I have 1 weight out

Those crazy wraps!!!

2013-02-12T01:40:00.001-06:00

Ok ... so I kept hearing about those crazy body wraps and thinking, "ya .. right! Those are too good to be true!" Then a few friends got involved with the company. Their results amazed me and gave me hope! That little bit of hope raised my self esteem ... just that small amount of hope.
I took the plunge .. not just as a customer .. but also as a disributor. I hadn't heard of anyone not getting good results. I figured I'd be crazy to not jump in. Am I crazy *for* jumping in?

YOU be the judge ...

As you can tell by the above picture .,. the arm on the right looks drastically SMALLER than the one on the left. My arm was not the only area I wrapped. I also wrapped my stomach/hips area. The results were so much better than I'd expected, that it brought me to tears!

Those crazy little wraps have a gel on them that continus working for a full 72 hours after you take it off .. so imagine my surprise when I realized I was still shrinking! More tears!

If you'd like to hear more of my testimony with this product or want to check the product out, feel free to go to my web site

Shrink Wrap 4 Me

The Big Reveal

2012-06-20T22:23:00.000-05:00

Here I am ... just taken about an hour ago. I'll post the front & back shots tomorrow but I promised a reveal ... so here it is. The shirt is really baggy so it doesn't appear to be as big of a reveal as I know it is ... but it is! You can see my chest. YAY! You can see the belly is a lot smaller .. at least I can. And oh look ... I've even worked some of my butt off. I'm going to either take new pictures where I will hold my shirt close3r to my body ... or get a more fitting shirt so you can really see the changes.
I'm happy with myself. For the first time in years ... I have worked hard & it shows. Not only physically ... but mentally as well. I'll continue working out and getting healthier. I suspect to be losing a lot more weight over the Summer. It's sweatin' with the oldies LOL

Tomorrow, with the new pictures I'll post my measurements too. I'll definitely be sure to wear something more fitting! I am proud of how much I've accomplished ... and I want to show it off!

Over-haul!

2012-06-19T18:59:00.001-05:00

Tomorrow holds a big reveal ... but before then, look where I've been.

I have been so horrible about keeping up with my blog. I mean too but life is just so crazy and this blog always pays the price. I won't make any promises but I will say that I have done an overhaul on my life, my eating ... yep, I still struggle .. but I've come a long way. I've lost a great deal of weight & am healthier. I still have a ways to go though. I thought you'd like to see where I've been ...

At first look, I could really get upset at these pictures ... because it doesn't look like I lost anything. However, there are little ways to tell. My stomach looks like it got smaller, even if just by a hair. It got a little lower as time went on. And look at the way I am standing in each photo. My legs get closer together. Be it large amounts of weight loss or inches ... I was losing.

I've had bad days ... bad weeks ... bad months ... but honestly, they're only because it was easier for me to give up than to keep fighting to be free from all this junk & weight.

Here's how the above progress looks on paper ...

I'm torn about weigh-ins & pictures ... I think I'd be happier with my results if I could *see* them in a big way. Wearing t-shirts & shorts doesn't really do justice. I may just wind up in an outfit like the Biggest Loser crowd wears. Ugh .. I panic at the thought!

Come back tomorrow ... for my new pictures & measurements!

2012 Resolutions

2012-01-01T01:47:00.001-06:00

Resolution - a resolve or determination: to make a firm resolution to dosomething.

I don't normally make resolutions. The thought of them has always plagued me with worry. I stress about the littlest things when it comes to committing to change. I've come up with a plan for myself .. I changed my idea of what my resolutions should be. I'm not sure I can really explain my thoughts or reasons for the change ... but for me, they don't overwhelm me & flow in to changes I feel are important.

1) Spend more time with my Heavenly Father. By this I don't mean reading the Word more (all though that's in the plans too) or praying ... I mean ... just sitting with Him, calm and still ... quietly admiring His creations. "Be still and know that I am God" comes to mind.

