Love will never be out!

6th year anniversary

2012-11-03T16:25:00.004-07:00

Last Oct 28, 2012 we celebrated our 6^th year anniversary. We have a date that night. We went to the nature church in Mary Immaculate Parish Church riding my bike. It is one of the beautiful churches in Luzon, Philippines. That night I felt so blessed with the person beside me. I was thankful to God because he gave us a wonderful and fruitful relationship. After the mass my wife and I went to “Aling Lucies’ pancit eatery” to buy a Halo-halo. (Actually my wife is 4 months pregnant). Going back to my story, after we bought halo-halo, we went to SM south mall here in Las Piñas and ate in Tokyo-tokyo a tempura with rice. Unfortunately, I was the only one who enjoyed the food because my wife chose only what she wanted to eat .I believe its due to her pregnancy. Then, we decided to watch a movie entitled “Tiktik the aswang chronicles”, a horror? Or most likely an action movie. But it was scheduled at 9:30pm and we have one hour left to wait. We decided to go to a videoke room to sing a few songs while waiting for the movie. But because that night was already late, they were preparing to close the store and during the middle of the 1^st song which my wife chose to sing, the machine shot its power down. We were both disappointed to what happened, but it’s not enough to make our date a bad one. So we just decided to wait the movie at the entrance of the cinema 3 where the movie Tiktik was scheduled to play. The story of movie is about the arrogant but simply a romantic guy who fetches his pregnant girlfriend to her parents located on a far away province. On their way, they encountered a tribe of “Aswang” in a small village to buy a pig to make "lechon" (roasted pig) for the coming birthday celebration of his wife and for the coming birth of his child. The Aswang’s favorite food was a new born baby, that’s why they planned to get the baby on its mother's womb. I know we are celebrating our 6^th year anniversary and we shouldn't watch that kind of movie but we both wanted to. It's not a romantic one but it was a good Filipino movie. When we decided to go home then, the entire mall was closed for it was already past 11:00 o’clock in the evening. We spend our day and night happy together and we know that for the next years of our relationship, we will have a romantic celebration to spend with.

fall in love from falling out of love!

2011-06-08T04:14:00.000-07:00

"It is remarkable fact that while millions of men and women have no difficulty in falling in love, at least half of that number seem unable to stay in love.."

These words really shocked me and seemed to have penetrated in my whole being. At the time I have read this, I was so depressed about my relationship with my husband... He's the one that all I ever wanted ever since, yet, after years of our marriage and adjustment period, I'm still not happy with him. This is not what I dreamed of. Although he's a good man, a responsible husband and a father, I can't understand why I feel like, "I wish he was the guy I usually see on romantic movies I have watched." There are times that I wanna hear him saying how much he loved me or how do I look good in his eyes, or does he still feels the same way now as the first time when he married me. He would say, " of course I did.....don't you know that? " words that I can't feel. I feel very empty.. confused and a little sad. I wanna feel the spark of love that they are saying but I guess I need to do something to make it happen. I have to find the answers to my own questions before I got drown into somebody else's arms.

Well, I guess God really heard my concerns when I happened to drop by in a bookstore. I found a wonderful book that changed my life. I learned a lot of things. Things that brought me to take a look back in the past.I was so surprised to realize that I was so wrong . All this time, I thought it was my husband's fault why I'm like this. To my belief, he's the very reason why I felt this way.. that he was the one to blame. I realized that I was so unfair. I want to be appreciated but I never did that to him. I want to hear him say how beautiful I am in his eyes but I never complimented his dashing looks. I know how the girls in his office wanted him so much, but I never saw it. I have also forgotten how he makes my heart jump whenever he holds me tight and caresses me.How he makes my day so happy for just a smile coming from him. How he laughed to my corny jokes and listened to the story of my life..how he helped me to smile when I don't feel good. How he changed my life and become a better person.How he loved me in spite of my mood swings, craziness and being a not- ideal-wife...

