Lou's Inferno

10 things to learn from our pups

2012-04-10T13:21:00.002-06:00

Generation Techy: High School of Today

2011-12-07T10:02:00.001-07:00

This poor generation is in for one hell of a ride. Technology has left them speechless. Literally. They communicate through social networking, text messages, twitter, etc. And yet, when it comes to confrontation...they shy away from it all, and go verbally abuse their friends/enemies via facebook and text messaging. Luring and bating each other into a quasi-culture of completely uncommitted promises that aren't held accountable. Emotions are held deep, dark, and secret, vs. putting them out on the table. Articulating words and sentences has become a four letter word, and writing an actual hand written letter...well...good luck reading it.
So Teacher's and parents REALLY have their work cut out for them now. This year I have had the absolute pleasure, and I mean that in all sincerity, of becoming a part of the Lincoln Public School system. It has been wonderfully satisfying, and the kids are incredible. I love watching them get excited about being successful, and although there have been significant trials & tribulations thus far, its amazing how much I truly want all of these kids to succeed in their life paths. HOWEVER, it is SO difficult trying to stress day in and day out COMMUNICATE PLEASE. Face your problems, deal with them head on and come to a justifiable conclusion/solution. Don't run from the issues at hand. Which also lends a helping hand into my own life...and facing everything I am thrown with as much diligence as possible.
All the while, I do believe it is completely irresponsible for my generation and generations older to completely throw these kids under the bus, and look at their world of technology as completely asinine. I think its important to understand it, and become a part of it as much as feasibly possible without crossing boundary lines, and help the kids to understand we want to understand them as much as we expect it vice versa.
My unborn children...oh god...I dread the day they understand their mother and father were born in the 1980s. How awkward is that conversation going to be...and where in the world will technology take us at that point????

Divorce, Marriage & everything in between

2011-12-07T09:42:00.001-07:00

Guilt is a difficult hurdle to overcome. After going through a divorce, I have finally started to feel like myself again. The divorce was tough...don't get me wrong...it was excruciating making the choice to leave a man who had been nothing but understanding, loving, and compassionate. But I also knew that i wasn't happy, which in turn made him as miserable as me. Yes, it was selfish to go into the marriage wondering if it was right...but I don't regret it. And if that makes me a selfish woman...so be it. I don't regret my marriage to Brandon. I don't regret any of my life learned lessons with him, or loving him enough to know my family, and my needs would never fit into his life. And as much as it hurt to walk away from him...I can only hope he is happier now because of it.
But that brings me full circle back to the life I'm living today. I have been fortunate enough to have my high school sweetheart come back into my adult life and sweep me off my feet all over again. Last year was a brutally emotional year, and he stood tall beside me through it all. I have my Grandmother's 100 year old engagement ring on my finger, and am going to wed Marshall on July 14th, 2012. Not only that, my best friend and I have a new found respect for our friendship and have been through, yet again, a life altering transition only to come out on top of the pile still holding steadfast to our womanhood we are experiencing together. I have literally turned my career upside down, and am coaching High school sports, subbing full time, and completely immersed into the school system...and I could not be happier. My personal bills are barely paid every month, and I can hardly contribute to Marshall and my house bills, insurance, etc....but the smile is still on my face. I feel satisfied. I feel like I'm moving forward. But I also have this incredible cloud of guilt, clinging to my back....which constantly makes me look behind. How are you supposed to overcome your guilt of hurting a truly great person, all the while being blessed enough to find an old love in a new stage of my life? I know planning this wedding should be exciting, but the guilt of being happy is a heavy burden. Getting past that guilt...well I guess that's just the next obstacle in my life.

Come Back

2010-08-11T13:49:00.001-06:00

What did these women do
Where did your gentle go
How are your feelings true
When you've hit the bottom low

Do you even feel me
Are memories all you've got
Our rooted family tree
Should supply the lesson taught

It's time to heal your clot
Let the pieces fall apart
Come back to our sacred spot
Come back and give your heart.

Sandpaper

2010-08-11T13:48:00.003-06:00

Roughness consumes you
Darkness that confides
Deeper secrets leave a clue
Share your other side

I know you're still there
But layers of gray hide
Eyes lock longing to bare
The past is mortal to collide

Confessions slowly leak
Futures unfold a windy ride
Hazy glass seemed so bleak
Rip curl waters bring the tide.

Unsolved

2010-08-11T13:47:00.001-06:00

Cast your line
Bring me in
Drink my wine
Eat my sin
Find the bliss
Swim too deep
Simple in kiss
Willows that weep
Unsolved desire
Wrapped in dark
Set me on fire
Body left stark.

