Little Miss Gothic Muffet

Movie week…. I can’t believe I saw this many!

2011-06-29T21:24:00.001-07:00

After 3 months of extensive planning for an arts festival, It was finally over and it was a success. The week after, my body collapsed into a, " what just happened" moment. It was time for me to take some time and recoup before going to a convention in San Antonio 4 days later. To do so, I had decided to see a few movies:

X Men, Green Lantern, Kung Fu Panda 2 and Cars 2 all in one week. How would I rate these?

Xmen, I liked. I thought it really brought characters together. Now how this relates to the comics, I don’t know. The comic I really read in Highschool and College was Death the Sand Man Series by Neil Gaiman. I love the old cartoons and such but never really read the comics.

Kung Fu Panda 2 was cute. I really like it and it made me a bit teary.

Cars 2 – Meh……

Green Hornet… Meh…

Will I buy any of these movies? I have no idea, but the magic 8 ball is hovering between ask me later to out right, no. They were fun and entertaining for the moment.

I finally saw the old 1994 movie, The Crow, a few weeks ago.Everyone I have told are amazed I never saw it. Meh, I had other things going on at the time like being pregnant, college and working full time alongest other things. But it was cool. I was amazed at the familiar looks of The Crow and the Heath Fletcher Joker characters. Then to find out they both were killed? Wow… is that true? I don’t know – I was too lazy to look it up.

This week has been busy but I always have time to veg and watch a movie at home. Really that is one of my favorite past times recently. I have borrowed the whole Star Wars set, Cowboy Beebop, 9 and Fight Club and I look forward to watching them again. Yep – instead of shopping at the store I have reverted to borrowing my friends movies and things – and I do the same for them.

As for books? I still haven’t really gotten my hands on any to borrow yet. If you’re willing to send me one, I will read it, but I am trying not to buy any for the time being. Maybe it’s time for a library card I say. But in the mean time, I am reading Hitchhikers road to the galaxy. Yes – I have never read it all the way through. Now that I have some time – I will go for it. Also I have the 2^nd hard back of the graphic novel Fables to read. That will be fun also. Another short read I am borrowing from a friend is Bride of Tranqility. A friend of mine picked it up at a con. Said it was light hearted and funny. That is what I need. So we shall see.

Why are we so ashamed?

2011-04-25T21:26:00.000-07:00

definition via google:

a·shamed

adjective /əˈSHāmd/

As I look around or act on a feeling, from time to time with my childish, I don't care attitude, it reminds me not everyone feels the same way I do. Not everyone has the strength, guts, or I don't give a shit attitude to do what they want tor feels right to them. Why are we as people so ashamed to do things that makes them feel good?

Growing up - I always had super white skin that was so easy to burn. So I opted to stay out of the sun and was made fun of as the school ghost. I remember in Junior High being put into a trash can by some boys because I didn't have a tan like the other girls. To add to that I had money. I had named brand purses, jewelry and the clothes. I hated all these things. I found early on some people and boys would want to be my friend because of that. I ditched everything and thought, ya know what, if anyone wants to get to know me they will have to want to know me and in my more punk rock apparel. If not, it's their loss.

Just this weekend at a school arts festival I was helping at I was reminded that this feeling is ingrained into childrens heads at an early age. I was demonstrating how you can make an object into a piece of jewelry. When I was doing so an interactive song came on called Cha Cha slide and the kids that were more 4th grade and above thought they were too cool for school and wouldn't participate. Ok- I understand. It's embarrasing. So I get up and I act out the song and made the kids at my table do the same. Come on - it's crazy that we are instilling into our kids minds that they can't do this or can't do that because of what Mr. So and So would do or say about it.

I learned early on I did NOT care one way or another what people thought of me. I am and always have been my worst critic. I say we WASH these feelings off of us and our children.

I propose you try to do something each week that you have always wanted to do but were scared of what other's would think. If we can't live our life the way we feel it should be then in reality we are dead and just continuing in the same hamster wheel everyone else is.

Kids and adults can be evil and make us feel like the scum of the earth if we don't try to fit in. But hey, I much prefer to try to get the square in the circle. It makes me feel better. Let's wash the embarrassment away and teach our children how to have fun, regardless of what other's think.