From that day on, I promised myself to try to look on his face and see him in a different way. I tried to look only the good things about him and not to compare him with other man in my dreams.I should be able to focus only unto him and no one else. I also tried to lessen my work load just to be with him.

At first, it was very difficult to get the same response that I wanted. It came to the point that I almost surrendered but as time goes by, he had also changed little by little and turned into a more beautiful and a lovable person. I can feel now how much he appreciates me and how he loved me so much even in our intimacy...

Truly, an agape love (selfless love) is very hard.. But the fruit of it is self rewarding..If you wanted to be loved, you must prepare yourself to be hurt and even forget yourself for somebody whom you loved. After all, happiness can only be found if you worked hard for it!!

-lecaj-

Sino ako?

2011-06-06T19:38:00.000-07:00

Anu nga ba ang naghihintay sakin sa dulo ng kalyeng nilalakaran ko ngayon? San ba ang punta ng mga paa ko? Lahat ba ng ito ay may halaga? Masaya nga ba mamasyal ng mag-isa? Naglalakad ako sa mahabang kalye na hindi alam ang punta'. Napansin ko nalang na ang babaeng nakita kong umiiyak kanina sa tabi ng maliit na puno ng macopa ay nasa harapan ko ulit ngayun. Umiiyak at kitang kita ang lungkot at pagdurusa. Sa di ko malamang dahilan tinanong ko siya, "bakit ka umiyak? Ano ang problema?" Ngunit tahimik lang siya at sa halip matatamis na ngiti lang ang sinagot nya sa akin. Mapanlinlang na ngiti na aakalain mong tunay. Pero ang mga ngiting iyon ay nababalot ng pait, isang ngiting nawawalan ng laya. Tumalima ako sa aking paligid, napansin ko na paikot ikot lang pala ako sa daang nilalakaran ko. Na kahit anong bilis ng takbo ang gawin ko, ganun at ganun parin ang tanawin sa paligid ko. Nakakapagod, nakakulong ako sa isang magandang mundo, punong puno ng magagandang tanawin. Mga bulak-lak, at makukulay na paru-paru ang nasa paligid. Isang mundong hindi mo gugustuhing lisanin. Ngunit sa mundong ito nagkukubli ang isang damdaming makasarili, masikip at unti unting nawawalan ng hangin. Hangin na kailangan upang mabuhay ang kahit na sinong nilalang ang mapapad-pad sa mundong ito. Kailangan ko ng lumabas upang lumanghap ng sariwang hangit. Hindi lang basta kailangan ko, kundi gusto ko! tama' gusto ko! Gusto ko nang lumabas dito. Ayoko ng maramdamang nakakulong ako. Nakakulong sa mundong noong una ay minahal ko, ngunit ngayon ay gusto kong takbuhan at tumakas para sa kalayaan naman.

Noong una, Masasayang tanawin lang ang nakapaloob sa mundo kung saan ako naroon. Masasayang ngiti na unti unting nilamon ng makasariling damdamin. Ngiti na ikinulong sa maliit na mundo, ngiti na hindi nasisilayan ng iba, ngiti na noong una ay totoo. Mahal ko ang mundong pinaranas mo sa akin, ngunit pano ako mabubuhay dito kung tinatanggalan mo ng hangin. Tinayuan mo ng matataas na pader, itinatago mo ako sa mundong nilikha ng iyong damdamin. Nakakapagod' paulit ulit nalang. Unti unting binabago mo ang tunay kong pagkatao, pagkatao na siyang minahal mo naman. Pagkatao na ngayon ay naghihingalo dahil sa masikip mong paghawak. Gusto ko ng kalayaan. Pwede mo naman ako mahalin ng hindi mo ko nasasaktan.

Ngayon, gusto ko nang magpaalam. Aalis na ko sa mundo mong mapanlinlang. Mahal kita ngunit hindi ko alam kong hanggang kailang masaya. Gusto ko naman huminga, babawiin ko lang and dating ako. Kung mahal mo talaga ako.. Hayaan mo naman ako magpahinga, hahanapin ko lang ang sarili ko, hahanapin ko ang nawala kong pagkatao... = (

Sino na nga ba ako???