2) No more buying from corporate bullies who move their jobs to different countries. If it's not made in America, I don't need it!!! In my hunt for gifts and items for myself or household, I will be looking to my friends who have home businesses. I believe in you, your product & want to do everything I can to help you succeed! (So, if you have a blog, website etc showing your products or services, plesase send it to me)

3) Making healthier choices - not just with food, but in friends, acquaintances, committing to do things etc. I want my body healthy in the New Year but also my mind & soul..

4) "Stir up the gift of God which is in you" ... a beautiful piece I won in a GiveAway. I will strive to spend more time doing just that. I will spend more time feeding the creativity that God placed deep in my heart. I will write, sing, paint ... and take photos. I use the gifts he hjas given me to teach my children to use their gifts. I look forward to a creative year!

5) Take time to recognize the blessings & gifts in my life ... every day. It may not come as a FB post or even a word spoken outloud ... but I will be thankful!

6) Stop second guessing myself ... when I have a gut feeling to not go forward with something or someone, I need to stop talking myself out of it. That instinct is there for a reason!

7) Health - yep, you knew it was coming. This is a priority for me. I have been doing good on my journey to lose weight ... but I know I can (and should) do more. My goal is not weight loss (though that is a perk) ... it's to be healthy ... eat healthy, get the proper amount of sleep, have a strong immune system etc. I get in a good routine & then stumble. I want the stumbling to happen less & less this year!

D@#^ you, Cheese in a Can!!!

2011-12-27T16:17:00.000-06:00

So, it's been a while ... but I've only been absent from blogging ... not the healthy lifestyle. Last I checked, I'd lost 40 lbs. I've gained a couple then lost a few more ... fairly balanced, I think. Any way, I've been reading past entries & re-evaluating some things in my life. I tend to add stress on myself in places that really shouldn't matter ... well, they "matter" but shouldn't hold as much weight as I allow (quite a fitting statement). I have mentioned in the past that I see myself only posting positives or minor issues. It's not because I want to portray myself as not struggling or make it look like I'm doing great. Really it's because I don't want to be responsible for someone else stumbling. I still don't ... but I know we can only control ourselves ... not how others react. I want to be real & throw myself "out there" but have hesitated for that very reason. I just can't do it any more ... so with that in mind ...

I am usually able to control myself when there are "bad" snacks in the house. I have been working on snacking on healthier items but I indulge in very small portions, on "forbidden" things from time to time. It's not about suffering or doing without for me. It's about controlling myself with the things that should be controlled. Apparently Cheese in a Can is a bigger battle than I thought LOL ... I haven't had it in so long & when my husband brought it home from the store ... well ... I went crazy. I don't think I ate the whole can (I'm positive I didn't) ... but I might as well had because I ate too much.

Ah well ... tomorrow is another day & I still have time to get some extra moving and exercise in!!!

On my weigh!!!

2011-09-04T12:56:00.002-05:00

I'm still losing ... YAY!!! I'm down 2 whole lbs. as of my last weigh in. I'm really excited. I know I've said this before but this time really is different. I have so much control over what I'm doing. I don't think I'm struggling with emotional eating any more & I have no clue why. I know that there have been a couple times where I thought about food during extreme emotions but I didn't take any action. It was way kool!!! I've been working on goals, rewards, workout stuff ... I just feel better when I have things mapped out for myself. (Once a list maker always a list maker LOL) Here's what I've come up with so far:

Work out:

M/T/W/Th/F:

Walking/Treadmill - 30 minutes

Step Aerobics - 15 minutes

Dancing - 30/60 minutes (depending on the day)

Bicycle - 30 minutes (only when I can get to the gym)

Jump Rope - 15 minutes

T/TH: Strength training:

Push-ups - 4 x's 25 reps

Windmills 2 x's 50 reps

Squats - 3 x's 10 reps

Crunches - 3 x's 10 reps

Bench Pressing - 4 x's 25 reps

Bicep Curls - 4 x's 10 reps

Alternating Curl - 4 x's 10 reps

Triceps Extension - 4 x's 10 reps

Sunday:

I can't decide what kind of boot camp I'll be doing on this day. I'll post an update when I decide though.