On top of the ashamed portion, their is the worry part that parents guilt their kids into. I wanted to go to a college 3 hours away from where I grew up to learn jewelry design. I also wanted to go to clown college in Florida. I was not allowed to do either. Yet, that's all I want to do is make things and to make people laugh.

Crazy I say..... But really, I challenge you to not be ashamed of yourself and to try something you have always wanted to do but never the courage. It will make you feel great! I can't wait to hear what you did as a challenge.

Bed Time Doodles 4.19.2011

2011-04-19T21:33:00.000-07:00

Yes today sucked yet as I tried to go to sleep I decided it was doodle time. I have been known to draw on my hands, legs and other people around night time. but tonight I tried something a bit archaeic. Yes - actual paper. ***Gasp*** I know, right.... Eeeks.... Anyway here are a few lomo shots of them.

On the left is a Day of the Dead Easter bunny. Yes I love Day of the Dead and Easter I thought might work well. Plus the whole bunny on Easter scares me - all I can see is donnie Darko coming into my room - but when I was 4 and running to my mom and dad's room scared out of my mind. They would say - go to bed the easter bunny will be here soon. OK - exactly - that's why I want to sleep inbetween you two, so the Easter bunny doesn't eat me or kidnap me. Gaaaaa.... Those Mall bunnies are enough to scare any child.

Next on the right is the more pop culture peep / angry easter birds. Om NOm Nom. Ok - so hopefully I can go to sleep now. If you are not sure about what I meant about writing on my hand.. I started a handy blog when I had insomnia....

Free image for Easter and Spring. Om Nom Nom

2011-04-17T20:43:00.000-07:00

Free down-loadable image of Bunny going Om Nom Nom just in time for easter! :D Not a huge bunny fan? Then download the Snail Om Nom Nom image.

Just right click and save the image to your PC / Mac. Enjoy your week!

<3

Ode to Work

2011-04-09T09:45:00.001-07:00

Ode to work
Sing to the tune of whistle while you work. F blunt please.......

Whistle while you work. ***whistle***Don't listen to that jerk. ****whistle*** Their power hungry, last minute hurry, they treat you like your diiiiiirttttt. Soooo.... Whistle while you work. ***whistle***Don't listen to that jerk. ****whistle*** Your absolutelyyyy confidentlyyyy, crucial to do their workkkk.... Sooooo, just..... Whistle while you curse.. ***whistle*** Don't forget to do your worst ***whistle***. Take a long lunch, leave a little early and forget about that jerk. Sooo just whistle while you driv***whistle*** It's time to leave that ***bleep bleep bleeping bleep*** dive!!!!! Time to have a stiff drink *** hiccup*** and pass out on your beeeedddd....... Zzzzzzzzzzz

Which one to donate for Japan Relief Art Show ?

2011-03-29T10:28:00.000-07:00

I am donating two pieces of my art to the Flood of Emotion where all proceeds will got to help Japan. It's two weeks away and I will be turning in art next week. Firstly - it's hard to call my work art. It's mine and it's a piece of me. But I also feel weird when I say it. I don't know - I have a hard time marketing myself, however, I can market products and other people with no problem. LOL. Strange.

I honestly have never donated for a cause and I am a little wishy washy on what I should donate. Should I create something totally new or donate pieces I have already created and not prepared to sell yet? I can donate jewelry but it doesn't seem like something someone would want to bid on. Or I would donate a Maj Jong piece. The other pieces I am tring to decide on are these.....

Belly Dancers
beautiful and talented

Nebulious:
confusion meets sadness

Do you think these would be ok to donate? I love them both. Or do you think I should create something different that is a little more to the subject of Japan?

Post Created Mar 22, 2011 10:51:27 PM

2011-03-22T20:51:00.001-07:00

With your touch, my insides
Constantly change
Rearranged, right before me

With you I see
The sun melt before me
Your hands linger across my body
Molding me as I were your everything

Without you the world would be a dark and stale place
I would feel as is I were trapped in a dusty box.

With another I would not see beauty as I do when you have your arm around me.
Protecting me

"Shhhh," you say as you turn me around
I feel your warm breath against my back
Your words are gentle against my body as you say "I love you"
I shutter.