I'm Captured

2011-06-02T18:25:00.000-07:00

The first time I heard this song, her pictures flashed on my mind and fell in love again. I remember her smile, her laugh and the way she loves me, the way she is. It's a wonderful feeling that I don't want to lose it ever. I LOVE YOU Bee...

Stop background music first before you play this video

One of my perfect birthday

2011-02-05T16:32:00.000-08:00

Feb 05, 2011

Yesterday, the day after my birthday, my family and I hang out together. We strolled our daughter and took her in her first experience watching a cinema. It's the walt disney movie entitled Tangled. For me, it's my greatest experience ever, because it is also our 1st time to watch a 3D movie. It's not about the movie or watching in a 3D cinema that I really wanted. It's more about the bonding and the moment I spent together with them. It is one of my perfect birthday celebration I ever had.It's very simple yet, meaningful. Our relationship as a family is my precious treasure. I'm sharing this to you because I want to express how I felt when I am with my family. Most especially my wife. Even sometimes I don't know how to express how much she's important to me, I still want her presence right beside me. I love her the way she is. The very person who was created just for me, to live with for the rest of our life... Thank God for another precious gift...

Love even if it hurts

2010-12-14T16:29:00.000-08:00

Love even if it hurts, Love more even if it hurts more, Love most even if it hurts most...

Until theres no more hurts but LOVE....

-Mother Theresa

When we are in love, we do things just for our loved one even if it hurts us so much. If we are giving all while it hurts, it is a sign of Love. A great love to other people or to our someone special. We forgot our selves and we put someone we love first. Because no one says that being in love is always a glimpse of heaven. No one can says that when you love, it will be an unending happiness. Of course love can hurt us the most. But true and great love will put you on the happiest place in the world. It will put you on a pedestal that you don't want to leave anymore...
I believe that love is the only answer for a happy relationship and the secret on how to live peacefully together.So again, live and love!

Just my thoughts

2010-08-25T07:42:00.000-07:00

Going into a relationship or to have a partner,is like submitting yourself into pain; expect for doing more efforts and sacrifices. Sometimes you will be the one who'll fix the problems just to save the relationship even you feel like you didn’t do anything wrong as far as you know. Doing adjustments and making yourself to fit to the personality of each other is not an easy thing to do. You must be ready to serve and make yourself available for your partner when he/she needs you. You need to understand his/her ON and OFF tantrums or “MOODY” character.

On the other hand, the promises of love will leave you a feeling of an unexplainable happiness. Both of you will continue to make good memories and to have sweet bonding. Enjoying to hang out in different places, sharing every smiles and laughs and giving each other the sweetest words or thoughts. Being what you are without pretentions .. These are the most wonderful moments when we are in a relationship. A feeling that we will fight for just to have it and make it stay with us..

Sweet moments

2010-08-24T13:08:00.000-07:00

Romantic lovers are having so much attachment to each other. There are on the middle of hot romance, they always love to spend time together and have sweet moments, creating the world that nobodies there just two of them.

Love is the answer

2010-08-24T12:24:00.000-07:00

We have our own problems, different problems that sometimes the only answer is
LOVE.

Change for better! learn how to adjust for your partner, because you will always different person. Have different likes and dislikes and have different definition of happiness.

Moment of depression

2010-08-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

I'm lost of words right now. I don't even know how will I start a piece of an article that everyone can relate with my thoughts. How can I say that life is full of miracles, full of mysteries, and full of love. How can I say to you that being who you are is a gift from heaven that might someone can kill or to die for just to have a life like yours. How can I tell you that, hey! enjoy your life, be thankful for what you have right now. Dream for better and do your best just to achieve it. Because even I have a lot of questions in my mind that I don't even know what those questions really are. All I know in life is you have to allow your self to go on with the flow of life, submit your self for whatever will happen tomorrow. Enjoy for what you have and be a blessing to other people in your own ways. Love your neighbor, have concern for the interest of others. Be sensitive to the feelings of someone. And I am telling you that doing good things through your journey makes your life more meaningful.