Practicality

2010-08-11T13:43:00.002-06:00

A coffee laden buzz drips slow
Cigarettes take me to a deeper low
Ink runs quick to set the flow
Confusion speaks fluid in tow

Your eyes set my core on fire
Your words bring me to inspire
Are your intentions to simply tire
Thoughtless actions for acquire

Do you want me now that you knew
A heart that falters and often flew
Actions speak not certainly new
Two on your line and you still do

Words spoken can't be taken back
I've said my piece and laid the track
Take them seriously, hold the slack
Find what you need to fill the crack

I'll remain a mystery to you
Tenderize my heart but please don't chew
Steer your boat and man the crew
Decide your fate, intend to be true.

Magnets

2010-08-11T13:41:00.002-06:00

Metal clings to metal
Like flowers to a petal
Unwilling to settle

Sparks light the fire
Of a heart for hire
Beware submissive liar

Eyes lock on glances
Rhythm's forbidden dances
Seeking for the chances

Soothing waves of a womb
Untold secrets swirl and loom
Escaping their darkened tomb

I pray to the skies
My time to arise
And let go of these ties.

Montana

2010-08-11T13:40:00.003-06:00

You drive me crazy
You drive me sane
My sight goes hazy
You drug my vein

I feel your lips
I feel your soul
You kiss my hips
You fill me full

You touch my face
You touch my mind
I'm in your trace
I'm in your bind.

Garage Sale

2010-08-11T13:36:00.002-06:00

Why when it all falls apart
Do you still need to crush my heart

Making money spin a web so tight
Putting evil spirits out to fight

Babies trapped by confusing word
Anger and spite is all that's heard

Why is it you can't let me go
When the end is here and we both know

A stagnant love knocks down the door
A tear drop falls and hits the floor

You hug me close and whisper low
Our love's a dream on paths that flow

Release this bond and hold it dear
Release my love, embrace your fear

It all fell apart in the blink of an eye
Release my love and let me fly.

Unheard

2010-08-11T13:34:00.003-06:00

Pushing everything said away
Not allowing yourself to think
It won't make my pain stray
These words won't drown and sink

It isn't okay today
These feelings are still here
Because you didn't say
I need you to be near

Is this how you deal
Magically its solved
I am completely real
You need to be involved

You abandoned my words
You burned my heart
You left...being unheard
and tore my core apart.

Taunt

2010-08-11T13:31:00.001-06:00

Avoid a look in your eyes
Lost in this pool of bliss
My heart always defies
A lover's tempting kiss

I need this not to end
I need to feel the want
And yet I still defend
A lingering song to taunt

The One handed to me
The One walked into my life
Yet you're trying to set me free
You're trying to take my strife

This is all my pain
It tastes my body whole
Give into the sweet strain
It completes my aching soul.

Jagged Taurean Bull

2010-08-11T13:28:00.005-06:00

Temporarily out of service
Dares laid out to explore
Essentially indulge in bliss
Searching for the closed door

Left behind dwelling on
Thoughts float in air
Awaiting new hope dawn
Wishing I didn't care

Nothing would ever come
Similarities repelled the chance
That's enough for some
My heart needs to dance

He does that to me
A look says it all
He can set me free
Can't help but fall.

Melt

2010-08-11T13:28:00.002-06:00

Her fire can lick his blood

And change teh concrete into mud

Boiling over with poison urge

Limbs ache and slowly merge.

Him

2010-08-11T13:27:00.002-06:00

Unraveling desire
questionable doubt
passionate fire
unreliable drought
If equal parts can not be
let the equally loved be me.

The Grapevine

2010-08-11T13:24:00.003-06:00

Restless beats at the door
eyes of the dark
souls of the poor

Markings on the sacred wall
Chauncey glass
A sodden call

You are a lock
I am the key
You are my vine
I am the tree

Sparks of a spirit
Clothes for the soul
I am immortal
You just burn coal

Eyes of the accused
Question the unknown
Feathers of a legend
Now seem all alone

Thoughts remain still
Reversed in a motion
Rumors of the cross
Let's create a potion.

December

2010-08-11T13:22:00.002-06:00

Twisted words and rumpled sheets
Hidden tears and lost defeats
Outstretched leaps pray for hope
Undying affection thirsts to cope
Phrases contrived in fevered moans
Musical secrets in amber tones
Methodical waves of champagne envy
Lyrics swell insane within me
You're on this road of hungering success
Cleverly committed to nothing less
Love's lingering finger tips burn
My aching lips will never learn.

