M a T z H

Misplaced Trust

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 05:09:00 +0000

Misplaced is the trust..
Forgiven i will not..
What is left starts to rust..
The passion is now gone..

Why Should one believe..
When lies are being spoken..
In order for me to live..
In an empty house so broken..

Should depend only on myself..
Rather than empty words they say..
I need no ones help..
As the gap widens away..

Given Up

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 06 Oct 2009 05:06:00 +0000

One should depend one oneself instead of others..
Especially the ones you depend one are those who contradicts, fakers and liars..
Screw them and i give up on wanting to talk to them or have anything to do with them..
The only tolerance left in me is knowing have their blood following inside of me..

Zombified

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 01:21:00 +0000

Ever so slow..
As one loses his soul..
Emotions left behind..
At the time when you said goodbye..

Eyes which have lost it's shine..
To a body which has lost life..
Nothing left crowding the mind..
With no rhythm or rhyme..

The heart is bleeding..
But it has no feelings..
Numbness creeps to the hands and fingers..
As the pain no longer lingers..

There is no need for air..
Food is just left there..
I am a zombie rotting and dead..
As this is my end my fate..

Untitled

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 06:07:00 +0000

A distance glaze into the sunlight..
Awaiting for coldness of the night..
Crying silently in the dark..
Tears that flow from the heart..

Time stop in this empty space..
Dreams and hopes locked in a case..
Eyes look desperately for a sign..
Only sadness was all it finds..

Stop these rivers of tears..
Halt these thoughts of fears..
Taking steps into loneliness..
Hands grasping only emptiness..

Calling

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 04:22:00 +0000

Emotions flows within..
Just like a hurricane..
Trying to contain oneself..
As the sanity strings releases..
Waiting for your lease..
To free me from the depths..
Listen clearly right now..
As death is knocking on the door..
Regrets and sadness has no meaning anymore..
A simple opening..
To find one's calling..

Lullaby

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 02:41:00 +0000

Sing you a song..
A lullaby..
To help you to sleep..
Through the night..
May time flows swiftly..
As you sleep..
Dreams prayed for you..
Gentle and sweet..
Mistakes i have done..
Cruel and sad..
To the one i love..
Disappointments and upset..
Contented at this moment..
with what i have..
To salvage and save..
what little is left

Gratitude.

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 09:44:00 +0000

As time goes by.. i know my mental state is not of peak condition.. nor is it of rational thinkin.. i jux wan to thank my dear for ever so patient with my unstable emotions.. really thank you for ur love and care during this stage of time.. in time we will see who i really am... =) love ya my sweet dear.. =)

Scars

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 08:27:00 +0000

Scars and trauma litter through the path as i walked by..
Battle after battle leaving me more and more tired..
As i struggled to hold on to my receding sanity in my mind..
My strength and hope slowly drains and dries..
Soon one day my legs will walk on no more..
Only to choose to sit and rest forever..
Nothing left for me to see or fight for..
I refuse to lose to these battles cries..
On this broken path i seek my salvation..

Muddled

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 03 Aug 2009 04:00:00 +0000

Confusion grows as the heartbeats in rhythms of 2..
Frustrations grew as the unsettling thoughts move..
These are not simple choices or pickings..
And when one can't trust one's feelings..
Anxiety and time isn't helping!

Walk with me

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 09:00:00 +0000

Always there for you..
Given u my heart that never stops..
Fulfilling your dreams and wishes..
Walk with me by side..
Down this path of darkness..
Clutching you in my arms..
With patience and time..
I will show you the clear blue sky..
Puffy white clouds and sunlight..
Where the warm breeze brushes by your skin..
With you and me walking side by side..
Till the end of time..

Change

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 20 Jul 2009 02:18:00 +0000

Things happens sometimes for a reason..
Either it's a sign for you to change for the better..
Or u just repeat the same cycle again..

Going Crazy..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 03:51:00 +0000

I am goin crazy le.. barely holding on to the threads i call sanity.. help..

Weekend - Little Happiness

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 03:45:00 +0000

Weekend was enjoyable and relaxing.. went to the National museum with dear on sat.. it was first time for her and well been a while for me since i last stepped in.. it's great to visit it again.. sadly we have not gotten ard to buy a camera.. haha.. so we randomly took snapshots on our fail camera phone.. there are 2 galleries to view.. living - where all the history of current things ard us are dispaly and a brief history is shown.. and there is the history gallery of Singapore.. really cool with the portable 'companion' they lend to u listen and watch as u journey through the gallery.. it's enriching.. too enriching for me and dear.. we kinda got brain drained at the end of the walk.. haha... =P

We had ben&jerry's after tat.. nice!! =P walked abit b4 we went to this Russian restaurant at Far East Shopping Centre called Shashlik Restaurant. Er.. i have to said it's really normal.. i thought at first it was fine dining cos of the dress code pasted outside the entrance.. but upon entering.. remind me of a high class kopitiam.. very noisy.. and no offence.. the food was normal.. but it was a one time dining experience.. so it's all good.. the day comes to an end as we strolled down orchard road.. the weekend was great with dear's company.. =)

Sunshine

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 03:00:00 +0000

Sun rays warms upon thy skin..
Soft breeze cools over the meadows..
Happy thoughts floods the mind..
Voices echoes a beautiful melody..

Grins and laughter fills the air..
The wind flows through my hair..
Smiles in my eyes' delight..
Bathed in this heavenly light..