Sometimes there will be sad moments in our life that what all we need is to be alone and think ,reminisce the past and bring back the pain and sorrows or feel the happiness that is caused by yesterday. These moments might be helpful as a stepping stone. Use it to build a new strength and strive for more. Make a new beginning and face the reality. And to make you understand that yesterday is over, it's already been done. Whatever you have yesterday,was already gone and today is different. Don't live in the past, you need to continue your life and face the day with whole of you. Don't think of ending everything. Because still!, there are people whose waiting for you. Stand again and do steps for moving on. There are still people, hoping and loving you continuously. Waiting for you to see your smile again and hear your laugh. Waiting for your presence and show what you really are, they might miss you so much.

After the moment of depression don't forget to remember a thousand of reasons to smile and continue, because those reasons are just in front of you. Learn to appreciate what you have. The love you're looking for is still in your hands. Stop for a while and look for it, close your eyes and begin to feel...

Always there!

2010-08-03T11:25:00.000-07:00

Friends are always there for us. Even we never see each other, and there are no communications at all, but when we have a chance to see each other again and bring back the old times--our friendship will grow even if times passes by. Every laugh, smile and happy moments together as friends and families will remain forever. Brothers and sisters, a friends whose sensitive of everyone's feeling. Being concerned for the welfare of everyone. Sometimes we have misunderstandings and hurt each others feelings by saying painful words and showing wrong actions or decisions, but it can be settle-out by good conversations or nice talks. Friends can fight and defend if anyone is in trouble. Can offer their hands to help everyone until their capacities. Always there to support and understand. Can show their care as a friend in times of self pity. A friend who can smile when you are happy, can laugh when you are glad and can cry with you when you are lonely. Always there to correct your mistakes, accept the whole of you are. They never put you at wrong way instead they guide you. Always there to listen to your problems. To share laughing moments together, ready to walk with you in good times even bad times. A friend who walks in when the rest of the world walks out... I miss you all!...

Wake up!

2010-08-02T23:32:00.000-07:00

Love is mysterious. We never know why we love someone even though he/she don't love us back!. This is the magic of love, we doing our best just for our love one. We do more extra efforts just to hook their attention, to inform to them that there's someone like us whose falling in-love. A person who can do everything. Can offer time, care, attention and love. But all of this is nothing, not enough. Even how we make perfect every efforts that we offer to our love ones, but still not effective. Even to the point that we have been forget our self. And it leave us alone with wondering, dreaming and failure. Loving in a right way is not a crime, Like to love someone without expecting in return and give and give beyond our limit. It should be this way. But know when to stop!. Because this person might not enough for the love that we can offer, and we deserve to be happy by someone's arm, we deserve to be better.

We only need is to accept the reality that the person who we really love is not the person who meant for us. Because we never push our self to be part of their world, to be as their partner, to be as their love one; hopefully!. And because of this, we might miss the good stuff around. We never see the person like us who can offer for us what we can offer for someone. We might miss the chances or the person who really destined for us and can give what we looking for. I personally believe that every living thing in this world have their own destiny, have their own partners.

Sometimes we need to wake up for dreaming and stop the fantasies created by our mind. Because we need to live in a real world, in reality. Don't search for the person who destined for us. Because love comes in a right way, right place and right time...

