Lonely Baby

抱抱

2011-07-11T01:36:00.000+08:00

做数学做到累了，

加上电脑突然播着疗伤系歌曲，

心情变得有点的低落。

现在只想有个人给我一个拥抱，

男女都可以，

只是想要温暖的感觉罢了～

把我忘了吧～

2011-06-19T03:37:00.000+08:00

别再对我抱有希望，
因为我只会让你更失望。
也不需要逃避我的视线，
因为我真的不在乎。
没有必要顾及我的感受，
因为那样只会让我觉得你们因为我很为难。
珍惜眼前的幸福，
把我忘记吧～
我只不过是你生命中的一个过客，
没有必要为了讨好我，
而故意在我面前表现，
因为我真的真的不值得让你这么做。
别再把时间浪费在我身上了，
因为我们不可能回到从前。

如果还想关心我请你找我说的做……

Last Day Internship T.T

2011-04-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

It had been a long long time I didn't update my blog this is a memorable event in my life, so I force myself to update about it so that I can still feel it when I read it.

It's about my 3 months internship training in a company called Everyday Brush, I was suppose to work as an engineer but too bad the workshop does not have much work for us to do, so I decided to look for job in the office, and that's how I meet my lovely, funny, and cute colleagues. Love them very much~ ^.^

It was quite funny that an engineer student dump his engineering work and change his job to quality control, IT and finally Accounting, it's totally no relationship between the course I studied and the jobs I did. Anyway, it's a good thing, learn more. 学到是自己的,我没吃亏.

It's time to let the photos tell the remaining story~

My accounting work

Alice-funny all the time

Jesmine-helpful person

Everyone smiling happily^^

Stephanie-She loves food,and kind~

Nicholas-humorous and brings lots of laughter in the office

Ser Miin-still remember they celebrate

her birthday for 5 time in a day

Alex-don't know him much but a nice person

Josephine-she is cheerful and got many jokes~

Colleagues in the workshop

Camwhore?

She sit beside me and teach me a lot of things.

She just like a good sister, take care of me and teach me.

The little memos I left before I leave

P/s: Miss them all the time

《其实你不懂我的心》

2010-12-28T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...
I was so boring until I think of a song,
a song which I always listen when I was still a child,
it was so calm...
It reminds me of my little childhood.
This is the song 《其实你不懂我的心》

Unlucky Day

2010-12-27T22:17:00.002+08:00

Today really a bad day,
plan to buy my favourite Famous Amos cookies today,
the price tag was written as RM11.99
so I decided to buy 2 packs,
but when we want to pay for it,
the cashier show us is RM15.70,
Then I ask the cashier why and bring her to the place,
strange thing happen,
the big price tag disappear.
Luckily I haven't pay for it,
so I decided not to buy.

The worst thing happen when I reached home,
I lost my keys,
Oh my god~!!!
Keys is not the worst thing,
but the key chain~
That's my favourite key chain,
I go back to every place where I've been today and search for it,
but unfortunately I can't found it,
and it cost me RM35 to open my room door~

What a bad day~

Merry Christmas

2010-12-25T02:29:00.004+08:00

It's Christmas eve~!!!
There is no hanging out this year,
so we decided to make ourselves a little gathering.
We choose ColaClub for our venue,
and continue the night at Green Rose~

Had an enjoyable night before studying crazily for the exam^^

Hong Hwai with his drinks

Chan sen (yay~)

My cards(all red)

Janice was busy distributing the cards~

What so funny?