It's amazing how it feels to be your camera.

I'm back in the Saddle... aka My Art :)

2011-03-14T00:02:00.000-07:00

Last night I had a fabulous time at a Music and Arts live gallery showing. It rocked. It's been a long time since I have shown me jewels to the public. I needed that. Especially since November it's been hard to use my hands for making things and it was very depressing. Yesterday beforethe show - I pushed myself hard. I needed to do this to get my sanity back and my passion.

I have always been an artist at heart or rather... working on trying to be an artist. My passion is t aking photograp hs and making unique jewelry pieces from gaming dice, skulls, metal, and even glass. Art, in pretty much any shape or form, is a way for one to truly express oneself. Being an introvert most of my life, this has been a very important outlet for me. My last art showing was in September, since then I was having difficulty making pieces and request so duck out of the scene for a while. I just went to the store Saturday morning to pick up some metal letters you can hammer into pieces. During the drive from my house to the store (10 min) I found out I was to have a Live Art Gallery showing that night. I was so excited to go check out the scene and catch up with some old friends. Truth be told I haven't been involved with the scene for about 1 1/2 now.

I have made jewelry of some shape or form since I was a kid. I love it. In college I majored in Environmental Science and minored in Art. The art classes I focused on was Metalwork. I loved it. Drilling, cutting ,etal with a jig saw, sanding, buffing, molding... it would seem as if I was there in the lab for 30 min on the weekend when it was really 4 hours.

Once I was married and had children I put my drill press, blow torch and all my sharp fun toys up. I was nervous the kids would hurt themselves. So time went on and about 4 years ago my children were going to have their first communion and I wanted to give them a rosary. But the few stores that carry them, I didn't like them. They were so dull. So I decided to experiment and make them one (pictured to the left). Since then I have made a few others with odd beads that don't match as a woman might have an ornate necklace. I just felt their was a need. After I made theirs and had a few commission pieces, I decided to start making more and more and more....

My first Gallery showing was when my Dad was in the Hospital. I would sit on his bed and chit chat all day and night and work on my jewelry at the same time. I was board with the beads that you could buy just anywhere. I needed something unique and different mediums. That's when I was playing a game one day and I giggled and said, yep, these dice need holes. So out came the drill press. With an obcession with vampires, old Dracula movies and a fantasy series I have read it's a given at any time I might make an odd to them. Then my fascination with skulls and Día de los Muertos yep... I couldn't resist.... Day of the Dead rosary at your service.

I would wake up in the middle of the night with ideas and became frustrated I didn't have the time to make them after a 3 hour round trip commute to work, kids, soccer practice, ect. So it would be late at night when I had a chance to work on it. Being an insomniac, that wasn't a problem. It's almost as if I don't create it, it will nag on me in the back of my head.

The best part of last night is I got to hear people geek out over my creations. Even if they don't buy anything, it still warms my heart. It's time for me to get back in the saddle again. Even though Im still unemployed this will atleast give me something to do, not that I am complaining mind you.

Work i have done:

Alice Madness Returns and Need help.. Which version to buy?

2011-03-13T23:09:00.001-07:00

**** girly excitement squeal. Eeeeeeeeeee*****
It's being released in June!

It's been 11 years since American McGee Alice was here. I sadly, didn't get to play until this year after I finally won a bid on ebay. For a game that was so old, it is still very popular. I had been looking at it the last few years and since the newer Alice in Wonderland was out, it was priced up in the $150's use. Luckily when I finally won the bid (I lost the bid to 5 other copies) , I got it for $30.

I have heard that both experienced gamers will not be disappointed and that people just getting into gaming will still be able to get through the game with it's puzzles and battles, but also the noobs.

The story? "American McGee’s Alice saw an accidental fire consume Alice’s home in Victorian London, along with her family. Wracked with survivor’s guilt, Alice attempted to commit suicide and was committed to the Rutledge Asylum. While institutionalized there, she revisited the Wonderland of her childhood, which had decayed under the iron fist of the Queen of Hearts. By destroying the Queen -- the physical manifestation of her own insanity -- Alice restored Wonderland to its original splendor and was declared stable enough to venture out into the real world." via Samit Sarkar

Check out this fantastic-o trailer!

