We barely touched, as if being watched...

HI again!

2012-02-07T15:12:00.001+08:00

Single pa rin ako ngayon haha. After nung nangyari last year, I haven't been able to update my blog, as if kung may nagbabasa noh? hahaha

Nangyari ang nangyari

2011-06-02T16:17:00.004+08:00

Yup, had a relationship with a married woman. Almost for a month. Yup she's still my co-worker so ang hirap diba? Getting support from my friends, and I'm really lucky, may support cast ako. And they were really glad I ended it.

I'm moving on, though when i speak to her, flashback of memories come, but I try to stop thinking about them, kasi its useless, and its for the better, and its for myself.

Hindi ko naman siya pwedeng hindi kausapin, kasi sa work eh. Sa kanya, she just became "bato(numb)" again, so yun. We're casual in the office.

I'll never enter this mess again, mahirap!

But I can smile now :)

So wag papatol sa may asawa ha!

The Radio Dept. Live in Manila!

2011-04-12T10:49:00.001+08:00

Yup that's true! Awesome, a birthday treat for myself. Its on April 20 at the Hard Rock Cafe. See you there!

Depression Mode

2011-04-08T13:44:00.002+08:00

Bad trip. Nahuhulog na talaga ang loob ko sa kanya. Akala ko kaya ko ng wala lang, wala lang pag holding hands kami, or pag tatawagin niya ako sa "love" names namin. Pero hindi ko pala kaya. In the first place talo naman talaga ako, makipag laro ka naman ba ng apoy sa may asawa na.

Hindi ko alam kung paano nalaglag ang loob ko sa kanya. Ang purpose ko lang naman talaga noon eh tulungan siya, dahil stale yung marriage nila. As she would also describe herself, para siyang "bato", na wala ng nararamdaman. I wanted her to feel alive again, I want her to feel that she is loved and needed. And in return, I realized too, I need to feel that I am loved, and needed too. Kaya minsan, I expect things that I will never get from her, like commitment and love, she can't completely give that.

Officemate ko siya, so ang hirap iwasan ng situation. How can I say, don't be sweet anymore?! It will all be awkward after that. Fuck. Bad trip talaga. We can maybe be professionals na lang and go on with our work, pero ang hirap maging ganon.

I'm gaining weight again, bad trip talaga. Frustrated ako sa sarili ko. Wala ako sa focus. I'm not moving forward. I don't want to hurt her feelings, maybe I'll try not being sweet anymore, sana maintindihan niya, or I'll just talk to her. Mahal ko na siya, that's why I'm acting weird. Ang tanong eh kung mahal ba niya ako haha. Pagtatawanan ko lang sarili ko sa huli.

SO wag na kayong manlandi ng may asawa. Mahirap. Walang pupuntahan.

Radio Dept. in Manila?!

2011-03-29T10:53:00.001+08:00

Well, rumor has it, and they'll be performing at Hard Rock Cafe in Glorietta 4. I hope this pushes through!

2011-03-02T17:54:00.000+08:00

I'm having feelings towards a married woman. CRAP.

Lying to myself right now.

2011-03-02T10:30:00.001+08:00

And to the whole world.

Mang Inasal

2011-02-09T14:38:00.002+08:00

Crap, I've had 3 cups of rice this lunch. Damn Mang Inasal. Chicken is so delicious.

180.5

2011-02-03T16:17:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year. I wish it was a holiday today. Gonna grab mcdo sundae.

181.5

2011-02-01T10:37:00.003+08:00

Busy. Really busy. Celebrated my sister's birthday last weekend. Training has been really hard. Even diet. Discipline. Started the one rice per day policy again. My body has adjusted already. It's either morning or lunch I add rice to my meal. Evenings, either veggies, a bit of meat or cereals and fruits.

Last week, a bus exploded that killed 18 people. That week also, 10 construction workers fell of from a building from 22nd floor down to 7th floor.

Consider yourself to be lucky.

Bum Mode

2011-01-10T08:59:00.000+08:00

Just brought our car to CASA for repair. Plan to bum the whole day haha

Miss, para kang eyeglasses ko: I can see my world clearer with you.

2011-01-05T12:12:00.001+08:00

182

2011-01-05T09:34:00.002+08:00

My Ubuntu is now working but I am not able to switch to the normal effects display as a preference, even though compiz-check has no errors.