Reward chart: 250 lbs. starting

225 lbs - Exercise equipment

202 lbs - Conga Drums

182 lbs - Piercing

164 lbs - Demonia Boots (or similar)

147 lbs - New wardrobe

135 lbs - Tattoo with a scale, highlighting starting weight

Doin the Happy Dance

2011-08-27T00:46:00.000-05:00

My scale has been out of commission for a while ... a dead battery. It started working again the other day & I weighed myself. I am excited to report that I have lost 8 lbs. Too KOOL!!! It was just the kick in the pants I needed. Success always motivates me!!!

Tomorrow's post will be my renewed goals & rewards ... and measurements, weight etc (if I don't panic LOL)

Keepin' it real!

2011-08-17T18:48:00.002-05:00

My head has been pounding all day today ... chest is tight & I'm feeling somewhat congested. I think my daughter shared her chest cold with me. Yay ... NOT! I'm fighting the urge to eat comfort foods and not be accountable. Instead I'm going to have my hubby pick up some soups. I've only done a third of my workout today ... but I'll finish it tonight after the kids go to bed.
I can't take anything over the counter or prescribed due to severe allergies. I'll just have to combat it with good old fashioned soup & home remedies.

If you click on the above picture it will take you to the Livestrong site & you'll find information on how to combat chest congestion and cold issues.

One small step ... nah, who am I kiddin? It was HUGE!

2011-08-14T01:40:00.000-05:00

We had a meatball grinder night at my house ... and then a night with the left over grinders. Well, I was on the phone when dinner was served. I looked at the sandwich & decided that I just didn't want it. Sure I could have made it healthier for me ... instead of using a sub sandwich roll, I could have used flat bread. I also could have cut the bread out completely & just added the meatballs to a salad. Nope .. I turned the whole thing away & went for something healthier & less calories.
My meals were way off today though ... I skipped breakfast, had a late snack ... had an even later lunch and an even later dinner. I'm thrilled to report though, that in spite of messing up meal times & skipping one, my calorie intake was under goal by 45 calories!!! That is HUGE!!! And the calorie count was even lower by the time I added up my exercising for the day. I am one proud woman!!!

Motivational thoughts

2011-08-08T15:41:00.000-05:00

I've been fortunate to get involved with a few different Facebook groups specifically geared toward losing weight. The support I am getting from these groups is amazing. I'm not sure how much I'm actually accomplishing as far as weight loss .. because my scale has a dead battery. I feel motivated and am working hard. I'm making some meal change plans, adding new goals and redefining my idea of a reward for reaching goals. I've not been one to reward myself with food ... I think I may have done that a time or two but really, when you think about that, doesn't it set yourself up for failure? I think so. I've used rewards like CD's, clothing etc ... and I don't think there's anything wrong with that but someone said something to me today (thanks Jennifer) that kind of "clocked." She's getting herself an exercise tool ... and the reward is that it will help her keep track of her progress. Simple .. yet makes sense. Our progress should definitely be a reward. The fact that you are making progress should also be motivation ... even if you are at the same spot you were the week before. At least you're not going backwards. And if you do take a couple steps back, it's ok. Start fresh the very minute you realize you went backwards. You can do this. I can do this ... and we'll do it together!!!

Tomorrow's almost here

2011-07-16T05:30:00.000-05:00

Tomorrow is my restart day ... YAYYY!!! I have my meals planned out and my workouts on paper. I have the drive too .. right now. I just need to keep it up.
I have 2 issues that I will have to face and conquer at some point.

My husband loves to bring my favorite junk food home when he knows I'm trying to eat healthy
I won't always be able to precook my meals or portion my snacks.