My watermelon juice~

Merry X'mas~ (^.^)

爱疯了～

2010-12-22T20:24:00.003+08:00

原来……
爱可以让一个人疯掉，
那么久了，
我对你的爱，
一分一毫都没少过，
发生了那么那么多的事，
我不得不承认我真的深深地爱上你，
爱的无法自拔，
爱的疯疯癫癫。

这场战已经持续了那长的一段时间，
但昨天，
你似乎开始放下对我的憎恨，
是我的错觉还是你真的不再讨厌我了？

我希望是真的，
我好想跟你说话，
哪怕是一句也好。
今天突然像那时一样，
迫不及待地想看到你，
可是，
你今天却没出现，
而我，
也莫名地没有心情了。

现在的我知道，
爱一个人，
不管事隔多久，
不管分开多远，
就算他讨厌我，
就算他不想见到我，
我每天还是会想念他，
每天期待遇见他，
然后想接近他，
了解他最近的情况，
就这样默默地默默地，
祝福着他，
替他祈祷，
替他担心。
哪怕是一秒也好，
我也希望他能看我一眼～

Moody week~

2010-12-10T23:35:00.002+08:00

It's totally a moody week,
what the heck...
I'm just so stress with my assignment,
and something happen make my mood swing like hell,
especially today.
I didn't expect this to happen,

I promise my friend to go for it,
but hell know,
they invite another guy to go too.
My god...
They just don't know what had happen between us,
I thought the whole course has know the big news between us.
Soon,
my friend know he got the wrong move,
he keep pursuing me to go.
I remember what he said,
he said he told 'somebody' that I'll go,
and 'somebody' go for it even though 'somebody' know I'm going for it.
This mean if I'm not going,
I will be very closed minded, petty and whatever,
I still can't decide it for hours,
and my friend keep on pursuing me.
He said,
maybe 'somebody' wanna be good with you again,
why should I lose this chance.

OH MY FUCK GOD~!!!
They just don't understand,
I'm the one who wanna get back the relationship,
I'm the one begging for the relationship,
and now you told me that he want to be good with me?
Hell No...

But I went for it too,
just because I've promise them that I'll go since last week.

伤心往事

2010-12-08T02:12:00.001+08:00

今天被同班同学问了一个问题，
为什么你会离开之前的‘屋友’，
自己搬出来了。
我没说什么，
他也没在问了。
心想：竟然有人不懂我们之间到底发生了什么事。
我还以为整个course都已经知道了，
更何况他跟他们这么熟。

一个简单的问题，
却勾起了我的伤心往事。

很有意义的谈话～

2010-12-02T01:50:00.003+08:00

我对她说：

你还好吗？考试顺利吗？最近常想起你，突然想起以前很多事情都找你麻烦，没有你，很多事情我都不能完成，没有你，我的中学时光暗淡无光。因为你，我们成为了学生跟老师们的焦点，虽然常为了一些小事吵架，但不一会儿就恢复原状了。喜欢叫你“傻鸡”，更怀念你叫我“傻鸭”。我们还有机会吵吵闹闹吗？建桦上

她回我：

这么我很好啊。。。大致上是还好啦，算是顺利吧！

为什么突然想这么多，你最近有烦着一些事情吗？不然，为什么会想起我呢？嘻嘻！那你好吗？

可是，我不是很记得你有找过我什么麻烦喔！不过，最清楚记得的就是你一直爱和我顶嘴，就算吵架也是为了小事，真无聊。。。这不算是麻烦，因为这样，在我那两年的求学生涯增添了不少乐趣，好让我将我那三寸不烂之舌的顶嘴技巧发挥得淋漓尽致。。。真的非常谢谢你
...
不是的，你身上任何的一个优点，都是让你让你本身发亮发热的，或许。。可能。。。有一点是托我的福，你不只成为一部分老师的注目，而是大部分老师和学生！那就最后那一年我们所唱的毕业歌，表演是你和仲颖负责的，那天Pn Leong突然讲起，她没有教过我们都清楚记得那场表演是你们俩的功劳真不少。