My back was aching a little this morning. I had intermittent sleep last night, waking up in between dreams. Might be the alcohol or something.

I was able to visit my thesis adviser yesterday, with positive results. (It's about our DSS algorithm)

182

2011-01-04T14:37:00.003+08:00

Just had a fresh Ubuntu install of my office box. Currently downloading graphic packages for graphic effects. I still need to install stuff like mp3 players, update flash players etc.

Started year @182 lbs. (actually, there was a point when my weight was 175 lbs. last November I think.)

Not to fret though. I'll lose more this year.

2010-12-30T13:31:00.001+08:00

It's a good thing I can still handle myself whenever she touches me or smiles at me. Ahhh.

2010-12-13T16:59:00.001+08:00

Dang its Christmas! :)

2010-11-10T08:20:00.001+08:00

Disarray.

Dear Darla

2010-10-21T09:22:00.003+08:00

I had the opportunity to try Yellow Cab's Dear Darla Pizza last Tuesday night. My friend asked me if I had tried the "dear darla" pizza, and I said, what? Dear Darla? What's that? And she said, you'll like it. So we had it delivered to her place and at first I was confused. Yes, confused. It's a normal pizza, but there were leafy vegetables inside a box. So my friend placed the leafy veggies on top of the pizza in a linear way. I mean it occupied to pizzas. Then she gently rolled it. You can dip it on the oily something stuff or put the oily something stuff on top of the veggies before you roll it. And as she was doing it, I said, "ah".

I was excited for my first bite. She handed it to me and it felt like just eating pita bread wraps only smaller. It was good. I ate 2/3 of the pizza hehe (It was only the 10-inch size) My friend was also a small eater. Heck it was late. My mouth was a bit itchy because of the shrimp though, or some other stuff on Yellow Cab's sea food pizzas.

You should try it.

It's been a while...

2010-10-19T09:41:00.004+08:00

...since I last posted something here.

I was reunited with my college friend when we bumped each other on the gym. She started going there around 2008, while I was practically going there since I was college. I can say I'm still not over with my ex but it's improving though. When I see our pictures together, it makes me cry, but also happy that I know I have loved her. It's just a matter of time when I'm completely healed.

Ooh, had a weird walk with my office crush 2 weeks ago. We went to Makati Med just to check out the new building. Then we walked back where we started from and went on separate ways haha. We enjoyed it.

I've discovered new places to go after I have reunited with my college friend, and a lot of interesting stories. She's an adventurer. I find myself more of a "stick to where you are comfortable at" guy. But I'm opening more.

Had my dad's birthday. Mom went to Vietnam. Drove my lola to Laguna. 18th birthday of my cousin.

But I'm still not losing weight since 177 lbs. It would be a real challenge since Christmas is around the corner.

2010-09-23T16:09:00.000+08:00

Still stuck at 177!!!

Chocolate Fire

2010-09-07T08:53:00.002+08:00

Last Saturday, Kate and I got a chance to try the Belgian taste of Chocolate Fire. Well for me, it all tasted the same hehe. But their dark chocolate was really delicious. They boast their chocolate containing only natural ingredients (w/o preservatives) It was a bit expensive, with just one plate of various chocolate costs 750php. Not bad if you visit it once in two months or so. Or three months. haha. We were there around 4pm, finished around 7pm. A lot of talking. Got to know Kate a lot more :)

Chocolate Fire is located VA Rufino cor Leviste in Salcedo Village, Makati City.

single

2010-09-02T16:55:00.002+08:00

Being single. I get to have more time than usual. But I'm still adjusting. There are times I have "null" moments, like flashbacks whenever I go to a place that reminds me of her, or when I do things I usually do with her. Oh, she passed her board exams, and I am really happy for her. I cried when I learned that her friends and she passed. I know how they worked for their board exam.

Lord give me the strength when I'm weak. Thank you for all the blessings.

177.

Kamikazee - Narda (Acoustic Cover)

2010-09-02T11:37:00.000+08:00

It might be you acoustic cover instrumental

2010-08-27T10:26:00.000+08:00

2010-08-27T10:24:00.002+08:00

Really stuck at 178, for almost two weeks now. ARGH. Trying to trim food intake still. Change cardio routine maybe.