Embrace Rainy Days

These Shoes Make Me Want To Cry Sparkles

2011-09-23T11:19:00.000-07:00

And they are size 5, which means I can wear them and gahhhh.

I love you Charlotte Russe for having amazing clothes and shoes.

Oh and I found this website with really cute clothes and shoes: http://www.pinkice.com/

So for my first tattoo.

2011-09-23T08:29:00.000-07:00

I drew some things I want it to be and I'm giving it to my friend to make it look ten times cooler :)

But here is what I kinda want it to be like:

I think I'm going to try and draw more ideas because I have so many :)

Homecoming!

2011-09-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

Okay first of all, should the girl do something cute for the guy if she is the one asking him?

I dunno.

BUT, I shall post pics of dresses so you guys can see what I'm thinking about wearing and help me out on deciding :/ Because I don't want to go with the standard dress,but eeeee idk :) Most of them, I couldn't copy the pictures so I put the links ;)

#2Super Cute ModCloth Floral Dress
#3Jc Penney Dress
#4Modcloth Floral Frontier Dress
#5JC Penney Floral Dress
#6Macy's Dress

I Remember When I Used to Think

2011-09-23T07:31:00.000-07:00

That online dating was the bee's knees and the cat's meow because I met cool people online blah blah whatever. But now, It's getting major creepy and people and for some people, they will just take what they can get. I've vowed to never try online dating again. I think it's more meaningful to meet the person in person and make a genuine connection with him or her.

I think I'm going to delete my accounts...the few thousand that I've made...hahah.

Eating Healthy

2011-09-22T06:53:00.000-07:00

I won't over spam my blog with only healthy eating posts but haha I will post pictures ;)

Gabrielle Miller
I am legitimately going to change my eating habits so I can be healthy and I'm praying that my health issues will go away once I change the way I eat. Ya'lls support with me on this would be lovely :)

Random English Assignment.

2011-09-20T22:28:00.001-07:00

Those who sit around and day dream let their imaginations run free and indulge in things that cannot happen in real life. When we are alone, we are not always busy. To think and ponder on something can consume our mind and take away our boredom. A person who doesn’t find pleasure in tangible extracurricular activities can busy himself by daydreaming and being consumed in his own thoughts. His thoughts dwell on what he most desires and what he cannot have. His mind flits from scenario to scenario and thinks about the beauty that he can never obtain.

My New Favorite Band

2011-09-20T22:08:00.000-07:00

Sleeping with Sirens <3

You said it, you said it
I'll take you at your word.
These promises that you can't keep,
it's getting harder to hold on.
You said it, you said it
don't ever let me fall.
Don't give up because you're losing
(you haven't lost).

2011-09-18T18:41:00.001-07:00

Loneliness consumes us.
The need to feel accepted consumes us.
This world consumes us.

I had a talk

2011-09-13T06:39:00.000-07:00

with my youth leader yesterday,

And she gave me a lot of insight on how I've been living my life.

She told me I dwell alot on the unknown rather than the known. As in, I assume things without having all the facts. And dwelling on "what ifs" is dwelling on the unknown. So she encouraged me to just be content with knowing the facts.

Let me give an example:

Let's say I like this guy; that's a known fact. What is unknown is if he likes me back. So I could dwell for days on the question of "does he like me back?" And I could make up scenarios in my head where he likes me blah blah blah. But I cannot for a fact say he likes me because that is unknown; he hasn't told me yet.

So that's pretty much what I've been doing for like my whole life; dwelling on the unknown. Which has caused insecurity and hecka lot of doubt.

SO, saying all that, I need to turn my life around and stop assuming that people don't like me or people have beef with me and deal with what is known.

Bing bam boom. :)

This is why I love Tumblr.

2011-09-09T11:25:00.001-07:00

They just hit their 10th billionth post and now their throwing confetti all over my dashboard.
AYYY.

The Same Thing

2011-09-08T19:19:00.000-07:00

Over and over again.

I like someone.

They say they "like" me.

Nothing happens.

They stop talking to me.

The funny thing is, that's okay.

I guarded my heart this time, so I ain't hurting haha.

And I don't need a guy to tell me am beautiful.

Though sometimes, yeah it feels good to have a guy tell you that,

but I'm realizing that I am beautiful in my own special way,

and I can't wait to meet the guy that I will one day marry.

It may happen in the a couple of weeks, months, or years.

But I know, that when I meet that person; deep down inside I will know he is the one.

And,

2011-09-08T17:33:00.000-07:00

I don't want to be the pursuer anymore.

If you want to talk to me, you can start the conversation.

I mean yes, people should take turns starting the conversation.

But when I'm always starting the conversation:

First of all, I feel like I'm being annoying

Second of all, I don't like doing it all the time.

And I realized if he wanted to talk to me, he would.

My Cuddle Buddy

2011-09-06T21:09:00.001-07:00

Yuuhhh thats right.

It is Hard

2011-09-06T19:09:00.000-07:00

When you want to tell someone something but you know that it will be taken the totally wrong way.
GAHHHHH.
Because I don't know if the feeling is mutual but then I'm like, eh whatever this life is short.
But, I'm in conflict with myself.
And I still have not done my homework.
I need to get off this.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

I need to rethink this.