Lord I ask

2010-08-11T13:20:00.002-06:00

Lord, I ask why
You answer believe
Why did you die
Its so hard to conceive
Lord, I ask how
You answer with love
I understand now
Wings soar above
Lord, I ask when
You answer in time
Soothe wounded men
Golden wings chime
Lord, I ask where
You answer right here
This love is unfair
Search for the cure
Lord, I ask who
You answer you know
Lord, what should I do
You answer let go.

Hopper

2010-08-11T13:18:00.001-06:00

A cafe scene is set
Two lovers appear near
There's no sign of regret
But subtle signs of fear

Everything is right
Even all the wrongs
What's holding on so tight
Does either hand belong

There's a mystery in the air
Its left unsolved so far
He can't bare to stare
We haven't set the bar

The cafe lights have dimmed
Secrets still afloat
The night quickly trimmed
Anything left to quote.

Merge

2010-08-11T13:16:00.002-06:00

I feel a little wreck less
Running down the checklist
What's wrong and what's right
Hope soars through the night

Step out of your blind spot
Read the lessons taught
Rear views mean too late
Side mirrors appear close fate

Unclear expressions read
Lyrics from your mouth seed
What is it you feel
Was anything really real

You're so scared to fall
Off that cracked glass wall
I see right through your smile
Merge into this for awhile.

Font

2010-08-11T13:04:00.002-06:00

We live with our flaws
We make our path
Awaiting the applause
Assuming the wrath

We choose our truth
We speak our mind
Bluntness is uncouth
Searching to find

Memories set the font
Words on a page
Lingering fingers taunt
Filled with love and rage.

Thirst

2010-08-11T13:02:00.002-06:00

What is this need I need
What is this feeling I feel
Why do we have to feed
Why do we want to seal
I feel so tongue tied
Every time I'm at your center
Has no one every lied
Or ever tired to enter
What is this wall you build
What is this clock ticking
Why do you need to be filled
With what is clicking
Why can't I breathe
When you don't say
Why can't I sheath
When its not ok
I crumble so easy
Yet show no mercy
Insides become queasy
You leave me thirsty.

Flow

2010-08-11T12:38:00.006-06:00

You say honesty is your game

Written throughout your name

But where's the this truth

Actions are so uncouth

All I want to know

Is where is your flow

Do you have any room

For your heart to consume

Your eyes burn through me

You're the one who knew

I've fallen from the start

But again taste the tart

Everything fits like a glove

Something sent from above

How did you become you

What makes you so true

I blame you for my jump

For this throat lump

I'm a natural being

Who is completely seeing

Where is your flow

What don't you know

I'm lifted beyond this all

And yet all I do is fall

New Poems

2009-02-25T10:09:00.002-07:00

The Filler
Your sin created my killer
Your sin left this hole
And all you received was a filler
For 31 years of a forgotten goal

Now you rub the pain deeper
And expect smiles in return
Her see-through lust couldn't be cheaper
But we will survive your burns

I pray you find yourself again
I pray my father will surface
Your efforts are put to strain
But can find that sacred purpose.
Laura Daigle

Harbor on Antiquated
Her eyes harbored on antiquated
His mouth was all she read
Their thoughts somehow fated
For everything left unsaid

She left the world she lived
He gave her soul-less flight
Their lips burned to forgive
The mortal blackened night

Futures abound curled paths ahead
Two lives imprinted in history
Forever will never be completely said
And forever will always be the mystery...
Laura Daigle

Loaded Gun
I gave my gun away loaded
A shot you took shaped & molded
Blanks fired throughout my soul
Burying skeletons tired & full

A Bullet reached mortal ground
Where a lifeless past died & found
Secrets stored for target's aim
Releasing dark & all it's shame

I wash my hands of hate's blood stain
I take my share, I take your blame
I give you back my loaded gun
I give it back as all or none...
Laura Daigle

The New Year

2008-05-01T08:07:00.001-06:00

An old year passes, the days fly by
Those new resolutions reach sky high

Old memories are caught in photos so clear
New friends bring hope with shining, bright cheer

Our paths keep winding, their roads of success
Our days keep records of whispers to confess

We make our goals for this bright New Year
To hold and bind these dreams from our fear

Technology booms, handwritten divides
Computer screens loom, and people collide

Through each day new, we question our fate
With each hour gone, don’t sit and just wait

Take this New Year to heart my dear friend
Take this New Year and run with amend

Turn a new page & leave written the past
Life is only present, and it goes far too fast.

Cheers to the New Year
Laura A. Allen