Those 2 things are the hardest for me. My husband is a great guy & I absolutely adore him. He loves me just the way I am .. and tells me every day. He thinks I'm sexy no matter what I weigh. I need to figure out how to get him to understand that I am not healthy like this .. and that I would be sexier, skinnier :) How do I get him to help instead of hinder me?

And for the meals/snacks ... I don't mean "precooked" .. I mean measured & weighed out before the time that I need them. Portion size can become an issue for me, especially when it's a snack. If I don't take out what the proper portion is before snack time, chances are I'm going to eat more than I should. I don't do that all the time .. but the chances increase for me if I haven't already pre-measured them. I really need to stay on top of doing this!!!

See you again soon!!!

Back with a vengeance!!!

2011-07-14T20:48:00.000-05:00

I can't believe how long it's been since I've blogged ... unfortunately I haven't been serious on my weight loss journey lately either. It's time to get there. I keep telling myself this ... what does it take to get serious? I sure don't want to wait for another heart attack! I am 42 years old ... I want these years to be fantastic as far as my health goes ... especially since I've had so many that were not so great!

I will get better at this. I am determined to lose 100+ lbs.

It's too hot for me to be over weight!!!
It's unhealthy to be over weight!!!
I want to be skinny when my husband & I finally renew our vows!!!
I want to get a tattoo of a scale with my starting weight ... as a reminder of where I've been & where I'll NEVER go again!!!

I can do this. I'm a person who loves words of affirmation. It's one of my "love languages" ... so I'd really appreciate the support from readers. Please help keep me accountable!!!

I am back ... and I am taking control of my body & emotions!!!

New website

2011-02-24T23:15:00.002-06:00

I lost my precious baby on February 13th. I need a fresh start. I have a new website that I am blogging at. I'd love for you to follow me at 1 Weigh Out

Your chance to make a difference

2011-02-09T18:04:00.001-06:00

My husband & I have decided to try and break a record. It's not anything from the Guiness Book of World Records ... at least I don't think it is. Hmmm ... maybe I should check on that. Any way ... we will be opening an advertising website. The originator of this type of advertising sold out in 5 months. Our personal goal will be to sell out in 4 months. Even if we sell out the day before the originator did, we'd still break the record ... but we'd like to set the bar high for future dreamers. The originator sold 1 MILLION ads for $1.00 each, which means at the end of his sales, he was a millionaire. Our goal is a bit different. Yes, we'll stand to make a very large profit ... but we will NOT keep all the money for ourselves. We will be giving 25% of the proceeds to the LARRY RIEGEL FUND

Larry Riegel is the uncle of a very good friend of mine. He's been missing from Yakima, Washington since December 25th, 2009. This fund is very important to me. I know that people go missing every day. I pray for them & their families. Larry's disappearance is different for me though. I have seen the effect it's had on people. I have seen the toll it takes on my friend ... on their other family members. Larry's family deserves answers and closure and justice (as does any family that suffers through missing a family member).

We would really like to sell every ad possible in order to both offset the costs this family has from the investigation and any other cost they have incurred ... as well as being able to offer a hefty reward. I am blogging about this in order to get the word out. We need our friends, family & any one else who reads this blog to help us. Spread this blog around ... spread the link to our advertising web site ... buy an ad ... pray people buy ads ... post flyers with the link to advertising web site ... send emails that guide people to the web site. Please help us help Larry's family.

Yes, we will profit from ads being sold ... but so will other people.

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We will also be choosing 2 charities to donate another 10% (each) of the profits to. I will announce the charities with in the next few days.

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... so ... if we make $100,000.00 in ad sales, you know that $25,000.00 of that would go to the Larry Riegel Fund. You also know that 2 other charities will each get 10% of the profits.

No matter what the profits ...

The Larry Riegel Fund will receive 25%

Charity #1 will receive 10%

Charity #2 will receive 10%

Now it's your chance to help us make a difference & touch the lives of many!!!

