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Far Away Lover

2013-01-19T01:24:00.001-08:00

I lay in my bed and think about you
I love you so much I don't know what to do
I feel your warmth at my side
The pain in my heart moves to my eyes
So far away yet always so near
You are the reason I am still here.

I await the times when we can talk
I await the times we can finally hold hands and walk
To feel you for real... so close to me
The happiest person in the world is what you would make me.

Your eyes shine like a million suns
You shine more brightly than anyone
Your smile so sweet can help but make me smile
It stops my world even for a little while
I await the time when my hand is in yours
To hear you say those 3 little words.

There are still no words I can say to describe
My heart it aches and my eyes they cry
But when we talk my heart flies
you always wipe away the tears I cry.

Even thought you aren't here
And I miss you so much my dear
I'll love you forever and ever
I'll always love you my far away lover.

Scare

2013-01-19T01:19:00.000-08:00

I'm scared of not missing you anymore, I'm scared to live that day.
I'm scared my mind will erase the memory of the day you went away.
I put a lot of trust in you, you said that you were different.
Your intellect was beyond the hood, but I guess not far enough to miss it.

I guess I should've told you that I'm really sensitive, though I try to act like I don't mind, that night I still relive.
I'm ashamed because I know I love you way more than you like me,
and that I cry for you when you're not here so much that I can't see.

This headache just won't go away its been here since you left.
Though loud yet meek, though screaming yet bleak, this loss truly feels like death.
I pray you don't feel these words are a stretch because we've shared limited time,
or that I'm completely insane for tatting your name, assuring I've lost my mind.

Well the truth is that you are for me, and I've known it since we met.
Yeah we fought, loved, broken up, but there's something you just have to get.
I don't want anyone else baby doll, I don't want another man.
I'll build you up and give you my heart to cradle in your hand.

I admit I am attached baby, and dangerously its true.
That I want to offer my body and soul as a sacrifice to you.
I pray you never leave my side though physical I can take,
but mentally please stay awhile and never leave this place.

365 days is the longest fight I feel I've already been beat.
That waiting is indeed the hardest game and I've just succumbed to defeat.
Terell aka my babe that definitely is what you are.
Though unspoken yet chanted, and rough yet romantic, this love was written in the stars.

I don't know what you feel inside, or if this load you can carry.
If once you're out you'll go buck wild or settle down and marry.
I feel we'll be getting to know each other more so here than before,
so open and let me in because it's you that I adore.

The fate of this relationship is exclusively up to you, ill be holding down my end until my biggest dream comes true-
I love you!

My Babe

2013-01-19T01:15:00.002-08:00

Together we may struggle
but without you all I feel is pain.
Sometimes I may seem confused
but there is one thing that will never change.

The feelings I have for you don't fade or go away.
They continue to grow stronger each day with every kiss.
Life without you is something I can't imagine.
From within my soul, it's you I'd miss.

I understand this world more then you may know.
I could believe in fate and put up a fight.
But you and I are not written.
Although there is a truth I'd like to write.

We both have scars,
with memories that can not be erased,
but together we are stronger.
In your hands my heart has been placed.

This is a choice I have made.
I understand the risk I take.
Please hold my heart dear to you.
Careful to never break.

If you do stumble or fall,
please don't forget to gather all the pieces.
It's your choice of what to do with them.
My love for you never ceases.

From My Heart

2013-01-19T01:12:00.000-08:00

A million stars up in the sky
one shines brighter I cant deny
A love so precious a love so true
a love that comes from me to you
The angels sing when you are near
within your arms I have nothing to fear
You always know just what to say
just talking to you makes my day
I love you honey with all of my heart
together forever and never to part.

Please, come to me… I am very lonely :(

2012-10-05T05:55:00.000-07:00

Each moments is empty,
My nights are lonely.
Come and hold me,
The destiny awaits you.
Turn back and take a look now.
Such a meeting may or may not happen again.
To tell you what I mean is?
You are everything for me?
Please, come to me…
I am very lonely :(

I’ve Learned:

2012-10-05T05:52:00.002-07:00

I’ve Learned:
I came alone and I’ve to Go Alone.
I’ve Learned:
People are with You only When they need you, not otherwise.
I’ve Learned:
Extra care of anyone by you will Ultimately bring a blame for you, not appreciation.
I’ve Learned:
A simple LIE of Your close one can break you more than anything.
I’ve Learned:
Its very hard to weep alone when there is no..!