More Alice: Madness Returns Videos

Being a Alice nut, I can't wait.
I love being able to slide into a persona of a suicidal Alice. But this time around Muahahahhaha.... Again 11 years later. I can not wait, to see how smooth the game play will be and graphics much more advanced (ok that's a duh, but the older version still isn't bad).

Now the BIG QUESTION:
Which version to buy
PS3 or PC

I'm confused....... need help....

signed
an Alice fan!

Handy Blog: Batty Song

2011-03-06T22:55:00.000-08:00

From time to time I get board and write on my hands and such and Make Hand puppets. Then I make them sing stupid songs. Here is one of my Bat songs to hopefully make you laugh.

Little Miss Gothic Muffet, repost a twist on mother goose

2011-03-04T19:37:00.001-08:00

Illustrated for your viewing pleasure....

Little Miss Gothic Muffet
Sat on her pale white Muffet
Drinking her O positive blood.

Along came a spider and sat down beside her and she went
***crunch***
Mmmmm..... Dessert

Highschool Reunion? sigh

2011-03-03T16:15:00.001-08:00

So as old highschool friends are asking for friend confirmation on Facebook I have to ask, why???
One of them made a wall and have about 400 people on there that I don't even recognize, not just their face but their name. Ok, I admit I was horribly shy in school and I found a lot of them intimidating since I was an art/ photo nerd and well ill admit nerd all around. I haven't changed much there, lol.

I didn't go to my 10 year reunion because I was living about 5 hours away at the time and didn't find the need to go. Now I'm back in town and I have no excuse other than..... I don't wanna (in a whining tone).

Honestly, I was so excited to leave highschool. My pale white skin was always made fun of. I might have wanted to date a few jocks but they were fearful that my New Wave/ punk fashion would not blend with their popularity. Yep, pretty in pink all the way. So why should I go? The friends I wanted to reconnect with I have. And not just digitally. I went out of my way to send cards by snail mail. Gasp, right? Lol!

So after being treated badly all the way through why should I go? I admit I'm still not a spring chicken but I've done well for me and I do not feel the need to go and feel belittled. I don't know it seems like a cluster fuck waiting to happen. On the other hand it could be comical just people watching.

Mistress Scary a spin off of Mother Goose

2011-03-02T19:55:00.001-08:00

My own rendition changing up Mistress Mary quiet contrary that is just a little more twisted.......

Mistress Scary quite contrary,
How does your cemetary grow?
With tomb stones statues and catalillies
And pretty corpses all in a row.

***Curtsied and walks off the stage***

Viscous Cycle: Health, Food, Holistic / FDA Meds

2011-02-27T21:19:00.000-08:00

Being a Marketing, Designer / Dork sometimes I struggle to market to the people. I get upset with shopping for Christmas because society in a whole has forgotten why there is a Christmas. I can't even say Merry Christmas without pissing someone off. Easter, really - a big bunny? Why? Again... forgotten holiday in the back ground. You already heard my rant on Valentines day. So what's my problem? Maybe I think too much.

See, in my career field we sometimes market good things and then we also send messages that the public really shouldn't use or eat. Processed foods, sugars, flour, tobacco and medicine. All the things that can actually make us sick if used too much or even just used. Now I am not saying that a few of those are not bad, it just depends. And that gray area of the unknowing is were I get frustrated.

The last 2 years I have not watched any News, Local Channels, not even the weather. My phone tells me the temperature and what to expect for the next week without all the Media Drama. If I wanted to watch a certain movie I would add it to my instant streaming on netflix. why did I stop watching local channels? Half the time I felt like something horrible was happening someplace as a diversion of something else going on. i mean, come on now. Then commercials on TV try to make us feel like we need things we don't need. We complain about how everyone's debt is but yet it's still being persuaded. It's like in the movie Jossie and the Pussy Cats where they would put hidden messages in music that would say what the kids should buy to boost sales, "Blue is the new black" then all the kids would rush and get the new color, cd or what have you.

Marketing is a vicious cycle.