Oh baby

2010-11-30T15:52:00.000-06:00

So ... we are having a baby. I am 5 weeks along & due on July 30th. (Well, one calendar said July 30th & another said August 1st). In either case, I'll deliver in mid-July.

On that note ... I am no longer focusing on weight loss ... but exercising & eating just as healthy as I already have been. I'm guessing (betting, really) that I'll lose weight while I'm pregnant. With one pregnancy I lost 60 lbs. My doctor was a bit concerned at first but I had been journaling my meals so he would see I was just taking better care of myself. That baby was huge so it didn't hinder his growth at all. Another pregnancy I lost 35 lbs ... all just because I was eating healthy & exercising. I would absolutely LOVE losing weight with this pregnancy ... but only if baby is healthy & safe!!!

I'll be back to posting regularly on this site again. I've missed blogging here!

Moving my blog

2010-10-01T10:16:00.002-05:00

I've decided to take the plunge ... weight loss is a HUGE part of my life so instead of separating & micromanaging my blogs, I am merging all of them. I would be so bummed if I lost your support. Please join me at:

PrismaticExistence

I hope to see you there!!! On a side note ... if you prefer to only look through weight loss posts, you will eventually find categories on the left side of my blog side bar.

As a "Grand Opening" for my new blog, I have a GREAT GiveAway happening. Be sure to enter :)

Question

2010-09-27T11:10:00.000-05:00

If I were to close my weight loss blog & start posting my weight loss stuff on my new blog (covers all aspects of my life), would you follow me over there?

Long day but on track

2010-09-25T21:35:00.000-05:00

Was a long day yesterday but my eating was on track!

Breakfast:

1 slice of sourdough toast with a 1/2 pat of butter and strawberry jelly. 1 container of Dannon Light & Fit Strawberry & Banana yogurt & 1 whole fried egg

Lunch:

2 cups of cucumbers, 1 string cheese, 2 cups of salad with 2 tsp light Ranch dressing, 2 Jennie-O turkey burgers

Dinner:

5 saltine crackers, 2 servings of tuna with 2 tsp of mayonnaise, 1 string cheese & 1 container of yogurt

That's always a good thing!

2010-09-24T07:15:00.001-05:00

Ahhh, I didn't get enough sleep last night so I think I'll try to sneak in a cat nap today. My eating pattern was out of whack yesterday. My meals were not on schedule at all ... I know that's why I felt like I was starving at dinner. It was my fault though. I was hanging out at the neighbor's house while our kids were all playing together. I had fun though ... some times ya just gotta stop & smell the roses. How ever, roses have thorns ... and the thorns for me are just knowing that my eating was off. I need to balance fun with reality ... and my reality is that I should have excused myself in order to eat. No biggie ... I'm not down on myself at all. Just making an observation that will help me succeed.

Yesterday's meals ... (I forgot to take a picture of dinner but I'll list what I ate)

Breakfast:

3 egg omelet (1 whole egg, 2 egg whites) with cheese & bell peppers, weight control cinnamon oatmeal & a Dannon Light & Fit Strawberry Banana Yogurt

Lunch: (almost the same as yesterday)

Tuna sandwich with mayo, mustard & celery on 1 slice if the Earthgrains Thin Buns, 1/2 cup of cucumbers & 2 cups salad with 2 tbsp Light Ranch dressing

Dinner:

2 sandwiches .. both turkey burgers. One with cheese, one with out. Both had mustard & mayo (not even full servings of each) Bread for one was sour dough & the other was honey wheat (didn't have any more Thin Buns)

Snacks:

3/4 cup of Cookie Crisp cereal (dry, no milk)

Observations: Though my eating didn't cause any weight gain, according to the scale this morning, I only lost 2 ounces (which really could be normal)/ How ever, dinner was a lot of calories. I'd prefer to have most my calories at breakfast & lunch. Another thing is that I ate dinner late last night ... and went to bed a couple hours later. I was still feeling full ... I don't like going to bed feeling like that. Lessons learned & that's always a good thing!