I want you to hug me when I get scared…..

2012-10-05T05:51:00.000-07:00

I want you to hug me when I get
scared…..
I want you to kiss me when I act
like a kid….
I want you to care for me when
I’m sick….
I want you to listen to me when I
wanna say something….
I want you to understand my

silence
when I don’t have words to
express what I feel….
I want you to be there when I
need a friend….
I want you to love me for what
I’m.
& above all
I want you to complete me.

If She shouts ..

2012-10-05T05:48:00.003-07:00

If She shouts ..
‘I Love you’
in Public place She Meant It ♥
-If She Says It ..
In front of Her friends She is Proud of you ♥
-If She Says It ..
In front of Her Parents, She is Ready for you ♥
-If She says It ..
Inside a Cinema, you are Beautiful ♥

-If She Expresses It ..
During Her Busy Working Hours,
She Constantly Thinks about you ♥
Love Is Special in it Own Way.
Words r not just enough to Express Love ♥

Missing u is My habbit and i can’t change my habbit

2012-10-05T05:45:00.002-07:00

Missing u is My habbit
and i can’t change my habbit
I really miss u Every day and Every night
You are Always in my thought
dont know how can i Forget u
that Is imposible for me to Forget u
Just to Say u
I LOVE YOU
no Matter you are mine or NOT

I Am only Saying that I am always URS my ♥
I missing you when even i take Breath
without thinking u i cant take breath.. ….

I cannot promise you a life of sunshine,

2012-10-05T05:41:00.000-07:00

I cannot promise you
a life of sunshine,
I cannot promise riches,
wealth, or gold,
I cannot promise you
an easy pathway
That leads away from change
or growing old,
But …..

I can promise
all my heart?s devotion,
A smile to chase away
your tears of sorrow,
A love that?s ever true
and ever growing,
A hand to hold in yours
through each tomorrow,
Two loving arms to shelter
and protect you,
The knowledge that I need you
more than ever,
And all the happiness
that love can give you
As, hand in hand,
we walk through life together..!!

I miss my Love the half of my whole

2012-09-16T02:28:00.000-07:00

I miss my Love the half of my whole

The one I love and want to behold
With Her again I yearn to be
And enjoy a togetherness that makes us happy

Its such a miserable day here today
Rain, rain and cloudy dull dark skies
A lonely, cold and damp feeling allover
Little depressing, oh! for the days of July

Weather be mindful of my concern
Go away rain, please go away soon
For bright day and light to return
The open skies with shining afternoon

I'll not let the weather get me down
Nor the loneliness of one half depress
Reassured that my love is always Her
And Her reciprocating love to me I'll bless

What manner of love do I possess?
Its confusing, controlling and somewhat cruel
Twisting and turning the insides of me
Sometimes I feel like a simple fool

And the loneliness does persist
They say its only natural
Especially when love between two exists
Must I now rely on the supernatural?

Oh God of rain and God of light
And God of all that lives this life
Please look, look deep within our hearts
Never to keep my Dearest and me apart

My Dear I miss you the half of my whole
The one I love and want to behold
With You again I yearn to be
And enjoy a togetherness that makes us happy

When you Love Someone

2012-09-16T02:26:00.000-07:00

When you are together with that special someone, you pretend to ignore that person. But when that special someone is not around, you might look around to find them.
At that moment, you are in love.

Although there is someone else who always makes you laugh,
your eyes and attention might go only to that special someone.
Then, you are in love.
Although that special someone was supposed to have called you long back, to let you know of their safe arrival,
your phone is quiet.
You are desperately waiting for the call!
At that moment, you are in love.
If you are much more excited for one short e-mail fromthat special someone than other many long e-mails,
you are in love.
When you find yourself as one who cannot erase all the
messages in your answering machine because of one message
from that special someone, you are in love.
When you get a couple of free movie tickets, you would
not hesitate to think of that special someone.
Then, you are in love.
You keep telling yourself, "that special someone is just a friend", but you realize that you can not avoid that person's special attraction. At that moment, you are in love.
While you are reading this page, if someone
appears in your mind,
then u are in love with that person.

