be a positive thing and I should continue to do so.

The external factors working in my favor are represented by the Tortoise. The Tortoise advises that " when changes are made or the sake of change itself, resist."

Tortoise advises "be true to your way of living, your partner and your creativity lest you destroy something more wonderful than you know." She advises "constructing a mental carapice to protect yourself from the unjutified criticisms of others."

Just so--I'm dogged, determined, and loyal until someone takes a crap on me. In this case I need to be not only sensible but true to myself. Instead of quitting my job and flying off across the country, I'm purchasing something I won't be able to use till future times but something I've dreamed of for a long time. I'm actually doing something for myself rather than for the naysayers for a change.

My own negative input is represented by Panda. Panda advises me to "enjoy the sanctuary of solitude to regain self-esteem and tranquility." In other words, seeking the advice of others in this case is definitely wrong, wrong, wrong. I always question my own judgment. I depend too much on the approval of others. I need to be true to mine own self.

The external influences working against me are represented by Water Buffalo. Water Buffalo advises me to "face life head-on with courage and reclaim the brave spirit within you."

The fact that I seem totally unable to do this definitely works against me.

Further, Water Buffalo advises that "tragedy and failure are intrinsic to living but sometimes we are cowed by events, unable to move forward.

I am still crippled by the past. Mighty Buffalo advises that the brave spirit that drives me to unusual pursuits is waiting to be reclaimed and that I should "take your courage in both hands and dare to be."

In other words, stop hiding and being cowed by others. That is definitely working against me.

The immediate future is represented by the Red Squirrel, who advises me to "gather your resources now, for they will sustain you through the coming change."

This is a fortuitous card to receive in this position and for a question such as this. Instead of squandering my tax return on partying, I can go a long way to purchasing this parcel of land for my future. I am thinking of my future and I need to believe in what I want and do what I've gotta do. The perks can wait.

The ultimate future is represented by Bee. Bee advises that "hard work is rewarded with responsibility and a sweetness that is shared."

This too is a fortuitous card in the given position--I just love when a reading is this clear-cut! Seldom have I received signs that were more of a green light. I will have to work hard it is true but I am working for a future, to have a place not only for myself but for my family in the future. When my son has a family it will be a place they can come and even call home. Not the transient feeling of a trailer park, but a real home. It will be a modular home, but it will be on a foundation. I can get back to the land as I have long wanted to. Have some hens around to lay eggs which I can use and maybe even sell a few. Not that this is a way to get rich, but just a thought. I will have to work for it--the ultimate dream will not be realized for years. But this is a way to start. And I will do it immediately when my next paycheck comes in.

I thank the deities and spirits for their assistance and ask them to bless me in this venture.

Lily

The Crystal Ball Returns

2008-01-12T21:21:00.001-08:00

I've decided to bring the Crystal Ball blog back from the grave. My one reader may now rejoice!

Blog Merger

2007-12-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

Thank you to everybody who subscribed, I really do appreciate it. I have been advised by my spirit guides to simplify my overly convoluted life. Chaos is in fact a symptom of bipolar disorder but in my case I think the psych diagnosis just happens to fit the condition of my soul. In keeping with their advice I am trying to make small changes that lead to larger and/or more permanent changes. Taking baby steps so to speak.

I have a tendency to obsessively categorize things, and my system makes sense to nobody but me. This is why I have so many blogs. I am trying to condense those that have similar content. Therefore, this blog is going to merge with the longer-established Gnutty Gnostic blog which also features metaphysical essays (and the occasional dalliance with useless foolishness.) Thanks for your support and we hope you find that the Gnutty Gnostic provides you with satisfaction for your mental ruminations.

Blessings,

Lily and the Ghost

Reading for Self

2007-11-26T17:45:00.000-08:00

Since I haven't had this blog long there aren't many takers yet. So I figure I can use readings for myself to illustrate how the readings look. I generally don't read for myself. There's too much chance for misinterpretation based on emotion. The situation that inspired me to do this reading was a dream I had about an old crush from high school whom I literally hadn't thought about in probably 20 years, and drawing the Fear card from the Wisdom of Avalon oracle.
I knew the dream about "Dirk" (Dork) did not presage his return to my life, for which I'm actually quite thankful, because he turned out to be a Dick. In fact the most telling part of the dream seemed to be when Dirk kissed me and said he was going to leave his wife and my inner voice said "a leopard doesn't change it's spots." But this dream was trying to impart something to me. Let's see if I can figure out what.
I used the Secrets of the Necronomicon deck to do this reading. It is available from Llewellyn.

In the present position the card is the four of cups. Is Lily disappointed? Frustrated? You bet yer fur she is! She's 42 years old, living in a trailer, and as soon as her puny $700 paycheck comes in, it's spent. I started too late focusing on what I really wanted to do because I didn't know before. Bipolar has a way of scattering a person's energies and thoughts to the four winds.

Crossing me is the Great Ziggurat, which is akin to the Tower. There is a great deal of upheaval in my life. Most of it concerns my son's impending graduation next spring. He will be leaving home. He is my only child and I am divorced. This "frees" me in certain ways. But it also leaves me lonely. I do not have many social contacts and I am very shy by nature. And I am a born worrier. How do I stop worrying about his safety? He isn't prone to behaving recklessly and he doesn't do drugs or drink. Letting your child grow up is hard. What if he doesn't want me in his life anymore?
The Great Ziggurat also indicates climbing to new heights. Perhaps this energy is there for both myself and my son.