Ok - so a little history lesson, I was diagnosed with Fibromialga before the holidays and now in
search of healthy foods. Then I became more frustrated that it's so hard to come by. I mean I love chocolate and I am a coffee whore. Now Im being told that flour is bad for me, lay off the caffiene and go Gluten free and it will help manage the pain. Let's admit it, it's hard to find sugar free, gluten free, bla bla bla.... It's so hidden. Grrrrr....

So that is when I began researching foods. My eyes have opened. FDA doesn't always approve holistic things which would prompt doctors to suggest. But that's the direction I'm looking at. Medicines with so many side effects, cost alot. I mean really??? Granted it makes us feel better. And sometimes its the only thing that will help. Yet, it confuses me too. Sometimes I just don't like how the medicine makes me feel.

I started watching documentaries on managing pain, stress and the immune system, Yoga and then I found a documentary on The Gerson Miracle which is about Dr Max Gerson in 1928 had a method of treating and curing diseases like cancer and other degenerative diseases. A lot of what he explains is about eating and other holistic practices. I'm confused and more so I got really pissed off. Why was I pissed off? I mean I was really angry... about a year and a half ago my Dad found out he had cancer. He was in the hospital for a month and they wouldn't release him. A month later he passed away after chemo, dialysis and all sorts of things. They even tried something that they hadn't used since the 1950's. I wish at that time I known more about alot of what I am finding out now. What are other options? Are their any? Is there anything that works without a consequence?

Don't even get me started on Healthcare ( which I pay for on my own since my last job didn't offer it). I just don't get it. What are we doing to ourselves to be so over worked, stresses and worried and unhealthy?

How can I turn stress and worries off without medicine? I know I can try Tai Chi and Yoga. I was belly dancing and doing Yoga the last 2 years but I was still stressed. Now the third element. (Hrmmm - should I say the 5th element? Corbon Dallas... Multtttiiiii.... Passsss) Sometimes I wish I were a cyborg like Ghost in the Shell.. No emotion, no pain. Lol, but thy would be no fun either. muahaha.... unless I was programmed to do so. Hrmmm, that would be nice on my grumpy days.

Ok so..... again, marketing - Im at a cross roads with it. I'm tired of trying to persuade people to buy something they really don't need. I do like my games, techy gadgets and my dorky trading cards and action figures (don't you dare take it out of the box or Ill ... Ill.. twitter about you being horrible, ya - take that). But those are things I like and make me happy. Not because I am trying to get anyone's approval. I mean, geez... you can check my youtube videos I post. Im a freaking dork. I am hear to make people laugh and I laugh at myself.

So what's next? Well, since I recently lost my job, it's the perfect time to think about this. What do I want to do when I grow up. I want to do something that makes a difference. I don't think retail marketing does that. I just don't know what I can do to help with art. I just don't want to convince someone to smoke if they don't. I recently had to turn down a job because of my morals on the whole deal. Crazy I know, think of the money. Hrmm, I hate money. I dream of money when I'm sick. Yet, it's a bitter sweet world.

No TV for 2 years. For the first time I turned on a local channel to watch the Big Bang Theory and i was so excited. But again, commercials. They can make or break a product that can make or break us - the end consumer.

As Garbage would sing, "I Think I'm Paranoid"

On a good note, before my dad was admitted into the hospital I was able to take him to the latest Star Trek movie and it was freaking awesome to watch it with him like I did when I was a little girl. We laughed, giggled and shared excitement of how the characters did a great job trying to be like the Original.

And if you haven't noticed already my grammar and spelling sucks. But I think you get the drift!

Wonder Woman vs Cat Woman, the winner is......

2011-02-25T22:43:00.000-08:00

Today i saw this on one of my normal sites I check for art inspiration.....

Sneak peek from Wonder Woman picture book coming this spring from ralphcosentio.com Even the gods don’t stand a chance!?!?!?

Ofcourse, my mind didn't focus on the up and coming comic but more to the effect of... Wonder woman... blaaaaa........ Now I must admit, I didn't follow Wonder woman growing up. I didn't think her invisible jet was thought thru. I mean, you could still see her when she was in it. WHY have an invisible plane if you can still see the person inside. It's like giving Harry Potter a regular blanket and telling him it's an invisibility cloak. Then Harry would say, "I'm invisible. You can't see me... You can't see me." then Lord Voldermort would giggle and go ****poof*** gone went Potter.