如果让我再次遇见了你，
如果我们要重新地相处，
我是应该，可能。。。绝对不会和你吵架
因为我们都已经长大了
但是偶尔顶顶嘴都还不错啦

我爱叫你傻鸭，只因你喜欢叫我傻鸡。。。
鸡和鸭在一起一定是很吵的，因为就是会发出
“ji ji nguap nguap“ 的声音嘛

知道你很聪明
你学会了很多东西
但如果有时候你能够学会如何放手
或许那时一件好事
因为还有好多事需要我们握紧

世界在怎么变，
咱们的感情就更加要变，
要变得越久越浓，

我亲爱的傻鸭啊。。。
祝事事顺心，平安快乐

呃，才知道原来回信要比写信来的更有感情

燕

我又回她：

第一次看到人家写那么长的comment，哈哈～
可能是因为那天在学院看到PRODEX（类似RekaCipta的东西），
所以想起以前的事情，
自然而然的想起你咯，
想到你就会想到以前中学的回忆咯～
...顺便说一下，
我也很好，只是有一点homesick而已。

所谓的找你麻烦其实就是每次persatuan sains 的东西都会找你帮忙，
还记得上次搞reka cipta 的东西叫你们留在学校帮我算分数。
对于‘吵架’这件事，
我想不只是我们两个之间的回忆吧，
应该是我们身边所有同学跟老师的回忆，
没有我们，他们就没有戏看，没有的笑了～

我的优点？
我觉得缺点会比较多吧，
以前的我应该很冲动吧。
托你的福？
哈哈……
没有我你也发挥不了作用吧？
不懂Form6有没有人像我那样跟你斗嘴呢？
就算有也应该没我那么厉害吧～

那一次的毕业表演，
功劳应该归给大家，
那场美丽的开场时经过我们大家辛辛苦苦用心跟力表演的，
因为尽力所以完美。
那场表演对我来说真的记忆深刻。
我们还会有机会再一起做表演吗？

说的对，
或许我们以后都不再像以前那样吵架，
经历了那么多的是，
少一点吵架还是比较好。
若偶尔顶嘴可以让大家都开心一下，
那倒不妨吵闹一下。

亏你想得出来“ji ji guap guap”
我已经忘了为什么会叫你傻鸡，
后来因为习惯了，
所以就顺其自然地叫了。
还真是一个有纪念价值的“花名”

人再怎么聪明，
也很难控制情绪，
或许这就是为什么有感情的存在吧，
有些事情不管怎么样就是放不了手。

我情爱跟可爱的傻鸡～
STPM顺顺利利，
考上一间好的大学。
希望你能来KL读大学，
让我们可以重聚～

桦

失望

2010-10-18T17:51:00.002+08:00

今天很失望，
可能我没有领袖的风范吧，
原以为会有很多人支持我的决定，
可是结果却是少过一般的人。

为什么？
为什么明明受委屈却还要收起来？
为什么明明要用“可怜他”当作挡箭牌？
难道自己的前途，自己的成绩一点都不重要吗？
为什么给了钱却得不到相同的待遇而选择沉默？
难道你们忘了我们的权利吗？
为什么？
为什么选择沉默？
为什么不站起来？

我已经为你们踏出了第一步，
可是却要在这个时候让我彻底的失望？
平时说到那么大声他多不好，他多烂。
可是机会来了却临阵退缩。
俗话说得好：“说话大声的人都是没种的人。”

失眠之夜

2010-08-29T04:58:00.002+08:00

考试的季节，
原本想早一点是睡觉，
哪里懂被人破坏了。
无法入眠的我，
只好藉由部落格来解闷了。
唉……

我不知该怎么说，
最近有点怪怪，
昨天终于有人问我为什么了，
无言，
因为我自己也不知道为什么。
或许是考试压力大，
有或许是太累了，
可能是睡眠不足，
又或者是厌倦了一些事情。

人与人之间，
难道除了互相利用就没有别的了吗？
为什么在我身边一直出现这些例子，
需要你的时候就来登门造访，
不需要你的时候就把你抛到九霄云外。
可能是我还对这个社会还不了解吧，
还是我不够心机？