Memories of you

2010-08-02T15:54:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I wonder if you are thinking about me. Ever since the day we have went our separate ways my life has felt so incomplete, I don't feel the same without you in my life. Things feel out of place and tend to never be right. Ever since the day I met you I've always carried a miraculous smile on my face. And now that you are gone. My smile has lost it's place. You are something special. Someone I have never met before. And the more that I think of you. I start to miss you even more. I guess I need you here by my side. To give me comfort and to make me feel whole. To bring that smile I once used to wear. To provide me with memories we both can share. I wish you were here so I can hold you in my arms. To keep you close and to keep my heart warm. You were like my angel and to me you still are. You've made me feel hope and healed my scars. Thank you for all the memories, Ms. Hello Kitty, Ice Cream, The Places, The Church, and for the unforgettable moments we shared.I just want to forget you but memories of you invade my heart...

by: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia

Answered Prayer

2010-08-01T10:24:00.001-07:00

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

These saying gave a big impact in my life. I was only 17 when I met this guy in college. He’s 24 years old, good looking and very sweet. When he courts me, I didn’t think twice, I gave my answer to him. We’ve been so in love. I thought no one’s gonna separate us. He even asked me to marry him. But I was so young that time. He told me that he will wait for me until I reached 18, until that day came. It was a big nightmare of my life.

I have my class that day but my professor didn’t came so I rashly went out to the door and go to my BF’s pad which is only a walking distance from our school. As I reached his pad, his maid open the door for me and shocked that I was there. I asked him about my BF and she told me that he’s in the room with another girl. I hurriedly went to his room and found out that it was true. What hurts me most is that the girl he was having an affair is my best friend which is also his cousin’s girl. It really breaks my heart. I broke up with him that day.

I thought it was the end of my life. I really love the guy but he betrayed me. I told my sister that I won’t be able to love again but she told me its part of life. You will not know what really love is when you didn’t experienced getting hurt. From then on, I know that someday, the right guy will come into my life.

After a year, I got hook on “chat world”. I had Bf’s on “chat” or “ym” but I’m not serious on it because I know that nothings serious on chat world. I was just enjoying myself for me to forget what happen. But I didn’t know that one of my Bf in chat is serious with me. One time, he surprised me in school with flowers and teddy bear. I didn’t know him until he approached me and introduced himself to me. I was so overwhelmed because he travels for two hours just to meet me in person. I gave myself a chance to know the guy. I don’t love him but still gave him the chance to prove that he is worthy for my love.

As time goes by, I fell in love with him and didn’t expect that he will love me that much in return. I love him every single day of my life. He’s the man I’ve been dreaming of. He’s my best friend, my lover, my shock absorber, a good listener and a good adviser. He’s my everything. We've been together for 6 years now and I’m happy and contented with him although we don’t see each other that much but I know in my heart that someday, we will live our lives together. I prayed for a long time to find someone like him. Someone willing to fight for me, someone to make me smile and someone who I know truly loves me. Now I know that I already have an answered prayer. God really knows my heart’s desire. I thank God for giving him in my life.

by: Karla Alarcon Asonio

Sorry...

2010-07-30T07:42:00.000-07:00

My love, I'm so sorry for being a baggage for you to carry, I'm sorry for the times that you thought I ignore you but truly I'm not. Sorry if I don't understand your point when we get arguments, for the painful words that I accidentally say to you but really I don't mean it! I'm just angry. Sorry for the promises that I make when I am happy but take this for granted, nonetheless, I do my very best to make those happen. For the times you think I don't care about you but in my heart I really do. Sorry If I don't know how to show my love for you the way you want. My love for you is overflowing like the water in pail when it is full, there's so much drops of water that hard to catch with these simple hands. Even how I close my hands, I still cannot hold them all. Maybe I don't know how to express this feelings in a right way but I really love you so. I'm sorry if I act like a child whose only want in life is to play, maybe sometimes I forgot that I am already a man, thanks for understanding me even I go beyond your limit. Thanks for being there for me to remind me for what I really am, for what I should be. I am happy to stay by your side for a life time, to have more moments with you, to share sweet moments and to face our problems together. To hold still into our promises and vows. To express the God's gift in our life as husband and wife, as a partner, for richer or for poorer.
Please do extend your limitations for the kind of partner like me, I promise to you that my love and the whole I am will stay by your side forever, to grow old with you. I do love you not for the rest of your life but for the rest of mine. I love you!...