Spontaneous explosion of kisses and hugs..
Makes sweet wishes and heart strings tug..
Hand in hand we skip and play
In this sunshine of happiness of a day..

99 and a half..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 09 Jun 2009 02:33:00 +0000

Soon tmr has come.. 100 days we have been.. small be the number... but a step we have taken.. slow and steady win the race.. or so i hope it will be.. =P

things at work.. life and love is ok... fine.. work sucks.. life is slow... love is building... ha... jux wonders how hard it is to think of wat to do to generate more revenue for myself.. hmm.. =/

i wish i am changing right..

To know..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Thu, 28 May 2009 08:44:00 +0000

To know u love someone..
you decided to give it your all...
even if the fears of the past haunts u..
u dun stop and u dun give up..
even if the resistance u feel inside tat u caged up b4..
break thru the resistance..
release the bonds that bind urself to safety..

this words i tell myself..
so i won't regret in the future...

To Realise...

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 18 May 2009 07:41:00 +0000

To see a clearer picture? or to be contented with the whole picture?
Do you pick the details of an art or enjoy the view of the landscape drawn?
Was it not presented in a proper way? Or nothing is right at the first place?

Another Short Week..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 06:00:00 +0000

Going to be another short week for me... i think it had been 3 weeks in a row when i only spent 4 or less days at work.. lol.. well.. this week is no exception.. it's gonna be a little lonely since my dear is goin to be goin back to her hometown this week.. and my long break from work is startin this fri.. will only be back 1 week later... on the 11th May.. i heard maybe mon is PH o.. so myabe tues then go back work.. hoho.. kinda looking forward to the long break too.. can save money for my up and coming new COMPUTER!! haha.. yeah.. DIY lor.. lala~ April has been fun.. kinda... >.>

Faber Drive - Tongue Tied

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 07:10:00 +0000

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

Time Gone and Past..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Wed, 22 Apr 2009 07:54:00 +0000

How time flies... to have given one's time to another..
To selflessly give.. only to realise it was not seen..
To thought all tat one has missed out with the time has past..
makes one ponder deeply if all is worth the effort..
especially when wat's done is never seen or thanked for..

Ne-yo - Mad

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 06:05:00 +0000

(VERSE 1)
She's starin' at me
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'
Mmmmmm
Nobody's talkin' 'cause talkin' just turns into screamin'
Ohhh
And now is i'm yellin' over her, she's yellin' over me
All that that means
is neither of us is listening
[and what's even worse]
that we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

(HOOK)
Nothin' [fighting for]
Nothin' [crying for]
Nothin' [whooaaa]
But we wont let it go for nothin'
[no not for]
Nothin'
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got
Ohhh baby...

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

(VERSE 2)

And it gets me upset, girl
when your constantly accusing.
[askin' questions like you've already known]
We're fighting this war, baby
when both of us are losing.
[This ain't the way that love is supposed to go].

Whoahhhh.....
[what happened to workin' it out]
We've fall into this place
where you ain't backin' down and i ain't backin' down
so what the hell do we do now...

It's all for..

(HOOK)

(CHORUS)

(BRIDGE)
Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
[perfect, perfect, ohh ohh]
and just how good it's gonna be
we can fuss and we can fightlong as everythings allright between us...
before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes it's gonna rain
but baby, can we make up now
'cause I can't sleep through the pain
[can't sleep through the pain].

(CHORUS)
Girl, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
No, i don't wanna go to bed
[mad at you]
And i don't want you to go to bed
[mad at me]
Ohhh no no no...

I Am The One With The Jacket...

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Tue, 14 Apr 2009 03:22:00 +0000

How it feels to don a jacket in office.. it gives one the sense of a classic look and keeps one warm.. it's makes one look presentable and ready for any last min meetings.. it is jux so handy and goood...

Drained and tired recently.. things done seems to be done bcos it is supposed to be done.. gotta take a step back b4 i choke...

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 13 Apr 2009 02:44:00 +0000

Do know wat to do at the right time is a bliss to have...
Do never doubt the words of another is a trust to have...
Do always make the right decisions and actions is impossible to get...

The weekend + PH was great.. went johor with chia, xiao mei and dear.. had fun doodling ard.. but the food service really needs great improvements.. it was slow.. VERY slow.. and they get the orders wrong.. but it was all good and fun though..

the weekend passed quickly.. another work week begins.. i dunno wat to do...

4 day work week..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Mon, 06 Apr 2009 16:52:00 +0000

This week has only 4 day work week.. hoho.. it is good~ *grins* =P many things to clear but hell i cleared one school assignment.. 1 more to go.. and well.. work is jux nv ending.. shit after shit.. talk abt indigestion... >.>

My life is settling pretty well.. i guess.. i need a new job with more pay.. hur hur.. other than tat i look forward to more savings and time... haha..

Friday is really going to be a good friday... =P

Finally Decided..

noreply@blogger.com (Matzh) — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 06:51:00 +0000

Been so busy this week that i couldn't collect my thoughts properly... have finally decided and concluded that i should find a new job.. re-compiled my resume with chia's help and i have sent out a few resumes to test water first.. heh.. dun care la.. i need more money so i can save more.. rawr! and it's finally friday.. so happy.. gonna watch movie with dearie later~ she already bought the tic yesterday liaoz.. and i still say her lazy dun wan go back office to work.. oops.. =x look forward to the weekends.. but unfortunately... assignments are due... >.> sighz...