烦～
考试快点过去吧～！！！

祈祷

2010-07-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

常常都会在想，
如果当初没那样的话那该有多好，
可是想来想去，
结果还不是一样，
发生了就改变不了。
可惜可惜，
我依然无法得到你们的原谅，
无论我有多主动，
你们依然避开我。
或许我真的那么讨厌吧……
时间点点滴滴地过去了，
什么都没变。

天啊～
我只有小小的要求，
一切都在毕业之前恢复原状好吗？

依然放不下

2010-04-27T12:10:00.002+08:00

事情过了这么久，
虽然已经没那么在意了，
但每天都会像同样的的事情，
每天都在想如果能回到从前多好。
每次看到你们facebook的照片，
心就会不知不觉的被插了几刀，
痛进心扉。
就连睡觉做梦都会梦见你们，
可见我的潜意识已经不能将你们从我的世界删除了。
我好想好想跟你们一起，
一起读书，
一起毕业，
一起逛街，
甚至一起住。

但现在已经不可能了，
事情发生了，
就不可能回头了，
即使心里多么想这样做，
可是就是无能为力。
你说你需要时间，
可我觉得再给你一辈子的时间也是一样，
因为你过不了自己那一关，
更不可能原谅我。

人的心只要碎了，
就没得救了，
即使补得回也有裂痕。

怎么办？

2010-04-12T15:03:00.002+08:00

你，
最近觉得你越来越奇怪了，
开始有一点反感。
他，
第一眼就不爽了，
怎么办？
你，
想跟着你，
但你不说我也知道你不要。
既然勉强没有幸福，
那我该怎么办呢？
如果我是有钱人就不用烦了。
天啊，
让我捡到一张中头奖的六合彩吧～

Sexy night^^

2010-03-27T02:58:00.003+08:00

What a shirtless night...
Don't feel like wanna wear anything tonight,
a towel is enough.
haha^^

sexy huh?

2008 memory

2010-03-21T01:03:00.004+08:00

Found something very meaningful and valuable in facebook just now,
this is the best memory I during my secondary school life.
It was the last year which I studied in my secondary school,
so I decided to do a lot of crazy things before I leave the school,
and this is the 1st crazy thing I did in that year.

It was a chinese new year celebration,
and I involve in the drama.
I act as the father and that girl is my wife.
Because of this drama,
I make a lot of friends,
and of course my wife...
Haha^^

Because of that too,
both of us become very famous in school,
feel shy that time,
but a good memory.
Hope you guys still remember that...

1st Blood Donation

2010-03-11T17:32:00.006+08:00

This afternoon,
my classmates want to go for the blood donation and they want me to go too.
When we reached the college hall,
they convince me to go for the blood donation,
and I don't know why I listen to them.

I was afraid at 1st,
I started to feel cold.
After filling the form,
I went for the blood test,
I was hoping tat I can be disqualified so that I don't have to go blood donation.
Blood test was sucks,
it was so pain,
the needle hit on the fingers that have many many pain receptors.
My blood glucose level was so low normally,
but today it's in the normal range.
Then I go for the Blood Pressure testing,
I was laughing in my heart that time,
cause my blood pressure never in the healthy range,
but what the hell I'm extraordinary HEALTHY today,
everything was good and I can't escape from the blood donation.
Great...

I accept the truth and lay on the "chair",
waiting to die.
Then the nurse come,
she give me an injection，
after that,
it's showtime...
She take the thick needle and insert into my hand,
then she started to feel weird and keep pressing my hand while fixing the needle.
Then I ask her "Kenapa~???"
She answer me that my vein is too small,
and the blood don't wanna flow out.
What?
It's too small?
Hahaha...

Then the nurse take a chair and sit beside me,
she help me by massaging the hand,
and I was so High that time,
after a while,
another nurse came and massage my hand too.
Wow...
I was served by 2 nurses until I finish the donation.