As a kid, I thought hrmmm... that's really embarrassing if she has to put on auto pilot and have to go to the bathroom. Everyone would see it. Now, my all time favorite was ***cough*** ***meow*** you got it.... Cat Woman.... It only makes me wonder... If Cat women and Wonder Woman were to get into a fight... who would win? Thoughts? I personally think Cat woman would win and kick some serious Wonder Woman butt. Think about it, Cat Woman has death defying sex appeal not to mention an awesome dominatrix wip and a bitchy cat like attitude of, don't mess with me or Ill bite your head off.... I mean really? "Life's a bitch and so am I" Meowwww..... Then don't forget....

Selina Kyle: Mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it.
Bruce Wayne: But a kiss can be even deadlier... if you mean it.

Dun dun Dunnnn.......

So you tell me, in the battle of Cat and Wonder Woman... Who would you place your bets on and why? Im a fan, and always have been. She just looks and acts like she means business. She's dressed for fighting. Wonder woman on the other hand is set up for a wardrobe catastrophe. I could see her now. OMG, my top wont stay up. I don't think she has lazer beams underneath her top to fight crime. I'm just sayin.....

But who am I? I'm just a fan behind a mask....

I said No MORE WIRE HANGERS!!!!!!!!!
lol
Yours Truely,
Mommy Dearst

She's too pretty to die

2011-02-17T18:58:00.000-08:00

I must say I am very giddy at the moment with some wonderful news... Firefly is going to be returning to cable. This article though made it sound like they were continuing the episodes. Firefly' returning to cable; Fillion says he'd play Mal again -- Damit! After I read the article I was still excited that they are reairing it. But, you don't tease about Firefly. So check your local channels for airing. Or go to netflix and rewatch. Why did I love firefly. Look, I grew up watching the old Star Trek, my favorite episode was trouble with tribbles. I even have the trading card of kirk up to his armpits with tribbles. I also watch Buck Rodgers and Battle Star Galactica. I love sci fi. and another more recent one (well not so recent) was Farscape. It's pretty bad when I get so involved with the characters I cry during certain episodes.

Now I honestly haven't watched but a few episodes of Battle Star Galactica yet (i know I know) but I only have so many hours in a day. I don't have cable so alot of what I watch is on netflix and they just seem so serious. I like the lackadaisical ones.. But I will give it a chance at some point. In the mean time, I catch myself watching things that make me laugh and cry. Or laugh so hard I cry. Like Dr. Horrible's sing along blog. If you haven't seen it, watch it and work on your evil laugh and you might see Fillion as Captain Hammer. Pffftt... If you like that and your into any sort of online gaming or not and just know people who are, Felica Day is on Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog also has her own as well... The Guild, which is another I watch and giggle at.

Ok - I have rambled on enough, don't even get me started on talking about the Zombie movie Fido. I leave that for another time. Yes - I think I geeked out enough here.

Nebulious

2011-02-17T09:43:00.001-08:00

Nebulious, is what one of my friends said when they saw my digital painting. And so that is where the name came from. I created this in November after a long work trip in California. Overworked and over tired, but still couldn't sleep. I think I need to blow this up on canvas and put it in my living room. Yes, put on canvas I will... I noticed while creating this - it was really creating itself. There was no real beginning and there really was no end. But when I stop I was amazed to see a little hobbit type character in a cave with a lady holding a sphere. I guess I have read a little too much Terry Brooks books growing up and Tolken.

Lego Land? Omg! I can't wait!

2011-02-16T21:34:00.001-08:00

Saw this at the local outlet mall. OMG! I can't wait! I'm so there! I love logos! Ha, and about to make some cuff links out of some and out of PC keyboard keys. Lol!

boredom

2011-02-14T21:14:00.001-08:00

Yep, i was bored and couldn't sleep. So as any normal person I draw dragons on my knee. Lol. I need sleep! Come to me sandman and knock me out! :)

V-Day

2011-02-11T00:52:00.000-08:00

As we are about to embark on another overly marketed holiday, Valentines Day, I have to giggle. The immature side of me says to myself, "V- day, more like venereal disease day."
Afterwhich, I thought my valentine to you would be a little demented collage, if you will.