August Couple

2010-07-29T17:57:00.000-07:00

Naiza Anciano and Youseph Clemente

♥Naizeph♥

Jeff: How long did you spend time together?

Naiza: almost everyday

Jeff: Where did you meet each other?

Naiza: At the church

Jeff: How do you love each other?

Naiza: so much

Jeff: What is the worst problem did you encounter in your relationship?

Naiza: may flirt na gurl na papansin thru txt

Jeff: What is your message to Youseph?

Naiza: Stay honest and sweet to me and me also will be do the same.

Jeff: Thanks for joining for this kind of activity. Always remember that there will be times that you will feel cold to each other. Your love will be unclear and you will think that everything is over!, there are troubles and trials that is bigger more than a flirt girl!. But don't forget your memories, the sweet moments, the promises and the dreams that you build together. Because those are the tools for you to at least bring back the love inside that once upon a time, you shared together. Always do efforts without expecting in return, never forget to tell your partner and make them feel about the real feelings inside you before the end of the day. Love each other and I hope you will be together for a life time. Stay sweet and God Bless...

It should be this way

2010-07-28T06:43:00.000-07:00

What is the true purpose of love to everyone's life? in my own words love will complete the life of everyone, it is a wonderful gift from God. Sometimes it hurt us and make us cry and get so much pain in our hearts, but it brings happiness and undefinable feelings. It is the bridge of two hearts, the language of attachment and attractions of two people. It gives a thousand of reasons and meaning for everyone's life, the purpose of everything. The reason of living. Love is powerful, priceless!. The true love will give and give until to limit without expecting in return but you're happy and fulfilled while doing these things. It is a kind of job like doing good deeds to others which brings joy and happiness inside.
Love makes us a brand new person, better than the past. It should be always a wonderful feelings and emotion. It teach us how to sacrifice, how to forgive and to forgets.

One More Moment

2010-07-27T17:15:00.000-07:00

Just this one moment I ask this from you,
just one more time to show you my love is true.
I will set aside all the word of anger you have said,
just grant me this last place in time before I am dead.
I will not proclaim the hate I feel inside,
let me hold you close and have you be at my side.
You left me when I needed you the most.
In tears I begged you to come just this one last time,
forget your hate and I will forgive your crime.
Take my hand like you have done before,
see into my dieing eyes and see into my heart’s core.
I have loved no other like I have ever loved you,
now life has set its stage for me and I know what I must do.
My body weakens and my spirit can now be laid to rest,
for lover, friend and mate you are the very best.
I close my eyes and whisper these last words to you,
for I have and will always love you.

by: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia

Just believe!

2010-07-26T22:29:00.000-07:00

Walang sinuman ang pwedeng magsabi kung in-love ba talaga ang tao, may mga signs pero need ng complete confirmation at isa pa nararamdaman ng partner nia!. Ang love hindi kailangan ng kontrata o ng kahit na anung documents para mapatunayan lang, sometimes you need to believe nalang sa partner mo sa mga kaya nyang sabihin sayo. Mga pangakong kahit alam nating hindi naman talaga 100% na mag-grant but at least may panghahawakan sa relasyon. Stop analyzing things, hayaan mo lang mangyari ang lahat sa kung anong dapat mangyari! I-enjoy mo yung moment na magkasama kayo. That's the magic of love, to believe even sometimes its unbelievable. Wag mong bantayan ang kilos ng partner mo! hayaan mong alagaan ka nya sa paraang alam nya. Kung meron mang dapat syang baguhin maging dahilan ka para sa pagbabago nia. Ang mahala kung ano yung nararamdaman mo. Ibigay mo lahat ng kayang mong ibigay para sa partner mo. Masasaktan ka, iiyak at darating yung time na feeling mo parang wala ng bukas pero kahit ganun masasabi mo naman sa sarili mo na nagmahal ka lang naman ng tama. Wala kang "what if", kasi alam mong binigay mo ang lahat para pagbigyan ang luho ng puso mo na hindi mo naman masisisi dahil nagmamahal...