During blood donation,
I was too free so I decided to camwhore.
Hahaha...
After the donation,
I sign my name on the big board,
good memory.
I'll go for the blood donation next time,
because I give "face" to the Souvenir.
LOLX...
Nice experience...

needle with cotton...

cotton still there...

cotton is gone, left the needle.

^.^

the 2 nurses... haha^^

My blood~!!!

Sign sign sign~~

享受

2010-03-05T22:27:00.003+08:00

好久好久都没有享受风的感觉了，
冷冷的风，
微微的灯光照射着冰冷的游泳池，
而我，
则坐在灯光下享受这一切。

风，
把我心里的不安都吹走了，
突然觉得很平静。

听着林宥嘉的“神秘嘉宾”，
突然想起中学时代的自己，
那时的我很阳光很灿烂，
如今却变得很阴沉而且不爱说话了。

以前的“桦王子”突然间就消失了，
散发的光芒也随之不见了。

感情

2010-03-03T19:15:00.002+08:00

已经过了那么长的时间，
我还是放不下。
看到你不再依赖我，
突然觉得好失望但又为你感到开心，
真的好矛盾。

小时候开始，
妈妈就叫我把“同学”跟“朋友”分清楚，
现在我终于明白妈妈为什么要我把这两个东西分清楚了。
同学，
同学之间都存在着互相利用的价值，
当你的价值没有了，
就没有人会理你了。
朋友，
朋友之间讲的是心，
不管你有没有利用价值，
朋友都不会抛弃你。
真可惜，
我懂得太迟了，
一切都无法回头了。

有时候只能说，
感情一旦放了进去就永远都收不回。
时间，
时间真的能冲淡一些事情吗？
可我觉得不行动，
再多的时间也一样。

你对我说你需要时间，
但我觉得你根本不想面对我，
你只是利用时间作为逃避的借口。
我，
依然是那个我，
只是变得不爱说话而已。

冷静

2010-02-28T22:01:00.001+08:00

我不是一定要你回来，
只是当又一个人看海～

正是我此刻的心情，
刚刚心情不好，
所以到楼下的游泳池坐了一下，
然后围着Condo走了几圈，
那种感觉很奇特，
突然感觉整个人都轻松了。
虽然今天晚上没有风，
但是冷冷的感觉依然存在。
好久好久没有感受到风的感觉了，
好想念哦～

可怕

2010-02-22T18:02:00.001+08:00

开学了，
也意味着恶梦的开始，
果然不出我所料，
我回到第一次来这个学校的时候，
没有朋友，
孤零零一个人的日子。

那种感觉真的恐怖到，
一直害怕回来，
但还是要回来这里。
如果命运能够重来，
我会选择读Form 6。
真的很后悔当时做了这个愚蠢的决定，
第一天罢了，
就已经那么的难捱了，
接下来的日子该怎么活啊？

Grow

2010-02-04T12:21:00.003+08:00

After all,
I'm stronger now,
I know how to face and solve lots of problems now.
Next sem will be a very hard sem for me,
I'm not afraid because I know I still have my own friends,
they trust me, support me, and love me.

Maybe many of you will think that I'm very stupid,
people treat me so bad but I still treat them so good.
A best friend of mine said that,
we don't have to treat people like the way they treat us,
we have to forgive.

Well,
my life now is getting better and better,
friends,
don't worry...

Another Problem

2010-01-29T10:51:00.004+08:00

I can do nothing now,
just withstand what people say about me,
I know it will past one day.
It was useless to argue for it or try to solve it,
sometimes we just have to do nothing to solve something.

Next sem will be a hard sem for me,
because everyone will use a different eyesight to look at me,
I know what they thinking but I can't stopped.
There are only few people I scare but I know i can't avoid them,
should I use my Mouth to revenge?
Perhaps not...

I know who is the one did this,
I will not hate him cause I forgive him,
this is another challenge which make me grow,
I will survive for it and never give up.

Being hurt by the person you trust the most is so painful T.T