2011-09-06T11:05:00.000-07:00

I don't need to have expectations. Is that possible?

I just need to go with the flow. Take life step by step.

Because yesterday was totally unexpected. But unexpectedly good.

It's good to be able to sit down and have a legit honest conversation. It really is.

I don't know where it's going but taking things step by step is better than overthinking and having those high expectations then getting dissapointed.

:) Anyways life is good. And I need to change my blog, I'm bored with the layout.

Woo! It's homework time, and I'm waiting for my dad to get home so I can pick up my new glasses.

WAHHHH SO EXCITED.

I Wake Up to an Empty House

2011-09-05T07:28:00.001-07:00

Both physically and emotionally empty.

More Piercings

2011-09-04T23:24:00.000-07:00

I'll say more later.

Basically, I have expectations for today

(Monday- b/c it's one am)

But I don't know.

I don't want to be disappointed..

I don't.

Because it's an awful feeling and I'm sick of that feeling.

But I have to be confident.

P.S. My ear is throbbing.

My sister had a needle that

wasn't sharp enough and

wouldn't pierce my ear all the way through.

Danni Stuck A Needle In My Ear

2011-09-03T22:24:00.000-07:00

And it hurt like a fire burning.

Today was a really intense day.

Things happened at home but we are all okay now.

I love my family and things are going to be okay :)

I'm teaching small children tomorrow, AYYY.

I am super excited!

I'm uploading pics so yay!

mah new piercing weeeeeee

Lets Get These Teen Hearts Beating Faster, Faster.

2011-09-03T00:53:00.000-07:00

Actually let's not.
My heart was just chill twenty minutes ago,
and now it's having to calm back down.

Anyways, It's two am, I'm listening to music, tumbl'n and playing Words With Friends, which again, is virtual scrabble and why can't we all just freaking play a nice game of real scrabble. Why do things all have to be so virtual?
And I am aware I use alot of commas. Shh I'm working on my grammar ;)

Woahhhh. My sister is sho shuper pwetty ;)
She did her hair all up and it looks nice.
She just got home haahha what a rebel.

AHHH I feel a hyperness coming over me. NOOOOOOOOO.
I can't stop it.
I gotta get off the computer.

I Get Bored

2011-09-02T21:58:00.000-07:00

And start taking pictures of myself.

I need to re-pierce my cartilage.

Why isn't my sister here to do that?

No idea.

WAHH.

I gotta sleep before I get super bored outta my mind.

I am going to kick a small child. Haahha, have some lovely pictures.

I'm going to post some Harry Potter quotes late, because I re read the first book today and yeah <3

Maybe

2011-08-31T21:40:00.000-07:00

It never was meant to be anything more than a reassurance that I am still seen as beautiful. And I am okay with that. Even though I was being reassured every day by my family and friends, it mean't a lot to come from someone I liked.

I Want to Change the World

2011-08-29T16:14:00.000-07:00

And I'm not just saying that.

I have an idea for something bigger than I can ever imagine and it's basically reaching out to people in Malawi Africa.

And I feel, for some strange reason, that I'm supposed to start something there. Something amazing.

Because I don't want to waste this life away knowing I could be a part of something extraordinary. I want to make a change, and show people that they can see "love" a different way.

I want to change things.

Alright, I'm Back

2011-08-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

Just to say, I'm a sucker for cute things and sayings.

And I am still up doing my homework.

Going to wake up at five to do the rest of my homework.

I'm feeling really girly right now. You know the feeling you get when you have found out someone likes you?

I haven't had that feeling in a long time, and let me tell you, it is making me very smiley :)

WEEEEEEEEEE.

Darn you Tumblr for being a distraction. Go away.

Just Kidding, I love you.

I'll be up for awhile

2011-08-28T20:56:00.000-07:00

Times like these, I cant focus.

Like I am forcing myself to do my homework. But I started at three o clock and it is now ten, and I have only gotten one thing accomplished.

It's like my mind takes over. I have been daydreaming for about five hours on and off.

And thinking about the most randomest of things in my head.

I keep telling myself I will get time to daydream tomorrow but arghh, It's hard. I wonder if a person can be addicted to daydreaming? Dang, I do alot of it. Maybe that's why I can't pay attention in school haha.

I need to be more motivated about school. Haha

Anyways, thanks to all who read my blog!

Over Labor day weekend ( I have a five day weekend- yay homeschool curriculum), I am going to check out 312534534534 blogs! Ha. Not that many.

Ok I have to go, my mom will be here any minute telling me to do my homework.

Weeeeeeee

2011-08-28T03:07:00.000-07:00

Iiiiiii liiiiiikkkkkeeee yyyyyoooouuuu. Now lets see where this goes. From my last relationship I know for a fact that I'm not gonna be super serious about anything. And I gotta keep low expectations because nothing might happen. Woah, I feel like that was very pessimistic. Basically I'm not going to do what I did last time. I'm a new person, he's different, and hopefully it will be swell. :)

I just randomly woke up at four am. I'm teaching my youth group tomorrow wish me luck if anyone is up ;) I just have to remember that this is my church family and they're not gonna freak out if I mess upp :)