There's a concept!!!

2010-09-23T12:00:00.000-05:00

It's amazing what happens when you eat proper amounts & healthier foods. I eat 3 square meals a day & because I am watching calories & have learned how to exchange them, I rarely get a lot of calories from one item. My meals tend to look like I'm over eating ... and boy do they stuff me ... but, the foods are good & are helping my body do exactly as I want it to. I am losing weight with out crash dieting. Now THERE'S a concept!!!

I am weighing myself daily ... not to be obsessive but to see how different foods & eating times are effecting my body. I like what I am seeing. I seem to be losing 2 lbs. per day ... I am at the early stages of being back on track ... and that is common for me. I'd love to keep it up for 30 days. THAT would be KOOL!!!

I decided to post my meals the day after they're eaten. And for yesterday, I forgot to take pictures of two of them .. well, I hadn't decided to do the daily pictures until after breakfast & then when dinner came, I dove in because it looks so delicious.

Breakfast:
3 egg omelet (1 whole egg, 2 egg whites)
1 Earthgrains 100% Natural Thin Buns (whole grain)
.25 % of a pat of butter (I couldn't find the salsa for the life of me LOL)
Dannon Light & Fit Strawberry yogurt
Water to drink

Lunch:

Tuna sandwich with mayo, mustard & celery on 1 slice if the Earthgrains Thin Buns (as mentioned above), 2 cups cucumbers & 2 cups salad with 2 tbsp Light Ranch dressing & water to drink

Dinner:

6 oz. chicken (boneless/skinless) baked with 1/2 a serving of cream of mushroom soup, 2 cups broccoli, salad & water to drink

Snacks: (at various times of the day)

3/4 cup of Cookie Crisp cereal (haven't had it since I was a kid)

1/4 cup 2% milk

5 saltine crackers

2 tbs Jiff Creamy Peanut Butter (I need to switch to an all natural, I think)

The only thing I went over on was my protein. The rest ... carbs, sodium, iron, calories etc were under. I am thrilled!!!

18 inches lost Wooooooooooooooo!!!

2010-09-22T19:24:00.000-05:00

I've decided to start posting pictures of meals again. I will try to be consistent but not promises. Some times I can't find the battery charger for my camera. At this point that will be the only thing that gets in my way. I haven't decided if I'll be posting all the meals at the end of the day or wait 'til the next day ... if I do that, you'd be reading about the day before's meals. I don't know. I'll figure it out LOL

Picture & measurement time. If you go HERE you can see previous pictures & measurements so you have something to compare to. But ... as of today:

Neck: 16 1/2 inches
Rt. Arm: 15 inches (-2)
Lft Arm: 15 inches (-2)
Bust: 49 inches (lost 3 inches & my poor hubby is not happy LOL)
Waist: 48 inches (-1)
Hips: 55 inches (-5 WOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOO)
Rt Thigh: 23 inches (-2)
Lft Thigh: 23 inches (-2)
Rt Calf: 16 inches (-2)
Lft Calf: 16 inches (-2)

I am happy with the losses ... but ... I know when I'm serious the loss will be greater. I have been serious off & on but I am fully committed & think that since I now have a handle on the emotional eating I had struggled with, it will be easier to stay focused. Will it be easier? No ... but easier, yes! Now for pictures:

I can't really see any difference ... but there are inches lost so I'm good for now. Current weight: 243 lbs.

I had lost & was down much more than that ... but in leaving our ranch & not having good ol' fashioned farm work to do has taken it's toll. I have been committed to the healthier eating though ... for the most part. I'm on it though ... nothing can stop me now!!!

Mouth watering inspiration!!!