Crowning me is Great Cthulhu. In this deck, Cthulhu is akin to the Devil. He echoes the sentiments of the Fear card in the Avalon deck. It is a warning not to fall prey to lusts or to let fears destroy, or any plans that I may have had will be demolished by short term folly. Honestly, I think the greatest danger for me in my solitude is becoming an alcoholic. This is something I really need to be wary of.
The dream I had was full of the feeling of being drunk, though on lust rather than booze. Back in the day, what tied me and people like Dirk together was boozing and doing drugs. In the dream I was concerned only with my own feeling of entitlement, where in reality I would be thinking "what a creep, trying to get a piece of someone else behind his wife's back!" I'd come to the conclusion that Dirk was a creep before he ever graduated. (He was a year older than me.) Looking back on it, he was confused about things and I forgive him. Last I heard about him he was married and I hope he still is. I don't think he was a bad guy at heart.
There is something from those times that I've never dealt with and am still trying to heal. Perhaps my son's being around the same age as I was when this drama went down triggered something.

The seven of wands indicates what was going on in those times. Backstabbing bullshit. I made my first suicide attempt when I was sixteen. I didn't think I was strong but maybe I was stronger than I gave myself credit for. I survived.

The king of Pentacles is in the recent past events position. My ex husband embodies the traits of the king of Pentacles. Methodical and generally practical, somewhat dull in aspect. Except for a few relatively minor incidents, my ex and I have been civil with each other since the divorce. I have had to deal with the guilt over the fact that I never loved him romantically. I married him for practical reasons. I reasoned that it was better to marry someone for whom I didn't feel any sort of deep desire, whom it made a sort of logical sense to marry. This really goes against my nature and it sounds horribly cut-throat when I state it outright. I did not intend to use my ex, I didn't want to have boys on the side or anything so awful as that. I intended to stay married to him. But after my son was born things deteriorated between us and my ex's dark side emerged. Both of us had too much baggage.
We have been civil for all these years. We are family. That too is a triumph of sorts.

The future events card is the ten of Pentacles. It represents family and monetary gain. I would be pleased with monetary relief, from a positive source. I have trouble wishing for money. My family always taught me that such wishes would be greeted with misfortune because money is the root of all evil. It's hard to get that out of my subconscious.

The Ace of Swords represents my desire to cut away the dead flesh, the unnecessary parts of my past that keep me bound to fear and hurt. It represents a desire for control, but this is a benign control, such as a control over one's base instincts. While certain addictive behaviors may have actually helped me survive in the past, it is time to be rid of them. With the desire for control of self comes a desire to help others--in my way, not in a way prescribed by society. I am in a "helper" job and I do not enjoy it. But I do wish to be a force for positive change.

The Knave of Cups or Scribe falls in the Environment position. After some fifteen years, I finally published a book. But the book I published was not the one I initially conceived. I wanted for my book to mean something, to be a means for helping others. In some ways it has. There are other ways that maybe it can, and I hope that it will.
The book is a good thing.

The Knight of cups represents traits of mine that are both positive and negative in nature, and are indeed somewhat contradictory. While possessing a desire for honesty, I also have a tendency to be secretive and paranoid. I will not directly lie, but I don't always tell the entire truth. I tend to have tunnel vision. My devotion to my goals is at times perceived as selfishness. I have always given people the impression that I'm standoffish when actually I'm shy. On one hand I could give a shit less what other people think of me. On the other hand I don't care to be despised. I can appear to be very cool, even cold, but inside I'm in turmoil most of the time. I need to be sure my fears don't get the better of me.

The Queen of Cups reveals my tendency to form superficial relationships in order to protect myself. While one cannot immediately trust everyone there may be a need to open a door in the wall that I've built around myself in order to avoid complete isolation and devastating loneliness. In all honesty, I'm not certain how to do this. I have had walls around myself for years, even against those that I care about the most. This seems to be a warning to stop allowing fear to keep me separate from others. Protecting oneself without appearing superficial is a real balancing act. This seems to be the most important thing for me to work on at this time.

I hope this reading will help illustrate the style and depth in which my readings are performed. I charge $25 for a private reading, or you can receive a free reading by purchasing an autographed copy of the book for $20, or by agreeing to have your reading displayed on this blog. I won't use your real name!

Blessings,
Lily

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2007-11-18T00:15:00.000-08:00

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What's this All About?

2007-11-06T06:21:00.000-08:00

The purpose of this blog is to showcase my card readings for potential clients. Click the links below to see some sample readings.

A divination I did for myself

A reading I did for a friend

A reading I did on request

The cost for a private reading by email is $50. Receive your reading free if you purchase an autographed copy of my book (50% of all profits from the book are donated to the World Health Organization's mental health division) or if you allow me to showcase your reading on this blog. I will not use your real name should you agree to allow me to use your reading as an example. The reason I chose to give and option to receive a free reading is threefold. First, I would like to offer an incentive to promote my book, which may entertain and guide others, and which has a philanthropic purpose. Second, I fully understand that not everyone who needs guidance can afford to pay the full fee and I want to offer everyone an opportunity to receive the help they need. Third, I hope to build a client base and believe that a good way to do this is to offer a sample of what my clients can expect from me. I believe that offering the free readings as an incentive is mutually beneficial to myself and those who seek my assistance.

I utilize Tarot cards and various other divination decks to perform my readings. I do not see these divinations as necessarily predicting the future so much as indicating strong energies exerting influences on a person's life. They can guide a client to know what parts of their life need particular attention, which things should be pursued and which things should be changed. Past life influences are sometimes revealed as well.
I enjoy assisting others and look forward to helping you.

Blessed Be,
Lily Strange