I was alone when with you

2012-09-16T02:24:00.001-07:00

I was alone when with you
And lonely without you,
No matter how I comfort myself
I’ll be incomplete without you.

This world where I live
Is so scarry without you,
I can’t smile to my self
And say “I am ok without you.”

My heart humbly asks “What happened?”
“Nothing” I say thinking of you,
The heart’s reply, “I’m shattered with your nothing!”
And I don’t know how to go on without you.

2012-09-14T08:19:00.000-07:00

~DECAY~
When I think of you, all I feel is love
But like a grain of sand upon my hand
You disappeared.....
Now the memories of you haunt my dreams
So very far away in love's decay.

It's what I greatest feared.......
Like when your finger slipped through mine
I've fallen down upon the ground
Seduced to my dark grave.
Your ghost is calling, and I'm left screaming
What I see is killing me
Some else you chose to save......
In my darkest hour, in my dying breath
I will see you there, see you everywhere
When the cold ground swallows me
When I close my eyes forever
When the pain is gone, and I'm once more strong
The decay of your love will encompass me.....

2012-06-23T09:09:00.001-07:00

You
came into my life on a simple way
Told me you love me almost everyday
Showed me happiness and made me smile
I started to love you after awhile.

My wish is that our love may never die
I wished that from the day we gave us a try
When I woke up this morning you were on my mind
Love you completely although they say love is blind.

Forever yours that's how I feel
I trust you completely for real.

so sorry

2010-10-03T10:25:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to say,

but I am sorry.

I didn't know how much you mean to me,

and I didn't know you really even cared.

I thought it was all a game,

and I guess I was wrong.

You know I have been hurt before,

and it all seemed so wrong.

I knew you had my heart.

I did not know I had yours.

I never meant to break it,

and if I could change what happened I know I would.

I love you like I've never loved anyone before.

You weren't only my love,

but you were my friend as well.

I never meant to hurt you, my dear,

and I am sorry if I did.

My heart belongs to you,

and that will never change.

My love for you is strong, my dear,

and it keeps growing every day.

Keep your head high, my dear,

and never let it fall.

I do truly love you, dear,

and I know I always will.

I hope to be together again someday, my dear,

and then you will know,

that I really do love you so.

CaN i TrUsT u....?

2010-10-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

If i was in trouble
and didn't know what to do
if i needed help
could i turn to you?
when i feel so down,
never felt so blue.
and even though our fights are few,
just let me know,
can i trust you?
could i tell you my secrets?
could i stay with you?
could i feel safe from harm
when i'm in your in arms?
i just want to know,
could i feel for you?
could i tell you my dreams?
or would you laugh?
could i tell you the full story?
or only half?
if i told you i loved you
would you say ' i love you too '
can i ask you now before i get hurt,
could you feel for me too?

You Are My Everything.........

2010-10-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

When we first fell in love
I thought that nothing could compare
To the magical romance
That you and I had come to share.

But as time passed, feelings deepened,
And our closeness grew
The romance turned into
A real and lasting love with you.

You care for me in all the ways
I want and need so much.
I’ve felt your warmth and tenderness
With every word and touch.

I know I can depend on you
For support and honesty,
That patient understanding
That you always give to me.

There’s a special kind of happiness
That only love can bring,
And I’ve found that happiness with you...
You are my everything.

I don't know what he really feels about me..

2010-10-01T08:10:00.000-07:00

Why can't he just tell me how he feel, because how he act is confusing me.
He walk by me like I'm no one, he smile at me like I'm anyone,he hug me like I'm someone... but kiss, the way he kiss me, its as if I'm the only one...

--How can I tell what does he really feels about me.?

He's in the marine corp. He's in the infantry, very dangerous position..

He's such a gentleman,very respectful,witty, and a nice guy.