Starting from the upper left corner you see a light fixture from the Dentist to which I recently visited. As with Love, the Dentist scares the day lights out of me. Then moving over to the right, you see parts of the word Safety. Well when I see the words Safety, the song Safety Dance goes into my head by Men Without Hats. But I digress, this image I took on the airplane going on one of my work trips this last year. Yes instead of listening to the Flight Attendant, I took goofy pictures. Then on the lower left hand side is a picture of me. :) LOL, yes this is me in a store holding a heart shaped candy box that says F@ing Love You. I thought this was hilarious. No I didn't buy it, but I took a picture and have had alot of fun with it. Uh - O - the retail Gods will be after me. O well, my credit cards are already burning so, meh. Then last but not least you see Mr. Max Factor himself experimenting with a nice young lady here with some weird crazy head contraption. I am not sure what it is. Even though I saw a huge image of this at the Musem in LA recently. Yes, that's me, I like to look but not read. Yes I am one of those.

So anywho, have a SAFE V-Day folks!

This is Your Life

2011-02-11T00:30:00.000-08:00

I just deleted a blog I wrote earlier this evening after feeling like the scum of the earth, lonely, helpless, not knowing what to do. Who wants to listen to that whiny shit? I don't. Then I remembered, it's time to watch fight club again. Remember.... This is your life.

I keep having to remind myself, the only way things will change is if I change them. The only opportunity I have is if I seize them. I need to stop making excuses and making these stricked guidelines for myself.

Carpe diem 'seize the day'

"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world. " -Tyler Durden

Excellent!!!! I'm crap of the world (jumping up and down clapping). Thank you Tyler Durden. I'd like to thank my Mom and Dad for raising me......." Wow - I feel much better now! Why do I feel like painting and making soap now. Oooo Ikea! I need another shelf!

Clockwork in Wonderland

2011-01-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

Growing up as an outcast and a strange girl with dreams that I was told that life is but a dream, I became a huge Alice in Wonderland. I appreciated her imagination, her curious and curiouser personality. Opening pandora's box and not knowing how to handle the repercussions.

I was Malice Alice from the PC game Alice years ago when no one really knew what it was. I have it again on my PC playing it before the new one comes out, which I can't wait.

Last year for my birthday a good friend of mine took me to a show called Wonderland which was a cool spill on the Alice story. When the new Alice and Wonderland came out with Johnny Depp I was very concerned about the angle that they would take on the story and would it turn my stomach.

This year for my birthday I got tickets for my two teenage boys and myself to celebrate and got to the Clockwork in Wonderland show at the curtain club in Dallas. It was amazing!!!! The performers, circus acts, burlesque, belly dancing trees, vendors and attendees were all in Steampunk flare and ready to see Alice and the Mad Hatter. I was so excited.

When I drove up to the club there was a line down the side of the building of so many people dressed for this particular occasion. A very merry unbirthday to us indeed. As you enter the club was transformed in the Wonderland with the walls, curtains, table settings, cards... It was all so bizarre and just what I needed.

one of the girls from the Lollibombs burlesque show entranced us with her fire breathing skills. Man I could so do that, not. But with some help... maybe? There was even mini carni acts, singing, dancing. It was all so much creativity it just was food to my soul. Anyway, it was a great weekend and I do hope they come back again next year. I am so in <3 with everyone there.

My Favorite Family Quotes

2011-01-15T07:38:00.001-08:00

This year: thanksgiving

My fav quote was this Thanksgiving.
My older sister is explaining a story about her and mom's conversation when my mom decide to cancel her cellphone plan. Mom's excuse was she could use a pay phone.

My older sister says, "do you ever see a pay phones these days?"

My niece who's 12 says, "o ya... the ones you see homeless people use,"

I about died laughing....
Wow, guess she knows what a pay phone is.

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Previous years: thanksgiving
My little sister who is 30 and I get into an argument. I can't remember what is was about... I just know I said something was ludicrous and she's mad and exclaims, "stop using big words, I don't know what they mean."

I couldn't be mad anymore after that comment, I was laughing to hard.