Tunay na mahal!

2010-07-26T16:50:00.000-07:00

Oo nga! hindi lahat ng bagay na gustuhin mo ay mapapasayo. Naniniwala ako na lahat tayo ay may nakalaan para satin, hindi lang natin alam kung kelan darating at kung papano. At minsan kailangan mong pagsikapan ito para makuha at kung talagang para sayo, magiging sayo!. Pero madalas yung mga bagay na hinahanap mo para makapag-pasaya sayo eh nasa kamay mo na pala hindi mo lang napapansin... kasi, "TANGA" ka!, oo tama TANGA ka!. Pero me pag-asa kapa kz hindi naman totoo na walang gamot sa taong TANGA, meron din pero hindi ito yung klase ng gamot na nabibili sa botika o nirereseta ng doktor. Ang tanging gamot lang sa pagka-tanga eh tanggapin mo sa sarili mo. Kasi kung alam mo na! ikaw mismo ang gagamot sa sarili mo para sa susunod na mga araw maitama mo ang mga pagkakamali mo noon. Marealize na kaya mo pa pala na maging masaya ulit sa buhay mo, na dati naging masaya ka naman sa kung anung meron ka pa ngayon. "Ang halaga ng isang bagay ay malalaman mo lang pag wala na". kaya alamin mo na ang halaga ng mga bagay na nasayo ngaun habang nandyan pa sila at nahahawakan, habang pwede mo pang mahalin at tawaging sayo.

Dahil baka dumating yung time na sobrang pagsisihan mo yung mga araw na sinayang mo na kasama pa siya. Wag mong gamitin ang pride sa relasyon kasi wawasakin lang nito ang maraming pagkakataon na sana pwede ka naman maging masaya kung nagpakababa ka para sa mahal mo, eh mahal mo naman eh.

Papayag ka bang maging ganun nalang matapos ang lahat ng bagay na pinangarap mo noon at pinagsikapan para makuha?. Wag! kung meron pang natitirang pagmamahal dyan sa puso mo, na kahit na yung pagmamahal nayon eh kurot nalang at least kahit papano meron paring reason para kumilos ka at i-save yung kaya pang i-save. Panghawakan hanggang sa manumbalik sana yung pagmamahal na manaka-naka mo nalang nararamdaman. Marealize yung totoong value ng taong kasama mo, dahil yung taong kasama mo sya pala talaga ang nakatadhana sayo para makasama habang buhay. Umiintindi, nagmamahal at naghihintay lang sayo...

Many days of knowledge

2010-07-25T18:55:00.000-07:00

There is many days of knowledge inside this heart of mine. A concrete love made frozen in the midst of time. This love i speak about carelessly crafting in world of chaos, exists in the linings of my lullaby to others. It just seems to be a fairytale gone and lost. Soaring high and flying low, it plays notes of melody upon this sky of blue with angelic voices singing along. The lines of gravity that love so beautiful. Soon my sky turns from blue to a gray then a black and my heart crumbles under the storm. It falls into pieces of many threats of heartache seemed so far away, but here they conquer now. Casting shadow like tumors upon the happiness i had and thrashing every bit into a hole of darkness. I see the pity on many eyes that i pass, just wanting to suffocate me into a swirling mixture of cloudness. Memories and deafening sobs of a throbbing heart. The greatest moments of time collapse upon each other and remain hidden in the overflowing closet of my lingering soul. I just created a fantasy once, Magical inside this confused mind that i used to own and now i suffer from delusional thoughts that you would be walking back into my life that once real. What remains now is the many days of knowledge inside this heart of mine. A broken love made healing by the midst of time.

by: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia

Three Words

2010-07-23T22:17:00.000-07:00

For all the pain I keep within,

Hiding it with fake smiles and tears of joy,

Yet the tears are of pain and my heart is nothing but dust,

Slowly being swept away each day I arise from my nightmare filled sleep,

Now everytime I hear her voice I want to die,

Because I know I'll never hear those three words again,

Yet the three words that haunt me, keep me alive,

I wish for everyday to be my last, this pain it eats me alive.

