You’re pushing, striving, thinking you are doing what you are “supposed” to be doing – yet it seems like something’s not clicking.

I am learning each day that I certainly don’t have it all together. There are days I feel like I’m doing REALLY well – I’m productive, I’m helping people, I’m getting stuff done – even earning money.

Then there are those days…

The ones you just feel “off” like something’s not working. Like you are missing something. Or someone.

Rejection can hit you all sorts of ways. Through close relationships & friendships, and even in business with clients, prospects, or strangers.

Rejection is something we have to deal with in life – it’s unavoidable. And some handle it better than others.

I always thought I was ok with rejection. I didn’t like it. But I could move on fairly easily.

There are some rejections that make you question a WHOLE lot, though. Are you doing the right thing? Being the right person? Acting the right way? Saying the right thing?

GOSH – can I just be let off the hook to be myself?!?!

Part of me has been so numb for so long that I’ve wondered if I’m capable of certain feelings. I’ve forced myself into numbness to avoid the alternative. It was my way of coping with the world dishing me out something that I thought should have played out TOTALLY differently than reality.

That part of me came alive just a bit this week. I was able to feel again. I was sure I had that part of me still in there somewhere – the part that wants to find my soulmate. The part that wants to bless someone else’s life by being in it. The part that doesn’t care about the little things but wants to be cared for. The part that wants love for me being me and not the pressures to be someone I never should be.

Ohhh… all the crap and lies that fill your head when you go through hurt and rejection! It’s not just dealing with the hurt and loss, it’s the aftermath of the “I’m not good enough’s” or the “Who would want me now, especially with this many kids, their needs, and my less-than-perfect body?” I hate those lies. I hate them because they carry a shred… be it small… but still, a shred of truth.

You have to fight it. I have to fight it.

I’ve grown, though. I see something now and think “I could actually have that” – where before, I’d think it was so far out of my reach. The fact that the thought that I COULD have it amazes me. There was something inside me, in my gut, that said “yes, you can get to it!” Of course, then, the lies crept in and tried to tell me I’m not worth it. Ugh!

It’s a battle I’m waging, but I’m not giving up. I know the truth. I know who I am. I know that God has awesome plans for me. He has brought me this far… why would He give up now?

So… I’m not giving up either.

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Jessica Stone is a mom of 4 and owner of her own businesses in the fitness, beauty, and essential oils industries. She has 3 special needs children, one which has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her children’s health with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

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