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Years ago my youngest son's birthday it was frozen solid outside. His dad was stuck out on the highway all night. I hadn't gotten his cake or presents since I just got in from 2 aide by side work trips. I was able to get to a store with the bad weather and buy a box of brownies to make and a few toys to wrap up so he would have a mini party at home and via phone.

At the store, one of the items I got him was an etcha sketch. When he opened it he looked at it and asked what is it. I told him, it's an etcha sketch. He asks, what do you do with it. I said you draw with it. He asks, how do you turn it on to draw. I show him the knobs. He says, cool... How do you erase it? I took it and shook it up and down and said, like this. He asks how do you turn it on and off. I repeated the demonstration.

This cracked me up so bad. It's amazing all the things kids know these days and don't.

Good Morning

2011-01-12T06:16:00.001-08:00

I love my cup of Coffee in the morning.
- Good Morning -

Once Upon a time?!?!?

2011-01-10T20:26:00.000-08:00

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall Humpty Dumpty had a great fall And all the king horse and all the kings men, put him back together again?

What - are you for real? How many times did this happen. I would be like - umm nope, sorry - I put you together last time, not doing it again. I guess your just a scrambled egg. And it would be ... And all the kings horses and all the kings men trampled Humpty Dumpty again. LOL Ok so once upon a time, would be transcribed today as phrased in American pie, ” there was this one time, at band camp…” Or there was this one fraction of a second when….

In storybooks they always try to start gloomy and end up happy. Ok but it appears to be over a lifespan to build up to that one moment the whole story is about. And then they lived happily ever after. Really???? Well, there was never a second, third or fourth follow up to Cinderella. Did she and the Prince have kids. Were their kids in sports or extracurricular activities? What about drinking or drug issues or even additions to sex? None of this items are ever covered. I mean, think about it. In those times kings had mistresses. And these mistresses were most likely married and the husbands would be furious. Do you really think Cinderella lived happily ever after?

So I find that there is some damage control needed to be done here. The fairies flew down and made the other experts disintegrate into nothingness so we would never know the true ending to keep us in the mind frame of, yes everything is happy and ended rightfully so with perfection. Sure it will if you married a sugar daddy and you had a fairy god mother, or in this time a Drag Queen to make everything perfect.

Story telling is just that. We feed this to our kids and they believe. Just like old fashioned Santa Claus. My teenagers think Santa was an evil trick that I and their father played on them growing up. They were so disappointed to find out the truth. I literally cried all day when my oldest found out. It was the end of stories and he was welcome into the harsh world of “you can’t always get what you want.” That year was so sad at Christmas. After years have gone by we talk about that from time to time and my boys do not want to raise their children beleiveing in Santa Clause, the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy. But time will tell.

Now, don’t get me wrong I love, Love , LOVE a great story. I just wish when I was younger I wasn’t so nieve and knew the only way to be happy is to be happy with who you are and what you can achieve. Build goals and help us build our own self esteem versus thinking our prince charming will make everything alright. Honestly, I think Prince Charming may look nice but inside he is probably just as fake. Anyway, I digrese…. Along with stories of love and honesty we have magazines, Barbie dolls, rock singers ect. That young girls have to look up to.

Let’s be honest. With these stories and the happily ever after, it’s a set up for failure. However, it’s also a key into the gateway of imagination.

So I sound like I am against it. Well, no I am not. I love stories. I just wish my parents had been a little more open and honest with things. But then again, if they might have, I might not have rebelled so much and not be the gothic loving soul I am but instead a pink Barbie wanting everything just perfect. Brrr… that just gave me the chills. I am me with all my oddities. I am a kid at heart. And probably why I side with the Disney Villians. I always thought even when I was little that the whole story wasn’t told. I mean come on now. Why did Malifacint act the way she did. We don’t know, because the fairies burned all the evidence. Muahahahaha……….

I guess I am not alone with comic books like Fairy Tales and then movies like Shrek that come out. Those crack me up. And well, Disney just made their last Princess movie because they aren’t doing as well as they used to. Helloooo… That’s because no one can relate to that perfect mindset anymore.

And this is why Princess Bride was one of my favorites, Ellen Enchanted, ect… Im odd. What can I say. Tra La La….

Hey you, You remind me of the babe. The babe with the power, what power.

The power of Voodoo who do you do

Remind me of the babe.