2010-09-20T12:50:00.000-05:00

I want to take a minute to share a site I found. The author actually has another blog I've been following for a while now. Check out My Daily Nosh Her other blog has always inspired me ... but seeing the pictures in My Daily Nosh just cements it!!! Just look at the pictures she posts .... the meals she has are no less than mouth watering ... and the best part ... they are HEALTHY & aid in not only weight loss but also in achieving optimal health!!!

I notice that when I surround myself with healthy things & people, my desire to be healthy & lose weight is increased ... thus increasing my chances of succeeding. I am blessed to have some really great blogs to follow & I pray that my own blog & journey can be an inspiration to some one out there!

Pasta, banana bread & cupcakes ... Oh my!!!

2010-09-19T14:27:00.001-05:00

We had a wild weekend ... friends from high school came out. We've been blessed to have one family here a couple times & look forward to many other get together's!!! The other couple that came ... we hadn't seen them in 15 years. It was so much fun to talk about old times & just hang out. We have friends in our "new" town ... but there's nothing like getting together with old friends!!! The weekend was filled with good foods ... pasta, home made sour dough bread (bought at our local Farmer's Market), cup cakes, banana bread, cake, banana & chocolate chip cookies ... I didn't over eat though. I was good. The only "splurge" for me as far as calories was a Mocha Frappe ... yes, I know ... loaded with calories but I walked it off. I did have a piece of cake ... and A cookie & some pasta ... but all with in a healthy portion. I'm proud of myself. I kept my eating in check while surrounded by good friends & fun times. I think I'm gettin' the hang of this!
In the 2 days I had company, I lost 4 lbs. Wooooooooooooo, thank you God!!!

Wow, I got a Blog Award

2010-09-10T11:09:00.000-05:00

Thanks Fluffy
I am thrilled to be the recipient of the award ... but even more so that I have a reader LOL

Here are the rules:

1. Post who gave you this award
2. State 10 things you like
3. Bless 10 other bloggers and notify them with a comment

10 Things I like:

the smell of rain
music that speaks to my heart
writing
spending time with my husband & children
salads (all kinds)
hangin' out with friends
blogging
Facebook
the simple life
my life

The 10 bloggers I choose for the Award:

http://www.2009weightlossjourney.blogspot.com/
http://www.denisesbitebybite.blogspot.com
http://www.getpastthemoment.blogspot.com/
http://www.escapefromobesity.blogspot.com
http://www.fat-free-me.blogspot.com
http://www.findingradiance.com
http://www.skinnyhollie.com
http://www.inweighovermyhead.blogspot.com
http://www.weightoflife.blogspot.com
http://www.imsupersuper.blogspot.com

Right click on the picture & save it to your computer. Then post on your blog :)

Not reaching for it

2010-09-08T09:58:00.000-05:00

I'm really struggling with not plowing in to some comfort foods. I guess it's not a struggle physically because we don't have much in the house as far as feeding off of them just to do so (I am a very budgeted shopper). The struggle comes emotionally ... I am hurting ... no, I am broken ... and there was a time that food brought comfort. Maybe not even a comfort but a way to avoid the issue hurting me. Well, I can't avoid this issue.
I want to face this one ... head on. I want to feel every ounce of what ever I need to feel, in order to heal completely. I have faced this grief before ... and I usually get stuck in the anger stage. I don't want to cry & then stop myself ... I want to get through this ... and do so the right way. The right way is not reaching for bowls of ice cream or stuffing my face with potato chips until I can't move. Seeing the truth in the tragedy is a start ... then allowing myself to mourn, completely ... and going to the Word of God, my husband & friends for support ... THAT is the right way!!!

One thing I need to realize is that it's ok if I just want to cry for the day ... and it's ok if I don't. It's ok if I laugh at a joke ... or talk about other things ... and it's ok if I don't. I need to stop interfering with myself. Does that make sense? I know what I'm trying to say. Ahhhh ... maybe a better way to say it is that I need to stop trying to be "the strong one."