I can't stand this pain, I can't cry these tears,

I don't want to live anymore, but she keeps me alive,

My soul slowly fades each time i feel you in me,

I wish for two things, one is to die and the other is for you to be happy...

even if you can't find happiness in me anymore...

My love for you is destroying me,

I'm feeling like a candle burning away at both ends,

Only you can douse the flames of the wicks,

I'll never say these three words to anyone else... I love you

by: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia

Reaching out

2010-07-22T16:07:00.000-07:00

I tried to reach out and let you lift me
I lay back and I let you kiss me
But in my mind I was running in fear
I closed off my brain, couldn't let you near
And then I calmed down, opened my door
But you don't seem to want me like you did before
So yet again I've lost a chance
Again my fear has killed my romance
And so I'll sit there feeling alone
I'll text you when I'm on my way home
And hope you reply and show me you care
Tell me you wish you could have been there
Tell me you wish that I was with you
I'll smile and reply that I wish it too
Maybe I'm settling, maybe I'm cruel
But it woke something inside of me being with you
I'd give it a chance, a least have a try
Because I do actually like you, it isn't a lie.

by: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia

A dedicated love for Deokman

2010-07-22T15:40:00.000-07:00

I was living in my own world till you came,
A woman of stranger hiding all of its pain,
An occurrence of between your life and death,
Saving you is a choice to me that is left.

I don’t know why I had done this,
This is not me; this is not what I expect
But I know for sure this time I shouldn’t miss,
This is a chance of proving myself to a bunch of heck

As days passed by of knowing and helping you,
I am always with a feeling of something new,
Something that makes me follows through
Of your dreams, your worth and missions too.

When I am with you, I can do all things with conviction,
Foolishness may include but you accept me as I am,
I maybe confused, hurt and lacks attention,
But you’re there; making me feels like a man.

But how can I ever let you know,
I am falling for you so much even so?
That I cannot be just your loving friend,
When you’re in love with someone else?

I had to try it every time,
To hide the pain I feel inside,
I know to myself I cannot lie,
The way you caress him makes me die.

I know you can’t love me I know its not now
But Ill be here for you although you can’t be mine
If loving you could make me a promise vow,
I will wait for you till d end of time.

signed: Bidam

By: Jacel Estudillo Agaser

Last Words

2010-07-21T23:43:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry I cant be everything you want but no matter what I will always love you. I never believed love over the air but when I started to talk to you I fell started to feel things I have never felt. When I say I love you, I mean it, I swear on Gods name I love you so much I would cut 100 times for you. I never wanted you to get hurt so please don't cry over me with sorrow . when ever you feel alone you just play that song and get on with your life. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me and I mean that with all my heart. I will never love a girl like I love u. its amazing you have made me laugh and also blush. That's why I think I'm not good enough for u. everyday I close my eyes and tears come down to my face because I know I will never be the one you want and I will never be good enough for you . I cried so many times over you in a good way that is its so hard letting go of the one u love but u cant hold on to something forever, you see love is like a butterfly you hold it to tight it will crush, hold it to lose then it will fly free.
Well about a week after this you would have forgotten me, but I will never ever forget you and that is a promise. I am lost without you but when I think about you I start thinking good things about life. You will NEVER EVER understand how I feel about you because I can't describe it but if there was one word to describe you that would be a gift from above. Someday I cut and thinking about life was a mess but when I talk to you. I feel like everything is going right for me. swear to me!, you will never cry over me in sorrow or think all this was your fault because nothing of this is your fault. You are always in my mind, heart and soul for ever and ever...

By: Louie Cyril Braza Tonguia