He said he likes my company, he loves to kiss me and he said he likes me. But whenever I try to show him I like him too he acts like he doesnt like me and sometimes trying to avoid me.. IT'S VERY CONFUSING BECAUSE i REALLY LIKE HIM A LOT.

what is he trying to tell me exactly?

its hard to say goodbye to someone

2010-08-07T11:35:00.000-07:00

its hard to say goodbye to someone

that someone that is always on your mind

to someone who makes you happy

to someone who makes your life so easy

but if you continue being away with him

what do you think is best to do

to walk away?or let your heart

hold on to falls hope

love is not an easy thing to deal

you must always be prepared

to let go to move on and to trust

and if this thing called love stays in you

and the feeling so strong will be with you

you can choose between letting go and holding on

but for me what i choose is for common good

i know it will hurt me trillion times

but for me this is the best thing to do

no regrets of letting someone go

because i know he will be happy

and he will be loved

by someone i trusted to do so

because i will be happy too with what i choose to do

good bye my love take care

we will see each other somewhere in time

so this is goodbye

a very difficult words

but we know love will bring us back

in time where we can be together

goodbye babe

you will be okay

she will take care of you

not the same way that i did but her own best way

2010-08-02T11:33:00.001-07:00

I Still Feel Yew In Air
I Look Up As A Tear Rolls Slowly Down My Cheek
I Think About Better Days And Wonder If I'll Feel That Way
Again. You Look At Me With Those Eyes I Know So Well
Always Serious, So Deep And Insightful
As Though You're Always In Control But Not Today Not Now
Now You Look So Scared Like For Once You Don't Have The
Answer. I Gaze At You Looking Deep Into Those Hazel Eyes
Hoping To Understand Why You've Said Those Things You
Did I Wonder For A Moment If This Is All A Dream
If I Shall Wake In The Morning And Be Relieved
You Look At Me With A Confusion I Have Never Seen
Slowly Pull Me Towards You And Wipe The Tears From My
Cheek.Suddenly In The Distance, A Shadow Appears,
A Tear Rolls Down My Face And The Image Is Clear.

I can't remember me....

2010-08-02T11:05:00.000-07:00

I don't contemplate the future
I can't recollect the past
Lost in the land of limbo
In a time that may not last

The days now pass before me
In an alternating blur
Confusion reigns within me
For a past thats lost somewhere

I know I am, for I exist
The photographs don't lie
Pictures of a life now lost
But I don't remember why

I see a new life every hour
In a place thats not the same
No hint of recognition
For turmoil is to blame

I write these words upon this page
For others now to see
But don't ask me if I wrote them
As I can't remember me

In the dark with the music on....

2010-08-02T10:26:00.000-07:00

In the dark with the music on
i reflect on this life of mine
and the emptiness only your eyes have
that only knows how to b i t ch and whine

and those hands, your beautiful hands
there the only part of you i know
we connected so many times
that i almost savor every blow

and that heart of yours
that refuses to beat
and the hate in your eyes
my only defeat

how the chains you have on me
break into my skin
I'm bleeding, I'm bleeding
but only from within

and even if i were free
id cling just the same to you
these chains don't need to be visible
i know what I'm trained to do

id cry and beg
but in the end i would stay
this weak heart of mine
cant bear to betray

so forever and ever
ill push and ill shove
i promise never to abandon
i wont give up on love!

Within my book of memories.

2010-06-12T07:00:00.000-07:00

Within my book of memories,
Are special thoughts of you.
And all the many nice things
You often say and do -

As I turn the pages,
And recall each single thought,
I realize the happiness
That knowing you has brought.

There are memories of the times we've shared
Both bright and sunny days.
There are memories of your kindness
And your friendly thoughtful ways.

There are memories of all those notes,
we would write back and forth,
When we would just get together,
And talk of this or that.

And when I recall these memories
As I go along life's way,
I find they grow more precious still
With every passing day.

i Hide my tears wen i say ur nme..!!

2010-05-14T07:10:00.000-07:00

i Hide my tears wen i say ur nme..!!

bt da pain in my heart still same...!!

Although I Smile & seem carefree..!!

dere Iz no1 whO miSses u more den me.!!

It HurTzz, Wen u Talk
WiD sUm1 else..
nt to mEh..!!

It Hurtzz mOre, Wen Sum1
maKe u Smile & i Can't..!!

It HurTzz mOre Wen
u Say "I LOVE YOOH"
To Sum1 elSe...!!

Not To Meh..!!